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8: public service

Rain/Dewdrop, Rain/Phantom, Phantom/Cowbell

Explicit, 18+ only

AO3

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Summary: A good week with a bad ending

Warnings: graphic violence, blood, sexual harassment, blood and violence, blood and injury, beating, protective dewdrop, possessive behavior, jealousy, feral behavior, murder ghouls, hurt/comfort, dew still has feelings and hates it a little less

a/n: please heed updated tags. Rain experiences sexual harassment, which is responded to with violence. The exact touch is to his wrist, twice. I mention this here so it can be skipped if needed; you'll be able to tell when you're there. Violence follows. If you wish to avoid reading this, skip the scene that starts with "The new client's already seated by the time Dew's back at the monitors," and pick back up after the next large scene break, which begins with Phantom. Please always keep yourself safe, as I know these topics are sensitive. Also. THERE IS BLOOD IN HERE. Okay. Anyways. Enjoy!

· · · — 𖥸 · 𓃹 · 𖥸 — · · ·

Dew has been standing in the same spot for nine and a half minutes.

He knows because he's been watching the numbers scroll past on the lobby's ambient display, half-listening to Bell recite the first week's figures, half-doing the thing he does now where he actively vents heat off his hands and doesn't think about why it has become a necessary exercise.

The building feels like his. The reclaimed oak. The wall of living moss that costs more per month than some people's rent. The receptionist who says welcome to Helion like she means it, because he pays enough to be honest.

"—and membership inquiries are up four hundred percent since launch," Bell says, not looking up from his tablet. "Which is either very good or a sign we've drastically underpriced ourselves."

"Raise it," Dew says, already moving.

"Already drafted three tiers."

"Of course you have."

He takes the long way. He doesn't announce this and doesn't need to — Bell falls into step half a pace behind him. He makes no comment when Dew turns right when the styling suite is up two floors and to the left.

The moss wall runs the length of the east corridor, floor to ceiling, damp and green and putting out a cool that Dew can feel from six feet away. He slows as he passes it. Doesn't stop. Lets the back of one hand drift close enough to catch the temperature difference and pulls it back before it looks deliberate.

"The other stairs are faster," Bell says.

"I'm inspecting."

"Mm."

Omega catches them by the juice bar, expression doing the thing it does when he has opinions that he's deciding whether to share unprompted.

He decides, apparently, that Dew needs waking up.

"Your resting heart rate's down eight points from last month," he says, without preamble, falling into step on Dew's other side like the conversation was always going to happen in motion.

"I've been sleeping."

"You've been something." He hands him a glass — pale green, something with ginger in it, cold enough that Dew's fingers register it as relief before they register it as a drink, unasked for and correct anyway. "Physical's Tuesday. Don't reschedule it again."

"I was busy."

"You were avoiding the grip test because I beat your number last time and you haven't recovered emotionally." He says this with the flat, loving cruelty of someone who has been managing his body for years and has stopped being impressed by his objections. "Tuesday."

"Fine. Tuesday."

He's already peeling off toward the recovery suites, waving them off without turning around.

Bell watches him go. "He's the only person on payroll who talks to you like that."

"He's earned it."

"So have I."

"You talk to me like that constantly, Bell, I don't know what you're—"

"I talk to you like a professional," Bell says. "He talks to you like you're going to die of something preventable if he doesn't intervene. There's a difference."

"Be worse then," Dew grunts, avoiding eye contact by drinking the ginger thing instead.

It's cold all the way down. He gets about four steps of relief out of it before whatever's running under his skin today burns straight through and puts him right back where he started.

Second floor. Treatment corridor, amber lighting, four of the six indicator lights lit — occupied, mid-session, someone's sixty-minute float running past the hour because they'd asked to extend. Dew watches the lit doors go by and feels the thing in his chest do something warm and uncomplicated for once. Six weeks ago this hallway was scaffolding and a permitting dispute. Now there are people inside it, paying him, coming back.

He'd say he built this if saying it out loud didn't sound like something a ghoul says when he's stalling.

Third floor. He takes the last flight two at a time, because the alternative is standing still and fighting the heat.

The stylist's already waiting for him, chair turned out, cape over one arm. Bell steps off the landing behind him at a civilized pace, unhurried, the way he does everything.

The styling suite is the one room on the floor he can't walk.

It's glass-walled, north light, designed so whoever's in the chair can watch the whole floor without being watched back — Dew's own spec, back when he was thinking about sightlines and not about the fact that a styling chair is, functionally, a place you agree to hold still. He drops into it still warm from the stairs, and the stylist snaps the cape out and settles it around his neck, and that's it. The trap is sprung. Caped, pinned, both hands under fabric with nowhere to vent and forty minutes to sit in it.

He liked this room.

He likes it considerably less right now.

"How short," the stylist asks.

"Shorter than you're comfortable with."

"That's not a measurement."

"Only one I've got."

Bell has migrated to the doorway with his tablet, ostensibly reviewing the next quarter's projections, but actually watching with the specific stillness of a ghoul who knows exactly what's about to happen and has opinions about it that he's saving for later.

The cut takes the whole forty minutes. Dew spends most of it not looking at the mirror, because there's something about watching yourself get taken apart in real time that he's decided he doesn't need today, or possibly ever.

He looks at the floor instead.

The actual floor, through the glass, sessions turning over, a membership tour moving through — and lets it stand in for the walking he can't do. Listens to the numbers Bell keeps feeding him: Helion's first-week revenue, the membership tiers, a spa partnership somebody's shopping to him that he'll say yes to eventually because it makes money and he's stopped pretending money isn't at least part of the reason he does any of this.

His hands stay folded under the cape the whole time, running hot, unable to do anything about it.

When the stylist finally turns the chair around, Bell looks up from the tablet. Doesn't say anything for a second.

That, from Bell, is its own kind of commentary.

"Well," Bell says eventually.

"Well what."

"Nothing. It's a good look." A pause, exactly as long as it needs to be to not be nothing. "Aggressive. But good."

"Aggressive."

