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A femme should never have to squeeze her own boobs. Thats a butch’s job.
You snooze, you lose
Streamer!ellie x fem!reader Moder AU Word count: 2.3k
Summery: Your girlfriend Ellie, who is a famous streamer on twitch never told her devoted yet nosy fans about you. You never minded, in fact, you told her you'd rather keep yourself private. So she did, until she slips up on stream while her fans question her about why her set is so clean.
cw: SMUT subtop!ellie, bottom!reader, oral sex (r!receiving), fingering (r!receiving), Ellie whines a lot, usage of y/n, gf!ellie, Ellie is supa horny and touchy, stream chat, streamer!ellie, Ellie is awkward towards her viewrs, Ellie's viewers lowkey hate her, LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYTHING!
A/N: I’m genuinely so scared to post this cuz I feel like my writing sucks now!! I haven’t posted a fic in over a fucking month. Writers block and life has been kicking my ass. But anyways, whoever reads this.. thank you for not giving up on me 😭😭 ily all 🩷🩷
Ellie wraps her arms around your waist, kissing your neck while staring at you playing Tomodachi life.
“Damn.. you’ve had it for a week and you’re already at level 79?” She asks. You nod and lean into her touch.
“Mhm.. thank you for buying it..” you whisper. Ellie chuckles lowly and kisses your lips. You close your eyes, putting the switch down and lean into the kiss. When you pull away Ellie pouts, you lift your hand to her cheek and caress it softly.
“Don’t you have a stream soon?” you ask. Ellie nods, closing her eyes and tilting her head into your hand.
“Mhm.. you should come on with me today..” She whispers, leaning closer to you and nuzzling her face into your neck. You chuckle and rub her back,
“Mm.. no.. your fans are insane..” You say, half joking. Ellie groans and gets up, stretching her arms out.
“Can we cuddle after stream?” she asks. You nod and laugh,
“Nope.. we can cuddle when you eat after stream. I’m cooking tonight.” you tell her. Ellie internally cheers and kisses your lips,
“I love you baby.. Thank you..” She walks off into her stream room and you head to the kitchen. You start cooking and hear Ellie’s loud greeting to her stream.
“Alright guys.. You guys have been submitting shit to my tumblr so.. Let’s check it I guess…” She opens her phone as the chat spams random things,
tiddylicker12: did u just wake up happyeatmy1arse: BRO LOOK WHAT I SENT ELLIE fart_master: her room looks cleaner wtf natesonadate9: (replying to fart_master): omg yeah why bartsimpson8275: Guys ellie’s clean she just gets quirky sometimes
Ellie squints her eyes at the chat and rolls them after reading,
“You guys hate me..” She says turning her attention back to her phone. “Okay.. first one..” She taps on a random ask and starts reading it out loud,
“do you live alone? Wait don’t answer that i know you do” Ellie looks offended after reading the ask and turns to her chat,
“Wow.. How could you assume that??” She asks.
elliesbootylicker: cuz ur rooms usually a mess lilyonapetal50_: lmao yall hate her 67eaterieat67: her rooms not a mess tdy tho
Ellie sneers at one of the usernames,
“The fuck is that name.. Mods, mute elliesbootylicker for 5 minutes” The chat bursts into madness. And she laughs,
“I hope you guys know I don’t sleep in here.. it’s only messy cuz this is my gaming room.” she mumbles. She’s about to tap on another ask but instead turns her head up to the camera,
“Also my girlfriend cleaned it..” At first, Ellie doesn’t realize that she wasn’t supposed to say that. So she continues,
“Do you have any pets?” Ellie pauses,
“I have a cat.. her name is titty..” Ellie chuckles to herself and then looks at chat.
natesonadate9: GIRLFRIEND??? happyeatmy1arse: bru who’s standards are that low fart_master: HELLO?? DID SHE JUST SAY THAT kitty3_kate: CAN WE SEE HER greenyuriiiiii1: butchfemme?? 😍😍
Ellie groans,
“Fuck.. uhh my girlfriend doesn’t really like being on stream..” Ellie says. The chat starts blowing up yet again, saying that Ellie is lying about having a girlfriend. Which gets her upset.
“You guys are haters.. I’m calling her over.” Ellie stands up and leaves the room. Ellie smiles as she sees you cooking, she wraps her arms around your waist from behind, kissing your neck gently.
“Hi baby..” She whispers. You smile and lean into her touch.
“Hi.. how’s stream?” you ask. Ellie nervously laughs,
“About that.. I brought you up and my chat wants to meet you..” You sigh and turn around with a frown on your face.
“Els..” Ellie gently grabs your face, softly stroking your cheeks with her thumbs.
“You don’t have to.. it’s fine.. they just don’t believe I have a girlfriend..” She laughs at that. For a second you’re about to nod and continue cooking. But the look on Ellie’s face is physically impossible to say no to.
“No.. I’ll go on.. cmon..” You wrap your arm under hers and start walking towards her room. Ellie looks shocked and she kisses your cheek hard.
“Thank you.. I love you baby..” She whispers. She gets in front of the camera, quickly telling you to stay out of frame so she can introduce you. Ellie rubs her hands together,
“Okay guys! My girlfriend is right here.. So her name is y/n.. She’s very cutesy and pretty and beautiful and kind and-”
“Els..” You chuckle, blushing hard. The chat goes crazy when they hear your voice,
elliesbootylicker: HOLY SHIT SHE EXISTS 67eaterieat67: I thought she was lying tbh natesonadate9: (replying to elliesbootylicker): ur gonna get banned again elliesrealgf: uh yeah thats totally me in the background
Ellie sits down on her chair and gently pulls you into the camera. You wave at the camera and stare at the chat that's currently blowing up.
“Isn’t she gorgeous?” Ellie asks. Attempting to pull you on her lap.
tiddylicker12: cut the gay shit. itsmeemily61_: guys obviously that’s not her gf look how uncomfy she is.. _hxneyclvdii_: (replying to itsmeemily61_): least obvious coping mechanism 🤣
You squint at the camera, taking a seat on Ellie’s lap.
“Huh? No.. I’m not uncomfortable, I love Els..” you chuckle and kiss her cheek. Ellie’s face turns red and she leans into you.
“Guys.. you heard that? She loves me..” she turns towards you and smiles.
“You look pretty..” She whispers. You giggle and stand up,
“Lemme keep cooking, okay baby?” Ellie pouts and grabs your waist, burying her face in your stomach. You guys are out of frame, the only thing the audience could see is the back of Ellie’s head. You gently stroke her hair as she whines,
“You can’t stay a little longer?” She asks. You shake your head,
“Nope.. but we can cuddle while we eat dinner?” you suggest. Ellie nods vigorously, she lifts your shirt up to kiss your hips. You laugh, pushing her face away.
“Okay.. okay.. I love you Els..” You whisper, leaving her room. Ellie lays back on her gaming chair, cheesing about that moment on stream. Then she sits up,
“Do you guys like her?” she asks the chat.
cheesrat_eater40: yeah lowkey bring her back we like her better than u greenyuriiiiii1: oh my god they’re so butchfemme, green Yuri, stonetop x pillow princess, loser x pretty cutey girl fart_master: omg Ellie is down bad tfff
“Did you just call me a loser? Okay whatever I’m turning on.. a game I don’t fuckin’ know..” Ellie scrambles to find a game, eventually finding one and playing it as the chat drifts off from the topic of you. Around 30 minutes into the game, Ellie gets a text from you telling her that dinners ready. She’s all smiles as she says goodbye to chat, logging off of stream and rushing out of her room. She walks past her plate of food on the table and goes straight to you, wrapping her arms around your waist. She starts kissing your neck gently.
“My viewers love you..” she whispers. You chuckle,
“Els, what’s with you today..?” you ask, referring to how needy she’s being.
“I can’t show my precious queen some love?” she asks. You turn around and press your lips against hers, reaching your hand up to her cheek.
“Let’s eat..” you whisper. Ellie nods, basically melting from your touch. The entire dinner, Ellie’s staring at you like a piece of cake. She’s eating, but looks starving for something other than food.
“You’re eating awfully fast.. is the food good baby?” You ask Ellie. She nods standing up, walking to the sink to watch her dish. You chuckle, taking the last few bites of your food. As you’re putting your plate in the sink, Ellie pulls you into her.
“You said we could cuddle after we eat..” She mumbles, nuzzling her face into your neck. You stroke her hair and nod,
“Yeah.. come on..” Ellie scoops you up in her arms. You wrap your arms around her shoulders and bury your face into her chest.
“You’re so clingy today..” the quiet whisper lingers in the air. You can feel Ellie’s need in the way she grips your thighs.
“Something you wanna ask me baby?” you ask Ellie as she drops you on the bed. She stands over you, staring like you’re a painting at the Louvre. Her hands rest at the hem of your shirt.
“Can I..?” She asks, more like begs. You nod, and within a second. Your shirt is on the floor, Ellie’s mouth is trailing from your neck, to your shoulders, to your collarbones. Pawing at the strap of your bra. You reach back, Unclipping it. Ellie groans, her hands rub up and down your thighs as she lifts her lips up to yours.
“You’re so beautiful..” She mumbles, muffled by a kiss. Ellie’s hands start fiddling with the button on your jean shorts. You lift your hips as she pulls them down your legs. She snaps the hem of your panties,
“My favorite..” you roll your eyes and chuckle, wrapping your arms around her neck.
“Pervert..” Ellie shoots back and gasps jokingly.
“How could you?? I’m just admiring my beautiful queen..” She feigns offence, holding her hand over her heart. She leans down and starts to kiss your neck. Softly humming as her hand rubs further down your thigh. Your hand lifts to her hair,
“I thought we were cuddling..” You whisper. Ellie’s free hand pulls you closer as she kneels down, trailing her lips down to your stomach. You watch Ellie, her eyes are closed and she’s so lost in the scent of you that it seems like she’s under a trance. You stroke her hair,
“Baby..” Ellie’s lips reach your thighs, she gently pushes them apart. The pool between your thighs is now exposed to Ellie. You can see the need in her eyes as she pulls your panties to the side.
“Fuck.. you’re so wet..” She kisses your inner thigh, seemingly teasing you.
“Els please..” You whine. Ellie looks up at you, she looks like a puppy who just got in trouble for eating something it wasn’t supposed to. It only makes you needier.
“Don’t tease me baby..” You mumble. Ellie nods, her fingers run down your folds, collecting the wetness on her fingers. Your head falls back, and just as you’re attempting to catch your breath. Her mouth is on your needy cunt. You moan loudly, her tongue lapping vigorously.
“Mm.. you taste so good..” She mumbles, her voice muffled. Her hand is tightly wrapped around your thigh, pulling you closer as you shiver from her touch.
“Ah.. ah-“ You slap your hand over your mouth, not wanting to be too loud. Ellie giggles, slipping a finger in with no warning. You roll your hips, chasing the friction of her touch. Her tongue continues to lap at your aching pussy as her finger slowly thrusts into you. Your whines suggest that you need more, she smirks.
