by: Emma. [IG: @dvmplx._ ]
Early in the morning, I wake up uneasy,
chest tight, thoughts running, nothing comes easy.
Anxiety slips in, soft but relentless,
a quiet kind of noise that just wonāt rest.
I breathe in slow, counting each beat,
trying to find calm in the noise underneath.
But the memories hit, sharp and exact,
like time never moved⦠like itās all still intact.
Itās been so long⦠or at least it should be,
but the acheās still here, holding on to me.
It hides in the small things, the subtle, the slight,
in everything that once felt right.
I tell myself āhold it,ā keep it together,
like strength alone could make this better.
I clench my fists, steady the shake,
wearing a calm Iām trying to fake.
I donāt wanna fall, I donāt wanna break,
even when itās hard just to stay awake.
Hoping one day this weight will ease,
and my chest can finally breathe.
And even with fear humming under my skin,
Iām still choosing to try, again and again.
āCause even if Iām breaking where no one can see,
Iām still on my feet⦠just barely, but me.