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how many people i gotta take out for a kenma smau . perhaps even some yuri with kiyoko . im starving
ANON UR MIND THIS ASK HAS AWAKEN SOMETHING IN MEâŠ.
ok au where kenma is a faceless gamer streamer & y/n is like a gaming/letâs chat streamer⊠after u let it slip that u find his voice attractive during a stream, ur chat runs to his chat and spams shit abt you
and then insert that one clip of moistcritikal saying âvanilla sounds like a great guyâ LMAOOOO
but it would be more complex than this tho⊠enemies to loverâŠ. some mystery man/girl vibes bcuz hes faceless ykâŠ.
SUMMARY. Being the schoolâs heartthrob, Atsumu Miya always got along with everyone. Everyone but you. And he hates that. No matter what he tries, he canât seem to crack that tough exterior of yours. Unable to live with the fact that someone dislikes him, he forces himself to make a choice⊠which is definitely not to leave you alone! Heâs made it his life goal to finally get you to like him no matter what it takes!
CW. 6.8k words, angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, swearing, alcohol, bokuaka mentioned throughout, is reader mean or is atsumu annoying or is it both, atsumu down bad, cheesy fluff,
A/N. i love him ur honor and this is my first fic in a minute be nice :T
Thereâs many things you dislike, for example: people who eat with their mouths open, being bothered, loud noises, and Atsumu Miya.Â
Anyone would agree with the first three that are listed. But Atsumu? Not so much.
It really doesnât make sense to you, especially since Atsumu quite literally reminds you of the other 3 things that are commonly disliked, but you agree to disagree with the general public.
You never really had a problem with the star volleyball player until recently. Hell, before then, youâd never even thought about him.Â
You would think heâd get a hint about the way you acted around him and would leave you alone. He has a roster of people he could choose to bother. But maybe annoying you was one of his guilty pleasures?
-
LAST WEEK.Â
You try to avoid these dinner parties when youâre able to. But unfortunately for you, it was not one of those times. Bokuto always invites Akaashi to these events with his volleyball team, and this time, he decided to drag you along with him.
âIâm so glad I convinced you to come along,â Keiji smiles, picking a piece of meat up from his plate before shoving it in his mouth.
âYeah! I feel like I never see you anymore,â Bokuto is practically beaming in his seat. âKeiji always says youâre too busy,â
To be quite frank, youâre almost never busy. But drinking in a loud room full of strangers just never sounded like a good time to you.Â
An awkward sigh escapes your mouth, âYeah, I just- have lots of homework.. and, uh. Stuff,â
You see Keiji roll his eyes from your peripheral vision.Â
âWhat?â you smile before kicking at his leg under the table.
âOh, nothin-â
âKEIJI!â
A voice shouted.Â
âAtsumu! How have you been?â Keiji says.
A man with annoyingly bright blonde hair walks up to your table; grabbing a nearby seat and instantly throwing himself into a casual conversation with the other two.
Youâd be outright stupid if the keywords blonde and Atsumu didnât tell you who exactly he was. Itâs hard not to know when heâs all your classmates rave about.Â
Now that youâre looking at him up close, you think the crowds definitely overhype him. Heâs average at the very least. The way his shirt hugs his muscular build is definitely appealing. If you close your eyes, maybe.
And either Atsumu Miya has telepathic abilities or he was just able to feel the way your eyes bore into his head, because after a quick exchange with your friends, his head whips to look at you.
âAnd you brought your friend! Whatâs your name?â he grins at you. You can definitely see how girls could fall for his charms. Not you though.
Thereâs a split second of hesitation before you realize heâs actually talking to you. Your name slips past your lips just above a whisper.
âOh yeah, Bokkun has talked about you before!âÂ
You manage your best smile, though it doesnât really reach your eyes. âOnly good things, I hope,â
âFor surely,â thereâs a voice across the restaurant that calls out for Atsumu, âWell, you should come to one of our games sometime, Keiji. You too!â the last part he aims towards you with a smile.
And thatâs all that conversation shouldâve been.Â
At least until Atsumu bumped his leg against the table as he got up, causing a water cup to tip over and spill on none other than you.Â
Honestly, any other day you couldâve brushed this off. Maybe even laughed it off. But with the loud voices, the fact you didnât even want to be here, and a very frantic Atsumu Miya apologizing to you and handing you an annoying amount of napkinsâ all of it tipped you off the edge.
You donât even mean for it to slip out, but it does.
âThis fucking blows,â
-
PRESENT.
You shake your head as the memory of Atsumu Miya with his jaw propped wide open pops into your head. Keiji already scolded you enough about how what you said was a bit ârudeâ. And it mightâve been rude but could you blame yourself? You had already told him you didnât want to go out, so maybe it was just a series of unfortunate events.Â
And as much as you love Keiji and your guysâ time together, you particularly love the moments you get to be alone by yourself. You really get to take a moment to reflect and bask in the environment around you.
The trees blow in the soft breeze, everyone is just far enough to be a peaceful ambience on your walk to your next class, and Atsumu Miya is coming up to you and calling out your name.
Atsumu Miya is doing what?
âHey- wait!â he stops you in your tracks. He has a stupid smile on his face before he points to himself, âRemember me? Atsumu, Bokkunâs friend?â
You have half a mind to act like you donât know who the hell he is. But youâd get another earful from Akaashi if Atsumu went around telling Bokuto about itâŠ
âOh, yeah. That was literally last week,â more sarcasm than you intended was laced in your tone, but come on.
He lets out a sigh of relief, before a breathy laugh escapes from him, âYeah,âÂ
The sound of the leaves brushing against each other fills your ears as Atsumu stands in front of you just smiling. You let a single moment pass by before deciding you have to break this awkward silence.
âSo, uh- did you need something, orââ
Seemingly having forgotten why he came up to you, his eyes widened a bit, âOh sorry, yeah. I guess I just wanted to properly apologize for spilling water on you, I canât stop thinking about it,â
You can feel your eyebrow twitch a bit but hold back whatever emotion was beginning to bubble in the pit of your stomach, âIt was just water, itâs fine,â
âI just donât want you to hate me or anything, especially since youâre Keijiâs friend and all,â he adds with a worried smile, one of his hands coming up to rub the back of his head.
