Student of the Universe

A mYstic bitch with a glitch

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Devastating. Task you've put off for months took literally 45 minutes to do

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the person a sleep next to every night doesn’t want me anymore….this is a crazy feeling

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i wanna be friends again.

i’ve had my time to calm down. i just hope you can forgive me now. it will be on your time tho. i’ll just be waiting until then.

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3/21/23 11:07am

me and my husband we’re doing fine. contentment looks good on us

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3/18/23 5:30pm

once again it’s happening, ohhhhhh unnecessary conflict.

when i say i’m good and there’s nothing wrong, believe me like bro most of the time shit be in my head and i deal with it because saying it out loud might make them think i actually believe it. that’s what i keep shit to the chest sometimes you just gotta respect that.

i’ll be the first to say that goes for both of us bc getting upset because we want to deal with stuff on my own is a recipe for disaster it’s makes us want to hold shit in which is also a recipe for disaster. case. and. point.

when i finally told you why my mood changed you blew up on me like i knew you would this morning so no of course i’m not gonna just come out and say it when you ask. just like then you literally forgot we were just bffs 30 sec prior. because i was embarrassed you’re upset because i don’t wanna share that with you

i’m sorry i triggered you, how could i know i’m triggering you with something i don’t even believe. i don’t even believe what you said triggered you

i admit to saying some of the things you said i said, and i wasn’t trying to say that which is why i started over . instead of listening to why what i was feeling had nothing to do with you, you laser focused on a misstep in my pace of telling you something i never fucking planned on telling you, you missed the meat and potatoes of what i was actually trying to fucking say in the first fucking place. god it’s frustrating you should know why i said fuck that shit. why i got mad, why i raised my voice. you’re mad because you think i believe something i misspoke about even after i corrected myself when telling you about the internal mental struggles i have with myself and i’m mad at you for missing the fucking point. we are not on the same page here, we’re not even at the same library.

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3/10/23 5:49pm

could you imagine if i did that? we’d fight for 3 days. luckily for you i choose to move on when someone doesn’t see my side.

ok i tried it, i def don’t do that but now i know how it feels to be you.

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omfgggggg i was in love 2 days ago and now i’m back to my sad girl waze feels good to be b(l)ack

still head over feet in love just sad again

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i just wanna love you and be who i am (you know you love me)

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2:01pm

ugh i hate how ungrateful i sound

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3/8/23 1:39 pm

how are you today? I woke up thinking that things will be better between us and I realize now that things will never be better between us until you’re ready to get over it and who fucking knows how long that’s going to take

i don’t even think you know how long that’s gonna take, I feel like I have made some concerted effort to change for you. Well, I will say that it might not be in the form or fashion that you’re used to and it might not be in the way that you wanted me to change but I definitely feel like I have.

i know i can be a lot sometimes, i’ve known me for a lot longer than you have. i feel like you still don’t know me after all this time we spent together.

i can make compromises but to ask me to change who i am so you can stop feeling like you’re too sensitive is a lot. and asking me not to be “mean” while being mean doesn’t work.

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3.7.23 11:27pm: time to get high and pretend like everything’s fine

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one someone will find my tumblr diary and realize i don’t be thinking about shit

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