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in denial? most likely. they haven't cried; not yet. micah is somewhere thinking up ways to complete their next assignment and k feels something along the lines of wanting to puke.

they need pain. and so they walk and walk until they find themselves at blue's door. they ring the doorbell and wait. then they ring it again, and again and again.

#madeicarus

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it takes her a moment to reach the door, seeing as she’s got herself wrapped in another one of her assignments. she has to test the probability. work the numbers. fix it somewhere.

there’s jazz playing on her speaker. loud enough to drown out the first signs of noise. but you can’t drown out k for long. she moves to open the door, robe tied loosely around her thin frame.

❝ what happened to you. ❞

she drops to her knees, arms quickly wrapping around them.

❝ what’s going on, kiyoshi. ❞

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"they took them away.... they took micah away. and then they gave them back only this time they can't remember me." selfish k. if micah remembered only them than maybe they wouldn't be this destroyed. but this reality shows no favor for lovers who should not love.

k crumbles in dixon's arms. "no matter how many times i got hit; the pain can't compare. i— i never understood, dixon. i never understood. your pain. but now... we're the same." k looks up into their friend's eyes and fresh tears spill out of their own. a sad smile plays on their features and a chuckle that sounds like a muffled sob escapes and disappears into the night. "i'm such a mess now. how i ever will i recuperate from this, my friend?"

#oncefated

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they don’t know how such small words could cause such pain ( but they have no idea that any pain is even there. micah hears nothing but simple words. ) they look past the other, they look through the other; it’s just a job. just another partner. the first of many. there is nothing to be felt.

❝ that’s right. were you expecting me? ❞

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"yes, i got word that i would be receiving a new partner today." was it some sick joke that the higher ups were playing here? had k not done everything they asked of them? had k not turned in hundreds of instigators? had k not forsaken their friends, betrayed the bonds they weaved with those of his kind; had they not done everything the higher ups had asked of them ??????

k had been a fool to think they'd hold up their end of the bargain. for such a smart creature, they had been such a fool. and now they were sending a brand new and improved micah to them. factory settings and ready to do their bidding with ease. and all k could do was play along. for all their struggling they would always just be puppets.

#k the master of dying inside and not showing a single emotion on their face #im so fucked up #fireglory

HYSTERICAL & BROKEN. they've just finished visiting blue— dixon will see the bruises and scratches that k refuses to let heal and the blood that they won't clean. they'll smell the stench of agony and the air and taste the bitterness of every word k speaks.

FRANTIC & ANXIOUS. they're all but screaming for dixon to open the god forsaken door and time is either going too fast or too slow but whatever it's fucking doing it is w r o n g.

they're on the ground and they're begging things that dont make sense and they're scratching and they're crying and they're remembering. they're remembering.

"i never... knew you could feel a memory die. not until today." k had never sounded so fragile.

#oncefated

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KIYOSHI KUROSAWA. INSTIGATOR.

❝ excuse me … kiyoshi. i was directed to come to you for information about an assignment or … something. ❞

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kiyoshi. kiyoshi. it takes so much not to fall to their knees because with something as simple as that they already know.

— expecting it? yes. they knew this was coming. ready? not even close; no amount of experience, no amount of age, no amount of knowledge could prepare k for this. they know because they tried and still it feels like they're choking on breath that they don't need and they feel blood burning that does not truly burn and the words do not come where there should be. everything is upside down. and nothing makes sense even when it all does.

❝ you're micah hoover, yeah? ❞

SPOUSE. PARTNER. FRIEND.

but they won't remember that anymore, will they? and it's all your fault......

#ouch #fireglory

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#bless #K. YOUNG & FREE ;#K. LET ME TAKE A SELFIE ;

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❝ quit making that face. ❞

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"what face? im not makin' no face? get your eyes checked"

#infated

"i want to go to the fair"

#@ micah #fireglory

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Good people are like candles; they burn themselves up to give others light

Turkish Proverb (via hooking)

#F. INTROSPECTION ;#dammit #q.

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glow in the light

#( CLIMBING OVER BROKEN GLASS & BODIES TO GET TO YOU ;

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#( YOU'RE LIKE A PARTY I HEARD THROUGH A WALL ;

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❝ SOMETHING THE MATTER? ❞

He blinks rounded baby blues, bottom lip pushed out into a sweet pout and voice saccharine.

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and the thought pattern goes something like this: i came out to have a good time and i'm honestly feeling so attacked right now.

but what k says is more along the lines of: "yeah, man. just— you surprised me is all." smooth !

#amazing #Y. INTERACTIONS.#madeicarus

it would be so embarrassing if anyone could read their mind right then and just so damaging to his cool kid aesthetic.

but damn is it possible for someone to get hotter? the answer is obviously yes since k is now undressing a certain rival friend in his head. it is absolutely imperative that the creature with that shares a name with a color never find out.

#madeicarus #is this even a starter #doesnt look like one but hey