survives

wasted in the end

[survivesqz]

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"uh—how do you know?" theo couldn't believe it— he wouldn't believe it. there was no way in his mind that this was possible, not in these conditions. everytime she said the word, his mind went deeper into the depths of fear but he tried his best not to show it. he was shocked, that was written all over his face, but he didn't want her to see how scared he was. all he could do was sit on this information and do what he'd seen others do on tv; be there for her. "so what do we do now? i mean, what do you want to do i guess is the right question to ask?" he glanced over to her, scared to look into her eyes and see that she's telling the truth. "i don't know how to go about this..... what do i do?"

[survivesqz]

how did she know she was pregnant? she could have scoffed at the question, let her frustration with him get the better of her and say something petty to show him what an asshole move it was to question her right now. as if she'd lie about something like this to him. as if she'd tell him when she wasn't totally, one hundred percent positive that she was pregnant and that it was his. but ria didn't, she couldn't. she had enough faith in theo to know he wasn't coming from a bad place. that he was confused, and probably scared... which she understood because so was she.

"look," she started softly, her dark brown eyes pleading to him in this moment. "i get that this is a lot, and that it's probably confusing and scary for you, but this is real. and we have to deal with that." she took a moment to let her words sink in. "unfortunately, there's not much we can do." it was the truth, it's not like there was an abortion clinic at the end of the world right? she was gonna have this baby, despite the fact that she'd never really saw herself being a mother and this fact was absolutely terrifying. but at least, there was comfort knowing she had support. even if it wasn't theo, she had love, she had people. ria now offering theo a smile in hopes that it would comfort him. "well, on the bright side for the eight, give or take, months i'll be the one doing most of the work."

[survivesqz]

closed starter for: @devdflowers

kane walked through the hallways of the building which had been repurposed for a school. sometimes when he was in school himself he used to daydream about what it would be like to live a normal life. where the world hadn't ended and he could just be a normal person who didn't have to fight to survive. he'd always ask his mom about stories from before the outbreak and his spiderman comics helped him with some idea of what the world was like before. he'd trade in clickers and runners any day for super human powers and extra terrestrial villains. the qz might have made the whole survival thing easier but he often had his doubts.

he'd come to the school to pick elise up after her shift, it was his way of surprising her. since the other night he spent with her in his room, he just wanted to do something for her, to show her this was real and they were really back together. "hey there you are --" he said to the blonde coming up from behind her. his dark gaze met hers and the smile that appeared on his lips shared with her how happy he was to be in her presence. "do you still need help packing up, or are you ready to go?"

[survivesqz]

𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟏. 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 & 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 | 𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎… 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚗𝚗 𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚎𝚛

01. animal by pvris

don't tell me that you know me, know me saying what i feel, what i do, what i want quit acting like you own me, own me saying that i'm yours to control, but i'm not your animal under control

02. smile by wolf alice

i ain't afraid though my steps appear tentative i scope it out then i throw myself into it i ain't ashamed in the fact that i'm sensitive i believe that it is the perfect adjective i wear my feelings on my sleeve, i suggested it it serves me better than to swallow in a sedative i am what i am and i'm good at it and you don't like me well that isn't fucking relevant

03. thick skull by paramore

only i know where all the bodies are buried thought by now i'd find 'em just a little less scary might be easier but you don't get used to it keep on autopilot, hey, hey what's the body count up to now, captain?

04. i want to kill you by citizen

in the bright red sky i saw a pain that i clung to once before but i never want to go there anymore and in my bright blue eyes i know i'm looking for something to calm my nerves the clock is a knife and i wait my turn and it's just getting worse it's worse, it's worse, it's worse

05. nocturnal by mothica

tried self-destruction 'til i couldn't function i hurt myself, hated myself, it didn't help me tried self-control, tried letting go to heal myself, i went to hell, i hope you know what it's like to fight your mind when your skin still crawls at night i pretend that i'm all right 'til the lights go out

06. lilith by halsey

you got me thinking that i was too mean well, everything that i say i believe tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve and change like a season reason for nothing i am disruptive i've been corrupted and by now i don't need a fucking introduction i've been gone cause i been on this road too long

07. my limb by hayley willliams

if you gotta amputate don't give me the tourniquet you wish that i would run away sever what isn't working but i let my body bleed out lean into my left side is your part of me is gone now do i wanna survive?

