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Episode 2: “The queen stays queen for another day.” - Sherry

So I ended up cutting Nehe because I felt like I gained more from him going than from him staying. I know I'm almost 100% to blame for his elimination and although my dark side is loving it, I still feel bad....I view myself as a snarky hero not some heartless villain...I wish we had just won immunity ugh. But I cut him and that's the name of this season - cut or be cut. I just have to get used to the feeling - maybe I can take some tips from Matt???

Now that the first vote is over, I can get a sense of who all trusts me. I think Zack is thankful I didn't flip but he still doesn't trust me which was to be expected. Dustin seems to trust me but I think he might not be telling me the whole truth just yet - I'm starting to be skeptical that Seamus is lying about his vote....Amir seems to trust me too but I feel like he could be threatened by me? I dont think he'll come after me anytime soon but his tone kinda changed towards me when we talked game - he didn't realize how much of a role I would play I presume....for now, I hope a swap happens and I can go more UTR. I was a bit chaotic with this last round and I want to dive back down underwater for a while to disappear from any potential bulls eyes on my back!

THIS WENT PERFECTLY. I set up Ali and Sherry going against eachother even though I was the only one going against both of them. I eliminated an idol, kept my trust with everyone but Sherry, and got rid of my target of Ali. I wish Ali were here but this is a great scenario as well.

15 minutes later

Tribe swap and I'm so happy. We are nu YANGBYE which is the best tribe name around. I love these people but I'd also love to say "yangbye!" to them one by one.

Crow - Oh my god I get to work with chaos crow <3

Jaiden - I don't understand Jaiden but I want to work closely with him

Dom - YES it's my pal from whatever our starting tribe was

Zack - I quite like Zach but I don't trust him.

Liana - She doesn't talk to me very much.

I'd like to keep Jaiden Crow and Dom around. The other two are threats and they're not on my side.

Wooooo okay so post tribal council and I survived!!! Nehe was great and a nice person but Seamus was in his ear and Nehe was going around saying that Zack and I are a final 2 and in the end I couldn't have him here anymore and my target ended up leaving so hehehohohahha

Okay now I gotta focus purely on social bonds because our tribe dynamic is weird as fuck. us 4 voted together to outvote nehe and Seamus...but now its just us 4 lmao which means if we go to tribal then kumbaya time is gonna be over and someone gotta go. My plan? Turn crow and zack against each other. Crow was the most hesitant to keep zack and zack has thrown crows name out there in the past

But other than that I fucking love Zack and I really didn't think I was going to during this game but if people are saying we're close friends when were not, we might as well align. Crow is still my husband, he's a lil sketchy but still my husband. Dustin is the only sane person here newfkj and I'm glad he's here and best case scenario is we don't lose the challenge and I get to keep my gays a little longer in the game.

Current people I still want gone in order: SEAMUS, LIANA, stevie, ali, tommy

This first tribal was interesting!! Winning the challenge I chose a tribe to go to and I got to vote with them but I was immune, such an interesting twist. It seemed like the tribe wanted to go for Sherry, which I did not really want. I end up talking to Sherry and she told me about the idol and that she was using it so to keep up appearances I voted for Sherry to vote in the majority, knowing what she was gonna do. Hopefully she isn't mad about that. Now Im on this new tribe and I have my old tribe as the majority so im feeling pretty good about this current position and hopefully nothing happens to ruin that just yet.

I MADE FINAL 18! We just swapped tribes to 3 tribes of 6 and now I left my Yangbye tribe and joined the New Sagu tribe with Cole, Stevie, and Abel who were on my original Yangbye tribe and Dustin from Magyi and Sid from Sagu. We made an original Yangbye alliance chat however, I don't know how loyal the people in that chat will be especially a guy named cole. For whatever reason I'm getting a strong vibe that cole doesn't like me or want me in the game long term so I'd be so down to get him out... I think he will be a threat however I also don't wanna just betray this new alliance but I don't wanna play dumb. I like Dustin and Sid to an extent, I'm not sure how much I can really trust either... For right now the two people I'm most trustful of on my tribe are Stevie and Abel, as for the rest of them I have no idea where their heads are at in terms on strategy of the game. I hope we just keep winning immunity, I really really don't want to go to tribal, I feel even less secure on this tribe than I did on my last one.

Ok, so the first two tribals that have happened pretty much didn't effect my game at all! I barely talked to either Nehe or Ali so I'm glad they are gone. They were nice but I didn't see anything in them. I feel like my lip sync will be good enough to get my tribe to winning this Immunity, I just hope we find someone who can edit because I have no idea how to edit at all. If we do end up going to tribal I should be fine as I made a alliance with the original Yangbye tribe! Also omg at sherry snatching everyone's wig with that first tribal idol.... My mouth is still open.

Anyways why was cole willing to let sid edit the video and willingly give him the power to be the first one with the finished product so sid can submit and get the idol clue when sid is on the bottom? He’s only fussing about it right now in the tribe chat bc i just pointed it out to him in pms. Like ik cole’s not stupid so i strongly doubt he would make such a dumbass mistake. Shady ass bitch.

[7/7/17, 8:40:47 PM] Abel:

[7/7/17, 7:27:03 PM] Abel: sis are we really gonna let sid get the idol clue [7/7/17, 7:28:08 PM] Cole™: I'm gonna try and get it

[7/7/17, 7:28:21 PM] Abel: whoever submits it gets it

[7/7/17, 7:28:38 PM] Abel: and if he’s editing it’ll probably be him

[7/7/17, 7:31:23 PM] Cole™: But like I did the most work

[7/7/17, 7:31:52 PM] Abel: one of us needs to submit it then

[7/7/17, 7:32:17 PM] Abel: like i would share the clue with you obviously but yeah its just easier for you to submit it

[7/7/17, 7:32:30 PM] Abel: and sid has the power if he’s making the final product

[7/7/17, 7:33:43 PM] Cole™: True, I would share it too

I have an okay relationship with dustin. Tommy i still trust. Stevie eh mostly. I would love to just coast on tribal lines/challenge dominance for a bit. Sid is the only person i have no relationship with and I’m not really interested in trying to make one like i’d rather just vote him out lmao. Like i said hi and how are you to him already and it was just so exhausting idk i don’t have the energy to fake another friendship rn. We’ll see where my paranoia with cole takes me.

I am upset that I'm separated from Crow Zack and Dustin and I'm also really upset that I haven't been on a tribe with Cole Sid Or Bodhi but on the bright side, I have sherry and I have rob. I have enough people I won't die at least.

ZACK IS MY SON AND I WILL PROTECT HIM.

hi it's me again hehetehe.

lemme just talk about last round bc im still a lil FUCKED up. bc some people got me FUCKED up.

Seamus is an ugly dirty little rat and if he really thought he would pull a fast one on ME.. he was SURELY mistaken. he can go back to fucking his cousin and eating his hay. he literally looks like he eats hay. like.. you're not gonna just try to get me out and think i'm not gonna say something.. and now he wants to come and apologize and act all innocent like bitch, please, save that shit.

anyways... i like my new tribe? like i'm not completely fucked here. i miss dustin and amir tho :( literally dustin and amir are my hunts like they really put there ass out there to help me and i appreciate that so much. i got their backs in this game. i hope me abel dustin and amir can all make merge and run this shit to the end.

ps- fuck seamus.

Really? REALLY? I'm used to being on elite tribes not amateur ones.....so after the tribe swap I wind up on the worst of the 3 tribes with people who seem to either be shy or just incredibly nonchalant. Liana just spoke like, today - Zack is still Zack and Dommy is sorta like that team member who's all talk and no game at this point...and Jaiden is just an ugly troll. The only thing that could have made it worse would have been seeing Matt on my tribe so I guess thanks for not doing that to me....

Like I understand we all have busy lives and this isn't an easy comp but I've been sitting in Iceland halfway across the globe with internet lag and cut-out quite often but I was willing to put time into this comp for my piece of it (I was legit going to do my lip sync in a RV bathroom - how iconic is that?)

But INSTEAD someone mysteriously submitted a dumb pre-made video to the blog (which is no "accident") which basically means we lose even though we never started.

And Jaiden, I know it was you. I can't tell if it's out of complete stupidity or mischief, but either way, you're in hot water sir.

Ugh, can we swap again? Pls? I can't do this constant losing thing it's bad for my ego.

Alrighty so there was no doubt I was going to get kicked off of my tribe before the swap. Luke, Jaiden, Sid, and Seamus? Jaiden randomly hates me (and my husband), and Seamus probably wants revenge for Zootopia, Luke is impossible to talk to. The only person I liked game-wise was Sid because he's really easy to get along with and I feel like I can actually trust him and he won't cut me, so to speak.

In order to try to rectify this, I figured I could gain trust with Seamus by starting an idol searching brigade, so I told him where I searched. He could easily lie about this and probably did but it's whatever, I'm trying (reasoning on this later). I tried to clear the air with Jaiden and we talked things out and I tried to find common ground with him (idk if it worked or not).

Seamus talked to me about me and him and Sid working together. Ever since the tribe swap I haven't heard from them so I guess that's dead.

I trust Stevie the most overall. I've been telling him my thoughts (lol contact him for confessionals). Stevie was actually my first ally in my first game so I like him a lot (he taught me how to be cutthroat). He told me about his and Seamus' idol clues, and how Seamus would probably lie about it (hence the earlier reasoning). He said that the clue said the number is the same on a clock (i.e. 1-12) but Seamus would probably say the opposite. Seamus has actually said nothing so anyway I continue to not trust Seamus.

The other tribe was ugly for trying to vote out my fellow woman.

wow so um... cole and sid are targets more info tomorrow

I think I'm good with my whole tribe. I trust mearl completely. I love rob and sherry the most. I don't think they'll vote me out. I don't fucking care about this challenge but I have to act like I do. I actually was willing to stay up all night and do the work and commit my night for it but I can't put in effort if no one else will. Yesterday when I tried to bring it up no one cared. I'm really drunk. Also um Seamus and I worked out our differences but like I'd still vote him out. Luke and I promised to work together but I'd still vote him out. I'll vote anyone out I don't give a fuck. Also Crow has been ignoring me for like all day. So it's clear he's only social when you're on a tribe with him, same with Dustin. I think I've decided I'm most loyal to Cole and rob in this game and maybe Sid and zack.

One minute later:

I AM GOING TO DESTROY EVERYONE

I WANT THEM ALL DEAD

I WILL END THEM

Jaiden accidentally threw the challenge for our tribe. THANK GOD. Now I don't have to do it. Sherry and Jaiden both fucked up for the tribe and the target is off of me. At tribal I'm going to be targeting Liana or Zack. Probably Liana. I have Jaiden and Dom with me 100% for now, and crow is probably gonna be smart and vote with the majority. Liana doesn't talk to me so she doesn't need to be here. Simple as that. Zack doesn't talk to me much either, but Amir likes him, and I think crow does too. Zack can go next time.

I don't even know what's happening with this challenge. I think I lost it by accident for everyone but they're all causing unnecessary chaos around camp so I need to just sit down and shut up. Tomorrow one of us will be voted out I'm assuming, so I'll do whatever it takes to make sure it's Liana or Crow and not me. As it stands in the game right now, I've been able to go on private calls with Seamus, Bodhi, Dom, and Tommy. I'd say those four are my closest friends and allies at this point (but I don't want to speak too soon since the game has only just begun). I still need to work on getting into good graces with the rest of the players I wanna work with this season, so we'll see how successful I am with that. Also, I think I've formed an alliance with Bodhi and Dom. Like I said from the get-go, I won't take this alliance too seriously because I know that they can kiss my ass in calls and PMs but still say only bad things about me in confessionals. I'll trust them only as far as I can throw them and see how things go if we do end up going to tribal. I think this swap worked out pretty well in my favor and I couldn't be happier with how it turned out.

So before I came back to orgs this year the last ones I played were 2014/early 2015 and in those games I managed to go really far by doing the least and I feel like that’s what Cole remembers me as and I feel like he views me as a potential drag-along ally, one that he can always go back to as he makes shady deals with everyone else. What he doesn’t realize though is that I’m that bitch with the pristine memory and know he wins/goes far in so many of his games and knows that he’s been active all these years and knows everyone. Whether or not he actually is working with Sid, I just know he has a lot of connections in a lot of different places and in a one world season it would just be stupid to let someone like that reach a point where he can connect with others and fuck things up for everyone. ALSO SIS HAS THE NERVE TO BE A FLAMING FAGGOT IN EVERY CHAT AND CALL BUT WHEN HE GETS TO MY PMS HE SUDDENLY TURNS INTO BRITNEY’S MIC FEED! I spoke to Tommy last night and he’s on the same page and I don’t think it should be hard to get others on board…if we choose to do so bc I still don’t have any use for Sid at all whatsoever lmao.

Dearest Liana, Please speak to me. I'd like to not have an easy tribal! I adore going to tribal council, but you are making this too easy for me. With love, Bodhi.

I don't believe I've ever touched on WHY I throw so many challenges. The answer is simple. Tribal council is a wonderful group bonding excersize. If you can go into the merge with a group of 2-4 people, you'll have some people with as much trust as you can manage. There's another big facet to this, being that tribes that don't go to tribal council have a lot of time to stir up feelings of wanting other people out. People on cutthroat are going to be so willing to flip on their tribes it's not even funny. These people almost all feel like they have something to prove, and if you can just give them time to get bored, they'll be making big moves at the merge like no ones business. Tribal loyalty will not exist in that much of a sense on this season. One of the biggest advantages of having a tribe swap from 4 tribes this early is that there isn't the whole "day one alliance" that can sometimes unify a tribe. Everyone is on a tribe with someone that they want out of the game, and once those people get their ways, there will be new people who want revenge. Ideally, there will be one more swap, and neither of these first two sets of tribes will matter to anyone except for me and whoever I'm loyal too. I'm making ties with folks on the other side so that when we swap again I won't need to scramble or anything. I'll just need to sit back and watch people take each other out.

Well after that challenge fiasco, I still have little hope of winning immunity.....however at least we are submitting something semi-legitimate? I just really really don't wanna go to tribal again so soon....especially with so many quiet/shady characters. We have a solid idea in my opinion but it'll be a swing or miss sort of idea. As far as my tribe.....Zack says he's on my side and loyal to me til the end but A) He hardly talks to me on his own B) This is fucking Cutthroat Island Bodhi and I are supposed to be close but he's smart and tricky so I don't really trust him... Jaiden is a known troll but somehow one of the people I like?? (why do i find myself closer to trolls than norms..*ahem* Kyle) Liana is a fucking ghost. This girl just appears in the main chat once a millennium, hardly replies to pms, and doesn't even seem to care?? If we were to lose, my money would be on her leaving. Bodhi already suggested it to me actually.... Dommy is the chillest of them all and maybe will be someone I can use? But I don't know if he's closer to myself or Bodhi, which will be crucial down the line... Or maybe this tribe's flops are part of some mastermind machination to blindside me pre-merge. I don't even know at this point. My strategy pre-merge (considering GL pre-merge was....non-existent for me...) is to build as many bonds as strong as I can and go with the flow. Big moves that make your target bigger are p.o.i.n.t.l.e.s.s until at least jury! No one in finale talks about "yea that second vote where I flipped" cuz its so far in the past! The #1 goal should be survival - not control. Plus, the more targets that make merge, the better for me. Let the elite make it to merge and let the bloodbath begin while I fly through the underworld completely invisible to the finale <3 :D

And we're back! After Sherry pulling off a beautiful idol play round 1, I have a new vigor for this game! Amir survived his tribal as well! Things are looking good, everyone. But wait! I spoke too soon. Satan himself announced a FUCKING TRIBE SWAP. Okay, calm down, Sid. Now you have a chance to be with Sherry or Amir, right? Wrong. Austin's fucking Sorting Hat rip-off kept me on Sagu while Sherry and Amir are living it up on Magyi and Liana is stuck on Yangbye. What's worse, Nu Sagu is a 4 Yangbye, 1 Magyi, 1 Sagu split. WHAT STARS HAD TO ALIGN TO MAKE SURE I GET SWAP FUCKED IN EVERY GAME? I DON'T EVEN HAVE AN IDOL. (Speaking of, Sherry told me the clue Stevie got. Apparently the Idol is under 12 and Sherry found her's at 11. But, now I don't know why Stevie is giving out clues unless he found one. Hm.) But whatever. I'm screwed on Nu Sagu because Stevie is an egomaniac who I'm pretty sure wants me out, and I don't know who these other 4 are. Tommy said he'd work with me, but how much do I trust him? Or like even like him? Minimal. My only hope rests in this challenge, so I stepped up to edit our lipsync (And I think it can win us this challenge!). Also, the submitter of the winning tribe gets an idol clue! DOPE! Since I'm editing, I should be able to submit. Apparently not. Cole asks in the tribe chat if he could submit because he wants the clue. THE FUCK? NO I THINK THE FUCK NOT. I've been editing for hours, and all you had to do was twerk on camera for 3 minutes. And I doubt Cole is really a stranger to that, whereas I had to learn Movie Maker for this fuck-up of a tribe. So I said "yah sure" because I'm in a clear minority, but I have a plan. Even though I finished the video hours before the deadline, I'll pretend like I'm rushing to finish it. And in my rush, I submitted it on accident! I'm sure he'll see through my plans, but I'll have 2 idol clues, AND I think we'll have immunity with my video. Right now, I think working with Tommy or Abel is my best shot to survive if we go to tribal... ALSO P.S. Sherry, Amir and I have finalized our alliance. It's called "THREEVIL" (Three + Evil) and it is so fucking awesome! I love these two with all my heart. <3 <3 <3

This is some bullshit. I'm not about to do this challenge solo and still lose. Why did crow make a big fucking deal about it? We could've gotten a DECENT score on this shit and at least I submitted something???? Even fucking dom who is online all the fucking time isn't here to do shit

if Me getting that ottn5 edit this episode huh. I'll really go off at tribal council when the time comes because we're clearly losing.

