This world has never been safe for brown bodies. In the last 16 years, it has become increasingly unsafe for Muslim bodies, especially those considered âforeignâ when existing/interacting within in a US-centric context. An entire generation, including myself, has grown up in a world where our Muslim identities have been demonized.Â
On a global scale, our nationalities and our Muslimness mark us as âotherâ and undesirable. Most of us experience great fear and uncertainty when applying for visas, traveling anywhere, or thinking about the security of ourselves and our loved ones. This fear comes from the absolute lack of accountability for the actions that could be taken against us, by Imperialist powers generally, but American more specifically.Â
The recent executive order signed by Trump just felt like another blow in this never ending mindf***. Man, it hurts. It makes me feel scared. Right now, thinking about what the future might hold, is hard. This is the kind of stuff that makes a personâs heart harden.Â
I donât know what to do.
Iâve been feeling really weird and shitty for the past week. Partly itâs because the weather has been gloomy and that always takes a toll on my mood, but maybe part of it has been the increasingly negative vibes that have infiltrated this Earth, and my consciousness. I know this isnât the only thing, maybe not even the worst thing thatâs happening right now, but it makes you feel heavy nevertheless.Â
I canât even write about all the people that I am hurting for. Itâs too much. We all have people who are affected by this: family, friends, comrades, just other humans, man. Other complex, fragile, vulnerable, honest, scared, soft, people. Fuck.
So what can we do? I know that no one can ever take my will or my self esteem away from me. All I can do is live my life as unapologetically as I can. As truthfully, as bravely (as safely as possible), and with as much dignity as I can. And so can you.Â
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Even if all the power in the world seems to be against you, there is more power in holding true to your own values. Do not ever believe the dehumanizing things they say about you or anyone else.Â
Hold yourself, your family, and your friends super close. Seriously, hold them. Nurture yourself and your loved ones. Pour out all the empathy and feeling and positivity that you can into creating the most beautiful and meaningful life possible for yourself and your inner circle, because thatâs all that you have control over.
Continue to stand strong, with courage, and know that there is so much more love and goodness in this universe that is here and waiting for you.