{{ counting stars ;; }}

lately i've been, i've been losing sleep, dreaming about the things that we could be. but baby, i've been, i've been praying hard, said, no more counting dollars. we'll be counting stars, yeah, we'll be counting stars.

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Jacob walked over to where Mathias and Wentworth seemed to be having an argument and once he knew Mathias needed him, he started walking back outside. He watched Wentworth walk out in front of him and away from the house and shifted. Jacob sighed, he didn’t know why they were fighting, but he didn’t want Mathias to be miserable any more, not like he had been since Wentworth left the last time. He turned around to see Mathias looking at him expectantly.

Mathias though, had so many thoughts running through his head. He had been so blinded by the excitement of having his omega back that he hadn’t been able to smell his hormones… well he had, but he had thought they were just Jacob’s pregnancy hormones. He couldn’t even bring himself to be excited, not when he felt so miserable and angry. “What do you want, Jacob?” He asked, voice worn down and tired. He then looked at Noah and raised an eyebrow. “Why is he not gone from my house yet?” 

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          The featherlight footsteps of the raven haired Omega had come to his ears not too long ago; actually, immediately after the heated argument inside and with a groan, he buried his face in his hands. Noah would refuse to travel with an angered and emotionally deranged Alpha, the chances of him hurting himself or worse, Jacob, were too big and as soon as he heard the question, he rose to his feet; an arm immediately and protectively wrapping around the feathery haired male's waist, reeling him into his body and wrapping both of his arms around him as he pressed Jacob's back against his chest, head resting on the Omega's shoulder. "I don't want to travel alone with Jacob, the risk is too big," Noah started off, hearing a howl coming from inside the woods and his head was lifted; a growl falling from his lips. "There are others out there and I think there is an Omega in heat in the woods, I've been tracking the surroundings for a moment when Jacob was inside but to be honest, I'm not all that sure if I should take you with me, you're just as nuts as the rest of them." The boy concluded, his eyes narrowing in the slightest prior to canting his head. "You'd better go and check on that Omega of yours, you knocked him up, you know."

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Demetrius watched him for a few moments before walking toward the boy. He didn’t comment on the smell, but he leant against the wall closest to the boy and looked at him. “The desire to drink blood almost always wins, no one can blame you for that.” He looked down, I have killed so many of my lovers by letting myself get out of control. I know how you feel. Having human relationships is never good for us.” He looked back to the boy. “How long ago was this?”

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          And he understood, but he hadn't asked to be this and he had never wanted to be this though; nodding along with the raven's words prior to finding himself hopping onto one of the counter tops; hands clenching around the edges as he felt the anger within him burning up; knowing that that question could set him ablaze though, finding himself sighing and shaking his head. "About three months ago. ——I had meant to stop but... I couldn't."

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Mathias stood up at the boy’s words, shaking his head. He was hurt, upset, angry. All he wanted was to settle down with an omega that he could love and make a family with them. It’s what he was made to do. To love and protect an omega and make a family with them. He didn’t know how he was meant to do that when his omega wouldn’t settle down and let him protect him. “How am I supposed to protect you when you won’t let me? How am I supposed to do my duty as an alpha when you won’t do your duty as an omega?! I wonder if maybe your brain was put in the body of an omega when it should have been in the body of a beta. A lone wolf with no one to bond with, that seems more your thing. If you wanted me and wanted this bond, you would want to be here with me, Wentworth, but instead you leave and make me worry and wonder where you might be and who you might be with and who might be fucking you while I’m not there.” He growled. “All my life I have dreamt of what it would be like when I finally found an omega, for over three hundred years I have wondered, but this is nothing like how I hoped it would be. I don’t feel respected and I definitely don’t feel loved. I feel tossed aside and unwanted.” He was aware that Wentworth had just asked him to marry him, but he didn’t want to comment on that, he was too hurt to even consider marrying the omega, not with what he was saying. That’s when Jacob walked in, looking as if he wanted to ask something. Mathias nodded at him before saying, “If you don’t want this, Wentworth, we should just go to a werewolf elder and get our bond broken.” He said, not even able to look at the boy as he spoke those words before he walked out to speak with Jacob.

