SOMETHING IMPORTANT YOU ALL BETTER READ (ESP APPA) BC I WILL CRY IF U DONT OK
I've been waiting months for this honestly. I don't know why, but for some reason, I was really excited to get to writing this. Although today, I nearly forgot.. /hits self repeatedly/. I'm writing this post to thank you guys and to share some of my most favorite memories which some may remember some may not.
Honestly, this wouldn't have been my first tumblr roleplay if the one I wanted to join didn't close, but it did and now I'm here and I'm happy, honestly.
When I came to this place, I was actually very depressed because I got kicked out of my very first roleplay. Sure, I hadn't done very good things there, but in the end, I only wanted to save a life.
I remember when I first came to this roleplay, there were about 5 or so of us. There was appa, umma (not Eric), Jongin (Yusheng), Yesung (scared of their paras forever) and Onew I think? I'm not really sure OTL So anyways. I remember freaking out since I had /no/ idea how to tumblr rp so I was freaking out all over the place and the first few days or maybe a week appa was so nice to me. The first starter was actually good considering it was my first time. And then everything pretty much went downhill when me and Jongin started rping tbh-- I was the one that brought Luhan here and the initial plan was so Luhan would steal Sehun away from Jongin (no regrets).
Those were the first few days/weeks in DBD.
At some point, I'm not really sure why (Probably because of our personalities) me and appa started fighting with each other (i was the only one who called you a dad back then when you wanted to force us to btw unu) and I became appa's most hated child. Also annoying child. I think? I don't really remember my nicknames.
But yeah. I remember how scared I was of Yesung's long paras and how I stalked Onew's and Sehun's post (so sad you didn't finish it TT) I remember appa freaking out over every single person that came.
WOW FUCKING SHIT IT'S FUCKING MIDNIGHT I AM MISSING MY DEADLINE WHY DIDN'T I DO THIS EARLIER STUPID HOMEWORK U SHIT--
Well anyways-- I remember when Kris came how appa was dying all over and we were all dying with him. I remember Donghae -- ew -- and I remember all members that have been here, even for a short time.
Sometime later, appa created a Siwon and on dash I was teasing him ooc and then he said he can seduce me and idk if I'm allowed to tell this story-- well Diana already knows so
I remember when appa was feeling down and all the members sent these cute messages to this one blog that was made especially for him.
Sometime before leaving, I finally realized appa was a guy. I'm sorry you're just so gay and fluffy I--
Probably the best memory of them all was when me, amber (yerim) and yixing had a shirtless gif war-- it really was the best.
Ummm that's actually all I remember from DBD v1.0
Was Chanxing in DBD v1.0 or v2.0? Cus that was a heavenly ship
I had left DBD for some reasons and didn't come back for a month or so. But honestly, I couldn't help but stalk all the members each and every day. I even waited till midnight so I could be the first one to wish appa a happy birthday.
So I came back, this time as Yonghee and honestly my main goal was to make appa like me again. I helped him with the follow lists and pretty much promoted DBD wherever I could.
I remember when one of my friends came here as Suho and I was like "nobody touch him" and yerim immediately started calling me woman hoe.
Honestly, DBD v2.0 is sort of blank for me, I can't really remember that much from it.
I can say one thing though. This place is better family than my own family is. And honestly, I love my family a lot, so this place is just amazing. My parents would never care about the stuff I tell you guys, about how depressed I am, they don't understand.
For a few weeks now, I was planning to leave, I was so sure this post was going to be my last post forever. But this place started dying and only now did I realize how fucking much this place means to me, only now did I realized how much I need it and how I'm never going to be able to give this place up. I'm sure even if I get into the school I want, even if I have to study all day, I will still stay here because 40% of the time, my thoughts are on DBD.
So I just want to thank you all for being here, for being my family, for helping me get better.
And separately, I wanna thank appa. For never giving up on this place, for putting up with my shit for a year now, for caring for me more than my own actual dad does.
I love you all and I'll stay here. Forever.