08. world away by tonight alive

this is not my punishment this is my catalyst for growth i know i will survive this i'll be the strongest person i know

full playlist is here

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Elise rested her head against his chest when he pulled her in, breathing in his sent once more. He was home to her. All the safety an security she needed in the world was right there in his arms. The blonde took her arms and wrapped them around Kane, keeping him close. She didn't wanna let him go. Ever.

It was a bit distracting to her, having her head pressed to his chest when he was talking. She was almost too content listening to his heart beat to have his words really register. There was a small smile that graced her lips again before he cupped her face and made her look at him, her eyes looking longingly into his for what must have been the millionth time that night.

Hearing him reassure her of their future together brought tears to her eyes, only this time they were ones of joy instead of sorrow. "Kane", she whispered before pressing a soft kiss into his lips. Ever since she could remember all she wanted to be was Mrs. Ashford. Now it seemed closer then ever before. "I fucking love you. More then anything I've ever loved in my entire life."

[survivesqz]

right now he was the happiest he'd probably ever been in his life, just laying here intertwined with elise. he shifted slightly, moving forward to grab at the blankets so he could cover them. at least for elise, his body heat would keep her warm whilst he slept. he tried really fucking hard to not let it show that he was about to pass out. but who could blame him, he'd been awake for over 24 hours and just had the best sex of his life. surely he deserved sleep after all that.

after all those years and all that time spent just waiting for one another... kane finally felt like there was a tangible future for them. one where he married the girl of his dreams, and his life wasn't just about surviving with her but living their lives. thick dark brows raised once more in surprise at her choice of wording. he wasn't ever gonna be mad at hearing those pretty lips curse words or say 'i love you'. but he also couldn't help but smile as he spoke, "please don't ever stop." his thumb brushed softly against her jaw. "i don't think it'd be possible for me to stop loving you." leaning down to give her one last soft kiss on the lips, kane leant back fully before falling asleep with her in his arms.

[vndersons]

To be honest, the thought completely slipped her mind. Of course sex lead to pregnancy. And she knew it. But in the moment she never put two and two together. Anxiety began to fill her chest as she thought about the idea. Did she want to have a child with Kane? Of course. But currently, they weren't married. Weren't engaged. Hell, part of her wondered if they were technically together. Still, Elise couldn't help but think of a little baby with tanned skin, curly hair, and green eyes.

Still. First things firsts. There was a large part of her scared to tell him what she wanted to, but if she didn't she know she'd burst. "Right", she took a breath. "I liked it. H-how it felt but... Maybe it's a good idea if you didn't, you know..." Please, God, let him know what I'm saying without freaking out or me having to say the actual words. "Until we're married?" She held her breath, fearing the worst for bringing up the big M again. "I just... I want you to, but, I wanna be married before we have a baby."

[survivesqz]

"it's okay, we'll be okay," his words were soft at first. it was almost immediate that he sensed her fear. his chest ached as he felt that familiar anxiety radiate through him. she was scared in the same way he was and that was not his intention. "hey, come here--" kane spoke softly, holding her up so he could move himself from underneath her. as he sat up he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her back into the safety of his chest.

"i'm glad it felt good, it felt really really really good for me too." he leant his back against her headboard, propping her up to hold her face in his hands once more. "and i want you to know i have every intention of marrying you, elise holloway. and us having a baby... one day." he hoped his words helping her with the anxiety he knew she felt. though they had talked about this in their relationship years ago, he meant it when he said he wanted to give her everything she ever wanted. all kane wanted was the ability to keep her and their future kid safe.

[katiexklein]

"Can you say Mama?" Katie tickled the baby. "Ma-ma. Mamamama?"

[survivesqz]

kane was silent as he listened to the woman coo. it felt rude not to make his presence known so he spoke gently into the room. "ah, wh-who's baby?" was all he could muster.

[vndersons]

His words filled her with such joy. She couldn't believe that she was the best he'd ever had. It just wasn't possible. Still the blonde beamed as he went on. If it was really about love for him, maybe she should have given into him sooner. Though with how good everything just felt she didn't really wanna change a thing. If it had taken them this long to realize that they were meant for each other. That they were this in love, who knows if would have been so passionate.

Elise went to place her hand over his but before she could she found Kane pulling away to cover his own face. Worry washed away any remnants of a smile. "Hey", she cooed, climbing on top of him so he would look at her. Taking his hands she placed them on her thighs, a place where he normally placed them. "What's wrong with that? I--isn't that what's supposed to happen? What else would you have done?"