“You said I was clingy? Look at you baby..” She teases. Her thumb circles your clit, you look down at her. Mouth wet by your juices. Your hand reaches down, wiping her mouth gently. She adds another finger, your eyes squeeze shut and your mouth hangs open.
“F-Fuck.. Els..” Ellie smiles, kissing your stomach as her fingers gently rub your walls. She feels you tighten around her fingers.
“Mm.. fuck you’re so gorgeous..” you plop down on the bed, whining as you feel yourself get closer.
“I’m gonna cum..” You moan. Ellie nods, sitting up to kiss your lips. Her fingers going faster. Your hips stutter,
“Ellie..” Your mouth hangs open as you whimper loudly. Ellie’s lips are on your neck. She whispers softly,
“Come on baby.. cum for me..” her fingers push deeper into you and she gently circles your clit with her thumb.
“You’re doing so fucking good for me baby.. so good..” her praises make you shiver. Your eyes roll to the back of your head,
“Mmph.. fuck..” Ellie kisses your lips,
“Cum right here on my fingers baby..” she basically moans at the sight of you. You finally reach your climax, relaxing your body on the bed as Ellie climbs closer to you. She lifts her fingers to your mouth.
“Open baby..” She softly commands. You oblige and wrap your lips around her fingers, tasting yourself. A sigh of relief leaves your lips as you bury your face into Ellie’s neck.
“Your fans should know how much of a perv you are..” You joke. Ellie smiles, stroking your hair comfortingly.
“Mm.. should they? They didn’t know I had a gorgeous fairytale like girlfriend..” you smile and move away to look Ellie in the eyes.
“Ellie.. I love you..” You mutter under your breath. She tilts her head, leaning closer to place a gentle kiss on your lips.
“I love you more..” When Ellie pulls away you sit up.
“I’m gonna shower..” Ellie whines and grabs your hand.
“Lemme come with you..” She says, using those puppy dog eyes on you again. You shake your head,
“Nope..”
“Why??” Ellie giggles and pulls you into a hug.
“Cause we’re just gonna have sex again..” you smirk.
“But babyy.. there’s a water drought.. we have to shower together.” you giggle and push her away by her forehead.
“M’Kay.. I love you baby.. see you in like 20 minutes..” you tell her. Ellie whines,
“That’s too longgg..”
“Then go on stream or something!” Ellie scoffs and stands up, stretching her arms.
“Do you think they make me as happy as you do??” She yells, knowing you’re probably in the bathroom already.
“No! I just know they’re good at humbling you!” She hears your devilish giggle get drowned out by the shower. Ellie sighs and walks to the kitchen.
“That was mean.” she whispers to herself, with a soft smile on her face.
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Your roommate is hot..
Quiet!ellie x fem!reader Modern AU. Word Count: 4.7k
Summery: Your best friend, Jennie. Has been complaining about her roommate Ellie, for awhile now. When she asks you to come with her as moral support to confront her, you accept. Not knowing that Ellie Williams, wouldn't be half the girl you expected her to be.
cw: SMUT spicy makeout, Jennie is literally insane, mentions of alcohol and weed, Ellie's an absolute smokeshow, strap usage (r!receiving), bottom!reader, subtop!ellie, usage of y/n and y/n/n (your nickname), cursing, thigh riding (r), Ellie sings for you (again), reader cries cuz of Ellie, mention of death, LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYTHING!
A/N: Writers block almost got to me! But not todayyyyy!!! Also, 128 followers?? You guys are insane! Please don't be scared to interact with me more, I would love it if you guys asked more questions or even asked for some advice! Anyways, thank you for all the love! <3
“I just can’t stand her y/n!” Jennie whines. You snap out of your own head and turn to Jennie, who has been complaining about her new roommate for an hour. Apparently her roommate, Ellie Williams. Has been nonstop playing guitar and smoking weed. You didn't understand why she was upset about the weed part since she smokes all the time. Until she explained that their whole apartment smells like weed everyday.
“Maybe she’s depressed?” You suggest. Jennie chuckles,
“Being a psychology student is getting to you y/n..” She jokes. You laugh and grab a teapot to boil some tea.
“Look, just talk to her.. tell her to tone down the weed or something..” Jennie takes a deep breath,
“Yeah.. maybe.. Y/n can you come over while I talk to her?” She asks. You grab some tea backs and place them into mugs before looking back at Jennie, sitting on your couch and taking out a blunt to smoke. You chuckle,
“Don’t turn into Ellie now..” You tease. Jennie laughs really hard.
“Shut up.. yes or no?” You sigh and pour the boiling water into each mug.
“Fine.. when are you gonna talk to her..” You walk over to the couch and hand her the mug, taking the blunt out of her hand and lifting it to your lips to take a drag. She rolls her eyes at your theft of her blunt but then sighs,
“Probably tomorrow..” Your shock comes in a chain of coughs following the drag. When you catch your breath and regain composure you aggressively hand the blunt back to Jennie.
“Seriously?? You’re such a bitch Jen..” She lays back as you yell and takes a long drag. Blowing it out while looking at the ceiling.
“So is she.. you’ll be there, right? 3 pm?” You sigh and chuckle.
“I wouldn’t miss it for the world..” You lift your cup up as if making a toast. That night after getting high with Jennie and watching bottoms. You lay in bed, thinking about tomorrow and how awkward it’ll be sitting on Jennie’s couch hearing her confront Ellie. The next day you get up at 8 am, earlier than usual on a day that you don’t have work. But who cares. You’ve never seen Ellie before and you’re a little excited to see what she looks like. A stoner who plays non-stop guitar? She’s either really ugly or really hot. That all depends on what kind of guitar she plays, which you completely forgot to ask Jennie. You silently hope it’s acoustic, acoustic is hot. You get a text from your friend Kira asking you if you want to go out later. She says the plans are for 5. Yeah, it’s not gonna take 2 hours for Jennie to confront Ellie. When the clock hits 2, you start getting ready. You’re probably gonna go from Jennie’s place to Kira’s just in case it takes a little more than an hour. You make yourself look all nice and text Jennie at 2:50 telling her that you’re on the way. When you arrive your uninterest in this is palpable. You expect Jennie to answer the door, but instead.
“Oh.. hi?” Ellie looks confused, almost as uninterested as you were. Now your eyes are extremely wide, face red. She’s 10x hotter than you expected her to be. Her eyebags make her look so attractive while also giving you the message that she hates life. She has freckles spreading throughout every inch of her face, and it’s gorgeous. Her green eyes look you up and down. And her hair?? Don’t even start. Her auburn hair that’s half up half down and frames her face perfectly.. God. What do you even say? Your eyes wander to her arm, a nice tattoo that fills up the entirety of her forearm. And her hands?? God she’s so fucking hot! And exactly your type! Jennie definitely knows this.
“Hey? Are you.. okay?” You can’t tell if she’s annoyed or genuinely worried. You almost don’t answer because of how attractive her voice is to you. But you gain composure over yourself and nod,
“Y-Yeah.. sorry I just.. I was expecting.. Jennie..” Your voice is a little shaky. God, you’re embarrassing yourself so bad right now. Ellie nods,
“Oh.. okay.. yeah she’s in the shower.. are you um.. y/n?” She asks. You almost choke on air. How does she know you?? Does Jennie interact with her?? You just nod. Ellie seems awkward, to say the least. Ellie lets you inside and you sit on the couch. And yeah, it smells like someone smoked a mega joint in the apartment. You look at Ellie,
“Wow you uh.. smoke a lot..” You remark. Ellie looks down at the joint in her hand. She hesitates,
“Oh.. should I put it out?” She asks. Her voice a little softer than before. You shake your head and chuckle,
“No no.. it's just.. no offense but it reeks of weed in here.. how much do you smoke?” It comes off as making fun of her, but you’re genuinely curious. Ellie shrugs and puts it out anyway.
“I guess a lot.. but-“ Ellie’s cut off by Jennie who walks in asking if you’re here. She squeals when she sees you.
“Ahh! y/n/n!! You should’ve come in the shower with me!! I always need an excuse to see you naked!” She winks. You roll your eyes,
“Yeah right.. over my dead body..” You hug her and push her away after she starts kissing your head. You look her up and down,
“Are you drunk?” you ask her. Jennie giggles and shrugs. You groan,
“I thought you were gonna talk to Ellie..” You remind Jennie. She perks up, then starts cackling.
“Ohh!! Shit! I forgot about that..” Jennie sits down next to you and motions to Ellie for her to sit on the chair across from the both of you. Jennie sighs,
“Okay Els..” You look at Jennie like she’s crazy.
“You have a nickname for her?” You ask. Finally, Ellie speaks up. It’s nice to hear her voice, it’s hot.
“Nope.. she just calls me that when she isn’t sober..” you sigh and shake your head.
“Sounds like her..” Jennie giggles.
“Oo! You guys get along sooo well! You guys should fuck.. can I watch?” Your face turns red. You choke on air, yet again.
“Jennie..! God, why are you such a pervert when you’re drunk?? Or high.. whatever get on with it..” You sigh and pinch the temple of your nose. Jennie points at your response, then she sighs.
“Okay.. well Els.. you smoke like.. a lot.. our apartment reeks of weed and I probably do too! Also your guitar is too loud.. and you play it almost everyday.. Y/n here said you’re probably depressed.. so I don’t blame you.. but I’m tired okay?” In the midst of Jennie’s whining, you notice Ellie staring at you. And every time you guys made eye contact, she looked at Jennie. Acting like that’s what she was paying attention to the entire time. Ellie sighs,
“Sorry Jennie.. I’ll like.. go outside?” You laugh at her response. They both look at you.
“Oh.. shit sorry.. just keep going.” You wave your hand at them in dismissal. Jennie giggles,
“Well that’s all I have to say.. thank you for understanding Elssss..” She drags on the nickname. Ellie nods and stands up.
“M’kay.. bye..” She stands up, giving one last glance at you before walking to her room. You look at Jennie.
“That went great.. Well, I have to go out.. I promised Kira..” Jennie smiles at you,
“Have fun, y/n/n..” You smile and stand up,
“Thanks.. can I come over after work next Wednesday?” you ask. Jennie nods. You sigh and grab your purse,
“Alright well.. try not to drink anymore.. you might.. I dunno die.. see you tomorrow.” During your night with Kira at the club, you thought of Ellie the entire time. The way she kept staring at you. The way her hands held the doorway. The way she looked you up and down. The way her green eyes contrasted with her auburn hair. The way she just existed. She was so.. attractive. Not even just looks. The way she spoke felt like a spell being put on your soul. When you get home that night you have a burning urge to text Jennie and ask about Ellie. But you don’t, in fear of embarrassment. You decide to just go to bed.
Ellie’s hesitant when she sees Jennie in the kitchen. On the phone with her sister and complaining about a headache she got from drinking so much. Ellie stands in the doorway from the hallway to the living room, watching as Jennie grabs a glass of water and aspirin. She decides to just do it, to not be embarrassed. Seemed like perfect timing when she hung up the phone. Ellie walks up to her and mumbles.