Out of all people, why would Atsumuâ star setter on the volleyball team, can probably get any person he wants (and probably has gotten everyone he wants), just met you last weekâ care what you think of him. He has to be playing with you.
Itâs the only reason you can think that this man would stop you dead in your tracks to apologize for a slight inconvenience that, yes, did ruin your night, but you couldâve lived your whole life without this interaction and be perfectly fine.
So you donât take, what you deem to be, the bait.
âIâm sure you donât,â your demeanor quickly switches, âIâve gotta go, gonna be late, or something,â and without another word you walk past him.
-
If you had known that wouldnât be the last time you interacted with Atsumu, you wouldâve at least considered being a bit more cordial with him as you left. Too late now.
You realize that fact a couple days later as you watch a yellow-blue striped ball get passed from one side of the net to the other. Why youâre here, you donât really know. You chalk it down to the fact that Akaashiâs a good friend to you, so the least you could do was accompany him to his boyfriendâs game. Youâre not expecting much social interaction from watching men play with balls anyway.
The game goes by quicker than you expected, and to your surprise, it wasnât that boring. Especially the part when Atsumu got hit in the forehead by a faint-set. You mightâve laughed a little too loud for the fangirlsâ liking, heads turning your direction at your outburst.
âThat was so good,â Keiji says as he makes his way to his feet, raising his hands upward to get a good stretch, âAlright, letâs go down,â
Your eyes widen, âDown? Are we not leaving?â youâre gathering your belongings as you ask.
âWell yeah, but I wanna say bye to Kou first,â heâs already scooting his way down the aisle, leaving you no choice to rush after him.
The court smells of something like disinfectant and sweat. You stay close to Akaashi, feeling a bit out of place. Heâs quick to find Bokuto, speed-walking towards him.
âYou did so good!â Keiji smiles, Bokuto giving him a quick peck on the lips.
âThanks! Didja see the last point I scored?!â the two are quickly immersed into a conversation that you donât really bother keeping up with.Â
Youâre quick to pull your phone out, to fill the awkward void that fills you as you stand in the middle of the court with your friend. Your thumb quickly busies itself, scrolling and tapping away meaninglessly.
âHey!â
The familiar voice causes your thumb to freeze midair. With a slow turn of your head, youâre met with none other than Atsumu.
âHey,â your hand slips your phone into your back pocket.
âDid ya just get here?â Atsumu is wiping his neck off with a towel, his skin glistens in places where sweat once was.Â
âNo,â is all you say. Maybe if you keep it short, heâll leave you alone. You donât really understand what heâs trying to play at every time he comes up to you, and youâre not sure if you want to find out.
âYou watched the whole game? Did you see my sets?â his smile is big as he asks you.
âYeah,âÂ
âNot much of a talker?â
You felt a tiny bit bad, but his inability to read the mood pissed you off a smidge. All youâre able to muster is a shrug of your shoulders before youâre turning back to Keiji and tapping on his shoulder,
âAre you ready?â you ask.
âYeah, sorr- Oh Atsumu! Great job today!â he exclaims. Thereâs a droop in your shoulders as he starts conversing with Atsumu.
âThank you, Keiji! Me and Bokkun work real good together,âÂ
âDefinitely, I canât wait for the next game!â Akaashi adds.
Next, you think. Keiji takes a quick glance at you before continuing, âWell I think my friend here is all tuckered out, so weâre going to head out,â
âAlright then, get home safely. See ya around!â the blonde directs at you specifically, smiling.
You offer him a tight-lipped smile and a raise of your eyebrows before leading Akaashi away with you.Â
You hope not.
-
The car ride home was anything but silent.
âSo you and Atsumu, huh?â
The sentence alone sends literal chills down your spine.Â
âAbso-fucking-lutely not,â you mutter.
Akaashi mustâve taken your words as a joke because he continues, âYou can tell me if youâre interested in him, yâknow. Him and Kou are friends and he could set you guys up,âÂ
âOh my god, is that the vibes I gave off? Quick, tell me what I need to change so I can not give that.âÂ
A hearty laugh escapes Akaashiâs mouth, âYouâre so dramatic. Câmon he isnât even that bad, the ladies love him,â
âKeiji, heâs like in his mid 20s and still chews with his mouth open,â
âObservant, are we?â he slips and you have half a mind to wipe that smug look off his face.
âNo, itâs just so bad that itâs audible from a table over,â you slump in your seat, arms crossed over your shoulder.
You can hear Akaashi let out a half-sigh, half-laugh. âIâm teasing you,â
âI know.. He just hasnât left me alone since that one dinner I went to. He even stopped me on my way to class to say sorry again,â you groan, eyes catching on the city lights outside the window.
Thereâs a slight pause in the conversation. Itâs a second too long, it makes you think whatever Akaashi is going to say next is going to piss you right off.
âMaybe he likes you,â you stand corrected.
âMe? Please, I think heâd fuck a rock before he even considers me an option,â you laugh half-heartedly. Your hands fidget with the fabric of your top.
âYouâre harsh, Y/N. You know youâre attractive,â
âKeiji, youâre being suspiciously nice,â you can audibly hear your friend gulp beside you, âOh my god, what is it?â
âI canât just compliment my best friend?â he can feel your eyes glaring holes into the side of his head before he sighs, âWell, Kou and I were talking,â
âThatâs never a good idea,â you chip in.
âAnd thereâs going to be a partyâŠâ
âNO,â
âYou didnât let me finish! Itâs in like a month,â he pushes, trying his very best to sound convincing, âYou can sit on it, you donât need to give an answer now,â
âYou know I donât really like going to parties,â you sigh.
âI know, Y/N. Iâm not going to push you this time for real! But you only live once, I donât want you to have any regrets about not going to these things,â
And you know heâs being genuine. A part of you does want to go out, to be social, to make new friends. But itâs so tiring.Â
You chew on the inside of your mouth as you think about your next words carefully. A sigh is released from your chest, âFine, Iâll think about it, âkay?â
âGreat!â he smiles.
-
Atsumu is a friendly guy. Heâs also a ladiesâ man.Â
At least thatâs what he tells himself.
Moral of the story is that everybody likes him. So why does he get the feeling that you donât?
Atsumu has never been so in his head about something or someone ever since that fight he and Osamu had in high school. And itâs throwing him off.