[survivesqz]

as she moved on top of him, he couldn't help but peak at her. the sudden pressure of her body weight on top of him was nice, and he was very much enjoying this particular view of elise. she looked as if she were glowing, with the soft lamp light shining out behind her. or the slight pinkness to her cheeks and the glisten of sweat still dampening her forehead. it was ethereal.

he didn't even have the chance to bring his hand back up to her face, or to confess she was the most beautiful thing in the world once more before he sensed her worry. "oh," he frowned. of course elise didn't know, she couldn't possibly know what it was that had him so worried. she knew where babies came from but clearly not quite the way it happened. "well, i just didn't think you'd want me to you know inside you yet... cause it could risk pregnancy and i don't think we're really ready for that yet." he made a face again, hoping she wasn't going to be too pissed at what he'd said. he knew how she felt about having kids, and that wasn't really something he wanted to talk about right after what just happened. "it's really not a big deal, i'll just pull out next time."

[vndersons]

There was a small pout on her face when he expressed how tired he was. Elise was anything but. If she wanted to she could run laps around the entire perimeter of the qz. She watched him grab the towel and clean himself off, biting her lip as she did so. No one had ever taught her these things, like how messy it could be. His movements made her suddenly aware of the dampness between her legs as the breeze hit it. She listened to him intently, needing to know what to do next.

When he collapsed next to her she gingerly took the towel he'd used to clean herself off as well. Struggling as it seemed to just be getting everywhere. Finally, it seemed to be gone for the most part as he spoke again. Quickly she looked over to him. "R-really", she asked. Ditching the towel she rolled over next to him, laying her head on his chest to look up at him. He was so perfect to her. So worldly and wise. Elise placed her hand on his chest, gently playing with his chest hair with her fingertips. "I-I kinda thought that it wouldn't be for you", the blonde confessed in a small voice.

All Elise wanted to be, all she ever wanted to be, was perfect for him. He deserved nothing less. It was just that he'd been with other girls, ones who surely knew so much more then her. She had a hard time imagining she could really satisfy him, let alone be amazing for him. Especially on her first time. Turning her head she pressed a kiss into his chest before breathing him in, not wanting the moment to end.

[survivesqz]

the swirl of euphoria wrapped around the two of them as they lay together kissing. there was so much he wanted to say to her, to talk to her about now that this new side of them had been discovered. they felt now more aligned, totally connected then they ever had before. he was so fucking unbelievably in love with her.

holding her face in his large hands he stared down at her, his blissful smile totally contrasting with the serious look in his eyes. "fuck yes, it was the best sex i'd ever had--" and that was the truth. because for him love made all the difference. he'd never loved anyone like he loved elise. that girl had his heart first and she would have it last. "it's because i love you elise, i've never -- never had sex and been in love before. i care a lot about people, i have to to be able to be intimate with them." despite his experience, this was totally new territory for himself too.

"oh god--" he rolled his eyes at himself, covering his face with his hand. there was a pit in his stomach, the growing fear beat away at him over the realisation again, that he'd finished inside her. "i still can't believe i finished in you-- i really fucked up with that, i'm so so so sorry. i just-- i couldn't stop, that's never happened to me before." admitting that he'd lost control was arguably worse then actually losing control. in his mind the worst possible thing had happened, his mom warning him how bad it could be if he'd ever found himself in such a predicament.

[vndersons]

Cumming? Is that what it was called? What she was going? All his praise was getting to her even more, her face scrunched up hitting the very peak of pleasure. It only took a few more thrusts before he joined her. She could feel him, pulsating inside her, a feeling that surely would have pushed her over the edge if she hadn't already. Finally she opened her emerald eyes, watching the pleasure on his face and the rapid rise and fall of his gorgeous chest. Her breaths had already slowed , her heart returning to a more normal pace. Everything around her felt different. Hell, it was different. She was seeing everything as if she'd been wearing her gran's glasses the whole time. Now everything was crystal clear.

Elise giggled at his words. Surely, it couldn't have been that good for him. He'd done it a million times before, and all she'd done was just lay there. Dismissing the thought Elise brought her hands back to his face, placing one over each cheek ash she planted kiss after kiss on his lips. "Holy shit", she swore back, too enraptured in him to care still. "That was so, so, so...", her voice trialed off, a loss for words. There was this new rush she felt, one of energy. Her hands dropped from his face so she could hide her own in them. Is she could blush any deeper she would have. She wanted him. More. Or rather again.

