Ivan / he/him / 24 / an outlet for unhealthy thoughts. vent & obsessive love blog with a side of guro, aesthetics, and occassional nsfw. / bpd npd but you'll find that obvious the longer you read.
Our existence is so fragile... Do you ever wonder what awaits us after this? I spend a lot of time worrying that I've wasted my time and that everything I've ever had was dust.
That sickly feeling when you realize you don’t know how to love. You only know how to be devoted like a dog which has been abused all its life yet licks the hand which beats it.
a sweet yandere, reunited with their darling childhood friend 💕 gn reader x male yandere
tws: general yandere behavior, stalking, breaking and entering
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💌 you haven't seen him since you were children, running around playgrounds and playing in the mud. but that doesn't mean he ever forgot you.
💌 having to move away from you was the worst thing that ever happened to him (in his mind, anyway). if he had been older, if his parents had listened to him, if he could have done anything differently... he would have. but not even threatening to run away and hiding his parents keys could do anything to stop it.
💌 you cried together the day he moved away. for you, your dearest friend was moving away. who would you make mudpies and slay imaginary dragons with now? who would share all their snacks and toys with you, without you even asking? who else would always carry bandaids in his pockets for you?
💌 for him, even at such a tender, young age, its so much worse than moving away from a friend. you are safe. you get him, you understand him, you're the most perfect, wonderful thing in the whole wide world. how will he go everyday without seeing you? he thinks he might die.
💌 he doesn't, and he moves away. you write letters, call each other on the house phone when you can... but it's hard when you live so far away and you're so young. he spends years hating his parents for doing this to him, for doing this to you.
💌 eventually, as it tends to happen, you begin to drift. you forget the things you promised to always remember, because you grow up and make so many new memories. but he never forgets. he doesn't hold it against you, of course; he knows it must be hard for you, too. you're still perfect, he just knows it.
💌 thats why he moves back, all by himself, as soon as he is able. he's lucky you didn't move away from your hometown- but he would have followed you anywhere. modern technology is so much more convenient than when you were kids; he knows everywhere you've been ever since you got that social media account. you were even so sweet when you accepted his friend request! he knew you remembered him.
💌 from there, he orchestrates bumping into you at the local cafe. you're alone, thankfully, so he doesn't have to deal with any of those other pesky people you call 'friends' right now. he's so casual about it- oh my god, i didn't know you still lived in town! i just moved back, its so cool to see you!
💌 (really, not only did he know you lived in town, he knew where. and he knew exactly when you would be at that cafe, alone, and when would be the perfect time for him to also conveniently be there to bump into you oh-so-casually).
💌 he's totally ecstatic to see you. he does his best to control it on the outside, but on the inside? he's waited so long to see you again- and you're even more perfect than he remembers.
💌 he's quick to suggest getting together to hang out and catch up again sometime. you used to be such good friends, you could totally recapture that magic, y/n! plus, he's sure he's missed so many cool life events of yours (lies), and wants to hear all about them.
💌 he knows you don't have anything urgent to do that day- he made sure- so good luck getting out of that cafe anytime soon. he'll do whatever he has to in order to savor this time with you. if you never left that cafe, and just stayed there talking to him all day, all night, forever... a man can dream.
💌 eventually, you do have to leave. and you won't know it, but he's following you home. the idea that this is creepy doesn't even cross his mind; the two of you used to go everywhere together! this isn't different at all, surely you won't mind if he watches you through the windows. he just wants to be near you all the time, like when you were kids!
💌 by the time it gets dark and you have gone to bed, he knows which of your windows are locked and which ones aren't. its a small town anyway, a lot of people don't even lock your doors. he might have to scold you about that, later; don't you know that isn't safe, y/n? what would he do if you got hurt?
💌 he lets himself in, and he takes his time wandering around. he sits on your couch, touches everything in your bathroom, really commits it all to memory. its when he sneaks into your bedroom that he nearly loses it.
💌 you still have the teddy bear he gifted you all those years ago! the sight of it sends his heart pounding, and he could fall to his knees right then and there. you kept it, all this time! something he gave you! he knew he was special to you, just like you are to him.
💌 don't worry, he'll let himself out before you wake up. but this is just the beginning of worming his way back into your life. he can only dream of the day where it's him in your room, him who you're sleeping with, not just a toy he gave you.
💌 the world just isn't right without you two together, after all!
I want you all around me, always, in everything I do. I want you to be the air in my lungs and the blood in my veins and the light I see everywhere. I want you and only you, forever, eternally. only you, for as far as I can see...
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