Bsf!ellie x fem!reader Modern AU Word count: 7.0k
Summery: After living in New York City for 3 years, you and your former best friend Ellie get back in contact. She decides to visit you since she’s going to New York anyways. Might go to hell, but you’ll probably be fine 🤷♀️
cw: SMUT bsf!ellie, (kinda)musician!ellie, femme!reader, distant bestfriends to lovers, mentions of alcohol and weed, mentions of religious trauma, cursing, Ellie singing to you, very homoerotic friendship, making out, thigh riding (kinda), top!ellie, bottom!reader, fingering (r+e!receiving), strap usage (r!receiving), tit play (both!receiving), usage of y/n and y/n/n (your nickname), pet name (baby), kinda praise kink? highkey sad ending, LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANYTHING!
A/N: Oh my goodness. This was just a tiny idea when I heard the song so I started writing and I couldn't stop. I genuinely expected this to be shorter and be smut with no plot but DAMN.. anyways.. Enjoy!!
Naked in Manhattan - Chappell Roan
“Hi.. it’s y/n, I know you just landed.. and I know you’re probably busy but.. I would love to see you, so call me when you can..” You end the voice note quickly. Feeling a little embarrassed that you’re so desperate. Ellie had come to New York to visit you, well.. not really. Highschool was fun together, you had a big crush on her back then. But you never did anything since, well since you were a giant religious freak. You thought you'd go to hell for even saying it out loud. You and Ellie had gotten in contact after 3 whole years apart through an instagram post of her saying she’ll be in New York for some music thing. So you asked her to come visit you.. and she accepted. She even came 3 days early! You couldn’t wait for her to see Manhattan. You were so excited in fact, you told all your friends and coworkers. Anyone who’d listen. You guys had lived in Jackson Wyoming. Where no one was gay, cool, funny, or anything besides uptight and homophobic. Depending on who you met. You wait at your apartment impatiently, constantly checking Ellie’s location to see when she’ll arrive. In the middle of you being a clean freak about your apartment for an hour straight, the doorbell rings. You open the door to see Ellie. God, she looks.. so fucking hot. Your eyes wander to the tattoo on her forearm. The same one you fell in love with, but also freaked out when you first saw it in Junior year. She smells like weed, hot water somehow, and some cheap cologne. You look at her smile, the freckles peppering her face. God, stop being so gay. You smile,
“Hey.. come in..” You step aside and Ellie walks in. She looks around your apartment,
“Nice.. I was expecting more crosses..” She teases. You giggle and roll your eyes as you walk over to your teapot.
“Oh shut up.. I don’t do that anymore..” You admit under your breath, pouring you both a cup of tea. Ellie comfortably sits on your couch like she’s been here a million times, like it hasn’t been years since you two saw each other. You hand her the cup of tea and sit next to her. Ellie looks a little shocked from your admission despite being so comfortably invasive.
“Seriously? What changed?” She asks, her teasing tone is now replaced with genuine shock. You shrug,
“The ‘lord’ was making my life shit.. no matter how much I prayed, repented, I was miserable.. not to mention.. the ‘laws’ we had to follow.. they made me feel.. I never had the chance to tell a girl that I loved her.. because I was convinced it was a sin.” You’re talking about Ellie, but she doesn’t know that. Or at least you’re hoping she doesn’t. She’d think you’re crazy, 3 years and you’re still holding onto the stupid crush that made you believe you were going to burn in hell. She probably has a girlfriend too.
“WHATT?? You like girls y/n??” She asks, genuinely surprised. She starts laughing and her hand brushes your arm.
“Good.. it would’ve driven me crazy to see you with a man.. after everything..” Her admission confuses you.
“After everything?” You ask. Ellie chokes,
“Oh.. shit- no I meant like- our friendship.. I just.. I never imagined you with a man before.. you know?” You think about it for a second. And honestly, she’s right. You never imagined yourself with a man either. You chuckle,
“Yeah..” For a second you two sit in silence, it’s not uncomfortable though. You look at Ellie who’s staring off at a picture of you on your TV stand so you clear your throat, which catches her attention.
“Do you wanna go out? I can show you around the city..” You suggest. Ellie perks up and nods,
“Yeah.. fuck yeah.. be my tour guide..” She jokes, sounding a bit excited. You guys both go out to your favorite cafe, which is the cafe you work at. You took off today so you can hang out with Ellie. You offer to pay but Ellie refuses to let you and gives her card to your coworker Jennie. She gives you a knowing smile as you two sit at a table with your drinks. Ellie looks around,
“How’d you find this place? Didn’t you always want to own a place like this?” She asks. You almost gasp at the fact she still remembers that.