Another giggle escaped her when she peeked through her fingers at him. Acting like some sort of giddy child that had been told no peaking. She just couldn't help it. She was on an all time endorphin high. "Can", she stopped, becoming bashful. "Can we go again?"

[survivesqz]

this was the part where his fear and anxiety of bringing life into this world overtook him. he'd never, ever finished inside a woman before, he'd always had self control, enough to stop himself and pull out before he came. but this was elise, this was the one person he'd actually ever been in love with fully, totally, with his entire heart. he had no chance at actually holding back. maybe he could learn how to, he'd have to if he wanted to keep having sex with her, which was like all he ever wanted now.

he couldn't stay in his head too long. her allure pulled him back out to experience the wave of happiness that had taken over the both of them. they were all smiles, totally enthralled with each other as foreheads touched once more. she cursed once more and again it sent a wave down his spine as he let out a soft laugh. he loved being privy to such a raw and untapped version of elise. like this was her real true self and she was only like that with him. he'd never be able to live without this, without her ever again. "not to be dramatic but i--" his smile wavered as his lips drew back in a slight grimace. "think i will literally die if we go again." the exhaustion already had him in its grips, this was only sending him over the edge. his body wouldn't handle more, no matter how much she begged.

kane finally snapping out of his mini panic attack sat back down on his heels. having released himself from her body, he searched the room for a towel, picking one up from her nearby vanity. taking a moment to wipe himself off before placing it underneath her. "here," kane was back to speaking in hushed tones, which was a stark difference compared to the levels he'd been at moments ago. "that's for -- you know. there's probably a lot, and i'm really sorry i didn't mean for that to happen but like--" panting through his words. "you're literally so sexy when you cum, i couldn't help it." he felt he was being fucking awkward now. he wasn't always sure how to talk about sex with elise since they usually tried to avoid it. the man fell into the bed beside her, there wasn't much room so his arm covered her as he pressed beside elise's naked body. letting out a sigh of massive relief before speaking again, "i've literally never cum so hard in my life, that was amazing."

[vndersons]

It was amazing to her how he felt inside her, how he could make her even wetter just being inside of her. She was kicking herself for forcing him to wait, though maybe all the waiting was what made it feel so exhilarating. Their connection. The fact that she was in love with him, that were wasn't one more person or thing that she loved more then him... Not even God.

As much as she needed to be quiet, she just couldn't. He just felt so good inside of her, filling her entirely. Elise wanted to continue to stare into Kane's beautiful brown eyes but at this point she was feeling too much pleasure to focus on anything other then the feeling. With his hand now over her mouth she moaned even louder, gasping as he picked up the pace. She was lost to everything except him. Her hand started to pull at his hair, really pull. She was loosing it under his touch, every thrust shaking her so violently she could feel her breasts bounce. Which gave her another sensation of pleasure.

All she could hear now was her own heart bounding in her ears. Not even her own sounds of pleasure registering. "Kane", she called out with every thrust he gave her. "Kane. Kane." But he kept going. By now her chest was rising and falling with every movement he made. She could feel herself clenching muscles she didn't even know she had control over, his cock suddenly feeling bigger and harder. "God, Kane."

Her nails dug into the flesh of his back as she cried out to him beneath his hand, not being able to control one bit of herself. A wave of euphoria started washing over her, both clearing her head and fogging it at the same time. It making her tremble and legs shake. What was happening to her? Curling her toes, Elise pushed her head back into the bed, arching into him as much as she could.

[survivesqz]

"oh fuck" -- the words were forced from his lips with his breath as she pulled on his hair. there was nothing more exciting or more fulfilling for him then watching elise right now. the way her eyes had rolled into the back of her head and her lips opened further to allow herself to fully vocalise every deep intensity and wave of pleasure she was experiencing. he couldn't help it, his hand had slipped from her mouth and now rested on her chest at her collar bone. holding her beneath him as he continued to thrust into her. kane knew she was close to cumming, he just needed to keep his pace steady, fucking her with the same passion he'd kept up for a while now.

the closer she got, the more self control he needed to make it through. it was all the pleasure she was experiencing because of him. his cock was making her moan and pant in desperate desire, that was the most exhilarating part for kane. and so as he edged her closer and closer to climax, he could feel that same tension building up deep within himself. but he needed to stop it, to quell the pleasure somehow. controlling himself was the only chance, he didn't want to risk letting go, not yet, not whilst he was still inside her.

