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cooper looked up to her, taking a moment to think. ryan grabbed his phone out and texted brent and cam knowing that it was best for cooper to have help to get them home. cooper nodded and stood up, taking a moment to find his balance. “sureeeeeee lets go.” he said smiling at her
Summer smiled softly at him before leading to the back deck that was mostly empty. "Okay, some nice fresh air." She rubbed his arm gently before his back.
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Ryan rolled his eyes, “she thinks she can do whatever she wants, she needs a wake up call. Maybe cam kicking her ass will help.” He said taking the beer from cooper. Cooper looked to summer drinking the water. “I cant. Summers coming!” He said smiling a bit drunk now
Summer batted her eyes at him, a little flattered that he wanted to wait for her even though she was right there in front of him, wanting to lead him on this walk. She bit her lower lip. "Coop, Summer wants you to have some fresh air." She took his hand in hers. "Besides, silly, don't you know who I am?"
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Ryan laughed hearing her. “Cam caught her cheating. He knows he should have listened a long time ago but.” Ryan said. Amber left as Cooper grabbed his water drinking it quickly. “Dude we need you to stop drinking.” Ryan said shaking his head
"I can't believe she would do that, what a moron. She has an amazing boyfriend and she wants to mess around..." Summer shook her head, felt a little sick as she thought about it. "Don't be surprised when I loose my spot on the squad." She frowned somewhat but she was not about to try and make Cooper think Taylor was worth his time. Summer wrapped her hand around his arm. "Coop, instead of drinking how about we walk around? Get a little fresh air and sobriety in you."
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Ryan nodded. “She’s fine. Josh and bella are home with her now. He’s just pissed at taylor. She’s been cheating and he’s mad he didn’t believe everyone sooner.” Ryan said looking to Cooper who had found a new drink and was talking with amber, a friend of taylors.
Summer watched him carefully. She bit down on the inside of her cheek and sighed, wishing so foolishly she had Coop's attention like every other girl seemed to capture. "I never thought she really was cheating, she has Coop. Stupid. She texted me actually..." she told Ryan with a eyeroll. "She pretty much threatened my spot on the squad if I don't try to convince Cooper that she wasn't cheating and just trying to make him jealous."
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as cooper and ryan packed up his room, they talked about the game. he knew ryan wanted to ask what coop planned to do about taylor cheating but in that moment he didnt want to think about it. though that didnt last long as taylor showed up. ryan headed out with a shrug as cooper kept packing, taylor accusing him of more shit than he ever thought possible. it wasnt until she accused him of cheating on her with summer did he snap. he went off on her and threw it all back in her face, only stopping when alyssa came in to the room. cooper broke up with taylor, ignoring her begs of not before she left angry. cooper hugged alyssa and put her back to bed before he checked in with josh and headed out. arriving at the party he grabbed a beer and headed to find the team,
Summer and Autumn stopped to make one small adjustment before the party. Autumn gave one of her more stylish and less revealing short dress, though it hugged every unwanted curve on Sum's body. If she showed up out of the blue in hot clothes and a complete makeover, then it'd look stupid. Baby steps. Just like getting over Cooper. She applied a little gloss and Autumn did a pretty wing eyeline. On the way to the party, a text popped up from an unlikely source. Summer announced with gloom, it was Taylor. Autumn made a face. It was Taylor accusing her of driving a wedge between Taylor and Coop, and to do the right thing and tell Cooper that Taylor was only trying to make him jealous. It was implied her position, though not great, on the cheer squad would be cancelled. She felt sick to her stomach and confused as to what the hell she was talking about at first. She sighed and texted back without commitment that she would do her best. When they walked in, Summer was hit with butterflies. She got a few looks as she made her way through to see if she could find... like instinct, she swallowed hard as she realized she always searched out for him first. She ran her hand through her waves and grabbed a water. "Coop, hey." She greeted when she spotted him and the team, feeling a little awkward. She was sure one of them eyed her dressed, the one who gave a low whistling cat-call and remark of her cleaning up good. She blushed and shyly thanked him.
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cooper showered and changed before heading in to the weight room with the rest of the team. as they sat and listened to the meeting, cambrie sent him pictures of taylorwith some guy while the game was still going on. cooper felt sick to his stomach as he closed his phone. after being dismissed he met up with ryan and showed him the pictures before they headed to his coopers, starting the pack up his room, brent and tucker joining after a while
Summer mentioned going to Autumn, who sighed and reminded her that this wasn't the right step in getting over Coop. Summer bit her lower lip and agreed, but her best friend agreed to go anyways cause it'd be fun. They both decided to wait for the make over, have it be a surprise the next morning at school.