“Uh.. yeah I.. did.. um I actually work here..” You chuckle, sounding a bit embarrassed. Ellie gasps,
“What?? Ugh of course you do! I should’ve known.. it’s made for you..” Her comment makes your heart skip a beat. You smile,
“..Thanks.. I really like it here..” When you finish your drinks, you guys continue to walk around the city. You take her to some thrift stores you go to a lot. But what you’re most excited for is the music store. You guys walk in and Ellie’s eyes beam at the guitars. You walk up to the front desk and greet Nate.
“Hi Nate!! We’re still allowed to use the testing equipment, right?” You ask. Nate chuckles and nods,
“Of course.. you haven’t been here in a while.. Who's that girl you’re with?” He asks. You look over at Ellie who’s now kneeling down on one knee looking at the electric guitar colored in a navy blue. You had told Nate about Ellie before, but he and Oscar were the two people you forgot to tell about Ellie coming to visit. You were so busy that you didn’t have time to stop by the music shop or their apartment. They knew about your not so former crush on Ellie and why you never told her back in high school. You could’ve sworn you showed Nate a picture of Ellie, but maybe you only described her to him.
“A friend from high school.. I haven’t seen her since senior year and she.. she decided to visit me since she was flying into New York anyways.. So she flew in like.. 3 days early..” Nate angles his head and then gasps,
“Wait is it El-“ You shush him, then nod. He smiles,
“No ordinary friend would fly in 3 days early to visit someone..” You roll your eyes at his accusation. You and Nate have been friends since you moved to New York. You guys both went to the same college and both ended up moving to the city. For a while you guys were roommates, but you ended up moving out when he started dating Oscar because you wanted them to live together.
“So how’s Oscar?” You ask. Nate gets that lovey dovey look on his face whenever you bring him up. It’s cute.
“We’re good.. he's been asking when you can come and visit us again.. you’re like his lesbian daughter..” Nate jokes. You smile, then an idea pops into your head.
“Are you busy tomorrow?” You ask. Nate shakes his head.
“I have a shortened shift at the cafe.. I’ll be home by 3.. maybe I could stop by around 5 with Ellie..?” you ask, being a little cautious out of nervousness. Nate gasps and nods, then he squeals.
“Oh you have never been smarter..” You guys both giggle and then you look back at Ellie, who’s now checking the acoustic guitars out. You motion with your hand to Nate, that you’re gonna go with Ellie and he nods. You walk up to Ellie,
“Hey.. you know they have tester guitars that you can use.. maybe you can show me how much better you’ve gotten since highschool..” You suggest. Half teasing, half serious. Ellie looks excited and nods,
“Yeah.. sure..” Ellie sits on a stool, propping the acoustic guitar on her lap. She strums the strings to see if any of them are untuned. When she adjusts the tuning a bit she looks at you. You’re still standing up. When your eyes meet hers, you immediately sit down on the floor in front of her and stare up at her.
“Do you want a-“ You shake your head before even letting her finish, then you mutter so quietly only the both of you can hear it.
“Play for me Els..” The nickname almost gives her a heart attack. She hasn’t heard you say that in years.. she hasn’t been called that in years. Once Ellie calms down her beating heart, she starts to strum with her right hand, while changing chords with her left. Before you even process the sound of the guitar filling the air. Ellie’s voice pours in, singing Take on me. But soft, sweet, calming. You sway to the music and stare into her eyes. Ellie’s eyes meet yours. None of you guys realize how intimate the moment truly is. Hearing Ellie play after all these years, singing these sweet lyrics with her soft and silky voice. You want to melt on the floor, more than that, you want to melt in her arms. When the song finishes, you can hear Ellie’s small nervous breaths of relief. She rests her chin on the body of the guitar. You guys both sit in silence for a while. Then you get up.
“Do you want me to make dinner or should we go out to eat?” You ask. Ellie didn’t expect this shift of attention, but she smiles.
“Why would I choose restaurant food over your cooking?” She asks. You roll your eyes and wave your hand.
“Oh shut up.. let me go say bye to Nate.” You walk to the front desk as Ellie puts the Guitar back in its case and on the shelf. Nate smiles at you knowingly.
“Why’s everyone doing that today?” You ask while laughing.
