I could be enough.

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Caroline Grace. 20. Submissive.

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“Look at what you did! Dammit!” Caroline snapped, looking down at her now soaked (and subsequently translucent) blouse, “This is going to take forever to dry.”

submissivelottie:

That’s a terrible thing to say, I’m sorry it clouded your birthday. Hopefully you still found a way to enjoy your day.

Oh, it’s alright. I hardly even celebrate my birthday anyways. It’s just another day.

#submissivelottie

Well instead of “happy birthday” my mother called to remind me that I have one less year to find a claim. Good to know things haven’t changed that much.

subtymonty:

That’s quite the declaration isn’t it?

Well, it’s officially true so we might as well just accept it.

Update: If you scene with me you will leave the island. I’m calling it. It’s a curse.

markteague:

Just don’t be so realistic that it turns to pessimism. I was. I was at one in New Mexico. It was attached to the local university. I accomplished nothing but taking lots of random classes and hiding in my room until I had to come out for mandatory events. They eventually kicked me out because I wasn’t excelling toward a claim.

Do you think they’d kick people out here?

#hiding in her room except when absolutely necessary is caroline's life these days lol #markteague

subtymonty

Oh I see, well that definitely sucks too; Im sure the timing didn’t help in the least. That happened to me recently too. I’m sorry you had to deal with that, and hope it gets better to deal with sooner than later.

Thanks... I’m sorry about yours as well. It’s not very fun.

markteague:

Yeah, well, you’re going to find someone and maybe you won’t just click, but there’ll be someone for you. You have to be optimistic or you fade away like I did at my prior facility.

That would be nice. But I think I’ll have to settle for being realistic over optimistic.

You were at a facility before here?

Do you want to come and watch a film? I still have some on my watchlist, so…

submissivecare-archive

Um, okay... Although you could come over here. I have a room to myself rather than the dormitory.

I just hope he’ll be happy. And hey, I’m here, and I got friends here, and..

submissivecare-archive

Well good for you.

#she's being sarcastic and slightly bitchy because she doesn #doesn't have friends*#salmellor

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be mean, I’m just…

submissivecare-archive

Yeah, I know you are.

No matter the reasons, I’m sorry he left. It sucks.

subtymonty:

Maybe there were personal reasons of his that left no choice. People do funny things in those cases that while feel like the reason is us, really wasn’t.

Oh no, I know that there were other reasons. It’s not about me- I don’t pretend to think I could have that much affect on him. I just meant that the timing was very typical of my bad luck if that makes sense.

Because he left you, once? That is not knowing someone, that is holding a grudge. I am not saying I knew him, but I…

submissivecare-archive

Not at all. He never left me. And, no, I don’t hold any kind of grudge against him. I told him that he needed to do whatever makes him happy. He knows this. You clearly don’t. I just also know that this kind of thing is something he does.

markteague:

Maybe he had other reasons? I wouldn’t blame yourself, Caroline.

Oh no, I know he had other reasons. And I know it wasn’t because of me. I’m just saying it’s so something that happens to me with my luck.

Don’t.. do that. That’s not who he is, what he does. He has the right to be happy, to do what he thinks make him happy. I’d go too, if people would blame me for every selfish decision. Sometimes you can be selfish, if it’s good for you.

submissivecare-archive

Oh, and how long have you known him? I know who he is, thank you. I never said anything about his rights or what he needs to do in order to achieve them. I simply said that leaving is his go-to.

It’s so strange to like, watch someone go.

submissivecare-archive

Yes, well, that’s what Kavi does.

#salmellor #ignore text please

markteague:

What happened?

Kavi and I were on somewhat good terms and I’d thought we might even be friends or something. I gave him this letter about all of that and how I felt about it along with his Christmas gift, and then he left and I didn’t hear back.

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