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Cooper shrugged at her attempt. At least she was trying. “I don’t know. I guess we will see.” He said with a sigh. Hearing her he nodded. “Of course. Why wouldn’t i?” He asked curiously, only looking away from her when he saw taylor. He sighed annoyed before turning his body to summer again. “I should shower. But text me and let me know okay? I want you there.” He said softly before he headed into the locker room, joining the meeting
Summer had considered telling him, a brief flickering moment crossed her mind that played out something of a chick flick. She pours her heart out to him and he kisses her, right there on the field, spins her round and holds her close. It was a beautiful flicker. But then Taylor appeared and Summer thought better of it. She gave him a soft smile, even in the face of his annoyance. "Okay, I will." She promised, leaving shortly after him to avoid talking to his girlfriend. She would run this by Autumn, maybe Autumn's boyfriend, see what they thought about her going... But she couldn't see the harm in stopping by for a few minutes... Even if that went against everything else she had resolved herself with earlier.
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Cooper told the guys to go ahead, all complaining about getting a shower. He hugged summer back before he shrugged. “It went okay. I didn’t get early admission but there’s a chance.” He said not wanting to voice that he didn’t even get that, that he didn’t get Columbia at all. “Thank you for everything sum. Really I am glad you gave up time to help me. The guys and I are headed to a party at josh somethings house after this. You should come.” He told her giving her a smile
She frowned at that, she could tell he was bummed and doubtful, but her hand gave his shoulder a gentle squeeze as she tried to give him a soft reassuring smile. "Maybe the just want to make sure you won't put their other baseball boys to shame, so they are making you wait." She offered, knowing it sounded a little lame, but she didn't want him to be hopeless. "Anytime." She said honestly, despite her previous vow of not making herself so available all the time on his time. "You want me to go?" She couldn't help the surprise in her voice.
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Cooper and the team ran through the chant, cheering as they did. It was an amazing feeling to know they kicked some ass with scouts there. Cooper let his eyes scan over the crowd, telling himself he was looking for taylor but really he was looking for summer. He gave her a smile when he saw her, though it turned to a frown as coach called him over. The moment he had waited on. Ryan walked with him, claiming he had to grt something from his bag but both knew it was to calm cooper. The scout told him while he did great, he wasn’t where he should be for Columbia admittance. Everything around him stopped as he smiled and shook the guys hand before he headed to the dugout sitting, brett joining. “I think I’m fucked.” Cooper said with a laugh as they all grabbed their stuff and headed to the locker room, ready to hit up a party after to celebrate
Summer held up both fingers crossed to him when she heard his coach before she watched him head over to who she assumed was the scout. She was joined by Autumn in the next moment, it took her attention off of the scene that wasn't her business anyways, despite wanting so badly to know if he got it or not. "He did so good!" Summer enthused and Autumn nodded, but changed the subject about what they needed to do for this makeover and suggested a sleepover. Once their conversation died a bit, Summer found her gaze looking for Cooper. Autumn protested as she began to head to the dug out. "I helped him study so he could get this, I wanna find out what happened." She explained simply before running over before they could disappear into the locker room. "Coop!" She called out and once she got close enough she acted on instinct without thinking, hugging him. "How did it go the scout? You did so good!"
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As the game continued, cooper did his best to stay focused. but there was so much going on in his head that it was useless. Columbia sent a scout and f rom the looks of it, it wasnt good. as he stood on the mound in the final inning. they were only up by one, 2 outs and a run on third, cooper was stressed. he could tell brett was starting to notice and called a time to have a meeting at the mound. cooper watched as ryan and brett came over, though his eyes scanned the crowd, stopping when he saw taylor flirting with some pun from their science class. “forget her and focus for one more pitch. its a full count. you know you can do this.” brett said as he looked to his best friend, cooper looking back to brett before he nodded. “all star semi finals, full bases, full count final pitch. lets throw the fast curve.” cooper said smirking as brett agreed, ryan laughing. “they are in for it now.” ryan said as they hustled back to positions. the ump called play and cooper smirked as he nodded to bretts signals, the pitch was tossed but all cooper could hear was the cheers as the game ended, they won by one.