“Because we can all tell..” He looks at Ellie who’s awkwardly waiting for you near the exit. She’s clearly not paying attention to your conversation. He chuckles,
“That was really romantic.. the way you guys looked at each other.. the song.. I filmed it.” He admits. You smack his arm playfully,
“Oh cmon.. you suck dude.” You’re obviously joking. Part of you wants him to send it to you. But part of you is a little annoyed with everyone’s assumptions. You look back at Ellie,
“Well.. I’m cooking so we gotta go.. send me the video creep..” You say, waving your hand as you walk towards the exit. You don’t hear Nate’s response, but you know it’s definitely something about you being a big lesbian. You and Ellie walk out, she turns to you when you guys are halfway down the street from the Music shop.
“You’re close with Nate..” She comments. You smile and nod,
“Yeah.. he’s basically my gay Jesus.. except my life did get better by praying to him..” You joke. Ellie laughs, it sounds more like a laugh of relief though.. Was she.. jealous of him?
“Ohh.. he’s gay.. that makes sense..” She chuckles. You nod,
“Yup.. you’ve never seen a straight man who can glow like that..” You tease. Ellie chuckles and nods. You guys start approaching your building after 10 minutes. While you’re opening your apartment door you decide to bring up the plans for tomorrow. Hoping Ellie is up to doing it.
“So.. Nate and his boyfriend invited me over to their place.. and I’m wondering if you want to come.. Nate wants you to come too..” You quickly add at the end. Ellie looks a little surprised but then she shrugs.
“Yeah.. sure why not..” She smiles and puts her bag down. You squeal and hug her,
“Ahh!! Yayyyy!! We’re gonna have the best time ever, you’re gonna love them..!! Now I’m gonna shower before cooking so.. make yourself at home.” You pat her shoulders and walk to the shower. Ellie would usually just sit on the couch while she waited. But instead she looked at the photos on your TV stand. Some of them were with your college friends, some of them were cute digi cam photos of you. Then, some of them were with her. Digi cam photos of you guys hanging out, laughing together. There were two photos that caught her eye. They were pictures of her with hearts on them. One had ‘My fav Els’ written in a pink glitter pen with a heart next to it. Her heart skipped a beat. She remembers you writing that, but she never thought you’d keep it. When she looks away from the photo, she sees one of you in your bra and underwear, laughing and laying in your bed with a bottle of Tito’s in your hand. You looked, God you looked unreal. Ellie had always wanted to see you like that, but.. guess someone else did. Hopefully a friend. The thoughts fill up Ellie’s brain. The thought of you sleeping with someone else, it angered her. But Ellie took a second to really think about it. Why did that get her angry? Why would she be jealous, you guys were friends. You guys have been since freshman year of high school. It was never more than that, right? Her thoughts are interrupted by you walking out of the bathroom with your pajamas on. She smiles,
“Hey.. uh.. is it okay if I smoke weed here?” She asks. You look at the photos for a second and then back at Ellie.
“Oh.. yeah do whatever you want..” You chuckle and walk to the kitchen. Ellie’s breathless,
“Hah.. you would've freaked out in high school..” You laugh and roll your eyes.
“That’s only ‘cause my mom would’ve freaked out if she smelt weed in her ‘perfect baby’s’ room.. she also already hated you..” You giggle. Ellie leans on the counter, blowing the smoke away from you. You look shocked,
“How do you remember such tiny things about me Els..” You ask her, your heart warms as the memories from high school come back. Ellie shrugs,
“How could I forget?” She asks you. You shake your head,
“You know I..” You pause for a minute.
“I’m glad you’re here..” You admit shyly. The smell of Ellie’s blunt becomes more prominent, but it doesn’t bother you. Ellie exhales, then smiles.
“Me too y/n/n..” Your heart melts at the nickname. Once dinner is done and you guys have watched mean girls, bottoms, and pitch perfect all in one sitting. When the clock hits 12 and you start to feel tired, you look at Ellie. Yeah, you forgot how much of a night owl she is.
“You want me to sleep on the couch?” She asks. You shake your head while rubbing one eye as you yawn.
“No.. no no.. cmon.. you’re sleeping in my bed.” You gently grab her arm and pull her towards your room. You immediately get in bed and lay down. You hear the click of the light switch, and two seconds later. You feel Ellie’s weight lay down next to you. Your arm extends to hold her hand. You’re so tired, you don’t even realize what you’re doing. Ellie chuckles, her hand reaches over and pushes a strand of hair out of your face.
