MULTIMUSE

[sunchascd]

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Hello, I’m Mari , i'm 28 && I go by she / her pronounce. This is a multifandom MULTIMUSE, for the following fandoms; DRAGON AGE, MARVEL, FINAL FANTASY + OTHERS  Please check out my CARRD for my rules && an about page for my muses. I'm a big fan of crossovers && love creating crossover verses.  If we are mutuals you're always welcome to message me here or request my discord. 

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hercbled. primary muse. Canon divergent Zack Fair from FFVII. 

[sunchascd]

I do still want to be here but I was hit with bad health in the summer followed by a big life change. Will hopefully have time to do some writing when I have time. But will probably have to cut down my muse list for ease.

I do really want to write and miss interacting with all you lovely people but I'm currently growing a little human on top of pre existing health conditions and I'm just exhausted. I am hoping when my new meds finally come in I'll have more energy to do anything more than just: work, eat, sleep and repeat.

[sunchascd]

Does any dragon age origin player know how to fix the bug when you're in the fade and can't turn into a rat? I'm stuck, I have unlocked the ability but when I click it, nothing happens.

[sunchascd]

Bold what applies to your muse.

BACKGROUND

Financial: Wealthy | Moderate | POOR | IN POVERTY

Education: Qualified | Unqualified | Studying

Criminal record: Yes, for major crimes | Yes, for minor crimes | No | Should have one (aiding & abetting apostates, runaway slaves & blood mages. )

FAMILY

Love life: Married,  Happily | Married, Unhappily | Engaged or betrothed Divorced | Separated | Widowed Partnered | Single | It’s complicated | Other | Not interested | Polygamous | Open Relationship

Children: Has a child or children | Has no children | Used to have children | Wants children | Doesn’t want children | Unknown

Siblings: Close with sibling(s) | Not close with sibling(s) | Has no siblings | Used to have siblings | It’s complicated | Unknown

Parents: Orphaned | Adopted | Raised by birth parent(s) | Raised by family member(s) Disowned | It’s complicated | Unknown

TRAITS + TENDENCIES

Extroverted    ◯   ⬤   ◯    Introverted

Disorganized    ⬤  ◯   ◯   Organized

Close minded    ◯   ⬤  ◯   Open minded

Calm     ◯   ◯   ⬤   Anxious

Disagreeable     ⬤   ◯   ◯   Agreeable

Cautious     ◯   ◯   ⬤   Reckless

Patient    ◯   ◯   ⬤   Impatient

Outspoken     ⬤   ◯   ◯   Reserved

Leader    ◯    ⬤   ◯   Follower

Empathetic    ◯   ⬤   ◯   Unempathetic

Optimistic    ◯    ◯   ⬤   Pessimistic

Traditional    ◯   ⬤   ◯  Modern

Hard-working    ⬤   ◯   ◯   Lazy

Brave    ⬤  ◯   ◯   Cowardly

Cultured     ◯   ◯   ⬤   Uncultured

Loyal    ⬤   ◯   ◯   Disloyal

Faithful    ⬤   ◯   ◯  Unfaithful

BELIEFS

Gods: Monotheist | Polytheist | Atheist | Agnostic | Don’t care

Ghosts or spirits: Yes | No | Don't know | Don’t care

Afterlife: Yes | No | Don’t know | Don’t care

Reincarnation: Yes | No | Don’t know | Don’t care

Aliens: Yes | No | Don’t know | Don’t care

Religious: Faithful    ◯   ⬤   ◯   Unfaithful | Not religious

Philosophical: Yes | No

Politics: Left Wing    ⬤   ◯   ◯   Right Wing | Doesn’t know or on the fence

SEXUALITY + ROMANTIC INCLINATION

Allosexual    ⬤   ◯   ◯   Asexual

Sex favorable     ◯    ⬤   ◯   Sex repulsed *

Alloromantic     ⬤   ◯   ◯   Aromantic  

Romance favorable     ⬤   ◯   ◯   Romance repulsed

Sexually: Adventurous | Experienced | Naive | Inexperienced | Curious

Potential sexual partners: Male | Female | Nonbinary/GNC | Other | None | all

Potential romantic partners: Male | Female | Nonbinary/GNC | Other | None | All

ABILITIES

Combat skills Excellent    ⬤   ◯   ◯   ◯   ◯  None

Literacy skills Excellent      ◯   ◯    ◯   ⬤   ◯  None

Artistic skills Excellent     ◯    ◯   ◯   ◯   ⬤  None

Technical skills Excellent     ◯    ⬤   ◯    ◯   ◯  None

Athletic skills Excellent     ◯   ⬤   ◯   ◯   ◯  None

HABITS

Drinking alcohol Never     ◯    ◯    ⬤    ◯  ◯  To excess

Smoking Never     ⬤ ◯   ◯   ◯  ◯  To excess

Medicinal drugs Never     ◯    ⬤   ◯    ◯   ◯     To excess

Other drugs Never   ⬤   ◯    ◯    ◯     ◯  To excess

Indulgent food Never     ◯   ◯   ⬤    ◯   ◯  To excess

Splurge Spending Never     ◯   ⬤ ◯  ◯   ◯  To excess

Gambling Never     ◯ ⬤   ◯    ◯   ◯     To excess

[sunchascd]