then it happened. her chest heaving now with deep and staggered breaths. elise's voice was low and longing, but also full of surprise as he spoke his name. kane, kane, god kane. he nodded in anticipation, "come on baby, cum for me--" his voice low and sensual as he spoke through broken breaths. "cum for me baby, good girl." and she was deep in the depths of her climax, and he felt the grip of her body tighten around the base of his cock. he knew exactly what she needed in this moment, more. he fell into her, using his body weight to thrust harder and faster into her pussy than he did before. kane watched her closely as she enjoyed the bliss of ecstasy he was giving her. that tension of pleasure continuing to build and build within him as she thrashed beneath him.

he was getting too close to the edge, playing such a dangerous game he had no chance at winning. it was impossible for him to stop, if he did he risked her missing out on experiencing the full extent of her pleasure. he wasn't about to let that happen. but he was really too far gone to have any control left. "oh fuck elise," kane repeated his words, unable to hold on any longer. "i-i'm gonna fucking cum," he was barely able to articulate what was happening to him before kane moaned in pleasure once more. squeezing his eyes shut, the lust had taken over and he felt his body somehow move faster into her. nothing in his life had ever felt as good as this moment now, with elise.

seconds later, his body slowed into deep heavy pants to bring air back into his lungs. his mind slowly regained clarity, eyes opening to look down at the love of his life. though he was afraid to move, he wasn't sure he wanted to face the fact that he'd just orgasmed inside her. "holy shit," was all he managed to whisper.

[survivesqz]

𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝟎𝟎𝟏. 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝 | 𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎… 𝚛𝚒𝚊 𝚔𝚊𝚑𝚗

❛ — my love for science doesn't preclude my faith

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[vndersons]

Her chest lifted, a smile forming onto her red lips. She knew he would accommodate her, there was no doubt in her mind. Still, it was reassuring to hear him say it out loud. Wrapping her arms around Kane's neck, Elise lifted her shoulders so she could reach him, nuzzling her face into the crook of his neck to place soft kisses. She didn't want to show him it was still hurting ever so slightly as he moved in and out of her.

The slower pace was helping, with every gentile thrust it began to hurt less and less. Something she was thanking God for. Elise began focusing on the feeling of him inside her over the pain as it faded away. How his dick was filling her more then she thought she could take. How he rubbed against one spot in particular better then his fingers ever could. "Fuck", she moaned out letting her head hit the bed again, uttering that word for the second time in her life. It was the only way she could describe this feeling as.

His lips meeting hers again, the blonde kissed him hungrily loving when he moaned into her mouth. By this time every bit of pain she had been feeling was trumped by desire. By the warmth that swelled inside of her. More. She needed more of him so she opened her eyes back into his, locked in them. As if he could read her mind she felt him pick up his pace, making her gasp arch beneath him. In this moment was where she wanted to live, the two of them intertwined as one. Feeling him move harder into her, Elise moaned out his name too wrapped up in herself to care who heard. It was his hands, they were gripping onto her hip again, and she fucking loved the feeling.

The faster he moved the louder she became,. It was so much better then his mouth had been, making her head spin even faster then it had before. Hearing him call out to her, declare his love for her, how she felt, she wanted to do the same. "God, Kane", she moaned again. "I love you." She slid one of her hands into his hair, gripping it tightly to keep herself anchored there. "Faster. I want faster."

[survivesqz]

there she went again, causing his head to spin every single time she muttered the word 'fuck' -- it was intoxicating for him. it was becoming an achievement, really. kane was the one finding these new parts of elise he had no idea existed until now. this side of her that was sexual, the side of her that felt lust and craved him and his cock. it only made his love for her deepen, just as his body pushed itself deep inside her pussy once more.

through the sound of her voice and her moans, she had such a tight grip on him. he loved this feeling, the feeling of being the one to give elise all this pleasure, to be the reason she arches her back and begs for more, begs for him to fuck her faster. elise's voice called out to him for more, and kane delivered. without a word his hand moved to hold her leg up, finding now the back of her thigh. with more space now, he was able to push his hips into her faster and harder. before, he had been so gentle, and it was nice -- making love to her, being so close to her in this way for the first time. but there was so much more want, so much more need, and so much more desire the two of them had for one another. kane didn't just want to make love to elise, he wanted to fuck her. he wanted to be the one fulfilling all her deepest desires. he needed to be the one who made her feel so fucking good, he wasn't going to stop until she finished, until she was cumming for him.