Everyone the past few days:

https://68.media.tumblr.com/0590f2ef9171d9c120daa59db8f36233/tumblr_inline_oj6u3b7XBj1snhjdw_500.gif Me: Hey we should probably do this challenge!

Everyone: https://img.buzzfeed.com/buzzfeed-static/static/2014-09/22/14/enhanced/webdr10/anigif_enhanced-11075-1411411562-9.gif Me: Guess I'm doing this on my own...

This is what I've come up with so far! Everyone @ me because apparently it sucks: https://media.tenor.com/images/72c91bf233275e5da4c66dae418829e2/tenor.gif

Me, internally: http://68.media.tumblr.com/baebe363529713f2fdee2b9047d27d47/tumblr_osadyruIyd1rt5ctno1_250.gif ... Me tomorrow night after we lose this challenge and they unanimously vote me out: http://wwwimage.cbsstatic.com/thumbnails/photos/files/asset/10/00/35/45/bronte-big-brother-eviction.gif

Day 7 Confessional 4: Ugh okay so lots of tea to spill. So i voted in the minority on the special tribal and Nehe left which like doesn’t matter much. But then we immediately tribe swap and my new tribe is amir luke mearl rob sherry and myself. Amir immediately approaches me and tells me he is angry that i was telling Nehe that he and Zack were a final 2 which never happened. I finally convinced him that it wasn’t true and now we are golden and Zack and I half made up too. But basically from the moment i got onto this tribe i started desiring another tribe swap because our tribe literally sucks. Like besides Mearl Rob and myself they literally fucking suck. Sherry is so busy irl, Luke is MIA and im not surprised, and Amir has family issues going on. I kinda hope we lose this challenge so we can send either Luke or Sherry home, then we will have a better chance going forward as a tribe…. Also the winning tribe gets a idol clue and I think I am going to approach them with an offer that I will share mine (I’ll lie about what is says) if they share theirs! But yah as of now I am kinda hoping we lose so we can cut some loser out of this damn game.

So there was a tribe swap. Yippeee. No, not really. My whole original tribe ends up sticking together but of course I get separated. Thats alright, just means I'm going to make more connections I can use later down the line. Change is a positive thing right? Wrong. My tribe sucks ass. And I don't like sucking ass. If you do then think of whatever unpleasantry you wish instead. First impressions- Luke- Ugh. I voted him out five times in a row in GL. I have a feeling he isn't exactly going to trust me. I tried to strengthen a bond but it seems so artificial on his part. Amir- Seems like somebody that can be a strong ally. I'm glad Amir is here. Seamus- First impression tells me to watch out or Seamus but he is wooing me in... but I'm aware that his wooing is why I wanted to watch out for him in the first place. Rob- Don't really know. Blah? Hopefully a potential ally. Sherry- I had a good conversation with her the night before the swap (when it appeared she was going home) so was happy to see her on my tribe. I figured that she'd be somebody that I could utilize... well lady is crazy and forgetful because she forgot the conversation we had and was asking me about myself and telling me things about her that she had told me less than 24 hours earlier... like scroll up. You can play the mother card and thats fine but when you are a no show in challenges (seems to be a trend) I have no problem voting my mom out. So the first challenge comes along... the dreaded lip sync. I hate this challenge. Hate it. HATE IT. Its just so blah. I hate singing. I hate dancing. And of course I'm busy but nobody else is able to edit a video (or wants to). Whatever.. then it gets worse. People aren't even fucking sending me videos. Like they missed deadllines and just flat out ignore me when I ask if they are giving me anything or not. I tell them that I need to know so that I can start editing the video if I'm not going to receive anything but nothing. Like I have just as much content 6 hours before the challenge is due as I did 48 hours before but I wasn't working on it because I figured I'd get more. So now I need to piece meal together shit and find shit and try and make it look nice. I mean I'm a creative guy I guess so lets see what I can do. For this challenge all I received was a piece of poop so I put it between two slices of bread and I’m hoping the judges like shit sandwiches. I really hope my efforts pay off because I don't wanna be going to tribal yet. Im not sure where I stand but I'm hoping this challenge has put me in a good spot.

First things first, fuck my old tribe! they literally like...don't even attempt to reply to me since the swap and its becoming really apparent whos genuine and who will play nice just for the game so as far as I care, they can all leave I don't give a fuck. However, I hope zack and crow don't go over someone like liana at the upcoming tribal. people like liana stevie tommy crow etc are able to lie so convincingly and make it seem like theyre on your side like....they can literally lie like sociopaths and no one in this game is allowed to have that quality except for me so they can fking go! I feel like I have a lot of those relationships right now, like circumstantial allies. I feel that way about Mearl, zack, crow, dustin, sid, sherry and even luke The people I fully trust right now are rob and cole and MAYBE Bodhi. everyone else is dead to me. Also why am I the only Canadian in this cast full of American freaks me trying to fit in with the americans: https://vine.co/v/e1EFMxhDZOB/card?api=1 Psa: do you guys think im the type of boy who wont send nudes to stay safe in a game, because youre 100% wrong. I am an adult, if another adult wants to see me arse for an idol clue or some shit, ill take it! Also talking about idol clues "hickory dickory dock, the number you are looking for is on the clock" The idol is right under your nose I think its jungle 9. because table is under the nose and 9 is under 12 lets try that next time lmao abel is.....LIKE...not smart. sweet guy but he asked me to have a secret final 2 within like five seconds of speaking for the first time and then told me im a good social player who'll make it far. not the best way to make me want you on the island buddy I love flirting with guys in games because its like playing pretend when the truth is the only thing that turns me on is voting them all out http://68.media.tumblr.com/bf80ec6181ee7722e81fba5665a78426/tumblr_o319g3ZJhR1uwwhj6o2_250.gif

Well, I'm safe another week so that's good right? Still annoyed that my tribe didn't win immunity, like we did so well and we honestly lip synced and I actually slayed everyone in the lip sync.... Oh well. I want to win something, I want to prove to the community that I'm a strong player physically and not just socially. I'm just grateful to be here right now, I don't think a lot of people see me as a threat but I could be wrong. I just want to make jury right now and prove it to myself I really am a bad bitch!

Last round, I was an iconic mess. I was able to flip the vote against Sherry, however she played her idol and voted for Ali. BUT! because I was in the pool and I removed my vote in case anything changed, I self-voted even though I gave a vote a minute late about it was close so grr. It tied between me and Ali and everyone minus Sherry voted against Ali. Wooh! I'm ready for my CPN/M4 edit. I am devastated that Ali is gone I really do trust him. I connected with him and he had NOBODY. We swapped like I predicted and it's 3 tribes of 6. I am on the Magwhy tribe with myself, Sherry, Seamus, Mearl, Amir, and Luke. I think I am in a decent position on this tribe. Seamus I feel has a certain degree of trust in me, he thinks he can control which I'm fine go ahead do it. Mearl I've been working on getting him to like me and I think he might, I did a lot for the challenge I went all out and I've been praising him which he did a great job. Amir LOVES me and the feeling is mutual. Amir is just so much fun and I want to be like him. I want to be like Amir when I'm older. Luke... I'm on good terms with but I want him out tbh because I am petty and he's a threat. Him being depressed, is to my advantage and that sucks for him I guess? Sherry, I don't know where I stand with her, we said during the vote last time we should work together, and she knew Ali was going, but she's blowing smoke up my ass. I'll try to work with her, but I doubt I'm going to talk to her. If we do have conversations I see it being strictly game which I despise. The video is a lip sync and we originally did something that Sherry did because we were sort of reluctant to throw ideas and I liked it. I felt it was a song I could do and people at first were like yeah. The thing is, skype is a fickle fickle bitch. It updated and I asked if we were doing All Summer Long and i got no reply. I filmed my video which was lit tbh because I had my sister help me out and she's a theater kid (tm) psycho. I had it done and ready but then out of nowhere my messages update and I see at the same time when I sent the previous message they responded and they decided to change it to calling all the monsters. Like??? WHO THE FUCK CARES IF SHERRY HAS ALREADY DONE IT DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WILL ACTUALLY KNOW ABOUT THAT? HELL NO AND THEN YOU USE THE SAME EXACT FOOTAGE FROM HER VIDEO WHAT A BUNCH OF DUMBASSES STFU. Anyways we win because Mearl pulled God's work and I'm shook because Saggy's was so good too. Abel as Valentina ctfu. I saw yangbye's too and it was hilarious i loved it Heather did amazing. I heard it was mean but I don't really think so? I mean Jaiden got it from her youtube videos so it's public domain and people could gif it anyways from there. The hosts got pretty pissy though like they weren't bad at all imo I enjoyed all three of them like sure maybe Yangbye could have been more active in their video but it was still a funny product. I'm active and I'm not a threat so I don't think I'm in a bad spot. Goat me!

I don't feel great about this vote....but what I've heard from Zack and Bodhi is that it's an easy vote for Liana - but I no like easy votes cuz usually they aren't!

#AnyoneButMe

Episode 1: “There’s a 50 year old playing this game.” - Zack (Part 2)

*shocker* Nehe blew it. Big.

Good news? We got Seamus to join us + I think there's a very tentative plan in motion right now....Seamus told Nehe that Zack and Amir are close so if me/him/Nehe and Dustin vote together we have instant majority and we can boot Zack like I have been wanting to....

But of course, I can't trust Seamus yet as he is yet to tell this info directly to me - just to Nehe. I'll work on that...

But for now I'll let Nehe do the scheming for the both of us so that if it backfires, the bullet hits him harder than me. =)

Stevie is now on our tribe, as we have lost immunity. I'm selling him on the idea of "Ali is the guy here we all look to for guidance" so that he wants Ali gone. I've been gunning for Ali while having an alliance with him since day one. Gotta cut throats before throats cut you.

This is so uglyyy omg. Voting Sherry was a huge mistake, however, we had no idea what the vote would entail. It could have been voting someone to redemption island for all we know. Sherry had to complete a series of puzzles, and they're some of the worst puzzles I've ever seen. Stevie and Seamus are fucking freaks. Then this twist comes and they have to vote at our tribal too. And freaking Stevie chooses my tribe

I hate Stevie and my relationship with him isn't very good. I prefer Seamus because I think he would have my back. I don't feel safe, but I have Ali and Bodhi. Dom might help me, but he hasn't really talked to me since the first day. Sherry and I don't talk to, and she is super busy. My concerns are that Sherry might have something for doing the challenge, and Stevie might try to stir the pot. Kill me, Tommy help me out god. I have no idea why Eddie hates me, he's trying to rig against me. This cast is meh no wonder I'm on it.

Btw, I came to a realization that I should consider not dating, liking, crushing, or doing anything with another guy they are disgusting and fakes and ugly. I'm so done with them.

Me: let me be more social!

also me: doesn't talk to people on my tribe

Okay I made a decision. I'm gonna stick to my guns. I am not letting nehe or crow leave and im not compromising. I know I've been in denial but it's time to face the facts. My tribe is going to tribal. I'm going to make sure nehe doesn't go. I think he'll 100% be a loyal ally. He so sweet and I like him and I have a feeling he's not gonna hit it off with a lot of people.

Second, I truly truly hope crow doesn't go. I love him as a person he's literally my husband but like, I'm not gonna throw my game away for him. If he's the one going then he's the one going. I need to make sure me and nehe are safe over him because I can control nehe more than I can control crow. If crow does go, then me and nehe are enough to force a tie if we go to tribal again.

Third, is zack. Zack and I have a long history and I've known him for 2 years. Taking him out isn't bad for my game but I genuinely would be so bad because I love him as a person so I really really don't want to.

Fourth is Dustin, nice kid, pretty hot lowkey, but he can go. I really do like him as a person but uhhhgg

Zack just confirmed he's with Dustin. ZAXK WANTS ME HIM AND DUSTIN TO ALIGN. I WASNT MEANT FOR THIS FUCKING GAME. THIS IS Not what I want. I think crow is gonna be the one to go. I am SO sad. I DONT WVEN KNOW IF I TRUST ZACK OR DUSTIN. WHAT IF IM BEING PLAYED? I WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM. How am I suppose to talk to dustin when he never fuckin replies? Maybe I should just vote myself out and be lucky. If I'm with Zack/Dustin I'm at the bottom cuz they're close. If I'm with nehe and crow I'm at the top cuz they're both close to me. I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut. That's what I'm gonna do. I'm going to keep my fucking mouth shut and wait for zack and Dustin to campaign to nehe and wait to see what crow wants to do. I need to like be patient and wait. That's what I need to do

We are more than halfway through round one and I am loving this game!! When it started and I saw the cast reveal i almost immediately quit because i saw Jaiden and Sid and i needed to GO, but then they weren't on my tribe so it was fine. I really like my tribe! Me and Tommy have always gotten along, although we don't have much playing experience together. Cole and I have a weird relationship in games that I don't fully understand but this time around I am liking it. I like Abel, and Matt is a cool dude. i really like that all of us searched for the idol because otherwise I probably wouldn't have searched and missed the potential opportunity. In terms of the other people in the cast, I LOVE LIANA!!!! One of my faves, so happy she is here! Seamus I get along with well, and surprisingly I have been talking to Bodhi a decent amount. My biggest fear is in this game I don't know how more than half of these people are as players. I know about less than half of the cast and Id on't like that. gonna have to snoop around and ask how these bitches played in their past games.

So walking into this game - I feel pretty decent about the cast. I know certain people for good reasons and some for bad reasons. When I look at the people I see Dustin & Cole, of which as all played BBHell together and on separate occasions flirted with each other. This was my first game from a year ago. I had to unblock Dustin from a year ago. Yikes.

People are recognizing me from India. "India", "robbed of Switzerland" whatever blah blah blah. Considering I don't play tumblr to often I kinda just like to do me so I play a bit medicore I guess. But they all know me so w/e.

My tribe is pretty decent. I'm happy. As a tribe we haven't talked but one on one my strongest relations are in this tribe. Sherry is one of my bffs

Oh my, I'm so scared about this game. At least Stevie won the immunity challenge but I feel like I'm missing out on so much gameplay. I feel like there is a alliance(s) that I'm not in. What should I do, I've generally scared. I think people like me personally, but I could be wrong like always. I'm really trying to lay low in this game and I'm hoping people will forget about me for the most part the game. I don't know if I should start a majority alliance in my tribe OR I should get 2 people from each tribe and form a 8 person alliance where we all work together to get rid of people that isn't in the alliance, the nice thing about two tribes losing two members tomorrow is that this alliance could totally happen. The only thing is that this plan would completely backfire on me because I would be playing too hard to fast. I'm so conflicted, if my tribe does up going to tribal, I'm probably going to vote out Matt because I know him the least (I've said this like 7 times jeez). I'm going to try and be lovable in this game and have people think I'm easily manipulated and doing their will so they won't target me. Oh man, this game makes me paranoid.

So pretty much whats going to (hopefully) happen is that Nehe will be hitting the road after taking 4 hours of his life on those puzzles. Yes he didnt quit. But still he was 3 hours behind even placing 2nd. For us to be down to a tribe of 4 its going to rely on comp scores so he has to go. ive talked alot to crow, amir ,and zack and we all seem to get along. however i am suspicious of amir and zacks previous relationship. Hopefully we can all vote together today and send Nehe packing.Oh my, I'm so scared about this game. At least Stevie won the immunity challenge but I feel like I'm missing out on so much gameplay. I feel like there is a alliance(s) that I'm not in. What should I do, I've generally scared. I think people like me personally, but I could be wrong like always. I'm really trying to lay low in this game and I'm hoping people will forget about me for the most part the game. I don't know if I should start a majority alliance in my tribe OR I should get 2 people from each tribe and form a 8 person alliance where we all work together to get rid of people that isn't in the alliance, the nice thing about two tribes losing two members tomorrow is that this alliance could totally happen. The only thing is that this plan would completely backfire on me because I would be playing too hard to fast. I'm so conflicted, if my tribe does up going to tribal, I'm probably going to vote out Matt because I know him the least (I've said this like 7 times jeez). I'm going to try and be lovable in this game and have people think I'm easily manipulated and doing their will so they won't target me. Oh man, this game makes me paranoid.

welp. i'm going to mother fucking tribal.

my plan? seamus told me nehe and crow said my name.. so nehe and crow can CHOKE. i wanna make an alliance with dustin and amir and vote nehe out hehe. honestly. can all these people choke so i can win. like just give me the win.