                        16 FACTOR PERSONALITY:

Warmth:  70%  // LOW; cold, selfish // HIGH; supportive, comforting 

Intellect: 30% // LOW; instinctive, unstable  // HIGH; cerebral, analytical 

Emotional Stability: 30% // LOW; irritable, moody //  HIGH; level headed, calm 

Aggressiveness:  50%  // LOW; modest, docile   //  HIGH; controlling, tough 

Liveliness:   66% // LOW; somber, restrained  //  HIGH; wild, fun loving 

Dutifulness:  56% //  LOW; untraditional, rebellious //  HIGH; conforming, traditional

Social Assertiveness:  38% // LOW; shy, withdrawn  //  HIGH; uninhibited, bold 

Sensitivity:  70% // LOW; coarse, tough   //  HIGH; touchy, soft 

Paranoia: 66%  // LOW; trusting, easy going  //  HIGH; wary, suspicious 

Abstractness: 46% // LOW; practical, regular  //  HIGH; strange, imaginative 

Introversion:  70%  // LOW; open, friendly  //   HIGH;  private, quiet 

Anxiety:  62%  // LOW; confident, self assured //  HIGH; fearful, self-doubting 

Openmindedness:  34% // LOW; closeminded, set-in-ways //  HIGH; curious, exploratory 

Independence:  22% // LOW; outgoing, social  //  HIGH; loner, craves solitude 

Perfectionism: 50% //  LOW; disorganized, messy  //  HIGH; orderly, thorough 

Tension:  66%  //  LOW;  relaxed, cool  //  HIGH;  stressed, unsatisfied

[sunchascd]

Aedan Cousland was so carefree, he was the mischievous youngest son of an Arl, until his family got murdered by his father's friend, he was forced to join an order that was then betrayed. && now he just wants vengeance.

[sunchascd]

Okay, last little thing, then I'll go back to writing starters.

Carver doesn't think Hawke has space for him in the life she's building for herself. He doesn't think their mother has room for him in the life she is imagining.

[lunehowls]

5am drawings

[sapphim]

can i ask about the things carver says about malcolm that are concerning? i’ve never seen them before i think, or at least i didn’t notice them

hey, it's mostly that whenever he talks about his past with his father he's always talking about how unloved and neglected he felt. not good! I might go thru and collect some dialogue on the subject later but, I know I have some followers with strong opinions on this - anything to add?

[corvidkusnos]

Omg yes this!! This is exactly why I feel like Carver's relationship with Hawke is so rocky because of Malcolm and not because of Hawke themselves (unless you RP it so). I personally don't see Carver as the one who put himself "in Hawke's shadow" but actually Malcolm did unintentionally.

Carver wasn't involved with his siblings' magic lessons and was left behind, excluded from Hawke and Bethany while they both had something that strengthened their bond to their father. He always had to work twice as hard or speak twice as loud to receive any attention or recognition at all (including running away to join the army as a teenager, which Hawke and Bethany can talk about in Legacy).

And I think this is why Carver "have we met a Templar that isn't a colossal prig?" Hawke started to consider the idea of becoming a Templar as an option where it previously wasn't one - his namesake. Malcolm named Carver after the Templar that allowed him to be free and Carver took that to heart. He finally had a connection to his father after feeling for so long that he was unloved by him. Carver's idealistic nature and this newfound connection made him think that maybe he could live up to his namesake and make things better on the inside (not understanding that one good Templar can't fix a corrupt system).

But not only that, but he was essentially groomed to fit the Templar role for his family. Not a sibling, not a son, but their shield. And that's why I believe he had a disdain for magic. Not because he hated mages or believed they were evil or necessarily even jealousy for their abilities (he even says that he never understood why people were afraid of magic and knows not every mage is evil), but because his lack of magic is why he was emotionally neglected and made him feel unloved.

Carver loves his family and would do anything for them (including die for them: Ostagar, ogre attack, putting himself between Hawke and a threat, fighting alongside them in The Last Straw, etc), but the hurt, internalised inferiority, and lack of regard for his feelings - especially in regards to Malcolm who most likely didn't even realise what he was doing - is a scar that ran deep and Carver was only able to break away from those feelings once he was away from that environment.