“You okay?” She asks. You nod and mumble,
“Yeah I know.. you still act the same whenever you're tired..” You’re half asleep now. You don’t respond to Ellie. She can accept that. Once you’re fully asleep, Ellie is left alone with her thoughts. It’s crazy how one day with the person that you thought you were over, can make you feel that painful love come rushing back into your heart. Ellie watches you sleep. Your soft breaths, parted lips, hair already becoming messy from your constant shifting. She kisses your head and closes her eyes. Eventually falling asleep. That morning you wake up, expecting your house to be messy like how you left it. To your surprise, Ellie actually cleaned up for you. Not only that, but you see her cooking in your kitchen. Wearing that stupid wife beater that outlines her nipples whenever she’s in the cold ‘cause she refuses to wear a bra unless she's forced to. You smile and walk over to Ellie,
“Wow.. Ellie being domestic.. that’s definitely a site I never thought I’d see.” You tease. Ellie rolls her eyes,
“Well God forbid I don’t want you to starve..” You giggle and walk to the table. Ellie had made you pumpkin pancakes. You had a lot of baking stuff in your house, you didn’t even know she could cook like that. Your shock doesn’t go unknowingly because you talked about it through every bite. And when Ellie offered to walk you to work, you talked about it the whole time then. You guys get to the cafe.
“Thanks Els.. you still have the spare keys right?” You ask her. She nods and holds them up, jingling them in your face so you don’t stress. You nod and smile,
“Okay good.. thanks for cleaning the house and.. thanks for breakfast.. it was amazing..” Ellie walks you inside the cafe and before you let her leave, you give her a quick peck on the cheek. When she walks out you stand there for a second. Your peace is quickly destroyed by the giggling of Jennie and Micheal.
“Oh.. my favorite people..” You groan, your words are sarcastic. But you love Micheal and Jennie. How could you not? Micheal smiles,
“Didn’t she just get here yesterday? And you two are already dating?” He asks. Your face turns red and Jennie starts laughing almost to the point of tears.
“We’re not dating you fucking.. God.. let me just clock in..” You chuckle and push past them. The whole work day is just excitement, anticipation, and a lot of impatience. When the clock hits 3, you run to clock yourself out and quickly leave without even saying bye to Jennie, Micheal, or anyone else. You see Ellie outside of the cafe smoking.
“What?? You’re here?? You could’ve stayed home.!” Your voice is whiney, which makes Ellie smirk. She wraps her arm around your shoulders,
“I wanted to walk with you..” She mutters. Flicking the blunt onto the ground and stepping on it. You guys start heading back to your place. While walking Ellie mutters,
“This morning.. When you kissed my cheek.. what was that about?” She asks the question so calmly almost as if she doesn’t care for an answer. Your shoulders tense for a second, but then you calm yourself down and reply.
“Oh.. did you not like it? Sorry it was out of habit..” You lie. You kissed her cheek because you wanted to. It’s something you would’ve never done without thinking about it. Ellie shakes her head.
“Nah.. I was just confused..” She smiles and pats your head. When you get home, you shower up and get ready for Nate and Oscar’s. You look at this tight black dress that you have in your closet. You’ve never worn it out, but it really shows your figure.. and makes your tits look nice. You slip the dress on and continue with your hair and makeup. When you get out of the room, you see Ellie wearing a brown buttoned up long sleeve. Peaking underneath, you assume is a wife beater since she used to wear one a lot. She has jeans on and her sleeves are pulled up, so you can see her tattoo on one hand. Her hitches when she sees you,
“You look good Els..” You comment. Ellie nods, but she’s really just checking you out.
“Uh.. tha-thank you.. you um.. how many times have you worn that dress?” She asks the question with a tiny laugh at the end. You chuckle and look down at yourself as if you didn’t specifically pick this dress for her.
“I’ve actually never worn it.. besides like, trying it on.. but that’s it.” Ellie nods and just replies with a ‘hm’. You guys decide to drive to them since it was about a 20 minute walk. When you get there, Oscar opens the door. He squeals and hugs you, then he sees Ellie.
“Woah.. she’s just your type.. how do you do it y/n/n??” Your breath hitched at his comment. You’ve described Ellie as exactly your type, but you didn’t want her to know that. And does Oscar think you’re dating her?? Nate pushes Oscar aside and mumbles,
“Hun.. I told you they weren’t dating..” he says. Oscar pouts,
“Oh honey.. that’s a shame.. you two would make a really hot couple.” And with that, Oscar just walks away to his kitchen. Nate laughs and apologizes to Ellie, saying that Oscar is just a natural born Cupid. You and Ellie sit at their table. Both of you are a little awkward from what Oscar said, but it’ll be fine. Once the food is done, all of you guys eat and talk. Nate asks Ellie about what she does and she hesitates.
