Venting to an empty platform; I know it is of no matter or consequence.
Sometimes I just feel like giving up. What’s the point in anything, anymore? I work all the time to afford to live, But because I’m always working I don’t have a life. Meanwhile the mega-rich are moving to Mars and leaving us all to drown because our planet is doomed.
I have a big family, and A ton of friends back home, but I left them all behind and moved to the city to pursue my kinks. It was selfish of me to do that. And I have failed so far. I have never felt more isolated and alone.
It used to be so rewarding and freeing to serve as a sub. Now when I submit to men, its just another form of self-harm. I don’t get off. I don’t get anything out of it. I don’t want to get fucked because I enjoy it. I just get fucked. It’s like life that way. Some people are just born to serve and to die. I don’t suck cock anymore because I want to, I suck cock because it makes me cry.