[kirkwallgremlin]

this post made me think of this dialogue from the legacy DLC, if it’s hard to read it says

“That which is best in me.” Father used to say that, didn’t he? To you and Bethany?

because I always kind of think imagine hearing your father tell your siblings they represent the best in him and knowing you’re not part of that. Especially when so much of what Carver says and does is about caring about and protecting his family, he loves his family, but he’s told his siblings are the best part of his father and for a reason he can’t ever share because he’s different to them :(

She never felt like she could live up to him.

And then the next line of that, which is about Bethany and not Carver but kinda suggests a father that had high expectations the kids (or at least one of them) needed to live up to and was worried about failing, intentional or not

[corvidkusnos]

His codex further proves that he felt like an idiot and lesser than his magical family members. Always feeling like he couldn't live up to expectations so he'd overcompensate to try and prove himself.

Strong and strapping, Carver is a skilled warrior set on proving himself, although it's not always clear who he is trying to impress. The son and sibling of mages, he grew up surrounded by magic he couldn't truly understand—and he feels like something was expected that he could never deliver. He cares deeply for his family, but sometimes feels like the stupidest person in the room.

I'd say this pain even goes deeper than people - including Carver - realise. I'm going to be speaking from my own experience with depression and how I interpreted these next bits, so here's a trigger warning for suicidality.

In Carver's want to feel appreciated and that he's worth something, his fierce loyalty to his family, in my opinion, is quite self-destructive. He will push and push with no regard for personal safety, and perhaps even believes that if he dies for a righteous cause, maybe then he will be loved and appreciated.

In World of Thedas Volume 2, there is an entry talking about Carver's time at Ostagar. His fierce devotion to his family especially is what had him enlist in the first place. It talks about how his lack of regard for his own safety as well as trauma from the battle left him in tears and almost killed, had it not been for fellow soldiers stopping him from what was essentially suicide.

The more ground we lost, the harder he swung that plank of a sword of his. He was shouting that we had to win, that it was to keep our homes safe. I swear he was crying when we finally tackled him, but damned if I'll hold that against him. It took three of us to drag him to cover. I had to slap him back to his senses, to make him see that killing five or ten 'spawn wouldn't matter. The wall was on is, and dying there wasn't going to help anyone. I said if he wanted to do his family good, he's get them safe. This wasn't his failure, because it sure as shit wasn't mine either. We fought our way out and went our separate ways.

If he survives, his codex even says that he knows that he had to flee Ostagar, but that part of him wishes he'd fought and died there. Which... to me doesn't sound like someone who puts much value on his life.

While he knows that swift flight was the only reasonable course in the face of the darkspawn advance, he almost would rather have stood and fought. Doomed though the effort was, facing the horde had purpose—something Carver had been searching for.

And if he dies in Lothering, his codex is also quite... concerning. Furthering the point of overcompensating to the point of killing himself to feel like he's worth something.

But even as Carver groused about his lot, he remained dedicated to protecting those he loved. He didn't think twice about sacrificing himself to save his mother during the flight from the darkspawn, and although Carver struggled to find his way in life, there is gratification in knowing his death had purpose.

And the shocking realisation I had is that if he dies, Hawke remarks that Carver died a hero, but if he lives, Hawke calls Carver a brat and criticises him for being understandably traumatised by the blight. The fact that he was more appreciated in death than in life really broke my heart, tbh.

I'd say this is a direct result of the emotional neglect and loneliness he felt within his own family.

[sunchascd]

Also, if anyone ever tries to sympathise with him about Beth, anyone tries to talk to him about Bethany's magic, or how brilliant she must have been, better be ready to catch these hands. (Or at least some snark.) If Carver is the twin who dies, Bethany can't stop mentioning him. If Beth survives && Beth dies, Carver closes up, he doesn't talk about her. (Unless it's with Hawke or his mother, or someone who's especially close.)

[sunchascd]

Carver is ready to rumble && seeks out fights with anyone ! His path to healing is messy && filled with blood.

@haereticae Thank you for showing me these caps.

[sunchascd]

Carver is so young at the start of DA2 && he's already been to war, lost his sister, lost his home && is living as an unemployed refugee in a city that's filled with misery. It's not that he's grumpy but he's going through a lot && it's clear to him that he's just seen as his sibling's tag along.

[sunchascd]

I think a lot of the Hawke Family issues are linked to trauma they inherited from their parents / the lived experience of being a family of apostate mages. 

Malcolm is an apostate, he’s grown up in the chantary && he knows what will happen to his children should they be captured. The family will be torn apart, with a high chance of tranquillity/death. (I wouldn’t be surprised if the chantary shows a higher preference for sparing child mages as they are easier to indoctrinate into excusing their own abuse. ) Though he’s also aware of the dangers that corruption && demons possess. Mages can’t afford to be poorly trained; it nearly always goes wrong.  