kane's moans were baritone and much more spread out compared to elise. his body produced slow, deep and rich sounds of pleasure while hers were quickened gasps and song like melodies he knew would travel through the thin walls. only now, he was brought back down to reality for a split second. the sounds of her gasps and moans had grown the more he fucked her. but of course, they weren't alone. he didn't care who else heard them, they were in love and no one else mattered. but the last thing he needed right now was to be caught by her gran. "lise -- babe please, you're gonna have to be a bit quieter," he pleaded with her but he didn't slow down one bit. maybe she didn't hear him, maybe she didn't care. she was still moaning, letting out soft yells as kane fucked her with his hard cock.

he had no other choice, he had to control her somehow. but there was no way he was going to stop, he'd come too far. leaning back slightly he balanced himself over her, thrusting now from an upright position. his hand remained holding her in thigh in place, his right palm moving to find her lips. kane covered her mouth to muffle the sounds of her pleasure, his hand following her lips as her back arched once more. part of kane hated having to do this, he wanted to hear all her moans, gasps and screams of pleasure. another part of him almost enjoyed seeing her under his hand like that. she was so out of control he had no other choice but to hold her in place to stop them from getting caught as he fucked her.

[vndersons]

Fuck yes. Elise breathed a sigh of relief, not sure if she could physically go on being teased any longer. All she needed was to feel him inside of her. If she didn't she'd go insane. Leaning up onto her elbows she watched as he slowly pulled his hard cock out of his boxers. She'd seen a preview through his boxers before, but nothing could prepare her for seeing him in full glory. There was part of her that was now finding the task daunting, fitting him inside of her. The other part trusted him entirely. If she needed to stop, he would stop. If she needed it slower, he'd go slower. She was sure of it.

Laying back her green eyes locked onto his chocolate hued ones, and all of a sudden she found herself lost in him once more. God how she wanted him. Missed him. It was like they were making up for all that time apart in this moment and her heart ached for him. The closer and closer he got, the more her belly swirled with desire for him. His hand on her thigh only making it worse. Finally, now that his tongue was no longer pressed to her center she could think clear enough to reach for him, not her blanket.

Elise cupped Kane's jaw in her hands while he kissed her again. Deepening it as he positioned himself over her. Then he entered her. There was a loud gasp feeling his length slowly slide into her and she snapped her eyes shut. It stung, more then she expected, as he stretched her to fit himself. Still Elise kissed him through the pain, not wanting him to stop. They'd already some so far. The first few movements were far from comfortable, but as the head of his cock rubbed against the same spot his fingers had the pain began fading away.

Once again she opened bambi eyes into his. Letting out the breath she didn't know she was holding Elise searched for words. "I-", she began not knowing how to answer his question. "Can, can you go slow", she asked not wanting to tell him of the discomfort.

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kane bit down on his lip again. he was still as he could be while he watched her so closely in those first few seconds after he spoke. he was trying so hard to make this as easy as he could for her, but he could tell that just wasn't possible yet. that it was going to take time until her body had gotten used to taking all of his cock. he hated the thought that he could be doing something which felt so insanely pleasurable to him, which was actually hurting elise. shaking those thoughts from his mind so that he could focus back on what mattered most to him -- her. kane nodded tentatively to her request, speaking in a hushed tone -- "y-yeah, of course we can go slow, baby."

right now it was about self control, being able to remain steady and not get too carried away. which was going to be difficult for him, he'd only just pushed his hard cock inside her and already the waves of pleasure washing over him, drawing him in deeper to her. he could tell the time he'd spent paying attention to elise and focusing on her pleasure with his tongue had worked in his favour. elise's whole body was perfect, but especially the inside of her pussy. she was soft, and wet, and tight around his hard cock that throbbed inside her. each he felt his lust for her begging him to go deeper and deeper into her.

leaning down into her once again, their lips brushed against one another, foreheads touching -- it helped to kiss her. kane was so thoughtful in the way his body moved against hers. hips swaying back gently as he felt his cock move inside her, pleasure flowing through him like a wave. and he could hardly control the soft moan that fell from his lips against her kiss. he kept up that soft and gentle pace for a few more thrusts, holding himself deep inside of her every time, allowing her to get used to how his whole length filled her, stretched her. it was only the slightest of movements, their bodies connected to one another, kane inside of elise. the deepest kind of intimacy between them. but still his body begged for more.