“Hi.. Jennie..” Jennie looks up at her and smiles,
“Hey Ellie.. what’s up?” She asks. Ellie sighs, a little nervous as to ask ‘hey is that friend you brought over today and who thinks I’m depressed, single?’. It sounds way worse when she goes over it inside her own mind, but who cares. Ellie will probably be dead in a few years anyway from lung cancer.
“Um.. your friend y/n.. is she um.. like, into women?” Yes, why of course Ellie. Ask if she’s into women instead of single. Jennie raises an eyebrow, then gasps.
“No.. are you into her? She did look hot today right?” Jennie asks. Ellie face turns red and she sighs,
“Nevermind.. sorry that was Stu-“
“She’d definitely be into you.. I mean.. you're totally her type..” Ellie pauses completely. But Jennie keeps going,
“And if it’ll get you out of the apartment more.. maybe less sad girl abusing her guitar strings everynight, yeah.. go for her.. she’s only into women.. and she’s single.” Ellie’s heart starts racing. She feels embarrassed.. but also really really excited.
Despite never having to look good for Jennie. You get dressed up to go to her house. You don’t want to look all bummy in front of Ellie. Ugh, you sound desperate.. and stupid. You arrive at Jennie's house 10 minutes early. Completely on accident. Just your luck, Ellie answers. This time she smiles,
“Oh.. hey.. it’s you again.” Her soft tone makes your heart beat a little faster. You chuckle awkwardly and tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.
“Yup.. just wanted to hang out with Jen.. I hope I’m not taking up your space..” Ellie shakes her head and laughs,
“No.. no you’re one of the nicer people Jen has brought over.” You laugh with Ellie as she lets you inside. It doesn’t reek of weed at all. Actually, it smells like Indian food.
“No way.. did Hannah come over again?” you ask Ellie. She pauses, as if she’s thinking.
“Oh.. Jennie’s sister? No, Jennie said you love it when her sister cooks Indian so she got some recipes and.. yeah..” Ellie chuckles. You squeal and take your shoes off.
“Oh my god! I could marry her right now.. I love Indian food..” Ellie laughs and nods,
“Yeah.. it’s uh.. really good..” Ellie walks over to the couch and sits down. You sit down next to her.
“You’ve been smoking outside more often?” You ask. Ellie looks at you and her expression is a little hard to read. A mix of shyness and embarrassment.
“I guess.. but ive also been smoking less.. like, I haven’t smoked a blunt in two days..” She chuckles. You gasp,
“No! How are you alive right now??” You joke. Ellie rolls her eyes, but she can’t help laughing at your dumb joke.
“Jennie never really minded the smell of weed.. but I guess it became a lot when you practically got boxed your entire apartment everyday..” You joke. Ellie nods,
“Yeah.. it was.. it’s a mix of things. Mental stuff..” You nod and lean back on the couch.
“I get that.. dark times call for dark measures am I right?” Ellie looks at you. It feels endless. It feels like she’s reading your soul with her gaze. She’s not smiling. But she doesn’t seem upset. She seems interested, amazed, she’s so hard to read. It’s so annoying. Then she sits up,
“Yeah… I um.. I’m gonna take a walk actually.” Her shaky tone makes you feel like you said something wrong. Before you can make her come back, she’s out the door. Then Jennie comes through the doorway. She giggles,
“You guys suck.. at flirting.. or whatever that was..” you look at Jennie like she’s insane.
“What..? No- we were talking- whatever.. the food smells good Jen..” Jennie chuckles and sighs.
“She’s into you..” She remarks. You roll your eyes,
“Yeah? Did she tell you.. or is it just your usual antics..” your mocking tone is cut off by Jennie’s next words,
“Actually yeah.. the night you came over, she asked me if you were into women..” Your breath catches in your throat. You shake your head and chuckle,
“I don’t believe you Jen..” You mumble to yourself. Jennie sits next to you,
“She’s your type right?” She asks. Wrapping her arm around your shoulders. You sigh,
“I mean.. yeah I.. Jen, is she actually Indian?” you ask her, your voice sounding a little irritated. Jennie sighs,
“Yes.. someone who’s interested wouldn’t be eye-fucking you every second..” You blush and roll your eyes. Jennie laughs,
“No seriously.. We were talking the other day and she was telling me how she barely paid attention to my complaints ‘cause she was just checking you out the entire time..” You start laughing as well.
“God.. when she answered the door that day.. I swear I was instantly wet.. you never told me she was hot as shit..” Jennie cackles,
“I know! I kinda wanted to surprise you.. I knew she was your type the second I met her..” You sigh and stand up,
“Well I wanna eat..” While you and Jennie eat, she tells you about how Ellie kept asking every detail about your life. She asked so much that Jennie eventually gave her your number. But she never texted you. Eventually Ellie comes back from her walk. At that point, you had showered and changed into this oversized shirt Jennie gave you since you decided to sleepover.
“Hi Els..-“ You pause, her expression changes from calm to ‘holy shit did she really just say that?’ You start to panic a bit.
“Oh.. sorry I didn’t mean to call you that..” You quickly mumble. Ellie shakes her head,
“No.. no it’s fine.. um.. you look nice..” You look down at yourself. You forgot you don’t have any pants on. She probably thinks you’re wearing extremely short shorts but you have nothing but a bra and panties on. You smile,
“Thanks.. you too..” Ellie cracks a smile and waves at Jennie before walking away. When the interaction is over, Jennie looks at you with a knowing smile.
“Her voice has never been that soft..” she remarks. You roll your eyes. Not knowing what to do, you and Jennie put on a movie to watch. But in the middle of it, she falls asleep. After a while of being bored watching a dumb, cliche movie without any of Jennie’s weird commentary. You hear the faint sound of guitar coming from Ellie’s room. You stand up and walk over to her door, gently pressing your ear against it. Eventually knocking on the door. It doesn’t take long before Ellie answers. She looks surprised at you being the one at the door. But she smiles anyway,
“Oh.. hi.. is the guitar too loud?” She asks. You shake your head,
“No.. I just.. it sounded nice, I wanted to hear you play..” You mutter, a little embarrassed. Ellie looks surprised, but she opens her door a little wider and steps to the side.
“Oh.. here.. come in.” You walk in her room, it’s messy. Not disgustingly messy.. More like.. I forgot to fold my bed and put my clothes in the hamper, messy. You see the guitar on her bed and smile, acoustic. Of course it’s loud. She can’t change that. Ellie sits on her bed, but you don’t. You used to hate when people would go in your room and sit straight on your bed. So you wait just in case she feels that way too. Ellie looks up at you,
“You can.. Sit down..” She mumbles, sounding a little nervous. You sit on her bed. Ellie looks at you and then back down at her guitar.
“Do you um.. Do you like any specific songs?” She asks nervously. You pause and think for a minute, then you gasp. Which makes her flinch,
“Can you play ‘Lover, you should've come over’???” Ellie looks surprised,
“You like that song?” She asks. You nod,
“I love that song!!” Ellie chuckles and shifts her guitar.
“Well.. okay yeah sure..” She starts playing the beginning of the song. You stare at the guitar for a bit. But eventually, your eyes wander up to her face. The way she focuses on her fingers at certain parts. Then, she looks at you. Looking back down at the guitar as she starts singing. You’re surprised. You thought she’d just play it. But it’s calming, it’s nice. At one point, you start crying. Not loud, just tearing up. When Ellie finishes the song she just sits there for a minute. Then she looks up at you, seeing you wipe tears out of your eyes. She looks concerned,
“Oh.. Shit sorry I didn’t mean to-” You start laughing at her panic.
“No no.. that song just makes me emotional..” Ellie smiles at you and sits her chin on the body of the guitar.
“Me too.. I used to cry every time I sang it..” She mumbles. Now you look concerned, and sympathetic.
“Really? Why?” You ask. Ellie hesitates for a moment, almost as if she has regret for saying that. But eventually, she speaks.
“My uh.. My dad Joel, he died.. A couple of years ago, when I was 19.. I listened and learned that song out of grief.. And at first it made me so angry. I thought the notes were hard, and I genuinely believed the song killed him..” She chuckles, but you can tell she's hurting.
“Um.. the song makes me happy now.. it reminds me of him..” She mumbles. You can’t help but hug her after this. You pull her into a long, tight hug.
“I’m sorry.. that happened..” you whisper. Ellie’s breathless. You’re hugging her so so tight. Ellie just hugs you back softly.
“It’s.. okay..” she mumbles, leaning into you a little more. When you pull away. Your faces are really close. Your hand lifts up to her cheek,
“You’re strong..” you whisper to her. Without warning, Ellie leans closer and kisses your lips. You freeze. Your eyes are open and looking at Ellie. Then you relax into the kiss. Just when you think it’ll go any further, Ellie pulls away.
“S-Sorry.. I..” She looks embarrassed. She moves her guitar off of her lap and starts to stand up. But you grab her hand.
“Wait.. I um.. I wanted you to kiss me..” you admit quickly. You meant to say, ‘it’s okay’. But now you sound like a desperate loser. Ellie looks like a shy puppy. It’s cute. She gently grabs your hand.
“Can we.. Can we hang out sometime?” She asks shyly. You nod,
“Yeah.. how about Thursday? My place..” You suggest. Ellie nods, like she’s desperate for any day to see you.
“Yeah.. yeah sure..” She lets your hand go. You sigh and get up.
“It’s late.. I should probably get to bed..” You mutter quietly with a smile. Ellie toys with her fingers awkwardly and nods.
“Yeah.. okay um.. I’ll see you Thursday.” You smile.
“Yeah.. I’m excited..” You walk out of her room and into Jennie’s room. Expecting her to still be in the living room sleeping. Instead she’s in her room. Sitting at her vanity facing the door as if she’s your mother who just caught you sneaking back in from a party.
“How romantic..” She mumbles. You groan and roll your eyes, walking to the bed and letting your body fall.
“I heard the little talk.. she’s never told me that..” Jennie tells you. You try to hold your smile back. Feeling all giddy about the song and the kiss.
“She kissed me..” You mutter, holding your excitement back. You feel like a lovesick highschooler all over again. Jennie gasps and squeals,
“Oh my god!!” She hugs you. You chuckle and hug her back,
“Just a small one though.. and she asked to hang out.. so she’s coming over to my house.. Thursday..” Jennie seems more expected than you do. The sleepover goes fine. Jennie gives you a bunch of bullshit advice about sex, as if you haven’t had it before. Which you have. Then you guys fell asleep. The next morning, you didn’t stay around for anyone to wake up. You had work anyway. The entire week you were super excited for Thursday. Everyone at the cafe commented about how happy you seemed that week. They even made dumbass inside jokes about it. Not only that, but you and Ellie had been texting non-stop. Talking about everything you would send her pictures of the cafe and she would send you pictures of the cars she worked on. Sometimes videos of her playing guitar. Which, you hate to admit it but you watched them fully only to look at her fingers. Finally Thursday comes around, you make yourself look all cute and pretty. You clean your apartment up and finally. After a long 3 hours of getting everything together. Ellie arrives at your house. You had cooked Spanish food as well, hoping she likes it. You open the door,
“Hi!” You hug her. She looks good. She’s wearing a blue and white flannel with jeans. Her hair is tied up in a bun. When Ellie wraps her arms around you, reciprocating the hug. You lean up and kiss her cheek. Quickly pulling away after and leading her towards the table.
