it's like an open wound

You think you know death but you don’t, not until you’ve seen it, really seen it. It gets under your skin and lives inside you and there’s no escape.

[summersnoah]

[summersnoah]

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

Think of it this way, now you won’t have to worry about that, because I’m here with you, and I’m not going anywhere anytime soon. Trust me, I do too. I miss it a lot. Boston and Paris, and just spending time with you in general, and that week off was probably.. no it was one of the happiest weeks of my life but you’re right. We have all the time in the world, it might not seem like that now but it’ll get better. I know, trust me I know how it feels to hate someone who broke your best friends heart but I’m the one who’s lucky to have her as a friend. She’s really helped me a lot. Back to Salem..? We definitely owe that truth spell a lot, don’t we? I don’t think going back to Salem is on my top fifty things to do on my bucket list, but we’ll have to fit it in, won’t we? I guess that’s exactly what it means. I thought it was pretty obvious by now, Tiger. Maybe you can do that whenever you want, if you’re good of course. 

[summersnoah]

Mhm, but when this movie is over and my superstar girlfriend is off filming another one, and I am supposed to be writing... I'm going to call you and if I have the urge to get on a plane, I'm going to do it. The production team on your next movie are going to hate me. It doesn't have to get better, I like how things are now. I'm happy. And I'm going to do everything I can to make sure that you're happy, too. Because I love you. Hmm...or we could just go somewhere else, stay in out hotel room and pretend that we're in Salem. We'd still be honouring it...kind of. I'm sure it won't miss us too much. I'm always good... I never misbehave. I'm practically an angel. 

[summersnoah]

text | brother

Daniel: There's a very good reason why you woke me up?

Noah: No, I just wanted to wake you up, laugh and then go back to my sleep.

Noah: Next to my girlfriend.

[melina-grey]

Whatever did you do that you seem.. almost chipper? Maybe those aren’t the words that I’m looking for. Regardless, that’s fantastic, Noah. I’m above average. I had a really good week, bought more things than I really need, the usual.

[summersnoah]

I realized that I didn't have to look for something to make me happy because the best thing that ever happened to me was in my life the whole entire time... I always had my happiness, I just lost sight of it for a while. Well, I'm glad that you're doing fantastic. It's nice to see everyone doing so well for a change. Hopefully it lasts. Did you buy anything nice? 

[summersnoah]

text | brother

Noah: Hey...

Noah: Guess what?

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

You’re right, I don’t mind it at all and that’s the exact same thing that happens when I’m with you. I can’t control what I say or what I do when I’m around you. Sometimes, I really don’t get you Tiger, because even if it’s just a phone call, even if we were thousands of miles away, it made me happy. I was content, because I got to hear my best friends voice again. I got to hear the voice of the guy who made all the bad things in life disappear. That was enough for me, but then again I guess I’m a simple girl to please. Work is work, Noah. You don’t have to do that for me, Tiger. It’s fine. Aiden, and Rumer were there, as annoying as they were, they were there for me. I did get it, thank you by the way. It was delicious. I don’t like to judge a person by their pasts, like when I first met her, it was the night of the truth spell and I just in the middle of that mess a new friendship was born. It’s weird but the truth spell really did some good after all. I guess I was confused and paranoid about a lot of things.. It was stupid of me. Noah, I’m in love with you too and nothing’s ever going to change that. If you wanted all of that, all you had to do was tell me. Do you really even have to ask? I’m here, and I’m crazy about you. I’m all in, Noah. I’m in this for life.

[summersnoah]

Emily... A phonecall was enough for me, but every time we spoke I felt myself falling for you again, and knowing me...after an hour I would probably do something ridiculous like get on a plane and fly out to where you were. It doesn't seem quite so ridiculous now, but back then it did. I know, and I love my job...but I miss Boston, and Paris and time. But I suppose we still have time, a hell of a lot of it. I kind of had to hate her for a while, she broke my best friends heart... But, I see how much she has changed and how well she is doing, and it's great. And she is lucky to have a friend like you to help her through whatever life throws at her. You know, I'm taking you back to Salem...place was creepy as hell, but I owe that truth spell a lot. So...this means that you're my girlfriend...and I'm your boyfriend...and we're a couple? Does that mean that I can do this...whenever I want? 