“Uh.. Just.. I make music and stuff..” She chuckles as if she’s embarrassed to talk about it. Oscar gasps,
“What?? No wonder why you’re so good at guitar..” He comments. She looks at me,
“Did you show them a video?” She asks. You shake your head,
“No.. No uh.. Nate took a video of us in the music shop when you sang to m- When you sang Take on me..” You quickly correct yourself. Ellie smiles and shifts her food with her fork, she does that when she’s embarrassed.
“Yeah I’ve played guitar since I was 16.. y/n/n told me I should start a band ‘cause I was soooo good..” She mocks jokingly. You giggle,
“She is really good..” You confirm. Ellie rolls her eyes with a humble smile on her face.
“I’m not that good y/n/n..” Oscar tilts his head,
“That's a cute nickname.. I would steal it but I don’t wanna take the romantic aspect of it away..” He teases.
“Oscar it’s not-” Ellie chuckles,
“Yeah, that’d suck right?” You look at Ellie like she’s insane. Nothing was ever romantic between the two of you, right? Like, you’ve had feelings for Ellie. But they weren’t ever reciprocated. Nate chuckles and stands up,
“Looks like we need some drinks?” He asks. You perk up, yeah. You need a drink.
“Yes! Pleasseee!” You beg with a laugh. Not only do you desperately need to get drunk, but Nate's drinks are amazing. While Nate sets up, you feel Ellie’s hand rest on your thigh, which makes you internally scream. She gives you a knowing look. Ignoring the fact that her thumb is rubbing your thigh and mutters.
“If your senior year self had met you right now, she’d have a heart attack..” She jokes. You laugh and nods,
“Definitely.. I have this one photo that Nate took of me while I was drunk off my ass.. I think I was only wearing my bra and panties.. I only kept it ‘cause to be honest.. I looked sexy..” You admit. Ellie laughs and nods,
“Yeah.. I saw that.. I would’ve kept it too..” Her comment makes your heart skip a beat. She gets up and walks over to Nate. You look back at Oscar and he’s smirking. Your face is absolutely red from blushing.
“Go get your girl, y/n/n.” He mutters. I walk to the kitchen. Ellie’s smoking a blunt and she politely declines a drink, saying she doesn’t drink. You smile,
“You don’t drink, but you smoke weed everyday?” You ask her teasingly. Ellie chuckles,
“Yup..” She replies. You’re a lightweight, and you do dumbshit when you’re drunk. Two drinks can get you to recount every person you’ve fallen in love with. Nate finishes the drinks and you down yours, already asking for a second one.
“You sure hun.. You know how you get..” He suggests. You nod,
“Cmon.. I’ll be fine..” You whine. So he makes you another one. You ask for another drink after her third. Nate tries to get her to stop complaining but nothing works. So he just makes a fourth one. As he hands it to her he says,
“This is your last one, alright?” He scolds. You nod sloppily and hold the drink. By the time you finish the drink you lay on the couch.
“Guyss let’s watch uh.. Bottoms.. I wanna watch bottoms.” Ellie chuckles with your whiney suggestion. She sits next to you and strokes your hair,
“We watched it yesterday..” She says. But you shake your head,
“Wanna watch it again..” You whine. Ellie looks at Nate and Oscar who just shrug. So Ellie puts the movie on. You laugh at everything, literally everything. You also wrap your arms around Ellie’s neck and nuzzle into her chest at one point.
“Els.. ‘M tired..” You complain. Ellie helplessly looks at Nate and Oscar who are trying to contain their laughter. Ellie just strokes your hair,
“You wanna go home?” She asks. You nod,
“Mhmmm..” Ellie nods back and starts to lift you up.
“Okay.. Let’s go then..” While Ellie holds you up as the two of you walk to the shoe rack you giggle,
“Mm Ellie can I kiss you?” You ask, acting like it’s a completely normal question. Oscar bursts out laughing and Ellie’s face turns bright red.
“Cmon y/n/n.. Let's go home..” You giggle when she says ‘home’ as if the both of you live there.
“Home? You.. you should live with mee.. Don’t like being away from you.” You whine. Ellie nods,
“Mhm.. me neither..” She helps with your shoes and holds you up as the both of you walk to your car.. She helps you in the passenger seat and buckles you in. You just keep giggling. When she gets in the driver's seat you grab her hand,
“Hiii..” Ellie chuckles and squeezes your hand,
“Hi..” She replies softly. Which pulls another giggle out of you. The drive home is interesting, you’re talking about how you’re in love with Ellie. Which almost makes her crash like 5 times. And you’re complaining about how nauseous you are. You guys get into your apartment and you squeal,
“Let’s go to the bedd!!” You grab Ellie’s hands and pull her towards the bedroom. She laughs and follows,
“Why?” She asks. You giggle and hug her,
“You know whyy..” You tease. Ellie genuinely wonders if you’re flirting with her or if you’re just being weird. You pull down the right strap on your dress.