"You've removed every soft edge from your own face," Bell says, finally. "The same week you've watched the lounge feed more or less continuously. For security purposes, I believe you said?"

"It's a new service. It warrants oversight."

"It does," Bell agrees, pleasant, unbothered. "The oversight's been fairly... concentrated, hasn't it?"

Dew does not dignify this.

"It's a haircut, Bell."

"It's a statement, and you know it. I'm choosing not to ask what you're making it for." Bell taps something into the tablet. "I'll have the car brought around."

Dew looks at himself in the mirror for the first time since the cape went on.

White, cropped close at the sides, combed back off his face and between his horns with nothing left to soften it — no fall of hair to hide behind, nothing between the room and his own bone structure. He looks, he thinks, like a ghoul with nothing left to apologize for.

He doesn't think about why that feels like the correct amount of armor for tonight.

· · · — 𖥸 · 𓃹 · 𖥸 — · · ·

Dew drives.

He doesn’t always — that's what the car service is for, that's what he pays for — but tonight his hands wanted the wheel. Bell folded himself into the passenger seat without a word about it, which is doing nothing kind to his left eyelid.

Helion recedes in the mirror, all glass and moss and safe predictability. Dew watches it shrink until it's just another building on a street full of buildings, and waits for something in his chest to unclench.

It doesn't.

That's the tell, if he were looking for one.

Which he… which he isn't.

Nights used to land soft. Somewhere in the last week they stopped doing so entirely.

"You're gripping the wheel," Bell observes, to the windshield.

"It's called driving."

"Mm. Is it?" Bell lets it sit exactly long enough. "You drive a great deal more now. I've started keeping a log."

"You're fired."

"That's the third time this month."

"Then it should be taking."

"You told me to be worse," Bell says, serene, watching the road as though it's showing him something. "I'm meeting expectations."

Dew doesn't have a comeback that isn't proof of something, so he doesn't reach for one. Drives instead. Lets the road give his hands a job.

He feels it start, the fold. The version of him that answers to sir and the board and four hundred percent creasing itself down along old lines and tucking away behind his sternum, out of the way, making room. It isn't a decision.

It's a tide going out: the corporate vocabulary receding, and underneath it the other thing surfacing, the one that knows every dancer's rotation by heart and which of them is having a bad night from the set of their shoulders across a dark room.

By the time he turns onto Tempt's street he's most of the way there.

Not all the way. That last stretch never closes until he's actually through the door.

"You'll want tea when we get in," Bell says, apropos of nothing. "Not espresso. You always do, on the nights you're wound like this."

"I'm not wound."

He notices it even as he says it. Some low hum under his ribs that isn't quite nerves, isn't quite anticipation — maybe both wearing the same coat. He hadn't wanted anything a second ago. Now he wants the tea, which means Bell called it before he did, which is half of what Dew pays him for and the more irritating half tonight.

"No," Bell agrees, pleasant, and lets that be visibly untrue for a moment before he goes on. "It's a good haircut, for the record. Very decisive." A beat. "I remain invested in what you're using it for."

He doesn't elaborate.

Dew doesn't ask.

The car turns into the back lot. Dew kills the engine and sits for half a second longer than he needs to, hands still on the wheel, and then he's out.

The back door of Tempt is in front of him, and he goes through it. That's the stretch closing. He feels it go, the last of Helion folding away, club-Dew settling into his own skin like a coat that's always fit.

Tempt before open on a Friday is a held breath before the exhale — staff moving through the motions of opening, the low thrum of the sound system doing its pre-set warmup, Mist's voice somewhere back near the office running down the night's reservations like a liturgy.

Bell falls in a half-step behind him. The floor staff all keep their eyes down, because apparently the entire building has developed excellent instincts about which comments are safe to make out loud.

Cirrus looks up from the schedule board, does a full-body double-take, opens her mouth.

Closes it.

"It's a haircut, Cirrus."

"I didn't say anything."

"You were about to."

"I was about to say it's a good haircut," Cirrus says, entirely too innocently, and goes back to the board.

Dew takes a deep breath through his nose, and pushes on towards his office.

His office smells like cedar and the quiet of a room nobody's touched all day. He drops his folio on the desk, rolls his shoulders once, and the last of the fold finishes on its own.

The monitor bank is a wall of small, unremarkable screens tucked into the corner near the window, the club's floors laid out in grainy color, ordinary as furniture. Dew doesn't look at it so much as let it exist in his peripheral vision, the way he lets the hum of the building exist. Background noise. Nothing that needs his attention.

Except he's been letting it need his attention all week, and everyone in this building knows it.

The one apparently keeping a log about it settles into the chair across from the desk with his tablet, back to actual work. "Door's steady. Reservations full through midnight. The lounge is fully booked. Mist's running point on it personally tonight."

"Good." Dew pulls his own tablet toward him, starts scrolling the week's numbers, the low satisfaction of Helion's launch still sitting warm in his chest. "Tell her I want a debrief tomorrow. What's working, what isn't."

"Already scheduled."

"I shouldn't be surprised."

The building settles into its evening rhythm around them — footsteps, the bass starting to build downstairs, someone laughing near the dressing rooms. Dew works the numbers with half his attention, the other half still pleasantly, uselessly warm from the day.

On the monitor bank, in the corner of his eye, nothing is wrong yet.

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There's an ashtray in the bottom drawer of Dew's desk that officially does not exist. He's not supposed to smoke in the building — he wrote that rule too, along with all the others he's the sole exception to — but the window cracks open onto the street, and Bell handles the ventilation complaints before they reach him. So the ashtray persists, unacknowledged, a small conspiracy the whole floor maintains on his behalf.

He opens the window. Lights one between his fingers. Leans a hip against the sill and looks down at the puddles reflecting the bright neon that is Tempt. The street beyond it bustles, the ordinary Friday choreography of a city that doesn't know or care what's happening above it.

For a while he manages to just look at the street.

The monitor bank is too close to be ignored. He doesn't turn toward it. This is a decision he re-makes roughly every twenty seconds.