[melina-grey]

I do too, really. Just having a hard time getting back into the groove. How’re you doing, by the way?

[summersnoah]

You'll get there. A week off was what we all needed, I think. I just didn't expect it to...knock me off balance. It did, but in a good way. Me? I'm... I'm great, actually. Exhausted and sleep deprived, but in general I am really, really great. How are you? And how was your week off?

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

Just like how you’re rambling right now? I don’t mind it though. Getting to listen to you ramble about things that you’re so passionate about is probably the highlight of my entire day. That’s sweet. You do know I check all of my old phones whenever I’m back in LA, right? I saw how many times you called, I just wish that you would have actually called my cellphone so that we could actually talk because I love hearing the sound of your voice too and I will admit to listening to a few of your voicemails whenever I missed you. Hey, I don’t like it either but just because we’re working now doesn’t mean we won’t see each other at all. You know my door’s always open for you. Yeah, they kind of forced me out of the hotel when I was a tad sick. They’re good friends, and I promise that we didn’t get into a lot of trouble.. No. Don’t. You don’t have to be sorry, Noah. I’m glad that..  Honestly, it kind of made things clearer for me in a way. I’ve been really confused these last couple of days. I even ended up spilling my guts to Daniel about it too. I was confused about what we are and I was just confused about how you felt about this in general.. but now I know I shouldn’t have been so paranoid. You’re not going to mess anything up, and you’re not going to lose us, Noah. You already have me. 

[summersnoah]

Yeah, kind of like how I'm ambling now. I try to stop myself, I really do, but I don't think I have much control over my own mouth and the words that come out of it. Luckily for me, you don't mind it too much. I know...I should have just called you and spoke to you, but maybe I just couldn't handle hearing you voice knowing that you were too far away for me to really reach you. In person, I mean. Which a full on conversation would have led me to want. Filming in New York was hectic, but hopefully here I can move some stuff around and make more time. No, not hopefully... I will. I should have been there for you when you were sick, but they wouldn't let me off work. I sent soup to your room... Did you get it? Yeah, they are good friends... I can see that even though I had my differences with Mindy in the past. You were confused? I was pretty sure my feelings for you were obvious...but maybe I should make them a little clearer. I don't just love you, I'm in love with you. And I don't want anybody else. I want you. I want to be able to kiss you on set during breaks, and hold your hand whenever it's close enough for me to reach. And when people ask me what we are, I want to be able to tell them that you're my girlfriend, and that we're together... I'm in this for the long run, and I guess all that is left is for you to tell me if you are too. 

[melina-grey]

Definitely not ready to get back to working.

[summersnoah]

I've already gone back to working and I'm already exhausted by it, but I don't mind too much because I really do love my job. You'll get back into the swing of it eventually. 

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

I understand where you’re coming from. I bet you could ramble endlessly about this kind of thing if you wanted too, and besides you are the novelist after all. I wouldn’t mind listening to you ramble about books for the entire day, but if you say so. Honestly, it feels like it’s been longer than a couple of days. You haven’t missed much really. I practically stayed in my room for the entire time, and I went out with Rumer or Mindy. The usual. It’s not your fault, Tiger. You’ve been busy because of work. I get that. Boy..? — I mean.. Uh, yeah.. Like I said it’s fine and.. you’re not crappy at all. Quite the opposite actually. That’s sweet.. I’m just glad that I got to see you today. My day is officially made.