It was gibberish to her how sports worked, she was gifted in academics and in a sense she got the gist of sports, but she wasn't someone who in detail could talk sports much less analyze it like she knew the scouts were doing right now. Her hands were pressed together as if in prayer, finger tips at her lips. She thought the game was going good for the home team. She cheered at every moment that seemed good, over enthusiastically clapping and wooing. She tried to ignore the knot in her stomach, tried to ignore how much her heart skipped beats watching him, more important she tried to ignore the fact she felt a pang of jealousy when she saw him looking to Taylor. She had to get over this, she had to let go. She still couldn't bring herself not to cheer for him. On some level it didn't matter that she clearly wasn't his best friend anymore, she still wanted him to succeed and all the happiness. So as the game won thanks to him, Summer was jumping up out of her seat and cheering. Clapping and hollering right with the crowd, except she added Yay Cooper! She couldn't help herself from heading down the bleachers, her arm slipped out of Autumn's grasp. She wanted to run to him, for a minute she almost did, before she saw his team and friends surrounding him. She wanted to still run to him, hug him, ignore them for a moment and congratulate him, but she felt out of place, like she didn't belong. So instead even though she could have reached him first, she stood in place, choked back the sad, and kept clapping for him.
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Cooper tried to focus on the game but there was so much on his mind. Summer, taylor, the scouts, his talk with coach, autumn. He knew he needed to shake it off and by the fact that he threw a ball, he had to focus. By time they were up to bat, he was nervously undoing and redoing his batting gloves. He made his way to the batters box hoping he would be focused enough for a hit. With 2 men on base cooper focused as the first pitch was tossed, a ball. The next one came and he swung, his bat making contact. He didn’t wait to hear anything as he took off, coach yelling for them to all go, the ball landing far out in left field. Cooper ran sliding into third, smirking as he stood up, the score now 2 to 0.
As the game kicked off, Summer tried to focus. She had never been much of a sports fan but as she watched Cooper step up, she did her best not to think of everything else that was between them. This was such an important night for him. As he did his thing, Summer was one of the first who jumped up in the stands and cheered at the score he made.
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Standing in the locker room they ran through their rituals. The moment they were silent cooper could feel the tension. Everything was coming to him, the stress of everyone else, the fesrs, the worries. It was in that moment he knew they were ready. He nodded to Ryan and brett before they turned and led the team out.
Standing on the pitchers mound he held the ball nodding at the signal from brett. He scanned the crowd eyes stopping on summer for a moment before he threw the pitch, the game starting.
She sat and fidgeted, twisting the hem of her skirt and scratching at her thigh, waiting for the game to begin and wondering if she ought to even be there. There was excitement and tension, and then her own feelings knotted in her gut. She clapped with everyone as they cheered with the team coming out. Despite herself, she perked up seeing Cooper. A reaction that had always been since they had ever been, and would probably always be. She glanced between him and the scouts, at least who she figured was the scouts, and for that moment she found herself excited for him. Hopeful. When she thought he stared at her, a smile crossed her lips, and she clapped some more.
The end,
It's not what I wanted, but I'm ending my favorite character with an ending, for worse and not really better.
Summer just wanted that ideal high school experience, she wanted what she saw in all those movies. She wanted the perfect weight, the perfect skin and hair, every piece of clothing perfect. She wanted to be the popular girl. She wanted to be the girl everyone wanted to be or wanted to be with. She had the means. She came from such an affluent family. Her sister had been on ballet, a theater star, and captain of the cheerleading team during her high school years. Her sister had been perfect. From head to toe. Meanwhile, Summer was thicker and didn’t know the first thing about makeup. She didn’t even know which ones to buy at the store to attempt. She had always been too embarrassed to ask for help. She tried and got made fun of by her older sister. She was unwanted, for some reason or another, her parents were always hands off and her siblings were hesitant to spend time with. She used to rely on her best friend, Cooper. She used to spend so much time with him, every day for hours upon hours. She even slept over. Then he got a girlfriend. It was what they practiced for, but there had always been such a hope beyond hope that they would practice with each other then become one with one another other. She had the stupid fantasy that they would go from best friends to high school sweethearts to husband and wife and just together forever. It was just a pathetic and stupid fantasy. She wasted so many years pining after him, wanting the fantasy, even when she knew he was with someone else and that all the first she was saving for him, he was giving his away to someone else. It hurt. She wished she had listened and not wasted so long for someone who did not care about her like that. So. Autumn gave her a makeover. It was like a fairytale at first. She got the beautiful hair and skin, the clothes. She looked perfect and turned every head in the school. To some extent Cooper even noticed. Not how she wanted, but he still noticed and that was something. But