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Fan Favorite and Player of the Season!

With 29% of the vote, Zach is the fan favorite of the season!

Congratulations Zach! Zach you were a pleasure to host and I love your snapchats. I really enjoyed getting to watch you play this season and thank you for being very consistent and sending in confessions whenever I asked for them.

Jenna, our lovely winner, received 17% of the vote for fan favorite and is the fan favorite runner up! (also jsyk Keir got a vote and some people got 0!)

Now onto player of the season! I had a really hard time deciding who should receive this award (usually I have a co-host who helps me decide) For a cast of newbies, you guys all played really well but ultimately I have decided to give this award to someone who dominated this game from start to finish. This person was great at building relationships and cutting them lose at the appropriate time. Although it was an effective staretgy, it cost this the game because they lacked the jury management necessary to win the game. and the award goes to.... (drum roll please)

Congratulations Amir!

#illreadthevotes #announcement

Finale - Why Do We Conspire Against All the Nice People

I have a lot of shit to do today and I won't be able to be around much at all, so I'll have to do the craziest shit someone can do at this point in the game: trust everyone. I have to trust that FOUR PEOPLE WILL NOT WRITE MY NAME DOWN tonight, if immunity goes to someone else but me. HOW, HOW CAN YOU DO THIS AT THIS POINT? I honestly have no idea who to vote for tonight and I'm trying to keep it together in my head but my "alliances" are bursting at the seams. I feel like the best chance for me to get to the finals is with Jenna and Amir. Not necessarily to win it, but both of them have said to me they want to go to the end with me, so at this point I have to trust their word on this. Zach made a point not to promise me anything and my and Hayley haven't really discussed FTC cause we tryna liveeeeeee for another day. That leaves me with most likely Hayley or Zach as targets for tonight's vote. If one of them wins immunity, I'll probably vote for the other. That doesn't mean shit regarding who's booted cause I haven't strategized with anyone yet and everyone else can aim for me or Amir or Jenna, who knows, but I think the smartest way for me to handle this vote right now is actually doing it solo. Not having a chance to scramble might be good in this scenario cause people won't be able to rally the other to vote in bad a direction (ME). This is the most important immunity win in this game, imo. Next vote? We're down to four and we'll work it out between ourselves. If Hayley laves, Zach and Amir probably gang together to get Jenna out, if Amir leaves, Hayley is out next, if Jenna leaves... Well, probably me next. I should be studying for today's test that happens in 2h, but nope, here I am. This game has turned my head, y'all.

So immunity tonight and then a challenge right after. Jenna and I are voting together and Amir is too I think. I love everyone left in the game. This will be the hardest vote bar none. But it looks like it's between Hayley and Cami. Cami is the best person on the planet. Hayley is honestly so freaking fun. How do I decide this?! I'm going to need to take some pills after this to calm down. Hell I might even go. It's going to be freaking tough

Okay so i had a good talk with Hayley and she basically said she prefers zach to go over jenna first and im like okay why tf not hes super nice and hes a comp threat but GOD……

Like when i started this game i didnt know how much i would come to love these people and with this final 5, no matter who the next 2 are, whatever i do is gonna be heartbreaking and god i feel so so so fucking bad because zach has been one of my favourite people and someone who made me feel safe in this game but like i gotta do what i gotta do and then ill feel bad about it later.

I had a long talk with cami and basically told her a shit ton of reason why zach gotta go and shes like yayyayayyaya lets do it so at this point whats done is done, all thats left to do is vote GOD ZACH PLEASE DONT HATE ME I LOVE U.

Me pregame: I wanna make friends and not get blood on my hands! :)

Me now:

With the final 5, everyone here likes everyone, so the vote is going to be difficult no matter what. If Zach doesn’t win immunity, Cami, Amir and I are going to vote him out. He’s just too much of a threat to keep in this game. He’s nice, he hasn’t really betrayed anyone, and he’s a huge challenge threat. If he DOES win, Amir and I will vote Cami as planned, since we won’t want to go against Zach if it’s likely he’ll win the next challenge too. Today was a little sketchy, I think Jenna wants me out. I don’t think Zach was going along with it, but he’s keeping his cards pretty close to his chest. It’s possible I’ll go home tonight, but we’ll see who wins immunity. AFTER TRIBAL: Zach… You’re the best. Also, disclaimer to everyone whose question I got wrong in the challenge: I apologize. I suck. Also, I panic under pressure (exhibit A: Abbey is studying anime ;) Now Cami, Jenna, and I are watching Sam’s challenge :) Yay tribe bonding!

In the words of Amir "Pray for this ass."

Omg 38 days. I am so proud of my progress in this game. I came in hoping to make the jury at least, and I wound up making it almost to the end of the game. I won some challenges, made some great friends, met the loves of my life which is Jenna. I'm out but I'm not sad. I went home because I was a huge threat, and was going to win if I made the final three. How can I be upset with that? I knew I wasn't going to play aggressively or strongly coming in, and I stayed true to that. I couldn't be happier with my progress and growth in this game. I made it 38 days, same number as my man Brett, and left with nothing but heartfelt confessionals and goodbyes. I'm proud of myself. Couldn't have played truer to myself and I'm walking away with a smile on my face at the end of the day.

So I've been voted out tonight and I wasn't as upset as I thought I was going to be. I played the best game I could. The people who voted me I think genuinely cared about me, so at least it wasn't cutthroat or anything. Right now I want Jenna to win. Hands down. Jenna is fantastic and I'm already missing her. I love Cami too. I think voting me was probably hard for her and when she said she was going to start crying when I left, I knew she was real. I still love Hayley. She did what she had to do and I will miss her. Amir? Apparently Amir has backstabbed and lied to everyone including me. I'm not as upset as some of the others, but Amir has made some enemies, and I'm not particularly happy with how he played me either. Whatever happens, Cami or Jenna got my vote.

i am so fucking annoyed right now because amir is sitting in the prettiest situation in the world. he literally has cami close to him but against hayley and hayley close to him but against cami and then me close to him. THIS IS WHY I WANTED HAYLEY OUT BUT NO. I'm just so annoyed im in this situation and its not even that its bad for me its just how good it is for him that annoys me. Like he's my only real ally thats left so like going against him would be dumb but the fact that he can basically chose whatever is SO WIUEFGoefhiulihgwurjkv. Also, me and cami are new found besties which is super unexpected but cool. I lied to hayley and said i would vote zach which is ugly because i got caught in a lie finally. I MISS ZACH. I know he was so likeable and a challenge threat but i honestly know how much that boy was in the dark this game and had no idea what was happening a lot of times but i guess him being so likeable and good at comps is scary to them but it wasnt to me. The fact that i cant even make a move now without it being stupid is :) WOO FINAL 4. bleh.

I got so caught up in the rite of passages thing, I forgot about confessions lmao.

I WON IMMUNITY LAST NIGHT Y'ALL.

THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE IN THIS GAME TBH

IN ALSO THE MOST IMPORTANT CHALLENGE: FALLEN COMRADES.

Like, do you know how much of a big deal it is that i know these people well enough to win this challenge? With rather ease, i might say. Two of the questions i got wrong were out of confusion and only another two i had no idea.

i'm so so so proud of myself lol sue me

about voting zach out, that was ROUGH, AWFUL, HORRIBLE

i love zach so much, i really do, he's like a brother to me now, but like ciera had to vote her mom out cause she was hurting her game, i had to vote my bro out. he was gonna take me out first if i didn't. and i didn't even had to suggest it to people, amir brought the option to me first and with hayley as a side number already. it just made it easier, i had numbers, it was the right move. i still think it was the right move.

and now i'm left with amir, jenna and hayley and i don't know what to do.

i feel like game wise, it would be smarter to vote amir out. he's well connected, has been on top of things all times, will probably answer the jurors questions amazingly, but he was the only one i promised i wouldn't vote for and i won't. i might colby this and lose the game, but i won't go back on my word. BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT TO VOTE FOR JENNA.

SO HAYLEY CAN YOU PLEASE NOT WIN IMMUNITY????

not because i want you out, but because i want other in?????

please?????????????????

can you please??????????

also, if she wins immunity, what do i do for christ's sake, i can't vote for myself or for amir, so? jenna? nope i REFUSE

please God help me, You've helped me so much so far, please do this for me!

its hilarious how everyone left is trying to act like they've done nothing and that the jury wont vote for them. WE'RE ALL HERE FOR A REASON. i dont think anyone left has been any sort of goat and we all would deserve to win in one way or another. if i dont win this immunity which i feel like i really have to to make the final 3 id have no idea who to even try and target at this point. everyone is badass and i really am having such a hard time guessing who i think the jury would vote for which usually im strong at reading into things and trying to see how others perceived things. THIS IS INSAAANNNNEEEEEEE and i am so stressed out!!!!!!!!! 29 hours of no sleep and 11 more to go :DD:D:D:D kill me

This is probably one of the last confessions I’ll write, so I’ll try to make it a good one.

I went into today to find out Jenna had won immunity. Not surprising, it was between her and Cami anyway. I was going to stay up all night and do the challenge, but with the cold I have right now I just couldn’t do it. #weaksauce.

What’s happening with this vote: Cami is convinced Amir will not right her name down. She is so convinced that Amir was lying to one of us, and that it wasn’t her, that I am fairly certain she is writing my name down tonight.

Cami approached this topic with such conviction that Jenna got scared about how much of a threat Amir is. This is fair, since Jenna thought Amir was playing us both. I know he isn’t, but no one else knows that. Jenna is now debating between Amir and Cami, because Amir and I have hatched a plot.

Amir tells everyone (including myself) that he is writing my name down. He’s not, he’s voting Cami.

This makes Cami believe she is safe to write my name down. This is fine.

Jenna tries to convince Amir to vote for Cami. He doesn’t budge, since that would make him look like a double liar and ruin our plans, especially if Jenna tells Cami.

If Jenna decides to vote for Amir, then Cami will have two votes, and Amir and I will each have one.

If Jenna decides to vote for Cami, Cami will have three votes, and I’ll only have one.

IF for whatever reason Jenna wants to vote for me, it’ll be 2-2 for me and Cami, and I’ll have to go into a tiebreaker. I don’t think this’ll happen, but if it does, wish me luck!

Either way, Amir and I are voting for Cami.

Disclaimer: If Amir actually DOES vote for me, rip me, I tried. (he just screenshotted me his vote SO)

Also… In Amir’s words:

[6:50:49 PM] Amir Abby: WHY DO WE CONSPIRE AGAINST ALL THE NICE PEOPLE [6:50:58 PM] Amir Abby: R I P ABBEY LIANA ZACH CAMI

Um, so I havent been at home at ALL this weekend and i had no time for this immunity or to talk to people so i get home basically ready to get fucked and sure enough, jenna went to work xposing my social game and trying to get Hayley and Cami to turn on me. I reassured Hayley that shes my boo cuz she is, i would never vote ha and then I had to do some really awful lying to cami to ensure shes voting hayley and god i just feel so fucking bad because i never wanted to manipulate people to the point i did cami but LMAO WATCH HER BE TRICKING ME THIS WHOLE TIME. HOWEVER my plan with hayley is for her to campaign against me to jenna and me campaign against her to cami and to keep our ground, therefor no matter what, with cami voting hayley and hayley being close with jenna, the vote could only turn out 3-1 or 2-1-1 so hayley and i will make ftc no matter what. I should feel good, Hayley and I came up with a brilliant plan but i feel bad? I hope Cami doesnt hate me after this vote but this was the only way to save myself and GOD KNOWS THAT GIRL CAN TALK she could definitely win in ftc.

Petition for the final tribal episode to be called: "Now I don't even get your jury vote biatch" courtesy of Amir.

i just accidentally told cami she was "never loved once" BUT I MEANT SHE NEVER LIED ONCE SWEUHITFEWEOUYFBGITV

When I came into this game, I had no plans of even making it this far. I’m not sure if many people know this, but I wasn’t even selected at first for this season, but a girl dropped out like 4 days before the beginning of the game and I only got Sam’s invite the day PRIOR to the game getting started. I had no time to prepare myself, mentally and emotionally, for what was coming my way and I also had a huge language and cultural barrier to work through. It’s been really really hard at times. I guess I played this game more with my heart than my mind and I was continuously struggling with both, trying to ease one with the other. I’m proud I got to show who I really am to these people and even prouder to make it here without ever truly depending on an alliance, considering I was never really a part of any of them. I believe I was voted off because the jury liked me and the warm welcome I received from most of them proves it to be true. I have no hard feelings towards the people still in the game, but I just wonder what would have happened if I had decided to go with my gut and break loose from my deal with Amir. It’s hard to live a life with no regrets, I guess.

This is my last confession. I'm ready to #suffer.

#illreadthevotes #confessions

Episode 13 Confessions - Pray for This Ass

CAMI THROWING A VOTE TO ME HMMMHMHMHMHMHM NFEJWNFEKWF im so fucking petty im just upset i got a vote cast against me i wanted a perfect record i hate

Well, I promised to vote Abbey out, and I did. Honestly I feel really shitty about that vote; she is the one person in this game who I have genuinely betrayed. Amir and I have already begun discussing whether or not we can take Cami to the final three. Amir and I have played basically the same game the whole time, so we have equal chances of winning. Zach is a challenge threat AND a social threat, because he doesn’t really have any blood on his hands since he started from the bottom. Jenna has been able to stay alive constantly in this game despite all adversity, and would get a huge number of votes for the game she played. Cami has not really betrayed anyone either, and has been incredibly honest with everyone. However, hopefully I can spin that for votes like this one, where even though I betrayed people, I made a decision, while Cami just threw her vote away. It’s something to think about, anyway. This is getting more and more stressful as the game goes on, I’m almost ready for it to just be over.

i am way too naked to post a video confessional and honestly there has just been waaaay too much for me to even talk about. But right now i just need to say. HAYLEY. YOU SNEAKY SNEAKY GIRL. you think you're sly but i know you wrote zach's name on the parchment because i have done some super investigating, you're only loyal to amir and i know for a fact you were tight as hell with abbey. so lets see how long you can keep this innocent lil act up. <3

Today has been a very intriguing day. Vote happens, Abbey leaves, and I get two votes. One is obviously Abbey's but the other one was sketchy. For most of the day, everyone assumed it was Liana who voted for me too. But Jenna and I did some digging, and we came to the conclusion that it didn't make sense at all. Hayley was the one who voted for me. She's *the Huggable Murderer* I genuinely think she thought I was going home, which makes me question everyone's loyalty. I trust Jenna with all my heart. I trust Amir so much. I trust Hayley too, but now I know that she wrote my name down and threw Liana under the bus. Can I still trust her? Is the Whoresome Foursome going to break up? It's stressful because if she's willing to vote against Amir, Jenna, and I it means she's really thinking about this game. Hayley is a threat. I love her and she's great, but she was planning on me going home. This game is only getting more and more sketchy.

episode title: huggable murderer @zach thank you for that

Today was such a mess omg. I flipped my vote from Abbey to Zachary because I was trying to prove my loyalty to Cami who I thought would be more beneficial to me moving forward. Turns out, I was the only one to vote for Zachary besides Cami. Thankfully, there were still 4 votes for Abbey and there are 4 people in our Sheeps with Guns alliance, so I came up with a plan to claim one of the Abbey votes as my own to keep me safe.

I was out when tribal was posted so I just hurriedly celebrated in our alliance chat since our plan went as it should. Then no one talked to me for a while and all of a sudden Jenna approaches me and asks who I voted for. I say Abbey of course and play it as cool as possible. Zachary also is asking me at the same time who I voted for. I was hoping this would be good enough but then they asked me what my voting confessional was. I had to hurry and look at the post and decide which confessional was most like Hayley's since she's not in our alliance. Thankfully, it was really easy to decide which one was hers since her and Abbey were close and like I just picked the one that was most friendly.

Anyway, Zachary and Jenna seem to be hanging on to every word. They say I have their trust like 100% and they keep calling Hayley a liar. I really hope they believe me and they're not just messing with me, but I'm pretty sure they do believe me. This is so freaking amazing and if I somehow make it to the end then I think this is the best move ever I'm so excited. It's basically like the biggest lie I've ever told in all my Survivor games I've ever played.

Today's immunity challenge couldn't have gone any better for me. I won by so much and it was so motivating to be honest. I have a huge shot of making it to the final tribal, whether I win or not, making it that far would be one hell of a good way to play the game. I am guaranteed the top 5. I'm about to beat a bitch I'm so happy.

At this point, it's become clear to me that Hayley wrote my name down last vote. And she expertly placed the blame on Liana, making her an even bigger target for this vote. I love Hayley, but she lied to me. And she kind of backstabbed me. And ironically, I still have this weird trust with her. But Hayley is playing a fantastic game. She will win if she makes it to the final three, no questions asked. Jenna and I want her gone before it's too late. I just hope if we don't get her this time, the time will never come.

I haven't confessed in quite a little now and I guess it has to do with this game getting so close now, and my mind racing through a million possibilities which may never become real, and also added the stress of real life. I can't truly remember when was the last time I confessed and how did that go, tbh. What was it about? Well...

Right now the game is coming to a close. We're at a group of 6 consisted of pretty great awesome people and I feel pressured to live another day but also not leave anyone behind. It's such a split mentality, wanting to keep your people with you but wanting as well to push yourself forward. Make a move that might get you there in the FTC but also not betray the consistency and dignity you're tried to keep this whole game.

Right now, from what I see with these little eyes, I'm in a good position. Not great, not super, not set for a win, but good. Amir has said multiple times he won't vote for me and wants me in the end with him. It's reciprocate. Zach is also someone who has had my back multiple times and might want me with him in the end as well, we've been pretty close. On the other hand, he's very direct on not making promises to anyone, so...

I feel like Liana is on the outs, and will only survive this vote if she:

a) has an idol (it's possible. If i'm sure everyone is voting Liana but her, I might throw a little vote in another direction to secure she won't kick me out idol style)

b) someone else seems as a bigger threat. I know apparently there's some mistrust towards Hayley right now? That might be a thing? I'd rather vote Liana

c) people want to keep the "goat" around. I think that would be stupid, considering she won two immunities by MERIT at this point and has kept herself in the game so far by her own hand and that's pretty compelling in front of a jury.

I don't wanna imagine myself in the end, cause it sure as heck would make a betrayal even harder to accept, but I'm starting to let hope arise within.

OK IM JUST SO CONFUSED NOW. i thought i was right but now i honestly have no idea who voted for zach last vote?????? cami said the red font votes with the x was jay which makes sense because the x disappeared when jay left.SIGH ZACH CONFRONT THEM ?????

omg, LIANA, i didn't even have to try to point as target, you did that yourself, woooooooooooooooooow

As for right now, I think Liana is officially gone and i doubt she has an idol considering her stunt, she must have been desperate.

JENNA AND ZACH WANTED TO VOTE HAYLEY BITCH THE FUCKCKCKCK???

Okay let me rewind, I had this entire idea of using Liana as a vote with me and Cami to blindside Zach and Jenna because those 2 heaux are jury threats despite me loving the fuck out of them like ill die for yall outside the game but in here? SOrrY!!

