[superzuperlucky]

I don't like incurable diseases. It sucks. Incurable mental illnesses I think are worse. If you commit it's all your fault, therapy is all on you. I can barely leave the house, I can't see a therapist. Committing is my last resort and I do feel ill. I am sick. I know that actual sick people deserve way more and I think that they do deserve help in mental aspects as well. However when it's a chronic illness everyone accepts a cure and treatment. If you don't want it then you're classed as suicidal. Everything comes back to mental health. I'm stuck in anti recovery groups, I do support people who want to get better but I'm vulnerable and wondering and it's the only hope in my life. Am I doomed to be this way forever or can I just commit? I don't have anything to live for.

[superzupercool]

Can everyone just enjoy summer? Do you have nothing else in your life. Since June I've been recommended Halloween and CHRISTMAS posts about how people are counting down the days. If it's over a month away then shut your mouth!!!!

[superzuperlucky]

God if I say not interested in somethong irl then they understand why is it on every social media platform they don't give a shit about my likes, following or whatever and give me shit I have said no thanks to, tiktok actually gives you posts from accounts you have blocked!!! What the fuck dude I'm trying to have fun on this app but I don't want to have 60 plus filtered tags that doesn't matter because people don't want to tag their posts and apparently when I block a tag or someone I do want to see that content. I'm sorry if you're going to show me the same shit five times in a row I'm blocking that person

[superzuperlucky]

I don't have OCD if I don't think I have OCD idk let me look it up again, am I really sure? I may relate to these things but I totally don't have it.

[superzuperlucky]

Horrible fronting duo we have had some times: possible anorexic headmate and fat, likes to eat, headmate

[atomic-cat-dragon]

one of my biggest pet peeves is when a character or even a real human person says "I have no interest in romance" and the overwhelming response is "omg ace rep/confirmation/whatever

[atomic-cat-dragon]

sometimes people are aroallo

[superzuperlucky]

You know what? Anger issues win for me. I stopped hitting people when I was angry like two years ago! God I wanted to punch someone in the face but I was too busy realising I was plural and that stopped me because we had crazy ass fronting issues. #nojailtime #yay

I still act weird and insult and fight, verbally, but I'm not abusive I'm cutting the cycle and hopefully I'll be a working human in the next business years.

[superzuperlucky]

I don't remember anything. I vaguely remember dates. An argument feels months ago but was just recently. Break up? Only a few months and I look to see it's a year. And another I consider really recent to be several years. I lost friends in months, don't talk in months because I don't see them as months. I can't understand time properly due to ADHD, yes I know that. But inherently I lost a big portion of myself not really due to that. I have a big gap in my mind between the ages of seven and twelve where I guessimate events. I remember events due to school years. Education differs year by year and I struggled with homeschooling. I have no clue below seven, it's normal but I barely remember below twelve too! And that's recent, isn't it? If I can't remember stuff from a few years ago, months ago, weeks ago, days ago I'm loosing myself. I don't have memory. I don't even remember my old headmates. I don't remember family. I don't remember important events. I don't remember COVID but I think a lot of people don't. My brain is foggy and I guess I could try but I don't think it is my job to remember. I'm quite,,, stuck. I'm stuck at the age where we did remember and it's making me more upset. We don't know where we went, who is the person that we was? Was it out host and we just grew? No because he wasn't host then. We still,,, like being that person but isn't that just coping with what we faced.

[superzuperlucky]

I feel like a puppy who just ripped apart your couch and you can't do anything because I'm just a nervous puppy and you have to put up with all my bullshit , reassure me for destruction pls

[superzuperlucky]

Okay gonna sound really stupid. My biggest running paranoia/ delusion is that someone is watching me. Big fear of mine 😐. Uh biggest fear is secret cameras, being recorded etc. I have been secretly recorded and have taken photos of but in good faith ( family ). Hated it and when I noticed there's a camera I have the sourest look on my face. Anyway. I want to see if I record myself I'll ease this delusional thinking if I have access to footage and can delete it.

[superzuperlucky]

My life is one big venn circle of : ADHD, BP- II, Genetic Addiction, Childhood Trauma, Genetic Links To Bipolar Disorder, Dissociative Disorder, Suicidal Idealization, Genetic Links To SAD, ASD, Anxiety, Or BPD, Or MDD

[superzuperlucky]

Some things are illegal because some people are poor.

Workers being exploited? Yeah no one has money for lawyers.

People stealing from stores? No one has money to buy it.

I don't know how people don't understand it. You can be poor at any moment. It takes one robbery and you can't afford to eat.

[superzuperlucky]

Uggghhh that was not good do not impulsive eat after not eating for hours.

[superzuperlucky]

I feel like some ace/gay/etc headcannoned characters are actually aro and no one considers that because omg romance 😲🫪🫣🫣

[superzuperlucky]

Stop complaining about low views and no likes on your art. I know it sucks ass but if you make a post about not having likes or views and no one interacting with you I'm going to assume you're fishing for compliments and I'm going to block you. You can be a great artist with low views, I understand it's painful!!!! I like attention too and I think it sucks when no one likes me art. I'm glad I post on Tumblr where my mutals like everything. On any other platform yeah no views no likes. You have to put yourself out there!!! If you're complaining about no commissions and you're a small artist then you're just complaining. There's free art competitions, you can give your stuff to galleries, you can keep making and making until you find the person which is in love with your work. My art gets no views but I show it to my friends and they are all amazed and love it. I joined art communities and they supported everyone. Stop complaining and start doing!!! It sucks but you have to push through.

[superzuperlucky]

This application is not responding let me close it, oh it's buffering a little lets just-

This application is not responding, do you want to shut down the application?

DO I? DO I, UH WELL I DONT FUCKING KNOW HUH.

[superzuperlucky]

God is it even a proper disorder if I give up after one day or is it literally caused by bpd