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"uh—how do you know?" theo couldn't believe it— he wouldn't believe it. there was no way in his mind that this was possible, not in these conditions. everytime she said the word, his mind went deeper into the depths of fear but he tried his best not to show it. he was shocked, that was written all over his face, but he didn't want her to see how scared he was. all he could do was sit on this information and do what he'd seen others do on tv; be there for her. "so what do we do now? i mean, what do you want to do i guess is the right question to ask?" he glanced over to her, scared to look into her eyes and see that she's telling the truth. "i don't know how to go about this..... what do i do?"
how did she know she was pregnant? she could have scoffed at the question, let her frustration with him get the better of her and say something petty to show him what an asshole move it was to question her right now. as if she'd lie about something like this to him. as if she'd tell him when she wasn't totally, one hundred percent positive that she was pregnant and that it was his. but ria didn't, she couldn't. she had enough faith in theo to know he wasn't coming from a bad place. that he was confused, and probably scared... which she understood because so was she.
"look," she started softly, her dark brown eyes pleading to him in this moment. "i get that this is a lot, and that it's probably confusing and scary for you, but this is real. and we have to deal with that." she took a moment to let her words sink in. "unfortunately, there's not much we can do." it was the truth, it's not like there was an abortion clinic at the end of the world right? she was gonna have this baby, despite the fact that she'd never really saw herself being a mother and this fact was absolutely terrifying. but at least, there was comfort knowing she had support. even if it wasn't theo, she had love, she had people. ria now offering theo a smile in hopes that it would comfort him. "well, on the bright side for the eight, give or take, months i'll be the one doing most of the work."
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kane walked through the hallways of the building which had been repurposed for a school. sometimes when he was in school himself he used to daydream about what it would be like to live a normal life. where the world hadn't ended and he could just be a normal person who didn't have to fight to survive. he'd always ask his mom about stories from before the outbreak and his spiderman comics helped him with some idea of what the world was like before. he'd trade in clickers and runners any day for super human powers and extra terrestrial villains. the qz might have made the whole survival thing easier but he often had his doubts.
he'd come to the school to pick elise up after her shift, it was his way of surprising her. since the other night he spent with her in his room, he just wanted to do something for her, to show her this was real and they were really back together. "hey there you are --" he said to the blonde coming up from behind her. his dark gaze met hers and the smile that appeared on his lips shared with her how happy he was to be in her presence. "do you still need help packing up, or are you ready to go?"
𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟏. 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 & 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 | 𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎… 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚗𝚗 𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚎𝚛
01. animal by pvris
don't tell me that you know me, know me saying what i feel, what i do, what i want quit acting like you own me, own me saying that i'm yours to control, but i'm not your animal under control
02. smile by wolf alice
i ain't afraid though my steps appear tentative i scope it out then i throw myself into it i ain't ashamed in the fact that i'm sensitive i believe that it is the perfect adjective i wear my feelings on my sleeve, i suggested it it serves me better than to swallow in a sedative i am what i am and i'm good at it and you don't like me well that isn't fucking relevant
03. thick skull by paramore
only i know where all the bodies are buried thought by now i'd find 'em just a little less scary might be easier but you don't get used to it keep on autopilot, hey, hey what's the body count up to now, captain?
04. i want to kill you by citizen
in the bright red sky i saw a pain that i clung to once before but i never want to go there anymore and in my bright blue eyes i know i'm looking for something to calm my nerves the clock is a knife and i wait my turn and it's just getting worse it's worse, it's worse, it's worse
05. nocturnal by mothica
tried self-destruction 'til i couldn't function i hurt myself, hated myself, it didn't help me tried self-control, tried letting go to heal myself, i went to hell, i hope you know what it's like to fight your mind when your skin still crawls at night i pretend that i'm all right 'til the lights go out
06. lilith by halsey
you got me thinking that i was too mean well, everything that i say i believe tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve and change like a season reason for nothing i am disruptive i've been corrupted and by now i don't need a fucking introduction i've been gone cause i been on this road too long
07. my limb by hayley willliams
if you gotta amputate don't give me the tourniquet you wish that i would run away sever what isn't working but i let my body bleed out lean into my left side is your part of me is gone now do i wanna survive?
08. world away by tonight alive
this is not my punishment this is my catalyst for growth i know i will survive this i'll be the strongest person i know
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Elise rested her head against his chest when he pulled her in, breathing in his sent once more. He was home to her. All the safety an security she needed in the world was right there in his arms. The blonde took her arms and wrapped them around Kane, keeping him close. She didn't wanna let him go. Ever.
It was a bit distracting to her, having her head pressed to his chest when he was talking. She was almost too content listening to his heart beat to have his words really register. There was a small smile that graced her lips again before he cupped her face and made her look at him, her eyes looking longingly into his for what must have been the millionth time that night.