Have you even genuinely smiled at him once? He canât recall.
âWhatâs gotcha all in your head Tsum-Tsum?â The grey haired man snaps Atsumu out of whatever trance he was in.Â
He says your name, catching Bokuto off guard, âIs she nice to you?â
âHer, huh. Yeah, sheâs Keijiâs friend which makes her my friend my association,â he flashes a smile brightly at the blonde. âWhy? Do you like her? I can ask Keiji for her num-â
âNo, no, no- That's definitely not it,â Atsumu sighs, bringing his hand to his forehead and rubbing the tension out, âEver since coachâs dinner party, Iâve been getting the feeling she doesnât like me,â
âWell, maybe she doesnât,â Bokuto adds bluntly, which in turn made Atsumuâs jaw drop. âYou probably just rubbed her the wrong way,â
âBut- everyone likes me,â Atsumu is genuinely at a loss of words, âIâve already said sorry so many times, though. What else could I do to get her to like me?â
âAre you sure you donât want her?â
âYES,â all Bokuto gives him in response is a laugh before walking away.
If Bokuto was able to get along with you, then why couldnât Atsumu?Â
Did the water incident really upset you that badly? Was he coming off too strong?
Atsumu knows heâs never been the smartest in the room, but the bright idea that just popped into his brain mightâve made up for that fact.
Maybe if he keeps being around you, eventually youâll warm up to him and like him!
-
The campusâ cafe bustles with students, some going in and some coming out. Coming here is your favorite pastime. Yeah, the coffee is sub-par, but for $2 your wallet couldnât be happier.
Your eyes are scanning the menu, busying yourself as you patiently wait in the line. If anywhere, this cafe would probably be your safe space. The ambience is nice, the workers arenât invasive with the small talk, and everyone is in silent agreement to leave each other be.
âOh, hey, itâs you again,â
Fuck your whole life.
You take a deep breath, in and out, before turning to meet the blonde.
âWhatcha doing here?â Atsumu asks.
âGetting coffee at the coffee shop where they sell coffee,â you say sarcastically.Â
He laughs, though youâre confused as to what is so funny.
âDid I do something to make you hate me?â he suddenly asks, and you swear for a minute the whole building goes silent.Â
Atsumuâs words caught you completely off guard. Youâre not really sure how to answer especially since this conversation was never a possibility in your mind.Â
A long sigh escapes you, âNo, Atsumu. You didnât,â you shift uncomfortably as you scoot up in line a bit.
Atsumu lets out a sound of relief, âOkay, thatâs good,â he says contently before seemingly changing the subject.
âHow long have you known Keiji and Bokkun?â he asks.
âSince high school, but I didnât really know-know Kou until they actually started dating,â
The conversation starts to flow into something about you. And you let it. You indulge him. Because maybe you have been a little cruel to him. But itâs mostly because you donât want to feed into whatever ego he already has built up.
Everytime he prods you with more questions about yourself, you find yourself hesitating. Itâs a bit odd that youâre here talking in your campusâ cafe with Atsumu Miya about what classes youâre taking this year. And youâd be stupid if you said you couldnât feel the eyes or stares on you every now and then. But standing here with him right now, they donât really bother you.
âNext in line,â the cashier calls out.
You walk up to the counter, looking at the menu as you state your usual order. Youâre pulling out your wallet, but not before you feel the heat of another body behind you.
âAnd Iâll take an Americano,â Atsumu adds, the cashier looking between the two of you in confusion, but still adding to the other nonetheless.Â
Atsumu is quick to tap his phone on the pay pad, not paying you any mind as you stare at him in disbelief. Â
âAlright, hereâs your receipt. Order number on the top, thank you!â the person at the counter dismisses both of you before tending to the next person.Â
âYou didnât have to do that,â you say, carefully slipping your wallet into your bag, reaching for your phone instead, âI can pay you back,â
âNo, don't. I wanted to,â is all he says, eyes not meeting your own.Â
âWhy though? Weâre not even friends or anything,â you grip your phone a little tighter in anticipation of his answer.Â
Atsumuâs eyes gaze at the windows, looking outside, avoiding your gaze even more if that was even possible, âI want to be though,â
âOrder 828!â
âThatâs ours, Y/N,â
The two of you walk synchronously towards the counter, grabbing your drinks.Â
You look down at yours methodically, âThanks Atsumu,â you say with a little smile.Â
âItâs no worries,â it feels like the conversation you two were having left many things unsaid, but he is the one who chooses to leave it that way, âCya around,âÂ
âSee you,â you watch as he exits the cafe, thoughts racing a mile a minute.Â
You realized a couple of things today. Firstly, that definitely isnât going to be your last run-in with him. Secondly, you ignoring and dismissing him amounted to nothing. And finally, Atsumu isnât as bad as you made him out to be.
All of it is a bit worrying, but youâre not going to dwell on it too much.
â
You had many preconceived notions about Atsumu before he started popping up bit by bit into your life. You still dislike him, but your last conversation lightened the load a bit. A bit.
Which is why youâre calm and collected as you study with an uncharacteristically locked-in Atsumu Miya in front of you. You say uncharacteristically as if you know him like that, but for all you know that could be very like him.Â
All he said as he sat down was just a faint âHey,â and you bowed your head in a silent greeting. But other than that, heâs been back and forth between a notebook and his laptop.Â
You suppose that the athletes donât get to just slack in class. You see that now as you see his forehead wrinkling in confusion every now and then, probably stuck on something. If you squint you can kinda see what all the girls are talking about. His face is a little attractive.Â
Your eyes widen as you shake your head to get rid of those thoughts. Get serious. Maybe being around him too much did something to your brain chemistry. Does he wear one of those pheromone colognes?Â
Resting your head on a propped up arm, you observe his face a bit. You will say heâs a little less annoying when heâs silent.Â
âLike what ya see?âÂ
Your eyes widen before snapping your gaze down to your keyboard, âHell, no,â and the way his face drops almost immediately makes you burst out laughing, so much so you have to slap your hands over your mouth to silence yourself.
âYouâre so mean,â he sighs, fake anguish on his face.Â
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â youâre still trying to collect yourself. âWhy do you even care what I think? Youâve got plenty of girls to tell you otherwise,â you wipe a forming tear from the corner of your eye.
