i am not a "lax bro"

@sullivan-jake

Jake. 17. Waxler High School. I'm not high maintenance, I just like getting what I want and I expect the best from everyone.

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Lucky || Chris & Jake

Chris couldn’t read the card because it was almost too sickening with cute things. He didn’t want to fall in love, and he didn’t want to have a crush on someone. That would all distract him from getting into college and having a life outside of Long Beach. He couldn’t take that anymore, and he didn’t want it to be like that. “I,” He sighed out gently, not wanting to disappoint Jake, but he knew that he probably would eventually. A dinner was almost too nice, and he couldn’t imagine going on a proper date just yet. Even though it was Valentine’s Day, he didn’t want to do anything too fancy because that would only increase Jake’s hopes more. This wasn’t doing him a favor, it was just… seeing what would happen. “It wasn’t that obvious because I had no idea.” He laughed a little bit as he shut the card he had been staring at, and looked up at the boy with his beautiful eyes. Beautiful? No— admiring. “Let’s just… go to your house, alright? I don’t think I’m up for dinner. We can just talk… see where I am with all of this, okay?” Chris was definitely not against being gay— it was something he had grown up with, and knowing that half of his friends were was one thing… he just didn’t know if he saw guys in any light like that. Jake might have been the exception, but he couldn’t tell for sure. Not yet. “I don’t want you to get your hopes up— I don’t… know if I like you like that.”

From Chris' reaction, Jake felt like he had totally screwed up by giving him the card. The boy just looked like unhappy and confused, which wasn't what he was expecting at all. He didn't mind if Christian didn't have the same feelings towards him, but he didn't expect it to have any negative effects on their relationship. "I get it," He said, shaking his head. "I probably just shouldn't have told you-- not like this, at least." Jake thought that his efforts would have made his chances of a date with Chris greater, but that clearly wasn't the case. He was trying to do something nice for once, but it didn't work out as well as he had planned. "Oh, alright. That actually sounds like a better idea than dinner." He was happy to hear that Chris wasn't going to completely ditch him and just go home, plus he felt like there was so much he needed to learn about the other boy. "Don't worry-- it's fine, really! I totally understand what you're saying and I'm sure I just overwhelmed you by telling you like this, I just didn't want to blurt it out and make things awkward." He sighed, realizing that it probably was awkward now that he'd said that. "So," He started, looking at Chris with a hopeful smile. "My car or yours?"

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Lucky || Chris & Jake

Jake was cute, and he would honestly be surprised if the person didn’t say yes. He had that cute, sassy personality that was appealing to only a certain group of people who would be able to handle it. Other than that, his face was cute and he had a cute body on him— not that he was looking, but he did get to see some of it when they would change in the locker room. Chris looked at the boy fixing his hair and he wondered what was going through his mind. Of course, today Chris would be alone, and it would kind of suck, but he would get through it by watching porn or something like that. No one deserved to not be happy, and that might be something that would cheer him up. “Well, you better before he finds someone else.” Chris put the shirt on over his body and watched as he pulled the envelope from his locker and handed it to him. His eyes looked up at the boy as he noticed it said ‘Chris’ on it. Oh no, he thought. “Thanks.” Chris said softly, he felt his body weaken a little as he swallowed fear. “Um, Jake,” He opened the card to notice a little note and giftcard. He couldn’t look up from the card because he didn’t want to see the boys eyes. “I’m the boy, aren’t I?” The tone in his voice was heavy as he chewed on the inside of his cheek, unsure of what to say about it. He finally looked up and leaned against the locker, wanting a little bit of explanation.

Jake had always been that person to develop crushes on every boy he met, and the case wasn't any different with Chris. The boy was attractive, athletic, intelligent, and he had a caring vibe about him that Jake was drawn to. Having grown up in a practically empty house and being alone most of the time, getting to know people was something that Jake wasn't exactly great at. He had plenty of stuff to talk about and usually wanted to learn more about people, but he had a habit of always bring the conversation back to himself. When he talked to Chris it seemed like he didn't mind, but it could have just been that he was more patient than others had been. Either way, Jake liked talking to the boy and he hoped that this wouldn't ruin the friendship that they'd been working on for the past few weeks. "I doubt he'll find anyone else." Jake said, shaking his head as he watched Christian open the card. He couldn't really read the boy from the expression on his face or the barely-there response that he got, but for some reason Jake felt like Chris was disappointed. "Yeah... you are. I mean, I thought it was kind of obvious." He shrugged and shut his locker, moving a little bit closer to the darker-haired boy. "It's alright if you don't like me back, I just thought I'd let you know how I felt." Jake looked down at his feet for a moment, before looking back up to meet the boy's eyes with his. "Did I ruin my chances of having dinner with you tonight?"