Hearing him reassure her of their future together brought tears to her eyes, only this time they were ones of joy instead of sorrow. "Kane", she whispered before pressing a soft kiss into his lips. Ever since she could remember all she wanted to be was Mrs. Ashford. Now it seemed closer then ever before. "I fucking love you. More then anything I've ever loved in my entire life."
right now he was the happiest he'd probably ever been in his life, just laying here intertwined with elise. he shifted slightly, moving forward to grab at the blankets so he could cover them. at least for elise, his body heat would keep her warm whilst he slept. he tried really fucking hard to not let it show that he was about to pass out. but who could blame him, he'd been awake for over 24 hours and just had the best sex of his life. surely he deserved sleep after all that.
after all those years and all that time spent just waiting for one another... kane finally felt like there was a tangible future for them. one where he married the girl of his dreams, and his life wasn't just about surviving with her but living their lives. thick dark brows raised once more in surprise at her choice of wording. he wasn't ever gonna be mad at hearing those pretty lips curse words or say 'i love you'. but he also couldn't help but smile as he spoke, "please don't ever stop." his thumb brushed softly against her jaw. "i don't think it'd be possible for me to stop loving you." leaning down to give her one last soft kiss on the lips, kane leant back fully before falling asleep with her in his arms.
To be honest, the thought completely slipped her mind. Of course sex lead to pregnancy. And she knew it. But in the moment she never put two and two together. Anxiety began to fill her chest as she thought about the idea. Did she want to have a child with Kane? Of course. But currently, they weren't married. Weren't engaged. Hell, part of her wondered if they were technically together. Still, Elise couldn't help but think of a little baby with tanned skin, curly hair, and green eyes.
Still. First things firsts. There was a large part of her scared to tell him what she wanted to, but if she didn't she know she'd burst. "Right", she took a breath. "I liked it. H-how it felt but... Maybe it's a good idea if you didn't, you know..." Please, God, let him know what I'm saying without freaking out or me having to say the actual words. "Until we're married?" She held her breath, fearing the worst for bringing up the big M again. "I just... I want you to, but, I wanna be married before we have a baby."
"it's okay, we'll be okay," his words were soft at first. it was almost immediate that he sensed her fear. his chest ached as he felt that familiar anxiety radiate through him. she was scared in the same way he was and that was not his intention. "hey, come here--" kane spoke softly, holding her up so he could move himself from underneath her. as he sat up he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her back into the safety of his chest.
"i'm glad it felt good, it felt really really really good for me too." he leant his back against her headboard, propping her up to hold her face in his hands once more. "and i want you to know i have every intention of marrying you, elise holloway. and us having a baby... one day." he hoped his words helping her with the anxiety he knew she felt. though they had talked about this in their relationship years ago, he meant it when he said he wanted to give her everything she ever wanted. all kane wanted was the ability to keep her and their future kid safe.
"Can you say Mama?" Katie tickled the baby. "Ma-ma. Mamamama?"
kane was silent as he listened to the woman coo. it felt rude not to make his presence known so he spoke gently into the room. "ah, wh-who's baby?" was all he could muster.
as she moved on top of him, he couldn't help but peak at her. the sudden pressure of her body weight on top of him was nice, and he was very much enjoying this particular view of elise. she looked as if she were glowing, with the soft lamp light shining out behind her. or the slight pinkness to her cheeks and the glisten of sweat still dampening her forehead. it was ethereal.
he didn't even have the chance to bring his hand back up to her face, or to confess she was the most beautiful thing in the world once more before he sensed her worry. "oh," he frowned. of course elise didn't know, she couldn't possibly know what it was that had him so worried. she knew where babies came from but clearly not quite the way it happened. "well, i just didn't think you'd want me to you know inside you yet... cause it could risk pregnancy and i don't think we're really ready for that yet." he made a face again, hoping she wasn't going to be too pissed at what he'd said. he knew how she felt about having kids, and that wasn't really something he wanted to talk about right after what just happened. "it's really not a big deal, i'll just pull out next time."
𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟏. 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 | 𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎… 𝚛𝚒𝚊 𝚔𝚊𝚑𝚗
❛ — my love for science doesn't preclude my faith
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"shit" kane mumbled under his breath before dropping the plank of wood he held in his grasp. he'd been doing some work in alana's garden, illegal work in her illegal garden but work nonetheless. turning to face the brunette before speaking again, "okay so i really wasn't expecting you to show up like right now, obviously. and i was hoping to be finished before you saw it but," he gestured toward the half finished row of planters he'd been building. "if we get some height on some of this stuff i figured we could make a pressurised irrigation system and it would work to save water if we had the planters stacked -- y'know?" looking back to her, his smile reforming on his lips in the hopes that his next offer would really help soften the blow of however she was gonna react to kane's work. "but -- i also come bearing gifts."