This is so ugly. I love Ali so much. Me and Ali have an alliance with Bodhi, but Bodhi does not trust Ali. Sherry is obviously trying to save herself, and why the hell is it catching on? Dom's dumbass is barely here, Stevie shouldn't even be a part of this tribe this twist is rigged. But Bodhi? Like hell man why do you think Sherry is going to be more loyal to us than Ali? We voted for Sherry! Unless he's saying he didn't vote or didn't actually vote. Like Sherry and Stevie i undersrand voting for Ali, but Bodhi? What the hell? We're in an alliance with him do you really think he's going to flip onus now? So stupid these people are so stupid.

Nehe and I are talking, and he's one of the few people in the game I think is absolutely telling me the truth. I want him on my side when a swap hits. Right now my trust is in Amir, Abel, Dom, Sherry, and Nehe. I've got moderate amounts of trust with Crow, Mearl, Tommy, Stevie, Rob, Ali (but im killing him tonight), Seamus, and several other people. I am feeling GOOD about this game if I can make it past this tribal.

I talked to everybody that's originally on my tribe and the vote is split between Sherry and Ali. Bodhi is such a snake. I went on call with Dom who I loved a lot the first night and he told me that Bodhi exposed our alliance to him for no reason. Dom isn't even close to Bodhi. Bodhi is obviously trying to control the vote and doing what is right for him. Fake I knew i never liked him. I do want to work with Dom and Eddie's Breadies is definitely not a thing anymore.

[12:35:25 PM] Bodhi: Who are you working with on your tribe>

[12:35:34 PM] Nehe Mehe: lol can you keep a secret?

[12:35:52 PM] Bodhi: absolutely

[12:35:55 PM] Nehe Mehe: at the moment all of them cause they all wanna work with me

[12:35:56 PM] Bodhi: there's no one i'd tell

then i went and told Amir.

1 hour later:

I'm hella nervous tribal council is coming up in three hours but everything should be fine. Amir settled on voting out Zack and Seamus is all good and so is Crow and I dont know where Dustin is at but yeah he better vote Zack out too. I gotta watch how I play out in the Live tribal portion but I feel like I have a chance to stay but I can tragically still get blindsided.

[2:41 PM] Ali TAnveer: We need you You're the fun person in the tribe

[2:41:31 PM] Bodhi: I wanted tribal at 5 :'(

[2:41:40 PM] Ali TAnveer: I was. Tribal now

[2:41:46 PM] Ali TAnveer: Or 5 :(

[2:42:48 PM] Bodhi: 5 is just better

[2:44:08 PM] Ali TAnveer: It is [2:44:15 PM] Ali TAnveer: I might be out tonight

Ali has no idea how right he is. He means that he wont be around for tribal, but he won't be around after tribal either.

15 minutes later:

OOPS hahahaha fuck. Ok so Rob wants me to flip on the plan to take out Ali, and he's made good arguments. I'm gonna keep Ali around and do Sherry instead. Sherry is less active, and has more friends. Ali is a more visable target. There goes my big flip plan!

Ugh okay so this is #4 on day 4. So basically since i won my tribe was safe. Then we got to deal with 2 twists. First is do we want to keep, throw away, or give someone and idol clue. Of course i keep it bc why would I want someone else to have it? Plus i can just lie and give others a fake clue. The second is that I joined the red tribe and go to tribal with them but im immune... So i get to vote and im p sure imma vote zack, even though i think i can work with him, i need switzerland and great lakes people to leave. I cant risk having their former relationships come into play and bite me in the butt. SO tonight it will either be Nehe or Zack but I'm voting Nehe! Wish me luck!

Okay y'all I'm packing my bags. Fuck! This! Twist! FUCK THIS CAST! I HATE. Fuck seamus. Next time I'm on a tribe with him he's getting lit tf up. It's round one and he made up lies about me already and it's really sad because he really doesn't know who he's fucking with. Bitch boy just ruined his own game If I survive this tribal I'm going to end him. I am going to Fucking END SEAMUS. He looks like the mom from suite life of zack and cody. He's like telling nehe that me and zack are best friends and basically pinning the target on us and telling nehe that I talked to him the least when I literally have talked with Seamus everyday. Like is he inbred? I was starting to really like him but he truly fucked himself over now. I don't rest until his basic white gay ass goes.

The info I know:

1. Make nehe 100% on board with me again.

2. Nehe wants to vote zack or Dustin but he doesn't want to vote crow.

3. Zack wants to convince nehe to vote Dustin instead of him but he still wants to vote nehe out.

4. Seamus wants either zack or I out

Info I need:

1. Is dustin still 100% on the vote nehe out train?

2. Crow told me and Dustin he wants to vote nehe but told nehe he wants to do zack or Dustin but preferably Dustin. What tf does crow want?

Nehe knows too much. Crow isn't gonna go, no one wants him out. I got nehe protecting me right now. What I need to know is If crow is really with nehe and he genuinely wants to vote out zack or Dustin.

As much as I love nehe, Crow has sunk his social game claws into him already. He's the middle man between zack/Dustin and me/crow. If I'm able to survive this round and get through this I can for sure make the target next week to be Dustin or crow. Nehe is STILLLLL telling people that me and zack are a final 2.

I FUCKING HATE THIS CAST. Dustin keeps me sane. I'm glad I have him. How did he go from my least fav on the tribe to my absolute fav?

[7/6/17, 3:52:25 PM] Amir: On 7/6/17, at 3:51 PM, Nehe Mehe wrote: > you are way nicer than i would’ve guessed Amir

Okay I feel fucking bad but like he literally went and told the whole tribe that me and zach are a final 2. Im scared but tbh my skin has been clear for a long ass time and I got a pimple today and this game is to blame. If I get voted out I might become sane again.

Ah what a lovely event tribal council is! I thought I would be in trouble but I'm actually likable I think??? Wow I'm shooketh.

So after Nehe's blunder at the comp and Zack's inept social game, it put them both on the chopping block. I would love to just chop both but I have to choose apparently....Nehe has Seamus on his side and Zack has Amir on his side leaving Dustin and I, the dream team of distrust, as the swing votes. (But there's a lot of lies in between so it might not be that clear)

And although I'm closer to Nehe, him going reaps more benefits as I gain trust with Dustin, Zack, and Amir and cut the only person who would be my enemy moving into this tribe swap....

So I'm throwing my first knife at Nehe and I think it's going to pierce his heart. Whoops! #AnyoneButMe right?

#ChaosCrow or #CutthroatCrow ? I bet bitches didn't see me cutting so early but this is my second chance and I'm ready to draw blood.

SO! Guess who's ready for another summer of stress, sadness and seventh place? It's ya boy, Sid! With Magyi's tribal in 15 minutes, this confessional MAY be a little overdue, but I'm here to break down days one through four for you.

Sagu is a beautiful tribe for beautiful people. At least, that's what I thought. Now, I've realized that I'm kinda pissed off that I'm not with my Twister Sister Sherry, or my number one: Amir. Y'all put me on a tribe with Jaiden, whose reputation precedes him, Luke, who I haven't talk to in days, and Seamus, who is probably the worst liar I've met. Seriously, someone let him win a game? I trust Liana the most right now, but even that is like a 7/10.

I vibed with Seamus at first, but as soon as I approached him about working together, he really showed his cards with his tone. I don't trust him at all, and, after hearing about his antics on Magyi (thanks to this loser twist), I trust him even less. As SOON as I get the chance, he's gone. I have a metaphorical place on my wall for his metaphorical head. WE'RE GOING TROPHY HUNTING, BOYS. That being said, I'm in an "alliance" (more of a trust cluster) with him and Liana.

I really feel like I'm keeping a level head, and I'm trying to play less antsy. That, however, isn't going to keep me from making big moves. One World sucks, but at least I can talk to Amir. He's honestly my number one, and I'd never betray him. I love Sherry too, and I can't wait to reunite with her again. I'm going to go watch Magyi's tribal now, but I'm so excited to play Cutthroat Island!!! It's going to be a doozie.

Idk what's happening this tribal, maybe bodhi is not with us? He aint replying maybe they are against me and rob, these people are crazy and I just wanna stay, I give my heart and souls to this game.

Hello! I'm back for a third time now to attempt a second win! I'm really nervous to start the season but also super excited to have gotten another chance at the win. It's weird being one of two winners in this season. The feeling is just weird and unexplainable. I believe this season is going to be super messy and people will be all over the place, I just hope to at least make merge and jury and from there get to the end. My tribe is really good we have a lot of people who made it far and I genuinely like all of them. Since this is a one word season I wanna make a few connections with the people on other tribes to so I'm safe for a swap or something. I feel like I'm paranoid 24/7 this season compared to my other two seasons where I felt I always tried to make a safety net for myself... this season there is no way I can make a safety net yet because I don't trust many if any people. As for my tribe I feel like I wouldn't be the first boot just because of my first impressions I think, however you can never know. For right now before swaps or anything I wanna be seen as a coattail rider and start from the bottom up and work my way into a good position so people will not target me right away and work on relationships with people.

I'm so happy Stevie won the challenge because that means I made Final 18! I'm so happy I didn't get the first two boots I honestly would have actually cried A LOT. I'm even more nervous now that there is less people because one step closer to the end and it'll only get more cutthroat from here on out.

I went on call with Dom who revealed Bodhi is shady. Dom said that he would like people to be straightforward with him. I agree, so i decided to tell Ali everything. Ali knows what is happening because i do really like him and he deserves to know. I told Bodhi that voting Ali is stupid and he believed me. Sherry is going to flip because she knows she's on the chopping block. So flipping Bodhi should flip Dom too. The vote should be Sherry, but she said she has the idol. I don't know if I believe it, but it should be Ali then? Fucl Stevie btw. If this vote goes to plan I'll scream I might have done that.

I had 7 calls back to back to back.

JAIDEN I hated Jaiden from before this game, but after talking to him he seems quite alright and I'd love to work with him this time around. I actually really like jaiden which is a huge suprise.

ROB Rob just needed some reassuring. I reassured his ass.

ALI Ali needed reassuring as well. I did the exact same to him

STEVIE I needed to fill Stevie in on the vote so he didn't get mad when it was Sherry

ABEL We talked about the game for a bit, nothing spesific but we got along great ALI Abel hung up on me and Ali wanted me to call again. We said almost nothing and I think he's happy.

ABEL Oh my god. This was the most important call of the game. We were giggling about our dislike of Luke together, and we're going to go FAR. I love Abel and I want to go to the end with him.

#AnyoneButMe

Episode 1: “There’s a 50 year old playing this game.” - Zack (Part 1)

Okay so I guess it's my fourth time playing one of these main seasons?! Goddamn. Why do I do this to myself LMAO. I wanna make this one count and honestly I didn't really expect to be here in the first place?? Like when I applied I went all out and was so damn extra about what I had to say about myself so I could make it seem like I'm this huge backstabber and chaotic iconic player,,, which maybe I am but still!!! This season I'm gonna want to focus on my strategic and physical game. In fact, I'm going to completely sacrifice my social game in order for this to happen. Well, at least I'll be taking out what I consider to be my social game. I recently came to a really important revelation about ORGs in general and I realize what makes certain players so damn successful. When I'm having conversation, the topic always revolves around real life. I ALWAYS want to make small talk with everybody and get to know them as people instead of players and that seriously damages my strategy because I'm so enveloped in friendship rather than game. I lead conversation away from strategy and that's a huge detriment of mine. I know I've got the capability of talking to people, but the conversations we have don't revolve around STRATEGY. I need to make that my biggest change in how I play. No one gives a fuck about how work was for me that day and I shouldn't give a shit about what they did with their friends the night before. We're here to play a game, if you wanna talk to me you can but just know that I only want to talk about game because I don't want to waste my time with an overall irrelevant topic. My point isn't that I will literally talk about nothing but game, because this is about making close friends too, but let's really try to focus on the game first and small talk later. Save the personal shit for skype calls or when we wanna rabbit Netflix together, you know? With that being said, I also need to recognize how people feel about me. Everyone I've played with or have like three degrees of separation with will immediately have the notion that I am a dangerous, messy player. I can literally win anyone I've never met over if I have to, and maybe I can win over some people I do know, too. But the point is that I can't expect they're just going to let me walk to the finish. They're going to talk shit about me to other people and I can't let it get to me. I have to just accept that it's going to happen, and I need to figure out the best way to control my allies and keep their arrows pointed at our opposition. Like I've been saying, I wanna win this time. I also know that my biggest problem is going to be the premerge. I have to get through it in one piece, and I absolutely cannot play an idol premerge if I have one and ultimately don't have to. Save the big movez for the merge, Jaiden!!! People know who I am, they're gonna come after me, and I need to control them. But I also need to think of how I'm going to win challenges if the truth is that I'm just not that good at them. One of my strengths is my social game, so the social challenges like rope chop, touchy subjects, chain reaction, etc. will need to be the challenges I focus on winning. I need to understand how everybody else thinks of each other (!!!) instead of focusing on how they think of me. I already know what people might think about me, but how can I work other people over if I have no idea what the group is thinking about each other? I know I'm being placed on a tribe of five people so as long as I find a threesome I'm good. I just need to make it to an inevitable swap and then continue to win tribal immunity until the merge. My goals are to get to the merge without attending tribal, then maybe finding an idol for protection at the merge. I've proven to be good about not sharing information about idols (so long as the VL doesn't find out first) so I'm not concerned about that, and I am a huge risk taker so that's also not that big of a deal either. Anyways, lets just hope that everything comes out well on day one. I really need to seal the deal this time because I'm so over not winning these stupid games... however, if everything starts going wrong, I'll never go without a fight and I will absolutely go down swinging. I don't care if I have to backstab or slit throats because I've had it happen to me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ let's play some Survivor.

Heyy it's me again! So far I've done nothing but be a nuisance for the tribe and I'm STOKED to be starting on the right foot! Socially I'm being careful b/c I know all these people are snakes (look at the fecking theme) but I am TRYING to act genuine to hide my bolts and wires! I love how "required" and "confessionals" were put in the same sentence, y'all are so cute! Acting like I need incentive to rant about these 19 hooligans hahaahaha

Ok um quick confessional but I am in DEEP SHIIIIIIIIIIIIT. My tribe is nehe, whos threatened of me cuz of hos, zack, who I betrayed in trashy and hates me for it. I have a lot of bad blood with a lot of these people and im really gonna have to kiss ass to at least have a chance at a social game.

Ummmmmmmmmm well fuck quick tribe assessmen:

Zack: *drinks bleach* he fuckin hates me and doesn't trust me but might work with me cuz familiar??

Dustin: I know of him and he knows of me and ik zack probably gonna thirst for him and be controlled so fuck

Nehe: I hosted him in hos, hes already asking me about my hos placements ewkjnfe so I hope he isn't threatened and we can work together the other one: idk yet ill get back to you. Tbh im bonding with people who aren't my tribe what tf am I doing

Um okay, to do list:

-check the cast assessment

-inspect blog and wiki for idol shit

-stalk the casts wiki and seasons and read their confessionals

-maybe masturbate

-my accounting homework

-maybe make an alliance lmao

ALSO so many of these fucking people gotta go NNNNN like ESPECIALLY two faced tommy for sure with his fake ass charm. Luke and Zack cuz I screwed them both over in trashy big brother directly, like both on my hohs. Oh I don't even wanna BEGIN with fuckin stevie, the only way to work with him is to feed his fucking ego and idk if I wanna suck his dick for an entire season I might just get rid of him asap ayyyyyyyyy. OH MY FUCKING GOD JAIDEN OH NOOOOOOOOO. If he tries to fight me like he always does I will make him cry I don't care. Omfg SNIANA FROM TRANSYLVANIA SHE HATES ME CUZ I BETRAYED HER and she didn't vote me.

Okay in the tribe, im gonna make sure nehe is loyal to me. like that's my only choice rn and then try and either pull in zack or pull in crow to target dustin and zack Im seamus ignoring my messages and talking in the chat why is he like this? Crow is shit talking merle and im taking notes. I think I like crow he Is great time to do my research on him tho but first a pee break.

It's night one and literally everyone is lying to everyone. We're all making deals hoping that one will stick but not planning on sticking to it. Cutthroat is going to be amazing.

I'm certain that this cast is mostly good people, but there have to be at least 5 who belong in prison for their personalities alone. The secret is finding out which five cutthroats are actual human garbage.

Fourth time's a charm. Let's see if I can actually win something in this shit series.

Let's break down this day one twist. I have a theory that the people we vote for within our tribe will become a new team captain, and they must pick their new tribe. Seems easy enough. I don't think it's anything more powerful than that, but some people speculate it's an elimination vote and others think it'll be something really random and stupid. I don't know. One World doesn't seem to be a big twist this season because it was never mentioned as such, which is why I think it's going to be a team captain task.

Now let's do an obligatory day one cast assessment. I'll start off with the people I don't know and have nothing to say about them.

Crow and Abel... sorry. Got nothing to say to you guys.

Let’s move onto everyone else in order by the Wiki.

Ali – Never heard of him before, so immediately he sticks out like a sore thumb. He was on the one world call briefly and I talked to him a little bit there but we haven’t personally met yet.

Bodhi – I do not like this guy. Plain and simple. He hates me, but I truly believe that Bodhi and I need to work together, at least for now, because we’re familiar with each other and understand one another’s tricks. I have to keep him close so he doesn’t want to betray me too soon.

