HW: 192 CW: 171 GW:170 UGW: 110

male | ftm | ana

[strvyboy]

Dont come on my blog if you are trying to recover. ily. stay safe. nourish yourself. you deserve to be healthy more than anything else <3

[strvyboy]

i want to be smaller so people think im incapable of handling things:/. im rlly mentally fucked up and need some1 to take me seriously:/

[strvyboy]

not eating food because of not being able to afford it is the most triggering thing, honestly. i feel like i could’ve gone years eating comfortably if society didn’t fuck me over like this, again. im disabled, working, and losing my fucking mmind.

[strvyboy]

my mom pointed out that I was skinnier now than I used to be again, I haven’t relapsed in a while but it’s the only thing she’s told me she’s proud of in so long

[strvyboy]

i wish i could follow the drifts everyone else could

flowing south with driftwood

nothings more when i could be elsewhere

i wish you in dungeons no one else would

[strvyboy]

I’m just in the ways that make one afraid of revenge, and evil in the ways that make one afraid of loneliness

[natalieironside]

When I die I'll probably still be penniless and languishing in obscurity, while the people who've hurt me and hurt us still cling to all their money and power and comfort.

But one thing I know is that when the people who've known me remember me, they'll say: "She lived dangerously, loved fiercely, and called no man master." And that? That will be enough.

[fernetforlunch]

Being popular on tumblr is like being popular in the psychiatric

[strvyboy]

once i started feeling followers i definitely felt a mixture of pride and shame

[failed-apple]

me: is shaking cause fasting

also me: energy drink will fix that

*shaking intensities*

me: the risk i took was calculated, i am however bad at math

[deathsponation]

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[strvyboy]

i wish my belt stuck out in a clunky way like it does on skinny guys with no hips

[strvyboy]

list of things besides my ed that make me feel good:

[strvyboy]

this idea of ana- coaching sounds terrifying. what kind of freaks have fun with one-on-one coaching someone into an ED?

[strvyboy]

does anyone hear deal with mania? it always makes me relapse so hard. like i think i’m perfect and beautiful and i don’t need basic things like food. like i can just go on forever without needing anything or anyone. I go from eating normally to literally... nothing... once i’ve been manic for a couple days. And it doesn’t even seem to affect me that bad.

I feel like not eating is going to make me into this beautiful angelic god i’m supposed to be. I’m losing my fucking mind.

[strvyboy]

that bpd moment when you’re like “i’m gonna fast myself until someone notices and will NOT stop until they say something”

[fandomfishbish]

i think ppl with chronic pain should be paid to exist actually

[strvyboy]

i started measuring myself for motivation 😬. Fuck I’m fat, but I want to see more numbers than the scale. It goes down so

fucking

slowly.