My World 🩷

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Did research on sleep and pcos, currently falling at implementing the routine I made but I have made changes.

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The night sky makes me feel nostalgic for a past I’ve never experienced. The specific shade and the configuration of the clouds is mesmerising. So pretty.

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Canadian treasure 🍁

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I can’t blame everything on my childhood.

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I feel better now

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This has forced me to quit for good!

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I feel scared and lonely

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I have to wait until tomorrow so can get checked out. I suspect I have pleurisy. I haven’t showered in 2+ weeks and have been weaning myself off cigs. I wanted to eat but that lady is here again. I was cooking and she was just sitting in the kitchen. It’s really annoying she comes over 2 or more times a week. Unannounced. I smell bad, there’s noise and it hurts to move/breathe.

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Crying because I don’t want him there. Deep down I know the truth about their relationship but I cannot accept it. My head hurts.

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Depression is expensive.

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Idk about this quitting thing

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Shane baring his neck to Ilya. I know what you are. I feel if this were a typical overse au Ilya would be the typical alpha is he is mentioned having had sex with hundreds of women and Shane would be an anomaly as he is an omega who doesn’t take any breaks from his heat suppressants e.g taking birth control breaks. He would only start to when he meets with Ilya. This would be a point of contention in the story as he would worry that it would mess with his performance on ice and would in turn ghost Ilya. Or he could see it as an orchestrated plan to sabotage him by Ilya/Ilya’s team.

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I actually don’t care about anything anymore. Everything is fake. Politicians are not real. International law is not real. Send the flood. Reset the world. I wish I was a mermaid, fairy or a cat with a fluffy coat living in a nice French style Shanghai apartment. I’m gonna fuck whoever I want. Do anything I want. And say anything I want.

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I think I need to talk to my Gp about these high energy periods when I’m depressed.

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I’m gonna become a mermaid/surf instructor

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I actually don’t care about anything anymore. Everything is fake. Politicians are not real. International law is not real. Send the flood. Reset the world. I wish I was a mermaid, fairy or a cat with a fluffy coat living in a nice French style Shanghai apartment. I’m gonna fuck whoever I want. Do anything I want. And say anything I want.

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If Shane Hollander becomes pregnant, peace will be brought upon the world but governments don’t want this so they have pressured Rachel Reid and Jacob Tierney to hold back. This is the truth!!

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I now get these Kpop stans, if Hudson or Connor had even so much as as a scratch on them I’d go to church. When was the last time I went to church? I don’t know but I’d be in the pews on my knees in a black veil begging to God not to leave a scar. Unless it’s hot. I’d light two candles. I’d cry. I’d rally my family and friends to pray for them, please keep my close and personal friends and your prayers as they were going through traumatic times. Everyday, until they are healed I’d stare outside of my window looking up at the heavens for divine intervention.