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          But at those words; the ones about him being a Beta born in an Omega body, that's when he stood up. Disbelief had shadowed across his face and a frown was upon his features as he closed in on Mathias; only then hearing about the elder and that they'd be better off getting their bond broken but instead of letting Mathias run off just like that, the raven grabbed him by the shoulder and turned him around. "Say that again," Wentworth threatened, his eyes darkened but still, blazing up sufficiently to express his anger. "Say that again to an Omega who lost his Alpha due to his own stupid actions. ——Say it again." He growled, voice rising in anger and he felt his blood beginning to boil; afraid that he might shift then and there in the middle of the living room. He didn't understand and he would never understand, either, how Mathias could have said those things to him. Though, Wentworth found serenity again and eventually, he found himself releasing Mathias before taking a deep breath. "But that's fine, Mathias. If I lose them because of you, you've lost me too. That's when I'll go and break the bond, go on and suit yourself now. I won't be here, don't come looking for me either." He then finalized, pushing the Alpha away from him and brushing past him; out of the doors. "Surprises me you can't smell it." Wentworth grumbled in between his teeth prior to shifting; the raven wolf who was vulnerable, an Omega and above all, pregnant.

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Jacob tried to avoid his eyes, but when he lifted his chin, it was impossible. The thought of getting rid of the babies inside of him physically hurt him, made his heart contract in the worst way. He shook his head, “I know that… I think, I just want you to know that if you didn’t want them, I-I would want to make you happy, even though it would kill me inside to do that…” He cleared his throat, “I want them too. More than anything right now.” He murmured, looking to his lips before pressing another quick kiss to them. “A family with you is all I have been able to think about since you bonded with me and when I found out, I was so happy but scared that you wouldn’t be happy.” He nodded and pulled away, walking into the house to find Mathias.

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          Of course, at those words, Noah could feel his heart skipping a beat and not at all in a good way. His breathing had become heavier than before and though he was trying to mask it, he knew that someone must have heard it. ——Yes, these pups were Noah's sudden everything. He was only twenty-two but he knew that these pups needed to be guarded with his life, not only his Omega; but also his sons and daughters. He hoped that there'd be a daughter so, he could teach her everything about anything there was to know; kicking the boys' bums, for example. A sigh enrolled from his lips when Jacob rushed inside, sinking onto his behind and sitting on one of the steps of the porch. It was a lovely little house, really though, nothing near as lovely as what he had found for him and Jacob. It was in the centre of town, for the pups because they did need education, even if they were supernatural and Noah found that they had to be able to live a normal life if they wanted to, of course. Though, he had picked up on something, a scent and it wasn't Jacob's. There was another pregnant Omega around and Noah had an idea of whom it might be.

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Jacob bit his lip and shrugged, looking behind him at the house. “I don’t know… I guess he’ll do whatever he thinks is safest…” He licked his lips before looking down at their hands and smiling a little. “You know you don’t have to be so scared for me, I’m a good fighter… when I get bigger I think you can be scared then, but really, the babies are safe… your pups aren’t going to get hurt, I’ll make sure of that.” He said before standing on his toes and pecking the boy’s lips. “You’re… you are okay with this right? I-I mean if you don’t want to have a family right now we can -” He cut himself, looking away from their hands to a spot on the ground, not even wanting to say it, it was something he never wanted to do, but if he had to, he would. "Should I go in and get Mathias now?"

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          But, Noah was utterly curious; what would he have done if he didn't want children yet? Kill them? Let them be born and lay them astray? ——Noah's eyes widened a bit though, they still stood calm and his hand moved up and his thumb and index finger lifted the boy's head up; looking right into his eyes. "Do what, Jacob? Kill them?" He asked carefully, his breathing heavy and nothing but a whisper. Tears had formed in his eyes and he shook his head, draw in his lesser lip to keep the droplets from streaming before returning the kiss to his lips. "I love you, I want children with you and now that we're pregnant... I want to keep them, you know that, right?" He whispered, much difficulty in his voice and yes, a solemn tear did stream down his cheek; whisking it away nearly immediately before letting his Omega go. "Yeah, go on, go get Mathias."