A N Y W A Y S Liana tries to put the zach on Hayley and basically FORCING ME to vote either her or Hayley because she ruined any opportunity for me to bring them together. NOT ONLY THAT, ZACH AND JENNA ARE BUYING LIANAS BULLSHIT/??>?fE

Obviously I tell hayley because thats my mom and i wont have her be slandered like that and Hayley pulls out the RIHCEIPTS. And zach is like oh wtf bye liana and then jenna is lowkey angered cuz i KNOW she wants hayley dead for whatever reason.

OKAY SO I FEEL BAD FOR NOT TRUSTING HAYLEY BUT I STILL DONT THINK SHE EVEN WANTS TO WORK WITH ME THAT MUCH. liana is a liar af and i knew when she lied to me about two votes before but honestly how dumb could she be so i didnt expect her to lie for a third time lol ugly gross

Jenna told me this afternoon that she plans on going to the end with me if it's up to her, not as a promise or as a deal, but more as a matter of fact. She likes me, we come to a place where we trust each other, and she would be ok with having me next to her on that FTC seat. At this point, even though i can't make promises, I think I would like to have her there as well.

I had a great time playing with you guys, I'm just sorry that you all sucked at competitions so I couldn't continue my excellent goat game. Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off.

#illreadthevotes #confessions

Episode 12 Confessions - pls like me after the game

Apparently Ricky tried to backstab me for trying to backstab him. Neither of the backstabbings worked but I'm the only one of us still around. I don't how I got so lucky. Cami, Zach and Amir saved me I guess, idk who else was involved yet but I'm shocked. I was ready to go home and I'm still here but idk what the fuck to do. I know I'm at the bottom so idk what to doing. The double backstab worked in my favour I guess.

Never take a nap before tribal. I woke up 15 minutes before this one and I got like 10 messages from 6 people saying they wanted Ricky out. I was not down. Ricky has protected me for much of the game. How can I just vote him off just like that. And Liana? We'll lose all her trust? I don't know why these people decided now was the best time to give Ricky the boot, but I'm not sure if I agree with it at all.

Ricky got voted out, with a vote we threw together 10 minutes before live tribal. I can’t believe that worked. Poor Abbey was out of the loop again for this vote, but that’s just the way it had to be. I also targeted her in the reward to gain Jenna’s trust, and we all promised (all = the Wholesome Foursome) to vote abbey next time. I’m going to stay true to my word on that, so hopefully Abbey doesn’t take it too personally, but I think she won’t. She knows she’s on the bottom and is just trying to stay alive in this game like I am.

The reward challenge was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. I mean poor Abbey was chopped away pretty quickly, but at least everyone else got a fair shot. And I almost won. it's good to know that based on my personality alone I'm not hated.

Cami, Jenna, Hayley, Zach and Amir voted for Ricky. I know it wasn't for me but to take Ricky out but still. I'm so exhausted omg. I don't know what to do now but I'm gonna stay loyal to Cami, she can vote me out if she wants omg

I think my only hope to make it anywhere close to the end is to convince everyone that I won't get any votes at the end. It's pretty clear that loyalty doesn't matter to the people that are left so I think they will turn on each other. I only have 1 jury vote, and they know that so I think that's my best shot.

I was so OUT OF MY BODY last night i can't even remember if i made any confessionals about the vote, the process behind it, my feelings afterwards, any part of it. it's a blank tbh. so i might as well recap things right now.

So. everything was heading towards an abbey x liana vote. maybe a tie, that seemed very likely. however, amir, for example, was kinda torn between letting a tie happen and going to rocks. i think after some conversations, it was kinda clear that abbey was probably going home, mostly out of a fear of a tie. i tried to work that, convince amir to vote for liana and take the tie, cause at that point i was really clear if jenna wouldn't vote for liana as well. i had a feeling we might get 5 people, and if not, and it was a tie, in the revote people would regroup and settle it without needing rocks. that was the how the outcome looked at that point.

just one hour before the vote deadline was up, amir comes to me and tells me ricky asked him point blank if he was gonna target him next vote. ricky then says that hayley was the one who told him amir was already talking about targeting ricky. that in itself was already nerve-wrecking. yes, ricky as a later target, but there wasn't much solid convo about that outside of my pm's with amir, and amir was even the one to bring it up, so at first i thought amir had gone to hayley with that idea. before i could ask him that, he lets me know he already spoke with hayley about the ricky convo and hayley had sent him RECEIPTS! that she never had such a conversation with ricky. hayley was clearly mad about having people throwing her under the bus for no reason and i was SUPER alert from that moment on that: a) ricky was capable of using people's non existent words to get his ways; b) ricky was on to the fact that we wanted him out and c) ricky didn't even waited for this vote to go down to wait to discuss the next. that's hardball playing!

as i talked things through with amir, i saw he was upset about the circunstances and that he was being called out like that, and he set his mind on targeting ricky after. we though we had zach, zach is our pal, hayley would pretty sure join us and i even thought i could get jenna on board considering ricky throw her name as decoy target to me later that SAME DAY.

then i all of sudden i was going crazy, my heart was pumping, my head was spinning. me, amir, zach, hayley and jenna. THAT'S 5. THAT'S ENOUGH TO VOTE HIM NOW< WHY WAIT FOR THE NEXT VOTE?

why give him a chance to win immunity, or to find an idol, or to grow even more suspicious and play an idol he might already have? why give him time to regroup? you take a player like ricky, who is extremely cunning and strong, while he can't see it coming. when he's comfortable.

i tried to get amir on board but he, wisely, thought it was to impulsive, like, WE HAD ONE HOUR TILL TRIBAL, YOU WANNA FORGE A BLINDSIDE THIS CRAZY IN ONE HOUR, U INSANE???? i told him we should consult zach on this. zach is logical and intelligent, and also managed to stay the perfect moment to make his move on jay. he was necessary assessment in our plan. amir thought that was a good idea too but wanted to stick with the plan already formed cause he thought it was too wild.

well... while zach wouldn't show up, i kept pumping amir up. MY GUT WAS SCREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMING TO ME: THE TIME IS NOW, i couldn't let that pass. i couldn't, i couldn't, i couldn't.

ZACH WOULDN'T SHOW UP. THAT LITTLE PENGUIN WAS SLEEPING AND LOST TRACK OF TIMEEEEEE

meanwhile, jenna comes to me and asks if every thing is still set, like she has some sort of sixth sense to feel power shifts in this game istg

i didn't want to tell her anything before talking to zach, but he was taking longer and longer and longer and we didn't know which way we were going, and it's 25 min to tribal, and no zach

THEN ZACH SHOWS UP AND WE'RE SCREAMING AT HIM, and he says wait whats happeninggg, and while we talk to him, i go to hayley and amir goes to jenna, and then everyone is talking to everyone at the same time in private messages and no one knows whats happening.

gente, there was a moment when ricky asked in the main chat if we could vote early, like 10 min before the deadline, AND WE HAD NOTHING SET, NOTHINGGGGGG, IT WAS ALL IN THE AIR AT THAT POINT.

SAINT SAM THAT WAS LATE 10 MIN CAUSE THAT WAS THE TIME WE NEEDED TO SETTLE IT DOWN.

Zach said he was only gonna do it if we was confident about it, and for that he wanted jenna on board to be a 5 majority. i said, well we can do 4x3x1, it still works, but then jenna came around and said she was on.

jenna was super concerned about abbey and most likely my bond with her. i am still very close to abbey and i like her a lot, and jenna has been voted by abbey like 4 times. how can jenna team up with me if it means i bring abbey along? would abbey be willing to stop voting jenna?

so i tried to calm jenna and let her feel safe. i told her i would still support abbey, cause she's my friend, but that i wanted to work with her (jenna) as well and i felt very strongily about that. she probably considered the amount of trust she had on me and eventually decided to side with us.

i think 2 min before tribal began. i didn't even had time to BREATHE.

it was THIS INSANE.

everything worked out in the end. talking about that, i'd like to adress some things ricky said in his way out. i do believe with some trouble with people who like to be behind blindsides only for the sake of doing a blindside (for eg the madi vote), but i don't fully understand what he means regarding inconsistency. in my part, i feel like i have been pretty consistent thank you very much. i stucked with my girls during the swap, here i formed an alliance (i thought i did) with abbey, jay, liana and hayley. i stuck with them for next votes, where most of the times people i knew would hurt my game were being taking out, strong players like brian and even daniel who left was that crazy idol stance. i always prefer to aim for the shady people, people who didn't really show me what they were thinking. that was jenna for me at some point, until we cleared everything out. if there was a vote i was consistent, it was definately last night's vote. i've wanted ricky to be voted out since the swap. since the david thing. he first fault was being in the way of keeping david in the game and then he was too close to my closest allies (abbey and jay) and obviously, IN MY MIND was taking my spot (that i never really had) with them. he clearly didn't like me and was after me. then we talked about after jay was out, and now i can see him totally different as a person and i do believe we were kept apart from each other by other people. howeveeeeeer, he still targeted me. over. and over. his bad luck was coming into people who were unwilling to vote me out, and he needed zach and amir's vote to do it. both of them told me they were offered the chance to vote me out by ricky and had to kindly turn it down. TWO TIMES. why would i want you to stay here, ricky? where would that lead me? when you clearly were targeting me all along? so even though i like a lot as a person, i hope you can see why i did what i did.

and it was glorious. i hope you can separate yourself enough from to the game to see that too.

I'm trying to make a new alliance out of those of us who feel left out. I trust Cami, and I think she trusts me too so obvi I'm gonna work with her. Hayley didn't know about the Ricky vote either so I think she's in. Between Amir and Zach, Amir answered first. So I made a chat with the three of them and theyre all down to vote Liana. I don't want her to go I really like her but I think she's the easiest vote rn and I just don't want it to be me bc I know I'm an easy vote as well.

So I hear my name is on the chopping block tonight and it's simply terrifying. I don't know who has the idol. I don't know how many people are willing to vote me. I don't know how Liana feels about all it. It's the first time in the game where I know I'm getting votes, and I really don't like it.

Um not too much to say for this vote, im pretty sure abbey is going because Hayley, the light of my life, is now 100% on board to vote abbey out so like ayyyy lmao work, ps abbey you’re so funny pls like me after the game

Ok so another long confession here we go. Nobody is using the group chat I made so that makes me uneasy. Zach knows I brought his name up. I don't know how he found out or who told him but that doesn't matter now. We had a lengthy chat about how we both respect and like each other and that we're both fine if we go home. SO basically I told everyone what my intention was to vote Zach and I'm gonna let everyone make theur own decision. Because I like and respect everyone here and I want them to do the best that they can do so I told them to do what makes the most sense for them. I am a weak player in challenges and in strategy so it makes more sense for them to take me over zach. I just hope they see that.

So I got voted out which sucks. I tried my best to get them to see my perspective. Zach is better at challenges, everyone loves him and he is good at rallying people. I wouldn't be shocked if he went on a challenge run and made it to the end on immunity. Anyway I'm not mad that I'm gone. I had fun and met some amazing people that I'm excited to be friends with including Zach. Thanks fora good season Sam! <3

#illreadthevotes #confessions

Episode 11 Confessions - Grasp at Straws IDK the Catchphrase

Okay well I just got blind fucking sided. I didnt think there was a way to save Ricky and I guess I was wrong. I wouldn't blame them if they voted me out next week. I deserve it tbh. Im sad Jay is gone, I love her and I loved playing with her. But honestly Ricky pulled it tf off and I am so impressed. Im a little ticked at the others. First I couldnt be trusted with the info to vote Ricky then I couldnt be trusted with the info to vote Jay. I guess I'm not the hero of the season like they said if they don't trust me. Fuck me

I'M SPEECHLESS TBH

So basically if I had voted for Ricky instead of voting for Jenna out of loyalty to Ricky Jay wouldn't be gone. By trying to be honest in the game I send my biggest ally home. Amazing. Being a #hero fucking sucks lol bye

Ok, so that was my bad. Zach and Jenna wanted to vote Jay, which I may have been able to prevent if I had talked to them, but they were worried about my friendship with Jay (fair point) and didn’t want to include me in that vote. Amir ended up going with them, which is my only real concern, because up until this point he hasn’t hid anything from me. I think the four of us are still solid, even though it looks like Abbey and I are the ones on the outs. I’m not in the most comfortable position now, but I think my game is still good. Definitely a bit of a downer, but at least I won’t have to worry about blindsiding Jay later. Benefits of being blindsided. This is a healthy reminder that you can never relax in this game, or things won’t go the way you planned.

Jay's gone. I can't even describe how happy I am. She was one of the rudest people I've met in a long time to be honest. She wonders why she was voted villain of the season? Because she literally trashed every person in the game. She made Cami almost quit. She made me lose my sanity multiple times. She wanted Ricky out because she was bored. She's a mess. She's always hated me and I don't care. The dragon has been destroyed. Maybe now I can actually have fun in the chats.

This vote was artwork. Props to Ricky and Liana for pulling it together, because it was definitely the best vote of the game bar none. Jay thought she had us all. She thought we were sheep. Well THESE SHEEP HAVE GUNS. I was so done with her tyranny. Her rudeness. Her lies and backstabbing. Her over-confidence. I can't believe it took me two weeks to get my revenge on the RJ vote. Two weeks. But it's all over, and now thanks to her vote-off, I'm in a beautiful spot. I'm back on top of the food chain. Bye Jay. Thanks for playing

I feel like shit. I hurt people without knowing it wow i dont want to do this anymore

I messaged Liana for one of the first times in a while. She's a total sweetheart. I don't know why I waited so long to message her. We both wanted to play to make relationships and to make friends and I really feel that she is genuinely an amazing person. I like Liana.

So I think I'm in a good spot in the game right now. With Jay gone, my tightest group is with Jenna and Amir. I want to go to the end with them. Ricky I think trusts me too. Cami trusts me and I don't think will vote me out. Hayley is part of a sub-alliance group called the Whoresome Foursome between myself, Amir, Jenna, and her. Liana I feel trusts me more that I message her. That leaves Abbey. Abbey was blindsided last night, and she's pissed at everybody. I don't think she'll target me. I think I'm in a good position. But unlike certain players I'm going to remain humble. Anything can happen in this game. I just hope to stick around and see it play out.

I have literally been waiting for this day since RJ left. It's been weeks. I've had to suck in a smile for all this time. I've had to take all the shit I was given vote after vote. But I finally got my revenge. My sweet revenge. Jay is gone. She's no longer in the game. You know, I learned something out here. Payback's a fucking bitch.

about last night, let's say i found the words. first: i was completely out of the loop with EVERYTHING that happened last night, i was sure ricky was being voted off, maybe just not in the same circunstances the girls expected. i was supposed to vote for jenna, but i went with ricky cause my gut was telling me to go with my original plan. i did aimed for ricky as a target since before the merge, and i think it was mostly because he made me feel threatened. he didn't really tried to connect with me, didn't give me much attention and was publicly close to my allies, so i had the inclination to believe he would eventually convince them to cut me out. i had to look out for myself and also make sure no one was trying to poison my friendship with abbey and jay. little did i know that wasn't needed. abbey and jay already didn't count me as much.

okay, for real. i HAD NO IDEA jay had been so toxic to people. she never really said anything mean to me that i can remember right now, even though i ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS had this feeling inside that i couldn't fully trust her. not that she would stake me or whatever, but taking in consideration i was trying to form bonds, my gut kept telling me that her approach to me wasn't always genuine. like, you know when you can't tell if someone really likes you as a person or if they're just being nice and cool to you so they have you close? i'm not calling jay a liar or whatever, it's just that when it came to her, my spidey feelings re: "these people don't like you for real, they're pretending" were always tingling. i hope once the game is over, she can tell me how she really felt. i never really saw her as the villain, but i also wasn't aware of many things she supposedly did while in this game.

the story is rather different with abbey. we talked a lot last night, she apologized and explained things. i feel for her. i feel like she's genuine and didn't really disregard me, she just separated game and personal deal totally and also had been lacking in our relationship lately.

i don't know where this leaves me in the game.

OMG VAMPIRE ACADEMY IS ON ON HBO MY ROZAAAAAAAAAAA dimitri x rose otp ugh

anyway. i think abbey and hayley might be in the bottom right now. but hayley is so sweet and truthful, from what i know, they might want to keep her along just because she's a lovely. ricky is most likely the high power right now, which is the worst scenario possible for me. he might want abbey around, even with all the mess, more than me. he doesn't want me here for sure. liana has no good or bad feelings regarding me, that i know of. i feel like jenna likes me but would never risk her neck to help me, or side with me. that leaves me with zach and amir, who i genuinely like and have become the closest ones to me at this point. but i don't wanna use our friendship as a bargain chip just so i can stay longer. i'm oficially screwed am i not?

what can i do with this situation? how to move forward when my motto is basically "i'm not here to play the game, i'm here to make friends"?

Nobody but Cami will talk to me today. Which is fine I get it. I don't care anymore

Ricky came to me and basically told me that I wasn't done. He thinks I still have a chance so I'm gonna try. He thinks if I can get Cami and Haley we can vote someone out and if it goes to a tie someone on the other side wil flip. I hope this works but if it doesnt and I go home I'm not gonna be torn up about it

The tribe chat seems like it's going to be semi-dead now. Abbey was the primary person who talked in those chats. And now she's upset based on the last vote. It's crickets in there now. Almost awkward actually. Yikes.

The tribe chat is no longer a ghost town bless. People r talking, and most people will talk to my if I go to them first, with the exception of Liana. afsghdgfhgj

FUck croSSwords! I only got 8 words out of 20!!QWFezgrxftcghmgjfhgcd

Ricky and Cami I THINK are going to vote Liana. We might have Zach, but idk. He says he doesnt want to vote my name down bc I'm funny and I talk in the tribe chat. I hope I have him. Hayley hasnt been on so she's a wild card rn. The Jenna Situation ™ is a mess. She wants me gone bc I've written her name down at every tribal since merge which is fair. She's really strategic and it might be hard to take her out after this so she's scary. I don't want to play with her for that reason and also because she made me uncomfortable from the start.

Zach is on the fence and Hayley is away. I'm mostly banking on Zach thinking I'm funny. I think I could get Amir too IF HE EVER CAME ONLINE!

This vote is so insaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaane. We have NO IDEA who're allied with tbh, I think some people are just trying to GRASP AT STRAWS IDK THE CATCHPHRASE, I'M JUST NERVOUS.

Like, in all seriousness. Ricky is a power player, and Hayley and Liana are probably at bay at this point so they feel like they can gravitate towards Ricky. Abbey is now a super polarizing personality in this game and probably is pushing people off rather than pulling them in, and that is probably something that is joining people together at this vote. Ricky has said to me he was aiming for Jenna, but Jenna is voting with him tonight (I think). It's not that she's loyal to him, it's just in her interest to vote with him. Zach too. Abbey thinks we have 5 people but I'm not so sure. If she's counting Ricky, then we sure as heck only have 4 cause he's not on board with us. Abbey keeps being played by Ricky, man.

I still think the outcome is a win-win for me in this situation. If Liana goes, I was in the winning side of the vote, I managed to turn people around to my favor and I eliminated someone who probably associates me with Jay for no solid reason and would never really work with me. I get to keep Abbey, someone I love and that is at this point probably (i think, i hope, we hope) is loyal to me. After tribal, I will just point out to her that Ricky voted for her even though he made her promises and I believe that will be enough for her to vote him off. She can't be fooled twice by the same person and not wake up.