#para #para:chris #lucky

Are you calling me fat?

No! Of course not. I'm just saying that it's always good to work off all the bad food that you eat...That way you won't ever have to worry about your weight.

#chat:cole #chat

It’s only once a year, might as well go crazy. Right?

Um, I guess so? As long as you find someway to work them all off, I'm sure it'll be fine.

#chat:cole #chat

Nothing like spending the day in your pajamas and making cookies. Feels like Christmas again— just more red and pink. And a lot more kisses and chocolate for me.

That sounds like a lot of unnecessary carbs.

#chat:cole #chat

Lucky || Chris & Jake

Of course, practice was still scheduled on Valentine’s Day. Chris wasn’t complaining, because it’s not like he had anything to do with that. He didn’t have a Valentine or anything, but he had hoped that the Coach would have a heart and just let them get away with not lifting for the day. When he realized that wasn’t going to happen, it was extremely hard to focus. Getting to the school, he went into the locker room and noticed a bunch of the guys who looked extremely happy— which wasn’t normal. It must have been because most of them had plans for their lovers that night. Chris was happy for most of them; it was an exciting time to be in love. Most of them would be losing their virginity that night, and Chris felt happy for them. Honestly. Going through the entire practice and lifting was completely draining, and he knew that he should have gotten more sleep than he had the night prior. Chris was always the last one to get back to the locker room to change— most of the guys had already left to go hang out with their girlfriends or boyfriends. There was one person, however, that took more time than anyone Chris knew. “Jake,” He said, buttoning his pants and picking up his shirt to walk over to Jake who stood in front of the mirror, doing whatever he was doing. “So?” He said, with a smirk, leaning against the lockers as he looked at Jake through the mirror. “Did you tell him?”

When Jake woke up to a text saying that practice was still on after school, he couldn't help but be disappointed. He was hoping that since it was Valentine's Day and it was all about love, his coach would just cancel practice, since love was the exact opposite of what he felt for the sport. Sadly that wasn't the case and he had to drag himself onto the field to run some drills, which he easily got out of early by offering to fill up the team's water bottles. After he ran them back to the field, he slipped away and just hid out in the locker rooms for the rest of practice, knowing he wouldn't be missed by any of his teammates. It was nice to have the locker room to himself, because when the whole team was there it was usually loud and cramped and humid, which he just couldn't deal with. So, having the showers to himself and plenty of space to get changed was a nice change. He sat and scrolled through Twitter for a while, looking at all of the people either complaining about not having a valentine or talking about how in love they were. Jake had never really cared about the holiday, and just gave all of his friends valentines that he got from a box or made himself. Being so new to the area, he had only made a card for one person this year, and that was Christian. He didn't know how the boy was going to react when he found out that the person he had a crush on was him, but Jake hoped it wouldn't end up being a huge deal. When he saw Chris come up behind him in the mirror, he stopped playing with his hair and turned around, smiling softly. "Not yet," He shrugged, making sure the boy knew that it wasn't too important to him. He turned to his locker and pulled out a red envelope that had "Chris" written on it in the sweetest handwriting, along with a heart at the end of his name. Inside was a Starbucks giftcard and a note that said "I like you a latte", which was about as creative as he got, but he thought it was cute. "Happy Valentine's Day." He grinned, handing the card to the boy in front of him and waiting patiently for him to open it. "I don't even know if you like coffee, but if you don't then you can just spend it on me."

#para #para:chris #lucky

You’re… just not that motivated to find friends or a pet to ease being lonely? Alright, then. I won’t pretend it makes sense to me, but each to their own. I can’t imagine you will. If Jesse Eisenberg can survive an apocalypse, I’m sure you can handle it just fine — but I don’t think the bonus prize of Emma Stone would be a given.

Well, it's not that. I have a dog and she's great company, but I've been in Long Beach for less than a month, so I'm still working on the friend part. I have one, though! He's really nice and I'm glad we get along, because no one else on my team seems to have any common interests with me. That's fine with me. Emma's really pretty and everything, but she's not exactly my type.

