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Dear Dad,

I miss you so much. There are literally no words to explain the deep hole that I have in my heart, although I try. I used to try to write to your on your Facebook, but I feel like people are judging me. It’s probably so in my head, but yeah.

So I will write to you here, even though it’s probably just me writing to myself since I’m pretty sure nothing really happens when we die. Life just stops I think. I secretly hope I’m terribly wrong.

That’s the hardest part really. The finality of it all. The never.

If you can somehow read this, or see me, I hope you don’t think I’m too much of a fuck up. I’d apologize for not talking to mom, but I’m not sorry. Sad, but not sorry. She made her choices and I needed to protect myself. I hope you understand.

I have so much else to tell you but today I’m crying too hard. Maybe tomorrow.

#grief #dealing with grief #griefandloss #death anniversary

I started blogging waaaaaaaaaaaaay back when we started having trouble getting pregnant. Writing was cathartic, healing. Once my kids started getting bigger the need to write (and the time to) faded.

I started my tumblr a couple of years ago, as a way to connect with my best friend, as well as to find other knitters. It was awesome, until I started grad school and had no time to write for fun (or knit, really).

Grad school is done, finished last month. That’s not why I’m really back though. I’m back because I once again need the healing that writing can provide.

On April 30th, the day before I finished grad school, my father was killed in a tragic work accident. He was 57 years old.

I can’t even believe I just wrote that. It feels like I’m reading someone else’s blog.

#grief #loss #my father is gone

eleanor-shellstrop

get to know me meme: [3/8] friendships ✴ meredith grey & cristina yang

She’s my person. If I murdered someone, she’s the person I’d call to help me drag the corpse across the living room floor. She’s my person.

thedandyunderworld

Probably one of the best costumes from the con that I’ve seen.

reneeknits

😂 #darthvader #knitting #starwars

Whoa, just whoa...

Everything in my head is bouncing around like little ping pong balls.

I know it's been FOREVER since I wrote anything of substance here, but due to the current state of ping pong balls in my head I think I need to start again.

You know that restless feeling you get when you have a billion things to do and you want to do them all at once. Which means you do nothing? And you kind of rock and bounce in your chair? Or is that only me?

Anyway, I'm back. I will update on the crazy of my life soon.

#not dead

iraffiruse

nobleknits

The only difference between an experienced knitter and a new knitter is that the experienced knitter makes bigger mistakes faster. Be bold; there are no terrible consequences in knitting.

Stephanie Pearl-McPhee (via nobleknits)

literarynerd

taco-bell-rey

pissyeti

EXCEPT THIS ISNT JUST A FUNNY HAHA SILLY HEADLINE GUYS

this is really important and is a really great program that teaches skills to inmates and allows them to basically receive group therapy while they are simultaneously learning a craft

IT IS ALSO REALLY RADICAL BECAUSE IT BREAKS NOT ONLY THE STEREOTYPE THAT INMATES ARE INCAPABLE OF BEING DECENT HUMAN BEINGS WHO CAN TALK OUT THEIR ISSUES AND HEAL AND BE FUNCTIONING MEMBERS OF SOCIETY BUT IT ALSO SHOWS THAT TRADITIONALLY GENDERED HOBBIES LIKE KNITTING ARENT JUST “FOR WOMEN” AND ARE ENJOYABLE FOR EVERYONE.

here is an from the above article

They started by knitting comfort dolls, which they gave to children removed from their homes because of domestic issues. Then they moved on to hats for kids at the inner-city elementary school many of the prisoners attended, Zwerling says. “If you look at them, they’re covered with tattoos, they’re rough looking, and many of the young guys don’t have all their teeth,” she says. “But it doesn’t feel rough. They’re very respectful and grateful and very happy to knit.”

THEY KNIT COMFORT ITEMS FOR ABUSED KIDS. THEY KNIT HATS FOR INNER-CITY CHILDREN.

this is a good program and i really hope that people actually look into it rather than just posting the headline and a silly image attached ok

original article - x