Dom – We played in India together and we were really close right off the bat. I’m willing to befriend Dom again because I’ve seriously neglected our friendship since the end of that game and we have A LOT of catching up to do with things that have gone down with all of the drama that happened in India and beyond. I want to work with Dom most of all this season.

Rob – Rob is my closest friend in this community but I do not believe that he is going to ever, ever trust me. He is always going to question my moves because he doesn’t seem to let go of things I’ve done in the past? Like I’m not even going to kiss his ass this season and if things don’t work out for us with alliances, I’m not going to drop everything to protect him. Bye Felicia.

Sherry – FUCK. She’s SUCH a threat this season, but she’s like the cool aunt I’ve always wanted. She is soooo close with Sid and I want to really try and figure out how I could be their #3 at any point in time. I think they know that they’re threats so I want to try and see if I can sneak my way in with them and use them (particularly Sid, which we’ll go to later) as shields. She seems like a sweetheart and I hope I can work with her!

Amir – I’m a little mixed about Amir, tbh! He’s a nice guy but I don’t know how genuine he is with me, unfortunately. I’m worried about him because I truly like him now but we’ve had serious beef in the past and I don’t want things to get ugly between us. I don’t know where we stand now so I want to actually focus on getting to know him better as a person, which is not how I want to play this season tbh. We’ll see how things go.

Dustin – AHH another huge threat! I’m so scared of Dustin LMAO. I don’t see myself ever working with him because he’s like, a pretty big name and I’ve fought him before. We’ll see what happens but don’t expect me to run to him with big blindside-y plans or anything.

Nehemiah – He’s boring to talk to in PMs, but then he comes alive on calls. I sympathize with him because we’ve been pre-merge boots before and I want to try and establish a working relationship with him on that basis alone. As a person I think Nehe is a little bit controversial??? So idk if I’ll stand to work with him for long.

Zack – Zack and I have worked together in the two games we’ve played together well, but we LITERALLY never talk outside of games. I genuinely forget sometimes that we were friends in the past… like yikes. I want to talk to him and try and rebuild that partnership this time, but with a lot of personal stuff going down between me and some of his good friends, I don’t know how well that’ll work. It might be best to just not be optimistic with Zack and try to cut him loose early.

Myself – I will try my best to explain myself from the outside looking in. I have a reputation for being crazy, chaotic, messy, what have you. People won’t question why I am here because they know the kind of player that I am, which is why I think I’m going to be a target early on in the game. I HAVE to focus on getting to know everyone this season… It’s completely unacceptable otherwise. I’m going to push myself to do whatever it takes this time to make the merge. Then day 40, if I have to. The final tribal council. I wanna win so I never have to do this shit again, lmao. But people do not trust me and they certainly don’t like me, either. How do I find a good balance to secure my position with others?

Liana – No comment. I don’t like her.

Luke – Another big wildcard??? I don’t know how to feel about Luke. Sarah told me I have to trust him because he never lies but I know firsthand that Luke 100% lies and I know there are a couple people on this cast who do not like him. He’s trying to kiss my ass by calling me “king” and make me like him but it’s never gonna happen. I’m not going to include him in my plans right away, but if things fall into place for us to work together, I’ll oblige.

Seamus – Yikes. Seamus messaged me just a few days before the cast to talk to me and it makes me really suspicious of this whole “cast leak” drama I’ve been dealing with. I think Seamus wanted to pre-game with me and I seriously don’t trust him for a single second, so if I HAVE to throw him under the bus to get ahead I’ll really do it. Zero chance Seamus lasts if he gets even the slightest target on his back when I’m on a tribe with him.

Sid – I like Sid. I don’t know why. I just think he’s pretty cool and I see why people call him a social threat, but people on the outside have warned me that he needs to go soon or else he will go to the end with Sherry or something. Like I said before, I want to work with Sid and Sherry because even though they’ll always pick each other over me, there’s no chance that they will get far together. I need to be in the middle of something like that because people will likely take shots at them and not necessarily me, or at least until I don’t need Sid/Sherry anymore! If I can utilize Sid to get rid of Seamus or Luke, I’ll be golden. I need him to like me and trust me.

Cole – He seems funny! He hasn’t played in a long time but he is super backstab-y so we can relate to each other on that. I think we’ve got similar personalities with being bitchy and obnoxious so I’m going to really work on getting him to like me so we can work together. I don’t know Cole but us working together would literally,,, be a match made in heaven. I hope it works out!

Matt E – I know nothing about him except that he won a ton of challenges. I hope he can pick me for his tribe so I don’t have to go to a tribal council pre-merge.

Stevie – LMAO he can literally fuck off, I don’t like Stevie. I hope he’s an early boot.

Tommy – See above. If there’s one person this season I would die if I saw them win, it would be him. I don’t even know Tommy that much but the first impression I got of him was not a good one. I don’t want to be associated with him in any way and honestly I’m not even going to try bonding with him I don’t think. Okay, now that I’ve got that over with, we can talk about other things I guess. My strategy this season is going to focus…on strategy. No more small talk! I don’t care about these peoples’ lives, I just want to make alliances. This means I need to go on calls to replace my social game because that’s such an important thing to do because calls ALWAYS bring out the honesty in people. Even if it hurts, I’ll do it. I’m in a prime time of my life right now to do calls as much as possible because I’m not working night shifts and I don’t really do anything outside of working and sleeping, so!!! Who cares!

Also, I need to have less trust in what people say to me. It’s so stupid to think that I’m coming in here with a clean slate, because I know I’m not. People have shitty opinions about me and honestly, there isn’t much I can do to change their mindsets. I have to just confront that head-on, which I actually did with Luke today. I won’t get into specifics since I deleted the receipts of what I said already (lol), but essentially I told him that no matter how many times people say they like me, they actually don’t & I’ve heard it all before and then seen the opposite of what they say to my face in confessionals. That’s just the kind of attitude I’m in right now!

Day one and I haven’t taken this too seriously yet. I need to have fun with it. When I get stressed out, I get messy. I have a looooot of baggage coming into this season with some former friends and some previous enemies, so I have my work cut out for me with unzipping those suitcases and not letting the dirty laundry just spill out into the street.

there's a 50 year old playing this game.

Okay tbh my current gameplan, short term I think I can protect myself. I didn't get lucky with my tribe members but it could be worse but I think I'll be able to protect myself enough on this tribe to survive a vote or 2.

Now long term, it's really going to depend on what happens in the other tribes and how the swap will go. If people like liana/Stevie/Seamus go now, it'll make my game a lot easier.

Liana: wreckdt her before in Transylvania and she blames me for her leaving cuz I was the one who figured out her lies

Stevie: besties with liana, has no moral compass like a sociopath, cocky

Seamus: I just don't trust him at all. Plus he's best friends with Christian and that girl hates me

If people like cole/sid/rob go, I'm gonna have a hard ass time playing this game. Rob is so kind and I think we both genuinely like each other and it's as simple as that, he'll be loyal to me I'll be loyal to him. Cole is such a strong player but he's also the only person here I would say I had a friendship with before the game. I think he'll be loyal to me hopefully. Sid will be super loyal at least in the beginning and I also used to be friends with him a long time ago but we haven't talked in like a year. I know he knows I'm a threat but I'm hoping we can work together I think that's all I got for tonight and tmmrw I'll make a podcast so I can go more in depth!! Love y'all goodnight.

Luke is lying to me. He's pretending that he doesn't dislike me when I have hard evidence via Switzerland confessionals, and the things he says about me behind my back. He's pathetic enough that he TRIED TO GET ME STRIKED IN A GAME HE WASNT IN. So I'm lying to Luke pretending that I forgive him for saying one mean thing about me, but in reality it goes much deeper, and I'm not forgiving Luke any time soon. Luke, maybe when the season is done we can work this out?

I'm really liking my starting tribe. I trust Ali, Dom, and Rob to a certain extent, and I'm fairly certain that Zherry will go first because she hasn't connected well with any of us. Im trying to get closest with Dom, because he and I had a moderate pregame alliance in Switzerland that is like to capitalize on. I'm telling him that I'm excited to play with him which isn't completely true, but it's not a lie either. I didn't think about him from the switz start to now, but I'm happy working with him when we get the chance.

I'm making deals with everyone on my tribe. I'll betray anyone in this game to make it 3 more days, but I wouldn't like for any of them to betray me. In a season like cutthroat, morality is out the window. There is no reason to give someone trust because they'll break that. You have to be a step ahead of everyone in this game, and that's what I intend to do.

I have a close relationship with Rob, Ali, and Dom. All three think that the two of us are the center of the tribe and get to decide what happens. It's a pretty great spot for me because I can get rid of someone without an issue as long as there's no redemption island, and have the majority think I'm on their side. I'm not on their side, I'm on my side.

Okay so the first night of socializing came to an end....I instantly clicked with Amir and had good talks with Nehe. Zack was a bit....off? Idk I don't see him and I working too closely....Dustin was chill too but my gut is telling me not to trust him based on how he describes his past but obviously I still have to keep him close....for this first "vote" I think it's to pick who competes in the challenge so I pray I'm not voted...but for now I'm just working on building bonds cuz that's the foundation of my strategy.

I'm telling people my history in GL to not just gain sympathy for how I went out but to also give off a first impression of potential innocence cuz in a game of manipulators, the innocent are always the easiest tools for them to use and if they think I'm a tool, not only am I gunna be safe, but I can also pull the wool over their eyes...

6 hours later...

Okay I officially made an alliance with Nehe - hopefully that wasn't too fast lol but I'm getting a tad anxious as nobody is approaching me much about game talk (on my tribe that is). If I go out first.......nuh uh NO i am SO much better than that!

Anyways, off to our left we have an anxious Bodhi trying to talk game with me since he didn't in GL.....but he's acting like a father who just found out their kid existed and is trying to make up their whole childhood. He's reaching out, yes, but like.....I forgive but I don't forget. Bodhi ratted out my alliance that I made with HIM to Matt and lied to me on my elimination night. But I can't let him know that, so it's all smiles and giggles for now!

Beyond that, my ideal scenario would be Zack going first off this tribe since I can't gauge where he's at and then having Amir and Nehe close. But I know this game. I'm sure this tribe dynamic won't last for long....

NeHe really is the most boring person to talk too, thats why i voted for them. But in all honestly i have no clue what to expect with this vote! Also i love crow.

Ali- Who is that... like I've never heard of them they must be pretty quiet, they just added me as I'm typing this so that's interesting. If they left I wouldn't be upset, don't know them at all

Amir- Crackedt king, he's really good at these games. People love him so much, bet he got drafted the most. He's a great guy and I definitely trust him but I know if I stand in the way of him winning this game he'll do whatever it takes to get me out, he wants to win.

Bodhi- Literally a wild card, he's very enigmatic and different. I feel like people will underestimate him because he says such a weird things but he does have a brain. I've hosted him twice so I don't think he'll come after but who knows.

Crow- ? why are they named after a bird, who are they, what are they.

Dom- That kid is very villainous and deceptive, he'll use his charm to do well in this game, but he will probably make himself a huge target like always and get taken out early. I think he likes and we are friends outside of games for sure, but I was pretty instrumental getting him out in BBHell 4 so that's not good.

Jaiden- omg this kid is hilarious if you can stand his very dry and dark humor. He asked me to be a showmance and I couldn't say no... awkwardddddd. Anyways I know he likes me so he won't be targeting me anytime soon.

Liana- why is she back, like didn't she bully a 14 year old for like no reason other than because they voted her out. She's inactive and truly sucks at these games... Don't know why she got cast, if I'm being honest

Luke- I think he's great, I'm concurrently in three games with him so yeah... I think we are gonna align because if we don't then that's just a mess and we don't want that. I trust him, but I don't really know him that much personally.

Matt- A str8, seems like a he's very entitled but I think he likes me actually. I might be judging him too harshly but I've never seen this guy in my life. I hope out of anyone in my current tribe he leaves.

Nehe- I don't know what it is but he makes me cringe a little. Like maybe it's his voice or something, I have no idea. He doesn't seem very strategic or anything so I'm not really worried about him.

Rob- a great guy! I truly love rob, he's quiet and cunning. He can win things and can be social when needed, he definitely is a top runner to win this game I feel.

Seamus- Oh seamus, what can I say about him... Very strategic but not really, I feel like he's really arrogant and entitled so yeah. He's also won a game so that's something to watch for. He tried backdooring me in another game and failed but we made up... He will try to take me out ASAP, I'm a threat to him I think.

Sherry- She was in bbhell 6? She got 3rd... she seems crackedt as fucccck. I don't even have her added. I don't know what type of game she plays, so I hope she leaves soon.

Sid- He's good at games I believe and will probably do well here too. Don't him very well.

Stevie- I want to sit on his face, point BLANK. I trust stevie I don't he would screw me over. He's a good guy, never done me wrong.

Tommy- I'm like "flirting" with him, whatever you want to call it. He seems very social; he won a game. I need to watch out for him later on and get him out if he becomes too powerful.

Zack- Don't have him added so........ nothing to say about him.

If I had to predict who will make it to at least final 4 I would say Rob, Amir, Tommy and Seamus. They are strongest competitors here I think. Me? you may ask... I'll probably get early boot or like last juror.

I think I can lay low for a while, I have the advantage of not playing survivor with these people. These ppl are so hard to flirt with aka my main strategy. So many str8's not enough time.

My tribe's okay I guess. I know everyone but Matt. Stevie and me played a side season together once where we made the end together and he got more votes than me in the end (undeservingly might I add). He's kinda boring idk. Cole and me have known each other for a really long time but haven't ever been too close. I don't think he would want me out right away so I'm okay with him now but I have no intentions of working with him down the road because he's just messy with the way he lives his life and I just can't handle that. Tommy is probably my closest ally rn just because from what I gather he's pretty loyal and after dealing with all the fakes in Switzerland that's exactly what I need. Within the first five minutes of our convo he was asking me to go on call like sis slow down. We did end up going on call and it went pretty well so maybe I just found my #1??? Not if his ass expects calls every round smh.

Every time Luke speaks I just get really annoyed idk why. Like I don’t understand why he thinks his commentary is ever necessary he ain’t funny he ain’t clever and nothing he ever says is insightful or adds anything of value to conversations (or life). He needs to just sit there and eat his food.

As for the rest of the cast, everyone else I know has reached out to me (except Luke’s bitch ass) along with some others. Me and Zack are on good terms but I don’t see us working together here. I like Dustin but he’s fake as hell so I know he is not to be trusted because he will turn on me the second a skinny white boy breathes in his direction. Seamus and me are acquaintances and he’s only seen me flop in games so I think he’d be down to work with me long term since I don’t think he views me as a threat. Bodhi should have taken Luke’s spot in Switzerland and we’ve bonded over that. Nehe and me are #BlackExcellence and y’all can catch us in the f2. We haven’t spoken any game yet but it’s gonna work out I’m already such a stan of his messy ass and we’re honestly, truly going to be a force this season. Cirie and Michaela are shook. Also why are there so many old people here lmao don’t they have their 9 to 5 jobs to worry about lmao.

Rob Ali and I have an alliance called Eddie's Breadie's. That's about it.

Everything: is quiet and relaxed

Me: *tries to write a confessional*

Everything: Hey Rob! Austin sucks! Me and my bae are mad at each other!

Seriously?

Anyways, I’m getting fired up. it is Day 2 and it is the first time things have died down. Since I was added to the Akyab and One World chats, it's been non-stop socializing for me. I started a game that I was hosting with this exact format: 20 castaways, 4 tribes of 5, One World. I got on everyone's asses for not utilizing it to their advantage, so I'm trying to do what I wanted people to do in my game.

I talked to a wide array of people and I haven't met a handful of people maybe 3 or 4ish? There's several people I know on the cast, more than I expected. I sort of wish I was on a different tribe because this tribe is more people I have to build trust with. Let's do a cast assessment!

Ali: I like Ali. He's cool, he works out and he's coming to Houston soon. There might be a meet up haha but it's not going to happen. I'm weary of Ali because Bodhi told me that he is a flipper, he gets idols so I have to keep an eye on him.

Bodhi: I know Bodhi from before, he's a great guy, eccentric, but great. I think I could work with Bodhi, but I still... don't really trust him on a game level. I don't think I ever will because there's something about Bodhi's game that appears off to me.

Dom: I want to work with Dom. Dom is cute, and I feel that we're both wanting to work with one another. If there's something that goes wrong, I know he has a possibility to blow up, but I don't think there will be a situation like there was in India.

Sherry: Sherry is something. She is iconic, she's one of the older players in the community but she's not very into it. I won't ever trust Sherry. I know she was tight with SId, and she was crazy in Maldives. There's also this huge age difference, and I don't believe we could talk a lot, or that she would talk to me like???? "Let me talk to this 16 year old boring kid" Amazing! I'm probably an ageist. I haven't even really talked to her one-on-one.

Amir: A KING! I love Amir a lot. I'm so glad that I met him before. We might be able to work together, but for some reason I don't feel that he may try as hard as Transylvania? Though it may be because he is trying to go under the radar, I am studying these people like they're the American Revolution I am telling you. He's probably going to take it slow. I don't know what I am even talking about I am such a mess!