#chat:rachel #chat

Very good plan, I agree. And it doesn’t make sense, but most people don’t, anyway! Oh my God, seriously, that always made me want to rip my hair out—But I’d do it, if I were you. Or at least fill stuff in and fake answers. Huh, I’ve never met someone who found the mall “relaxing”.. that’s different.

I mean, I do most of it, but it's not fair for teachers to give you hours of homework in each class. It's like they don't realize I have other classes besides theirs, and then it ends up taking my whole weekend to finish. Not okay, if you ask me. Really? I think it's great. People watching is one of my favorite things and the mall is the perfect place to do it.

#chat:isaac #chat

Ugh, whatever. This is all confusing, and it’s hurting my brain. Just make sure to be at practice tomorrow. I want you to tell me who it is that you’ve got a boner for. He’s obviously quite cool if you’re going to ask him on V-Day. Maybe you’ll just have sex or something.

Poor you. I promise I'll be there and I might tell you who I like. I don't have a boner for him, so you can just stop thinking about that right now. He is really cool, though. Definitely. Hey! Who do you think I am? I'm not just gonna have sex with him because I think he's attractive. I'm really not that kind of person and even if I was, I don't think he'd be up for that.

#chat:christian #chat

I mean, jokingly, yes. I-I… you’re putting in a position I don’t want to be, Jake. You’re super nice and all, but I don’t think I like you like that and you’re making it sound like I do. You’d rather hang out with me than the guy you like? But why? That’s not even… dude, you have to go after this guy. I’m not going to voluntarily go with you if you don’t even try to make the effort. I mean, what the hell would be the point?

I'm not the one who made it sound like that! You suggested that sometimes you'd like to think of me like a boyfriend, which is kind of confusing, but I wasn't against it, because we're obviously not boyfriends. Well-- not really, but you're the one who actually made the effort to ask me to hang out and I think that's nice. I'll still talk to him and ask him if he wants to hangout sometime, but I'm sure he already has plans. You're right, there wouldn't be a point. If he says yes, though... we still have to have dinner sometime. As friends.

#chat:christian #chat

In the way of a boyfriend. W-Well… um, that wasn’t me asking you out, I’m afraid. It was just a plan B to if the guy you’re crushing on says no. I meant, we could be alone, together, meaning that we’d just go as friends. D-Did you want it to be something more? Dude, I don’t think we’re on the same page right now.

Right, so.. you're planning on calling me babe whenever you want to think of me in a boyfriend-y way? But we're not dating. Sounds alright. Eh, I mean, he might say yes, but we don't know each other that well so I don't think it would lead to anything. I'd much rather hang out with you. No! Not at all, I just thought that maybe you did. We're definitely on the same page. Just two friends, going to dinner on Valentine's Day, because neither of us have other plans. It'll be fun.

#chat:christian #chat

Breakouts are a huge no-no. I’ll just call you babe whenever I feel a little less manly. Or I want to think of you in that… way. Um. Y-Yeah, we aren’t dating. What are you doing for Valentine’s day, by the way? I mean, if the guy says no. Or that he doesn’t like you back. Because, I mean, if you want to do something, we can go to dinner or something. We’ll be lonely together.

Think of me in what way, Chrissy? Nope, I'm totally single and so are you, as far as I know. Um, I don't really have any plans besides sitting at home and watching reality TV shows all night, so.. Are you asking me out? That's actually really... nice and I'd love to go to dinner with you. So we could be alone. Together. I hope you realize how much sense that doesn't make, but I don't even care because of how sweet you are.

#chat:christian #chat

Drama is stupid all the way around. Celebrities, people I know… I don’t like it at all. I… am a boy. So, I think I take that as a compliment? I-I mean I’m not going to call you babe, that’s kind of weird, don’t you think? We aren’t like… dating or anything. Oh, that makes sense. Wow, I just learned something today— thanks, J. You really know and love your stuff, don’t you? I’ll introduce you to some Green Day and Sleeping with Sirens. You’ll be fine, babe. Okay, I’ll wait until next Friday for that lovely conversation.

I definitely see you as the kind of person to live a drama free life, which I think is cool. Drama just causes stress, which causes breakouts and that's really not okay. Hm, then you're welcome. I don't think it's weird, at all. Of course we aren't dating, Christian, but that doesn't mean you can't call me by a certain name. No problem! I do, and if you ever want to know anything about any of them, I'm probably the person you should come to. That sounds... different, but I'm open to anything. Aw. Thanks for having my back, bro. Don't be so down on Valentine's Day, because you never know who might be interested in you.

