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Every time it seems as though I’m finally in a part of life I can enjoy, I ruin it through my own decisions. It’s as if subconsciously, I want myself to be miserable.

I used to think I deserved misery,, and so it doesn’t necessarily surprise me that I would subconsciously ruin my own happiness...,,..... ,,,, . , I just thought things were different these days.

The rain told me life happens when you let go of what you thought mattered, so I did. And letting go brought about the pain of a worthless existence and the absolute guilt of continuation. The rain let me watch it from the window, so I did. I saw my garden drown, and the flowers drown, and the weeds drown.

Now its all dirt and dirt and dirt and dirt.

I’m Sorry Guys

I’m trapped and I’m trapped and I’m an 18 year old kid and I’m like everyone else and I’m trapped and I hate it. Its ok to be generic, but generic these days is misery and that is absolutely awful. I’m drowning me in an ocean of solitude, but everywhere I look is a familiar face.

dailyreeceking

reeceking_: how I do some after skate chilling in denim 🏄🏞 @abercrombie

i’m in a glass box that isn’t particularly uncomfortable. i’m content. i can see what i usually would. i can’t reach anything. i can’t touch anything. i can’t feel anything.