“M’kay, so I cooked.. I hope you like it..” You show her the food and she smiles.
“Ugh.. I love Spanish food..” She tells you. You let out a sigh of relief.
“Thank goodness.. if you didn’t I would’ve cooked a whole other meal for you..” You tell her. Ellie chuckles and shakes her head as she starts eating,
“I wouldn’t have let you..” She mumbles, the food muffling her voice. You sit down next to her and look her right in the eyes,
“Yeah? And how would you have stopped me?” Your voice is teasing. You silently hope your attempts at flirting are working. Ellie pauses and looks at the ceiling. Then back down at you,
“Mm.. I could’ve like.. hugged you tight so you couldn’t move away.” You giggle and bury your face into your arms. Ellie’s hand grabs your arm and shake it,
“What?? It would’ve worked right?” She’s giggling as well. You shake your head,
“You’re so stupid..” You mumble. When Ellie’s done eating, you lead her to your room. Just because you want to show her how cute it is.
“Wow.. very clean..” She mumbles. You roll your eyes and pull her to sit on the bed with you.
“Of course it is..” You tell her. You lay down and look at Ellie.
“Remember the day we met?” You ask her. Ellie nods and lays next to you.
“Mhm.. what about it?” She asks. You turn your body towards her and your hand gently rubs her arm.
“I was so quiet because I didn’t expect you to be so.. hot..” You giggle and so does Ellie.
“Really?” You nod right away.
“Mhm.. and I.. I was staring at you most of the time when Jennie was confronting you..” Ellie breathes out, she’s shocked.
“Me too..” She admits. You guys giggle together. Then you realize, your faces are extremely close.
“..Ellie..” You whisper. Ellie just looks into your eyes.
“Yeah?” Your arms slip around her neck. Then you start to lean in.
“Can I?” you ask. Ellie just nods. You kiss her lips. It starts off slow and sweet. Her hand lifts up to your waist. You pull away to catch your breath, but the second you see Ellie’s face again you pull her back in. That’s when the kiss deepens. Her tongue slips into your mouth and she shifts her body to hover over you. Her hands slipping under your shirt to trace small patterns on your waist with her thumb. Your hands brush through her hair. Ellie hums into your mouth as you pull her closer. Then her knee presses up against your core. You let out a soft moan that’s muffled by her lips. You pull away from the kiss. Sitting up and pushing Ellie to sit down. You crawl onto her lap and start kissing her again. Your lips move against each other and you let out a soft whine when feeling her tongue fill your mouth. You start to rock your hips against her thighs. Soft muffled whimpers and moans filling the room. You feel wetness rush in between your thighs as you continue to rub your needy cunt against Ellie’s leg. Ellie notices this.
“Y/n.. you’re-“ You nuzzle into her neck,
“Shit.. Els you’re so-“ You moan feeling your pleasure spike as she bounces her thigh. Ellie leans in and whispers in your ear,
“Can I fuck you, y/n?” She asks softly. You just nod. Ellie stands up and tells you to stay there. Ellie comes back with a strap in her hand. She takes her flannel and jeans off, leaving her in just a bra and boxers. Your eyes widen and you start to undress yourself. Ellie clips the harness on and hovers over you.
“You’re so beautiful..” She mumbles. Her hand running over your body. You kiss her lips and she grabs your thigh. Ellie lays you down and runs her thumb over your folds. You moan softly. She aligns the silicone cock with your entrance and gently pressed the tip against it. You whine loudly. Ellie starts to gently move. You wrap your arms back around her neck and moan loudly. Nuzzling your face into her neck. Ellie goes a little faster,
“Fuck.. this pussy’s so good f’me..” She basically moans at the fact that she’s fucking you. She pushes you down softly and kisses your neck. Then she nuzzles her face into your neck.
“Fuck.. fuck you’re so perfect..” She moans. Your hand grips her hair as she angles the strap in a way that makes it go deeper. You feel your walls tighten around the cock. You moan,
“Mm.. I’m gonna cum.. Ellie.. fuck..!” Your hips jerk when Ellie speeds her pace up. Ellie moans and kisses your lips,
“So fuckin’ beautiful.. you look so good under me..” Ellie looks like she’s about to cum herself. You whine into Ellie’s ear,
“I’m cumming.. shit.. I’m-..” Ellie nods and holds your waist tighter, moving faster.
“Go ahead.. cum all over my cock.. fuck..” She whines and kisses your lips. You finally cum and she slows her pace, still moving as you ride through your orgasm. Ellie stops. She’s still on you.
“You good?” your eyes are closed and you’re still catching your breath. But you nod. She kisses your lips and moves small strands of hair out of your face.
“You did good.. you’re so beautiful..” She tells you. She pulls the strap out of you and unclips it. You guys get comfortable under the sheet and cuddle. For a while you guys talk about nothing, but then you change the topic.
“So uh.. what are we?” You ask her cautiously. She looks down at you, then lays her head back.
“Um.. what do you want us to be?” She asks. You chuckle,
“Girlfriends..” You mumble. Ellie smiles,
“Then that’s what we are..” You smile and kiss her lips.
“Good..” You mutter.
“Good..”
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Miniskirt
Wife!ellie x fem!reader Modern AU Word Count: 1.3k
Summery: Ellie is genuinely obsessed with you. So when you greet her from a long day of work in a tight dress with a zipper on your thigh that mocks her. She can't help herself.
cw: SMUT wife!ellie, femme!reader, praise kink (kinda), Ellie is literally obsessed with reader, fingering (r!receiving), oral sex (r!receiving), scisoring, strap usage (r!receiving), top!ellie, bottom!reader, cursing, Ellie wears a suit, finger sucking, nipple play (e!receiving), overstimulation (kinda), LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYTHING!
A/N: Yes.. this is based off of Miniskirt by AOA. My friend was playing it and I immediately thought of Ellie's reaction to seeing you in that dress.. Yum. Also the photo of Ellie in a suit made me want to write it.
Miniskirt - AOA
You position your body to see how you look in a dress you recently bought from a thrift store, along with some black thigh high stockings with a garter that you know would make Ellie melt. The dress reaches to your thighs, farther from your knees than you’re comfortable with. But you don’t mind. You didn’t notice this when buying it, a zipper. Right at your thigh. You almost laugh at seeing it. You haven’t shown Ellie the dress and you’re excited for her to come home. You sit down and put on some heels that you bought. You can’t wait to show Ellie when she gets him. And that excitement becomes a reality when you hear the lock shift at the front door. You walk out the room and see Ellie. She’s in her suit. She looks exhausted and takes her blazer off.
“Hi baby.. how was work?” You ask, walking towards her. Your heels click as you get closer to her. Ellie finally looks up and her expression completely shifts.
“Oh.. uh.. shit um..” She’s speechless. You smile,
“You didn’t answer my question..” You know you’re teasing her, and you’re getting a kick out of it.
“Fine.. boring..” Her answer is quick, like she wants to change the subject. Ellie’s hands quickly move down to your waist and she starts to shamelessly check you out.
“Where’d you get the dress?” She asks. You laugh softly and lift your hands to her shoulders.
“The thrift store.. I went at 12.. do you like it?” You start to toy with her tie. Ellie nods, not even paying attention to the way you pull her closer like a dog on a leash.
“You look.. you look really good babe..” She mumbles. You finally pull her close enough to kiss her. She hums into the kiss and fully circles her arms around your waist. Ellie snakes her arms under her thighs and lifts you up. You squeak,
“Ellie..!” You giggle and nuzzle into her neck. You hear a quiet chuckle escape her lips as she gently kisses your neck. When you get to the room, Ellie kicks the door closed and sets you on the bed. You wrap her tie around your hand and pull her closer,
“Hi..” You giggle. Ellie kisses your cheek,
“..Hi..” She answers, sounding a little shy. You let go of the tie and turn her attention back to the dress, which probably never lost her attention anyways. You gently unzip the zipper, showing the garter.
“Fuck.. y/n..” Ellie basically moans at the sight of this. She lowers down to her knees and brushes her lips against your thighs. Pressing small kisses, nearing your core. You stroke her hair, her kisses start to go up to your stomach. She starts to push the dress further up your body. You release a shaky breath from your lips.
“Ellie..” you whine. She mumbles, her voice muffled.
“Take this off.. please?” She begs in a whispered voice. You remove your stocks and take the dress off, leaving you only in your red laced underwear. Ellie kisses your core through the fabric. You twitch, your hand cupping her cheek.
“Don’t tease..” You murmur. Ellie kisses your inner thigh and pushes your underwear to the side, exposing your wet cunt.
“Shit.. baby..” She starts with soft kitten licks. Then her tongue lapping your soaking cunt. Your head falls back and you let out soft, high pitched whimpers. Grabbing her hair, pushes her head into you. She licks and sucks your pussy like it’s the only meal she’s had all day. Sometimes sucking at your clit. You start to grind your hips on her face.
“Fuuuck.. mm..” You whine. You can feel your orgasm approaching, when she thrusts two fingers into your swollen pussy. You jerk your hips up with a lewd moan.
“Oh.. Christ..” Ellie chuckles, her fingers curling inside of you.
“You’re a little sensitive today aren’t you baby?” Her teasing words only turn you on. You move with the rhythm of her fingers. She sucks on your clit.
“I’m gonna cum..” You whine. Ellie kisses your stomach while thrusting her fingers into you.
“Cum on my fingers baby..” She orders. When you finish, she kisses your lips. You close your eyes and catch your breath. Ellie lifts her fingers to your mouth. Without thinking, you open your mouth and wrap your lips around her fingers. Sucking your juices off of them. After that, she sticks those same fingers in her mouth. Looking at you while sucking them.
“You have enough energy in you for another baby?” She asks. Her voice is deep. Of course you have enough energy. With the way she turns you on by just speaking, how could you not? You nod and shift on the bed, sitting up. Ellie smiles, she undresses herself. She lifts her leg over yours and starts rubbing her wet pussy against yours, immediately moaning at the contact.
“Oh fuck.. you feel so good baby..” She grabs your waist and pulls you against her. You whine and grip her arm. You guys both match each others rhythm. Feeling your swollen clit rub against hers. Ellie watches your tits bounce up and down as you guys thrust against each other. Your hand moves to her tit, you circle her nipple with your thumb. You pull a whimper out of her with this. Her eyes slightly rolling back.
