sunventing

sideblog for venting and stuff - he/him/hx/hxm

[sunventing]

i had such great self control when i was 14! it's so hard to starve myself these days because i actually have things to do lol

[sunventing]

i still think no one will love me if i can't provide anything. i still feel like a commodity

[abuzd]

[sunventing]

i'm afraid i'll never get rid of the desire to be in pain

[sunventing]

im just really scared it won't ever go away. the desire to press a knife to my skin. to rip tape off and revel in the burning. to plug in a charger and wish it would spark and burn the house down with me in it

[abuzd]

[sunventing]

i'm afraid i'll never get rid of the desire to be in pain

[emanonwhite]

Sleepless night

[peirres-play-place]

Am I man enough

[tearinmyheavydirtyheart]

Why can't I just look more masc ... ?

[sunventing]

how to make peace with the fact I will never be who I say I am: a guy, a singer, a good person

[sunventing]

i tried really hard. i need you to know i tried

[ventcore]

"We are worthless, we are doomed" (...by Los Campesinos!) 04.02.2025

[ventcore]

"We are worthless, we are doomed" (...by Los Campesinos!) 04.02.2025

[ventcore]

"We are worthless, we are doomed" (...by Los Campesinos!) 04.02.2025

[ventcore]

"We are worthless, we are doomed" (...by Los Campesinos!) 04.02.2025

[ventcore]

"We are worthless, we are doomed" (...by Los Campesinos!) 04.02.2025

[happyending95]

[sunventing]

I want to be hurt. I need someone to hurt me so it isn’t my fault. I need it to hurt