The words came out without a second thought, and truthfully it was a rhetorical question; you werenât expecting an answer. But he provides one anyway.
âWell I wanna know what you think,â
Your laughing had already come to a halt, your eyes searching his face for some sign he was possibly joking. âReally?â
Atsumu just nods, waiting.
âMm, youâre okay.. I guess,â you add a moment later.
His nose scrunches with the drop of his jaw, âThatâs all!?â
âYup,â you say, popping the âpâ.
âSo cruel,â he slouches a bit, and somewhere in your heart you feel bad.Â
Just enough for you to add,âYou look better when youâre quiet and studying real hard,âÂ
Atsumuâs posture quickly snaps back up, his hands immediately back on his keyboard and tapping away. You follow suit shortly after.Â
Your heart is beating in your ear and you can feel the heat rising in your cheeks. You donât like this feelingâ donât like the way heâs making you feel. All you can do is control your breathing to quell whatever the hell is going on with you.Â
You really dislike Atsumu Miya. More specifically, you dislike how confused he makes you feel and the way he puts a couple of butterflies in your stomach.
â-
You find yourself at another volleyball game. Not because of Atsumu. Nope.
Youâre here because Akaashi was having a bad week and you saying no would probably be the nail in the coffin for him. Thatâs really all!
If someone heard you cheering for Atsumu, they probably heard wrong. It definitely wasnât you. Maybe you had a doppelganger in the stands.Â
The game felt slower than the last one you attended, but you canât put a finger on why. And so when Akaashi rises to his feet, you do, too. Without a single objection. Both of you scoot down the aisle and make it to the court to greet Atsumu Bokuto.Â
Atsumu also happens to be there as well, and now that youâre not quite âstrangerâ status with him anymore, you guess youâll engage in a conversation with him.Â
âGood job,â you offer, albeit still a little offputting.Â
âThatâs all?â he asks, confusing you. The look on your face pushes him to continue, âSo that wasnât you who was cheering when I got that service ace,â
Your fingernails dig into your palm as your cheeks flood with warmth. Embarrassing. You quickly divert.Â
âNo, youâre delusional,â you say matter-of-factly.Â
He rolls his eyes jokingly, nudging your shoulder with his, âIâm sure,â
Heâs way too friendly. It makes you feel for all the girls who fall victims to his charisma.
Another voice calls your name, saving you from your conversation with Atsumu. Your saving grace comes in the form of a cheerful Bokuto.
âAre you coming to the party? Keiji said he invited you!â Bokuto asks you. Atsumuâs eyes widened at the grey-haired manâs words.
âEr, I havenât got a chance to think about it⊠When was it again?â
âNext Friday after our game,â Atsumu interrupts.Â
Your teeth nibble on your bottom lip, finding yourself a bit tense at being put on the spot. âWeâll see,â is all you muster.
The teamâs coach is calling for all the players to huddle up, the two menâs head snapped in the direction before quickly saying their goodbyes and running over. Akaashi moves closer to your side.
âStill not interested in him?â
âNo,â
-
After much convincing (and a few threats), you find yourself at some random dudeâs house, Akaashi by your side. The sound of the music that blasts inside is all you hear as you two open the front door and make your way inside.
You recognize a couple of facesâ some classmates, some guys youâve seen on the volleyball court. But you donât really know anyone, so you try to stick with Akaashi.Â
As much as you can at least, because one moment heâs right in front of you leading you through the crowds, then in a blink heâs gone.
And youâre quickly filled with the feelings of dread and loneliness you wanted to avoid. The feelings that Akaashi said that this party would fill the void of. And itâs not his fault at all. You made the final decision on your own that you would come here.Â
Maybe you needed a couple drinks is all.
You take a deep breath, filling your lungs with as much air, before letting it out. You grit your teeth and make your way to the kitchen.Â
Luckily for you, there isnât anyone in there. Except the couple making out in the corner, but itâs easy to block them out.Â
Itâs easy for you to locate the red solo cups and the cheap alcohol the party provided. You grab a Caprisun from the cooler before pouring yourself a shot. It goes down nastily as any cheap vodka would. The juice in your hand is quick to rinse it down.Â
The smacking lips of the nearby couple causes your eyebrow to twitch a bit before you decide to pour one more. Okay and maybe a third. Each cup goes down smoother than the last. You slam the cup down, contemplating another. But before you make the decision, a group of already seemingly drunk guys rushes into the kitchen. Which signals you to get the hell out of there.
When you walk back to the main area of the house, you still donât see any familiar faces. The dreadful feeling isnât there anymore, probably thanks to the alcohol quickly making itâs way into your bloodstream.
You make your way through the house before you find peace on an empty couch in one of the spaces further into the place. There were a couple people chatting by the doorway, but they kept to themselves, so you could chill here. At least until Akaashi calls you and says itâs time to go.
Your eyes scan the room of the decorations, examining the colors, shapes. Some of them swirl or blur into the other, but it keeps your mind busy.
âI thought I saw you walk this direction,â a voice calls out.
Out of anyone you thought youâd be happy to see tonight, it definitely wasnât Atsumu Miya. But you find a stupid smile making its way on your face despite yourself.Â
âWere you looking for me?â You turn your whole body on the sofa to face him as he sits beside you. His steps were a bit slow, eyes a bit lidded. Your cheek pressed against the fabric as you stared at him for an answer.
âWould it be ugly if I said yes?â he laughs. His head is turned towards yours, and for you it feels like youâre the only two in the room.
âNo, well maybe,â your eyes close, shapes spinning behind your eyelids.
âWell it wouldnât be the first time you called me ugly,â Atsumu smiles. âYou already had somethinâ to drink?â
You nod your head yes before the words he said prior process in your head, âHey! I never called you ugly. I said you were okay⊠or somethingâŠâ your words trail off.
âSame thing to me,â
Atsumu turns his head back forward, his eyes scanning the walls like you did just a minute ago.Â
âI donât think youâre ugly, âTsumu,â the nickname slips out your mouth messily, but it still catches him off guard as his head snaps towards you again.