“Baby ’m gonna cum.” Ellie whispers in a whiney voice. You nod, silently telling her you are too. Her hand grips your thigh and she nuzzles into your neck, placing soft kissing while praising you about how good you’re doing. Or how beautiful you look. You shut your eyes and grip her back while riding out your orgasm. You look down, cum covering both of your swollen cunts. You pant in her ear. Ellie whispers softly,
“I wanna be inside you..” Fuck.. seriously? You were starting to get sensitive. But you didn’t want to say no. You were so turned on by her right now. You whine. Ellie stands up and grabs the strap from a cabinet. You turn around, laying on your stomach. You lift your ass up towards Ellie. She groans,
“Fuck baby.. you’re trying to kill me..” Her hands rub your ass.
“I didn’t even put the strap on yet..” She mutters, almost as if she’s talking to herself. Your face is buried in a pillow. Ellie steps away and attaches the strap. When she’s done, she grabs the silicone cock and rubs it against your folds. You whine, more sensitive than usual. She pushes her length inside of your sopping cunt slowly.
“Mmph..” You moan loudly, biting your lip to muffle the sound. Ellie starts slowly thrusting into your overstimulated pussy. She leans down to kiss your lips. She lifts herself up and starts thrusting faster, leaning down to rub your clit.
“Mm.. you’re so tight.. taking my cock so good..” You ball the blanket into your fist. Moaning into the mattress.
“Ellie please.. I need to cum..” You whine loudly. Ellie thrusts faster, chasing her own orgasm as her clit rubs against the base of the strap.
“You’re so fucking hot..” She moans. Gripping your hips and pulling you deeper. Cream surrounds the base as she slams into you. You let out a high pitched whimper,
“I’m cumming..!” And even though you do cum, Ellie keeps thrusting into you. Chasing her own orgasm. You let out soft whines, your legs growing weak from the position that you’re in. You feel her hips stutter as her rhythm falters. Finally finishing as well. She keeps the silicone cock buried inside of you as she kisses your cheek and lips. Whispering soft praises and “I love you’s”. After, she pulls out slowly. Unclipping the strap and laying next to you.
“You good?” She asks, her voice gentle and quiet. You nod, your eyes are closed from exhaustion. You’re melted against Ellie.
“I love you..” She mumbles. You hum, wanting to say it back. But being too tired to do it. Ellie just smiles and kisses your neck.
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Mmmm Ellie with a tie 🤤
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femme lesbians are not all coquette pink princesses and i feel like that’s all i see on social media these days.. make some noise for messy femme lesbians with messy lives!!
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ALL THE THINGS SHE SAID .
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⚢ PAIRING — Hockey!Ellie x Hockey!Reader
SYNOPSIS — Montreal’s ‘Golden Girl’ versus Boston’s ‘Bad Temper’. You shared nothing in common but a love for hockey and an unbearable disdain for each other. It was written all over the articles, shown all over the news, apparent to anyone that dared to watch you interact for more than five seconds. What began as secret hook-ups and addictive hate-sex quickly evolved into something you couldn’t quite grasp. She undid you, consumed you, and she’d done it oh so easily. As years passed, you never stopped clashing on the ice. But your rivalry became passion, fantasy now reality. You were supposed to hate each other— so why didn’t you?
WORD COUNT — none yet > ongoing
CONTENTS — ellie williams x reader, heatedrivalry!au, celebrity!au, modern!au, enemies to lovers, hate sex, wlw sports, secret relationship, hook-ups, doomed yuri, toxic yuri, dual pov, time jumps, story spans over five years, heavy angst, trauma, lore, fluff, SMUT, avoidance, denial, pining, public scandals, violence, homophobia, ilyacoded!ellie, shanecoded!reader, OCs, ellie is (kinda) ooc but i try to keep her lore-accurate, afab!reader, you being masc / fem isn’t mentioned, brief mentions of athletic body type, substance abuse, self image issues, explicit language, brief mentions of y/n and l/n, i don’t know anything about sports i’m just an amateur writer having fun. proceed with caution.
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CHAPTER FIVE —
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EPILOGUE —
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taglist — @lesmerri @dulcesthoughts @tabspsps @cutflwr @liifeunwritten @marcvo @seasonsofchaos @notlinearr @isaellie @fibrogirlie
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Naked in Manhattan
Bsf!ellie x fem!reader Modern AU Word count: 7.0k
Summery: After living in New York City for 3 years, you and your former best friend Ellie get back in contact. She decides to visit you since she’s going to New York anyways. Might go to hell, but you’ll probably be fine 🤷♀️
cw: SMUT bsf!ellie, (kinda)musician!ellie, femme!reader, distant bestfriends to lovers, mentions of alcohol and weed, mentions of religious trauma, cursing, Ellie singing to you, very homoerotic friendship, making out, thigh riding (kinda), top!ellie, bottom!reader, fingering (r+e!receiving), strap usage (r!receiving), tit play (both!receiving), usage of y/n and y/n/n (your nickname), pet name (baby), kinda praise kink? highkey sad ending, LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYTHING!
A/N: Oh my goodness. This was just a tiny idea when I heard the song so I started writing and I couldn't stop. I genuinely expected this to be shorter and be smut with no plot but DAMN.. anyways.. Enjoy!!
Naked in Manhattan - Chappell Roan
“Hi.. it’s y/n, I know you just landed.. and I know you’re probably busy but.. I would love to see you, so call me when you can..” You end the voice note quickly. Feeling a little embarrassed that you’re so desperate. Ellie had come to New York to visit you, well.. not really. Highschool was fun together, you had a big crush on her back then. But you never did anything since, well since you were a giant religious freak. You thought you'd go to hell for even saying it out loud. You and Ellie had gotten in contact after 3 whole years apart through an instagram post of her saying she’ll be in New York for some music thing. So you asked her to come visit you.. and she accepted. She even came 3 days early! You couldn’t wait for her to see Manhattan. You were so excited in fact, you told all your friends and coworkers. Anyone who’d listen. You guys had lived in Jackson Wyoming. Where no one was gay, cool, funny, or anything besides uptight and homophobic. Depending on who you met. You wait at your apartment impatiently, constantly checking Ellie’s location to see when she’ll arrive. In the middle of you being a clean freak about your apartment for an hour straight, the doorbell rings. You open the door to see Ellie. God, she looks.. so fucking hot. Your eyes wander to the tattoo on her forearm. The same one you fell in love with, but also freaked out when you first saw it in Junior year. She smells like weed, hot water somehow, and some cheap cologne. You look at her smile, the freckles peppering her face. God, stop being so gay. You smile,
“Hey.. come in..” You step aside and Ellie walks in. She looks around your apartment,
“Nice.. I was expecting more crosses..” She teases. You giggle and roll your eyes as you walk over to your teapot.
“Oh shut up.. I don’t do that anymore..” You admit under your breath, pouring you both a cup of tea. Ellie comfortably sits on your couch like she’s been here a million times, like it hasn’t been years since you two saw each other. You hand her the cup of tea and sit next to her. Ellie looks a little shocked from your admission despite being so comfortably invasive.
“Seriously? What changed?” She asks, her teasing tone is now replaced with genuine shock. You shrug,
“The ‘lord’ was making my life shit.. no matter how much I prayed, repented, I was miserable.. not to mention.. the ‘laws’ we had to follow.. they made me feel.. I never had the chance to tell a girl that I loved her.. because I was convinced it was a sin.” You’re talking about Ellie, but she doesn’t know that. Or at least you’re hoping she doesn’t. She’d think you’re crazy, 3 years and you’re still holding onto the stupid crush that made you believe you were going to burn in hell. She probably has a girlfriend too.
“WHATT?? You like girls y/n??” She asks, genuinely surprised. She starts laughing and her hand brushes your arm.
“Good.. it would’ve driven me crazy to see you with a man.. after everything..” Her admission confuses you.
“After everything?” You ask. Ellie chokes,
“Oh.. shit- no I meant like- our friendship.. I just.. I never imagined you with a man before.. you know?” You think about it for a second. And honestly, she’s right. You never imagined yourself with a man either. You chuckle,
“Yeah..” For a second you two sit in silence, it’s not uncomfortable though. You look at Ellie who’s staring off at a picture of you on your TV stand so you clear your throat, which catches her attention.
“Do you wanna go out? I can show you around the city..” You suggest. Ellie perks up and nods,
“Yeah.. fuck yeah.. be my tour guide..” She jokes, sounding a bit excited. You guys both go out to your favorite cafe, which is the cafe you work at. You took off today so you can hang out with Ellie. You offer to pay but Ellie refuses to let you and gives her card to your coworker Jennie. She gives you a knowing smile as you two sit at a table with your drinks. Ellie looks around,
“How’d you find this place? Didn’t you always want to own a place like this?” She asks. You almost gasp at the fact she still remembers that.
“Uh.. yeah I.. did.. um I actually work here..” You chuckle, sounding a bit embarrassed. Ellie gasps,
“What?? Ugh of course you do! I should’ve known.. it’s made for you..” Her comment makes your heart skip a beat. You smile,
“..Thanks.. I really like it here..” When you finish your drinks, you guys continue to walk around the city. You take her to some thrift stores you go to a lot. But what you’re most excited for is the music store. You guys walk in and Ellie’s eyes beam at the guitars. You walk up to the front desk and greet Nate.
“Hi Nate!! We’re still allowed to use the testing equipment, right?” You ask. Nate chuckles and nods,
“Of course.. you haven’t been here in a while.. Who's that girl you’re with?” He asks. You look over at Ellie who’s now kneeling down on one knee looking at the electric guitar colored in a navy blue. You had told Nate about Ellie before, but he and Oscar were the two people you forgot to tell about Ellie coming to visit. You were so busy that you didn’t have time to stop by the music shop or their apartment. They knew about your not so former crush on Ellie and why you never told her back in high school. You could’ve sworn you showed Nate a picture of Ellie, but maybe you only described her to him.
“A friend from high school.. I haven’t seen her since senior year and she.. she decided to visit me since she was flying into New York anyways.. So she flew in like.. 3 days early..” Nate angles his head and then gasps,
“Wait is it El-“ You shush him, then nod. He smiles,
“No ordinary friend would fly in 3 days early to visit someone..” You roll your eyes at his accusation. You and Nate have been friends since you moved to New York. You guys both went to the same college and both ended up moving to the city. For a while you guys were roommates, but you ended up moving out when he started dating Oscar because you wanted them to live together.
“So how’s Oscar?” You ask. Nate gets that lovey dovey look on his face whenever you bring him up. It’s cute.
“We’re good.. he's been asking when you can come and visit us again.. you’re like his lesbian daughter..” Nate jokes. You smile, then an idea pops into your head.
“Are you busy tomorrow?” You ask. Nate shakes his head.
“I have a shortened shift at the cafe.. I’ll be home by 3.. maybe I could stop by around 5 with Ellie..?” you ask, being a little cautious out of nervousness. Nate gasps and nods, then he squeals.
“Oh you have never been smarter..” You guys both giggle and then you look back at Ellie, who’s now checking the acoustic guitars out. You motion with your hand to Nate, that you’re gonna go with Ellie and he nods. You walk up to Ellie,
“Hey.. you know they have tester guitars that you can use.. maybe you can show me how much better you’ve gotten since highschool..” You suggest. Half teasing, half serious. Ellie looks excited and nods,
“Yeah.. sure..” Ellie sits on a stool, propping the acoustic guitar on her lap. She strums the strings to see if any of them are untuned. When she adjusts the tuning a bit she looks at you. You’re still standing up. When your eyes meet hers, you immediately sit down on the floor in front of her and stare up at her.