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Jacob’s eyes lit up when Noah came back to him and he cuddled into the boy’s chest, nuzzling into his neck. “I know.” He said with a giggle before kissing the bare skin of his neck. “I’m a sucker for you too which is why I want to go home so we can finally cuddle and be in love.” He said, pulling away to look up at him, “I’m not defenceless though. My body was made to do this, Noah. Even if I’m pregnant, I can still defend myself just as well as I used to be until I get big… it’s just that there’s more to lose if I get hurt.” He said, before leaning up to kiss him. “Mathias is very powerful. He won’t let anyone hurt me, and neither will you, so I’ll be fine.”

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          And he oh, carefully took the feathery haired male's hands prior to finding himself lacing their fingers together, creating a firm hold of stability. ——A wisp of wind caused his curls to fly all about the place and his enchanting emerald hues were mesmerizing; they stood wide and interested, looking right into magnificently azure colored ones which he would never ever be able to miss; not in his entire life. Oh, he loved Jacob, more than words could say and even if his initial goal had been Wentworth, he was sure that this had been the right decision. Nonetheless, the pregnancy... It had become a bit inconvenient but, they had to pull themselves through it, they would have to. "Do you think Mathias would leave Wentworth alone? Like here, on his own? Or take him with him? ——One Omega is enough, we don't need any more to come with, it makes us more vulnerable, especially Wentworth, he's not a fighter, you can see it."

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Jacob watched as Noah walked away before sighing and sitting down on the chair on the porch. He didn’t want to go inside without Noah, he didn’t want to spend any more time away from Noah, he just wanted to be able to lay next to him and be with him and hold him which he had never been able to do, he’d never lay with the boy, he’d only ever had sex with him once and he had been held against a tree the whole time. He was a romantic guy, he just wanted a little romance. “Noah… please come back. We can get Mathias and Wentworth to follow us so that if someone does attack us, which they won’t, then they can attack them and keep us safe. Mathias is a very powerful wolf…”

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          A groan enrolled from the male's lips prior to turning on his heel and jogging back over towards the house, seeing Jacob on the porch and rolling his eyes at the sight. "Fine." He stated curtly, grabbing Jacob's hand and pulling him up to his feet, grabbing him by the waist and pulling him close to his body. "I'm such a sucker for you, you know that, right? You don't even know half how dangerous this is, even with Mathias coming along. You are defenseless, you're harmless. You can't do anything okay? Don't try to run too much because I don't want them to get hurt. I don't want anything to happen to my pups and definitely not to my baby, okay?"

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Jacob gaped at him for a moment before crossing his arms over his chest. He gasped as the boy picked him up, holding onto his neck so he had a little more security. “Noah! I’m pregnant, not immobile, you’re meant to be happy, not all weird about it! I don’t want to not be able to sleep next to you until I have the babies, that’s not going to happen. If I have to, I’ll have Mathias and his boyfriend literally drag you to your new house. I’m not letting you sleep outside!” He said, "No one’s going to attack us! I’m pregnant, not a threat to anyone, they won’t attack me or you…" He then turned to Noah in surprise when he brought up the sex between he and Mathias. "Why are you talking ab- oh." He then wrinkled up his nose, "Ew, Noah, I’m not pregnant with him. I had sex with him months ago, before I met you. I didn’t have sex with him while I was with you, I’m not having his baby… or babies."