Crow: I don't know Crow. I don't trust Crow. He can go bother other people.

Dustin: I really like Dustin. He is super nice and I loved our conversation. I would like to work with him, and I feel that he knows how to handle this and talk to people and make sure they trust him. You go Dustin Putman!

Nehe: I don't know about Nehe. I played before and I liked him, he was sweet, but he was arrogant and thought he was better than most people because he was active. I don't hear good things about him too but that's their opinion. I'll have to wait and see with Nehe. I doubt he likes me to be honest.

Zack: I'm friends with Zack on facebook, but I didn't know I was actually playing with him. I didn't know he played Canary and Switzerland I thought it was another Zack instead <.<

Jaiden: I'll save him for last

Liana: I think I just have a strange relationship with Liana. I say I'm friends with her husband, but I don't think me and her ever really clicked.

Luke: We’ll get to him later

Seamus: I personally like Seamus. He’s one of the first people I met, but he’s crazy in games. I don’t trust him and he’s already won one BYE! I’ll work with him but I don’t want him to make it very far.

Sid: I don’t trust Sid. He’s nice, but he’s shady shady shady. I want him to go early.

Abel: He’s someone I don’t particularly like, he comes off the wrong way with me but it might be because I’m boring. I feel that he won’t like me.

Cole: I love Cole and I’m glad we were able to mend our relationship before the season. He’s funny and he tries hard in games which I respect. But he can be a little extra. I would like him to make the jury : )

Mearl: I do not trust. He is scary and a good competitor in challenges. He seems very forceful and disingenous.

Stevie: He’s gonna flop next Tommy: I LOVE TOMMY! He is nice, I love talking to him and I want to work with him for a long time, he did win but eek we’ll see he probably has a huge target on his back. I love his tumblr and the only thing that sort of irked me was that he was sort of wanting to find out about my past games. It was odd, but he was also able to detail his games as well so it was a pretty equal trade. I want him to be number 1 tbh.

Luke: My relationship with Luke is… built on shiftinng sands. There’s a lot of history and I don’t know how it’s going to play out. I like him personally, but he’s all types of shady. He’s good with advantages he has idols and super idols and tatzelshits. I don’t want to go far with him, but I think he might be a vote for me, he’s a friend, but he didn’t vote for me against Kait so… when I found out he was playing I was so pissed off to be honest. I’m sorry…

Jaiden: Jaiden has to go! I do not want him to play with me. I never want to play with him again. He is always screwing up my game, my head, my life. I love Jaiden sooooo much but he is a mess. He’s going to get me involved in moves that I don’t want. I want him out asap...but he will I know it. Long term, I want to work with people like Tommy, Ali, Amir, and Dom. I like them personally and it could be a strategic benefit for me because they are bigger threats than me. I want to have strong social bonds with everybody though, or most people, especially on my tribes. These tribes aren’t going to last very long anyways, so I am expanding myself. I’m in an alliance with Ali and Bodhi. Eddie’s Breadies. It’s temporary in my eyes because we came together for this first vote. We decided Sherry because she hasn’t had actual conversations with us and she will be the scapegoat. It’s something to work off of.

The vote i don’t know what it is, It might be some sort of challenge related thing. But you never know until an hour later. I’m trying to build relationships and we’ll see where it takes me, not much else. Bodhi told me he searched for the idol btw.

Love you Eddie :p

1 hour later...

And Sherry knows she's on the outs eeekkk

It was sort of obvious, but i feel bad.

me waiting to see Sherry's confessional shitting on her tribe

So I'm back and am pretty excited I'm pretty shocked I'm playing again, in this game I want to be the nice guy, I want to make moves at the correct time and I really wanna do well and fix all my mistakes I made last time, so first thing I need to be active and try my best to play without looking im overplaying, so I got a good vibe from bodhi and a good vibe from rob, and they felt good with eachother so I made an alliance with us, I have something going on with dommy cause my god he's cute( I'm straight but there's not many girls here) but he hasn't been online and sherry omg girl you just came and we voted you I'm sorry :/

Ahhhh so this cast reveal was honestly so overwhelming because it was happening at the same time that I was hosting two tribal councils but I got to look over it eventually and it looks like a pretty good bunch! There are people I recognize like my fellow Great Lakers and Switzerland folks and then there are people like Seamus and Stevie and Cole that I know from past experiences. Going off of my tribe though, I really like them! Jaiden talks to me a lot which is pretty cool, he seems nice even though I know he has a reputation. Seamus is cool, we trusted him with this first vote. I vaguely know Sid because I called with him and Amanda once and we also have Liana who is lovely. Outside of my tribe there is Rob who I'm close with also surprisingly I've struck up a friendship with Dom, he's wonderful. Nothing much else happening but I'm sure the backstabbing will happen soon enough.

The boys are voting me hmmm this should be interesting to see what that is about. Dom may or may not come for me I took him out the last three games we played. Can I be on sids tribe?

Ali is taking a little bit of control and I'm confident enough in my relationships with others that I think I can safely tell Dom and Sherry that Ali is in charge and we need to take him out.

In this game, there is nothing more important than perception. The game is about portraying a narrative that others will buy into. If you can control the way others perceive the game, you can control how they act, and you won't need to be the one making big moves. That's why I'm feeding everyone on my tribe a narrative that paints me in a good light. Someone will make a move against someone, and I won't be the someone going home.

I had like an hour long call with mr bohdi today and I really fucking love him and I think he'll be a good ally. He talked so much shit about luke and crow to me, crow talked shit about him and mearle and luke and basically im gameplan is to get great lakes to murder each other.

Okay I feel like in a much better and much more positive mood this time. I talked to a few more people and as of right now, I really like Jaiden too hes a sweetheart but like misunderstood and I take back anything mean I said during my semi-meltdowns last night. I also fucking looooooooove Bohdi. He seems like a genuine ally to me. He called me for like an hour and half and actually like, was showing me how to find an idol in games cuz idk shit about tumblr survivor (this was before the idol post) and he was really honest about the cast and told me a lot. Also took notes of some of the shit he said just in case I need it HOHOHO.

I wanna feel that way about Crow because Crow is so sweet and while my heart absolutely loves him and wants to be loyal to him, the rational part in my head is telling me that's probably how he is with everyone. I can tell from his personally he tries to do the charming southern thing and im gonna play along but im sure as fuck not gonna fall for it.

But as for my most active targets, I want Liana/Stevie/Tommy to go so fucking bad. Yeah I don't give a fuck I would target them. I'm not gonna waste my time playing nice and falling for tommy and stevies bullshit like everyone else in this community does, however, if I end up on a tribe with them I'm probably fucked lmao.

Like that's how I feel with a lot of the cast. If im with all of them im gonna have to play nice. But if im on a tribe with like just tommy and other people hes getting lit tf up there AINT GONNA BE NO WORDS.

Eddie Bracco: What’s your game plan if you guys end up going to tribal?

Um, *packs my bags*

I think nehe can probably go, idk. Part of me wants to be a snake already

- Zack tells me he finds dustin hot yesterday so he probably thirsting

- Zack texts me today to vote nehe

- Dustin just told me he voted nehe

-This means those 2 probably talked about it I kinda wanna pull in crow and nehe and end zack and dustin.

No social bonds allowed on my tribe if they don't involve me.

whew. okay so i literally haven't really talked to a lot of people because it's fourth of july weekend so i wasn't even home at all but anyways here we go.

Amir is like my #1 like i trust him with everything and we voted for nehe for that thing or whatever because i told him to vote for nehe so... i love subs! Dustin. dustin's an icon and i don't even know him. he hosted bora bora and idk i've talked to him before and i really like him. i feel like me dustin and amir can definitely all align together in this tribe. it's just like.. how do i approach it, ya know? on the other hand. jaidens casted.. i've played with jaiden before and we always lie to each other and say we're together but we're not really together.. so he can choke! abel?!?!?! I FUCKING LOVEEEE ABEL. like it goes abel > amir. i wish abel was on my tribe tho. i fucking love him, an icon. cole? i don't think cole likes me tbh fklgj. luke. i just played with luke in switz and he was semi trusting? so hopefully me and him can talk and semi align or something. liana? MOMMMYYY! all the other people? i don't even know.. i for sure have to work my social game in this game.

This is my 3rd confessional and it's day 2! So basically we found out the twist and it was that whoever was voted would be doing the immunity and reward for their team. 2 tribes are going to tribal so i just have to hope i place in the top 2... We also keep calling a lot which really Isn't my thing like i join group calls just so i can be quiet and not talk and observe. Knowledge is power and I'm pretty much a librarian. But yah so on our tribe i seem to be the hot topic which is both a blessing and a curse. Jaiden Liana and Sid have all asked me to work with them and I'm like duh bitches like come to me. Luke hasn't joined a single call even though he has been online for every single one. Pretty much from all my calls IK that Luke is like at the bottom of the barrel so like even if we lose I'm not too worried. Liana and I are working together to find the idol and i think it will help solidify trust with her so we can continue to work together. SO yah as of now i do feel comfortable because I feel i am the kingpin on this tribe. Obvi i could be wrong but i like y position, and if we lose and Luke goes home I feel my position is even better then before!

I went on a call with Tommy earlier today. For no reason https://68.media.tumblr.com/e77667c4d8007d5f8957e116568740ee/tumblr_inline_opjuq5ZrNn1reygjb_540.gif Tommy just wanted to. It was nice we mainly talked about each other's game and stuff. But it's weird, I like Tommy, other people don't like Tommy, and I feel like he is sort of sketchy yet pretty loyal.

I went on a call with Ali and Bodhi. We talked about the vote and just hanged out for a little bit.

At night Jaiden messages me saying we have to go on call now! We do and he tells me how he is in big trouble on his tribe which is honestly not a shocker. He says that Liana relayed to him how somebody talked mess about him. He goes on a witch hunt trying to save himself and finds out from Seamus that it was Liana instead who was talking the mess. He says that he wants to target Luke which if it works out...

I just don't want to deal with Luke again and see him make it far. Sorry *shrug emoji*

“Sherry was a strong player through and through. She wasn’t afraid to go against the majority, speak her mind, and make big moves. Not only was she a social threat, but she was a strategic one as well. She was this season’s most cutthroat player by a mile and keep everyone on their toes. Along with Sid, she was behind numerous power moves and this is why we feel like she is deserving of this award. ”

Damnit. I've underestimated Sherry because she's 49 years old, which I just took to mean that she doesn't make big moves against minors. Now it looks like we're gonna have to watch out just in case mom decides to strike!! But I don't think she will, she claims that she's “willing to do anything for her alliance” which is the exact type of ally you want.

I want Ali gone as soon as possible. He's a super transparent snake which is frightening. I'm ok to keep him though, I'm not entirely decided. Hmm. Everyone here is a snake, and we're all intellegent enough to listen to Ali speak for a few minutes and know he wants to do big things. Maybe that type of energy can be exploited to create a bigger target than myself? I mean, I know I could do it, but if he decides to make a big move I think he'd want me gone. That's not ideal. I'd like to stick around if possible.

Ali just contacted me all like “I don't like that it's a double tribal” and I lied to him saying that I don't either. But in reality? I fucking wish it was a quadruple tribal. This cast needs to trim some fat as soon as possible. What we don't need is 20 cutthroat pieces of shit having time to fester and manipulate eachother. That will make a mess. We need to cut some throats FAST so that we all have time to breathe afterwards. I think for most people in this game, we have a harder time waiting for tribal than we have going to it.

I'm trying to bolster my cross tribal relationships with a few people here and there. Amir, Seamus, Abel, Crow, Tommy, Stevie, and several others. I don't want to be TOO obvious about the fact that im talking to everyone, but I also want to make sure that in a swap I'm safe. Ali just said that he's happy we have our 3 with Rob. I lied and said that I am too. But in reality I don't really care. I'd much rather there were no alliances and everyone just went vote by vote. I know that is what's going to happen because every fucking week everyone is going to think that they're blindsiding 6 or 7 people when in reality they're the one being blindsided. But for now there's only 5, so I can have some control.

Trust is the most important currency in this game. With a season like Cutthroat, you know that it's going to be impossible to find. Right now my trust is in Amir and Dom. I think those two are the most likely to stay loyal for at least a little bit.

In reality, everyone is going to everyone making fake deals and knowing that neither of them believe it. It's a funny sight really, and I'd be lying if I said I weren't participating.

“Hey luke, lets talk about why you dont like me”

“I like you just fine bodhi”

“haha ok I forgive you”

This is the type of bullshit conversation we have just to make sure that old fueds stop existing. He thinks I believe him because he has an ego almost as large as mine, but I know there's no chance he's telling the truth.

“Hey crow lets not lie to eachother this time”

“yeah that sounds good to me”

I hope we aren't lying to eachother, but just like the last 4 times we are. I really wish we weren't though.

“Hi Jaiden let's work together”

“I thought you hated me”

“I do but that doesnt mean we can't work together”

“ok lol”

yeah no Jaiden and I aren't working together but I would like to. If he wants to as well we might be able to stick with eachother for a vote or two, but that relationship would NOT be sustainable.

Okay so, basically I told Seamus we needed to call so we did, and we talked about the game at first and how the fireworks outside my house were hella loud lmao. Then I mentioned how I was nervous about having to go to tribal because of something I heard, how someone on the tribe already told Liana something negative about me and that she said that she feels bad for me because of how this round is going w/ the challenge and stuff. Seamus didn't really react the way I wanted to and I honestly wanted him to be like "Yeah I said that" or something, just to own up to it, but he didn't. So I got like a little irritated and told him exactly what Liana said and how it automatically looked like it was him who said it, since Liana said it had just happened and he said prior to her joining that he was talking to her. Anyways, he like read out his messages to me basically and admitted that it was all not true and SHE was the one who brought me up. Interesting stuff. He control F'd my name and read out the three results as well so honestly who knows if it's the truth or not, we'll see. I just am glad to know that he's not the person who threw my name out there from the get go. I don't trust Liana.

If our tribe goes to tribal I'm gonna be in such deep fucking shit. Zack and Dustin are gonna wanna vote crow but I'm closest to crow and nehe. Part of me wants to just flip on zack. If anyone knows about flipping on people to further my game, it's me. I did it all the time in Transylvania but the other thing is there's also a time and place for it. Pre-swap might not be the best time to start making a name for myself.

Ugh I hope nehe pulls through. My plan rn is to get crow to get close with zack and hopefully we can all flip on Dustin or try and make up something about Dustin to zack. If none of that works, maybe my best bet is to stay quiet and let my tribe feud with each other but basically as long as it's not me I'm good. Best case scenario Dustin goes because I NEED nehe and crow in this game.

My tribe is alright. Colt is somebody that I think needs to be dealt with quickly. He seems to be a big social threat. Tommy and I have a good thing going and he can be a good number 1 ally. Stevie and Abel are wild cards at this point. Not happy to see Luke, Crow and Bodhi because they obviously see me as a threat for being a better game player than them and I think it would be hard to convince them to work with me. I haven’t looked at the cast yet and analyzed everyone. Don’t really care to. I’ll let my own opinions of people form when I interact with them because that will give me a better grasp. I don’t care if they won or they finished 14th last season they played.. that doesn’t tell me anything.

And there's always that possibility that great lakes people could work together. I won’t rule it out but its not going to be my plan A.

Okay why the hell is everyone being so damn quiet? Zack is so forgettable and Dustin just lurks. And Nehe only flops in challenges - doesn't talk much.

Are they all secretly aligned or did I just get the shitty tribe?

Besides Amir. I'm about to pop the question to him later tonight I think...

But yea can there be a tribe swap? Cuz if we go to tribal, I don't feel good AT ALL. I'm messaging everyone on my tribe trying to start conversation and they either ignore it or stop the convo real quick.

LET ME IN PEEPS I CAN'T MANIPULATE AND SCHEME IF U DONT OPEN UR HEART JUST A LITTLE BIT FOR THE KNIVES TO GO IN!

I'm getting closer to Bodhi, Seamus, and Tommy than Nehe, Dustin, or Zack - like wtf?

Fuck Magyi.

On a calmer note, I must say I've been rather strategic with what I talk about in these early days....

We're all cutthroat in some way so there's no way in hell I'm letting my guard up on these people, even Amir, but I'm going to try and dampen that potential perception of me by playing up the fact that I was BLINDSIDED and CUT in my first season...maybe that'll give me some innocent points? Plus I get to trash Matt in the process of telling my elimination story and that's always FUN!

And in exchange they usually tell me what they did to be considered cutthroat or what their past games were like....that's how I know to watch out for Dustin, use Nehe, and befriend Amir. and god knows what I do with Zack.....all I know is that he works (from him) and that he's supposed to be hot (from Regan) - so is he the token dumb male model or ???

watch me get 20th tho. just watch.

Rob’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

Congrats you two on making it to the finals.

Zack

I respect your game. You were able to survive many tribal councils where you were a target, yet you also remained low-key at the same time. You were loyal to your alliances and weren’t fake. You didn’t try to talk to me which I weirdly appreciate because you wouldn’t have to lie to me, you weren’t going to betray me because we weren’t really close and there was really no need to talk to each other.