Rain's on the pole a few minutes before nine — Dew knows this without turning around, which is its own kind of damning, because it means he's been watching the feed in his peripheral vision the entire time he's been very deliberately watching the street. On the screen, small and grainy and gold-lit, Rain makes gravity look like a suggestion. Dew is not watching this. He happens to be facing a window, and the window is near the screen, and his eyes are simply passing over it on their way to somewhere more important. It's an accident of geometry.

Which it continues to be for the length of the whole routine, the cigarette burning down far slower than it should.

By nine-thirty Rain's off the main floor and up in the lounge with his first booking of the night. Some guy in a jacket that costs more than it should for how badly it fits him, sitting with the sprawl of someone who's decided the room belongs to him for the hour he's paying for. Rain gives him the lap-dance version of small talk, all economical movement and a smile that doesn't reach anywhere near his eyes. Dew has learned to tell Rain's smiles apart by now. This isn't one of the good ones. It's the work one. It's supposed to look exactly like that, and it does, and that's fine.

Dew taps ash into the tray and does not watch.

He watches the ember instead, mostly, the way the smoke goes up in a straight line before the draft from the window catches it and bends it sideways — and not the way Rain leans back into the guy's space for exactly as long as the song requires and not one beat past it, professional to the second.

Around ten the client orders a drink and Rain builds it himself instead of calling it down, some flourish with the shaker that's pure theater, the guy eating it up with the hunger of someone who thinks he's being let in on something. Rain's head tips back on a laugh. The coquette one. All performance, zero content, engineered to make a stranger feel like the funniest man alive for the price of a bottle-service minimum.

Dew has heard Rain's real laugh four times. He could list the occasions. He's choosing not to, tonight, on principle.

He lights another cigarette, which he is also not supposed to do, and goes back to not watching the screen — which has become, over the last hour, its own kind of labor. Careful, muscular, full-body disinterest, aimed at a grainy gold rectangle one floor up where absolutely nothing is wrong.

It's an easy night. Everyone keeps saying so. Bell said it twice. Mist said it in the clipped tone she saves for things that are objectively fine and that she doesn't want to jinx.

Dew stubs the second one out. Stays at the window a moment, the smoke thinning, and thinks with real irritation about how he's spent an entire good week — the launch, the haircut, the four hundred percent — and is choosing to spend the back half of it chain-smoking at a cracked window and resenting a stranger in a bad jacket for buying, entirely within the rules, an hour of attention that was never Dew's to be territorial about.

He should know better. He does know better. He's the one who wrote the rules.

He crosses back to the desk and drags his chair over to sit down in front of the monitors anyway. Tells himself it's for the door count.

The door count is fine. Of course it is, Mountain's on it, it's never an actual worry. He watches it be fine for a while, one eye on the tally and the other exactly where it's been since nine. The two cigarettes sit in his chest like a decision he's going to regret at his upcoming physical.

The lounge clears at ten-thirty for the mandatory reset — fifteen minutes, wipe-down and turnover between reservations no matter how the client behaved. Dew wrote that rule too, back before it had ever once felt personal. Tonight it just means fifteen minutes where there's nothing on the feed to not-watch, which is its own small mercy.

He goes out onto the mezzanine instead of sitting with it. Tells himself it's a walkthrough. Tells himself that's a normal thing for an owner to do on a busy Friday.

Aurora's on the main stage for her second set, the one that's hers now, no filler, no leftover slot nobody else wanted. She's good. Genuinely good, in the way of a ghoul who spent months being competent in corners and is finally finding out what she looks like with a real room actually watching her.

Wanting her.

She catches the pole on the downbeat and holds it a half-second longer than she needs to, like she's still testing whether she's allowed to play, to have fun with it.

She's more than allowed.

Dew watches her land it clean and feels something in his chest unclench that has nothing to do with Rain for once — a whole minute of feeling something simple, and it's almost a relief to remember he still can.

He doesn't linger. She's got it, and hovering would only make it about him.

And there's the other thing, the one he isn't saying, which is that the reset's almost up and Rain's booked back-to-back tonight, two lounge slots with the turnover between them, which means Rain will be down on the mezzanine right about now getting his body right for the second one. Dew knows this the way he knows everything about how this building runs at this hour. He designed the schedule. He designed the alcove after Aurora suggested putting a barre on the mezzanine. He approved the double booking himself, weeks ago, initials and everything.

Rain's right there, just like Dew knew he would be. His office is past the barre. He doesn't think about how convenient that is.

Rain's stretching. Folded forward over the barre with the loose, unbothered ease of someone who's done this ten thousand times and stopped finding it remarkable. He's not performing. Nobody's watching — or he thinks nobody is, which has always amounted to the same thing, except that Dew has stopped where he stands and is, once again, doing the exact thing he's spent all night not doing.

This is different from the pole. Different from the lap dance, the drink, the coquette laugh. All of it built to be looked at, priced by the hour. This is just Rain's actual spine, folding and unfolding in the quiet with no one's money on it. His hair's come half-loose from whatever he'd tied it back with for the set. He exhales through the stretch, slow, rolls his neck, and for three seconds looks like exactly what he is instead of what the room pays him to be.

Dew has never been able to decide which version wrecks him worse.

Rain switches legs without opening his eyes. "You're doing the thing."

"I'm not doing anything."

"You're doing the thing. Standing there like you walked in by accident." He folds forward again, easy. "Own the building. Allowed to be wherever you want in it."

"I'm aware of my property rights, thank you."

"Mhm." Rain straightens, finally. Rolls one shoulder back, and catches Dew properly for the first time — head to foot, unhurried, the assessing look he never bothers to hide. It stops at the hair.

Everyone's had a comment tonight. Bell, Cirrus, the entire floor performing studied blindness. Dew braces for the version of it that comes with a smirk attached.

"Hair's different," Rain says.

That's all. No angle on it. No bit. Just a fact he's decided to say out loud, and something underneath it that might be approval and might be nothing and isn't performing to be either.