[summersnoah]

Oh, I could ramble. I could ramble all day long, but me rambling would be me talking at you when I'd much rather talk to you. I like hearing your opinions, your thoughts... I like hearing the sound of your voice in general, to be completely honest. I used to, uh...call your old phone just so I could listen to your answer-machine message, which probably sounds really weird to admit, but...it calmed me sometimes. Yeah, it really does feel like longer. It's probably because we spent a whole week together and now it's difficult to go back to barley seeing one another at all. I don't like it... Oh god, both of them? Do I even want to hear about the trouble you all got into? Uh, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I mean, we haven't even spoken about what we are or where this is going, and you might not even be ready to talk about it, and I don't want you to feel like I am rushing you because... Because I don't want to do anything that will mess with what we have. This...us...it's the best thing that has happened to be in a really long time. And I need it. I need us...and I need you. I don't want to lose either. 

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

Someone else just said the exact same thing earlier today. I get it though. To each their own. I actually didn’t read the book until after I watched the movie since a friend of mine recommended it to me. So I guess that’s why the movie hit me hard. I don’t know why, I hardly get emotional during movies but Hazel’s and Gus’s relationship just had me smiling like an idiot at one part, then I was bawling my eyes out at the next. No, I don’t. I have an ugly crying face and you know that as well as I do. Why do I feel like it’s been forever since we last saw each other. Hey there, Tiger. I’ve missed you. 

[summersnoah]

I think I am always more connected to book versions because when people read it's like the build their own version of someone else's world, you know? I mean, it's probably similar to everyone else's because of the authors world building, but... You know what, I really don't even want to talk about books or movies right now. I haven't seen you in days, and I feel like we have so much to catch up on. I know, I've been so busy this week and it has resulted in me being the worlds crappiest boyfrie-- I mean, uh... I missed you too. A lot. Like, a whole lot. I practically rushed off of set to come find you when I finished up today. 

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

So last night I thought it would be a good idea to watch The Fault in our Stars again while I was alone in my hotel room because I had nothing better to do  and long story short I ended up sobbing like a baby twenty minutes into the movie. Now I’m an emotional wreck and I can’t get that gas station out of my mind. I don’t know why I do this to myself. 

[jfremily-deactivated20140910]

[summersnoah]

The movie didn't make me nearly as emotional as the book did. Maybe it was because I knew what was coming, or maybe it was just more hard hitting the first time I read it because it felt like I was there, watching it all happen right in front of me. But that part in both the book and movie really gets to me. I can't say that I cried visible tears, but I cried a little on the inside. You still look cute when you cry... Also, hi.

[aidenhfs]

I hate eating lasagna. It makes me so full within like five minutes, dammit, why does it have so many layers?

[summersnoah]

I usually take out all the mince stuff and just eat the pasta part and the cheese on top. Lasagna is good because it has so many layers. Now I really want some, damn you, Aiden. 

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[summersnoah]

text | home

Emily: Oh man.. Noah. Did you really?

Emily: Hey, don't feel bad. Kids cry all the time. It's part of growing up. You probably did that kid a favor. He's probably over it by now and has found another victim. Don't feel too bad about it, alright?

Emily: You just need to take a breather, and rest. You should really go to sleep soon.

Emily: Hey there. I miss you too, a lot. I love you too. A lot. You should really get some rest, Tiger. I'm worried about you.

Noah: It was funny...in my head. And there is a D in his name somewhere, I'm sure.

Noah: I didn't really expect an eight year old to understand the reference. Maybe he just really hates the name Damien.

Noah: Yeah, I think he is off annoying someone else. I'm considering talking him into annoying Adrian, just because.

Noah: You don't need to worry about me, princess. I'm fine, I promise. I have one more hour of sitting around and paying semi-attention and then I am off for the night and I can sleep.

Noah: What ae you doing?

[summersnoah]

text | trinity

Trinity: I know, they can be pain in the ass. I always wanted to have four. Two girls and Two boys. So, that way whenever they're playing games they can team up and it would be fair or so.

Trinity: I also went on Adventures, but then I'd come back with a sore on my hand or leg. I have no idea what I was doing back then.

Trinity: I'm calling you Noel.

Noah: I'm not too fussed about gender, though I would like at least one of each. But that does sound like a good plan.

Noah: But hey, at least you came back...getting injured as a kid is kind of normal. I broke several bones, several times. But I had a really amazing friend who kept me on track.

Noah: ...I'm not speaking to you.