Hi, you can just call me Cupcake. they/he/xe pronouns.
some of you might recognize me better as 🧁 anon. I wasn't planning to be involved in any of this, but... idk. I actually don't know why I'm doing this. I know it's probably a really bad idea. but hey, I'm already here anyway. might as well make it count. or something.
List of tags:
#cupcake says stuff - tag for my own posts and things I reblog with text
#cupcake responds - questions and stuff like that
#just in case - things I think might be important later, even if I don't know for sure
#cupcake in a situation - for if there's something actively going on
OOC:
This is a roleplay blog for my OC in the Kintsugi Timeline, which is a SFAWTDE/DAWTDE AU.
I (out of character) go by Cyan. Same pronouns as above.
I might not always tag little footnotes and that sort of thing but if I post something or respond to something fully OOC it'll be tagged #cyan speaking
Warnings for unreality, as this is a roleplay blog, and also possible descriptions of various traumatic events/experiences. May update later, depending on what happens. As the story seems to be going in a horror direction, plot relevant gore/violence may sometimes be present/mentioned on this blog, but aside from that I'd like to keep things SFW.
List of other AU blogs:
No magic anons but you can still send stuff "through" the inbox in a "sending virtual hugs/killing you with hammers" sort of way, and I'll respond in-character for that.
@derhutchins333 (d3rlord3)
@averyposting (Avery)
@takeaquillpill (OC: Quinn/Quill)
@fromhalfthemoon2you (OC: Quarter)
@roachinyourhair (OC: Roach)
@pleasethreadlightly (OC: Thread)
@faulty-v3ssel (OC: Dahi)
@99rosesandabellflower (OC: Rosemary)
@demoiselles-falcon (OC: Jean/d'Ys)
@fruity-anons (OCs: Lemon, Apple, and Grape)
@p4inting-ur-he4rt (OC: Miranda)
@crescent-messages (OC: Crescent)
@vixiandreams (OC: Vi)
@totally-normal-human-guy (OC: Gilbert)
@mylovelanguageiscannibalism (OC: Canni)
@elly-made-stuff (OC: Elly)
@robinnnblurb (OC: Robin)
@justlikeasunflower (OC: Aster/Sun)
@searchin4arealitythatdoesntexist (OC: Squig)
@kintsugi-timeline (recap blog)
(sorry if I @'ed anyone who didn't want me to. please let me know if I missed you)
...it's. not like I can talk about this anywhere else. so, fuck it. here goes.
I swear it happened. I could feel the thorns digging into my skin as they dragged me deeper and deeper. I. couldn't see anything past the clovers. I couldn't breathe. it. felt like they went on forever. it. hurt.
I tried to grab ahold of something, anything, to get myself out. and it. meant nothing. everything I tried meant nothing I couldn't save myself I couldn't do anything and I was so fucking scared
I wanted to believe I'd make it, trust that I could, keep going, somehow, but. I couldn't breathe. I. could. see them. I could see that it had happened before. I could see. how. it had happened before. over and over and over again, in slightly different ways, each time. I. felt all of it. and I knew I would be next. strangled by blackberry brambles and poison ivy, suffocating in clovers in my own apartment, alone and in pain and afraid... and no one would know. I would quietly disappear, and that would be the end of it.
and then it just. stopped.
just like that. one minute I was terrified for my life and the next, I was leaning against a wall with nothing in sight but the furniture and the blank space where the clovers were not, taking in breaths that I'd thought moments ago would be my last and. just. trying to process what the hell just happened.
I went to work like any other day. I just wanted to feel normal again. one of my coworkers said I looked like I was going to be sick. I just laughed. I. also kind of shouted at a customer. so hopefully I don't get fired for that. ...haha. maybe that should be the least of my worries right now.
I came back, and it was all the same as when I left.
no clovers. no blackberry brambles. no poison ivy. just an empty apartment. ...my. empty apartment. same as always.
and. I'm still scared.
I don't trust this. there was no reason for any of that to happen, and there was really no reason for me to survive it. I can't understand why it would just... be over, when I'm still here. so, maybe it's not. maybe there's. more. ...guess I should try to prepare for that, probably, if there's. any way I can. but. for. right now. at least. I'm. alive. that's something, I guess.
after. all that. I just want. to run. far away. but. there's. nowhere to run to.
..i know this isn't what you want to hear, but you might want to start worrying.
-Reason
...okay. yeah. I'm. going to be honest with you for a second.
I. started worrying. a while ago. I think it'd be harder for me not to in this situation.
so. what am I even supposed to do at this point?
if you have any better ideas than what I've already tried, I. could really use them. I'm serious, please tell me you have better ideas, I definitely need them right now. they don't even have to be better ideas, actually. I'll take noticeably worse ideas. I'm kind of getting desperate at this point. just. ...something I can work with.
You should know that the earth always makes good on its warnings. And I've given you plenty. Allow me to prove that I'm telling the truth! :)
—The Arborist 🌳
you say that like there was a right way to respond. like there was something I could do that would've saved me from... whatever this is. I know that isn't how these things go. I've seen it happen enough times.
"I'll be fine" is what they all said! Hehe, they're all with me now, their flesh and bones and nerves all . Their memories are all so wonderful to look back on. Taste great too. :))