If Abbey goes, though, that means I lose an ally but I win a jury member who likes me and has seen me work for her to stay. (I'm honestly working for her to stay, I'm not aiming for her jury vote just yet, I haven't made far enough in the game for this) I also get to be separated from her without having to vote her off. Like it or not, Abbey has become a toxic presence in this tribe, with many people who just dislike her strongly or are afraid of her MURDERING PEOPLE like Jay said she should. Being able to dissociate myself from her without having to actually betray her would be positive game wise. It would also give me a great decoy target for next round in Liana, who would still be here, would know I aimed for her and probably still want her gone. That would give the real target enough safety feels~~~ to not try and flip the vote. I gotta look out for idols though, I forget idols exists ugh. Anyway.

My human/personal side hopes Abbey stays and my strategic side probably hopes she goes. Let's see who gets it.

Alright Sam get ready for one hell of a confession. SO the plan Ricky came up with to save me MIGHT work. I have Cami, she's loyal to me and I'm loyal to her. I may have had doubts about her in the past but she is amazing and I want to go to the end with her or at least help her get there. I think I've swayed Amir. He said he talks to me more than Liana and that he likes me and thinks I'm honest. I also think I have zach, he thinks I'm funny and we have talked a lot. I think we have Hayley bc she also didn't know about Jay. I also have this feeling of dread that they're all lying to me. Idk if I go home I won't be shocked, I'll be sad, but I won't be shocked. I fucking hate scrambling omg this fucking sucks.

I'm so stresssed im gonna shit a brick

I know, I know, I keep forgetting to write confessions, I suck. Here’s what’s going on.

1. The discussion today was between Liana and Abbey for the vote. Abbey was pretty sure she had me, Cami, and Zach to vote for liana, which would cause a tie. When I talked to Zach (and Cami, although she really didn’t give me a straight answer she’s too smart ;) this was not the case. Zach and Jenna both want Abbey gone too much to not vote for her, even though it’s the easy vote and we could make a move tonight.

2. I really wasn’t going to write Abbey’s name down tonight, but now I have to or it puts me on the outs. Sorry, Abbey :( Hopefully you won’t be too mad at me.

3. RICKY JUST TRIED TO TURN AMIR AGAINST ME. Unfortunately for him, we are actually close friends and have been watching each other’s backs since the tribe swap. Thankfully Amir came to me and showed me the conversation, to which I responded with a screenshot of how I haven’t even spoken to Ricky in over a week. Rude.

4. I think what happened was, I told Abbey much earlier in the day I might be able to convince Amir to vote with us because he would rather keep you around than a threat, (for example: Liana or Ricky.) This was obviously a mistake on my part, because Abbey turned around and told Ricky I wanted him out, who then told Amir I was plotting against them? I don’t even know at this point. You’d think after last night’s vote Abbey wouldn’t tell Ricky ANYTHING but I guess not. It’s also possible Ricky straight up made it up, but regardless, the point is I am NOT trying to make a move against Amir, and I’m not going around telling people to vote for Ricky either.

5. I mean, NOW we are. Zach and Cami had also (apparently) discussed voting for Ricky next anyway. So, tonight it’s Abbey (sorry, again :( ... ) and then it’ll be Ricky (not as sorry)

OKAY THE VOTE IS LITERALLY IN LIKE 40 MINUTES SO IM WRITING THIS QUICK AF BUT BASICALLY TODAY ABBEY IS TRYNA GET LIANA OUT AND LIANA IS TRYNA GET ABBEY OUT but literally an hour and half before the vote ricky messages me saying he knows ive been planting seeds to get him out (probably from abbey) but he blames it on hayley and i tell hayley and she is LIVID. SHE WANTS BLOOD AND SO DO I. I talk to Cami about it and this little savage is like LETS FUCKING VOTE HIM OUT RIGHT NOW and im lik FUCKCKCKCKCKCK LETS DO IT this is basically what ive been wanting all this time and with ricky and jay out the way, this game is mine af. Once Zach is online this can happen and im just so fucking excited #JUSTICE4RJANDDAVID

ALSO THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO ARE GONNA BE BLINDSIDED ARE LIANA AND ABBEY WHO ARE VOTING EACH OTHER LIKE??? BLESSSESESES THIS basically leaves them in to come for each other NEXT ROUND and then because theyre on opposite sides, I can let one take out the other and then go for the remaining one the round after just like i did with jay and ricky. If all goes right, I could be left in this game with Hayley Jenna and Zach, my whoresome foursome at final 4 and sail right into final 3. GOD. Or do i want cami? Idk all i know is im feeling so good rn.

Also @ricky dont threaten me again lmao especially right before a vote

So, I don’t know how much I’ve said about Cami, but it’s time for me to put my personal thoughts and feelings about her into a confession because I’m pretty sure every move I’ve made with or against Cami in the past has been purely strategic.

A lot of people have found Cami annoying, which is something she’s said bothers her personally. Which is part of the reason I want to make this confession so that people know any interactions I have with Cami aren’t just fake, or for the game, but genuine.

Cami is an absolute gem, one of the nicest people I’ve ever had the pleasure of speaking to, is incredibly intelligent, and probably the most honest person in this game.

Any thoughts or feelings I had about Cami early on were second hand, from people who thought she was annoying, low-key racist (I honestly just think whatever conversation she was having with Sam about being Jewish just got a little wild, not actually racist) or a strategic threat in this game.

TLDR I just felt like I needed to have this full disclosure: Whether or not I go with Cami to the end or write her name down before then, she deserves only positive things to be said about her in this game and in life because she is an incredibly genuine person.

(This confession was prompted by Amir talking about how awesome Cami is after bringing up potentially voting Ricky tonight after that whole fiasco, which led me to talking to Cami again, who is an absolute gem.)

#illreadthevotes #masstag #confessions

Episode 10 Confessions - Sam is Law

Madi, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry your time was up before it would naturally be, but things changed last minute! Strategically, it wouldn't change many things to vote for Jenna or you, cause we both didn't work together so far. I actually talked to you more about game than Jenna, well at least about more than one vote, but it was pretty much what we thought would happen. The fact that you weren't attached to any alliances made you a free agent and that scared people off. Unpredictability is scary for so many people...

Sam is screaming at us to confess shit so im just gonna tell u what the chat is saying. My jaw is fucked, Zach sneezed when he looks at bright lights. Jenna is gonna survive the next vote. If zach doesnt win immunity hes going next, bc thats what Jay and the group want . Happy now sam!!

Gotta get that sneeze

get that sneeze

Okay, now... The reasoning behind my rock choice? Wanna hear the truth? The juicy juicy truth????? I didn't choose the idol clue, I chose NOT to do the challenge cause tomorrow is a heck of a busy crazy day for me and this came as a chance for me to not even get online and sort my shit out, so there ya go. No strategy there. Just plain stupidity. :D

We had tribe bonding by watching anime together omg

Shockingly, there's drama to rehash. Everyone's gunning for Jenna for, like, the fourth time in a row, and I don't want to vote her out yet. I actually enjoy talking to her more than almost anyone else on the tribe and she's completely loyal to me, so I'd prefer to have her around over, say, Ricky. I think Ricky is great and we've been allies since the swap, but he's hardly around anymore and he calls drunk and we just don't really vibe as people. So a whole group of us are getting together to blindside him, which means I'm single-handedly arranging YET ANOTHER iconic blindside. Stay tuned.

Jay told me she and some others want to vote Ricky out tomorrow. Im sad about it bc i really really like Ricky and I don't want him gone. But I'm with Jay until the end, she's smart and I trust her. I don't want to write RIckys name down and I'm not going to but I'm not going to try to stop the others either. I dont want to be the odd one out because I think that puts me in a bad place for the rest of the game. I want the others to trust me and confide in me their plans. I feel awful about Ricky having to go for me to do that but that's the way it is :((((((

I'm so sad I dont want Ricky to go :((( I dont want to write his name down :(((

Me and Jay decided if at all possible we want to take Haley or Liana to f3. We dont think they could win against us. I hope it works omg. I like high-key want Jay to win. Omg

OH. MY. GOD. OKAY THIS IS EVERYTHING IVE EVER WANTED??? JAY WANTS RICKY OUT??? PERFECT.

I’ve wanted ricky out since literally the beginning of this game its 2016 its time and it seems that literally everyone is on board, however, he caught wind of the plan is already grasping at straws, basically telling me and Zach that the boys are gonna be next etc etc and im just like be there there be quiet. NOT ONLY THAT, if there was a threat of an idol or something like that, Jay would be the one taking the hit. Those 2 are basically the 2 big dogs right now and having them go at each other is absolutely perfect because the moment one of them leaves, i can take the other out and finally take control the way I want to.

Also, can I just say im getting really tired of being talked to like im an idiot, like in Ricky’s campaign he literally talked to me as if im some helpless sheep like bitch i know exactly what the fuck im doing like im so ready to spill blood tbh tbh.

IM SCREAMING RICKY IS TRYNA TAKE JAY OUT!!!! I FEEL LESS BAD NOW!!!!!

Someone (Cami or Jenna) told Ricky and now Ricky is trying to flip Amir and Zach. He immediately threw Jay under the bus. It may be dumb but honestly I'm going to do everything I can go get Jay to the end so I dont feel bad about Ricky going home at all now. As long as we keep the numbers he will. As far as I know its me, Jay, Haley, Cami, Jenna, Zach and Amir. I'm not sure on Liana and obviously Ricky isnt gonna vote himself. Omg I hope this works.

WHEN WILL PEOPLE STOP CALLING ME ABIGAIL!! DO YALL WANNA SEE MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE!!!! MY. NAME. IS. ABBEY.

How many submissions am i gonna make tonight?? It's unclear!! Ricky is talking to me now, he seems to have given up which is fine I know he's got shit going on irl. He's not gonna vote for Jay in the jury which I expected but it's whatever. I don't feel bad for voting him out but I have a guilt complex and I'm starting to feel it omgggg

Wooo! I just appeared into the wonderful world of relevancy! I won individual immunity which is fantastic! It makes me feel super powerful. Not gonna lie, in my side season I played Izu Islands, once I won individual immunity I wanted to flip the game so you KNOW that's gonna happen again! hahaha.

Jay decides to finally message me for the first time since *goes to check* April 11 (it is now April 24), and asks me if I'd be down to vote Ricky. Now you guys KNOW that I love Ricky and he's my favorite. There's no way I'm gonna let him get voted out. I immediately pretend I'm down with this plan to Jay and then send Ricky some receipts.

With a little bit of elbow grease, me and Ricky have pulled majority to vote Jay out, and I don't think she's any the wiser. I was worried about Jenna but I think we're on the same boat where it'd be smarter to take Jay out. Plus she's been mistreated so badly by them, and I'm just here to fuel that fire. I think it's obvious that I'm on the bottom of our alliance so I might as well have Ricky appreciate me if I flip to him.

If this doesn't work I'm screwed, but oh well, at least the game is more exciting for me now.

OKAY THIS VOTE IS LITERALLY INSANE WHAT THE FUCKCKCKCK

Me a few hours ago: ricky’s campaign is pointless

Me now:

Okay everything i said in my last confessional is 100 percent true, the only difference is the order switched? Jay is the one to be going now because SURPRISINGLY LITTLE MISS SLAYNA IS EMERGING FROM THE SHADOWS AND IS ON THE MUTINY TRAIN.

Now this decision was actually extremely hard because Jay and i do have a relationship that goes beyond the game and I really do love her as a friend, but ive known since before merging that she was someone who i couldnt allow to get to late game. Now ricky has collected Liana Zach and Jenna and all 4 are basically convinced to vote Jay, although I think Jenna is a bit hesitant as am I. If i wanted to, I could literally just vote ricky and do the same thing to him but with the other side of the tribe, but the thing about the group ricky made is that its literally way more beneficial to me than anyone. I have my final 3 alliance with Zach and Jenna in there and I have Liana who talks to me more than those 2. Part of me feels really bad for doing this to Jay but the other part of me is fucking excited because its 2016 its time.

Also sidenote, i feel so FJFMICKING BAD FOR BLINDSIDING HAYLEY IM STILL MORE LOYAL TO HER THAN ANYONE but like i have to do this, ugh ugh ill do damage control with her and Cami later.

CONFESSION TIME WITH HAYLEY: And yet again, things have changed since I last confessed. Here we go.

Today, Abbey, Jay, and I watched anime on rabbit for fun, which reminded me why I aligned with these ladies in the first place: they’re fun. It made me rethink flipping on them so easily, even though I still know that taking Jay to the final 3 would be a terrible idea, strategically.

Jay actually brought up voting out Ricky, which is great because:

1. I wanted Ricky or Liana out anyway within the alliance because I don’t talk to them enough to trust them, and I know if they stay it means trouble for me.

2. Jay brought it up first, which takes the target completely off of me, yet again. Poor Jay.

3. Jay and I talked strategy one on one for the first time since the tribe swap.

After a strategy talk with Jay, and a long strategy session with Amir, here is what I have concluded.

1. Ricky is next. Unless he can pull something out of his hat, he is going. He already knows this and is scrambling because SOMEBODY told. Pretty much almost immediately. It was either

a. Abbey: because she is loyal to Ricky, and doesn’t want to vote him, although she said she would stay loyal to Jay and I even if she wasn’t happy with the vote.

b. Cami: Evidence suggests that it was Cami. She did the same thing with Madi last vote, and seems to be trying to be extra honest. For the record, I’m pretty sure it was Cami who spilled the beans.

2. Because of the above, either Jay or Jenna will go if Ricky doesn’t because of the way the votes will split. We’ll have to see how things shake out in regards to that. Right now Ricky is trying to get everyone but me, Abbey, and Jay to vote for Jay. We shall see.

3. After Ricky, Jay wants to vote Cami… sort of. Jay thinks she has Cami’s loyalty (Amir has suggested otherwise) but Cami is a wildcard and who knows what she’s been telling who.

a. For the record, I think Cami is a gem. We talk a lot, but ironically never about strategy, just our personal lives so I have no idea where she really is at in this game, and wouldn’t trust her.

b. Chaos Cami™

4. If it’s Ricky this vote, and Cami next vote (all theoretical, mind you) then that leaves Liana as the only person left in the game who I don’t trust to not vote for me. (As I am writing this, Liana has pledged her loyalty to Ricky to vote Jay out. So I mean…)

5. IF THIS IS HOW THE NEXT FEW VOTES GO (I am trying to think ahead don’t judge me.) then the final six would be:

a. Me and Amir

b. Zach and Jenna

c. Abbey and Jay

(Yes, I am counting in pairs, because I’m pretty sure that’s how it would shake out.)

This would leave me and Amir in a position to pick who we want to go to the final four, and ultimately the final three with.

6. Discussing this, we realize that we can’t beat Jay or Jenna in the final three. We just can’t, they’ve played too strong of a game. This leaves us with either Zach, or Abbey, and that’s where we decided to decide at a later date. This is a lot of strategizing all at once, and who knows if even the first step will hold out.

7. In the middle of me writing this freaking essay, Ricky is trying to sway people to vote for Jay. He has Liana, and Zach and Jenna were debating whether or not to go with Jay or Ricky. Amir informed me that either way they don’t want to leave me out of the loop, and will stay true to the Whoresome Foursome.

a. If this goes sideways and Jay goes, I am still in a good position. Not as comfortable of a position, but still a good one.

b. Jenna has apparently told Amir that she is on board to save Jay.

c. God bless Amir. If he ever decides to blindside me, I’m fucked.

8. I’m still looking for the merge idol. Secret thought: the other girls stopped updating the list we made to search for it before I did. Jay or Abbey may have it, Liana probably just forgot or didn’t want to share. I am going to assume Jay has it until told otherwise, so if I ever need to vote Jay I’d use my garlic necklace ;)

a. Poor Jay does not deserve this. She’s really not a villain, I swear!

9. I bet you thought I was going to write ten whole things. Ha. No. I’m tired. Hopefully the game doesn’t blow up while I’m asleep.

10. Sam better be proud of me for this long ass confession. (I couldn’t submit it with only nine things I’m a liar goodbye)

Ricky is telling me about all these plans Jay has and they're starting to get to me. He could be telling the truth, but he also has a big reason to lie to save his ass rn. I want to believe Jay, and I'll probably stick with her bc i don't want to be disloyal to my biggest ally. Fukin hell

I feel like I would do more of these confessions if I could make them in english. I love english so much, I even teach it sometimes, but my brain doesn't process all the shit that's happening so well in english. today i think i'll give it a try and not be so concious of my spelling and grammar to see if i can speak more about all's that happening.

so, ricky came to speak to me and told me there have been some different versions of the same alliance through out the game. him, abbey and jay had an F3 deal, and when the merge came they gathered amir, hayley, liana and someone else for votes. then they shifted it, taking liana and ricky out and putting me and zach in. he also said i was being strung along by the girls, that that was jay and abbey's job so that they would still use me as a vote, but also don't make any promisses of keeping me around for too long. i was the bottom of the current totem pole and that i'd probably never make any better than 6th, maybe 5th in this game.

okay, now to process this. 1) i was knew i was in the bottom at this game. i've said this in previous confessions, i've even elaborated on strategy that would allow me to move further later on and give me more power. i just didn't want to go with it, i didn't feel well doing it.

2) as in my position, 5th and 6th were kinda of like what i settled at some point in the game as my goals, tbh. of course, i daydream about reach FTC, i feel like i'd have a solid chance of winning cause people may like me (or not, i don't know shit at this point, at least i treat them as people and apologize as they're booted cause i can't help being a softie sucker). but i was also happy with 5 or 6. i'm not really cut for this, i wouldn't make it any longer anyway.

3) what surprised me was the alliances that were happening behind my back (well, not surprising, that didn't surprise me at all, but kinda unsettling) and how i was just someone who they USED for votes at their will. i thought they didn't want to ally with me, you know, formally, but that they at least considered my input in votes and that i had a voice in the major. for someone who talks so much to everyone, you'd think they'd listen and consider what you're saying. i guess not. i guess i was never really relevant to them in that front. that was SUPER HURTFUL to hear. i'm a mere pawn not only game wise, but as a person. like, jay doesn't give a shit about me. jay has been using me as decoy target for a HUNDRED votes now and i've let it slide cause i didn't want pressure her. abbey was my closest person in the beginning of this game and then she just nah forgot about me, i'll just come around now and then to talk to you about YOUR VOTE. at least pretend that you care, like jay's been doing. i feel tossed aside, i feel used, i feel like i'm leftovers or something. i knew i didn't matter as a player in this game, i knew it, but having it thrown at your face and uncovered with messages sent from people you thought were your friends SUCK.

4) ricky also said that the girls clearly didn't have a hard time separating game from friendships and that was the most important revelation from him. that SETS ME FREE. that breaks the shackles of loyalty that always cuff me and gives me a chance to do something else. to flip later on, to vote for ME and MY sake and not theirs. not because i'm not their friend anymore, but because i thought we at least had that decency deal beneath at all and that they would give me that courtesy but apparently they won't. so that not only gives me the chance not to recipocrate, but also gives me leverage to justify my actions to THEM afterwards. i'll be able to say i voted for what was best to me cause they were the ones who first showed me they were separating things. i don't plan on going after the girls, targeting them, voting for them, that's not what i want or would do right now. right now that gives me the air to vote for someone they didn't tell me when i want to, and then maybe later on, gives me room to vote for them if it comes to it. it was just...

they wanna know why i'm sad? i'm sad cause i thought i'd only feel betrayed when it was my time to be booted, but betrayal came sooner than planned.

