supportsaber died bitch I am a new person now free

of being a public spectacle for others' enjoyment I am now releasing myself from a cycle of ironic-humor-self-harm 

[supportsaber]

I deleted my blog because there were a number of problems that I had with it

I used WAY too fucking much AAVE in my posts and quite frankly I would like to establish that I am Not that person anymore in my unlearning process 

I just generally had a different feeling about the fate series and characters in the fate series than I do now & a lot of my posts were also very performative (like making an Indigenous People’s Day post with fate series Geronimo on it, which is about as performative as someone can get imo, since fate series Geronimo is... not a good depiction lmao) 

People kept reblogging my old posts that had misinfo in it (like Chevaliere d’Eon not being intersex -> she was, she had hyperestrogenism) 

Generally not even interested in even keeping this blog up as an archive bc seeing my old posts can be triggering to me since I was going through A Lot all the time

I also just generally hated being “that saber alter person” and it did put a dent on how I developed my identity online and who I thought I was Allowed to be. I hated being viewed like that. I wanted to envision and become a new idealized self where my relationships with people weren’t a result of a long term self-indulgent writing project that never got anywhere.

Also some of the people I interacted with on here either later became good friends or became abusers/harassers. It’s been a really long time since I’ve interacted with the latter group but I do want to put that behind me in my healing process at this point. 

Please for the love of god don’t panic and freak out because I deleted. The only thing that sucks for me worse when I’m managing my mental health by doing something like this is when people decide to make a big deal of it for me, which I’ve really had enough of since being publicly harassed years ago. pfft 

Questions, comments, concerns, “why did you delete” ---> @waverwhore (if URL is changed my new URL should be in the description)