My Little Sunshine

I'm Anna. I'm married to George. We have a beautiful rainbow baby named Grace Sunshine who was born on Valentine's Day (Feb. 14th) 2014. This is my little family. DO NOT reblog pictures of me, my family, or my daughter.

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Chunky knit blanket

(more information, more etsy gold)

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Just white everything please and thank you SERIOUSLY.

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Just reblogging shit for my someday dream house don’t mind me.

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PLEASE THIS IS ALL I WANT FOR MY BEDROOM.

[miggylol]

pumpkin spice candles soon

pumpkin lattes soon

pumpkin everything

[achievement-hunter]

#ITS STILL JULY YOU ANIMALS

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[sunshin3mama]

I found this card the other day in one of my favorite stores in town. I had to get it for Grace. I wrote a whole letter to her inside, framed it and put it on her dresser. One day, a long way from now she’ll read it and I hope it makes her smile. I said:

“My sweet perfect girl,

I found this card a few days ago and loved it so much. I instantly thought of you. I’ve taken some time to think about what I wanted to say in here. There are so many things I want you to know but first and most important... you are so so so loved.

You take my breath away daily, with your beauty, your pure innocence's, your smile, your laugh.... the way you twirl in circles so fast when you dance that you fall down... everything about you is perfect to me.

I want you to know that you could never disappointment me. That as long as you are happy and treat yourself and others with love and respect you will forever remain perfect.

You have nothing you HAVE to live up to. As long as you try as hard as you can, as long as you do the best you can, you will forever remain perfect.

Please don’t be scared of your perfection. Please know that, at least in this home, perfect doesn’t mean that you don’t mess up. It doesn’t mean that you aren’t allowed to make mistakes. Perfect simply means that as long as you are truly, unapologetically you.. you are perfect.

Life is so messy but please know that your family is always here. Even if you go far and wide, I’ll always be here, ready to welcome you home.

Please know you always have my ear. You can always talk to me. I’ll never judge you. We’ve all been there, where ever it is you are. We can make it through everything and anything.

I cherish you Grace. I love, respect and cherish you. Please, never forget that.

Love: Mom”

[sunshin3mama]

Babies man.

So I sort of mentioned this in my last post... but I feel the need to blabber on about it for a minuet so bare with me.

I am not sure what has gotten into me in the past few days, for the longest time I thought that if Grace wasn’t going to be my only child, she at the very least would have at least a 5 year age gap with any subsequent sibling. I just have so much anxiety that goes along with pregnancy since the loss of my first baby.

I was having a conversation with one of George’s friends, (who I’m not particularly fond of but something came out of his mouth the other day that really spoke to me). He said that he is in his 30′s and still to this day hates the fact that he is an only child.

And that got me thinking about how I don’t want Grace to be an only child, and while it might be ‘easier, smarter, calmer, and more relaxing’ to have only one baby, I don’t want that.

So I made an appointment with my OB to get my BC taken out. I didn't make the appointment until October because- First I want one more summer with Grace before a new baby could possibly make an appearance, and Second, I want THIS summer to end before I start feeling like I am gonna puke 25/7.

George made a comment the other day about never wanting another baby but quickly after that he was upstairs brushing his teeth and he called down to me and said “you know what I said wasn’t true right? If you told me right now that you were pregnant I would be over the moon”. Not going to lie that might have swayed me to wanna get knocked up right then and there (ew gross I know sorry)

So we are thinking about an August or September baby which would make Grace and the new littlin’ 2 1/2 years apart.

I reserve the right to take all of this back in a few months and decide to close my uterus down for forever. But as of right now, it is seeming like I’ll have a new baby around the end of next summer!

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I don’t even know what to do with myself...

I have been awake since 6:30 (Grace’s normal wake up time) and it is almost 9 am and Grace is still sleeping!

I’ve literally showered, put makeup on, did my hair, got dressed, had coffee, cleaned the kitchen and living room and now I am just mindlessly surfing the internet...

This is amazing.

Funny how yesterday George and I were talking about having another baby once Grace starts sleeping a little better...

I guess it’s a sign ;)

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Wine drunk is the best drunk.

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Grace is turning into such a wonderful child. I can’t even stand how funny and smart and cute she is.

I was in her room reading to her to sleep and she closed the booked and started humming. We sat in the rocking chair singing twinkle twinkle little star over and over again and she was singing along in the sweetest jibbierish. Then I gave her a kiss, put her in her crib and walked out of the room.

She put her self to sleep. No crying, no fussing. Just a kiss goodnight.

Tonight I feel so so lucky.

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My best friend in the world is home!

I am so so so happy about it. You never realize how much you miss someone until they are gone, and come back into your life.

Also you never realize what a gift it is to have someone love your child 100% fully and completely and never gets annoyed and always wants to spend time with her, even though she is single and childless and in college, it doesn’t matter, she loves Grace and she loves me.

And I feel really lucky and really sad all at once because she is leaving in 5 days and I know I’ll miss her again.

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Hi guys!

Long time no talk. I missed you. Not sure why I stopped sharing mine and Grace’s life. I guess I just got busy with mothering! ha

I’ve missed having a place to tell random ass things that no one cares about.

I have a toddler on my hands guys. She is as toddler as it gets. Almost 17 months old but I swear she thinks shes 5. She is so smart and UNBELIEVABLY beautiful. I just love her so much.

Anyway, talk to ya later!

[psychofactz]

Just because one person’s problem is less traumatic than another’s doesn’t mean they’re required to hurt less.

(via psychofactz)

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Easter...

Today sucked ass. It was so bad. George and I got into one of the worst fights we have been in, in years which ended with me putting Grace in the car to drive to my parents house and spend the day there. I had planned this nice breakfast to have his family come over and he couldn't stop making these obnoxious comments to me about picking up the house. I was trying to make his son's Easter baskets and when he called me 'lazy' I absolutely lost it. I instantly started crying and threw the Easter basket clear across the kitchens. I try so hard to be a good mom and good wife and to be called lazy while I'm making a big Easter basket for Ben that I spent hours shopping for... I just fucking lost it. Not to mention that when he was being obnoxious and nitpicking I asked him to stop about 15 times because I wanted to have a nice day and didn't want to get into a fight. It was just constant and I lost it. And also not to mention that last night we went out on a date night last night that also ended in an argument because he was making fun of me and... I don't know today I'm fucking so angry and mad and over the fact that he shows me so respect. I just can't. Funny enough I was going through some paperwork today and found a letter that I wrote to him in July about problems that's were having. So we've been having problems for over 6 months and they haven't gotten better.

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Peace is the only battle worth waging.

Albert Camus (via purplebuddhaproject)

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Re-watching the Walking Dead season finally right now and honestly all I can see is that Carol is the most amazing person in this show. I want her on my team.

“Because these people are children and children like stories”....

She is my queen.

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FINALLY

[vixyish]

One of the things I like about this: they’re doing it without shouting down women.

Because “that doesn’t happen to guys” *IS* a feminist issue. Male victims of abuse being dismissed, blamed or ridiculed because they weren’t “manly” enough is a part of patriarchy. And you can raise awareness of that without dismissing other feminist issues or bringing it up as a “counter argument” to problems women face.

MRAs, take note. This is how you actually support men’s rights.