Episode Title: Sam is Law

SAM TOLD ME TO MAKE ONE WHILE WE WAIT FOR TRIBAL. So I have this Sheep with Guns alliance which is cool. I think they're being dumb though because Jay/Abbey are not stupid enough to try splitting the votes, let alone splitting votes between ME and Ricky even though I'm obviously immune. Anyway, I was in class when my alliance decided to vote for Jay anyway even though I wanted to switch to Abbey because they probably are playing the idol on Jay tonight. rip

Ricky's funeral is the most I've interacted with him since the live challenge at the beginning of the game. #bless

I honestly don't know where to start. I wanted to begin this with 'everyone who flipped is dead to me,' but that's not ENTIRELY true.

Well, for one thing, I'm not surprised that I was voted out and, really, I'm glad that I'll still be able to play another game in the future and learn from my (admittedly few) mistakes. I was a villain in this game and I came into it knowing that I would be as cutthroat as I had to be. Maybe I over-played, but I'm still happy with my game and the way I've acted because, in the end, it IS a game and I just wanted to see how well I could do. I didn't want to play it safe and I didn't want to let anyone else dictate who I voted for. I didn't expect to actually make friends and I'm definitely leaving knowing that I'll have relationships in the future.

For the record, it really, truly was not my idea to vote out Ricky. I'm sure it was framed that way to him, but it wasn't. I'm just glad that Abbey didn't flip on me because she was the only person in the game I was really committed to playing with and being friends with after.

If Abbey makes it to the end, I will vote for her regardless of who else is there, especially if it's between her and Amir (no shade; you're great and I hope we'll be friends, but you're playing way harder than anyone is giving you credit for). I really hope she kicks everyone's ass for me since she said that she would murder anyone who came for me.

#illreadthevotes #masstag #confessions

Episode 9 Confessions - I Will Gladly Let Him Shepard Me Into Finals

We probably should have split the votes but tbh my core alliance of Ricky, Jay and myself wanted Daniel gone next so this is fine. Daniel is gone, and Jenna will go next as long as she doesnt win immunity which I doubt she will. She isnt on enough to know people or how other perceive everyone else. I won't win bc im a piece of shit but hopefully one of the 6 of the majority alliance will win.

Well tonight was another chaotic tribal, but I think it actually really helps me. I like Jenna a lot, and when she busted out that idol I literally screamed. I'm so proud of her. Honestly it was one of my favorite memories thus far.

IM SHOOK.

WHAT THE

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MY ASS

Jenna literally just scalped me and murdered this ass.

Okay so Daniel is gone and I have so many mixed emotions right now and just so much is running through my head right now and kewn fkje idekdidkdieke.

OKUR.

Okay.

SO the good is that he was a member of my alliance, and having my own alliance lose a member is good because then there's more targets to go for on the other side, basically securing a higher spot for me in the game.

THE BAD is that he was one of the only people willing to try and flip the switch on that alliance and I dont know how im gonna do that ow without him and uhghfebw but with that alliance at 6 people now, I have jenna zach madi cami(but not really cuz she does what jay wants) so Im gonna have to try and convince Hayley or Liana or Cami at some point, because I really dont see that trio of Abbey Jay Ricky turning on each other. As for right now, time to go kiss Jenna’s ass!!!

Jenna hasnt said a word in the tribe chat since Brian went home and after this vote she's talking up a storm i cant believe this. IM GONE

So Daniel went home tonight leaving three guys left in the game. That's either really good or really bad. Personally, I feel kind of good about my place in the game. Things always change though. I know yesterday I was in a horrible place, and now I feel more confident. We'll see what the future holds.

So I talked to Jay today and she really cheered me up. I always found her to be sketchy, but it was in part because she couldn't trust me. And I don't blame her for that. Between the RJ vote and Brian throwing me under the bus, she had good reasons not to trust me. But I think she does now, and I think she wants to work with me. Jay is my ticket into going farther into the game. I really hope she's being truthful. I think she is.

Finally an idol was played! I've been waiting for that moment since the beginning! And the fact that it wasn't played on me makes me so happy. Ten people have left so far and I still have not received a single vote. I'm happy right now. I really hope I can stick around for more days to come!

This immunity challenge is beyond brutal. Like some people, if not all, are inevitably going to be pissed off based on what the votes say. There will probably be tears. There will probably be tension. And honestly I just hope I win the "nicest person" vote.

Last tribal was INSANE, y'all! I was dreading a hidden immunity idol and when we weren't ready, it was played. Like, damn. Well played, girl. I wanted to split the vote but if we split, we would have to point someone else as a target and that would leave someone else either aware of their circunstances as a target too soon or hurt by a vote that should only come later. Gotta say though, thank God it was when I was immune, I mean, can you believe????

YES I LOVE PLAYING THE GOAT GAME. It's easier and less stressful for me and I have a great chance of making it to FTC this way. Thanks touchy subjects for showing my true calling. <3

Sam hates me and didnt let me bid at the auction omg. Ricky won immunity so Jenna is gonna go next tbh. Im a poser and I love it.

Well....the touchy subjects immunity was very telling. People think I'm the head bitch in charge, that I'm the villain of the season, and that I'm going to win everything. In fact, they WANT me to win. This is definitely putting a target on my back, but I don't understand a lot of it because Abbey got called the hero of the season and she's playing pretty much the exact same game as me, the only difference it that I organize the votes and she goes along with me. I guess that's what I get for playing the strongest game. Hopefully we'll get out Jenna and I'll be able to lock in her jury vote. Here's to another day.

UM. A DREAM COME TRUE???? EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED TO HAPPEN HAPPENED????

JAY BEING XPOSED AS THE POWERFUL PLAYER SHE IS AND HAVING HER NAME SPREAD LIKE WILDFIRE?

ME GETTING NICEST PERSON AND MOST LIKELY NOT TO SURVIVE ON MY OWN? At least i know my weak little innocent boy act is working, and I can continue to play that role and be seen as someone who people can use for now.

CAMI GETTING MOST ANNOYING??? UM WERK. Personally, I’ve never once found cami annoying tbh tbh I really love her but Jay and Abbey have both said she is multiple times and maybe this will light a fire under Cami’s ass? I feel bad for anyone who got anything bad so like on a personal level I want people to feel better but from a game standpoint, BLESS.

Ok, so. I'm definately annoying, I know this for a fact. So okay, I don't mind that one at all. SUCKS TO BE Y'ALL WHO HAVE TO HANDLE ME, XOXO. I do succumb to intimidation and pressure very easily so, yes, great assessment 10/10. The poser one? I truly don't get it? What am I posing as??? Can we clarify this on the reunion, I'll need explaining for this one. But to top it off. It's really nice to know at least half of you could not care less to keep in contact with me after this is over. Really nice. This might make it a lot easier to turn on some of you later on in the game, okay, bye suckers, have fun dealing with my annoying presence :*

Im simultaneously a poser, a hero and the funniest lol nice

Im drunk rn tbh

Okay I don't want to confess a bunch of times in a row, but fuck it. I'm actually pretty sad that people voted me villain. Maybe it's because it's one in the morning right now, but I honestly thought that people liked me and I was making relationships with people, and now I'm worried that people aren't going to like me beyond the game. Like, I don't want people to see my as a threat but, even more than that, I want to have friendships with people after this. I don't lie to my allies and I try to be honest with people unless I know for a fact that they've lied to me or want to vote me out. On the plus side, I got a really nice letter from the Other Jay and he's a total stranger but he was so sweet and said my game was good, and then I got an idol clue, so maybe this night isn't a total wash. I'll update about the vote again tomorrow.

This challenge says so much, though. Like, I love Jay and she's the closest ally to me at this point when it comes to strategy, but I also see other people, like Zach, Madi and Jenna who don't trust her cause she was probably the one who had the job of keeping them out of the loop in some votes and therefore they feel lied to. So I set Jay's name in these bad things related to strategy because of the weight of these three people. I hope I get to work that out with her today. On the other hand, we can see the outsiders clearly. Jenna (obvs) and Madison are on the outs totally. Ricky is also very separated from part of that tribe and that hurts him game-wise. Speaking of Ricky, for someone who comes along with this speech that I don't like YOU, it's pretty clear to me that you're the one who doesn't like me at all, am i right?

So I'm sitting here at 4 in the morning, winning an Endurance comp for Rakiura, reflecting on everyone's answers for Touchy Subjects. These people have no idea how scary I can be. I'm literally about to win myself into final 2 in one game, gaining important new strategies I never thought about from hosting another, and still successfully looking like a non-threat. Hayley thinks I missed an important opportunity in game. Must mean she's working against me some how and would never be able to gain her favor because I'm at the bottom of our alliance. Oh, what a coincidence, Jay also decided not to give me any advantage with her auction item. She chose CAMI over ME. Anyway, it works out because those are 2 of the biggest threats that I'd most like to flip on. I was also thinking Abbey but I think since the beginning of the game she's been less relevant. Jenna still needs to go first because I have no way of ever gaining her trust back since I lied for literally no reason to her, but my alliance is so damn messy I thought I'd at least try blindsiding her. (I still can't believe the alliance has to be told by Ricky "Let's keep votes on the down low")

Ricky knows what's up, and said I was the nicest as well as the most honest. I like Ricky, and I will gladly let him shepard me into Finals. :)

And looking back at these, it's still showing completely different gameplay styles. I have no idea whether I want to play hard in the middle of merge or be carried to the end as a goat. It seems easier/less stressful to play as a goat, but I still keep getting votes frustratingly, and how awful would that be to be voted out early as a goat.

At this point in the game my biggest problem is that the people I'm closer with are not, necessarily, the ones I'm allied with.

Okay so literally what the fuck is going on am I about to save Jenna???? #Jenna’sMist, okay but literally i was going along with this whole save jenna fiasco with her and planning on blindsiding her later because even though keeping her can be so beneficial, the person who will be taking the fall is Madi. This is where I fall in a hard place, I love Madi so much and she’s so loyal to me, but the girl is barely active and doesn’t have the social bonds to make much farther regardless, she’s just gonna be used as a scapegoat later. Jenna is gonna be a meat shield, and after talking to Jay, jay wants Jenna to stay as well but just like me, she needed a push to initiate so we were basically each others push. The thing is, if Jay thinks Jenna is going to be more loyal to her than me she’s mithTAKEN.

The Whoresome Foursome

So today was literally the weirdest day in the game, bar none. I woke up and everybody wanted to vote Jenna. I talk to Cami and a couple other people about not voting Jenna, and it's to no avail. Jenna is screwed. Then all of a sudden, Jay messages me and says Madi. Hayley and Amir confirm this. THEN, Amir and Hayley entrust me, and we create an alliance between myself Hayley, Amir and Jenna. Otherwise known as the Whoresome Foursome. Together, we hope to crawl our way to the final four. I don't know what happened today to cause all of this insanity, but I honestly love it. The amount of happiness right now is overwhelming.

So this is definitely going to contradict some of the things I said in my last confession (because I thought I did one before this but apparently not rip me.) But first, let’s answer Sam’s questions:

What are your thoughts on the garlic necklace? When the auction started I knew I wanted to just spend all my money on one thing to make sure I walked away with SOMETHING. That something happened to be the garlic necklace, mostly because I wanted to know what it did. I was half expecting to get a response from Sam like “Lol congratulations you bought some garlic on a string.” but it ACTUALLY is super useful. With all the idol paranoia I can use this to negate when I think someone is going to play the idol.

What was your reaction to Jenna’s idol play? My reaction to Jenna playing the idol: “I cannot BELIEVE she had one!” followed by “Damn, what a great move.” followed by “Shit, we fucked up.” Current mood: this actually turned out good for me.

How does Daniel leaving change things? At first, Daniel leaving was a good thing, because I was worried about what would happen when we got down to the 7 in our alliance. Then Daniel leaving turned out to be a REALLY good thing because that is one less person I am going to have to blindside.

And now, for your regularly scheduled programming.

Jenna playing the idol changed things. She was supposed to be next again, but between the Auction and the Touchy Subjects challenges, I got a little bit of a wakeup call. If I stick with my alliance down to the 7, I am going home. Whether it be right away or at the final four, I am convinced I could not make it to the final tribal. I just don’t have the numbers within that group to make a move once it’s just seven of us left. That means I need to make a move sooner, and a big one.

Amir and I discussed when that big move needs to be, and who we can get on our side. Jenna, who is still her because now the vote is Madi (Jay’s idea, to be discussed later) which will leave Jenna feeling like she owes me. I also can trust her not to lie to me. Zach is also on the outs, and I trust him as well. The four of us are now “The Whoresome Foursome” (courtesy of Amir) and have plans to go to the final four. This is good for Amir and I, who will probably take Zach to the final three, because we think either of us could beat these two, and would rather sit next to them than someone like Jay.

Let me just state for the record, that I love Jay. Jay is an amazing person, and the game will be way less fun once she is (theoretically) voted out. That being said, she can’t make it to the end. Jay could step on my face and stab me with a stake and I’d still vote for her to win if I were on the jury. Jay is a huge threat simply because everyone thinks she is. Right now, I’m not a threat, because I was voted “nice, honest, and easily intimidated” by everyone else in this game. This puts me in the best position to make a big move, but it has to be soon. I’m not going to rock the boat for this vote, it doesn’t leave me enough time to get things together, but unfortunately for the next vote, I’m going to try to make sure it’s Jay that goes. Maybe Ricky, but probably Jay.

The biggest concern is that if this works, they’ll be mad at me (I genuinely like these people, and actually did do this to make friends) and won’t want to give me their jury votes. However, I know that they won’t take me to the end, and if they did it would only be because they thought I couldn’t win. And that’s not how I want to go down.

okay so if i get voted out this game was really fun and you're a great host sam. i hate all the guys except amir and i hate everyone but amir so fuck this cast and i love myself

im gonna be bitter as fuck if i get double didgets... 9th place PLEASE

I hate to make seven trillion confessions in a twenty four hour period, but Sam will love it, so here I am again. My real life is kind of shit right now, so I haven't been on too much, but I'm trying to control the vote as best as I can regardless. Everyone wanted to vote Jenna, but I know that Jenna will vote with me as long as she can, so I want to keep her around just to guarantee the numbers. So I suggested taking out Madi and I think people are down. Plus, the more times I save Jenna and the more I talk to her, the most likely I am to get her jury vote. I really like everyone still in the game, so I'm hoping nobody will have hurt feelings and that I can keep playing as long as possible.

Okay tribal is about to happen and i feel so fucking bad GOD

Like Madi DID NOT DESERVE THIS AND I COULD BE MAKING A HUGE MISTAKE BUT I TRULY DO FEEL LIKE THIS IS WHATS BEST FOR MY GAME.

Okay thinking thinking thignrjegnk

There's Hayley and I.

Then there's Zach and Jenna who I could easily pick up and create some kind of trio with.

Theres the Jay/Abbey and then Abbey/Ricky but im not sure if Jay/Ricky is a thing anymore based on the last time Jay and I talked about ricky.

I think Cami’s loyalties are Abbey Jay and I as of right now.

I think getting ricky out is the next step in this game but I don't know how to initiate it without blowing my cover and coming out as a strategic/cutthroat player, I need to somehow get one of the other people that aren’t with him to start that movement and make them think it’s their idea. As for right now, i'm just gonna #keeponswimming.

they say they didn't vote for me. they're all fucking lying.

me: is emo okay ummmmmmmm this will probably be my last confessional if i get out. im very sad because i loved this game like it was my baby, and i neglected both my other games for this one. im prob gonna just get out in the other 2 because i need a life. last thoughts: i hate everyone but amir

whoops!! if i had my laptop i would've been on top of my game, but i didn't and it really sucks that that's what held me back. otherwise im sure i played a good game, but it was my time to go!!! dont hate anyone

go amir!

#illreadthevotes #masstag #confessions

Episode 8 Confessions - What Kind of Magical Power Is That

We got Brian out by splitting it between Jenna and Brian. We told everyone else different stories so tribal was wild. Zach and Jenna are both mad we didnt tell them oh man.

okay what was that? WHAT WAS THAT?

- FUCK YOU ZACH FOR VOTING FOR ME YOU LIL PUSSY ASS BITCH

- I ACTUALLY TALKED TO CAMI FOR THE FIRST TIME AND SHE'S A DARLING I LOVE HER

- [4/17/16, 6:07:18 PM] madi wap: is it weird if you tell me who told you i was the vot4e

[4/17/16, 6:08:20 PM] Zachary G.: Abbey, Jay, Hayley. But it seems everyone told each other to tell me you so I wouldn't tell Brian?

i just wanna know why they threw my name out there even if it was fake

BYE BRIAN I DIDNT LIKE YOUR CONTROL FREAK ASS

I trust amir so much more now idk i feel like he's not playing me yet which is good

EVEN JENNA FLIPPED ON BRIAN????????????????????????????????

Okay, now, rationally. Jay is scary, people. Jay is super scary! She flipped Jenna, she flipped ZACH, she flipped even Brian himself to vote for someone he wasn't intending to, she GETS INTO PEOPLE'S HEADS! What kind of magical power is that????? I'm most definately weary as of now, that's some scary power. I feel like Amber, following along Boston Rob the greatest in All Stars as he manipulates the whole environment around them. I'm just admiring her so much right now.

So it turns out I'm actually an icon. I arranged another blindside I completely controlled the last vote and I don't even know what to think. Every single person voted who I told them to vote, besides Brian. Which means every single person in the game wanted to work with me and the two who weren't in on the Brian vote are scrambling to get back in my good graces. I'm just trying not to get too full of myself at this point honestly. Hopefully I can start an individual immunity streak so no one will be able to flip on me, because I'm definitely becoming more of a threat with each vote and challenge God.

I smoothed shit over with Zach but Jenna is so mad its scary. Shes mad at Amir the most bc she thinks he was the closest to Brian. UGHSUVJNLC

also, BYE BRIAN, GO HOME

I've been lied to... again. I'm not even sure if it's my fault. When you talk to almost every person on the tribe, and they all say the same thing, how am I supposed to work with that. It just stinks how I'm constantly being lied to in this game. It hurts. It really does. I'm like that puppy on the street that keeps getting kicked and knocked around. It'll be fine though. No matter what happens to me, I have made the jury, and honestly that's what I care about most. Maybe outside of the game, I'll actually be told the truth to

Jenna is slyly quiet and reserved these last two days, I wonder why... Doesn't she know it's better for her if she tries and reconnect with the group???? Alienate yourself further, Jenna, come on. That's not smart.