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          A growl enrolled from the taller one's lips before he shook his head and turned on his heel; upset, beyond upset with Jacob. He didn't understand, that's what it was. He didn't understand what it was like to be him. ——Noah simply disappeared in between the coverage the woods would grant him though, not before mumbling some words about Mathias, some about Wentworth and even more about Jacob. He was just annoyed and though he didn't want to come across as rude or anything he just... He wanted the best and only the best of care for Jacob and that was that. It was the world of the wolves, it wasn't all that straightforward as everyone would like to think. "Go inside, let me sleep out here." He mumbled to himself; hoping that Jacob had his hearing focused so he could hear though, Noah wasn't all that far away, just out of sight.

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When the wolf pulled away and let out a howl, Jacob frowned before watching his alpha turn back and he looked up at the boy, letting himself be pulled into his arms tightly. He frowned more when the boy said it was too dangerous to leave now. “What? Why? I’m not staying in there without you. Why can’t we go now?” He shook his head, looking up at his alpha, “I’m not letting you sleep out here… we’re going home, Noah… what’s with the sudden change? I want to see our home…” He pouted up at the boy, holding his shirt in his hands and putting his best puppy face on. “Come on, Noah!”

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          And again, Noah denied; shaking his head and letting Jacob go. It was too dangerous, for the pups and everything, they couldn't do this, they couldn't go. If Alphas were to smell the hormones... Noah wouldn't be able to take all of them, on the contrary, he'd even fail as a protector and probably get the both of them killed; and their pups. They couldn't risk it. "No, Jacob." Noah spoke sternly before picking the boy up and carrying him to the house of Mathias. "You're not going, I'm not going. You're pregnant, don't think I didn't smell it because, although I'm a new Alpha, I know the difference, okay?" He informed, setting the boy down at the front door. "Look, I can't risk this. I don't want to get you and the pups killed. I don't care about myself but, if there's one out there who is stronger than I am... I don't want to think about it." ——Though, that brought his mind to reel around and think. "You and Mathias, you had sex, right? How long ago?"

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Jacob was relieved at the reaction he got this time… it seemed like a yes, so he let himself relax. If Noah hadn’t wanted babies, he don’t know what he would have done, not only had he always wanted babies his whole life, but was already pregnant with the alphas babies. He wasn’t going to tell him while he was in wolf form, but he wouldn’t be surprised if he could smell it on him, Mathias had picked up on it almost before Jacob had. He reached up and gently pat the wolfs head, smiling at him and nuzzling his face into his furry neck. “Can we go home? I want to see it.”

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          The eyes of the wolf stood calm until they stilled; widening as he looked up at his Omega and carefully, he retracted his snout from the other's neck. ——He would have laughed so loud that, he would be heard across the entire woods but a howl enrolled from his lips. Noah had picked up the scent of the hormones; the hormones which indicated pregnancy.  Instead of taking Jacob onto his back, he shifted and shook his head; picking his clothes up and dressing himself again to only then reel his lover in his arms; pulling him closer than ever before. "We're not going anywhere," he whispered, drawing in his lesser lip. "You're going back in there, I'll stay out here. That's final. We can't travel now, it's too dangerous."

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"Yeah, whenever… I’ve been around a long time, I think I can look after you if you need it. I have connections." Demetrius nodded and looked back to the boy, forcing himself to smile a little. "Thank you." He said before looking around again. "Do you live here alone or do you have roommates or something?"

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          At the question, Jonathan merely shook his head; drawing in his lesser lip and finding himself making his way over towards the kitchen to look out of the window of his flat. "I used to have a room mate," he started, swallowing with minor difficulty. "Her name was Anne and she had nowhere to go so I took her in," he continued, allowing his head to drop in between his shoulders. "But I couldn't resist. Usually my need for blood is lesser than you guys but, she was just... I'm sure you can still smell it here. In the kitchen. She always sat here."

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Jacob was a little worried, he wasn’t sure if this was a good reaction or not, his face looked happy, but he laughed and he was tearing up on his knees and it was almost like he was reacting in ever way possible and Jacob had no idea how to take it. He bit his lip and nodded when the boy asked if he wanted a family with him. “I’ve… yeah.” He said, playing with his own fingers nervously as the other boy stood up and started to shift. He took a step back just in case he got in the way before clearing his throat, “I-I can’t tell if this is a good reaction or a bad reaction.” He murmured, chewing on his lip and slowly getting to his knees in front of his alpha. “Does this mean you don’t want family or you do?”