“Cmon.. Please?” Oh. That’s what you wanted.. Ellie fixes the dress.
“You’re drunk.. You don’t know what you’re doing..” She strokes your hair, which makes you close your eyes.
“I want..” You hiccup, which makes you burp, which makes you laugh to the point of snorting. But when you’re done laughing you speak again,
“I want you.. I always have..” Your voice is quiet and needy, barely above a whisper. Despite your drunken slurred words, Ellie can’t help but start to believe that what you’re saying is true.
“”S not fair.. That I didn't.. Say anything earlier.. ‘Cause now you think I'm crazy.. For- for holding onto you this long..” Your admission makes Ellie tear up a little. She doesn’t cry.. But god. The girl she’s been in love with for years finally opening up about her feelings, even if she's drunk and might deny this in the morning. It still twists her heart. Ellie kneels down in front of you and caresses your cheek.
“Let’s talk about this in the morning..” She tells you. You nod, your mood is a little down now. Ellie kisses your cheek and turns the light to your room off. But before she leaves she looks back at you.
“I don’t think you’re crazy..” She mutters. Before you can even process what she says, she leaves the room. Leaving you in the dark and thinking about literally everything. The next day you wake up, your head is pounding.
“..Shit..” You mutter to yourself, moving your legs to get out of bed. Still in that stupid dress you wore for Ellie. Guess your plan didn’t work.. The last thing you remember is Ellie’s hand on your thigh and begging for a second drink. You walk to the bathroom and brush your teeth. You take a quick shower, then change into a shirt that you don’t even realize belongs to Ellie. When you head to the kitchen, Ellie is cooking for you yet again.
“Mm.. Good morning Els..” You mumble. Walking over to a cabinet and grabbing the bottle of aspirin. Ellie stops you,
“I already got you a pill out.. just, eat first already..?” She says. Holding out a plate of your food. You chuckle and grab the plate.
“Wow.. you should just live here.. I’d never have to worry about a hangover again..” You joke. This makes Ellie pause, so when you were drunk.. you weren’t lying when you said you wanted Ellie to stay? Maybe she’s overthinking it, but she takes a deep breath and replies quickly.
“I should huh?” She asks, teasingly. She looks down at your shirt.
“Oh.. I guess it’s yours now huh?” She chuckles. You look down at the shirt,
“Oh.. shit..” You start laughing,
“I didn’t even realize it.. sorry let me cha-“
“No..” Her response is quick. And her voice is stern, like she needs to see you in that shirt.
“You sure?” You ask. Ellie breathes out,
“Yeah.. it looks nice on you.. and you already put it on so..” You nod,
“Okay.. yeah.. thanks for the food..” You smile and sit down at the table. You start eating and when you finish, you take the pills. You turn to Ellie when you’re done.
“Do you ever cook for yourself Els? C’mon, eat breakfast..” You suggest Ellie waves her hand, dismissing your words.
“I’m good.. plus.. I kinda already ate before you woke up..” She chuckles. You smile and take your plate to the sink, starting to wash it.
“You got really drunk..” Ellie mutters. You pause, then sigh.
“Yeah uh.. whatever I said was probably.. I get insane when I’m drunk.. sorry..” You reply quickly. Ellie hesitates, almost like she didn’t want that answer from you.
“You wanted to kiss me..” She mutters. Yeah, you do want to kiss her. You’ve always wanted to kiss her, since the day you guys became close. The day she came back. You wanted to kiss Ellie until you couldn’t breathe. Until you could forget the fact that you never did it in high school. You’re about to reply, when Ellie cuts you off.
“I’m not mad about that..” She admits. You scoff and laugh,
“Because I wanted to kiss you too.” You drop the fork that you’re washing.
“I didn’t do it..” For a minute you sit there quietly. Then you speak again,
“Why?” You ask. Ellie chuckles,
“‘Cause you were drunk.. and why would I kiss a drunk girl who could be hallucinating that I’m someone different..” She mutters. You laugh,
“I wouldn’t want to kiss anyone else..” You admit. You look into Ellie’s eyes. She’s hesitant but.. you can tell she wants to do something, make a move or..
“You’re sober now aren’t you?” She asks.
“Mhm..” You turn the sink off and shake the water off of your hands. Ellie steps closer,
“Do you still want to kiss me?” She asks. Now you’re stepping closer. Staring in between her eyes and lips before wrapping your arms around her neck.