The tribe chat was too wild last night and it's dead today. Wild

We're literally talking about the weather now omg

Ok so, just because no one is ever around before 1pm and I'm bored, let's make an assessment of the tribe totem pole, shall we? We have 11 players left in the game and I think at this point it's pretty safe to assume we'll have a Final 3 with a jury of 9. Now, I somewhat can see how things might go in the next 2 or 3 votes. At this point, most of tribe is very cohesive and gets along really well, with most people willing to vote along with others. But that's gotta change eventually, I mean, how long will it take for people to notice that there are no alliances of 8? There are suballiances in there, of 6, of 5, of 4, probably of 2, and if your place in the system is in the outs of that, you should probably do something about it. Now, at 11, if we have 9 people (well, considering the last vote, it was 9) who worked together just fine, it only takes a small group of 4 to gather the 2 outsiders and switch things up. These 4 only need fo figure out where they stand in big ol' 9, find others in the "bottom" as well, and rally them up. THIS IS WHY I'M CONSTANTLY PARANOID, it doesn't take a village to mix this game up but things are all smooth and calm like... Is this a game? At all? Why aren't more people concerned about this? My radar is low right now cause Jenna hasn't been around at all, so unless she wins immunity, I feel as if she'll be the easy target for everyone again. How small will the tribe have to be before people start to turn on each other? When the time comes, I hope I'm on the betrayed end of the stick, not on the betraying side.

So Cami won immunity and congrats to her. I'm proud of her. But who knows what the vote will be. I'm fairly confident that it's Jenna but in all honesty, I would not be surprised if it was me. The reason why this game is so much harder is because we're reading text and not people. You can't really "trust" anybody, because the people we're putting faith into are just typing over the truth. I honestly don't trust anybody at all. I'll probably be gone soon, but it is what it is. I'm just sick of the constant lies.

So someone gave me an advantage and disadvantage in the immunity challenge. It's so confusing because I would feel like whoever gave me the advantage would tell me, but it's just been crickets. And then who the hell gave me the disadvantage? Obviously that person isn't going to admit anything. It's so frustrating.

Okay Okay so I haven’t made a confessional in a while but I really don't have too much to say, clearly, after betraying Brian last week and I was hit with a “You’re a fucking asshole” in pms before he left, all morals are out the window now! Okay so I’ve been making sure my social game is up to par, I check in every single day with Cami and Abbey and Jay and I do my rounds, and it’s honestly not hard because I genuinely love talking to them. At this point, Hayley is still my closest ally, but I don't know if i can get her to turn against her girls so I’ll get back to you on that one, other than Hayley, I have Daniel who came to me telling me basically everything i was feeling and that was that we were at the bottom of this big alliance. After blindsiding Brian, Jenna is furious with me so like sorry hunty but you gotta go!!!

Other than that, I’m starting to maybe see Jay being genuinely loyal to me? Idk maybe she’s misting me but I really love talking to her, and while that's true, I still can't let this girl get far. She’s too good at comps and has way too many connections and I wanna start taking out her army but I don't know where to start, im thinking ricky because #veangance4RjandDavid and because him and I dont talk at all. Abbey I know is close to her as well, but Abbey and I get along really well. Liana seems not to care to much so she could be swayable, and I need Cami in this game. She’s proven to be fiercly loyal, basically telling me she would rather be betrayed than betray. Like?????? Ofc i pretend i have that set of morals, but like this survivor, i have no morals lmao I’ll do whatever I have to do. But anyways, as long as I keep up this nice boy act I can keep some of these people around my finger. As for tonight, sorry Jenna you’re funny as fuck but like you have to go.

A list of people in the game and how I feel about them: Ricky - He's been my number one since the beginning, but he's hiding something from me. I still trust him and like him but he might blindside me in the future. Abbey - I like her a lot but I she's hiding things from me too. Amir - Absolutely hilarious. He could vote me out and I'd still want to laugh it up with him. Hayley - She's so fun. I feel like she's sincere when I talk to her too, but if she is told to vote for me, she probably will. Liana - Very mysterious. I don't have a clue what she thinks. She'll probably have no problem giving me the boot. Jay - I am very torn. I honestly feel like she hates me for some reason and it is what it is. I try to be nice to her but she does not give too much back. I have a feeling she has a knife to my back. Daniel - I have hopes for Daniel. We'll see. Cami - Sweetheart. I love Cami. Even if she's lying to me, I don't know if I care too much. She's fun, she's sweet and if I leave before her, I'd root for her. Madi - She doesn't talk to me, and I'm fairly certain she's still pissed about the first vote. I don't blame her too much. Sorry Madi I was a victim in that vote! Jenna - I love Jenna too but she's public enemy number one. Poor kid. We'll see how it goes for Zach but who knows what the hell is going to happen to me.

Who are these people I'm playing with?!

Everybody here is crazy.

I'm still trying to find who gave me the advantage and disadvantage. Like why is no one admitting to helping me? What's so wrong with telling me that you gave me an advantage?! What are you hiding?

I love Cami. I hope you see this Cami! You're amazing. I don't even care if you blindside me, you are a queen!

Man, I miss David. I enjoyed our conversations and we got along really well for that short time, even though he put a lot of pressure on me, especifically, when he was about to leave the game. Yeah, I miss the guy, that's all.

Based on how things are going now, here's what's probably going to happen in this game. Jay and Abbey are undoubtedly a tight pair. Unbreakable. They are dictating every move that's happening thus far while the rest of us are too chicken to do anything about it. If people don't start to actually play then congrats we have our final two right now. It's their game. The question is are we just going to sit on our asses and watch it play out or is someone actually going to do something?

I think we have another easy vote tonight, though this is the first one that I haven't aggressively spearheaded. I'm just going with how my alliance is swinging instead of leading so that I can try to avoid being seen as a threat before the next vote, where I want to make a move. I like Jenna a lot, but it's time for her to go. The alliance wants it to be Jenna, Zachary, then Cami, but I want Daniel gone next, provided he doesn't win immunity. I just think he's a much bigger threat and it'll be way easier to get Cami to vote with me. She's much more loyal, I think, in the long-term, and she's not exactly playing a strategic game

if i get another vote this round i'll be really sad. i have a terrible feeling im the vote and everyone is lying to me and one day my paranoia is going to corrupt and KILL me. okay apparently the vote is jenna and i still have no alliances but i have amir and idk how that will help me in the long run

im playing a terrible game help!!

As far as I know everyone is voting Jenna but she told Jay she has an idol and now its a mess. She has asked everyone if they voted for her and everyone is like !!! doesnt want to lie and doesnt want to tell her. Im so stressed omg.

So I did something a little shady. I told Jenna that 'people' were going to vote for her to see if she'd tell me if she had an idol.

AND GUESS WHAT??

She has it. And she's going to play it. And she's going to single-handedly blindside Daniel, which means 1) I found a way to get his potentially shady ass out without losing his jury vote and 2) Jenna will still go home next but she'll completely trust me, which means I'll have her jury vote on lock. Plus, the core alliance will still have numbers and a common enemy, which makes the next vote easy. I could literally throw my next vote away and it would still go exactly as I want.

Well, tribal's about to start, so I guess I'll leave it there and update the universe about the #drama tomorrow.

at least i made the jury dot tumblr dot com forward slash in maybe the most andrew savage esque iconic way ever ok bye

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Episode 7 Confessions - MERGE TIME MOTHER F*CKERS

You spend a whole day without any movement whatsoever in the tribe and then, haha merge! MAYHEM!

Thank God. Bless. I am so relieved. I can die happy. Just kidding, now there’s work to do! The only thing I’m going to say about the vote tonight was that no one had really talked to Elena, so she was sort of an easy vote. We wanted to keep Daniel for challenges (obviously no longer necessary) and I wanted to keep him for my alliance. I want to keep Amir around so I’m making sure to let the girls know that I trust him and he is on our side, even if they don’t put him in “the alliance.” I like Ricky so far, he’s funny, but I already knew I would like him from the live challenge we did. Now, I’m back with my girls, we have strong numbers, and if we could just find the new idol, everything will be golden.

We merged and tbh all I wanted to do in this game was get to merge. But my alliance is super strong so maybe I can get further than I thought. We've got, me, Jay, Liana, Haley, Ricky, Daniel and Zach and Amir tentatively. So basically if everything works we can ride that alliance to the end. Brian is going first hopefully. He's annoyed too many people to stay, although talking to him one on one he isnt as bad as he is in the tag. Amir is amazing btw.

MERGE TIME MOTHER FUCKERS

Okay so that was a cluster fuck. Originally I was thinking that we could throw the next immunity and vote off hayley but obviously that’s a no go. Tonight I had really great talks with both Cami and Abbey. I’m extremely worried about Jay, however she actually was pretty quiet tonight so maybe the impression I was getting was all wrong. It’s SO GOOD to be talking to Zach again, and Jenna hasn’t been online so there’s no way to decompress with her after the Elena vote. I’m hoping tomorrow to lock down me, amir, zach, daniel, jenna and ricky. Thats 6. If we can just keep madi or hayley, then e have numbers. But there is just too much happening right now to really know how things will go so my plan is to win immunity (I always hate when people say stupid shit like that, obviously every single person’s plan is to win immunity) and at the very least be able to be direct with people knowing I’m safe. We’ll see how that goes. As for there being a new idol: fuck. that. ugh. xoxo Fat B

I just want to write down my 3 day plan here: tomorrow is to have as many good 1 on 1 chats with the new girls as possible, get them comfortable sharing stuff and joking about other tribunates. Find common ground. then during immunity offer some help, marginally work together but still hope to win, then when its down to votes I need to have already discussed how I would like things to go with who I am trying to build trust with, but allow them to think it’s their call and that I’m just voting with them.

Jenna is back flirting with me again. What else is new. I feel bad but idk if shes being serious or not. Shes a nice girl but im not interested in relationships or whatever it is she wants. Idk im a littlegay i cant handle this rn

The merge has made me really uneasy. There are so many people to keep track of now and so many people all trying to play each other. I am confident in my alliance but idk there are a few cracks so it scares me that someone could potentially flip someone. UgzhbfznjvdkmsCLZ. Stress city man.

Daniel came into the chat 3am on the night of merge outrageously drunk. Daniel is out of control. He wants out tribe to be called dickasaurus. Dickasaurus.

WE MERGED AND IM SHRIEKING.

Im so happy I got to this point and as tradition shows, when theres any big swap, I automatically just retreat because this shit is way to overwhelming for me and again, I had no idea where to start, I have Hayley here which makes it better I know theres probably a solid group already of Hayley and her girls, so im trying my best to make Abbey and Jay like me. I talk to them literally none stop last night and then today, bam im in a 7 person alliance with Daniel/hayley/abbey/jay/liana/ricky. Since last night, ive gotten really close with Jay, but because of everything that happened on Rasnov, I know she's a strong player and shes definitely running shit, but shes already getting into scenarios of who in the alliance we’re taking to f4 and f5 and what not, and I dont know if i believe her 100% yet, because from everything Daniel has told me, shes tight with Abbey and Ricky as a trio, and Hayley tells me shes tight with her as well. Jay has also said that Cami trusts her and while i do love her, Im still cautious. Liana and Cami are people I wanna take really far in this game, I feel like i can manipulate them pretty easily and convince them to do what I want, also theyre such sweethearts, but yeah at someone point, the people running things in that alliance need to be taken down and im hoping with Madi/Cami/Liana/Hayley, a counter thing can be made late in the game. Im already getting so ahead of myself but for this vote, they were deciding between Brian (who is talking to everyone as per usual and saying we’re close) and cami, so I support the get Brian out plan tbh because the more im planning my game, the more I realize theres no spot for him that late in the game for me. Also, hes besties with jenna and needs to stop. So heres hoping this 7 stays true and Brian actually goes!

HOW ICONIC ME MAKING THE MERGE

I was for sure done but like i scrambled and elena went instead and now corss-tribal allaince is a fUCKING GO

My brain is getting overwhelmed with all this shifting between english and portuguese, I swear to God I'm super eloquent, you guys!!!! In portuguese I can speak and form really good sentences, I swear!!! Ugh

Cami is out of control. SHes talking about how she assumed Zach was Jewish bc he works hard, not she's giving us a history lesson about what a latina is and colonization and were all like :\. Camis gotta chill or shes gonna go next.

CAMI IS POSTING PHOTOS OF BRAZILIAN ASS IN THE CHAT NOW! BRAZILIAN ASS!

Now south america isnt a continent?? And Brazillians cant tell asian people apart??? What???

Basically........this is the most annoying tribe chat ever. Not to name drop, but Brian and Cami are getting on my nerves so much that I'm thinking about smashing my phone. They go off on irrelevant and stupid tangents 24/7 and it just turns into this massive swirling vortex of idiocy. So many notifications. So many. I can't wait to vote one of them out next, since the new Power Alliance (Black Widow 2.0 + Ricky, Daniel, and Amir) wants to stop the madness ASAP. I'm going to go pretty hard on the immunity challenge since it plays to my strengths, but hopefully I won't even need immunity to stay in. My goal is honestly to play the game so hard that everyone trusts me and nobody wants me out. And then I can pick them off.

ok so like there's two main forces as far as i can see brian/jenna/me are a thing hayley/amir/abbey/jay/myself/ricky/liana are a thing and then u got cami and zach and madi who r ??????????????? whatever

I honestly don't know what Jay's problem is with me, but it's so third grade. She literally forgot to put my name on the flag?.... Like give me a break. So aggravating.

Okay Jay personally apologized so I feel better. I still lowkey think she's secretly following me with a knife ready to strike, but I do appreciate the apology for forgetting my name on the flag!

That's right, kiddos. Just me, your local icon, winning individual immunity with the tribe flag. It's nice to not be on the chopping block since everyone thinks I'm a threat (and is right to think that honestly).

About the vote: my tune has changed on Cami. Even though she annoys me sometimes and can be too talkative, she's really loyal to me and a genuinely kind person. Yesterday she actually told me that she'd rather be blindsided by me and vote me to win than the jury...and I believed her. Mostly because she's been sending me screenshots of Brian trying to throw me under the bus. I forgot to confess about this yesterday, but Brian has been trying to get people to blindside me, so now I'm thinking it's time for him to go. I blindsided RJ for voting me. I voted out David for not regretting voting me. See a pattern? In the simplest of terms: talk shit, get hit.

First tribal as a merged tribe. This is already chaos. Do I flip? Do I not? Brian is the only one who's talked strategy with me so what does that mean? Am I gonna get votes? There's so many questions right now and no answers. This is where the game gets real. This is already so stressful.

My country's whole presidencial system is being shaken by an impeachment as we speak and I still think tonight's tribal will be crazier shit than the vote happening in Congress right now. I'm super anxious, feeling very much targeted, unsure of who to trust and starting to look like a liability to my alliance. Just as I told Zach that I trusted him last night, he straight up asked me who were the girls I was allied with. Didn't wait much, didn't sugar code it at all. Way to make me regret what I just said, man. Jay is also very on top of her game and pretty much the person weaving the web of our votes. She's got a lot of power in her hands and it's only up to her what she does with it. I guess I'll have to blindly jump and see if there's any water down there when I land.

Sam is going to fight me for not doing any confessions recently. I’ve been travelling for the past few days, so I’m surprised I’ve even been able to be online as much as I have. The sitch: Brian thinks me, Amir, Daniel, Madi, and Jenna are all voting with him for Liana. (Poor Liana.) The only people actually voting for anyone but Brian are (theoretically) Jenna and Zach (Poor Zach). Tonight we are splitting the votes between Brian and Jenna, so that if Brian DOES have an idol, Jenna will go home. I haven’t spoken to Madi, so if she’s actually not with us, there will be a three way tie and we’ll have to revote. That would be crazy, so let’s just hope Brian is actually the one going tonight. On a less serious note, my alliance of 7 (Lesbians, Inc.) is full of really fun people that I am enjoying getting to know better every day. Thinking far in advance, I would like the final four to be me, Amir, Abbey, and Jay. I do worry that my time apart from my alliance brought them closer together. Abbey is close with Ricky, and Daniel could be closer to either of them than he is with me (especially since he was out of the loop during the Alex vote.) This is something that I am going to try to work on while we whittle down the numbers. As long as nobody flips, we’ll have until there are only seven of us left to split. Hopefully I can get on the right side of that split. (That ended up being a more serious note, didn’t it?)

Okay so either Liana is going to go home and people are telling me the truth, Cami is going to go home and only some people are telling me the truth, or I am going to go home and most people are lying to me. I really think however the 7 of myself, Amir, Jenna, Zachary, Daniel, Hayley, and Madi can vote strong together and get numbers on our side. It’s unfortunate that Cami already voted but my hope is she really does have an idol and plays it, so it doesn’t even matter.

wish me luck, and that this isn't my final confessional

xoxo the B

This vote is A MESS. We're afraid Brian has an idol so were splitting the vote 5 Brian 4 Jenna. I think Brian, Jenna, maybe Zach and maybe Madi are either voting for me or Liana. It's unclear. What a mess.

short and sweet, this merge is fucking crazy already. it's not even like, physically crazy like a lot of talking, it just takes a lot of thinking. My trust in the girls from Rasnov went down significantly, I feel so separated from them AND Jenna, even though Jenna and I were on the same side. We're already targeting each other and I hate that. I don't know whether I'm truly safe or I'm being lied to or someone is going to get blindsided. I just know that I'm really cool and no matter what happens, I'll remain cool. also Amir is still my top bitch even tho I'm still scared of him

This tribal is so stressful. there is so much uncertainty!! I've heard Madi's name and I've heard Liana's name. I've heard Cami's name (who I am not voting off without a fight). This is insanity. Where am I? What is this game?

Okay so im pretty sure that brian is 100% going at this point and im already starting to feel bad I HATE, but this is something I had to do for my game, and now my loyalty is secure in this alliance of 7.The thing is, I don't really know if staying in this alliance is what’s best for me. Its clear that there's a bunch of cliques within it, Hayley and I being a duo, Abbey and Ricky being a duo, and Jay basically being the kingpin promising everyone in that an alliance that they’re part of her endgame. Jay also has that kind of control with Cami who isnt even in the alliance. It’s great because it's a great form of security for now. However, I DID NOT forget that I was the last one added and probably as a vote and to be one of Jay’s pets, and there will be a point in this game when these people wont know what hit them.

cami telling me im in a good position: TERRIBLE NEWS. if im not the vote, then that's bad because i have potential to be. if i am, then shes basically telling me WHAT DO I DO I AM SCARED i don't want to get out, it's not my time

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Jay is going to win and I’m going to hate it. It’s so stupid to get so mad over a Skype game but I can’t help it idk I’m damaged. I trusted Amir so much and had stopped thinking like I ever needed to get rid of him. I should have seen this coming when it got so quiet. Whatever, the only person I’m remotely interested in seeing win is Jenna. When I watch survivor I get annoyed when jurors are salty but DAMN am I ever gonna be a salty juror.

