2 weeks until summer

5'2 Hw: 124lb Lw:103lb Cw:116lb UGW:98lb || message me if you need or want to talk to someone! :)                                 

[inanimate-dolls]

[summerlissthin-blog]

Right now I finally have things going pretty good in my life. I actually see myself living in two months. Where last couple times I’ve posted I couldn't even see myself making it through the night. But of course when everything goes good something has to fuck it up. I keep gaining weight and I feel like I don't have control so I just need to remember I’m happiest when I’m not eating so here we go again. 

[from-fat-too-thin]

I’ve honestly reached the point of no return…I can’t “love myself” even if I’m skinny. I will always hate myself and so will everyone else. I’m unwanted.

[hatebeinglonely]

[permanentna]

[summerlissthin-blog]

I haven’t weighed myself in a long time so let’s hope that it’s not a high number for me. All though I have gained weight after my binge phase Im slowly starting to loose it. Im in a good mood right now, yet I just feel uncomfortable and unhappy with myself and body. Im just trying to stay positive I guess. 

[plus-size-barbie]

[skinnybxtchxo]

[howtoboho]

[summerlissthin-blog]

i’m back now! I kinda took a break from the thinspo tumblr world lmao. But I’m back and ready to shed a few pounds HAHA. summer’s in two weeks so i got to get going on this. 

edit: by the way coming back and having a few messages from people actually means a lot. Knowing that someone is reading the things i type makes me feel less alone <3

[summerlissthin-blog]

update

So i basically lost a couple pounds. And my life was slowly starting to get better. I was actually heading in a super good place, I was really proud of myself! But something in my life happened and it left me feeling completely worthless as a person. I feel like crap and I know this is all my fault. This probably all happened because I’m too fucking fat and ugly. Life is bull shit and I’m over it. Can I just slowly drift away and leave earth cause that’d be really fucking cool. 

[dreamsdainty]

[starvingforest-deactivated20180]

[thedaintydiarist-blog]

craving something?

craving chocolate? have a cup of hot cocoa (nestle has a 20 calorie fat-free option, swiss miss has a 25 calorie option but it doesn’t taste as good imo)

craving ice cream? make some banana “nice” cream instead. just freeze a banana and put it in the blender for a few minutes. add whatever toppings you like, it’s just like real ice cream!

craving candy? try some dried fruit (can be high in calories) or pop a few grapes in the freezer. frozen grapes taste like jelly beans

craving fries? why not try some homemade sweet potato fries– cut a sweet potato into wedges and bake them for 45 mins. full of fiber!

craving something sweet? have some sugar free jello (10 calories per serving) or a sugar free popsicle (15 calories) instead

craving a chocolate bar? I personally love the heavenly crisp bars (110 calories) from skinny cow. they taste just like kit kats, but healthier

craving something salty? try a soft pretzel (160 calories). these are a good source of protein and are perfect for warming up on a cold winter day. I like the ones from hanover

craving a milkshake? have a smoothie made with fresh fruit and light yogurt (150 calories) or simply blend a banana with ice and milk

craving cookies? have some meringues (10-25 calories!)– I cannot tell you how much I love these things. they taste like vanilla, and you can get them at trader joes

craving starbucks? why not add some flavored creamer to your coffee instead. they come in a variety of delicious flavors that will make you feel like you’re having dessert! my favorites are the girl scout cookie selection of flavors

craving a brownie? fiber one has a fiber-filled brownie (90 calories) that doesn’t taste too bad. you might also try a chocolate biscotti (100 calories) these go great with tea

craving pie? have a homemade berry crisp instead– microwave some mixed berries until they are warm and gooey. then crush a graham cracker and crumble in on top. add cinnamon and honey if you choose. soooo tasty

[thedaintydiarist-blog]

For those of you who binge!

[skinnyjudoka]

Just remember:  In 20 seconds, the food will gone. The taste will have disappeared. And all that will be left will be guilt and regret. Just like last time.

(via skinnyjudoka)

[thinking-thinning]

Me: *gains weight*

Me: *doesn’t change my CW in my bio so it never happened*

[summerlissthin-blog]

???

If anyone has any tips or anything to help stop binging please let me know. I normally go through a weight loss phase and then a binge phase and it happens consistently, but lately its been solid binging and maybe just a couple days of restricting, nothing major. I don't know what it is but during the days I’m okay but nights are the worse I just wanna lay in my bed and not feel anything. I need self control, I NEED to feel like I’m in charge again. But I keep failing. Its all way too much for me to handle right now.