“I dunno.. Are you Ellie Williams.. or some rando?” You ask. Ellie rolls her eyes and leans down to kiss you. You thread your fingers through her hair as Ellie’s hands snake around your waist. You pull away from the kiss to breathe, but the second Ellie opens her eyes you lean in again. Ellie pushed you against the sink as your lips continue to dance with each others. Ellie picks you up which makes you squeak. You laugh against her lips,
“Els..” You whine. She carries you to the couch and sits down, keeping you on her lap. You continue kissing her, your hands steady on her shoulders. Her hands snake up your shirt and you feel her warm palms run from your hips to your waist. You pull away for another breath, this time a string of saliva following.
“No bra?” She asks, teasingly. You roll your eyes,
“They’re uncomfortable..” The both of you giggle as she starts to lift your shirt up. She plants loving kisses down your neck, as one hand cups your breasts. Her thumb brushes over your nipple, causing you to shiver. She removes your shirt and immediately lowers her lips to your shoulder, then your collarbone, then your breast. You stroke her hair as her lips wrap around your nipple.
“Mm..” You softly hum. Your hips roll against her thigh. Your lips slightly part as you let out soft moans at the feeling of her lips on your nipple. When you start to feel some friction from rubbing your cunt against her thigh through your panties. Her lips leave your breast and latch back onto your lips. Her hands reach down to your panties, her thumb runs over your clit. You feel it throb through the fabric.
“Fuck.. Y/n you’re soaking..” She mumbles against your lips. You nod,
“Mmh.. It’s because of you.. Fuck..” You moan as her thumb presses against your wet cunt. You move your hips to rub against her thumb, but she moves it away. Ellie taps your ass, wordlessly commanding you to lift up your hips. You do exactly that and she removes your panties. When you lower your hips back down, her thumb moves back to your cunt. She rubs your clit in a circle with her thumb.
“A-ah.. fuck..” You moan in a breathy tone. Ellie brings her hand up to her mouth and sticks her middle fingers in her mouth. Her finger disappears inside of your sopping hole slightly parting your folds with her knuckles. Your head falls back and your hips move against her fingers. You moan loudly. Your hand reaches up and struggles to snake under her shirt. When you finally get your hand under you start to toy with her nipple. You pinch it and rub it with your thumb. Ellie moans,
“Mm.. shit.. You’re so fucking hot..” Before you can prepare, another finger slips into your hole making your eyes roll back. Ellie’s fingers thrust in and out of your soaking cunt as she leans forward to kiss your lips.
“Els 'm gonna cum..” Your voice is only getting higher in pitch, it’s only getting more whiney. Ellie kisses your neck,
“Okay baby.. Cum f’me.. Cum all over my fingers..” Your hips shake from the pleasure, and then you fall limp against her. Ellie wipes her fingers on her sweatpants and then strokes your hair.
“Y/n/n..” You can tell Ellie is about to ask you a question. You hum in response to her calling out to you. Ellie doesn’t speak for a minute, then she mumbles,
“Can I fuck you?” She asks. You look up at her,
“With a strap.. Can I fuck you with a strap?” You stutter for a minute, but end up just nodding due to the fact that you genuinely have no words. Ellie throws you over her shoulder,
“AH! Ellie!” You smack her shoulder,
“You can’t keep doing that..” You whine, but god.. You’d love it if she did that for the rest of your life. Ellie gently lays you down on the bed, removing her shirt and sweatpants, leaving her in only her boxers. Ellie reaches into her bag and grabs a black colored strap. You giggled,
“I saw you more as a girl who’d buy a skin-colored one..” You joke. Ellie rolls her eyes,
“How do you know I only have one?” She asks, strapping it on. You gasp and wave your hand at her,
“Ewwww!” Your sarcastic ‘ew’ makes Ellie smile and once she’s done, she leans down to kiss you. The strap slightly taps against your cunt as you kiss her back and wrap your arms around her shoulders, silently telling her to come closer. Ellie’s right hand grabs your waist and her left adjusts the strap at your entrance. At first she teases you, rubbing the silicone cock through your folds and circling it at the entrance. But when you let out a breathy whine, moaning,
“E-Els.. Just fuck me please..” She slams into you, making you scream with pleasure. Her pace is slow at first. Kissing you while gently pushing into you. Your walls tighten around the silicone strap which makes her speed up her pace a bit.
“Fuck.. so tight for me baby.. You like it when I fuck you like this?” She asks, her voice rougher than usual. You nod. Ellie grabs your leg and pulls it over her shoulder so she can fuck you deeper. The sight of your eyes rolling back and your hand balling into a fist while gripping the sheets makes her start pounding into you. That's when your moans multiply in amount and sound.