Okay rant aside that really sucks. Being the first merge boot is just really disappointing. Obviously I just gamed too hard and made the people I was working with uncomfortable. Good luck to everyone in the game and I hope you miss out on an important life event to play this game. I had lots of fun and Sam really is a great host. p.s. As you are reading this right now after this season is over, know that Bobby Jon has forsaken you xoxo Fat B

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Episode 6 Confessions - I Broke Into a Catholic School Playground

It worked!!! Sorry Alex, I think you’re a gem, but I know you didn’t trust me either. Daniel will be the next to go if we lose the next immunity challenge, and now I know I can trust Brian and Amir. The girls also shared all their idol guesses, and Amir is going to share his guesses and the ones he has from the old tribe with me, so hopefully one of the two of us will find the idol, if it’s still around. Those idols have got to be around somewhere, and the fear of not knowing where they are caused a lot of chaos today. Hopefully we’ll win this challenge so I can take a break. I also offered to sit out of this challenge, because I’ve been home sick. Online puzzles and chatting over skype have been easy to do from bed, but going on a scavenger hunt may be a bit much for me. The only thing I’m worried about is someone like Jenna not participating at all, or barely contributing. So I don’t know, we’ll see. Right now, I think I’m going to shut skype down and ignore it for a little while! At least until the morning.

Okay wow sorry it's been too long since I've done one of these. It's probably because things are going so well right now and I haven't been in any danger. Girls have majority now in our tribe so we're super safe.

A couple of days ago I was invited to an alliance with the old original black widows and Ricky, even though I've hardly done anything. It makes me feel better that Cami's on the bottom rather than me, but right now I keep forgetting to respond to Ricky so hopefully I get better soon so he likes me alright. :x I'm not gonna lie I'm trying to win Survivor: Rakiura and we're at final 5 right now but it should be over with soon and I'm gonna kill this game.

I like Ricky a bunch because I feel like even out of all the girls he tries talking to me the most. He told me about other survivor communities like the proboards one and it sounded like fun. This season is crazy because I feel like it as a bunch of people with Survivor experience, even if they haven't played a Tumblr Main Season before so I think this season will really be intense.

Because I feel so safe I've kinda given up finding the idol which is really dumb of me but oh well. I've decided to donate blood for this immunity challenge so I think that'll keep me safe for even a while longer because only jerks vote off people who took needles for an online game. :P

Okay, so let's just put some general statements out there:

- My opinion on Brian has gone down significantly, he acts like I forget I'm fifteen. For instance, I made a joke about donating blood, and he turned into my parent for a second and told me not to do it. He always constantly challenges me on joking statements, and it's so fucking annoying. Fuck off please!

- I'm glad Alex's no life shady ass is gone. I would have preferred Daniel, but of course, he had to win immunity. I would've tried harder on the competition, but I was on my Ipad so I wouldn't have won anyway. If we lose this comp, i'm sure Daniel is gone next.

- Since I already know Amir I do trust him, but sometimes I feel like he's not being completely truthful. For now I'm just going to stay away, but still trust him for the most part. I just hope no one else catches on.

- I still love the girls, except I'm on a tribe will well.. nearly none of the girls I was in a previous alliance with. However, I'm glad I got to know them from the merge, and I feel comfortable with all of them but Elena just because she's not very active and we don't talk.

I feel pretty cool with my new tribe, but at the same time I'm scared I'm going to be fucked over. Staying on my toes x)

Well, today I did some weird shit for this game. I found some very strange stuff at school. I broke into a Catholic school playground to get a picture of a castle. I went to a funeral home and was taken to 'the casket room' by a woman named Dolores. If we end up going to tribal after this, I'll be both angry and confused, especially since the people in my closest alliance (Ricky and Abbey) want to blindside Cami over Zachary. Even though I know she's a threat, I also think she'd be more likely to vote for me on the jury if she made the merge. So I'm torn, yet again. We'll see soon if we lose the challenge.

I honestly think it's ridiculous how Jay calls me out during last tribal. "I had a choice to change my game, and now I'm firmly at the bottom." Give me a break. She literally has been lying to me the second I met her, saying how she's voting with us. Then she calls me out for not flipping? Why would I flip when you tell me you're going to flip? I really don't trust Jay at this point. Ricky is my number 1. I like Abbey, I like Cami, I like Liana. But honestly Jay is kind of mean. And I really don't appreciate that.

We won the challenge tonight, and I am so happy. I suspect a merge is coming up too and a merge means Jury, and Jury means I made it to the fun part of the game. Will I be loyal to my current tribe? Maybe. I trust Ricky though, and I will stay loyal to him for hopefully the remainder of the game. Anything can happen though. There's still a long way to go.

We won the scavenger hunt which was awesome we got nearly everything on the list and killed Bistria by 100 points. My alliance of Jay, Ricky and I talked about who could go next if we didn't win before the results were out. It was either Cami or Zach. Zach bc he's new to our big alliance and Cami because shes been wishy washy all the way back since Jessica and shes needed a lot of convincing for every vote since. She makes friends easily and she feels like voting against someone is an attack which is sweet. She's so nice I don't ever want to vote her off but she's going to become a liability post merge. She's dedicated and could very well win individual challenges and I think she could easily switch alliances on us. We're pretty confident we're merging after this vote though. Hopefully its going to be me, Jay, Ricky, Liana, Cami, Zach, Haley and Daniel. If that works out we can pick off the rest and hopefully we can take the four original girls: me, Jay, Liana and Haley to the end. I hope Brian goes home tomorrow I've had enough of that hoe and I don't want to play with hi tbh. Bye Brian, go home.

Everything is so quiet today, no tribal council, no voting, no scrambling. There's this eerie peace over at our tribe, which is great after the dramatic tension from last vote. It's interesting to think about how the game dynamics change with swaps and twists. Bistrita is gonna have to vote someone out today and after that we'll have equal numbers, 6-6, but that doesn't make any difference at this point. We have old connections with the our girls who had to go to Bistrita and it doesn't help us much to see their tribe getting smaller. We hope is not one of our girls going home tonight, that it's a boy (there are only 5 guys left in this game, y'all, and I think at least one of them is pretty solid with us). And considering I'm pretty confident we're gonna merge after this vote, it's more important to rekindle with the girls that are left than to worry about who goes home.

all my scrambling might pay off xo

It’s funny how an “alliance” might literally only be good for a single vote. Last week was the “Hungry Hungry Hippo” alliance of Amir, Jenna, Hayley, Madi, Elena, and I just to vote out Alex. Now we have the “Power Bottom” Alliance of Amir, Jenna, Daniel and I just to make sure a different girl goes. Somehow Amir convinced Hayley we should vote Elena, so Jenna is able to hide the fact that she was going to vote with us either way, and we get closer to having good numbers as we approach the merge. I’m hoping we get one more tribal to vote out Hayley after this but either way I’m just glad it’s not me. I have no idea how the other tribe will react to a girl being unanimously voted off, but again: AS LONG AS IT AINT ME. I feel bad about voting Alex out but I could not care less about Elena given how little she has spoken to anyone. Does that mean she would actually be the better one to keep and we should be voting out Hayley? YES. But hopefully it works out, because this was the less boat rocking plan and I know it did my share of over-playing last round. This one should be clean and painless.

Bye Elena

Okay so last vote worked perfectly, Alex is gone, and the girls trust me more than ever. God is real and there is peace in my heart. Anyways Daniel comes to me and he obviously knows hes at the bottom, and at first im just going along with what he says, but soon enough I realize how keeping him could be incredibly beneficial to me. Hes a meat shield at merge, and hes also visitd the other tribe, and if I get him to trust me enough, he could get me into that. So basically this with this vote, Jenna told Brian and Daniel she would only flip if another girl did, so i quickly got on call with Hayley and she said the same thing, so with that, we already had Jenna and Hayley voting with us and then we tell Madi who just votes with the majority, and then its an easy vote. Elena seems sweet but her and I never talk so her leaving is good for me. Brian tries to get us to vote Hayley instead and ughgughughug im just over his ideas, but Daniel and I are both still on the vote Elena train so im not to worried about the plan switching.

Also rip King David, im so upset David and RJ were literally the guys I liked most but at this point I have no loyalty to the guys except for Daniel.

I love my alliance, we are going to vote for Daniel because he was the other person to vote for me last tribal council. This vote is important in the way that it strengthens our team.

What are you doing for this vote? - I'm likely voting Elena because she's so fucking inactive that she didn't help for shit on the challenge. Love you girl <3 Do you like the people you’re working with? - I only really like the girls - elena and amir. Brian is fucking annoying, hence my last confessional, and Daniel is shady. SMH. How Important is this vote? - It'll only be important if I get out. Honestly, I think it's best for the tribe if we get out someone who's not putting in at least 75%. Period.

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Episode 4 Confessions - Forgive Me Bobby Jon, for I Have Sinned

OMG so we finally won immunity I am so proud of us girls! This might be the push we need to start really winning challenges and dominating over the boys!!! I am just so happy. I don't really have anything else to talk about right now. I have a group chat with Abbey and Cami I like those two alot.

That was a perfect blindside. Now the hard part will begin, who to get out next? Im debating on whether to stick with this alliance or go with others. either way I'm going to try to stay with Amir. I can't wait for more.

okay. we finally won immunity.yay. love my girls THEN YOU SWAP US!? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING? WHAT THE FUCK SAM? WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK ARE YOU DOING? i dont like any of the boys but amir bc amir is my bowtie CHILd. what do i do? make friends with fucking cootie filled trahs? no. i will NOT do this

So we swapped last night, and i'm literally freaking out this is exactly like the first night and I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know where to start because I have so much to say, or should i say, bitch about because that’s all I really do.

Okay so the guys who ended up being on my tribe with me are Brian, Alex, and Daniel.

I like all 3 of these guys, theyre all from my original alliance in the tribe, but quite honestly I’d much rather have had David and RJ here over any of these 3. RJ is my closest ally in the entire game so it feels weird not to be on the same tribe as him.

The girls on my tribe are Jenna, Elena, Hayley, and Madi. And i'm honestly just like… lol who are yall. I was excited to play with Elena because reading her bio, I thought i’d get along with her but she's the only girl I haven’t really talked to at all. Madi is someone who I trust because I’ve heard of her/talked to her briefly far before this game started. Okay so to start, Madi was telling me that I basically need to talk to the girls more because they dont know if they like me yet but they 100% like Brian. Brian is obviously being non stop social and is talking to every single member on the tribe. I do have a final 2 with Brian, but like, im so over it tbh tbh. As for my tribe members, my trust order goes 1. Madi 2. Brian 3. Hayley 4. Jenna, everyone else?

OF COURSE. OF. COURSE. Of COURSE my entire alliance is on the OTHER tribe. I’m going to try to talk to all the old rasnov girls on this new tribe and make sure I have their loyalties. On that note, I am also going to make sure to talk to the boys. If it comes down to voting a girl out (like if Jenna is absentee from a challenge again) then I need to make sure I’m in a good place with the other tribe. Which I guess is now my tribe. I’m already talking to Alex and Amir (and Brian, briefly), because they are the ones online tonight. We’re swapping info on how things have been going in our respective tribes so far. Also, it’s at least moderately comforting to know that Alex picked me first for the swap, and told me that was on purpose. Starting to think competing in that earlier challenge live was a good idea. Now, at least the boys know who I am. That puts me one step ahead of everyone else… hopefully.

This swap SUCKS. We are in an absolute stalemate. I cannot break the alliance, and I hope the other 3 guys I'm with will do the same. Now I am separated from Amir, i really hope he doesn't get voted out. This is going to suck winning because on one hand, i won't get the boot but now Amir is in danger. I need to find this idol for our safety, and luckily I got the clue. Hopefully I will have it soon.

I had a really bad feeling about this reward challenge, and damn, I was right. I could feel the swap coming which is something I totally didn't need after Keir got pulled and we went to tribal and voted out Mike. Being thrown into a leadership position and having to pick new tribemates really sucks. Not only do I have to pick from my friends on the men's tribe, but I also have to pick from the pool of girls, none of whom I know at all. Its tricky trying to navigate that, and all the while you have a target on your back for this or that or the other thing. My plan from the beginning is to stay strong with the guys, and even with this shake up in tribe dynamics that is still my main plan. I'd be dumb to not have a back up plan with the girls should things go south. Things have not been going my way ever since Keir got pulled, so I wouldn't be surprised if they continue to tank. Everyday I wake up and pray for a merge or another swap.

Alright! Confession time! ...or as I like to call it...time to rant with no regard to how this will be perceived in the future...

A lot has happened since last confession. Went to tribal council for the first time, unanimously voted out Mike, lost the reward challenge, swapped tribes and delt with the ensuing madness.

Let's start with Mike...

...

That's all I have to say. (Sorry bro)

Second, Alex SUCKED in that reward challenge. I was SCREEMING at my computer while he forgot where everything was located.

THEN, when the challenge ended and I was ready to go to sleep...TRIBE SWAP...at that point, I knew it was goona be a longer night than I had planned...

Cami picked me to be on her tribe with RJ, Ricky and Zach...apparently she thought my tribal council words were funny. It sucks because I am now seportated from my two closest allies, Amir and Brian. It wasn't all bad, though, because the whole guys tribe maintained pretty strong relationships and the 4 of us got together immediately.

Then, I could barely keep up with all of my skype chats...the group chat was going crazy from everyone introducing themselves, the guys allaince chat was going crazy with RJ being all idol hungry, and my private chats were going with trying to establish relationships with the girls.

It became very obvious, very quickly that these girls are PLAYERS. I have mad respect for them and therefore, they must go ASAP.

Abbey is clearly the most dangerous. She was the most to-the-point and direct about trying to find cracks in the guys (Sorry, boo, there are none). Regardless, I flirted with her a little bit and teased her about us potentially working together in the future. We will see where all of that goes.

I'm not anticipating us going to this first tribal council. Our video is shaping up to be pretty great. We've got writers and video editors on our team. I'll be very interested to see how things shake out on the other tribe.

The tribe swap worked pretty much in my favour. My black widow alliance is still mostly intact: me, Liana and Jay are together. I think Haley can survive over there shes a good player. Ricky and I hit it off pretty well, and I think I can trust him. Hes not tight with his tribe so hes gonna vote with us. Were going RJ for our first tribal so that will be good. We think hes the leader so hopefully him leaving will fuck them up. Jay is working the other guys. They think shes gonna flip and shes indulging their beliefs. This is so #iconique

Things were going so well for me. Really. Bernie Sanders won Wisconsin, I felt safe, and my alliance had numbers, but now we're in different tribes, which means I lost Hayley, who was easily my closest ally in the game. And apparently all of the guys on the new Rasnov tribe think I'm a huge threat and the leader of the girls. They're totally right, since I have the best challenge scores and have created a power alliance, but it makes me nervous nonetheless. I don't want to have a target on my back and I don't want the girls to doubt my loyalty to them. If we don't win immunity tonight, everything's going to be so dramatic because it's going to be my job to make all the guys feel safe so that we can take out RJ, who is, apparently, their undisputed leader. He's also kind of douchey, but I appreciate how aggressively he's playing the game, even if it's going to backfire horribly on him. We'll see if I can turn this around. Ugh.

OMG I was NOT expecting this tribe swap I am so scared!!! I was starting to develop really strong bonds with some of the girls and now they have been ripped away! I only hope that my tribe has some cool guys that will be willing to work with the four girls because there is no way we are going to break up. So sorry boys, but one of you is going to have to betray your old tribe! About the challenge, I could not be more excited! I never get to do creative things like this with school and work. I haven't done a "music video" since i was in middle school with my friends lol. So I got 3 of my dance friends to help me out and of course they were stoked to do it. The only condition is that they have to see the final product! Special shoutout to Tara, Emily, and Brianna for helping me out!!!

Jay told me today that I'm her closest ally and that she hopes to be friends with me after the game ends. It made me so happy because I really like Jay and I think we could be really good friends, and that we are! I joined this game to make friends primarily and I'm so glad I got to meet Jay through this experience.

There's so much SHIT I gotta say, I'm gonna segment this and start with the end cause BOY RJ IS SUBTLY TRYING TO SCREW US OVER, AS IF WE DON'T KNOW???? He just went on the group chat and said, about the challenge, to Abbey "I thought you were taking the lead on this one". Uhhhhh, shut up???? Separating a leader on a challenge is such an obvious way to segregate someone afterwards, to point blame if we lose. First, we won't lose, you negative brat. Second, we are a democracy, and we've made every single decision so far as a group, and that's how we suceed! No need to appoint blame at all, cause if we do lose, it's because we all sucked. Just... go away, bye.

I'm calling it now. My tribe loses the immunity challenge. Biggest bunch of idiots I've ever met. This video is goona suck. How soon can I vote them all out? I miss my old tribe... :(

My first reaction to the swap: FUCK. Next reaction: Okay, this is a good time to make some new allies. I like my new tribe mates. I’m so glad I ended up with Amir and also really like Daniel. I knew Alex would pick me first so I got him to pick Amir as well and didn’t really care who else he picked because RJ was already chosen. Is battle of the sexes still a thing? Yeah totally. Right now I’m working on trying to get the girls to trust me. When I told the guys to tell Mike to vote me, it was to make it seem to the girls like I was on the bottom. Jenna was in the same position and time will tell if she was ACTUALLY on the bottom or not. My plan right now (is very ambitious) is to get in with the girls and make them think I’m ready to flip. I’m complaining about people like RJ and Alex to them and saying how happy I was for the swap to happen when it did because I was sooooo sure I was next. In reality Alex would’ve been next as Amir and I had a plan to bring RJ proof that he had been trying to make final 2s with everyone. Alex got lucky the swap happened when it did. Anyway my hope is that once the girls decide to ask me to flip to them, I offer up Amir as a possible 6th vote. I’m also going to tell them that Alex has been very shady with sharing idol clues. If I can convince them to split the vote between Alex and Daniel, Amir and I will actually vote with Alex and Daniel for whoever we decide. Right now it’s looking like we would try to vote out Elana because she’s like the clue that hold Madi, Jenna, and Hayley together. My only 2 reservations are1. if this will work at all lol but also 2. I actually really like Jenna and am worried that if this goes down the way it might, she may never trust me again. However I already have established numbers with the boys so my hope is to have this plan move forward. IF the other tribe loses immunity all I can do is hope that the guys over there figure something out and if they can keep numbers, they start throwing immunities to begin the pagonging of the original Rasnov tribe. My hope is that once the guys have a very real numbers advantage at the merge, I can flip the script on Alex and RJ and take them out, get to the final 4 with Amir and two whoever and cut Amir because he’s just too damn likable (unless he ends up not accomplishing much). Anyway I’m getting way ahead of myself so one day at a time. Oh one thing I realized is that if this plan doesn’t work and we end up with a 4-4 tie, the people who were voted for would be safe. So it’s important to try and sway the girls to vote daniel instead of alex because I’d much rather see alex go. If we end up drawing rocks I will be the most terrified boy there has ever been.

P.S. Amir if you're reading this and we made it far together, and I ended up cutting you, just know it's because literally everyone loves you and you're too great to take to the very end.

ya know, I hope that we go to tribal tomorrow. Im ready for the chaos to unfold. I really want to play the game and go to tribal. Oh btw, this challenge really sucks lol. I almost don't want to submit so we can go to tribal. MAN O MAN. If we lose, it will be insane.

Really miss my alliance right now, mostly because I am re-watching survivor seasons and wanted to talk about Billy falling in love with Candice in Cook Islands. Crazy stuff man. On a more serious note, Daniel and Brian are editing the video for the challenge right now. I’m not sure if we will win, so I’m starting to think about who will have to go if we don’t. I haven’t made strong enough connections with the boys to feel like I could side with them, so I’m thinking that as long as the girls stick together and are loyal, we could swing the vote in our favor just by pulling one of the boys in. I’m not sure who should go yet though. If we lose I’ll talk to the boys and see what everyone is thinking for the vote. I’m fine with voting out someone who “didn’t do well” in the challenge, as long as that someone isn’t someone aligned with me.