in a way, he was too far gone to think straight. his mind was now totally lost to the overwhelming pleasure he felt as a result of her. no on else existed anymore, it was just elise and him. their eyes were locked on to one another as he entered her body once more. his cock now sliding into her, ever so slightly faster. a little bit of added pressure accompanied his thrust as his hands searched along the side of her body. kane found the soft curvature of her hip as he pulled himself back out of her pussy, another deep moan vibrated from his chest as he did so. gripping onto her side with desperation, his pace continued to quicken. "fuck--" he muttered under his breath. any sense of control over his actions was slowly washing away from him. he was now moving against her in a way that felt completely uninhibited. kane's breath began to rush, his hard cock now thrusting inside her as he whispered to her between sharp inhales, "i love you -- i love being inside you, you feel so fucking amazing."

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Elise threw her head back the moment Kane's tongue began to wander her. She couldn't the soft moans that floated from her lips as he worked her over. Never would she have imagined having him between her legs could feel so enthralling. If this was what sin really felt like, she could finally understand why people would run to it with arms open. Welcome it back in again and again. But with how the two felt for each other, it couldn't truly been sin. There was too much love there for this to be wrong.

His grip on her thighs gave her even more pleasure then he probably knew, the feeling of his large hands holding her so tightly, the pressure they were putting on her. That and now his attention focused on her button. The blonde arched her back, hands digging deeper into her blanket as she began shaking . By now there was no going back. Her eyes were squeezed shut, lost in the feeling Kane was giving her. But somehow she wanted more. No, no, she needed more. She still wanted something inside of her. And as if he read her mind she felt him slide his finger inside of her wetness. "Oh my God", she called out too loudly, unable to control herself at this moment. The movements he was doing, the spot he was hitting, it wade her head spin.

His words were the only thing that registered besides pleasure in the moment. Beautiful, he thought she was beautiful. All he was doing was feeding the desire that was inside her. The trough heavily labored breaths, she opened her bright green eyes to look down at him. "Please", she begged again. "Kane, fuck me."

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he could have grinned in amusement with himself for getting her so close. kane was able to tell from the flush of her rosey cheeks and the way her breathing wavered and deepened, or by the way her hands had a firm grip on the bed beneath her. and it was all because of him. then she said it -- kane, fuck me -- those words rang out in his mind. it was the one thing she could have said to make him go and lose his head in this moment. and she did it. kane wanted to remember her saying those words to him for the rest of his life. as much as he'd loved hearing the words 'i love you' from her lips for the very first time, this was somehow different. these words had elicited something deep within him. he really loved hearing her beg for him, and he hoped so badly that he wouldn't have to forget how beautiful and sexy she sounded doing so.

kane knew in that moment how serious it was to her, how badly she wanted him to fuck her. elise never said the word fuck, at least not that kane had heard. so this was it, there was no coming back from this for him. he'd never felt so sure about anything in his life as he did right now. kane had to be close to her, but not just like close, he had to be as close as possible, he had to be inside her. his manhood had stayed hard this entire time, and he throbbed with anticipation. "fuck yes," was the only thing kane managed to let escape his lips before he was pushing himself up off of her.

quickly, he pulled at the waistband of his boxers, inching it further down to reveal more of himself. he hoped that was all she needed to be ready for his length, but they were about to find out. the underwear fell from his ankles as he climbed back on the bed. each hand fell beside her shoulder, kane propping himself up to hover above her. he positioned himself between her thighs, not pushing too close to her, knowing that he might poke her if he wasn't careful.

he looked deep into her eyes, connecting with her in such a raw moment of intimacy. they were ready, finally after so long, so much waiting, he was about to experience the one thing elise guarded so closely to her heart -- her virginity. those rose bruised lips of his came down to softly press into hers once more, kissing her passionately whilst his bringing his hand down to her thigh. holding her long, porcelain leg up to give him more space to fall deeper into her. kane felt himself press up against the outer edges of her centre again. his thighs pressed up against hers, his tip moving closer to her opening, their eyes remained locked in this moment. as his hips pushed further down, kane's cock inching deeper into the softness of her pussy. his chest expanding rapidly as he inhaled deeply, feeling the rush of pleasure radiate over him from his lower body. he made sure to keep a steady pace, watching elise closely to make sure she wasn't in any kind of pain or discomfort. "how do i feel?" he whispered in her ear softly, hoping to get some cues on whether or not he could keep going.