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          Upon Jacob falling to his knees the Alpha sat down; tucking his tail underneath his legs prior to finding himself canting his head. ——Oh, Noah could follow everything much, much better from his wolf perspective and, he had a much greater chance of protecting his Omega. Though, he canted his big head once he heard the question; he wanted to smile but of course, that came out a bit funny and eventually, Noah ended up tucking his snout in the crook of Jacob's neck, letting a howl enroll from his lips prior to outstretching one of his front legs, laying it on the knee of the feathery haired male; almost as if to say that yes, he did want a family. 

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Demetrius looked up at the boy, “Don’t you think I know that? I would be too… or killed.” He walked into the boy’s apartment, “What do you want? Money? Blood? Anything, I’ll get it for you.” He said, looking around the apartment, biting his lip to stop from commenting on it. He’d never lived in an actual apartment.

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          And with minor difficulty, he swallowed the lump in his throat; giving a sigh prior to finding himself shaking his head and letting a chuckle fall from his lips. "I don't want anything right now, therefor, when I do need something, I can always call you for help, yeah?" Jonathan posed, canting his head to the side before drawing in his lesser lip. ——It sounded as if he wanted to keep contact but, to be honest, that was not at all what he had meant to say. 

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Mathias shook his head, looking at the younger wolf and pleading with his eyes. “Why? Why do you have to be away from me? Doesn’t it hurt you too? I’ve never bonded before… Never in over three hundred years and now I have and you don’t even want to be bonded… You want to be away from me, Wentworth, it kills me. Does this mean we won’t have a family and be happily bonded?” He pulled away and walked over to the couch, dropping down onto it and burying his face in his hands. “What have I done wrong, Wentworth? Why don’t you want me around?” He asked, shaking his head. He wanted to know what he had done wrong. He tried to blink back his tears before looking up to the boy, “I just want to be with you and have a life with you, why don’t you want that too? Babies that look like us, our own family, our own pack… I want that with you.”

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          If only Mathias knew what it's like; to lose the bond with an Alpha, the only one that can protect you against anything else in the world. He had been a toy for the others until Mathias came around; he had literally saved him. ——All of the other Alphas, not like Noah, they... They had done horrible things to him, promised to bond with him and when this Alpha came along he didn't know if he would actually do it. But he had, Mathias had kept his promise, up until today and Wentworth was the one who couldn't keep his. "I love you, Mathias, more than my life but... You don't seem to understand that I need my freedom; that I need to be myself and that I need to be out in the woods, out there and just be a wolf from time to time. I don't want you to see that, I look horrible as a wolf and takes all of me to change, that's why I stay away for so long," he explained carefully, taking a seat next to the other on the couch, snuggling up into his side. "But I will give you babies, I will, I promise. For the heck of it just... Marry me. ——I know it's unusual but, marry me. I've always dreamt of it when I was younger, please."

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Demetrius was just about ready to give up and kill himself at this point. “So you’re just going to let me die? It’ll only be for a few days and I can — I’ll pay you, name your price, I’ll do anything.”

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          A groan enrolled from the male's lips before shaking his head; a sigh coming along and closing his eyes for only just a moment. ——"Fine! Fine! Just keep your mouth shut, I've already had complaints coming from the neighbors and I don't want you to make it worse. If they find out what I am, I'll be in captivity for the rest of my life."

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Demetrius frowned for a moment before looking up at the boy. “You & I can smell you… you’re a hybrid.” He said, eyes widening, “Please, please, I promise I’m not going to hurt you, I’ll even give you a stake and any kind of fire you want if it’ll make you trust me.”

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          "What I am is none of your business.      Go away, I don't need any more supernaturals in my life. I already have trouble enough dealing with myself."