Lol. Called it.

Another day, another iconic blindside from Jay. RJ pisses me off and I'm ready to see him go. He's cocky and grates on me and obviously thinks he's manipulating me when it's the other way around. Ricky feels the same way, so he's going to flip with the girls. Him, Abbey, and I are forming into an alliance, I think.

And we want to do tribal live, which would be amazing.

Basically, I'm playing everybody. And they're eating it up.

If we keep on this track, I'm going to win this damn game. :)

I am so pleased we won the challenge! I didn’t understand the new Rasnov’s video at all, so I’m looking forward to hearing how that came about in the future! In any case it feels good to be safe another day. I think we have a really good tribe together right now. This also gives me more time to get to know the boys, because I honestly don’t know who I would’ve have voted for, and was not looking forward to any sort of scrambling. I do worry about the other tribe, because that means my alliance is in trouble. At this point all I can do is sit and wait to see what happens, and keep making sure my tribe is performing well so my neck isn’t on the chopping block.

This is so wild. We lost the challenge and tbh im happy bc now Haley and the other girls are safe. Ricky is working with Jay and I and were all so happy and gay. Rj and the other guys are working Jay and I'm working David. Its wild. Jay is making it seem like Liana and Cami are the leaders and that maybe Cami has an idol. Im acting dumb to David omg

THIS SHIT IS CRAZY. i can't believe jay wants to flip so easily. I like jay, but the only way to be safe is if Cami plays that idol, and we vote for jay. then the vote will be a 4-3-1. I hope this works.

Shi is popping at New Rasnov. All the guys with the exception of Ricky is shady af. Theyre all working Jay but sending her convos to each other and we're like ???? Bye bitch! Were ready to roast RJ so hard

So we're going to tribal tonight, and RJ wants to vote off Jay. I can't disagree more. That girl is amazing. She is singlehandedly saving our lives, and you want to repay her by voting her off?! I don't agree with that. I'm doing everything in my power to keep her here because she deserves it. She's a rockstar. I'm so upset.

Coming over to the new Rasnov tribe was terrifying. Absolutely. But also kind of rewarding too. Jay and Cami are definitely my favorites. Cami was giving me freaking Portuguese lessons. this girl is amazing. And Jay is just as great. She's my Bob' Burgers loving sidekick. I feel confident with some of these people. I just hope they can feel comfortable with me too. I really hope.

A Poem after going through tonight's voting options: "Jay is okay. She should not go away. Jay needs to stay. I will not vote her today."

I thought jurors would get the point of our video but I guess it's asking too much to make them understand a storyline. Oh well... No crying over the spoiled milk. Now we have to vote someone out and I'm SCARED SHIT of this tribal.

So at this point, its quite obvious that Michael's going to be the one leaving unless he reaches in his ass and pulls out an idol out of nowhere, but even if thats the case, I should be fine because our alliances decided to tell him we are voting Brian so if anything Brian would go.

Anyways, with another guy leaving, this puts the boys and girls back to equal numbers and I still have no idea how I wanna play this game. The idea of flipping to the girls side at merge or at a swap has come to my head but like, Ive grown to be very loyal to some of the guys on this tribe and based on personal relationship, I wouldnt wanna vote RJ, David, or Alex out. I know how ugly this sounds but if the girls’ bonds are too strong with each other and I can’t find any cracks, I have no problem voting every single girl out. I can lowkey see ricky or brian flipping, maybe even Zach but Daniel/RJ/Alex/David are all aboard the boys train.

"Forgive me Bobby Jon, for I have sinned..."

Well...it's 6am and I awoke to a pissed off tribe because I fell asleep before live tribal council. As a pretty self-centered guy, I did enjoy waking up to read everyone talking about me though. It makes me feel like a pretty girl!

Lets start with the important stuff. In the last 12 hours, Ricky has gone from being the guy I barely ever talked to in the game, into my favorite person on this cast. I now have to come up with a new game strategy and figure out how I can get him to break up with his boyfriend and move to Alabama and be with me. I'll keep you updated.

Also, this vote finally feels like a game of Survivor. There is so much going on. Jay is apparently wanting to flip and vote with the guys alliance. However, we don't entirely trust her (who would?). So the plan is to tell her the vote is Cami (in case she has an idol) and actually vote for Jay herself. Then Jay, who is obviously unloyal, is gone and the guys have the numbers.

This plan has revealed two things about our allaince: RJ is a heartless, cunning snake and Zach is too soft for this game. Do I feel guilty about blindsiding Jay like this? Absolutely. Does it make me wanna change the plan? NO! I won't lose any sleep over it. It's freaking Tumblr Survivor.

Anyway, I tried to make my own plan with Cami, Abbey and Lliana, but they barely respond to my messages and I don't wanna tell them too much because I wanna keep my butt out of the fire. Right now, I'm just trying to keep relations cool with them. If we vote out Jay this time, We can vote out a guy next time.

All of this is what was happening last night. However, now that the tribe is mad at me, it could easily be me going home.

This tribal is not easy. RJ really wants to vote off Jay, and I'm completely not on board. But I've already argued to keep her for hours, and it's all for naught. I still don't agree with this and I will not ever agree to this. But there's only so much I can do. As long as she's honest, I really saw Jay as being a close alliance member later on this game. This just sucks.

Thank GOD, honestly, that I have stuff to keep my mind busy tonight cause I am SUPER NERVOUS about this tribal. Like, in one hand, if it is me who goes home, I don't really care that much? Like, sorry people reading this after it's all over, but I wanna have fun and enjoy myself and make friends, not sweat and shed blood and tears to WIN IT ALL!!!!!!! I mean, come on. This game is actually taking time away from my thesis and it would be helpful to be voted off, I just wanted to make it to the merge so I could be in the jury. Everytime I watch Survivor, I always think I'd like more to be a juror than a winner (besides the million dollars, but yk), mostly cause the lawyer/judge in me LOVES TRIALS. So there's that. But there's also adjacent stuff regarding Jay and RJ. First, I'm putting all my trust in Jay that this will be in our favour. She keeps saying she want us four (me, Abbey, Liana and her) to make it to the merge together, and I hope it's true cause it would be a sad deviation of character to lie so boldly and so early in this ONLINE RPG GAME!!! But at the same time, I'm a very suspicious person and cause I was only close to Abbey in Old Rasnov, I don't know how much Jay really likes me. She might as well don't give a rat ass about me, so who knows? But she seems genuine though at wanting to take RJ out, that's really strong in her. And now we go over to RJ. DUDE, WHATCHA PROBLEM??? He comes on SO STRONG. "If we ever cross paths, I might buy you a drink", wth???? And now, just said to me "I'm sorry, Cami, but we are voting for you and there's nothing I can do about it, so we're probably going to rocks" to intimidate me? Dude, it's an ONLINE RPG GAME, TAKE IT A NOTCH DOWN???? So when I say I'm definately voting for him, it's not out of trust that the girls (and Ricky, hi Ricky) will hold their part of this deal, but it's because HE'S TOO INTENSE AND I WANT HIM GONE OF MY LIFE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. In a sense, that being said, I'll win either way. I either leave and will be away from him (#thankyouJesus), or he will leave and be away from me. I don't need that kind of male interaction in here, I already have a creep who annoys me at work every morning to deal with. Let's hope I can make him believe I'll play "my idol" tonight... Ugh, again, so happy I don't have to be here for this...

This vote is going to wild man. Who knows what really is going to happen. hopefully I scared Cami enough into playing her idol on herself, so Jay will vote Cami, then the guys will vote jay, and the other 3 girls will vote one of us guys. The vote should be 4-3-1 if it happens like I planned.

Not going to lie, i am very disappointed. I thought i could do better at the game, but I guess i just suck. I was really hoping i could play longer into the game, and get to the merge where the real fun begins. it was fun while it lasted

#illreadthevotes #masstag #confessions

Episode 3 Confessions - What Te Fock Is Tis

I cannot BELIEVE that worked. Dang. I’m still floored that we managed to get EVERYONE on board with voting Jess (some albeit a little reluctantly, but still) and flushed out an idol (there were apparently screenshots, but I never saw them). This means the idol has been re-hidden. I feel bad for Jess, because I think we all genuinely liked her. She’s fun and I loved hearing about her kids, but we had to get everyone to vote for someone and honestly Jess’s mistakes in the challenge made her an easier target. It just goes to show that the slightest misstep can cost you your game in Survivor, if you don’t have the right friends to protect you.

On that note, Ricky has become somewhat of a meme in our tribe since he was such a character during the last reward challenge; whenever anything goes wrong we either blame Ricky (when it has nothing to do with Ricky) or bring up how Ricky killed us in the “Battleship” Hide-and-Seek challenge. The joke cannot be stopped... So, Ricky, if you ever see this I’m so sorry!

Tribal sucked tonight. I know I played a big part in getting Jessica voted out but I didn't realize how bad it would feel.

What if I told you I spent all day yesterday eating myself up cause I wanted to tell Jessica we're voting her off, so she wouldn't be caught by surprise, but I also didn't wanna implicate the girls, especially Abbey, so I just stayed away from the internet all day... And then it turns out Jessica was voted out WITH AN IDOL she wasn't willing to use but to actually GIVE TO US AS A TRIBE, I CAN'T. NÃO. GUENTO. At this point I'm inclined to believe all 18 castways besides me and Isabella have an idol, that's gotta be how this is going, I give up.

Turns out Jessica was lying to everyone, telling Jenna they were an alliance and they were gonna vote for Liana but Jesssica voted for Jenna anyway. So I don't feel as bad anymore. Our tribe feels more united now too so that's good.

wow, first time loss. It kind of sucks. I truly feel we will lose our next challenge. So if we do, we will have even teams. Even if we lose, I am confident in the alliance. This is when the fun begins.

WE WON THE REWARD! Thank every power under the sun, we did not want to have another loss. Also, I have the best alliance, because Abbey got the clue for the idol and shared it with us immediately. We have a MUCH better chance of finding it this time around. Also, Abbey named her toy bat Ricky and we are probably going to Photoshop Ricky’s face on a bat as our mascot. I can’t tell if Sam is amused or horrified. Again, Ricky, sorry but we’re having too much fun!

So we finally won a challenge and got a reward. We had to pick a prize and one of them was a clue to the idol. I was the first one to pick and it was the clue lol. I sent a screenshot of the clue to my alliance so that's awesome.

It's 2:am. Space bar is hell is slowly killing me.

So.....we actually won reward. Seriously. It happened. And, even though I was asleep and ended up with an irrelevant item (the one night I've gone to bed at a reasonable time since this started tbh), Abbey showed the alliance her clue to the idol, so the four of us have an advantage, especially since we're the only ones who know that Jessica had the first idol and it's been replaced now. Our decision to blindside her was definitely for the best and, honestly, I'm pretty proud of myself for orchestrating the blindside and convincing everyone to vote with us. I don't want to say I'm feeling safe, but I'm in a power position and, basically, I'm not scared of leaving any time soon.

KIER MEDAVAC

Okay so we just found out that Keir has been medevaced and I’m honestly really bummed. The thing about these guys is they just see it as inactive member leaving, but with Kier being medevaced, but only is that a shield, or quote on quote, useless tribe member who will go before me, but he's also one of the only guys that I liked on a personal level and it sucks to see him go because he couldn't bother to submit comps. Not to mention the effect this will have on the game in the long run, this is was a number for the guys which could have been a huge help for us at a swap or merge, and losing him is gonna change the course of the game a lot. Anyways, rip Keir, he was also kinda cute too? Or am i suffering from white thirst again

Alright it’s 15 min before Immunity 3 is posted. Earlier today some girls posted joke scores, which would later be replaced with real scores. It is 15 min before the deadline and Jenna still has her joke score up, and isn’t online. Black Widow 2.0 has concluded that if we lose, and she doesn’t show up, she’s gone which bites because we JUST saved her the last time. Also, space key is hell is LITERALLY HELL. That is all.

[11:07:22 PM] Brian: Someone can tell him that I am the target for losing the crossword

[11:07:24 PM] Brian: (sorry btw)

i fucking wish

We finally won immunity!!!!!!!!! Our tribe chat is all just love and hearts and its so nice and good! Jenna didn't post her real score but we won anyway so her ass is safe. My alliance won every room our tribe won so we feel really good. We are crushing this game tbh. After this vote the tribes will be equal in players so hopefully we can go into the merge with a majority alliance. Sam pls dont do a tribe swap

WE WON. Jenna is going to have to be careful though…Hopefully we won’t have to have another vote for a while. Funnily enough, everyone in my alliance won our part of the challenge, so we are pretty hyped! Also Liana photoshopped Sam’s face onto Jeff, and Ricky’s face onto a bat, and it is pretty much the greatest thing of all time. My alliance has really been bonding, and I think we are pretty tight. I love those ladies and we (theoretically) plan to stick together until the final four. Then again, you never know what’ll happen in Survivor. On that note, right now morale is high and things are looking good.

This is all going so great. The ENTIRE tribe is dead set on Mike. He should have never have trusted me with those idol clues. Too bad for him I literally already had a tight alliance in place, and an even higher alliance with Amir. I am so glad I worked as fast as I did to get an alliance. BLINDSIDE TIME.

I am in the perfect spot. I am tight with every single person, even mike who we are going to vote out. I don't want to be screwed by the tribe swap, so I need the trust of all of my tribe mates. My game is going so well so far, now all I need is the idol.

Oh dear me do I have a lot to cover this time, so a lot of background stuff has happened and I've been trying to stay lowkey but literally, where did you find half of these guys. Like I came here to play, we all did, but some of these guys are absolutely cracked.

So we are sitting pretty in our little 6 person majority, it should be an easy road right? No. Brian comes to me with this ridiculous plan of wanting to flip the votes on RJ, and of course im like yes!! What a great idea! But in reality im that scottish girl saying "what te fock is tis" in the harry styles video. Like???? We are literally in the majority what purpose could he have to do this??

It's clear that Brian is here to put himself in the best position possible for him, and he will dead ass vote people in his alliance out to make sure he's everyone's closest ally and it doesnt sit well with me. Obviously im gonna play dumb with him and pretend this is a great idea, but I know theres no way this is gonna happen. My goal has BEEN to get Michael out since literally the beginning. Him and I dont talk at all, and according to RJ, hes really deep into this idol hunt and id feel a lot more comfortable without the threat of him finding an idol.

I've also told RJ that my ideal target would be Michael and Rj is 100% down to do that, so this would be the perfect time to take him out.

Also, Brian decides to pull me into this 3 person alliance with David, and im like ???

At first I was super nervous about this cuz like, Brian and I are already in a 6 person alliance, WHY IN THE FUCK are we making ourselves out to be more shady if this got exposed. Im predicting a swap soon so hopefully this wont be an issue, and with Michael leaving, neither of my 2 alliances would be shook so thats good.

If i have my way Michael will be gone tomorrow night!

We have our first tribal tonight! It's lowkey a little exciting because I believe I know exactly what's going to happen tonight and it feels good to be in that position. Obviously I'd prefer for us not to be here, but we are and we got to face the music. This is essentially the first boot for Bistrita and I'm just thankful it's not me.

I’m excited for tribal only because I have (hopefully) set it up to look to the girls tribe like I am at the bottom because Mike is going to vote for me, while the rest of us send him on his way. I mean, unless at least half the tribe is lying to me, I don’t think it will be me. the only thing I could imagine happening is Mike having an idol and smelling a rat beforehand, then we just vote out Alex for being an actual rat and making f2’s all over the place.

Oh, thank God we won! It was about time! It makes me think men are gonna be better in little stupid flash games that involve dedicating 24h, but the minute a challenge is more out of the box, it's ours. We won the "hardest" ones and with a laaaarge difference. And I'm just glad it happened now cause the girls' alliance was almost certainly targeting me next and I don't wanna go home before won't-submit-Jenna. At this point, the tribe totem poll is most likely the alliance of 5, then Elena, then me, then Jenna... When is the swap coming???

It's been a while since my last confessional. Here we go!

Shit... We lost 2 challenges in a row...

I absolutely SUCKED on that star game. How in the world did those girls get a score of 40? I told my tribe that I tried my best and did it over and over. That was a lie. I stopped caring as soon as I saw that first 40 pop up on the tag. My tribe mates are goona read these confessionals after the game and be like, "WTF, DAVID!!!"

Keir is gone. That sucks. He was my choice of goat. Oh well. None of the other guys seem like good goats to take to the end. I'll try and find one on the girl's tribe after a swap or merge.

Unless I'm being lied to, Michael is the vote tonight. It should be unanimous. For my sake, I hope it stays that way. For the sake of the viewers, I hope something crazy happens to stir up this so-far boring season.

I'm not playing at all as well as I thought I would. My private chats with people are slim to none. I've got a cool alliance thingy with Amir and Brian, but who knows what other deals they have or what other alliances are being formed. I need to get my stuff together and make friends, or I won't last very long. The reason people want Michael gone is because they have talked to him the least. I don't want that to be me next round.

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Episode 2 Confessions - Where Is the #Drama

isabella went home. shocker!! i'm just glad our tribe can be unified. i hope we win this reward challenge just to show the guys that we're made of something. go team?

I don't know if I have checked in about the search for the hidden immunity idol. But so far, no luck. Every spot that I have checked is empty and I keep on forgetting to make guesses lol! Abbey and I have decided to share our guesses with each other so we have a better chance to get the idol. I would like to make a deal with Abbey, but I still am nervous to come off as playing too hard. So I will keep doing what I am currently doing and I hope that I can soon make some alliances.

So the first real reward challenge is tonight and I hate to say it but I'm starting to feel pretty.....comfortable. I know that word is the kiss of death on Survivor, so I'm trying not to get cocky so early on, however I've formed an alliance with the strongest players on our tribe, nobody else seems to serious about strategy at this point, and I think I'm the biggest asset to the tribe in terms of challenges. Hopefully they won't start seeing me as a threat, but, even if they do, I have a strong alliance that I know will make it to the merge. No idea how often I'm supposed to submit confessions, so expect a lot of over-sharing from me while I try to stay lowkey in the tribe chat.

I really hope we win this tonight, this reward will be huge. I am so close to getting the idol, and I need to get it without Michael knowing. Keir looks like he is a no show to this game, so Michael will be on the chopping block. I am just going to let Mike think he is running this thing. When you finally get to see this mike, its nothing personal. You are a threat, and that is all.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? WE LOST ANOTHER ONE? DAMN, I'M LIVID. I really needed that immunity idol clueeeee, ugh. Hayley did great, but it's so frustrating to keep guessing random numbers.

So I stepped up to be the seeker for the reward challenge today because no one else seemed like they wanted to do it, and since it was mostly luck based anyway we all decided not to fault whoever chose to step up (let’s hope everyone holds true to that sentiment, but I think they will). One of the main reasons I stepped up was because I did not-so-great in the first immunity challenge, so I figured this would be a safe way to prove myself to the group. Despite the fact that we lost everyone was pretty pleased with how I did, because it was close. Note: Jenna didn’t submit a hiding spot, so that’s gonna be a problem to deal with our next challenge…

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AOKJYTAY SO LIKE3

RICKUY?????????? AND ZACH??????? AND AMIR???????????????????