“Do you want a-“ You shake your head before even letting her finish, then you mutter so quietly only the both of you can hear it.
“Play for me Els..” The nickname almost gives her a heart attack. She hasn’t heard you say that in years.. she hasn’t been called that in years. Once Ellie calms down her beating heart, she starts to strum with her right hand, while changing chords with her left. Before you even process the sound of the guitar filling the air. Ellie’s voice pours in, singing Take on me. But soft, sweet, calming. You sway to the music and stare into her eyes. Ellie’s eyes meet yours. None of you guys realize how intimate the moment truly is. Hearing Ellie play after all these years, singing these sweet lyrics with her soft and silky voice. You want to melt on the floor, more than that, you want to melt in her arms. When the song finishes, you can hear Ellie’s small nervous breaths of relief. She rests her chin on the body of the guitar. You guys both sit in silence for a while. Then you get up.
“Do you want me to make dinner or should we go out to eat?” You ask. Ellie didn’t expect this shift of attention, but she smiles.
“Why would I choose restaurant food over your cooking?” She asks. You roll your eyes and wave your hand.
“Oh shut up.. let me go say bye to Nate.” You walk to the front desk as Ellie puts the Guitar back in its case and on the shelf. Nate smiles at you knowingly.
“Why’s everyone doing that today?” You ask while laughing.
“Because we can all tell..” He looks at Ellie who’s awkwardly waiting for you near the exit. She’s clearly not paying attention to your conversation. He chuckles,
“That was really romantic.. the way you guys looked at each other.. the song.. I filmed it.” He admits. You smack his arm playfully,
“Oh cmon.. you suck dude.” You’re obviously joking. Part of you wants him to send it to you. But part of you is a little annoyed with everyone’s assumptions. You look back at Ellie,
“Well.. I’m cooking so we gotta go.. send me the video creep..” You say, waving your hand as you walk towards the exit. You don’t hear Nate’s response, but you know it’s definitely something about you being a big lesbian. You and Ellie walk out, she turns to you when you guys are halfway down the street from the Music shop.
“You’re close with Nate..” She comments. You smile and nod,
“Yeah.. he’s basically my gay Jesus.. except my life did get better by praying to him..” You joke. Ellie laughs, it sounds more like a laugh of relief though.. Was she.. jealous of him?
“Ohh.. he’s gay.. that makes sense..” She chuckles. You nod,
“Yup.. you’ve never seen a straight man who can glow like that..” You tease. Ellie chuckles and nods. You guys start approaching your building after 10 minutes. While you’re opening your apartment door you decide to bring up the plans for tomorrow. Hoping Ellie is up to doing it.
“So.. Nate and his boyfriend invited me over to their place.. and I’m wondering if you want to come.. Nate wants you to come too..” You quickly add at the end. Ellie looks a little surprised but then she shrugs.
“Yeah.. sure why not..” She smiles and puts her bag down. You squeal and hug her,
“Ahh!! Yayyyy!! We’re gonna have the best time ever, you’re gonna love them..!! Now I’m gonna shower before cooking so.. make yourself at home.” You pat her shoulders and walk to the shower. Ellie would usually just sit on the couch while she waited. But instead she looked at the photos on your TV stand. Some of them were with your college friends, some of them were cute digi cam photos of you. Then, some of them were with her. Digi cam photos of you guys hanging out, laughing together. There were two photos that caught her eye. They were pictures of her with hearts on them. One had ‘My fav Els’ written in a pink glitter pen with a heart next to it. Her heart skipped a beat. She remembers you writing that, but she never thought you’d keep it. When she looks away from the photo, she sees one of you in your bra and underwear, laughing and laying in your bed with a bottle of Tito’s in your hand. You looked, God you looked unreal. Ellie had always wanted to see you like that, but.. guess someone else did. Hopefully a friend. The thoughts fill up Ellie’s brain. The thought of you sleeping with someone else, it angered her. But Ellie took a second to really think about it. Why did that get her angry? Why would she be jealous, you guys were friends. You guys have been since freshman year of high school. It was never more than that, right? Her thoughts are interrupted by you walking out of the bathroom with your pajamas on. She smiles,
“Hey.. uh.. is it okay if I smoke weed here?” She asks. You look at the photos for a second and then back at Ellie.
“Oh.. yeah do whatever you want..” You chuckle and walk to the kitchen. Ellie’s breathless,
“Hah.. you would've freaked out in high school..” You laugh and roll your eyes.
“That’s only ‘cause my mom would’ve freaked out if she smelt weed in her ‘perfect baby’s’ room.. she also already hated you..” You giggle. Ellie leans on the counter, blowing the smoke away from you. You look shocked,
“How do you remember such tiny things about me Els..” You ask her, your heart warms as the memories from high school come back. Ellie shrugs,
“How could I forget?” She asks you. You shake your head,
“You know I..” You pause for a minute.
“I’m glad you’re here..” You admit shyly. The smell of Ellie’s blunt becomes more prominent, but it doesn’t bother you. Ellie exhales, then smiles.
“Me too y/n/n..” Your heart melts at the nickname. Once dinner is done and you guys have watched mean girls, bottoms, and pitch perfect all in one sitting. When the clock hits 12 and you start to feel tired, you look at Ellie. Yeah, you forgot how much of a night owl she is.
“You want me to sleep on the couch?” She asks. You shake your head while rubbing one eye as you yawn.
“No.. no no.. cmon.. you’re sleeping in my bed.” You gently grab her arm and pull her towards your room. You immediately get in bed and lay down. You hear the click of the light switch, and two seconds later. You feel Ellie’s weight lay down next to you. Your arm extends to hold her hand. You’re so tired, you don’t even realize what you’re doing. Ellie chuckles, her hand reaches over and pushes a strand of hair out of your face.
“You okay?” She asks. You nod and mumble,
“‘M tired..” Ellie nods,
“Yeah I know.. you still act the same whenever you're tired..” You’re half asleep now. You don’t respond to Ellie. She can accept that. Once you’re fully asleep, Ellie is left alone with her thoughts. It’s crazy how one day with the person that you thought you were over, can make you feel that painful love come rushing back into your heart. Ellie watches you sleep. Your soft breaths, parted lips, hair already becoming messy from your constant shifting. She kisses your head and closes her eyes. Eventually falling asleep. That morning you wake up, expecting your house to be messy like how you left it. To your surprise, Ellie actually cleaned up for you. Not only that, but you see her cooking in your kitchen. Wearing that stupid wife beater that outlines her nipples whenever she’s in the cold ‘cause she refuses to wear a bra unless she's forced to. You smile and walk over to Ellie,
“Wow.. Ellie being domestic.. that’s definitely a site I never thought I’d see.” You tease. Ellie rolls her eyes,
“Well God forbid I don’t want you to starve..” You giggle and walk to the table. Ellie had made you pumpkin pancakes. You had a lot of baking stuff in your house, you didn’t even know she could cook like that. Your shock doesn’t go unknowingly because you talked about it through every bite. And when Ellie offered to walk you to work, you talked about it the whole time then. You guys get to the cafe.
“Thanks Els.. you still have the spare keys right?” You ask her. She nods and holds them up, jingling them in your face so you don’t stress. You nod and smile,
“Okay good.. thanks for cleaning the house and.. thanks for breakfast.. it was amazing..” Ellie walks you inside the cafe and before you let her leave, you give her a quick peck on the cheek. When she walks out you stand there for a second. Your peace is quickly destroyed by the giggling of Jennie and Micheal.
“Oh.. my favorite people..” You groan, your words are sarcastic. But you love Micheal and Jennie. How could you not? Micheal smiles,
“Didn’t she just get here yesterday? And you two are already dating?” He asks. Your face turns red and Jennie starts laughing almost to the point of tears.
“We’re not dating you fucking.. God.. let me just clock in..” You chuckle and push past them. The whole work day is just excitement, anticipation, and a lot of impatience. When the clock hits 3, you run to clock yourself out and quickly leave without even saying bye to Jennie, Micheal, or anyone else. You see Ellie outside of the cafe smoking.
“What?? You’re here?? You could’ve stayed home.!” Your voice is whiney, which makes Ellie smirk. She wraps her arm around your shoulders,
“I wanted to walk with you..” She mutters. Flicking the blunt onto the ground and stepping on it. You guys start heading back to your place. While walking Ellie mutters,
“This morning.. When you kissed my cheek.. what was that about?” She asks the question so calmly almost as if she doesn’t care for an answer. Your shoulders tense for a second, but then you calm yourself down and reply.
“Oh.. did you not like it? Sorry it was out of habit..” You lie. You kissed her cheek because you wanted to. It’s something you would’ve never done without thinking about it. Ellie shakes her head.
“Nah.. I was just confused..” She smiles and pats your head. When you get home, you shower up and get ready for Nate and Oscar’s. You look at this tight black dress that you have in your closet. You’ve never worn it out, but it really shows your figure.. and makes your tits look nice. You slip the dress on and continue with your hair and makeup. When you get out of the room, you see Ellie wearing a brown buttoned up long sleeve. Peaking underneath, you assume is a wife beater since she used to wear one a lot. She has jeans on and her sleeves are pulled up, so you can see her tattoo on one hand. Her hitches when she sees you,
“You look good Els..” You comment. Ellie nods, but she’s really just checking you out.
“Uh.. tha-thank you.. you um.. how many times have you worn that dress?” She asks the question with a tiny laugh at the end. You chuckle and look down at yourself as if you didn’t specifically pick this dress for her.
“I’ve actually never worn it.. besides like, trying it on.. but that’s it.” Ellie nods and just replies with a ‘hm’. You guys decide to drive to them since it was about a 20 minute walk. When you get there, Oscar opens the door. He squeals and hugs you, then he sees Ellie.
“Woah.. she’s just your type.. how do you do it y/n/n??” Your breath hitched at his comment. You’ve described Ellie as exactly your type, but you didn’t want her to know that. And does Oscar think you’re dating her?? Nate pushes Oscar aside and mumbles,
“Hun.. I told you they weren’t dating..” he says. Oscar pouts,
“Oh honey.. that’s a shame.. you two would make a really hot couple.” And with that, Oscar just walks away to his kitchen. Nate laughs and apologizes to Ellie, saying that Oscar is just a natural born Cupid. You and Ellie sit at their table. Both of you are a little awkward from what Oscar said, but it’ll be fine. Once the food is done, all of you guys eat and talk. Nate asks Ellie about what she does and she hesitates.
“Uh.. Just.. I make music and stuff..” She chuckles as if she’s embarrassed to talk about it. Oscar gasps,
“What?? No wonder why you’re so good at guitar..” He comments. She looks at me,
“Did you show them a video?” She asks. You shake your head,
“No.. No uh.. Nate took a video of us in the music shop when you sang to m- When you sang Take on me..” You quickly correct yourself. Ellie smiles and shifts her food with her fork, she does that when she’s embarrassed.