she ignored that and told herself not to waste one more moment. So when the star of the team flirted with her, who was she to resist? He showed such interest in her. She didn't need the help studying but this guy offered to help her. They didn't spend much time studying, more so making out on the couch and her gently pushing his hand off of her breast. She was invited to every big party. Everyone wanted to sit by her all of a sudden. She even scored a spot on the cheer team, someone got injured and they needed a replacement. It was like dreaming. It was the perfect movie almost. Then it became almost like a nightmare. One drink, two drink, eight drink... Summer felt the world tilt and twirl as the party raged on, her new hunky boyfriend leading her up the stairs away from all the noise. She hiccuped and tried to stand up straight only to be pushed gently back onto someone's bed. She didn't know who slept there. She just knew her boyfriend was kissing her and groping every inch. She tried to push his hands off of her, tell him no, but he would quiet her with more kisses and told her to relax, it would feel good, to trust him. She tried to tell him to wait, not like this, she didn't want her first time to be... And the next thing she knew she whimpering, he was grunting, and it took a few minutes of pain until she felt heat drip against her thigh. He relaxed and sighed with such pleasure, Summer still felt tense and unsure, and she didn't feel any sort of pleasure, no release no nothing. She stumbled into the bathroom to his praises of how amazing she felt. She felt just the opposite to herself. She wiped off the white gunk that he left behind on her thigh and moments later she vomited in the sink. She tried calling Autumn, but no answer. She called Cooper, asked him to come pick her up at the party. She made it outside and sat on the curb. She couldn't sit still. Nothing felt okay and she just wanted to take a blistering hot shower. Scrub her skin off maybe. She got silently into his car. She sat in silence and wanted to cry, press her face into his chest and beg him to hold her, tell him what happened and asked him if that was how it was suppose to be. But she didn't. Whatever they had been was no more. She didn't rate on his life no matter how available she made herself. No matter how many times she sat there and waited every morning for him. She started to cry as the car came to the stop and rushed out, into her room, and took that blasting hot shower. She scrubbed away everything and was left with what she looked in the mirror, she saw nothing. So come the morning, she applied the makeup that she was taught and slipped into her tight cute little outfit and went back to the perfect life that she had so desperately wanted. It was better than nothing.
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Cooper and Ryan talked plays with coach, agreeing on a few new ones they wanted to try out. As practice ended they headed to the locker room, cooper stopped to talk to taylor for a moment. He gave her a quick kiss before he headed to the locker room changing into his uniform. After they were all ready they started their before game rituals, cooper in the zone
Summer watched as she waited for Autumn to pick her up. There was no doubt that Cooper was talented, he deserved that spot and even with everything that the day brought... she was hoped that he got scouted, that he was the prime pick or whatever name it was. Then she saw him and Taylor. She didn't feel upset or anything, only a tightening feeling in her chest. Instead of doing the makeover tonight, the two girls spoke instead. Killing time before the game. She didn't want to not show. She always came to his games, rain or shine, or like today with emotional distress. She sucked in a breath. Autumn had braided a headband of sorts into her long strawberry blonde hair. Applied a little gloss. She kept rubbing her lips together, sitting with Autumn in the usual near first row.
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Cooper and Ryan called out drills to run as they warmed up. As he saw the other team get there his nerves kicked in. Brett called his attention to coach, cooper running towards him to start the practice, his mind on the game.
Summer watched the practice, Cooper did amazing.
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Cooper sighed as he got her reply. He knew she was upset with him, it was clear in her avoidance of his question. He put his phone in his locker and headed to the field running through drills
Summer didn't see a question in his text, she responded in a way that she thought was nice enough. She could not think of anything else to say. She didn't want to think of Thursday, not right now, not when she felt like he didn't even want her around him except in certain doses. She sighed and focused on class until the final bell rang, she headed outside and saw the field. Practice drills. She wanted to ask someone if she ought to go, but decided against it. She figured Autumn would tell her no, and Cooper would get his feelings hurt at the idea. She didn't know who else to ask.
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Cooper changed into his practice uniform before he sat down pulling out his phone. He texted taylor asking if she could bring him water, he had left his bottle at home before he texted summer. “I owe yu big for helping me. Thursday night, whatever you wanna do. I can’t wait to spend time with you sum.”
Summer got the text and debated about responding, unsure what to say back. "In class right now. I hope you had a nice celebration with everyone." She sent with a little emoji of a balloon. She didn't want to make him feel like anything was wrong, she didn't want to ruin his happiness. She blinked back her tears, unsure if they should even do this Thursday. What was the point? Scheduling time with your best friend... spending one night together.
