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gonna yap about autistic characters 18 she they

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sobbing i miss this show sm :,(

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my besties pushed me to make my tumblr debut so now you all have to read my thoughts on will graham! so here you go…

i’m gonna yap about will grahams speech patterns and overall syntax of his voice and words because it’s just so fascinating to me like his whole character and the way hugh dancy portrayed him so clearly

and yes i am a will autism truther it’s non debatable for me and i truly dgaf if bryan fuller or hugh denies it

so i know in hannibal he’s a british man using an american accent so of course words are going to sound a little off, but i’ve seen adam where hugh is not putting on an accent and the man still sounds like autism turbo blasted!

so to start, reading red dragon by thomas harris, literally 3 pages into the book you get met with this

“Jack Crawford heard the rhythm and syntax of his own speech in Graham's voice. He had heard Graham do that before, with other people. Often in intense conversation Graham took on the other person's speech patterns. At first, Crawford had thought he was doing it deliberately, that it was a gimmick to get the back-and-forth rhythm going.

Later Crawford realized that Graham did it involuntarily, that sometimes he tried to stop and couldn't.”

so it gives a very good foundation for the concept of wills speech patterns in the sense that he Doesn’t consciously know the patterns he’s picking up on and taking on himself.

hugh reading red dragon absorbed that quote and STUCK to it because the way he talks with hannibal versus jack versus bedilia verses alana ETC his speech patterns change every time.

i wanted to highlight this part of the script and i unfortunately couldn’t find a recording of the whole quote but it’s this one

Hannibal: You stood in the breathing silence of Garrett Jacob Hobbs's home, the very spaces he moved through. Tell me, Will, did they speak to you?

Will: With noise and clarity.

Hannibal: You could sense his madness, like a bloodhound.

Will: I tried so hard to know Hobbs. To see him--past the slides and vials, beyond the lines of the police reports, between the pixels of all those printed faces of sad, dead girls.

Hannibal: How did you feel seeing Marissa Schuur impaled in his antler room?

Will: Guilty.

Hannibal: Because you couldn't save her?

Will: Because I felt like I killed her.

the way will talks is so….not neurotypical whatsoever like saying dead bodies spoke to him with “noise and clarity”

first thing is they’re dead they don’t talk so the word noise is very interesting to use and Clarity as well

and his monotone face as he says guilty i cant

and the way he feels guilty to an extreme as though he himself killed her feels so….idk the word but yeah pure empathy etc etc but i feel like autistic people (myself included but this isn’t gonna be intentionally projecting) but walk around feeling an overwhelming sense of guilt for even existing in a neurotypical centric world and having a brain that need something different just can feel very burdening.

and this is just crazy his ‘breakup’ scene w hannibal where he says

“I miss my dogs. I'm not going to miss you. I'm not going to find you. I'm not going to look for you. I don't want to know where you are or what you do. I don't want to think about you anymore.”

like i miss i’m not im not in not i don’t Want i don’t Want UGHHH he knows he will always think about hannibal but he doesn’t Want to what the flip it kills me