“Yeah I’ve played guitar since I was 16.. y/n/n told me I should start a band ‘cause I was soooo good..” She mocks jokingly. You giggle,
“She is really good..” You confirm. Ellie rolls her eyes with a humble smile on her face.
“I’m not that good y/n/n..” Oscar tilts his head,
“That's a cute nickname.. I would steal it but I don’t wanna take the romantic aspect of it away..” He teases.
“Oscar it’s not-” Ellie chuckles,
“Yeah, that’d suck right?” You look at Ellie like she’s insane. Nothing was ever romantic between the two of you, right? Like, you’ve had feelings for Ellie. But they weren’t ever reciprocated. Nate chuckles and stands up,
“Looks like we need some drinks?” He asks. You perk up, yeah. You need a drink.
“Yes! Pleasseee!” You beg with a laugh. Not only do you desperately need to get drunk, but Nate's drinks are amazing. While Nate sets up, you feel Ellie’s hand rest on your thigh, which makes you internally scream. She gives you a knowing look. Ignoring the fact that her thumb is rubbing your thigh and mutters.
“If your senior year self had met you right now, she’d have a heart attack..” She jokes. You laugh and nods,
“Definitely.. I have this one photo that Nate took of me while I was drunk off my ass.. I think I was only wearing my bra and panties.. I only kept it ‘cause to be honest.. I looked sexy..” You admit. Ellie laughs and nods,
“Yeah.. I saw that.. I would’ve kept it too..” Her comment makes your heart skip a beat. She gets up and walks over to Nate. You look back at Oscar and he’s smirking. Your face is absolutely red from blushing.
“Go get your girl, y/n/n.” He mutters. I walk to the kitchen. Ellie’s smoking a blunt and she politely declines a drink, saying she doesn’t drink. You smile,
“You don’t drink, but you smoke weed everyday?” You ask her teasingly. Ellie chuckles,
“Yup..” She replies. You’re a lightweight, and you do dumbshit when you’re drunk. Two drinks can get you to recount every person you’ve fallen in love with. Nate finishes the drinks and you down yours, already asking for a second one. “You sure hun.. You know how you get..” He suggests. You nod, “Cmon.. I’ll be fine..” You whine. So he makes you another one. You ask for another drink after her third. Nate tries to get her to stop complaining but nothing works. So he just makes a fourth one. As he hands it to her he says,
“This is your last one, alright?” He scolds. You nod sloppily and hold the drink. By the time you finish the drink you lay on the couch. “Guyss let’s watch uh.. Bottoms.. I wanna watch bottoms.” Ellie chuckles with your whiney suggestion. She sits next to you and strokes your hair,
“We watched it yesterday..” She says. But you shake your head,
“Wanna watch it again..” You whine. Ellie looks at Nate and Oscar who just shrug. So Ellie puts the movie on. You laugh at everything, literally everything. You also wrap your arms around Ellie’s neck and nuzzle into her chest at one point.
“Els.. ‘M tired..” You complain. Ellie helplessly looks at Nate and Oscar who are trying to contain their laughter. Ellie just strokes your hair,
“You wanna go home?” She asks. You nod,
“Mhmmm..” Ellie nods back and starts to lift you up.
“Okay.. Let’s go then..” While Ellie holds you up as the two of you walk to the shoe rack you giggle,
“Mm Ellie can I kiss you?” You ask, acting like it’s a completely normal question. Oscar bursts out laughing and Ellie’s face turns bright red.
“Cmon y/n/n.. Let's go home..” You giggle when she says ‘home’ as if the both of you live there.
“Home? You.. you should live with mee.. Don’t like being away from you.” You whine. Ellie nods,
“Mhm.. me neither..” She helps with your shoes and holds you up as the both of you walk to your car.. She helps you in the passenger seat and buckles you in. You just keep giggling. When she gets in the driver's seat you grab her hand,
“Hiii..” Ellie chuckles and squeezes your hand,
“Hi..” She replies softly. Which pulls another giggle out of you. The drive home is interesting, you’re talking about how you’re in love with Ellie. Which almost makes her crash like 5 times. And you’re complaining about how nauseous you are. You guys get into your apartment and you squeal,
“Let’s go to the bedd!!” You grab Ellie’s hands and pull her towards the bedroom. She laughs and follows,
“Why?” She asks. You giggle and hug her,
“You know whyy..” You tease. Ellie genuinely wonders if you’re flirting with her or if you’re just being weird. You pull down the right strap on your dress.
“Cmon.. Please?” Oh. That’s what you wanted.. Ellie fixes the dress.
“You’re drunk.. You don’t know what you’re doing..” She strokes your hair, which makes you close your eyes.
“I want..” You hiccup, which makes you burp, which makes you laugh to the point of snorting. But when you’re done laughing you speak again,
“I want you.. I always have..” Your voice is quiet and needy, barely above a whisper. Despite your drunken slurred words, Ellie can’t help but start to believe that what you’re saying is true.
“”S not fair.. That I didn't.. Say anything earlier.. ‘Cause now you think I'm crazy.. For- for holding onto you this long..” Your admission makes Ellie tear up a little. She doesn’t cry.. But god. The girl she’s been in love with for years finally opening up about her feelings, even if she's drunk and might deny this in the morning. It still twists her heart. Ellie kneels down in front of you and caresses your cheek.
“Let’s talk about this in the morning..” She tells you. You nod, your mood is a little down now. Ellie kisses your cheek and turns the light to your room off. But before she leaves she looks back at you.
“I don’t think you’re crazy..” She mutters. Before you can even process what she says, she leaves the room. Leaving you in the dark and thinking about literally everything. The next day you wake up, your head is pounding.
“..Shit..” You mutter to yourself, moving your legs to get out of bed. Still in that stupid dress you wore for Ellie. Guess your plan didn’t work.. The last thing you remember is Ellie’s hand on your thigh and begging for a second drink. You walk to the bathroom and brush your teeth. You take a quick shower, then change into a shirt that you don’t even realize belongs to Ellie. When you head to the kitchen, Ellie is cooking for you yet again.
“Mm.. Good morning Els..” You mumble. Walking over to a cabinet and grabbing the bottle of aspirin. Ellie stops you,
“I already got you a pill out.. just, eat first already..?” She says. Holding out a plate of your food. You chuckle and grab the plate.
“Wow.. you should just live here.. I’d never have to worry about a hangover again..” You joke. This makes Ellie pause, so when you were drunk.. you weren’t lying when you said you wanted Ellie to stay? Maybe she’s overthinking it, but she takes a deep breath and replies quickly.
“I should huh?” She asks, teasingly. She looks down at your shirt.
“Oh.. I guess it’s yours now huh?” She chuckles. You look down at the shirt,
“Oh.. shit..” You start laughing,
“I didn’t even realize it.. sorry let me cha-“
“No..” Her response is quick. And her voice is stern, like she needs to see you in that shirt.
“You sure?” You ask. Ellie breathes out,
“Yeah.. it looks nice on you.. and you already put it on so..” You nod,
“Okay.. yeah.. thanks for the food..” You smile and sit down at the table. You start eating and when you finish, you take the pills. You turn to Ellie when you’re done.
“Do you ever cook for yourself Els? C’mon, eat breakfast..” You suggest Ellie waves her hand, dismissing your words.
“I’m good.. plus.. I kinda already ate before you woke up..” She chuckles. You smile and take your plate to the sink, starting to wash it.
“You got really drunk..” Ellie mutters. You pause, then sigh.
“Yeah uh.. whatever I said was probably.. I get insane when I’m drunk.. sorry..” You reply quickly. Ellie hesitates, almost like she didn’t want that answer from you.
“You wanted to kiss me..” She mutters. Yeah, you do want to kiss her. You’ve always wanted to kiss her, since the day you guys became close. The day she came back. You wanted to kiss Ellie until you couldn’t breathe. Until you could forget the fact that you never did it in high school. You’re about to reply, when Ellie cuts you off.
“I’m not mad about that..” She admits. You scoff and laugh,
“Yeah I was drunk-“
“Because I wanted to kiss you too.” You drop the fork that you’re washing.
“Ellie I..”
“I didn’t do it..” For a minute you sit there quietly. Then you speak again,
“Why?” You ask. Ellie chuckles,
“‘Cause you were drunk.. and why would I kiss a drunk girl who could be hallucinating that I’m someone different..” She mutters. You laugh,
“I wouldn’t want to kiss anyone else..” You admit. You look into Ellie’s eyes. She’s hesitant but.. you can tell she wants to do something, make a move or..
“You’re sober now aren’t you?” She asks.
“Mhm..” You turn the sink off and shake the water off of your hands. Ellie steps closer,
“Do you still want to kiss me?” She asks. Now you’re stepping closer. Staring in between her eyes and lips before wrapping your arms around her neck.
“I dunno.. Are you Ellie Williams.. or some rando?” You ask. Ellie rolls her eyes and leans down to kiss you. You thread your fingers through her hair as Ellie’s hands snake around your waist. You pull away from the kiss to breathe, but the second Ellie opens her eyes you lean in again. Ellie pushed you against the sink as your lips continue to dance with each others. Ellie picks you up which makes you squeak. You laugh against her lips,
“Els..” You whine. She carries you to the couch and sits down, keeping you on her lap. You continue kissing her, your hands steady on her shoulders. Her hands snake up your shirt and you feel her warm palms run from your hips to your waist. You pull away for another breath, this time a string of saliva following.
“No bra?” She asks, teasingly. You roll your eyes,
“They’re uncomfortable..” The both of you giggle as she starts to lift your shirt up. She plants loving kisses down your neck, as one hand cups your breasts. Her thumb brushes over your nipple, causing you to shiver. She removes your shirt and immediately lowers her lips to your shoulder, then your collarbone, then your breast. You stroke her hair as her lips wrap around your nipple.
“Mm..” You softly hum. Your hips roll against her thigh. Your lips slightly part as you let out soft moans at the feeling of her lips on your nipple. When you start to feel some friction from rubbing your cunt against her thigh through your panties. Her lips leave your breast and latch back onto your lips. Her hands reach down to your panties, her thumb runs over your clit. You feel it throb through the fabric.
“Fuck.. Y/n you’re soaking..” She mumbles against your lips. You nod,
“Mmh.. It’s because of you.. Fuck..” You moan as her thumb presses against your wet cunt. You move your hips to rub against her thumb, but she moves it away. Ellie taps your ass, wordlessly commanding you to lift up your hips. You do exactly that and she removes your panties. When you lower your hips back down, her thumb moves back to your cunt. She rubs your clit in a circle with her thumb. “A-ah.. fuck..” You moan in a breathy tone. Ellie brings her hand up to her mouth and sticks her middle fingers in her mouth. Her finger disappears inside of your sopping hole slightly parting your folds with her knuckles. Your head falls back and your hips move against her fingers. You moan loudly. Your hand reaches up and struggles to snake under her shirt. When you finally get your hand under you start to toy with her nipple. You pinch it and rub it with your thumb. Ellie moans,
“Mm.. shit.. You’re so fucking hot..” Before you can prepare, another finger slips into your hole making your eyes roll back. Ellie’s fingers thrust in and out of your soaking cunt as she leans forward to kiss your lips.