ââTsumu, huh?â he smiles to himself. âI think youâre quite beautiful yourself,â
You find yourself laughing at his words, bringing both of your hands up to your face in embarrassment.Â
âSuch a liar,â you mutter through the laughs.Â
Soft hands come up to your wrists bringing them down, ââM not, itâs the truth,â
You bite the inside of your mouth in an attempt to stop the smile thatâs tugging at your lips.Â
You donât quite realize it, and maybe he doesnât eitherâ the two of you are leaning into each other, his hands still softly grasping at your wrists.Â
His lips hover over yours until you both jump at a voice calling your name.Â
You jump backwards on the couch, out and away from his grasp. Your eyes are wide as you see Bokuto with a very drunk Akaashi in his arms.Â
âCan you help-â heâs very out of breath, âhelp me get him home, please,â
It felt as though the alcohol had instantaneously left your body. Your eyes look at Atsumu who says nothing before you offer a quiet, âI should go,â
He still says nothing. And neither do you as you take Akaashiâs other arm over your shoulder.
In fact, no one says anything on the way home. Itâs silent.
â
And itâs still silent on your end the next couple of days. You donât have the energy to leave your room. You donât have the energy to text anyone back.
Maybe the party sucked the social battery out of you for the next 5 years, who knows?
But you really have the worst luck. Socially, platonically, romantically. The feelings you wanted to avoid so badly were creeping up on you without you knowing. And finally struck when you thought you had finally broken through the barriers.
If Bokuto hadnât come, would Atsumu have kissed you? And if he did kiss you, would it have meant anything to him? Or was it like every other girl heâs gotten the chance to get to know?
Were you just another statistic within the girls Atsumu Miya got involved in?
You donât think you want to know. You donât want to know anything. Thatâs why youâre wallowed up in your room sulking about everything that couldâve been and everything that isnât.
A series of knocks wrap at your door.
âLet me in, I know youâre in there,â itâs Akaashi.Â
Youâre slow to get up. You barely look at yourself in the mirror as you grab a wet rag and wipe the sadness of your face.
The door creaks open, and as soon as the doorknob meets the wall, youâre pulled into his warm embrace. Heâs quick to walk you to your couch, joining you in sitting. You grab one of the throw blankets and wrap it around yourself, hoping it offers you some comfort.
âWhere the hell have you been? And why havenât you answered your texts?â he asks, worry laced all in his tone and his face. He realizes his tone was too pushy, before he corrects himself, âIâm sorryâ Are you okay?â
A deep sigh releases from the depths of you, âYeah, for the most part. Think Iâm just in a funk,â your eyes donât meet his. And he knows thereâs more to it than what youâre letting off.
âSomething happened at the party, didnât it?â
Your eyes finally meet his, âWell yeah, but even before that- I just.. I just donât know how to feel about him,â
His eyes widen at what youâre implying, âAtsumu?â
You cup your face in your hands as you nod, âI think I like him,â the words leave a sour taste in your mouth as they slip out.
Akaashi is quick to grab at your wrists gently, âAnd whatâs wrong with that? Do you not want to like him?â
âNo, I donât. I donât like anything about him. The way he eats, the way he talks, his jokes, the way he laughs. I hate- no, dislike everything about him. But when you add all of it together it makes him and I like him. It doesnât even make sense to me so I just want it all to go away,âÂ
âYou trying to hold it all in is going to hurt you more. You holing yourself up in your room is going to hurt you in general,â he says comfortingly. âLook, we donât have to go to any more parties or games or anything. I just miss you and being in here all day just isnât going to help you either,â
âYou know we almost kissed at the party?â your index finger scratches at your chin awkwardly. âI canât help but wonder all the ifs that couldâve happened if we did,â
His eyes soften. âYou need to get out of your head. At the end of the day dwelling on all the what ifs are gonna be the death of you. Face the facts and reality head on. Donât let things that havenât even happened scare you into finding out whatâs actually in store for you,â
You can feel your heart rate finally calm down at his words.
âI just feel like Iâm going to look stupid,â
âFeelings arenât stupid. And if shit hits the fan, heâll have to face my wrath. Iâd go to jail for you,â Akaashi is being genuine, and it scares you a little bit.
You canât help but laugh.
âThank you for coming to see me,â you smile softly, hugging the blanket around you a little tighter.
âAnything for you,â
-
Atsumu hasnât seen you in a while. No heâs being dramatic, itâs only been a single week.Â
Not on the pathways, not in the cafe, not at the games, youâre nowhere. When he asks Akaashi, the man just shrugs. Bokuto is no help either, all he says is âdunnoâ. Itâs as if you were just a figment of his imagination.Â
Maybe he shouldâve chased after you. He definitely shouldâve but Atsumu is dumb. Downright stupid.Â
Atsumuâs had a fair share of girlfriends or crushes. But heâs never thought of anyone more than heâs thinking of you right now. Itâs weird, because he only met you a little more than a month ago and it feels like you're turning his world upside down.
Youâre in everything. In every ball he sets or serves, every page of notes, every bitter Americano he drinks.Â
Maybe heâs known it ever since the first time he saw you at the coachâs dinner party. You probably didnât even notice that he was staring at you from across the room. He began to wonder why Akaashi never brought you around before then.
He thought maybe being in your proximity outside of social gatherings would help his case; possibly allow him into your small circle. But it feels like all it did was push him impossibly further.Â
He doesnât have your number and your friends are no help.Â
Atsumu is completely stumped and doesnât know what the hell to do about it
-
The bright sun that used to once bring you a lot of comfort seems to shine more harshly. After gathering your feelings, tossing them into a luggage, locking said luggage, and tossing it into the abyss of your mind, you were finally able to get yourself out of bed and back to classes.
There werenât many more excuses you could tell your professors to excuse you from class anyways, so you really didnât have much of a choice.
Itâs going really well. At least thatâs what it feels like. Itâs not much different than before. Everyone still talks, everyone is still attending their classes, the world is still spinning.Â
All you had to do is get through today then you could probably do anything!
Thatâs what you falsely lead yourself to believe. Itâs about 10 minutes of being outside when you finally see him.
Atsumu Miya chit chatting with another girl. Probably the new girl of the month, you think to yourself.
Youâre completely set on ignoring them until his eyes meet your staring gaze. You see his mouth open as if heâs about to call out to you, but before he gets anything out, you roll your eyes before youâre turning on your foot and speed walking in the other direction.
