At Least Nothing Has A Name
You can’t say that I was nothing; at least nothing has a name.
Despite all my loving and caring, all I did was done in vain.
You forsake me once you use me, while I hand to you my soul—
All I do falls into an abyss to be forgotten once it’s done.
You can’t say that I was nothing; you cant find me in your head—
All I’ve done will only be carried in my now empty chest.
Empty from the carnage of having pulled out my beating heart
That heart I once lovingly handed and surrendered for your dirty scraps.
Heavy footsteps; I’m exhausted from the longing infecting my bones—
I can’t rid myself of this sickness; it’s now embedded in my soul.
You can’t say that I was nothing; to you I’ve been meaningless at best—
Even after pouring my veins out it was never enough for you to care.
I have bled out all my life force hoping someday it’d be enough,
But to you it’s less than nothing; but at least nothing has a name
While I’m not even in the spaces between the words you’ve left unsaid.
All this while you haunt my silence and you run away with my light—
Just for the sake of having it even when you’re not even in the dark.
You’ve made me feel like I am nothing; yet I think I am too much.
You’re a bottomless well; there will never be enough to fill you up.
My bleeding heart has been a testament; nothing does not compare
Because while to you I might be nothing; my name will be carved into your soul
And in the twilight you will try to find the light you took away;
To then find out it died the day I pronounced my name.
Every syllable laced with the love salvaged from everything you stole to throw away
Because while to you I might be nothing; I have always had a name.
- Amanda Isabeli Salguero