“Els..” You whine,
“Els 'm gonna cum..” Your voice is only getting higher in pitch, it’s only getting more whiney. Ellie kisses your neck,
“Okay baby.. Cum f’me.. Cum all over my fingers..” Your hips shake from the pleasure, and then you fall limp against her. Ellie wipes her fingers on her sweatpants and then strokes your hair.
“Y/n/n..” You can tell Ellie is about to ask you a question. You hum in response to her calling out to you. Ellie doesn’t speak for a minute, then she mumbles,
“Can I fuck you?” She asks. You look up at her,
“Didn’t you just-”
“With a strap.. Can I fuck you with a strap?” You stutter for a minute, but end up just nodding due to the fact that you genuinely have no words. Ellie throws you over her shoulder,
“AH! Ellie!” You smack her shoulder,
“You can’t keep doing that..” You whine, but god.. You’d love it if she did that for the rest of your life. Ellie gently lays you down on the bed, removing her shirt and sweatpants, leaving her in only her boxers. Ellie reaches into her bag and grabs a black colored strap. You giggled,
“I saw you more as a girl who’d buy a skin-colored one..” You joke. Ellie rolls her eyes,
“How do you know I only have one?” She asks, strapping it on. You gasp and wave your hand at her,
“Ewwww!” Your sarcastic ‘ew’ makes Ellie smile and once she’s done, she leans down to kiss you. The strap slightly taps against your cunt as you kiss her back and wrap your arms around her shoulders, silently telling her to come closer. Ellie’s right hand grabs your waist and her left adjusts the strap at your entrance. At first she teases you, rubbing the silicone cock through your folds and circling it at the entrance. But when you let out a breathy whine, moaning,
“E-Els.. Just fuck me please..” She slams into you, making you scream with pleasure. Her pace is slow at first. Kissing you while gently pushing into you. Your walls tighten around the silicone strap which makes her speed up her pace a bit.
“Fuck.. so tight for me baby.. You like it when I fuck you like this?” She asks, her voice rougher than usual. You nod. Ellie grabs your leg and pulls it over her shoulder so she can fuck you deeper. The sight of your eyes rolling back and your hand balling into a fist while gripping the sheets makes her start pounding into you. That's when your moans multiply in amount and sound.
“Els..! ‘s too much!” You whine, the palm of your hand reaches up to her chest but she keeps going.
“I know.. I know baby it’s okay.. You’re so good f’me..” Your head grows hazy as Ellie relentlessly pounds into your aching pussy.
“Ah-ah-ah.. I’m gonna cum Els.. ‘m cumming..” Your voice is whiney as she continues to pound into you.
“Mm go ahead baby.. Cum on my cock.. I love you so much..” She orders. You moan,
“..I l-love you..” When you finally release, Ellie kisses your lips. Still moving slowly, helping you ride through your orgasm. You softly pant as her lips move to your neck and plant continuous kisses on your neck. When Ellie pulls out of you, you let out a shiver which is calmed by Ellie’s soft rubbing on your side. You nuzzle into her neck.
“Did you cum?” You ask her. Ellie laughs,
“Why?”
“Cause if you didn’t then I wanna make you feel good too..” You mumble. Ellie smiles and kisses your cheek.
“You need to rest..” She mutters. You shake your head, also wanting her to feel good. So she nods. You undo the strap for Ellie and take her boxers off. Ellie lays next to you and your hand travels down her side. You slide it in between her thighs. She’s wet. You start gently rubbing her clit.
“Mmm..” She hums, almost a moan. You slip your finger in her hole and she breathes out, letting a tiny whimper fall with it. Your finger pumps in and out of her as you kiss her lips.
“Your fingers feel so good baby..” Her hand holds your waist as you continue. Ellie’s soft and quiet whimpers against your ears make you dizzy. Your finger moves faster as Ellie cums. You nuzzle into her when you’re done,
“Did you feel good?” You ask her. She nods and kisses your nose,
“I don’t need your fingers to feel good anyways..” She jokes. You guys lay under the covers holding each other in a peaceful silence for an hour. Eventually, when you’re half asleep, you mumble.
“Els.. when you’re done with your music thing.. What do you think about staying?” You ask cautiously. Ellie’s breath hitches, she doesn’t answer. You look up from her neck to see her looking extremely conflicted.
“Els?” You ask. Ellie looks at you, her grip on you tightened a lot. She hasn’t breathed once since your question. Ellie clears her throat.
“I dunno.. Music is a lot of traveling.. And I’d be gone half the time anyways so..” Your heart hurts at Ellie’s rejection. But you still decide to try,
“I'll wait.. I can even come with you sometimes or all the time.. I could quit my job, sell the-..” Ellie quickly cuts you off and shakes her head,
“No.. Y/n/n.. You have a good life going here.. If my music career doesn’t end up working out, then you just gave up your life for nothing..”
“I would’ve given up my life to be with you..” Ellie looks shocked at your desperation to be with her.
“No.. No no no.. I’m not letting you ruin your life because you want to make rash decisions like a teenager.” Her voice is stern and cold. You sit up in anger, but also sadness.
“So what? After tomorrow you’re just gonna leave me? Gonna act like you didn’t say you loved me and just forget about it?!” Ellie shakes her head and sits up. She’s looking at you like you’re insane.
“Y/n I’m protecting you.”
“No you’re hurting me!” You argue. Ellie sighs,
“Y/n.. let’s just.. Let’s talk about this tomorrow, okay?” She lays down, facing away from you. Which is when you start crying, you don’t say anything. You just turn around and go to sleep. The next morning you wake up, Ellie isn’t in bed. You put on just a shirt and get out of bed, assuming she might be cooking. Despite her stuff not being in the room either. You ignore it and go to the bathroom, you brush your teeth and while putting your toothbrush down, you notice Ellie’s isn’t there. You walk into the quiet hallway and get to the living room, then the kitchen. Ellie isn’t there, her shoes aren’t there, and neither is her jacket. You take out your phone, thinking she might’ve gone out to get a coffee. You call her, but it goes straight to voicemail. That’s when you start to panic, you quickly text her.
[y/n/n <3] Hey Els where are you? If you’re gonna leave like that please text me. I’m really worried, call me back. It’s going straight to voicemail.
When you press send, you notice something. At the bottom where it should say ‘delivered’. There’s nothing. Ellie blocked you. You start uncontrollably crying. After finally seeing her after all those years, and getting to confess. She left. You shakily find Nate’s contact and call him. It rings 3 times before he picks up.
“Hey hun.. it’s early what’s up?” He asks. He waits for a reply until he hears your soft sobs in the background.
“Y/n/n?? What’s wrong hun?” He sounds worried. You shakily reply,
“Ellie left.. she blocked me and she left..”
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INFORMATION ABOUT QUEER/ADULT CONTENT BEING DELISTED
Hey, I'm sure you've heard by now that several online retailers have blanket delisted queer/adult content. Information seems sporadic, so I want to create a masterpost of what happened, why it matters, and what you can do about it.
WHAT HAPPENED
You've probably heard that Steam and Itch.io have removed all of their adult/queer content from listings. Itch has even gone so far as to prevent creators from being able to get their payouts.
This is not Steam/Itch's fault. Mastercard and Visa have pressured them to remove their adult content. Visa and Mastercard collectively hold over 90% of the market share in payment processing. Unfortunately, if they cut you off, you pretty much lose over 90% of your gross income, which is a death sentence for basically any company.
This is also not just localized to Steam and Itch. Several anime/manga retailers have also been affected, and more companies are likely to follow. I would not be surprised if Patreon cracked down again soon, so if you have adult/queer content on there, I suggest you prepare accordingly.
The reason for this happening is not a response to the current US political climate, or these payment processors randomly deciding to force their puritanical views. It is a concerted effort by a group called Collective Shout, an anti-porn group masquerading as a feminist liberation org. (Look up the meaning of the word SWERF.)
Collective Shout has, allegedly, sent over 1,000 letters to Visa and Mastercard urging them to take action against certain digital retailers selling adult content. Which, thankfully gives us an avenue to respond. More on that in the third section.
WHY THIS MATTERS
For some of you, I don't need to explain why you should care. For others, let me explain to you why this is a massive cocern for everyone, not just adult content creators.
First of all, we've already seen perfectly sfw queer content catching strays from this. You should already be well aware that adult content and queer content are often conflated, and the two are pretty inextricably linked to each other. If you try to ban one, you will, inevitably, end up banning the other as well.
Secondly, this sets a precedent for "concerned citizens" to be able to pressure payment processors into removing whatever content they don't like from the internet. Even if you don't partake in adult content. Even if you're not queer. Even if this doesn't currently affect you or anyone you know right now, it will. They managed to do this with only 1,000 letters. If they get away with it, it'll only be the beginning.
WHAT YOU CAN DO
Remember when I said they sent 1,000 letters to make this happen? I bet we can get more.
I wrote a form letter for Mastercard and for Visa. Fill in your name. Print them. Sign them. Mail them out. The addresses for the respective companies are at the top. It shouldn't cost much. Even international postage shouldn't be prohibitively expensive for most people.
Some people are sharing phone numbers and emails. That's fine, but I prefer a physical footprint. You can't see 1,000 phone calls. 1,000 emails don't take up physical volume. If you get 1,000 letters about something, you can see how much people care about it. That means something in this day and age.
IF YOU LIVE IN THE US there is a bill being introduced right now that stops payment processors from being able to control what people can and cannot purchase. Call your representatives. Right now. Even if you don't think they'll support it. Here's a script I wrote. And trust me when I say it'll help. I used to talk to politicians for a living. I know what I'm talking about.
SHARE THIS POST. Reblog it. Reblog it multiple times a day. Send it to everyone you know. Seriously. Everyone. Even if they're not on Tumblr. Get the word out. The most successful advertising is word of mouth. So use your voice and make sure people hear it. We've beaten this shit in the past and we'll do it again, but we still need to put in the work.
Protect queer spaces!
MY FAMILY DIED ISRAEL KILLED THEM TODAY DON'T DONATE TO ME MY DREAM IS OVER
It's unspeakable what happened to Nesma today. Whatever you can imagine it's so much unbearably worse. My heart is burning with pain for Nesma's family and the desire to see their killers brought to justice.
ARCANE | caitlyn kiramman [7/∞]
I assure you: somebody, somewhere, is on the exact same wavelength as you are.
“i want fluff!!!” “why is everything smut!!!” “i’m so done with everyone being horny!!!”
write it your fucking self then. i’m so tired of this discourse of “i want fluff but i wont engage enough to let the author know i love their work” so if you dont reblog, dont comment on authors work when you like the story or just give a single like and move on,,,
fucking dont. open docs and write the damn fluff yourself what are you waiting for.