I told the jury about what you did at the final 5. It’s a game move you made, but you wanted me to keep it quiet even here. I think it benefited you so I want you to own up to the fact that you gave your idol to me. You told me that you were voting me out, which is a plus in my book even if it is some obvious kiss-assing because that means you’re honest and I appreciate it when people are honest. The jury: *laughs.* You said I was going to win but I really wasn’t I was spot on about what the jury was thinking of me,

I want you to describe your relationships with the jury and Amir. It (better) can be long, I want honest opinions of what you thought of them, how they helped you out, why you went against them. That’s it from me, good luck.

Amir

*Cracks knuckles*

It’s no surprise that the cast gets leaked, especially with this season. I found out three people who were playing this season before it started. Jaiden, Luke, and you. I did my research, looked through your old confessionals in Transylvania, asked around about you. My analysis was that you were a very charming guy, you got people to think they were tight with you, and then you would cut them loose. Now I look like the biggest Booboo The Fool. You would say, “Rob! I feel like I tell you things but you don’t tell me anything.” And that’s the reason why. I didn’t want to get close to you, I didn’t want you to betray me, I didn’t want to be that idiot who thought you were his best friend in the entire world just for you to backstab them. I was literally afraid of this happening, and what do you know, it does, because I’m a fucking genius.

I always wanted to meet you, and when we were cast in Clash of the Titans 4 it was the best opportunity because I could get to know you and become your friend, get close to you to where you would want to work with me in this game as well. Where there game intentions? Yes, but you were a really caring guy and I did like you on a personal level.

I was sad that we weren’t together originally, but then we went on to new Magyi. You became my closest ally, the person I wanted to make the end with, the person I was playing this game for, the person who made me grateful to be in this shitty game. I think that you were at the bottom, but I didn’t want you to be, that’s why I told you about the “majority” because I really did trust you. I told you pretty much everything that was going on in that tribe because you were the only person I really really did trust on Magyi.

We make merge and I’m terrified. I voted in the minority on the previous vote and I went to you alone and afraid. You were there for me. You were there for me whenever I was sad, whenever I needed someone, whenever I needed a friend. I did pretty much everything we talked about. Voting Stevie, Mearl, Tommy, Dom, Crow, SId. We agreed that Mearl had to go after he betrayed me and our trust. You knew I loved Tommy, how he was a friend of mine, and how I was conflicted about that vote. But I vote out Tommy, because of YOU, I told the Cutthropes about the minorities’ plans because of YOU, pretty much everything I did in this game was because of YOU. I told you about Dustin’s idol, I got Tommy, Crow, and Dom to vote for Zack instead of you because I didn;t want you to go in case something went wrong or I decided to go with them, I told you about basically everything that could have a relevance to us and our games. At final 5, Zack makes me promise not to tell ANYBODY but I immediately tell you what happened. And that’s because you were my number one, my ally, my comrade, my best friend. I tell my friend everything, and at the F4 she said it might be smart to take you out as the biggest threat. I shut her down so fast, you’ve been my closest ally in this whole game, you said you were going to play your idol on me at the F5, I thought you had my back 100%, you were realistically my only chance at survival, and I really thought you would tie it for me. People told me how you couldn’t be trusted, how I had to vote you out, but I didn’t want to believe them, I thought that that’s not the Amir that I’ve gotten to know, I know he has my back and is looking out for me. Turns out, I was wrong. I would have been okay if you had at least told me you were voting me out. But you didn’t, you said “I’m voting Dustin right the fuck now,” And now everything just feels fake. Our alliance feels fake. Our relationship feels fake. You seem...fake.

Did I debate cutting you at F3 if I had the chance? Yes. Was it realistic? Knowing me, no. I would have been fine losing to you in the F2, I probably would have taken you to the F2 because I don’t give a fuck, I wanted to guarantee one of us winning. Can I say that now? Honestly, I’m not sure. Do I sound like a hypocrite? Yes. Do I care? Not really. You probably thought if you voted me out I would be a vote for you, and you probably will be right.

You won two challenges this season. Congrats. Let’s see if you can win one last one.

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I am you, you are the ketchup bottle, your lies were the ketchup.

You’re doing the #WasteHerTime2017 Challenge, inspired by a queen. I would like you to analyze ALL of our conversations and post the messages where you wasted my damn time, where you told me bullshit, where you were being fake. I want timestamps, I want receipts. You can write and include anything you would like about the messages you post.

I also want you to be honest with me. Tell me the things you hate about me, the things that annoy you about me, that piss you off. I can tell there were times you were mad at me and I want you to be upfront about it.

I say all of this with very harsh love, because at the end of the day, I do love you. I do want to be friends. But that does not guarantee you my vote.

Good luck,

From Booboo the fool.

Okay this is the first question we got and its the last one im answering. I basically wrote an entire draft of this question doing what you told me and structuring this answer and you know what im not sending that. Im going to just go into a headspace where i can be genuine with you, and im going to type out how i feel, and them im not going to reread this answer, im not going to edit it, im just gonna send it. Rob, im not fake. Our friendship was not fake. I care about you so much as a friend, maybe to you my actions in the game didnt reflect that and i don't even know where to start. Your friendship meant a lot to me, and im not ignorant to the fact that i could not have made it this far in the game without you. You were extremely loyal and i felt like had someone who was truly looking out for me. Rob i was so loyal to you for almost the entire game and multiple times i did have the intention of taking you to the end completely, but when final 4 hit, i struggled so fuck hard rob i really really struggled. I told you i was going to tie it and i planned on it but it was all because of how much i cared about you but in the back of my mind i knew it was a bad move, i knew it was a final 3 and id be pissing off the 2 people that id go to final 3 with, and it would mean that id be solidifying my position as a 3rd place for the second time in a row. I really really had to seperate game and emotion and while that my biggest strength, i absolutely hate the fact that i hurt you, rob idk what else to say to you i cant make you believe me but i was there for you through everything. I was never someone who tried to make you dependant on me, whenever you brought up your problems i only ever told you that you were a smart guy who deserves self confidence, i always tried to help being a happier person and to truly love yourself and see yourelf as a the kind person we all see you as in this game. This answer is getting long af but so was your question so imma just keep but rambling. Rob theres nothing that i hate about you. I delete the first draft of my answer because im not supporting your self destructive question, its a way to hurt me and way to hurt yourself and it completely takes anything fun out of this game. As someone whos preached self love to you, im not going to do what you said and make you hate yourself or hurt your feelings over a jury vote. If you don't wanna vote for me for not exposing your personal messages and being mean you, then don't vote for me. And id be completely lying because i have nothing ill to say about you. Okay, thats all, im sorry, i really really hope you forgive me

Okay! So.. I guess it’s no secret now that yes, I did in fact give Rob my idol to play on himself at final 5. I felt bad because we all attacked him in the immunity challenge and I thought Abel’s idol was actually real so I wanted to give him a fair chance to compete in a fire making challenge and see who really wanted to be here. I didn’t have any intensions on Abel to leave but that is just how the cookie crumbled and I don’t regret doing this for Rob.

Now let me describe my relationship with the jury. I’m gonna be nothing but honest here.

Luke. I’ve known Luke for a little while now and I actually played my first ORG with him. We both just played Switzerland together and believe it or not, we actually worked together. Like I said in my rights of passage, I had all intensions on working with Luke in this game but, shit happens! Looking back now, I think Luke leaving actually benefited my game. There was so much talk about a Switzerland alliance (which was not real but I did want to start one since people already thought there was one) so when people saw that we actually voted against each other, I think that opened people’s eyes that wow, okay, this is actually a whole different game and just because of past relationships, anything can happen. I personally love Luke and love that he like’s all my Facebook/ IG post. A real hunt owo.

Stevie. I’ve played past games with Stevie and.. We never really clicked. We’re both completely opposite people with different interest. We never worked together so I pretty much assumed it would be the same in this game. I tried talking to Stevie and tried connecting with him but the only thing we connected about were bears. But… I’m not complaining! That being said, I respect Stevie and would love to get to know him outside of the game, but in the game, we never worked together and never were going to work together because I couldn’t see myself trusting him after he tried to blindside me. But I’d love to get to know more about him and talk more about bears.

Mearl. Mearl is someone that I knew nothing about. I had no past relationship with him so I needed to start a relationship with him from the start. We would talk from time to time but it would jus be the basic game talk. Like “have you heard anything about the vote?” “Oh I heard so and so say this.” But I was very careful with what I told Mearl because I was petrified of him. Going on the Great Lakes wiki and seeing that he won almost every single challenge, I knew he would be competition. I didn’t want him on my bad side at all because I also feared he had an idol. So I would just do my friendly talks with him without giving out any game information and I was thrilled to see he added me in his majority alliance because I feared being on his radar so bad. I respect Mearl so much as a game player.

Tommy. Knowing nothing about Tommy and hearing people talk about how ‘Cutthroat’ is he actually has been in other games, scared me. I would try to talk to Tommy as much as possible, but it was hard. It was so hard to connect with Tommy. Nothing against him, it’s just, we’re totally different people with not much in common. Tommy can talk for hours and I’m more of a person to just have one daily normal conversation a day. I knew Tommy was targeting me for multiple rounds so when we did talk, I would always try to be very careful at what game talk I would actually say without revealing anything. I slipped up a couple of times though but I backtracked and saved myself. Hopefully Tommy and I can talk after this game and clear everything up that really happened.

Crow. Crow helped my game so much. Without him, I may not even be here. He stuck his neck out for me without even knowing who I was so when Crow left, it was definitely hard. I get Crow is mad right now but I respect him so much as a person and a game player and everything I said to him after he tried to vote me out was just a joke and I meant nothing by it. Crow is someone I would 100% want to be friends with outside of this game.

Sid. I knew a little bit about Sid from what other people told me and I realized he’s actually very trust worthy. I wanted to be on the same tribe as him and when we weren’t, I was so glad to see him surviving Tribals because I knew we could both benefit off of each other. I was super happy when we made merge together and I’m even happier that we developed a friendship out of this game. We both helped each other’s game’s in different ways and I respect him so much. If Sid got to the end, he would be a huge competition to beat and that’s why he had to go when he did. Nothing but respect.

Abel. Rob, like you said, a lot of the cast was leaked. Abel and I applied together and we were both so fucking happy and excited to play together, again. We both just played Switzerland and when we actually started the game we realized how fucking hard this is going to be because it was no secret how close us 2 were in that game. I always saw myself protecting him and I always saw him protecting me. We would both tell each other all the information we had and go on from there. Not only was it nice having a great ally in the game, but it was nice to have a friend in the game that I could talk to about anything, not just game talk. He really did keep me sane.

Rob. I would say our relationship is very.. Odd. We rarely talked but we both saved each other. I think I had no choice but to give you my idol because you voted in my favor so many times when you could have taken me out. Honestly, thank you. I knew from what people were telling me that you actually liked me and I actually really liked you and I never would bring up your name. i don’t regret doing what I did for you and I hope you don’t regret helping me out in this game. You’re such a nice kid with a great personality and I respect you so much that I couldn’t lie to you. I really hope we can start some kind of friendship outside of this game.

Dustin. DADDY!!! I was so glad to see Dustin was playing this game. For some reason, we just clicked from day 1. For me, day 1, it was game time. Dustin and I were talking and giving each other information from the very start. I’m so happy and grateful that I got to actually officially meet him and play with him. He helped my game and I would like to say, I did the same for him. Dustin was such a great ally and I love him so fucking much. He’s someone I can say I became really good friends with inside of this game.

Amir. Ahhh! I never actually thought me and Amir would make Final 2 together. Coming into this game, Amir and I had some bad blood. But we both put that aside and knew we could really help each other in this game and make it far. We were called out day 1 for knowing each other and being friends so I can honestly say I’m shocked we’re sitting in the finals together. I love him so much.

Thanks for your question, Rob, I actually really enjoyed typing this. ;~)

OK, and with that it is now time for our Jury to vote! Jurors, you will be tasked in voting to decide Tumblr Survivor’s 56th winner. Please decide carefully. Your votes are due to your host chat by August 18th @ 8:00 PM EST.

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Luke’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

Hi final two! Before I get to saying anything I just want to thank the hosts for not only hosting a fun season but for also allowing a pre-merge flop like myself into the jury, it feels good getting to be on a jury in every main season I’ve played, even if it is just a technicality this time!

As somebody that has been out of the game for a long time it’s been pretty interesting to read both of the opening statements and see how both of you managed to ride this rollercoaster all the way to the end and it’s pretty clear that both of you are very different. Amir, you have 0 votes against you whilst Zack has 14 (I think) against him obviously both of you played different games but it got you both here so I applaud you.

Amir, I know you might be thinking that I’m going to come here and be super bitter about you stabbing me in the back and voting me out but I’m not. Not even slightly. I completely understand why you did it and I really hope that you and I can talk about what happened and work on our friendship a little more outside of the game because I absolutely adore you! You even won some immunity challenges which I knew you would because you’re one of the biggest competition threats I’ve ever met in this community.

Zack, similarly to Amir I’m sure you think that I’m probably going to be super mad for you voting me out but again, I understand. I was coming for you and you knew it so you decided to get me before I could get you. I applaud you on everything you’ve done in this because it looks like a lot and even winning a few immunity challenges after the disaster that was Switzerland is impressive so good job!

Now, I’d say that my biggest mistake in this game was trusting Amir to take out Zack with me. So my question(s) to the both of you are: What was your biggest mistake in this game? How did you handle it? How did it affect your path to the end? Did it make it easier or more difficult?

Good luck you guys!

Luke!! I absolutely adore you and I genuinely thought you were going to be so angry at me and im jury really happy you aren't and I value your friendship a lot, ok ok onto your question. I feel like my biggest mistake in this game is similar to a mistake I made in transylvania which was blindsiding people. This is something that makes me a hypocrite because in my mind, i'm like “i always wanna be told if i'm getting voted out just tell me”, but in reality, it's really not that easy. You and I both come from Big brother, so you know that survivor is so different, and you giving someone a heads up that they're being voted out can be the reason you end up leaving that vote instead. They could have an idol or alert an ally who does, or rat you out and flip the votes on you and it just becomes a risk that and you have to decide if it's one worth taking. In this game, my biggest mistake was not taking that risk most of the time. In a way, it made the game easier because there would be no resistance from the target if they had no idea if they were being voted out. It kept me moving slowly and the person leaving could no nothing to fuck up my game. However, it also made the game harder in the sense that it took an emotional toll on me and also caused a lot of people to be hurt, and it was something I knew would come back for me later in the game. I hope I was able to answer your question love u!!!

Thank you, Luke!! I’m happy to hear you hold no grudges and ily. I would say my biggest mistake in this game is letting my petty/ angry side show. Sending the dead Crow pics, a petty side of me and talking shit about Tommy, an angry side of me. I never think games should get to a personal level and I hate that I had a part in that. I’m handling it now by apologizing. Crow, the dead Crow pics was nothing but a joke. Even thought it was a joke, it clearly affected you and I apologize for that. Tommy, like I said before, I’m sorry that I talked about you and I really do think you’re a really nice person. It affected my path to the end because, look. I have to talk about it now and relive my gross moment in the game. It definitely made it harder because my emotions run wild and sometimes it’s hard to control them. Another mistake in this game was telling Abel that I had an idol. It wasn’t really a mistake but more of… Okay, idk the word so I guess it was a mistake. Because when I gave Rob my idol and then Abel played his fake one, he was waiting for me to play mine on him and it was so fucking hard to see him go like that. That was so hard for me but giving my idol to Rob wasn’t a mistake, telling Abel that I had one, I guess it was.

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Stevie’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

This is for both of you to answer.

During this game, I didn't talk much to people and didn't really have a social or strategic game here. No one even bothered to talk strategy with me, and I didn't have strong ties to anyone in the game. Why take me out so early in merge and not use me as a number?

Hello steven okay so pretty much your question is asking me why I didn't use you as a number and the reason I didn’t want to use you as a number wasn’t because I didn’t love you as a person or anything like that, it was because I already had strong relationships formed with others. By the time you and I were finally on a tribe together, I had been on a tribe with more than half the cast and had too many bonds already. I already knew I had the numbers on my side and if I were to try and form an extremely strong bond with you in this game, It would just end up being a bond that I would have to break. I felt like for my social game, it was smarter to keep my distance than to get close to you only to make you angry at me when I would vote you out. Okay das all bye

I didn't try to use you at as a number simply because I didn't want to lie to you. I knew it would be fake and I wanted to try to play this game differently then what I have done in the past. Talking to you on a game level would have been really hard for me knowing you and Luke wanted me gone so bad. It's just not something I could do and wanted to stay true to my allies who actually kept me.

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Abel’s Jury Statement

Zack: I mean I could be emotional and extra like some of the other jurors are probably going to be tonight but it’s not like you’d care either way so what’s the point. I just think it sucks that you literally ended my game on accident because you wanted to be messy for the sake of being messy since there’s no way you could have known my idol was fake so you can’t really claim this as a big move like Rob wants you too, which brings your total of big moves down to….0. You did absolutely nothing this season besides make personal attacks against EVERY JUROR (jurors feel free to pm me if you want to know specifics!) while me, Amir, and Dustin did the actual strategizing.