"Astute," Dew says, because it's that or nothing.

"Didn't say I minded." Rain reaches for the water bottle on the shelf, unhurried, and Dew doesn't have anything ready for that — doesn't have anything ready at all, which is becoming a theme — and is saved from needing it by Mist's voice carrying down the hall. Client's in. Room's reset. Five minutes.

Rain caps the water. Rolls his neck once more.

"Back to it," he says, and disappears up the stairs to the lounge — an ordinary, unremarkable, ten-forty-five on a Friday with nothing yet gone wrong.

Dew heads back toward his office, choosing not to examine why didn't say I minded is going to sit in his chest for the rest of the night.

He vents his hands once before he takes the door — an old habit, except tonight the brass still ticks and settles under his palm as it swings shut, cooling from something it shouldn't have gotten near.

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The new client's already seated by the time Dew's back at the monitors.

Older than the last one. Better tailored. The kind of expensive that doesn't announce itself so much as assume that everyone can tell. He sits like a man, just a man, Dew reminds himself, just a paying human man — who's used to things arriving when he wants them and has never once had to go get anything himself.

Dew doesn't like him. Instantly. Before the guy's said a single word.

It's the mood. He's been wound all night; Bell's got a log about it. He's allowed one uncharitable read on a stranger who hasn't done anything yet.

He almost believes it.

Rain comes in for the intro — the professional lean, the handshake that's more formality than greeting. The client doesn't stand for it. Doesn't take the hand right away either, just looks at Rain a beat too long first, like he's confirming the order matches the receipt. Rain doesn't flinch. Rain never flinches; Dew's watched a hundred hours of this feed and never once seen it, which is exactly the problem with reading anything off him at all.

The first few minutes go fine.

Dew's hands are running hot, but he keeps them wrapped around his tablet. The client stays contained. Hands where they belong, tips into the garter at the right intervals, the whole thing textbook. The guy knows how to behave in expensive company.

Rain works him the way Rain works every room, economical, unbothered, giving precisely what the booking's owed and not a degree more.

Dew's shoulders start to come down. See. Fine. Nothing.

Then the guy snaps his fingers.

Two fingers, once, the exact gesture someone might use for a dog and says something Dew can't quite make out. Rain's face doesn't change at all as he comes down onto his knees and starts the floor work.

It's not the floor work that's bothering him. Dew knows every second of Rain's floor repertoire; he's watched him give this exact sequence to a dozen clients who tipped well and went home happy and never once made Dew's jaw do what it's doing now.

It's the snap. It's the two seconds before it, where the guy wasn't watching Rain so much as watching a service get performed rather than a person doing something with skill.

Dew's temperature climbs and he knows precisely what that means in a closed room. He sets the tablet down before the casing can warp.

He's handled worse than a rude man's fingers. He handled worse before you ever bought the building.

He believes sixty percent of that. Maybe less.

The guy pats his own thigh. Twice. Casual, like calling something to heel — and whatever he says with it, the meaning carries through the grainy lens without a word: here.

Rain's chin dips a fraction. Somewhere behind his eyes an eye-roll exists, fully formed, but Rain is too good at this to spend it. He doesn't kneel up into the guy's lap, either. He redirects — a hand to the shoulder, light, saying closer but on my terms, leaning in instead of down. He says something back, low and easy, the corner of his mouth doing the work his eyes aren't bothering with tonight.

It's built to read as a no the client can mistake for winning.

The client doesn't take it as a no.

His hand comes up and closes around Rain's wrist. Not violent, not yet, nothing dramatic enough to justify what's already happening in Dew's chest, but wrong. Proprietary in a way the club's entire rulebook exists specifically to prevent.

Dew smells it before he understands it, the low burnt-sugar warmth that always sits under his own skin gone sharp, gone scorched, the back of his throat full of something left too long on a hot stove. His own scent. He's never smelled himself do that. Some far, still-working corner of him notes it, clinical and distant: that's new.

Rain doesn't pull away immediately. Of course he doesn't. Pulling away immediately reads as alarm, and alarm on the floor is bad for everyone. Rain has spent years building the exact professional composure required to de-escalate a room without ever once looking rattled. He says something else instead, still smiling, still working it, and with his free hand gently — gently, so gently —

He peels them off, one at a time, all the patience in the world for a lesson the man should already know.

Hands stay where the dancer puts them. Rule one. It's on a card in every room. It's the first thing Mist tells them before the door even shuts.

The guy laughs. Says something with real teeth in it this time, clear enough that Dew reads half a word through the lag — something that looks a lot like paid for —

𖥸

and reaches again —

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The stairwell.

Dew's already halfway up it and doesn't remember standing. Doesn't remember the office door, the mezzanine, the first flight. There's only the burnt-sugar-gone-bitter thick in his own nose and the rail passing under his hand and someone's voice somewhere far behind him asking something sharp that doesn't reach folded under the roar of his own pulse, gone before it lands.

Three at a time. The animal part of him ruled out the elevator before the rest of him caught up to what was happening, and the rest of him still hasn't.

He hits the lounge door with his shoulder instead of the handle.

And everything stops.

Not the room — the room keeps moving. The client's hand is closing on Rain's wrist a second time. Rain's already turning into it, already breaking the grip, competent, unhurried, handling it the way he's handled a hundred smaller versions of this. None of that stops.

It's just that Dew has gone somewhere very slow and very quiet to watch it from.

Rain's eyes have gone lighter. Not the deep ocean blue he wears on the floor — the real color underneath, silver and moving, water doing what she does when the ghoul wearing it stops bothering to keep her folded down small. There's a current in them. Visible. Restless. The first honest thing Dew has watched that face do all night.

He isn't afraid. Dew registers this from that far, quiet place. No, Rain is furious. Furious and controlled, and entirely capable of finishing this himself in the next three seconds without anyone's help.

It doesn't land. The information arrives and finds nowhere to go.

Because underneath it, lower than thought, lower than the part of him that writes rules and reads numbers and spent all week pretending a feed was about security — something has already decided. The decision is exactly one word, and it comes up whole and ugly and without a single apology:

Mine.