You guys are not dating. You have no right to be butthurt about the almost kiss. Or the fact heâs friendly with another girl. He was doing those things even before you got to know him anyways, so what were you really expecting?
You dislike him. Donât you?
You sharply turn at the corner before running yourself to a dead-end. Maybe if you keep walking anyways heâll give up-
âYouâve been avoiding me,â his voice states, causing you to visibly jump.Â
You stop where you are before turning to face him, âBullshit,â your voice is mean, but you donât care. Why should you? âWhy are you even here, donât have business to attend to?â
âWhatever- Why havenât I seen you around?â he asks, his eyebrows scrunched in worry but his tone tinged with frustration. âYou hiding or something?â
You cross your arms across your chest, âAm not,âÂ
He says your name causing you to soften, âIâm serious, Iâve been looking for you, Iâve been meaning to apologize-â
âApologize for what? What have you done that you could possibly be apologizing for?â Now youâre frustrated, âOh let me guess, for the party right? You didnât mean to try to kiss me?â
âNo, no, thatâs notââ
âIâm so tired of this, Atsumu. What do you really want from me? Youâre confusing the shit out of me and Iâm really tired of all the emotional whiplash. You came into my life out of nowhere and were so fucking annoying at first,â he gulps at your words, but lets you continue, âbut.. After a while I didnât mind your presence. And a bit after that, I think I started to enjoy it. But then we almost kissed! How do you expect me to face you after that?â
âIâm here because I want you,â his voice is the softest and most genuine youâve ever heard. But you donât believe him one bit.Â
âYouâre lying, you could literally have anyone you want! Why would you settle for me?â youâre nearly yelling out of exasperation.Â
His jaw drops at your words. âSettle? Are you serious?! Youâre lengths out of my league! How else could I prove that I really do want you? Do you want me to yell it out to the world?â
Your eyes widen at his words- no, threat, âAbsolutely not-â
âEVERYBODY-!,â
Youâre quick to put a rough hand to his mouth, muffling his words before he can even continue, smiling awkwardly at the passerby-ers who look in your direction.
âAre you fucking crazy?â you let out a sigh of relief before releasing him.Â
âFor you, maybe,â he smirks.
âGross,â you laugh, lightly punching at his chest.Â
ââM serious,â Atsumu tells you, and thereâs nothing about him that says otherwise.Â
âI want you, too, Atsumuâ you finally let out. And now that itâs out in the air, thereâs nothing you can do to take it back. But to your surprise, itâs relieving.
You feel him getting closer. Closer and closer until his body is nearly touching yours. A warm hand comes up to cup your cheek.Â
âMay I?â
âShut up,â you grab the sides of his head with your own hands and pull him towards you, crashing your lips together.Â
His lips are unexpectedly soft as they move along your own. Atsumu follows your pace, not too fast, yet still sensual as his tongue swipes along your bottom lip. You can feel yourself pushing your body into his, his hands wandering to your waistâ
âOh, Tsum-Tsum weird seeing you- OH MY GOD.â
The two of you jump apart. Atsumu wraps an arm around you protectively as the both of you make eye contact with a very horrified Bokuto with a hand slapped against his mouth.
Youâre already fumbling the words to explain yourselves, âKou, this isââ
Bokuto doesnât say anything before rushing the other direction, shock still written all over his face.
âWelp,â is all Atsumu says with a shrug before he presses a warm kiss onto the crown of your head.
âHeâs probably going to tell Keiji, isnât he?â
âYep,â
3 things you dislike still remain the same: people who eat with their mouths open, being bothered, and loud noises.Â
Atsumu wormed his way out of that list, but just for him, youâll make that exception.
will you ever write a smau for akaashi đđ I just fell in love with his personality in the Suna smau ngl
Omg my first love⊠iâm not gonna say yes but im not gonna say no! If i ever do itâs definitely not going to have to do anything with mysmatch probs because i dont want to drag that, but i can see it being in the same universe
obsession!au with gojo where you wish that he loves you more than anything in the worldâŠ. EXCEPT he already does, he just doesnât have the balls to tell you.
and so youâre very confused when the way he treats you doesnât change at all, telling yourself that the one wish willow is a scam. that is, until the next day and heâs at your front door a sweating mess, confessing his love to you.
i deadass have sat and read each mysmatch series and fell in love. You Are The Real Birthday Present. Thank yew for my life . i am a healed woman now đ
SUMMARY. Your friends bet you to kiss Katsuki Bakugou. Fortunately for you, theyâre offering you $500 for it. Unfortunately for you, the two of you absolutely hate each other.
CW. third year, angst to fluff, light hurt/comfort, enemies to lovers, mature humor, feelings, language
WC. ~2.8k
A/N. enjoy :3
You and your group of friends had a running gig. Bets.Â
The group would bet one person to do something, on a scale from normal to outrageous, and that personâs turn wouldnât end until they complete that bet. Of course, depending on how crazy the bet is, everyone would put in some amount of money.Â
The most youâd gotten was $100 total from accepting a date from creep in the business class. Worst date of your life, but Jirou felt bad so she gave you an extra $50.Â
As the lot of you gather around the campfire, everyone offers up their money to Mina who had just done her bet to put laxatives in Kirishimaâs drink. There were a lot of questions about the morality of it, but you ignored it and gave her a crisp $20.Â
âY/N~ itâs your turn!â Ochako gleed.Â
You roll your eyes, âI feel like I just did my other bet, which by the way was shit,â the girls laugh at your words. âI feel like all of you get the easier ones,â
âEasy? I had to kiss Monoma, do you know how hard that was? He knows Iâm lesbian so imagine how hard that was for me to convince him,â Yaoyorozu sighs with a palm to her face.
âOh, whatever,â Mina says with a clap of her hands, âYou want a hard one, Y/N?â
âI mean thatâs the whole point of paying each other to do bets, theyâre supposed to be hard,âÂ
âBe careful what you wish for,â Mina smirks before standing up and pointing at you.Â
âI bet you $100,â your ears perk up.
â-to kissâ,â your eyes widen but listen nonetheless.
âKatsuki Bakugou,â your world falls apart.
âMina, no,âÂ
âY/N, yes,â she jumps up and down, âItâs too late, I already said it,â
All the other girls are hooting and hollering, but you just sit there in silence as you stare at the flames. Are you really going to try this?