But regardless of that I just think it was really fucked up for you to guilt me for a whole week after my elimination for not believing you did everything in your power to save me, including calling me an asshole and telling me to fuck off etc, knowing damn well what you did. You did not need to call me for an hour at 2am on my birthday, pretend to care about my birthday, and subtly continue to guilt me for not believing you. Like bitch you couldn’t even just avoid the subject you ACTIVELY had to try to make me feel bad..for you backstabbing me. Unnecessary and honestly the sole reason I’m still upset.

I’ll just end it there because you’re not honestly gonna care. It’s unfortunate because you were the first close friend I thought I’d made since returning to tumblr and are the reason why I didn’t just leave again right after Swiss. We literally applied to this game together. Good luck winning without me defending you.

Amir: Call Zack obese and bald in Amharic, Mandarin, Spanish, Portuguese, and English

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Crow’s Jury Statement

Amir, thank you for insulting my intelligence throughout as if I didn't see you being the mastermind from merge onwards, you rightfully earned your title as ass kisser. Also, P.S. We are not a showmance because I don't play with fuckboys. Zack, you posted pictures of a dead crow after the only big move attempt of the entire game, but frankly, I'd rather be called a dead bird than to be exposed as a bleating goat. Good day. :)

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Dustin’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

what was my favorite nude i sent you?

Personally i really like the fully naked frontal ones with the fire emoji on the crotch because they always end up being the ones i accidentally open in public also they're hot

JDNDJJDKDJ. Honestly you sent so much I don't even fucking remember.. Probably the first one you sent because it was so off guard and so funny that you actually sent it djdjjdjd.

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Matt’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

Congratulations Zach and Amir for doing what everybody else failed to do. Nobody can take this accomplishment away from you no matter what you did to get here… however, it is now our duty to decide whose journey is more worthy of winning this game. I, for one, am not a bitter juror, nor will I base my vote on in game friendships. I don’t even care about your speeches or how you answer other people’s questions. My vote will be based solely on how you answer these following questions. I’m looking for completely honest answers here.

1. On a scale of 1-10 how confident are you that you will be crowned the winner? Give me a whole number and ONLY a number. No explanation on why you gave your self this number.

2. In 100 words or less (or 45 seconds or less if you are making a video response) tell me why YOU played the better game. Only talk about yourself.

3. In 100 words or less (or 45 seconds or less if you are making a video response) tell me why your F2 opponent played a worse game. Do NOT use this as an opportunity to further tout your own game, keep it focused on them… question 2 is your chance to promote your own game. I want to hear about the flaws and mis steps of you opponent here.

For instance this is ok: “my opponent only won 1 immunity while I won 5. They weren’t a big physical threat in this game” And this is NOT: “my opponent only won one immunity while I won 5 and the 5 I won were the hardest to win. I was such a big physical threat and still made it to the finals”.

1. 8 2. I played the strongest social game, getting 0 votes cast against me all season while constantly making sure I was considered a strong player but never the immediate threat. I positioned myself in a 4 person alliance, with Sid and Rob on the outside of the alliance but both being the most loyal to me. I also tied for most immunity wins while throwing the majority of them to keep my target low. I cut people left and right and I feel like my game play truly embodied the theme of Cutthroat. 3. Zack played a game dependant on other people, with minimal effort to position himself while being carried by others. He would have been voted out in multiple votes such as the tommy vote or during the second swap had it not been for me. Due to a lack of social game, he was often the target of many votes, proving he failed at making himself seem valuable to others. Competitively, he won 1 final immunity while I won 2. Strategically, he went along with plans as opposed to taking control and creating them.

1: 6

2: I never gave up. I had votes cast against me almost every round and still held by head up high and fought my ass off. I may have only won 1 challenge but, fuck, I tried in every single challenge. I been to every tribal besides 1 and here I am, sitting at the end. My social ties to the people I was loyal to got me to where I was and I tried not to be nothing but honest this game and play a whole different way then I usually do. Day 1-now, I’m still standing and fought.

3: Amir didn’t have to fight as hard as I did. He was to scared to be honest with people so he just lied to them. Him making deals with people and blatantly lying to them was not strategy for him. He was to much of a pussy to be upfront and honest when voting someone out and he would tell me everything and shit talk everyone not even game related. He was scared so he hid behind people hence why he got no votes and I got all of them bc I was honest & not scared.

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Sid’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

I'm proud of you both for making it so far. Congratulations, because you deserve that much at least. Zack, I really respect your resilience. You played this game with a tight core, and let them protect you even when everyone aimed to target you. No bad blood for the votes, since I did the same. I really hope we can be friends after the game. My question to you is...without Amir's social tact and connections, do you feel like you did enough socially and strategically? Explain how your own social and strategic game shined through, because I know it was there!!! Good luck. Amir...I don't think I've ever put my complete self and loyalty in anyone like I did with you. And you completely played me. I'm trying not to be bitter, but I was, and am, upset. I don't know why you did what you did. Explain to me, were you ever loyal to me? Were we friends? Prove to me that you weren't a game bot. I'm not disrespecting your game, or saying you didn't play amazingly. You most certainly did, but I'll have a hard time voting for someone who didn't think twice about taking me out when I was so so so fucking invested in you.

Sid I want you to know that nothing about our friendship is fake. Voting you out was by far one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do in a game. It was something I was dreading doing the entire game, something that genuinely took a toll on me and was extremely tough to do. I don't know how you view me, I’m not a game bot, and I’m not emotionless when I make moves the way I do. I know you're hurt and I know you're angry with me and you’re feelings are completely valid, I just want you to know how much your friendship means to me, I talked to you more than anyone, you and abel, and the majority of time you and I talked it wasn't about game. Talking to you genuinely made me happy, it was something I look forward to and I equate it to happy thoughts, like playing videogames while talking about dua lipa and thirsting over bb players. I don't know what else to say, it was so hard for me to separate my emotions from the game but that's what I did when I voted you out, but this answer isn't about game. Idk sid i'm just so fucking sorry if you aren't my friend after this game I will be crushed

We 100% can be friends outside of this game. I love you so much, you know that. I feel like, with or without Amir, I could have made it to the end of the game. Having Amir with me was just something special for me. The only thing Amir would do for me was tell me what he heard. I had several people tell me what they heard, not just him. With that, I would have to go out there and campaign for myself. I would have to go out there and play dumb and act like I didn’t know this person said my name and I would have to go out there and sway them in a different way. Amir had no strategic impact on me, and had a little social impact on me. I would be on call with you and Abel planning on what to do without him, I would be on call with Dom planning on what to do and how to save myself and him. I wasn’t with Amir this whole game. I did what I had to do, socially and strategically, to get to where I am right now. There’s stuff I said in this game that he has no idea about. I played my own game and looked out for not only myself but my allies. Ily Sid.

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Tommy’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

Hello Final 2, this has been a weird Redemption Island/South Pacific/One world type season where there was basically no power shifts all season and the same people ran things over and over but alas I'm not going to ask you about your strategy on how nobody in the alliance and the alliances goats didn't flip on the alliance but rather I have a question about your social games. As each juror came in they would tell me that both of you (Sid and Dustin included) would constantly talk behind my back, and not just negative stuff gamewise but as a person and how much the other of you don't like me as a person so my question is what is all the bad stuff you said about me behind my back? If you leave something out that has gotten back to me you will not be getting my vote and if either of you leave something out don't be afraid to call the other finalist out for leaving something out. Peace.

Hey Tommy, okay i'm just gonna go ahead and answer this question as straightforward and as honest as i possibly can. I do not dislike you as a person but I did dislike you in this game. I wanna go back to when we were on a tribe together. I genuinely liked you, that's the honest truth but I could not work with you because to me, i felt like you refused to compromise on who you wanted to vote out and that left me with no choice but to blindside you. After that, I had heard briefly from Abel that you said you found me shady which is 100% fair, I understood that and I still hadn't said a single thing about you. However, at some point, you were messaging me every single day and trying to have genuine convos about our personal lives and I was happy talking to you, until I found out from literally half the tribe that you have been bringing my name up EXCESSIVELY. It was to the point that I heard “he can't go 10 minutes on call without talking about you”. I heard you had went through my transylvania confessionals, were using them against me, and was telling every single person they could not trust me. Now to what I said about you, straight up, I called you fake as fuck. I thought it was so disingenuous how you would try and talk to me every single day while trashing me to everyone else and was not able to see you as a genuine person. I also said it was sociopathic how fake you could be with me, but I own up to being a hypocrite because I can be that fake when targetting someone as well. Anything I ever said about you personally, had to do with you in the game, not you as a person outside the game. I called you fake, and i called you obsessive with how bad you wanted me out. Do I regret saying this? Yeah I 100% do but it is how I felt in the moment and I have always said to certain people on this cast and in my confessionals that I think you're a nice guy and I just disliked you in the game. I don't dislike you out of the game and have had a decent friendship with you before this game started. I hope I wasn't too blunt, but I didn't want to leave anything unsaid.

Hello. I guess it’s no secret anymore that a few of us would talk about you. From what I can remember we would only really talk about you on call. Dustin, Amir, Abel and I would have nightly calls every once in a while and sometime Abel, Sid and I would have calls. I’m just gonna be honest. We said you were a little annoying because you would talk so much and you can go on and on with a conversation and never stop. It was more of a threatening thing because that means you had a really good social game and it could have came from jealousy. I know I also said some personal things about you to people but it was all out of anger and in the heat of the moment. I don’t regret saying you talk to everyone so much because I said that out of jealousy and I can own up to that. But, I do regret getting a little personal and letting my anger get the best of me because that should never be taken into a game. I’m willing to talk to you after this game is over and sort it all out and I’m sorry that I said what I said.

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Opening Statments

Hello hey, okay so this is my opening statement and I’m gonna try and keep it concise and not bore you all to death, but first I wanna say thank you to Sam for hosting this season! Eddie and austin you guys did ok too. When you look at my game from afar, it seems simple, I made it to the end with no votes cast against me, however what you don’t know is the constant strategies that went behind that. I want to take this opportunity to analyze the different aspects of my game as well as just kinda breakdown how I worked my way to the end.

My social game was a huge part of why I’m sitting here right now. With the way the game worked out, the swaps left me at a disadvantage at some point because the first swap, I didn't get anyone from my original tribe and on the the second swap, I only had Zack and Luke. It felt frustrating constantly being separated from my allies and having to struggle to create new ones, but come merge time, I had been on a tribe with almost every single person in the game and I was able to use that to my advantage. I was able to build strong genuine friendships that I truly did care about and I still do care about, however I had no qualms about using them to further my strategic game. Some of the moves I made with these relationships truly were so hard for me to make and I still own up to them but I truly am sorry to anyone I hurt that was never my intention.

My strategic game was arguably the strongest part of my game. I'm not going to pretend that I was a loyal kind player in a gameplay perspective because I wasn’t and I 100% own that. I maneuvered my way to the end while remaining untouched and a huge part of it was due to the fact that I would use people like chess pieces until I had absolutely no use for them anymore, and then Id cut them before they could catch onto my game. An example of this is with Mearl, I was on call with Mearl building a close bond so he would tell me the idol clues, and then I found the idol right then and there on call and after that I had nothing else to gain from my alliance with him (ily mearl im sorry).

After building a ton of relationships premerge, it was time to truly use them at the merge. I quickly joined a strong power alliance of Abel Zack and Dustin which were a core 4. However, 4 people were not majority for a lot of the early merge, but we were still able to control early merge through gaining numbers on our side, while hiding the fact that we even had a side. The main 2 numbers that the alliance had were Rob and Sid, however Rob and Sid were both closer to me then they were to anyone else in the alliance which meant that the voting block benefited me the most and put me in the strongest position. This voting block kept my name off the chopping block and I was able to use it to take out Stevie and Mearl. At this point, the minority of Crow Tommy and Dom woke up, but it was too late by then, I had a solidified strong bond with Rob and the alliance had cemented their bonds with each other and with Sid. We quickly got rid of Crow and Dom, then I started cutting those who were close to me one by one. First with Sid, who was arguably the best at immunities left and was extremely likable. Final 5 I knew was going to be an idol fest which is why I had kept mine that long. And then at the final 4, I knew Rob had a strong story being the last person in the game not in the alliance and I cut him, and then took out Dustin in the 3 because I knew he would be able to answer the jury questions strongly (not kissing your ass i promise!!) and because I felt like I had a better chance at beating Zack.

Im so sorry yall had to read all that and I thank u a lot if u did. I hope I was able show you the strengths of my game as well as own up to the game I played with full honesty. Okay now drag with those questions i promise to give the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth and I can't wait to talk to y'all after the game.

Hi everyone! Okay so.. Let’s just get into this.. I had to start playing this game from day 1. I have been to every single tribal council except on day 38 when I won individual immunity. Round 1 my name was thrown out there from Nehe so I teamed up with Dustin and Amir and fought my ass off to get those votes to stay. I even formed something secretively with Crow and I got Dustin, Amir and Crow to vote Nehe out with me. Next was Liana. Liana was not targeting me at all and I absolutely love Liana but she was targeting Crow that round. Crow has just saved me the round before and I gave Crow my word and I knew in the future I can see myself working with Crow over Liana so unfortunately, I had to play Liana. Then we had Bodhi! This is the round where Jaiden and I aligned and I still had loyalty to Crow. So when Bodhi was out there spreading my name to Jaiden, Jaiden would come right back to me and tell me all that was said, which led up to us blindsiding Bodhi. Dom voted against me this round and I used that to my advantage. I played the pity card with Dom. Telling him how much I loved him and I’m upset he would try to get me out. I was on call with Dom for 6 hours getting him on my side, and it worked. The next couple of votes, Dom voted with me instead of against me, again. After Bodhi, we unfortunately had to say goodbye to Jaiden. This is when both tribes went to tribal. And fortunately, Amir, was on the opposite tribe of me, telling me everything that was going on. Amir told me it was either between me or Jaiden and Amir was fighting for Jaiden to go over me. So unfortunately, I had to jump ship with Jaiden and just sell him out. I definitely did not want to do that, because I love Jaiden and he helped me the round before in this game, but it’s just something that had to be done. Then we had Luke!! This is were it gets a little more harder for me. Luke would tell everything to Amir and Amir would just tell me all the information that he would say. I really wanted to work with Luke, but Luke did not realize how close me and Amir were, and he slipped up and told Amir how he wants me and Abel split up. It’s no secret that Luke, Abel and I have all played Switzerland together, and it’s no secret how close me and Abel came in that game. So when Luke was using that against me and telling Amir that he wants to split us up, I knew that round I had to get him before he got me. Me, Abel, Amir & i got Dom to vote Luke out. I didn’t want this to happen because I really meant it when I said I wanted to work with Luke, but Luke just really wanted me out so again, it just had to be done. Now we’re at merge and the next person to go was Stevie! Stevie and I haven’t really spoken and I know he was 100% on board with voting me out with Luke so I knew whatever he would say to me, was just to try to save himself. Voting Stevie out was strictly game and I know from past experience how good Stevie is, so letting him go further into the merge was very dangerous. Again, Stevie targeted me that round and I still got people on my side to vote with me. Then there was Mearl!!!!! Honestly, I don’t really remember this round because it was one of the messiest rounds ever.. Mearl, you’re iconic, but you came for Abel and Abel was one of my ride or dies and I couldn’t let him go out so we had to strike. Also I got Mearl to vote out Abel over me, even though Mearl and Abel were literally on call debating on who to vote out. Then it was Tommy. Tommy, no offense, but this was the easiest vote for me this season. You talked to everybody in this cast and had an amazing social game. I’ve had several people tell me that you would be on call with them and talking to them non stop. You were against me most of the rounds so voting you out was the best move for me. Having someone who isn’t on my side and has a great social game like that, could not make it further in this game. Crow leaving was hard for me. This is when the game got really harder for me because I really did form bonds with you all and talking to you all and being together everyday and then just voting each other out and being at each other’s throats is never easy. Crow, I hate that you went during an instant and didn’t have a chance to fight for yourself. Sid, I adore you. The night Crow left, yes I did vote against you, BUT, Crow was making very good points and I know you still had your challenge disadvantage and I knew there was a big chance you would use that on me because I knew how close you and Abel were and I always thought you would want me gone to become closer with Abel and be Abel’s ride or die. Abel, it was so hard seeing you leave like that. I would hate to see anybody leave like that so it was even worse when it was you. Rob, you were amazing, but it all came down to loyalty for me in the end. Dustin and Amir had my back all game and stuck their necks out for me from day 1 and I had to repay them. Dustin, I’m honored and glad I made final 3 with you and I apologize for targeting you in the board game, but I knew you messaged Amir for a final 2 and not me and I knew Amir was gonna take me, so it had to be done. Just to sum this all up, I never gave up in this game. I fought my ass of from day 1 all the way to day 42. I’ve received FOURTEEN (14) votes this season, so I must be some kind of threat. I never went home because I aligned with the right people and people who would come back and tell me all the stuff you would all say and how you all wanted me gone and I managed to get them to vote with me and now I’m in the final 2. Making it to the end and receiving all those votes and being the target for most of ya’ll in the tribal councils has to say at least something. At the end of the day, this was such a fun game to play, I made some great friends and I really hope you all vote for me. <3 P.S. I suck at grammar so sorry if everything is fucked.

The Jury’s questions/statements will be due August 16th, at 10:00 pm EST.