That's it. That's all of it. No caveat, no catch, no watcher leaning in to say you don't get to think that, he isn't yours, he was never yours to be territorial about. All the careful machinery that has narrated Dew to himself every minute of his life simply isn't there to object. It's gone quiet. For the first time all night, all week, even longer, there is no second voice.

There's just the one. And it's already moving his body.

His hand is a fist before he's told it to be.

He doesn't remember crossing the room.

He remembers his knuckles connecting.

The first hit isn't clean.

Dew's never been a fighter. His arena is boardrooms, numbers, the slow bloodless violence of buying a thing out from under someone who thought it wasn't for sale. He's never once thrown a punch that mattered. It turns out there's a kind of violence that lives lower than skill, older than technique, and it's driving his body now with none of the hesitation the boardroom would've built in.

His knuckles catch the guy across the jaw and the sound is wrong, wet and dull and far too intimate, bone shifting under skin. It travels straight up Dew's arm and lodges somewhere behind his sternum where the second voice used to live. The guy staggers into the low table. He doesn't drop all the way, and some part of Dew is offended by that, wants the sound again, wants it worse —

He follows him down.

Gets a fist in the guy's collar and hauls him half-upright, not to help him, but to have somewhere to put the next one. It lands across the cheekbone and opens something, a dark line welling up fast. The heat's in Dew's hands now, past the point where he could pull it back even if that part of him were still online. The skin under his knuckles doesn't just split. It takes, the way skin takes to a stovetop, and the guy's noise stops being words.

"You were told." Dew doesn't recognize his own voice — low, scraped raw, obscenely calm for what his hands are doing. "There's a card. On the table. You read it."

The guy gets an arm up. Dew takes the wrist, the same wrist's worth of gesture the guy spent on Rain, and does something fast and ugly with it. Worse even, because this one he means. Everything else his hands are doing tonight is blind, the animal swinging at anything in reach. This is aimed.

He knows exactly which hand this is. He bends it the wrong way until something gives with a sound like green wood, and the scream that comes out of the guy is a different species from the ones before it. High, startled, disbelieving, every ounce of that expensive stillness now gone.

That hand won't touch anything again.

"You put your hands," Dew says, and hits him, "where they don't," and again, "belong."

He's not counting. There's no number in him. There's just the next one, and the next, the heat pouring off him in waves now, the room gone thick with scorched sugar and copper, and distantly from that far, quiet place, some last intact thread of him keeps one thing held: alive.

Not mercy. Nowhere close to mercy. Just — not here. Not on this carpet, not in this room, not the fast clean version this animal wants. There's a procedure for what this man has earned and it happens somewhere with a drain.

The thread holds. Barely. It's the only thing that does.

Then there are arms around him.

Swiss, up two flights faster than should be possible, both hands locked around Dew's shoulders and hauling him back with the kind of strength that doesn't negotiate. Mountain fills the doorway behind him, a wall, blocking the hall so nothing on this floor spills into view of anyone who doesn't need to see it.

Dew fights the grip. One full second. Feral, blind, still burning, twisting toward the thing on the floor because it isn't finished —

and then a thread pulls taut enough to snap, and he stops.

Just stops.

He's breathing like he ran the whole building twice. His knuckles are split across two fingers and slick and already blistering at the edges from his own heat, and he feels none of it. Feels nothing except the sudden ringing absence of whatever ran him for the last ninety seconds, the animal receding and leaving him standing in the wreckage of what it did with his own two hands.

The guy's on the floor. Curled around himself, breathing in wet catches. Alive. Conscious, barely. Beaten to the exact edge of the line Dew's last thread held and no further, because that thread, it turns out, was load-bearing.

Swiss's grip eases a fraction, testing. "You good?"

Dew doesn't answer.

His eyes have already found the only thing in the room that matters.

Rain is standing.

He's moved, put the low table between himself and where Dew now stands, the way you'd instinctively put furniture between yourself and a fire. Untouched past the wrist. Watching Dew with those silver eyes still churning, wide, fixed on him like he's a problem Rain hasn't finished solving.

Dew makes himself look away from him. It costs something.

"Basement," he says. "Hold him."

His voice is still wrong — flat, scraped, none of the heat left in it now, just the cold thing underneath that protects what's his. Swiss doesn't ask for what. He's worked here long enough to hear the rest of the sentence in the silence.

"Copy."

He's already moving, hauling the guy up off the carpet by the back of his ruined jacket, efficient and unbothered, the way you'd clear a spill. Mountain takes the other side without a word. Between them the thing that walked in here radiating money goes out the door dragged and folded and making small wet sounds. Dew watches just long enough to be certain of one thing: that it's still breathing.

It's still breathing. Good.

He's not finished with it. He has every intention of being the one who is — later, downstairs, with his own two hands, because that guy put those hands on something that was his and there is precisely one correct answer to that and Dew is going to deliver it personally.

Later.

Because Rain is still standing there with the table between them, and the silver still moving in his eyes. The man in the basement can wait as long as it takes, because there is nothing at all now between Dew and the only thing he crossed two floors and every rule he ever wrote to reach.

The heat goes out of him all at once, the way a fever breaks. What's left underneath is shaking.

He looks at his own hands.

Split across two fingers, slick, someone else's blood already going tacky in the creases of his knuckles. Blistered at the edges where his own heat had nowhere else to go. They don't look like his. They look like something that happened.

Then he looks at Rain. At the wrist, where he was grabbed, where four faint points are coming up on that cool grey-blue skin, the shape of a hand that no longer has all its working parts.

Something in Dew's chest cracks straight down the middle.

He crosses the room. Slowly, now, every movement gone careful, like the animal used up a lifetime's worth of speed and left him with none. He comes around the table Rain put between them and stops close, not touching, hands half-raised and hovering. Still shaking in a way he doesn't try to hide.

"Can I—"

His voice is wrecked. Nothing left in it of the ghoul who was giving orders ninety seconds ago. He stops. Starts over.