#chat:christian #chat

Oh, you don’t seem like the type to miss a beat of celebrity gossip. Yeah, don’t mind me. Your attention span is much more important, bro. Uhh, I don’t know who Marina & The Diamonds are. So, you’re into the ‘queens’ that most would call them? Are you into Britney too? Bruno Mars is really good, too. You’ve got alright taste, but you need to delve into a bit of edgier stuff. Let your mind be blown by something other than Single Ladies. Oh, I’m sure I will! You’ll probably be extremely chatty that day, for sure. Maybe you’ll even show up to practice just to tell me all about it.

Never! I don't like being involved in my own drama, so I just keep up to date with other people's lives. It's much easier that way. Ugh, you're such a boy. I don't get why being called "bro" makes all of you guys feel so... alive. I think it's weird and I'd much rather be called "babe". Just so you know. Well, Marina's a solo artist, but The Diamonds are her fans-- not her band. Basically, yeah. They are queens, though. Don't doubt that for a second. I used to be in love with Britney, but I think I'm over her now. You think so? Maybe you can lead me in the right direction of something edgy. Just none of that screamo stuff, because it kind of scares me. Mhm... I think you're probably right, but we'll just have to wait and see.

#chat:christian #chat

That sounds like a productive day, I guess. Something that you would do. Um, they’re just… it’s a long story. Better for another day, it’s boring anyways. I’m really into like, Imagine Dragons and The Neighborhood. I think The 1975 are great too. Also like, punk stuff is really cool. What about you? Arizona is basically a large desert, and it sucked. California is way cooler, anyways— a lot more to do, at least. Well, if you hadn’t moved here either we wouldn’t have known each other! Are you planning on telling your crush you like them on Valentine’s Day?

It's how I spend most of my time when I'm not out somewhere, but even then I'm on Twitter so I don't miss any new celebrity gossip. I'm sure it's not that boring, but I have a short attention span and I'd probably much rather hear you talk about something else, so yeah. Save it for later. Sounds like you have an alright taste, then. I'm not very into punk, though. I like Marina & The Diamonds, Beyoncé, Lana Del Ray... stuff like that. I've also kind of been obsessed with Bruno Mars, recently. That's true, so it looks like I made a good decision. I might tell him, but if I do, you'll definitely know.

#chat:christian #chat

That’s definitely not my hobby. Don’t want to upset my parents more than they already are, ha. Adrenaline rushes like concerts are my favorite though. All the loud music and people around you… and it’s legal. Um, we moved to Arizona for a while— to get away from Long Beach. My mom needed to be here, though. She couldn’t think about moving away for too long, so we can back. I’m not really looking right now. That doesn’t mean I’m not interested, but I don’t know. Valentine’s Day really doesn’t mean a thing to me. We all know it’s just a day that teens use as an excuse to lose their virginity. That’s why it’s mostly abbreviated ‘V-Day’.

It's not exactly mine, but it happens sometimes. If I could be doing anything all day, it'd definitely be reading magazines and drinking Starbucks, but school messes that all up. Why are your parents so upset? And I absolutely love concerts. What kind of music do you listen to? I thought Arizona was just like, a huge desert.. Gross. I'm glad you guys decided to come back, because you're really cool and we wouldn't have met if you didn't. I don't think that's what Valentine's day is for. That's not how I lost mine, at least. I think it's a great way to tell a crush that you like them or you can just like, give chocolate to anyone who looks like they're lonely. Some people need that.

#chat:christian #chat

Um, thanks. Haha. I don’t know if I’m really cut out to do bad stuff, I’m not a bad kid. I try not to be, at least. This is a really great school. We moved away for a while, and coming back here was really warming and welcoming. Uh, older people are okay? I don’t know, I don’t really like anything. I just kind of like who I like, and that’s about it. No preference, really. If they’re into me, and I’m into them, then I guess there’s… something there that we should look at.

Well... I'm not a bad kid, either. I guess breaking the rules is more of a hobby or something. Sometimes I like the adrenaline rush it can give you. Did you move out of state or just away from the city? That's cool-- I like people like that. It's nice, although I have very specific taste most of the time. I can be really picky. Are you into anyone right now? Valentine's day is coming up, you know.

#chat:christian #chat

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