☆ kel ☆

[he/they | 18] - #1 nobara fan mainly just journaling, however i will occasionally post fanart of things i'm interested in :D

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GUYSGUYSGUYSGUYSGUYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ‼️⚠️‼️⚠️‼️⚠️⚠️‼️‼️⚠️‼️⚠️‼️‼️

I MADE A NOBARA FANCLUB ^_^

Nobara Kugisaki fanclub • Community on Tumblr

a community dedicated to nobara related posts!

DO YOU LIKE NOBARA?????

YES

I AM NOT ALLOWED TO SAY NO SO ANOTHER YES OPTION

Voting ended onJan 30

THEN YOU SHOULD TOTALLY JOIN!1!1!1!!1!1!!!1!!1!!!1!1!1!1!!1!!

PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS

i have spoken. goodbye

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in situations like this holding a headphone up to your ear and grooving is obviously the most optimal choice

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oml i have been over this feeling for months genuinely why am i like this again 🥀🥀 IT FEELS WRONG TO BE FEELING THIS TOO OUGH

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I WANNA PLUNGE A KNIFE INTO MY THROAT OUGH I THOUGHT I WAS OVER THIS FEELING😭😭😭😭😭😭

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omg why am i suddenly feeling like this again after getting over it fuck offfffffffffffff

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i pretend to not like things i still like from like a couple of years ago because i get embarrassed because the phase was really bad im sorry chat i still like mha tokyo revengers AND yugioh 🥀🥀🥀

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hi i know i keep on using this app for venting but i genuinely feel like shit and if i don't get this out soon i might end up doing something really stupid that i'll probably regret so i've came back because i dont think i should directly say this to anyone and if i dont talk about it i might explode because its making me feel sick 🧍‍♀️ i'll put a cut beneath this

i struggle to word things in person and a lot of the time i sit and text random thoughts because i do not understand socialisation and i don't understand people and i find it upsetting because id love to talk about how i feel to someone in person because it would probably sound a lot more convincing than it does over text and i feel like half of the time no one believes me because i probably act entirely different in person. i am still struggling with how i feel i just struggle to word things and think on the spot with regards to how i should word things

i basically have just felt like the most unlikeable person on earth for several years now and i genuinely want to just kms like i don't even know why i feel like this because i don't really have a bad life in terms of friends and family and my living situation

^ ontop of that i'm convinced everyone hates me and i have really bad issues of getting jealous of people and i have insane fomo to the point where i just like sit and sob for hours because i feel like nobody likes me.

ontop of this everyone always talks about how they have a best friend or even like a main friend. i don't have that and i feel like all of my friends like each other more than they like me which probably isn't true but i pick up on these tiny little things which makes me think it's true which also makes me feel SO selfish for having these sorts of thoughts but like, i can't really help it, ive felt this way for atleast a good 5 years, i've tried seeing through it but nothing has really worked at all. the thoughts just keep on coming back and it makes me feel horrible

and despite all of this i still really love all of my friends and they are my favourite people ever, so ontop of all of that im really scared to lose any of them, i feel like one day they're all just going to leave me because they hate me and ill have no one left but myself

i also don't feel real sometimes and i often talk to myself when i play games and i act like my friends are sitting with me when they're probably doing something much more useful with their time 🧍‍♀️

i feel like i also find way too much comfort in fictional characters which is a stupid thing to be upset about but sometimes when the conversation isn't about something i know about i actually get upset over it 🧍‍♀️ i also get more upset than i probably should when people say they dislike a character that's my favourite because my brain thinks that the character is an actual real person that i can rely on and seek comfort in and view as my actual best friend which is why i love nobara so much because i really love the message she gives out but then i remember that im being stupid and she isn't even real so what's the fycjing point

to sum it up - i feel horrible all of the time and i hate everything :D

accident

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Voting ended onMay 5

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guys im sorry i feel like a lot of work o_o i feel like i need to say how i truly feel but i don't wanna make anyone feel bad and writing it down wont do shit 🥀🥀🥀🥀

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i feel so many like different conflicting things i go from wanting to bawl to wanting to chuck thinvs to thinking everyone would be better off without me i genuinely dont know what im experiencing and i hope it dies

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chat i can actually like feel my heart beating i dont know whats going onnnnn🥲🥲🥲

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i want to be rid of my own brain

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like i keep sayinh these things to make myself feel better about it but i know deep down those things are huge lies and i just dont know how to feel about myself anymore oughhhhh🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀

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i hate it here

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i lowkey feel like the most unlikeable person on earth sometimes like why am i like that

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how i feel on a random saturday

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guys i lowkenuinely want to die OUGH i tried talking about how i felt a little bit earlier and it just made it a bit worse i think💀

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