JAƧLAॐ

sorry what?

[anxeious]

[opalbby-deactivated20180730]

[creatingnikki]

i wanted you to buy me sunflowers. i wanted you to take me to a bookstore. i wanted you to hear my stories and read my writing and drink coffee with me. but you cannot even find it in you to be present. so fuck it, i'm not mad. i'm only observing and processing. ah, so this is who you are — unreliable, inconsistent. i'm not anxious, even though my attachment style may be. you're not making me sad, you're only making me more confident in my judgement. ah, so this is why we don't rush into making grand declarations of love and those who pull a Ted Mosby cannot be trusted. you've given me cute nicknames and you try so hard to make me laugh and you've already heard me cry twice but so what? this only means what it means and nothing more and nothing less. thank you, I do appreciate the soft and tender ways you've been with me. but i'm twenty seven now and have enough experience and objectivity to not let that window dress the other not so nice things. we all contain multitudes and baby i am all for understanding yours — but if you won't consider me, i'm not going to keep waiting for you sitting here on the sidewalk smoking through an entire pack of cigarettes wondering why i'm not good enough. because now more than ever before, i know i am.

[hav-frue]

[yms1]

2019 will always be 1 year ago

[chillstepsbritt-deactivated2024]

Found via Pinterest

[free-my-mindd]

Blurry photos of the moon

[sustancy]

[trekahouse]

When I set boundaries and standards to protect my peace, while reiterating that through healthy communication, and you still try to test me; don’t play the victim when I stand on business. You didn’t respect me, so now you have to live without me. That’s on you!

Treka L. House

[naturaekos]

“Oh, my friend, it’s not what they take away from you that counts. It’s what you do with what you have left.”

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[naturaekos]

“I’m restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars again.”

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[goodreadss]

“Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.”

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[recaption]

[abovetheair]

[i-am-an-arm-deactivated20210204]

-S.L. Gray

[trekahouse]

I’m in constant self-reflection, and I’ve learned over time how to be more honest with myself about myself, as well as my true intentions. I’ve learned to be at peace with saying no and letting go. I don’t ever run from my emotions, but I’ve also learned to realign my energy with positive focus, so that I don’t dwell on any one occurrence too long. I speak up for myself and stand firm on my boundaries, and I have no issues releasing who or what no longer serves my higher self. And this release comes with no anger or malice, just an understanding that whatever it is, is no longer apart of my journey. I’ve also embraced that no matter how much I want to love on people, help heal them and reshape their negative thought process; it’s not my job to save anyone at the expense of myself. I now appreciate my light enough, not to dim it for someone who hasn’t discovered their own light. I create peace my way, a peace that nourishes my soul and rejuvenates my spirit for where I’m guided to go. Because of this, I have not changed, I’ve merely invited the best version of myself to come to the surface and take over. This was a path I feared for many years, for various reasons, and because of those fears; I was miserable and lacked abundance in the way that God had planned for me. So I took a leap of faith, and I now take it one day at a time. I no longer allow the expectations, insecurities or toxicity of others to determine my decisions. I also believe in reciprocation, and that especially goes for my energy. The power that I have is now undeniable and my intuition helps free my life from anything meant to destroy me. Never be afraid to do what’s best for you, even if you’re abandoned, condemned and left isolated for it. Sometimes it takes being without heavy distractions for you to find what’s been looking for you. You’ve got this, just never stop listening to your inner voice. It’s your best friend, only if it’s positive and realistic though. Blessings!!

Treka L. House

[gumuhit]

unaligned (2016)