Malcolm loves his wife && all his children but there are lvs of priorities && that’s the cruel reality of their life. Malcolm is not a well of noble, he’s a runaway mage who fell in love with a nobleman's daughter && is doing everything he can to provide a life for his wife && children. While hiding from the hantary, while also training his children in magic. Carver is simply not the priority. His neglect is not out of a lack of love, just someone trying their best && only being able to juggle so many things. 

Carver is raised by Malcom to kind of act as a mock templar for his magical siblings. HE IS THEIR PROTECTOR.  However, he’s never encouraged to excel at anything. Carver, who is talented && just wants to prove himself to his dad, who just wants that extra crumb of attention, is encouraged to subdue his own talents to fit in, to not draw any attention to his family. Any attention is bad attention when you’re in hiding.

[ampervadasz]

Wow !

[sunchascd]

Booted feet kicked the dirt before him, shifting from one foot to the other. “ – I bet you’re disappointed! You heard someone say Hawke && you assumed it was my sister. — TOO BAD YOU’re stuck with me, mage ! ”  He hasn’t meant to say that, he hadn’t meant the brash greeting, he didn’t even mean to bring his sister into this. But here he was, old habits die hard. It came with a lifetime of watching the disappointment in people’s eyes when they had to deal with him. He wasn’t the fun Hawke, he wasn’t the talented Hawke, but he was still a Hawke. && he really didn’t mean to sound so bitter. Sometimes the words, the anger tumbled out from his lips, before his heart or his mind could sop the… He didn’t mean to. “----Sorry.”

Starter for @alitlantern & CARVER

[sunchascd]

She could feel it, the weariness seeping through her, it clung to each of her movements, it had become a part of her. So many refugees needed help, so many suffered in the overcrowded slums of Kirkwall. Rest was a luxury she couldn’t afford. “ – Oh, Anders ! ” She hadn’t noticed him come back.  ” It’s nice to see you, how is Hawke && the others ? ”It wasn’t as easy now that the mage had other responsibilities but she understood his talents, while vital, were wasted hidden away here. She could hold down the fort, keep the clinic operating for those who needed it. She knew her people needed it, access to medical care was a luxury few in the alliance could ever afford && it wasn’t much different for the influx of refugees.

Starter for @alitlantern & Eliora.

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑽𝑰𝑵𝑮/𝑩𝑬𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑳𝑬𝑭𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

BEING LEFT ❛  wait! you can't just leave me here alone!  ❜ ❛  i don't know how to live in a world where i'm all alone.  ❜ ❛  everyone i've ever loved has either left or died.  ❜ ❛  i'm not yet ready for it to end.  ❜ ❛  will we ever see each other again?  ❜ ❛  please! you promised! you promised you'd never leave.  ❜ ❛  if you leave now, i'll never forgive you.  ❜ ❛  are you really going to leave after everything we've been through?  ❜ ❛  how am i supposed to keep on like before when you're not here anymore?  ❜ ❛  i knew this day would come, but i hoped it wouldn't be today.  ❜ ❛  please don't go. not yet. just stay a little longer ...  ❜ ❛  don't just walk away. say something, anything, before you go.  ❜ ❛  so that's it? you're just ... gone?  ❜ ❛  you can't just walk away like none of this meant anything!  ❜ ❛  why does everyone i love always leave?  ❜ ❛  i should've known better than to think you'd stay.  ❜ ❛  is it really that easy for you to walk away?  ❜ ❛  you said we'd face the world together. now i have to face it alone.  ❜ ❛  if you're going, at least look me in the eyes and say goodbye.  ❜ ❛  i don't have the strength to watch you walk away again.  ❜

LEAVING ❛  i'm sorry, but i cannot stay here any longer.  ❜ ❛  for once, i'm trying to do the right thing.  ❜ ❛  you don't need me here anymore. you've always been stronger on your own.  ❜ ❛  i wish staying was enough. i really do.  ❜ ❛  don't look at me like that. if i don't walk away now, i never will.  ❜ ❛  one day, you'll understand why i have to walk away.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could stay, but this isn't my place anymore.  ❜ ❛  don't wait for me. i don't know when ... if i'll be back.  ❜ ❛  i wish there was another way. but there isn't.  ❜ ❛  this isn't goodbye because i don't care. it's because i do. too much.  ❜ ❛  this goodbye is the hardest thing i've ever had to do.  ❜ ❛  i'm leaving because i love you too much to keep hurting you.  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry i couldn't be what you needed me to be.  ❜ ❛  i have to go find who i am without all this.  ❜ ❛  just because i'm leaving doesn't mean i stopped caring.  ❜ ❛  i'm not running. i'm just done waiting.  ❜ ❛  every step i take away from here is breaking me.  ❜ ❛  i can't keep pretending this place feels like home.  ❜ ❛  the hardest part isn't leaving. it's knowing you'll be here when i'm not.  ❜ ❛  sometimes goodybe is the kindest thing we can say.  ❜