"Where else did he touch you?"

Rain looks at him. Just looks — silver eyes still moving, still wide, cataloging whatever is happening on Dew's face like it's the more urgent injury in the room. For a second he doesn't answer at all.

"Wrist," he says finally. Quiet. None of the velvet in it, none of the performance. "Only my wrist."

Dew's eyes drop to it. The marks, already darkening. The sight of them does something molten and terrible under his sternum, worse than the fight, worse than anything the animal felt.

"May I?"

It comes out small and oddly formal, absurd from a ghoul with another man's blood drying on his knuckles. He waits. Hands hovering. He does not touch Rain until Rain decides he can.

Rain holds the wrist out.

Dew takes it like it might come apart in his hands. Two fingers, barely any weight at all, turning it toward the light to see the marks properly. The cool of Rain's skin against his own scorched palms is almost too much, that contrast that usually lives as a low background hum every time they brush past each other now roaring, immediate, the loudest thing in the room.

He runs his thumb along the edge of the bruising, feather-light, checking for anything worse than surface. Rain doesn't flinch. Doesn't pull back.

"Does it hurt?"

"No."

"Rain."

"No," Rain says again, softer. There's something almost gentle in it now, almost reassuring, which is… backwards. It's Rain steadying him, and Dew can't bear it.

He keeps checking anyway. Turns the wrist, checks the pulse of it, the small bones, works up the forearm with the same care you'd spend on something breakable and irreplaceable — which is, some far part of him understands, exactly what he's decided this is.

His hands shake the entire time. He doesn't try to stop them.

Rain's hand comes up.

Dew doesn't see it start, he's still bent over Rain’s wrist. The first he knows of it is a thumb against his cheekbone, cool, deliberate, dragging slow through something on his skin. Wiping it away. A smear of the guy's blood he hadn't known was there.

Everything in Dew stops.

Not the white-out stop from the doorway. The opposite of that. This is every scattered piece of him going suddenly, completely quiet at once, all of his attention collapsing down to one cool point of contact just under his eye, to the fact that Rain —

Rain, who he crossed two floors to reach, who he broke a hand over — is touching his face. On purpose. Cleaning him.

Rain pulls his hand back.

Not quite fast enough.

It sits there in the air between them, the half-second too long, undeniable, and Rain's expression flickers, something almost uncertain crossing a face that is never, ever uncertain.

"Thank you," Rain says.

And then stops. Because there's a name that goes on the end of that. Dew can see him reach for it, can see the exact moment Rain's mouth prepares to shape a word he doesn't have and finds nothing there. New boss. Boss. Nothing you can put after thank you that doesn't turn it small.

The thanks sits there between them, incomplete. Owing something.

"Don't," Dew says.

Quiet. Not sharp, there's no heat left in him to be sharp with. Rain's spent enough years reading rooms to know the difference between an order and a plea, and this is neither, exactly, or both.

He clears his throat.

"Don't make it a transaction."

Because it isn't. Because a thank you is what you give the security who removed a problem, what you owe the house for a service rendered. Dew would rather Rain never thank him at all than have this filed under the same system as everything else that gets handled in this building. He can't say the real shape of it. The real shape of it is a single ugly word he thought in the doorway and is not going to say out loud in a room that still smells like what that word made him do.

So: don't. It's the closest he can get.

Rain doesn't answer. Just looks at him, silver still moving, slower now, reading whatever's on Dew's face and putting it somewhere Dew can't see.

Dew makes himself straighten. Makes himself set the wrist down, gently, like putting down something he doesn't have the right to keep holding. Steps back. Puts air between them because if he doesn't do it now he isn't sure he's going to.

"I'll send Phantom up," he says.

He watches Rain clock the specificity of that. Not someone, not I'll get you help, but Phantom, by name, the one person Rain would actually want in this room right now. Dew knows that the way he knows everything else that he has quietly observed. He knows who Rain reaches for. He's been paying that much attention for longer than he's admitted to himself.

Rain's eyes narrow, fractional.

Dew turns for the door before his face can do anything else in front of a ghoul who reads faces for a living.

"Someone will bring you water," he says, to the doorframe. "And ice. For the wrist."

And then he's out, and moving, the stairwell taking him down toward the basement. One more thing his hands have to do tonight. Behind him, in a room that still smells like scorched sugar, Rain is left holding a thank-you with no name on the end of it and a face he can't stop turning over.

The stairwell's colder than the lounge. It always is; heat rises. The basement access is quiet and out of the way, the way you keep the parts of a business you don't put on the tour.

He keeps going down.

Somewhere between the second landing and the first, the second voice comes back online. He feels it reboot, the part of him that narrates, that categorizes, that has spent a lifetime translating everything he feels into something he can put in a column and defend. It comes back reaching for the word from the doorway, the ugly one, and it gets to work immediately doing what it does, which is make things survivable.

Mine as in staff, it offers. As in payroll. Rain is his the way the building is his, the way Helion is his, the way the whole apparatus of Tempt runs under his name and his liability and his duty of care. A man came into his establishment and put hands on one of his people in violation of every rule posted on every wall, and Dew responded the way any owner protecting an asset would respond, which was —

Which was to break the offending hand, and keep the man breathing on purpose, so he could come downstairs and finish it himself.

The rationalization thins out around there.

He tries again on the next landing. Mine as in responsibility. As in the thing you feel for anyone under your roof, the same thing he'd feel if it were Aurora in that room, or Cirrus, or Mist — he'd have gone up the stairs for any of them, wouldn't he. He would. That part's even true. He would have gone.

But he wouldn't have thought mine.

He reaches the basement door with that sitting in his chest, unfiled, refusing every column he's tried to put it in, and he stops with his hand flat against the cold metal of it and does the thing he's avoided doing all night, all week, since an email a little too late at night, months ago:

He lets it be true.

Rain is his.

Not as staff. Not as an asset, not as a responsibility, not as any of the safe words the second voice keeps trying to hand him.