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Watching him watching her was nerve wracking along with the silence. There were so many ups and paused tonight she was going crazy. Her sea foam green hues watched his face as he looked over her body. Softly, Elise took her hand bringing it to his lush lips that were only more blushed from his teeth. She ran her finger along them, needing to have their perfect shape against part of her body, even if it was just her fingers.

She could have pouted when he spoke. How much working up did she need? How much more was there? But she trusted him. Trusted whatever path he wanted to take with her. Still, she wanted him to expedite the journey he was talking of. He moved further from her lips and she yearned to kiss him, but when he began to kiss her she started to skin back further into the bed. Kane's lips were little pieces of heaven right here on earth. Sent from God just for her to enjoy. She could feel him begin to touch her through the only piece of fabric, a little bit of pink lace, between them. It was a knee jerk reaction to moan and arch her back. She was going crazy with all this teasing and it was clearly visible.

Then suddenly her underwear were going, slowly trailing down her legs along with Kane's hands. Gently Elise helped them along, flicking them off her foot so she was now completely naked, completely his, below him. There was still some concerns in the back of her head she couldn't quite shake. She wasn't so naïve that she didn't know how some women took care of themselves. Well, actually, she didn't know how. She just knew they did. And truth be told she was lucky her mother taught her to shave her legs and underarms before well... It made her all too self conscious of herself, wondering what Kane was used to. All she wanted was to be perfect for him, to not have one part wishing remotely that something was different.

Taste. Taste? There was a part of her that was confused, wondering how could his mouth satisfy the burning desire she had to feel him inside her. But like his lips had when they were on her breast, they elicited quite the response from her. A loud gasp came out of the blonde, feeling him along the edges of her center. The anticipation was killing her. She wanted to know, needed to know what he was going to do to her. Stretching her arms out at her sides, Elise bunched up her fists in her comforter. "Kane", she moaned, her tone pleading. "I need you. Please, honey."

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to hear her beg for him softly, tell him how badly she needed him, it caused his heart to skip beats and for the hunger inside him to grow deeper. which he wasn't even aware was possible. he finally knew she really meant it, she was truly ready for this level of intimacy between them the way he had been for so long. he'd dreamt about this night more than he felt he could ever admit. kane's arm wrapped around the outer edge of her thigh, his oversized palm finding her lower belly to rest on. the feeling of her body beneath his hand excited him, he loved the softness and curvature of her. and after so many years spent stealing stares of her gorgeous figure in all those flowy sun dresses elise loved so much, to finally be here with his head between her thighs, he'd felt he finally found heaven.

with her permission granted, kane felt comfortable taking his actions further. he was so eager to please elise, so eager to make her feel everything she'd been missing out on for all those years. the hand that rested on her stomach now inched down further to hold her body in place, making it easier for kane to find all the most sensitive parts of her. his mouth hovered over her for a few seconds, lingering before finally, kane's tongue brushed as gently as possible along her pussy. licking down and up, making sure to keep his tongue still and flat -- letting his head do all the work so he wouldn't tire out too quickly.

kane knew the ebbs and flows that came with pleasuring a woman. after spending enough time exploring what felt good for her, how light or heavy to press himself into her and having tasted every part of her body, he settled on her clit. soft, red tinted lips followed up to cover her as his tongue moved side to side, finding exactly what would bring her total pleasure and bliss. his free hand had moved from his chest now held her thigh and ass, grasping at her with so much want and need and desire. it wasn't long before he moved to press his forefinger inside of her softly; angling up and moving toward himself as he searched for all the right places. his mouth and hands now working together to bring her euphoria.

finally, taking pause from all the work he'd been doing to make her come, he couldn't help but utter the words -- "lise, you're so beautiful," loud enough she'd hear it through the rise and fall of her breathing. elise was the best drug, the best high he'd ever had.

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closed starter for: @misslutyens

"shit" kane mumbled under his breath before dropping the plank of wood he held in his grasp. he'd been doing some work in alana's garden, illegal work in her illegal garden but work nonetheless. turning to face the brunette before speaking again, "okay so i really wasn't expecting you to show up like right now, obviously. and i was hoping to be finished before you saw it but," he gestured toward the half finished row of planters he'd been building. "if we get some height on some of this stuff i figured we could make a pressurised irrigation system and it would work to save water if we had the planters stacked -- y'know?" looking back to her, his smile reforming on his lips in the hopes that his next offer would really help soften the blow of however she was gonna react to kane's work. "but -- i also come bearing gifts."