As you consider your options the other girls start placing their bet offerings.
â$75 from me,â Tsuyu calls out.
Then from Hagakure, â$50,â
â$150,â from none other than Yaoyorozu.Â
âI guess Iâll put in $80,â Jirou smiles at your misery.
âHmm, Iâll even it out with $45, so $500 flat for you, Y/N,â Ochako smiles.
$500?!? Youâd be outright stupid to deny such a big amount of money. But youâd even stupider to think Katsuki Bakugou would kiss you of all people.Â
âI think thatâs impossible,â you whine as the other girls poke fun at you.
âI guess only time will tell,â Mina grabs your hands and smiles, âGood luck, Y/N,â
â
You can hear the rambunctiousness of your class before you walk in. When you walk through the doors, your eyes scan the class before your eyes lock in on Katsuki Bakugou. You groan with a roll of your eyes before stomping your way towards him.Â
âHey, Katsuki,â you stare down at him, âYou want to do me a favor,â
âFor you? I rather eat shit,â he grumbles as he meets your gaze.
âYouâre a freak,â you already knew this was going to be hard, âPlease,â
âMm, depends, whatâs in it for me?âÂ
âI guess youâll find out,â you say. âKiss me,â
It feels like the class goes silent as the two of you continue to just stare at each other. He opens his mouth then closes it.Â
âYouâ The fuck?â His eyes are scattering as the words continue to process through his mind, âWhat a weirdo, hell no,â then heâs pushing himself out of his seat and making his way to the door.
âYou know class starts in 5 minutes right?â you call to him.
âFuck off,â he grunts as he shuts the door behind him.
Yep, definitely hard.Â
â
The next time you bother Bakugou for a kiss is when the two of you are paired up for combat training. Much against his will.Â
âKatsuki~â you call out as you dodge another blow from him. âYou canât avoid me forever,â
âYes-â another explosion, âI can,â
You go on the offense as you continue, âJust a peck, please. Iâm a good kisser, I promise,âÂ
âYouâre shit,â heâs grumbling between dodges of your attacks.
âWouldnât you like to know,â you send him a wink before getting a hit on him.Â
Bakugou groans, about to send another remark, when the training ends with a blow of a whistle.
The two of you meet eyes one last time, âThink it over, kay?â you smile before walking away.
â
Knock, knock.Â
You stand at Bakugouâs door.
âGo away, perv,â
âAw, how did you know it was me? You missed me?â
âI can just tell by the stench,âÂ
You laugh a little at his words, âPlease, let me explain to you and maybe youâll reconsider,âÂ
You can hear footsteps, and you smile. When he opens the door heâs adorned in his classic black tank and some sweats.
âYou should put some clothes on, perv,â you mock. âAnyways, it was a bet from my friends and thereâs $500 on the line, so if you would justââ
âI donât kiss just anyone, princess,â the nickname causes you to fluster, but you shake it off as he continues, âYou gotta earn it,â
Heâs got a stupid smirk on his face, and you didnât even realize it but heâs definitely leaning closer to you. Itâs sending butterfliesâ well maybe more like mothsâ into your stomach.Â
âWhat theâ Youâre definitely the pervert. Iâm just going to ask to call it off,â you fake gag, âLater, loser,âÂ
âYouâll be back, nerd,â
You internally groan as you hear him shut the door, ignoring the intense heartbeat in your chest.
â
âNo,â Mina says.
âWhat?! I told you itâs impossible,â you argue, all of your friends on the other side of the argument.Â
âNo itâs not, he said you had to earn it right?â Mina retorts, âSo obviously thereâs a way, youâre just stubborn,â
âYouâre really not asking me to⊠You guys are crazy. Please, please, Iâll take anyone else, anything else,âÂ
âSorry, Y/N, itâs the rules,â Tsuyu looks at you with pity.
âHe hates me and I hate him! Thatâs all there is to it. Itâs not going to happen,â
âWhy do you guys even hate each other? Itâs our third year, get over it already,â Jirou teases.Â
âBecause heâs a dick and I refuse to let him walk all over me! I just cursed him out one time for calling me weak. Heâs the one who holds grudges because of his fragile, little heart,âÂ
âYou shouldâve known heâd hold that against you, but I honestly doubt he hates you because of that,â Mina says. âHe probably thought you looked hot,â she laughs.
Heat rushes to the tips of your eyes, âWhatever, all of you are weirdos. But anyways-â
âNo, Y/N,â Mina states, end of subject.
âYou all just want me to kill myself,â you groan as you sink into the couch. âWhatever, but Iâm going to force all of you to double your offering if I actually do this shit,â
The girls cheer. You cry inside. Anything for money, you guess.
â
It seems like the universe heard about the predicament you were in, because it felt like you were suddenly around him more often ever since the bet had been set.
âYou know, I donât want to be on patrol with you either,â you grumble, kicking at rocks as the two of you walk up and down the roads of the dorms.
âGlad we agree,â
Silence washes over you both.Â
âWhy donât you want to kiss me? Am I ugly or something?â you ask, but it definitely comes off sadder than you intend.
âDonât get all insecure because you donât get a stupid kiss,â he looks the opposite direction of yours, âYou know damn well youâre not ugly, so donât piss me off,âÂ
He had a strange way of saying stuff.
âAw, you love me, donât you?â you tease, poking at his arm.
âAh you dumbass, pay attention,â you snap back into place with a laugh, ââM just saying youâre better looking than some of these extras,âÂ
You donât know what to say in response to his words. Because they were surprisingly very sweet.Â
Realizing he had said too much, he changes the subject. âLetâs go this way,â
You follow him with a nod.
There was definitely a certain type of tension lingering that the two of you walked in near silence for the rest of the patrol.Â
You definitely were not repeating back his words in your head over and over again for the rest of the patrol. And Katsuki Bakugou was definitely not turning red because of what he said earlier. Definitely not.Â
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After that patrol, things seemed to sort of shift between the two of you. And to say it was scary was an understatement.Â
Conversations wouldnât always start off with the two of you insulting or cursing each other out. Thereâd be a hey or hello. If you guys saw each other in passing, heâd greet you with a nod of his head. Him being anything but passive aggressive towards you was terrifying because it was so not him.Â
âY/N,â a familiar voice calls out to you, you groan as you put your pencil down.