Rain is his in whatever way Rain will let him have. His to want, his to cross two floors for, his to stand in a cold basement over. It doesn't have to make sense and it doesn't have to fit in a column and he is done, at least tonight, pretending otherwise.

That man upstairs touched something that wasn't his.

Dew pushes the door open.

The thing on the floor lifts its ruined face toward the light, and starts to say something. A name maybe, a lawyer, a number, some last card a man like that always thinks he's still holding.

"You put your hands on something that belongs to me," Dew says. The heat comes back into him low and even and without any hurry at all now, no white-out, nothing feral, just a fire that he has finally decided to acknowledge. "Let's talk about that."

He closes the door behind him.

· · · — 𖥸 · 𓃹 · 𖥸 — · · ·

Phantom is having, by any reasonable metric, the best night of their life topside.

They have been, for the last twenty-some minutes, thoroughly and enthusiastically occupied in the back hallway between the dressing room and the stage. Occupied to the point of ruin, in fact. Makeup wrecked, one strap of their outfit slid clean off a shoulder and abandoned there, and Bell, unhurried professional composed Bell, had made a sound against Phantom's throat that Phantom fully intends to bring up at every available opportunity for the rest of their unnatural life.

And then Dew's voice comes over the floor radio, clipped and wrong, telling Mist to send someone to the lounge, and the whole building's air changes.

Phantom knows the difference between a normal something happened and a something happened that made Dew sound like that. They're up and out the door before Bell's finished reaching for his shirt.

The hallway's a blur. They fix the strap on instinct, give up on the makeup entirely, and take the stairs toward the lounge two at a time —

— and nearly collide with Dew coming down.

He's a mess. Sleeves shoved up, knuckles split and dark, something dried and red flecked across one side of that new haircut and the sharp line of his jaw. He's moving fast the other direction. Downward.

"Boss—"

"Phantom. Lounge. Rain's fine, he's not hurt, he just needs—" Dew stops. Looks at them. Actually looks, right at the ruined makeup, the strap that's already sliding again, the whole radiant disaster of a ghoul who was very recently having an excellent time. Something moves through his face that on any other night might've been amusement, if there'd been any room left in him for it. "He needs you. Go."

"On it—" Phantom's already past him, already climbing. Then, over their shoulder, because they can't not: "You've got— your whole face, boss, there's—"

"I know," Dew says, and keeps going down, rolling one bloody sleeve tighter like he's got somewhere worse to be.

He does, Phantom understands. He absolutely does. And Phantom does not ask, because there are things at this club you simply don't ask about, out of professional courtesy and a robust personal commitment to plausible deniability.

They take the last flight up.

Rain's exactly where Phantom expects him to be, on the edge of the low bed, silver still bleeding through eyes that haven't quite gone back to their stage-blue, one wrist held loose against his chest like he's forgotten it's there.

Phantom takes one look at his face.

They notice his wrist, of course. The blooming marks, the careful way he's holding it. But it's the expression that stops them cold in the doorway, because Phantom has seen every face Rain owns. The stage ones. The private ones. The one he makes at four in the morning when he's too tired to hold any of them. This isn't in the collection. This is new.

"What did he do," Phantom says.

Not the client. They can put that together easily enough, they passed the evidence of it flecked across Dew's jaw on the stairs. That's not the question.

The question is him. The other one. The one who went down to the basement rolling up his sleeves.

Rain looks up. Opens his mouth. Closes it.

"He came through the door," Rain says slowly, like he's testing each word for load-bearing capacity before he puts weight on it, "before I'd finished deciding I needed him to."

Phantom crosses the room and drops onto the bed beside him, shoulder to shoulder, the way they sit when it's the real thing and not the performance.

"And?"

"And he checked my wrist like it was going to come apart in his hands." Rain's staring at his own fingers now, the other hand, the one that did something Phantom hasn't heard about yet but can see the shape of in how still he's gone. "Told me not to thank him. Told me not to make it a transaction." A pause. Longer. "And then he told me he'd send you up. By name."

Phantom doesn't say anything to that.

Which, for Phantom, is its own kind of event.

Because they've been watching this happen in slow motion for weeks. Have, if they're being honest, been helping it happen, them and Bell both, a whole quiet campaign of engineered proximity. There is a version of I told you so sitting right there, fully loaded, and even Phantom knows better than to fire it into this particular silence.

So they just put an arm around him instead.

Rain leans into it. Which is answer enough.

Phantom doesn't push for the rest of it. There's going to be a rest of it, the whole story, the wrist, the hand Rain hasn't mentioned, whatever put that new face on him, but it'll come when Rain's ready to hand it over and not a second before. Phantom has known him long enough to know the difference between a silence that wants filling and one that just wants company.

They shift instead. Get an arm all the way around him, pull him in until Rain's weight settles against their side, his head finding the dip of their shoulder like it's done it a thousand times, because it has. Phantom rests their chin on the crown of his head. Feels him breathe out long and uneven, the first breath all night that isn't holding something.

"You're okay," Phantom says. Not a question. Just laying it on the table where Rain can see it.

"I know."

They stay like that a while. Long enough that the silver finally finishes draining out of Rain's eyes. Long enough that Phantom's own pulse comes down from wherever it had shot up to on the stairs.

Their head tilts slightly, hearing noise in the hallway. Footsteps, and the awkward juggle of too many things while trying to get the door open with a hip instead of a hand.

They could help, but that would mean leaving Rain, and that is simply not an option that is available to them right now.

Bell gets it, eventually. The door swings open and reveals him, slightly out of breath, carrying a bucket of ice against one hip and a glass of water in his free hand and himself with the enormous, fragile dignity of a ghoul who has decided that if he simply moves with enough composure, no one will notice anything is amiss.

Several things are working against this.

His tie is gone, as is his jacket. His shirt is on, Phantom notes in a purely delighted way, backward, the collar seam riding up under his jaw, the placket crooked against a spine it was not designed to face. His hair, ordinarily immaculate, has been thoroughly handled. The tips of both his ears are a deep and unmistakable copper that has nothing to do with the temperature of the ice.