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Immunity Results - Day 42

Amir has won individual immunity! Congratulations, Amir, you have won a spot into the final 3!

For the other 3, tribal council will await where one of you will unfortunately be the 8th member of our jury.

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Immunity - Day 41

Today we will be doing a Scavenger Hunt.

You must take a selfie(s) with items on the list below. If you do not wish to take a selfie, then you can substitute yourself with the name of our season on a piece of paper.

Each picture is worth a certain point value. The person with the most amount of points will win individual immunity!

Here are some quick rules to abide by:

1. The photo itself contains the point value. Not the quantity of items inside the picture. 2. One photo per point you’re looking to receive. Don’t send me 40 of the same photo expecting them all to count. 3. You cannot photoshop yourself into a picture, nor can you google these images and take pictures of yourself looking at google images. Don’t be lame 4. In the event of a tie, whoever submitted first will receive the immunity Here is your list:

5 Points: -A picture of a knife -A picture of a snail -A picture of a crocodile -A picture of a tattoo -A picture of a manatee -A video of you dabbing -A painting of the word “Cutthroat” (Paint used must be included)

10 Points: -A video of you singing the original Teen Titans theme song -A picture of the superman symbol -A picture with another person from the Tumblr Survivor community -A picture with a Survivor/Big Brother player -A picture of the name of your favorite host written across your forehead -A video of you saying “Cutthroat Island!” in a halloween costume 15 Points: -A video of you eating a bowl of ramen -A video of you making out with a mop (mop-side up) -A picture of you with fireworks -A picture with you and any snapchat filter -A video of you twerking

20 Points: -A picture of a cake you baked with all of the hosts names on it -A video of you singing a 3-minute song written by you about any one of the hosts

Your submissions are due to the host chat by 10:00 PM EST on August 14th. Good luck!

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Rites of Passage - Day 40

Listen to this as you read along...

Amir: i donut kn0w u but i am $ure you are a nice person and am looking forward to meeting u

Dustin: We never got to truly meet, however i know that you are a strong player, and good enough to make onto this season.

Rob: Ali <3 I’m still annoyed that Bodhi was originally planning to flip on you. I knew you were going to be loyal to our alliance and the fact that our hard work did not pay off because of an idol play and for it to end the way that it did was so depressing. It was an iconic first boot though.

Amir:

Dustin: oh Nehe, bud you were just a bundle of energy and I wish i would have been able to contain you. I truly did want to vote with you, however i was the one that lead the charge for you to be voted for the challenge. I just couldnt trust you fully, and i obviously made the right decision sticking my neck out for Amir & Zack. Sorry bud that this wasn’t the season for you because I know how excited you were to play.

Rob: We haven’t talked since Arendelle and then I ended up hosting you in Bouvet. That was an experience but rip I might share the same fate as you. You were taken out because of the mysterious vote which sucks.

Zack: Honestly… You tried me! And everything you said about, was actually true. That’s why you had to go. But it was nice talking to you.

Amir:

Dustin: Liana we have met a few times here and there, but i mostly know you through your husband. He was a honor to host in bora bora and he always talked about you in it. One day i wish i could find my final two like you have. Tell Chips I say hello.

Rob: I think that at this point of the game you were in the middle of moving if I remember correctly with Chips. I like you, but i’m glad I didn’t have to play with you because I would have been terrified from the last time we played together.

Zack: M O M M Y ! I love you so much and I’m sorry we turned against each other once again but honestly just know how much I love you.

Amir: I was really excited to play with you and you were fucking robbed so early ily

Dustin: we spoke just a few times, but you sounded like such a fun guy and I think we could have done something special, unfortunately for the both of us, it just wasn't this game.

Rob: Our relationship is rocky. Right now you’re at camp, and when you get back you’ll read this and see you won Bouvet. Congrats hehe, however, I don’t know what you were thinking in this game, you were a hot mess and I’m pretty sure you acknowledge it too.

Zack: Crackt king! You wanted me gone though so I just had to strike before you did! Really hope we can talk outside of here though because I think you’re hilarious.

Amir: i liek u and im glad we’re friends again but u lied to me 2 much in the game luv u tho

Dustin: Ohh Jaiden i fought so hard to not go to that tribal that got you out. Maybe if I would have given up you wouldn’t have gotten out. Life works in mysterious way I guess, and survivor is a game of what if’s. I know how much you love this game, this community ,and yourself. You truly are a one of a kind and its a pleasure to know I finally got a play a game with the infamous Jaiden Hantz.

Rob: I liked you, personally. The confessional you wrote in Bahamas made me cry, it was a rough time for me and I couldn’t handle a lot of things. Coming into this game, I could not trust you at all. I know you were excited, but at this point, I played with you a lot and the plans you come up with would screw me over in the end. I feel bad about the whole ordeal with the joint tribal, but you wanting me to be your goat and pretending you were leaving when Liana left was not nice.

Zack: Crackt king pt 2! Honestly every time I play with you, I never know what to expect. But that’s what I love about you. You’re a legend.

Amir: RIFP

Dustin: I never trusted you from Day 1, which is so funny to think about. You were so shady when you won that challenge and voted out Zack on Magyi with Nehe. I wish we could have had a battle of the century, but alas it was not meant to be.

Rob: You being removed was bittersweet. On one hand, the reason you were removed was dumb and I was infuriated for you as a player and as a friend. On another hand, you were dangerous and such a snake. If you made the merge you would have been a force to be reckoned with. It’s been so long since I first met you and you were one of my first friends in the community. So thank you.

Amir: I genuinely care about you so much and you know that and I don't know what else to say, I had to do what I did and I 100% own up to it, but yeah ily

Dustin: Luke i have heard alot about you, but I never got to hear anything from you. Our games never crossed paths, and i never got to know you. I wish we could have spoke more, and thats one of my regrets from premerge is not being social enough to the other tribes because my favorite part of these games is truly meeting people from all over this planet that all have one thing in common. A love for this game.

Rob: I love you, I really do. First, I want to apologize for the things that happened OUTSIDE the game. I took it way too far and I know you’re upset about it. About the game, I don’t think we clicked. We didn’t talk nor were we really allied. I couldn’t trust you, and I wanted you gone early. I just don’t think you were in the right mindset for this game.

Zack: Another one who tried me!! I honestly would have LOVED if me you and Abel had a lowkey alliance but you just weren’t feeling it! You know I love you though and don’t take any of this personal and hope you do the same!

Amir: ILYSM and im upsetti that you didn't make merge, i was so excited to play with you and tbh you're too good for us

Dustin: Cole, your boot was one of the hardest ones for me, and changed my path on this game. I truly did want you to be ride or die. However you were being shady right before tribal and Mearl got me to throw my vote onto Sherry which put the nail in your coffin. I wish I could have stuck with you, but you were just too unpredictable to be a ride or die. I am glad we squashed our beef from BBHell cause you truly are one funny guy.

Rob: I had no problem with you. I was the ONLY person to vote with you and yet you remove me as a contact while we were in another game together. You added me back, and I would not have been mad if you won at all. You played a good game with what was given and I’m hurt that you don’t feel the same way. I did want to be friends with you after both of our games but if you don’t then that’s fine I guess.

Amir:

Dustin: Oh Sherry, you added some much needed energy and fun to this game. I will never forget you quizzing Cole at tribal council. It sucks that we got put against each other, but we never got to truly get over it and become allies. You are for sure someone I will never forget, and i wont forget your idol either ;)

Rob: We did not connect with each other and I think it’s really my fault. For that I apologize, you work hard to help young people which I really respect. You wanted to work with me but you are such a good player and I was worried about your relationship with Sid as well. You didn’t talk much, which I understand, you had the class and work. Even then, you still managed to turn things around for yourself. I panicked when you threw my name when we merged but I think we managed to clear the air. Whether you would have worked with me or not is a mystery, to me at least, but it’s sad you were taken out by a medevac.

Amir: Hello Steven aka pharmacy daddy i wish we got to talk more throughout the game and im sorry for how things worked out

Dustin: Stevie, you had such bad luck at this merge. I wish we had a closer connection so that I could have fought for you to stay. However after voting in the minority I didn’t have enough wiggle room to get a vote going. You’re a rad guy and the main chat was always a little bit quieter without you there.

Rob: I think you had a certain level of trust in me, but it wasn’t reciprocated from my part. I was weary of whether you would try to cut me at some point in the game after the Arctic Circle vote. I was sad because I really wanted to work with you and Sam in that game and you two were the main reason I voted Roxy which screwed me over big time. Admittedly, when you joined Akyab I wanted Seamus instead but you voted with the majority and kept me safe from my blunder so thank you. You were someone that I was worried about coming into merge but there had already been such a huge target on your back that almost everyone wanted you gone.

Zack: Bring me to bears week next year please.

Amir: Im scared to compliment literally anyone cuz I was voted biggest ass kisser FEWJBHBF but i promise i'm being genuine when I say you’re one of the strongest players I’ve come to play with in a game and in just the way you spoke and how you played the game I could tell how much of a fucking threat you were, I hope you 4give me.

Dustin: Now you for one caused alot of chaos in this game. I wanted to trust you so desperately. I was told by all my friends that you were loyal to your alliance in other games, and so desperately wanted to be the Becky to your Yul. However you were just Chaos Kass. You threw me into a loop making so many alliances, and excluding me from some. I wish we could have just talked things through and had no more messy votes like you said.

Rob: I was really hurt by you on a game level. When we swapped together you were someone that I wanted to work with and I did trust you. During the Cole vote, you were playing everyone and I do believe that it hurt your game. It exposed you as an unreliable person and lost the trust you had with a lot of people. And then the night you leave you wanted me, Tommy, and Dustin to vote in the minority against Zack when you voted Abel? Grr. You were such a huge threat and I hoped that you at least had fun at Florida not worrying about this game. Andreas told me he met you hehe.

Zack: I honestly wish we talked more! But I heard you were against me and you also started to start an alliance with like over half the cast. But I sure do love crackt antics so I stan!

Amir: Despite you making it your mission in this game to destroy me, I actually do have a lot of respect for you as a player, and I know you targeting me wasn’t personal but still I had no choice but to try and destroy your game back. You're a nice guy

Dustin: Tommy you are such a pure soul. I felt like I could talk to you about anything, and I hope you felt the same way. You truly made this game feel like survivor with the constant talking and getting to know people. You kept energy alive around camp, and once you left it seemed as if people didn’t talk as much as they used too. I wish we could have stuck together longer as the minority alliance. However the cards just weren’t there. I wish i could have told you the truth about it, but idolmania makes us all paranoid. No hard feelings Tommy, you are an amazing social player.

Rob: You have all the reason in the world to hate me. You trusted me so much and I ended up backstabbing you. Because of the crocodile bite, if I had voted with you, you would not have gone home. I didn’t. I voted against you, told the people you were targeting about your plans with Crow and Dom, and made you look like Booboo the fool. It was entirely a game decision. I love you. You were someone I really liked and trusted but I don’t think I would have made it where I am right now if I flipped with you. I hope that after this game is all said and done we can be friends again. You can berate me and say I’m the worst when you finally get the opportunity, but I hope you can forgive me. I’m sad that you unfollowed me on tumblr : (

Zack: It was great getting to know you! You tried getting me out several times so I just had to turn on you. No hard feelings and I hope the same from you <3

Amir: you are not a nice guy

Dustin: God Dom, you caused me so much stress in this game without you doing anything. We never did get to forgive and forget what happened in BBHell last year, and I think because of that we just were always meant to be on opposite sides of the coin. One day I know we will cross paths again and I think then we will bury the hatchet, but until then, ill keep the hatchet firmly in my hand.

Rob: Personally, I don’t see what other people were talking about. I think you’re a nice guy, but I must not see what others are seeing. I’m sad we weren’t close in this game, you were someone I was looking forward to working with. I think you fell into a bad spot and I knew I couldn’t work with you if I wanted to make it further into this game. It disappointed me that it seemed like you gave up and would have liked to see some fight left in you. We still have our streak though!

Zack: Honestly robbed legend.

Amir: You are a charming guy and I really really wanted to work closely with you, but I felt like you didn't make much of an effort to reply to me and on top of that the direction I took my game in didn't involve you so it was my fault too but I still consider you my showmance, also you were so fucked over by that instant

Dustin: The next OG Magyi voted off after Nehe, I never could tell where you stood in this game, whether with me or against me. I think because of that I always assumed the worst. It sucks you got screwed over because of one move you made. But I guess that’s just how the game works. Who knows maybe if it wasn’t an instant tribal and there was a immunity challenge, who knows what the game would be like right now. But i guess that is just how the game goes.

Rob: You were screwed over by the freaking instant tribal. You had no chance of possibly winning immunity which was the only way I saw that you could have saved yourself. I think that the reason you were put into such a terrible spot in the first place was because I had exposed you as trying to flip the game. I couldn’t vote with you when Tommy left, people saw you as such a huge threat, you were smart, you had the double vote, you were a likable person to the jury. If pulled off the Zack vote then you would have made a huge game move and you were going to win this thing.

Zack: CROWWWWWW!!! I’ll never forget round 1 when you stuck your neck out for me. I know you turned on me but I had to pay you back for saving me round 1 that’s why I voted Sid out the round you left with you (sorry Sid, oops) but your vote got cancelled anyway so it didn’t really matter :/ Love you tho.

Amir: I don't even know what to say, Sid im so so so so sorry, I don't wanna sound like im not owning my move, I own it and im proud of it but I hope you know how important you are to me and yeah you’ve made the past month so fun for me and I wouldnt be saying that if i didnt mean it,

Dustin: God Sid I wish i was as smart as you. I was always so afraid you didn’t like me because of the cole vote off when i voted Sherry. But i just wanted to say I am so glad i faced my fears and made up with you. Going on calls with you and just comparing notes are some of my favorite moments because i never thought that would happen just a few weeks ago. I so badly wanted to work with you, however you are just too good of a player on all fronts. I hope you take it as a compliment we took you out, no hard feelings, and i’ll tell Torsa you say hello.

Rob: I find it funny. In Bangladesh, I was obsessed with getting out the Maldives people, and in this game, it was sort of the same story. We didn’t play together but I heard MANY stories about you. You were super smart and dangerous which was why I was against you and Sherry. I didn’t talk to you after that because there’s no reason being fake and talking to you every single day. When we did eventually talk the day of the instant tribal, it solidified for me that you had to go. I didn’t have a good relationship with you, but that one conversation made me think otherwise which showed you could flip things around for you. You controlled a lot of what happened this game and had a damn good shot at winning. You didn’t get a multiple of seven this time too so congrats.

Zack: Okay, Hi, LEGEND. I love you and I had to vote you out because of your challenge advantage thing but I really hope we talk outside of this game and I really hope I can consider you a friend because I’d love to talk to you some more.

Amir: Hey cunt u know how i feel about you and i’m so lucky i was able to meet you through this game and i consider you a close friend after this game and your ass is the only ass id kiss mwah (heart)

Dustin: Abel, you getting Cirie’d truly broke my heart. Some tears were shed for sure, but you know me I cry during everything. You were one of my best friends in this game and we were on hours of calls together just gossiping about the game like school girls, and you helped me out of a really rough breakup through every step of it, and every crazy text and phone call. You are someone you don’t just meet everyday and I truly mean that. You are an amazing person, player, and overall, friend. If i was going to lose to anyone I wanted it to be you, but just know I am going to try my hardest to win for you Abel. If one good thing came out of this game, it was truly our friendship. Abel I truly do love you, and don’t let you get cirie’d get you down, you’re a winner in my book.

Rob: Abel, I am sorry. I thought you were going to make the end and win this thing because you were such a huge threat. I never heard of fake idols being planted by the hosts before so I was shocked when it turned out to be fake. I really do want to thank you, so much, for telling me about everyone’s plan to and you should be proud of the game you played. Like you offered to me, after this game if you want to talk, I’m available because under the circumstances, it was either going to be you or me. I need to apologize for the things I said that night because I did go overboard, but the thoughts, they were genuine. Like we had talked about before, I do have problems that I’m trying to handle and I am trying my best. I enjoyed our calls, you were an easy person to talk to and I felt that you were sincere in wanting to know everyone.

Zack: Honestly… The HARDEST round for me. To watch you go :( You know how much you mean to me already.. I love you.

#AnyoneButMe

Tribal Council #11 - Day 38

Zack has won individual immunity after a 2-hour live competition.

If anyone has a hidden immunity idol and would like to play it, then now would be the time to do so....

*Dustin stands*

*Amir stands*

*Rob stands*

*Abel stands*

*Zack stands*

Dustin/Amir/Rob/Abel: We would like to play our idols.

Zack: I would like to play my idol on Abel

Dustin...This IS a hidden immunity idol. All votes for Dustin will not count. Amir...This IS a hidden immunity idol. All votes for Amir will not count. Rob...This IS a hidden immunity idol. All votes for Rob will not count. Abel...This IS NOT a hidden immunity idol. All votes for Abel WILL count. Zack...This IS NOT a hidden immunity idol. All votes for Abel WILL count.

Unfortunately, Abel, you are the only one vulnerable tonight, so no votes need to be read. With that being said, I can confirm that NONE of the votes cast tonight had your name written down...

Abel, the tribe has spoken.

#AnyoneButMe

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