“Els..! ‘s too much!” You whine, the palm of your hand reaches up to her chest but she keeps going.
“I know.. I know baby it’s okay.. You’re so good f’me..” Your head grows hazy as Ellie relentlessly pounds into your aching pussy.
“Ah-ah-ah.. I’m gonna cum Els.. ‘m cumming..” Your voice is whiney as she continues to pound into you.
“Mm go ahead baby.. Cum on my cock.. I love you so much..” She orders. You moan,
“..I l-love you..” When you finally release, Ellie kisses your lips. Still moving slowly, helping you ride through your orgasm. You softly pant as her lips move to your neck and plant continuous kisses on your neck. When Ellie pulls out of you, you let out a shiver which is calmed by Ellie’s soft rubbing on your side. You nuzzle into her neck.
“Did you cum?” You ask her. Ellie laughs,
“Cause if you didn’t then I wanna make you feel good too..” You mumble. Ellie smiles and kisses your cheek.
“You need to rest..” She mutters. You shake your head, also wanting her to feel good. So she nods. You undo the strap for Ellie and take her boxers off. Ellie lays next to you and your hand travels down her side. You slide it in between her thighs. She’s wet. You start gently rubbing her clit.
“Mmm..” She hums, almost a moan. You slip your finger in her hole and she breathes out, letting a tiny whimper fall with it. Your finger pumps in and out of her as you kiss her lips.
“Your fingers feel so good baby..” Her hand holds your waist as you continue. Ellie’s soft and quiet whimpers against your ears make you dizzy. Your finger moves faster as Ellie cums. You nuzzle into her when you’re done,
“Did you feel good?” You ask her. She nods and kisses your nose,
“I don’t need your fingers to feel good anyways..” She jokes. You guys lay under the covers holding each other in a peaceful silence for an hour. Eventually, when you’re half asleep, you mumble.
“Els.. when you’re done with your music thing.. What do you think about staying?” You ask cautiously. Ellie’s breath hitches, she doesn’t answer. You look up from her neck to see her looking extremely conflicted.
“Els?” You ask. Ellie looks at you, her grip on you tightened a lot. She hasn’t breathed once since your question. Ellie clears her throat.
“I dunno.. Music is a lot of traveling.. And I’d be gone half the time anyways so..” Your heart hurts at Ellie’s rejection. But you still decide to try,
“I'll wait.. I can even come with you sometimes or all the time.. I could quit my job, sell the-..” Ellie quickly cuts you off and shakes her head,
“No.. Y/n/n.. You have a good life going here.. If my music career doesn’t end up working out, then you just gave up your life for nothing..”
“I would’ve given up my life to be with you..” Ellie looks shocked at your desperation to be with her.
“No.. No no no.. I’m not letting you ruin your life because you want to make rash decisions like a teenager.” Her voice is stern and cold. You sit up in anger, but also sadness.
“So what? After tomorrow you’re just gonna leave me? Gonna act like you didn’t say you loved me and just forget about it?!” Ellie shakes her head and sits up. She’s looking at you like you’re insane.
“Y/n I’m protecting you.”
“No you’re hurting me!” You argue. Ellie sighs,
“Y/n.. let’s just.. Let’s talk about this tomorrow, okay?” She lays down, facing away from you. Which is when you start crying, you don’t say anything. You just turn around and go to sleep. The next morning you wake up, Ellie isn’t in bed. You put on just a shirt and get out of bed, assuming she might be cooking. Despite her stuff not being in the room either. You ignore it and go to the bathroom, you brush your teeth and while putting your toothbrush down, you notice Ellie’s isn’t there. You walk into the quiet hallway and get to the living room, then the kitchen. Ellie isn’t there, her shoes aren’t there, and neither is her jacket. You take out your phone, thinking she might’ve gone out to get a coffee. You call her, but it goes straight to voicemail. That’s when you start to panic, you quickly text her.
[y/n/n <3] Hey Els where are you? If you’re gonna leave like that please text me. I’m really worried, call me back. It’s going straight to voicemail.
When you press send, you notice something. At the bottom where it should say ‘delivered’. There’s nothing. Ellie blocked you. You start uncontrollably crying. After finally seeing her after all those years, and getting to confess. She left. You shakily find Nate’s contact and call him. It rings 3 times before he picks up.
“Hey hun.. it’s early what’s up?” He asks. He waits for a reply until he hears your soft sobs in the background.
“Y/n/n?? What’s wrong hun?” He sounds worried. You shakily reply,
“Ellie left.. she blocked me and she left..”
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