Phantom watches all of this arrive in the doorway and feels the best night of their life get, somehow, even better.

"I was told," he says, determined not to acknowledge his own appearance, "that ice was required."

"Bell," Phantom grins, "you look like you got hit by a truck."

"I look like I am assisting with an urgent matter."

"Your shirt's on backward."

Bell holds Phantom's gaze for a long, level moment. The copper at his ears deepens. The shimmer at his jaw does not recede. Somewhere, invisibly, Phantom would bet real money that a tail has just twitched inside a trouser leg — but Bell's face gives up nothing else, and his voice, when it comes, is a marvel of unbothered composure.

"Rain," he says, turning, voice dropping into something gentler as he sets the ice and water down on the side table, "how's the wrist?"

"Fine," Rain says. "Manageable."

Bell looks at it anyway. Professional, quick, the same clinical once-over he probably gives every incident report that crosses his desk. Something in his face softens by a degree Phantom's never seen.

"Good." A beat. "He'll want to hear that from you himself, at some point. When you're ready. Not tonight." Bell straightens, recovering the shape of professionalism even with his shirt on backward. "There's no rush on anything. The room's yours as long as you want it."

Then he's gone again, back out the door, presumably to go make himself actually presentable.

Phantom looks at Rain.

Rain looks at the ice bucket.

"Wanna talk about it, or are you going to sit here being emotionally constipated at me for a while first?"

Rain, after a long moment, laughs — small and real, nothing like the coquette one.

"Little of both," he says.

Phantom settles in. "Yeah. Figured."

They rest in the quiet for a while before the door opens again.

Bell, shirt now mysteriously correct, tie back in place, looking like a ghoul who has fully reassembled himself through sheer force of will.

"I'll drive you both home," he says. "Boss's orders."

"Since when do you drive us home," Phantom says.

"Since he told me to, and I've learned not to ask follow-up questions when he uses that particular tone. He would do it himself, but he's… indisposed." Bell glances at his tablet, all business again, though there's something careful underneath it. "You're both tipped out for the night already — full amount, whatever was scheduled. And he's added a lost-wages adjustment for the incident. Doesn't want either of you shorted for a night that went sideways through no fault of your own."

Rain doesn't say anything to that. Phantom watches something move across his face, quick, complicated, gone before it can be named.

"Course he did," Phantom says, mostly to fill the silence, because someone has to.

"He also said," Bell continues, with the air of a man reading a message verbatim because he doesn't trust himself to paraphrase it correctly, "and I quote, 'tell them to take tomorrow if they need it, and don't let Phantom talk them out of it.'"

"I would never," Phantom says.

"You absolutely would."

"Okay, fair, but I wasn't going to tonight."

Bell allows himself something close to a smile. "Car's out back. Whenever you're ready."

Rain stands. Tests his own weight like he's checking all his parts still work. The wrist gets tucked carefully against his chest, more out of habit than pain at this point, and Phantom loops an arm through his good one on the way out, steering him past the ice bucket he never touched and the low bed neither of them is going to think about tonight.

The ride's quiet. Bell drives well, smooth and unhurried, the radio low. Exactly the speed limit, like the car might file a complaint otherwise. He doesn't ask either of them anything, which is its own type of kindness. Rain watches the city go by through the window, forehead almost touching the glass, and Phantom lets him have the silence.

They pull up outside Rain's building a little after midnight.

"Get some sleep," Bell says, as they climb out. Then, quieter, mostly to Rain: "He'll ask about you tomorrow. Even if he doesn't say it directly. Just — expect it."

Rain doesn't answer. But something in his shoulders comes down half an inch, and Phantom, watching, adds one more thing to the folder.

The car pulls away. Phantom gets the door open, gets Rain inside, gets both of them up the stairs and out of their shoes and onto the couch before either of them says another word.

"We sleeping?" Phantom finally asks, "or are we staring at the ceiling all night thinking about our boss with that guy's blood all over his face?"

Rain doesn't dignify that with a response.

Which is, of course, an answer in itself.

They end up in Rain's bed the way they often do. Phantom curled against Rain's side with their ruined makeup finally scrubbed off and one of Rain's old t-shirts hanging loose off their shoulder. The lamp's still on. Neither of them has bothered to turn it off.

Rain's staring at the ceiling. His wrist is propped on a pillow, iced, mostly forgotten. His mind keeps snagging on the same four seconds over and over, the door swinging open and the look on Dew's face. He lets it, doesn't fight it, too tired to do anything else with it tonight.

Phantom yawns against his shoulder. Goes quiet for a while, which usually means they're either asleep or plotting, and with Phantom it's genuinely a coin flip.

Then, without opening their eyes: "Sooo."

"Mhm."

"Bell, huh."

Rain turns his head. Phantom's got the smallest, most insufferable smile tugging at one corner of their mouth, eyes still closed, entirely too pleased with themself for someone who spent the last hour being an emotional support system.

"Don't," Rain says, delighted despite everything.

"I'm just saying. His shirt was on backward. Backward, Rain."

"You're insane."

"I'm reporting." Phantom finally cracks an eye open. "You wiped blood off his face, Rain. With your thumb. Gently. I'm allowed one segue into my own business."

Rain huffs something that's almost a laugh and it loosens something in his chest that's been wound tight since the lounge door came off its hinges.

"How long," he asks.

"Define 'how long.'"

"Phantom."

"...A while," Phantom admits, smug and unbothered, tucking back into Rain's shoulder like the conversation's settled. "Longer than you'd guess. Shorter than I'd like."

"You're unbelievable."

"I'm thriving," Phantom corrects. "And so, may I remind you, are you. You've got a rich, violent man losing his entire composure over a bruise on your wrist, and you're interrogating my love life."

Rain doesn't have a response to that. Doesn't try to find one. He just reaches over and turns off the lamp instead.

Phantom's still smiling, he can hear it in their breathing, and for the first time in hours the only thing sitting in his chest is something warm.

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