âIâm studying, what do you want, Katsuki?âÂ
âCome with me to the movies after school today,â itâs not really a question, more like a command.Â
You put your hands to your mouth in fake(?) excitement, âYouâre asking me on a date?! So kind, Katsuki,âÂ
âItâs not a date, idiot. Iâm going with Ei and Denki later, theyâre bringing Jirou and Mina. They were teasing me for not bringing anyone, so come,â
âIf I donât?â you muse.
âBe there or be square, nerd,â he doesnât take your bait, but you can tell heâd prefer it if you go. He walks away before you can respond.Â
Well, you guess you have plans later.
;;;
You meet up with the lot of them at the allotted time. The group walks together, and you thank God your friends have a questionable taste in men so you wouldnât be stuck with some randos. But you also have half a mind to curse them out for leaving you to fend for yourself when you all arrive at the theater.Â
They left you with no choice but to sit with Bakugou. Part of you really hates it, but not as much as you hate the rate at which your heart beats.Â
For the most part, the two of you just sit there in awkwardness. The other couples indulge in that lovey dovey shit, and it makes you feel out of place. You zone out and get into your head. Was there a motive in asking you to come out here? He couldâve invited like⊠Midoriya⊠or Ochako⊠Or anyone, really. But, you? Does he like you? Or were you his last option to invite? Your head hurts from overthinking.
Your hand rests in your lap, picking at the material of your pants. At least thatâs what it was doing. Until it happened.Â
From the corner of your eye, you watch as Bakugou slid his hand into yours. His fingers finding a comfortable place between your own. You release a deep breath when you realize you were holding your breath. Is he out of his fucking mind?
Despite your efforts to try and justify how much you absolutely hate it. You didnât even try to stop him. You didnât pull away. You didnât let his hand go. And even as the movie ended, you actually felt sad when he slid his hand away.Â
The cool air of the night shocked you a bit when all of you made it outside.Â
âWe were thinking of grabbing a bite, did you guys want to come?â Mina exclaims.Â
âOoh, that sounds good, are you down, Jirou?â
âSure, and you guys?â they all look at you.
âI- I have a stomach ache⊠Butter fucks with my stomach really bad,â the excuse is kind of weak, but still holds up as they all nod in understanding.Â
âI can walk you to the dorm,â Bakugou offers, and you donât really give him a yes or no, he just follows you.
Kirishima and Mina whistle and holler as the two of you part ways with the rest of them.Â
Part of you regrets making up some stupid lie to go home. Because this was way more awkward than getting free pizza.Â
The two of you are right by each other as you walk in silence towards the dorm. You wait. And wait. Wait for him to bring it up. Why did he do that? Why did he grab your hand? Was it all a front?
Why is he treating you so well?
Even as he drops you off at your room, he says nothing. Just a simple âGoodnight,â before heâs making his way to the elevator.
What an asshole.
â
So you take the initiative. The initiative in ignoring him. You werenât some casual fling. Fuck the bet, fuck him.
When you saw him making his way towards you, you were quick to get up and rush out of the classroom. When he nodded your directions in passing, it was easy to just walk past and not acknowledge him. Whatever there was between you and him, was gone. Whatever âitâ was, exactly.Â
But you were okay. You guess. You were down $500 or $1000, but whatever. That game was bullshit anyways. You always got the worst bets. You kind of felt bad that you were the end of it, though.Â
It was easy to avoid him. Thatâs what you thought. At least until one week later, you found yourself cornered by your dorm room with nowhere to go.
âWhat the fuck is up with you?â heâs angry, youâd be stupid if you thought otherwise.
You cross your arms and avoid his intense gaze, âWhatever do you mean?âÂ
Heâs getting closer, and a tiny, like miniscule, part of you finds angry-him hot. âYou know what the hell I mean, youâve been avoiding me,âÂ
âNuh uh,â you retort, still avoiding the subject at hand. âIâve just been busy, sorry,â
âLike hell, Racoon Eyes said youâve been in your dorm room everyday, so try again, asshat,â
Fucking Mina.
âI donât have to explain myself to you,â you poke at his chest, âNow get out of my way before I beat your ass,â
âYeah? Iâd like to see you try,â heâs smiling with mockery.
âOh, Iâm sure youâd like to be touched by me, you little virgin,â you inspect your nails in nonchalance, âToo bad, so sad, now move,â
âNo, not until you answer me,â heâs a bit more serious now, you can sense it in his tone.Â
You groan, âFine, not until you answer me, though. Why the fuck did you hold my hand and act like it didnât happen? Am I like a joke to you?â
He straightens up and his eyes widen. He looks to the side, then back at you.
âYouâre fuckinâ smart, why donât you take a guess?â
âYouâre not a baby, why donât you use your words?âÂ
You got him there.
âMaybe âcuz I like you, or something, idiot,â
You laugh. Laugh. Because he really thought youâd believe a stupid joke like that.
âYouâre funny, but seriously, why didââ
A kiss. Katsuki Bakugou has always been known for his speed and his wit. But now you see it more than ever. As he steals a kiss from you. It happens faster than youâre able to even realize youâre leaning into it.Â
When the two of you part, itâs tense again. You donât know if you should say something but he takes that choice from you.
âYou think that was funny?â he asks.
âWell- no, butââ
âNo buts, thatâs that,â
âI didnât even say I like you back! What if I didnât-â
âOh, so you do?â you jump up in realization you fumbled your words. âGood to know, princess,â
âUgh, youâre so annoying. How was I supposed to know you liked me? Youâre such an asshole, you know?â
âReally? Because this asshole just got you some cash,â he laughs referring to the bet, âBut yâknow, I donât let just anyone call me Katsuki,â
You grit your teeth before throwing a punch at his arm, âAnnoying! Annoying, so annoying,âÂ
Another hearty laugh escapes from his lips as he pulls you into a hug. You didnât even know Bakugou gave hugs. But you donât mind it.Â
âYouâre such a pervert, I bet youâve been looking forward to that kiss,â he teases.
âYeah? Well youâre a pervert for even kissing me in the first place,â
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YOU: pay up bitches
YOU: iâm talking double btw
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I lovedddd ryusui before he even got animated but i was watching the dub the other day and his va is the same as bakugouâsâŠ. Like are u kidding meeeeejfkskch