WE'RE ALL LOOKING FCOR THE IODL TOGETHER AND I LO V E TNIT UTTITIITTI

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I WANT RICKY DEAD THO TBHHHHHHH

Okay so I haven't Had much to talk about for a while because nothing has really happened since the last time I made a confessional.

Honestly a few of my opinions on the guys in my tribe have changed, I've come to really really like RJ, and I consider him my closest ally in this game. We had a call and him and I are comparing all of our numbers trying to find this idol, and he's telling me everything that Michael Stone is saying as well. I used to think RJ was super sus and always plotting but I really like him and trust him fully tbh. AmirJ? THE dynamic duo.

Michael on the other hand, I try and talk to him but he just..his personality does not fit mine and we cannot find common ground. Also he was the one who told RJ about how to start looking for the idol and telling him all his guesses, and RJ is telling me all of Michael's guesses. There COULD be a possibility that RJ is telling Michael my guesses as well, so I only really tell RJ half my guesses, playing it off as be forgetting to guess most of the time. So yeah, he can go.

Also in terms of this fockin idol, Im doing the same number compare thing with Brian and Daniel and hopefully compiling a list and narrowing it down.

Also, WE WON OUR FIRST AND IMMUNITY AND REWARD SO!!

It's good not be scrambling right now, I can chill in my little majority alliance and focus on what's really important right now, and that's making those little social bonds which I'm constantly working on with Brian, Daniel, and RJ.

Also, I LOVE KIER. Like I know he already hasn't submitted twice but on a personal level, he's one of the only people I can actually relate to and he's so funny and has 0 chill. I keep trying to drop hints to keep him, because strategically that's good for me. He's someone who can be dependent on me and is also a scapegoat. After getting Keir to finally talk to RJ, RJ is leaning more to voting Michael out of out tribe first and keeping Keir, so the goal is to get Keir to be more active so that more people will be open to it.

There hasn't been much to happen lately. That's why I haven't submitted many confessions. As far as the social/strategic game goes. I'm basically not playing it. I'm just having fun in our tribe chat and have very little private conversations with anybody. I'm surprised at myself, but I'm feeling good that laying low right now will help me in a potential tribe swap or merge. I'm nervous that there might be an alliance already formed and I could be thier target should we lose immunity, but there isn't much I can do about that.

We won the reward challenge. I was pretty stoked about it. Our tribe is really enthusiastic and lots of fun. Having Count Benji visit our camp was a great reward. He gave a lot of helpful info, like what challenges to expect/practice for and what type of stuff Sam might decide to throw at us. I'll be sad for him to go tonight.

Right now I just hope we win this immunity challenge. Each challenge so far has bonded us and it will be sad to see someone go.

THE YELLOW BUFF QUESTION DESTROYS SOULS! Thankfully, Jay, Abbey, and I survived. Cami came in to help halfway through that disaster, and Elena helped us sort out information at the end. Madi was also there for at least half of it, but honestly I think the whole thing is just a blur. We took almost 3hrs. and poor Sam probably wanted to murder us. Damn I hope we win…

The fourth player for guess who fucked us up so bad oh my god. We asked a super specific question about original tribe buff colours but we didn't consider if they returned for another season that had yellow buff so we spent another hour looking for loopholes. We were in a call for something like two and a half hours and were all ready to die now that its over. Plus we lost so lol thats cool

Yeah, we lost. We are debating between Jessica: who gave us wrong info for the challenge, or Jenna: who missed a reward challenge and has been pretty absent. Right now my alliance of Jay, Liana, Abbey, and myself are pretty set on Jessica.

AAAAAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I heard we were doing that, lol. Here's a video:

We won the FUCKING immunity challenge. I love this fucking tribe so much. They are so awesome. The only problem is they are so stupid. WHY WOULD THEY WANT TO VOTE OUT KEIR!!!!! Like, he's goona eliminate himself, why waste a tribal council on him??? I'm not here for the short term. I'm here to mother fucking win!!! Let's vote out a threat. It will make me sad to vote out someone like RJ, Daniel or Ricky, but they are goona have to go sometime!!!

Anyway, I finally have an allaince. It's me Brian and Amir. Literally they are my two favorite people so far. I would die for them to be in the final 3 with me!!!!

That's all I got so far. It suck to be a girl right now, because we are STEAMROLLING THEM!!! I'm goona cry so hard when a swap happens, because I really don't wanna break up this tribe that I love so much.

I've been trying to get my alliance to vote for Jess since the last tribal council. I finally did it!!!!!!!!!!!! I told them that it was Jessicas fault we lost, which it was because she put false info in her doc which made us lose. So weve got 4 people: haley, liana, jay, madi and myself, between my two alliances that I share with Liana and Haley, who are voting for Jessica. They got Elena to vote with us. Im trying to get Cami but shes hesitant to vote Jessica because she likes her. Cami knows im in an alliance but she doesnt know with who. SO basically is Jessica finds out shes being voted for I cant trust Cami.

So I'm ok with the tribe finding my YouTube channel. I'm really goofy in real life so I say it will make them not expect me to be ruthless. I love his game and I will do literally anything to win. I'm already orchestrating a blindside and I'm loving it. Benji was fun, it was great getting hints it really helped us. Some part of me wants to go to tribal, I am looking forward to some blind sides and I want to experience all of the game. This majority alliance is the main alliance of the game. Amir and I really did a great job orchestrating, I think we're in the best spot. He is the only one I truly trust. I hope he feels the same way. I love survivor and I am having a blast.

So to start with Benji’s visit: almost 100% useless, the only thing he helped with is planning for the merge/swap but I think most of us were planning for it anyway. So… oh well, moving on.

As for the idol hunt it’s going quite well. I lucked out finding the clue early on and I have 3 different people telling me what numbers they are guessing. Amir, Ricky and Zachary are all filling me as they go. Can I absolutely trust them? Maybe not but at least whatever numbers they are telling me either don’t have the idol hidden in them or the idol is gone from them anyway, so it’s worth it to strike them off. I’ve been keeping track of who tells me what anyway.

My alliances: I’ve got the six person “Bobby Jon Alliance” with Amir, Alex, RJ, Daniel, and Ricky. I’ve got the “Basquiat” alliance with Ricky and Zachary. I’ve got “Brain Beauty Brawn” with Amir and David. I am happy with the 6, but I really don’t trust RJ. Plus so far he has actually been and at challenges so I think he is hiding behind an aggressive social game. However I have really good one on one relationships with Daniel and Alex and I am most trusting of Ricky and Amir (hence why I’m in side alliances with them). At this point I really think the rest of the tribe is down to get rid of Keir and then Mike moving forward. I even volunteered to let someone feed to Keir that I would be the target and let him vote for me so that 1. Mike wouldn’t find out he’s on the bottom and secretly 2. I could find out if Keir would tell me if people were saying my name.

Do I want to go to tribal and test these alliances? I guess, only to trim the fat of Keir and Mike (though I am very tempted to try and turn people on RJ before we get rid of Mike).

And am I having fun? Yes! My SO is constantly in competition with the game for my attention but I’m used to that lol (I’m not a terrible boyfriend I swear).

Fat B OUT.

*Tsk Tsk Ladies* ... Oh So VeRy DiSsaPoinTed TonighT!!! First I am toooo damn sloshy to read up on how the challenge went down.. BuT BettEr Believe I will be analyzing the fuck out of it 2Morrow!!!!! So here is the deal... I am clearly a pretty passionate vampire lover and survivor enthusiast and want to see this tribe succeed... FYI #fuckingfailing right now!!! For a MomEnt I felt GuiLty for NOT being at the Challenge but honestly I spent 4 HourS Of My time I could Have been Sleeping and prepped the shit out of this cHallenge!!! Where Did We Fuck Go Wrong!!! Something is Hinky Up here in Transylvania!!! Sooooooooo I come home giggling ice coffee in hand (My version of a murder free blood bag.. cause murder is SO wRONG unless you ar 5 24 ... I got beef with that dude.... AnYwAYs and I eat me some cake and find out we have LOST.. BuzZZZZ KiLLL.. I Sign onto Skypeh and have a message from Jenna... NO ONE ELSE.. She tells me she is toast.. generally you fuck up the reward challenge ((Which doesn't even matter.. this girl has the idol ...)) your ass is grass..... well that doesn't work for me because I vowed to be Jennas main ally.. and a Vampire keeps her vows.... Would it be nice to keep the idol for myself .. duh, but without loyalty you are nothing... so perhaps an idolpalooza may befall the masses tonight. Maybe this tribe needs a jolt... or we just need to fly over to the guys camp and suck some blood before the next challenge!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is Snuggle time with my dear fiance but in the morning with a clear head I shall dig further into this.. #wishthesebitcheswouldtalktome!!!!! xoxox Vampire Jess.

We lost another challenge :/ Jay told me that Jessica created a document with incorrect information on it, which is why they were struggling with the challenge. That is very unfortunate because I like Jessica as a person, but if she was too careless to correctly document the information, that was a detriment to our tribe in the challenge. We agree that it is best to take her out now. I was going to suggest Jenna because I had not heard from her since before the reward challenge. She came and explained that she had been banned from the internet at night by her mother for a few days. I think as long as she submits the scores now that we can still do a good job with her. I like Jenna a lot as well. I just really love all of the girls and I don't like having to go against any of them :/

Searching for this damn idol is almost as bad as my last testing week, which is to say, very stressful. Who even knows if the idol is still there. I'm teaming up with four other people right now to search for this thing and the most I've gotten is a visit to Drac's dungeon. Thank god I'm not depending on this thing.

Third challenge win for Bistrita today. I always hoped I would be on a winning tribe. Every challenge has been close though, so it's not even like I can say it's a blowout, but hell as long as I don't have to go to tribal yet. Got to make the jury. Got to make the jury.

Jessica is talking to Jay about strategies and everyone in my alliance are so stressed omg

ugh can we just go to tribal so we can vote someone out

where is the #drama

We are getting ready for our second vote tonight, and my core alliance of me, Jay, Abbey, and Liana are trying to get the majority of the tribe on board with voting for Jessica tonight. However, Jessica may or may not even be aware her name is on the table. I reassured Jenna this morning that we weren’t planning on voting for her, and we also (should) have Madi, Cami, and Elena on board. Theoretically. It’s possible that Cami or Elena let it slip to Jess, and it’s possible we don’t have everyone on board. HOWEVER with the four of us, plus Jenna and Madi (who I am considering as sure things for the vote tonight) we SHOULD still be able to pull this vote out. This is definitely going to draw some lines in the sand of who’s on what side, so our tribe may not be a unified happy little family anymore. It was fun while it lasted. UPDATE: Before I could even submit this the SHIT IS HITTING THE FAN! Jay is trying to do damage control because Jess told her that Jenna has the idol (skeptical)and I think Jess is just trying to save her own skin. Now Jess wants to talk to Jay and Abbey. At least they’re keeping me clued in on what’s going on. We already sent in our votes so there’s no going back now!

EVERYTHING IS CRAZY! JESSICA AND JENNA MAY BE ALIGNES. JENNA MAY HAVE HAVE THE IDOL. JESS IS TALKING TO ME AND JAY IN A PRIVATE CHAT. OMG. MY ALLIANC ALL ALRADY VOTED FOR JESSICA. WTF.

Jessica does have the idol but she showed it to me and Jay and she thinks shes safe. Shes voting Jenna. I think everything is okay.

I was literally just typing up a confession about blindsiding Jessica tonight when a ton of shit hit the fan. So, apparently Jessica has the idol. She sent Abbey and I a screenshot after we spent some time helping her feel safe at tonight's tribal, which basically means it's even more crucial to vote her out and flush the idol while we can so that a member of our alliance (#blackwidow2.0) can get it afterward. We had to talk her down from telling the whole tribe, which would've blown things up sooo much. She's kind of a loose cannon and I'm feeling more comfortable about this vote all the time. I just can't believe she's had it this whole time. On the upside, I got the key to the castle (apparently like the last one lmao I'm a mental giant) so I'll start searching once Jessica is out. Things are looking up.

What a rough couple of days, man. First the reward challenge, which we lost mostly on a technicality. I REALLY needed that idol clue, and at this point I'm quite confident at least one of the guys has the idol (or AN idol, we don't even know if there's more than one). Then, the immunity challenge, that REALLY took a toll on most of us. I only arrived almost an hour after it began and was super tired afterwards. It was ridiculous fun, but tiresome. At the moment we lost, I knew people would try and find someone that was in some way "guilty", or that had something to do with our loss. Even though Jenna didn't help much (she's really on the line with me, one thing is not showing up and the other is not recognizing the implications of your absence), but Jessica actually hurt us in the challenge. There was wrong information in her doc and because of that, we got confused and walked in circles for like an hour. It was so frustrating because we had it all figured out and still had setbacks that made us lose. And I like Jessica very much, she's a great woman and mother and is having such a great time here, but I don't feel like I can go against her mistake in this. What a dreadful, dreadful vote, I must say. I hope she will understand where I came from and that I'd love to still be her friend after all this.

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Episode 1 Confessions - Uninvited From My 16th Birthday Party

im gay

ya know, I was really caught of guard by the gender split. This seems very overwhelming. Judging by first impressions, I think Amir seems like someone good to align with. I just want to try and get into the majority for the time being, i don't want to be voted out first.

it took me literally two minutes to get into dracula's castle and i can't find the idol and i cant find clues and i wanna cry a lil bit tbh that's my story and i'm sticking to it

[allies with i guess rj and amir and brian immediately] can't wait for rj to lead us to the merge before i roll him ANYWAY im trying to make out that this is my first :( survivor :( ever :( and i just dont know what im doing and gosh can you guys help my newbie implicitly easy to manipulate self? ty

So the game barely started and I'm already in an alliance so that's amazing. It's called "fuck dracula" inspired by Abbey but officially named by yours truly. Abbey shared the idol clue with me so now me, her, Madison, and Hayley are gonna find it and totally own everyone in this game! I'm really glad that Abbey trusted me enough to share it with me because I was worried I'd be a target since I seem to be well-known during the selfiegate. I just was trying to strike up meaningful conversation as soon as possible and it looks like it worked. :) I really don't wanna join Stevie in the first boot chat.

Brian said he thinks I am very intelligent, and is glad to be working with me. Although its nice to hear, it might be a ploy to catch me off guard with something. I will be keeping my eyes peele, thats for sure.

Okay so its been about 2 hours since this game started and I'm still trying to recollect my thoughts?? Like I'm so overwhelmed and I don't even know why. It could be that fact that I've never played survivor before and I just feel so much less experienced than the rest of these guys, and the second thing is... THEY'RE ALL GUYS. Not just guys. But STRAIGHT GUYS.

Like everyone talks with punctuation and says man and dude and I feel so out of place and I'm worried I wont be up to par socially? Don't get me wrong, all of these guys seem really lovely and nice, I'm just having a bit of a harder time finding common ground to relate to them on and I'm worried that things are already happening to fast? Like the game just started and 48 minutes in I was added into a 6 person alliance and there's just a lot I have to cover after I do some breathing and take a bath and cry for a bit.

Im really relieved in how this all worked out. I am worried i am creating a target on my back. Amir is solid, hopefully, and Brian is complimenting me. I may be playing too hard right now. Im confident everything will work out though.

So I made an alliance with Haley who is so cool, and I recruited Liana who brought in Madi. We have a strong four who are working together to find the immunity idol. We hate dracula, we dont want him to scare us out of his castle. My quote "Fuck Dracula" was used as the title of our group chat so that was cool.

I am so so excited about this game! It already seems like it is going to be such a fun time! I love all the girls that I have talked to so far and I know we are are going to be a really tight group! I like Liana and Abbey the most so far because they both seem to have similar interests to me! Liana showed me her cats and I love them so much! Everyone is just so interesting so far I am really excited to play with them!! Also I found the Dracula's Castle but I can't find the garlic! I have tried everything that I can think of and nothing is showing up! I hope I can find it quickly!

Well, who would have thought that being clueless would actually lead to a clue? Being a Law student and overly obsessed with rules, I was scanning these season rules to try and grasp some sense of what to do next, and I found, with no intention at all, a clue for the hidden immunity idol. Right there on the "tolerance" part, most likely because people are expected to skip that part. What actually threw me off was the different spacing between sentences on the topic, it just actived my organizing senses and I gained acess to Dracula's Castle! Y'all, I love castles, I live and breathe castles. Once I gained entrance, I was supposed to find the hidden garlic, which was supposed to keep Dracula away. Such a cute garlic, though somewhat easy to find! After that, a key was presented to me and tah-dah, I was inside Dracula's home and I gotta say the decor is pretty luxurious. I had very little time before he came back and had to make a quick decision, that eventually led to failure. Oh well, that's more like it. Still, I'll have another chance later tomorrow and who knows? Maybe my lucky strike will come back. Until then, I'm just gonna keep this key very well protected...

WHERE IS THIS FUCKING IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Micheal sent me a message telling me about the idol. I can't believe how lucky I got, he gave me his trust for absolutely nothing. We will see how this turns out in the next couple of days, but I think I should get rid of him at the next tribal so I can be the only one to know about it. Luckily I am in this six person alliance, and another alliance with someone who isn't in it. I have a lot of options going forward.

So I've slept on literally everything that happened last night and... wow.

Basically, I've gotten to talk to just about every guy at least a little bit so far and I've kind of formulated a strategy? Im the youngest guy on the tribe so I'm gonna play as dumb as i can. I feel like these guys are the kind that are easy to manipulate by simply fluffing their ego and playing the innocent one who needs to be protected in game. So I'm kinda gonna do a cast assessment of how i feel so far about everyone and just kinda lay all of my thoughts out there because I am a literal mess rn in this game and its okay day 2.

Okay so first, RJ. I dont even know where to start with this guy, he was probably the first guy i started to talking on this tribe and I dont know if that was a blessing or a curse considering hes dead ass crackdt out of his damn mind. 40 minutes into survivor and chill and he goes "Lets make a strong 6 person alliance". Like????? We just got of the fucking boat can u chill and cut open a coconut or something?? We barely know these guys, we haven't even seen how good they are in the challenges and you already wanna bring half of them in so your ass could feel secure? Obviously, I can't object, because he was gonna make this alliance no matter what so of course I nod my head and agree and the alliance was basically based off of who was just online at the time and ugh im just not happy with it. I guess im glad because it is a form of security thus far and the members were ideal at the time, but now, i wish i could replace a few of them tbh. My strategy with Rj is to keep playing up the "oh we work so well together we are such a duo!" thing and hope he isn't playing me. But he's already shown to make decisions on the spot and has already started lowkey shading members of our alliance so idk how much i trust him yet.

Alex is nice but I literally have nothing in common with him

Daniel and Brian are the 2 in that alliance that I relate to the most so far. I get good vibes from Daniel, Brian seems really smart and hes gonna be a social threat later on ugh, but for now, I really like them both. The last member of that alliance is ricky, who is quite possibly the biggest personality so far. Hes outgoing and a good presence but also kind of intimidating? I feel like hes the kind of player to just do what he wants and he was basically running that entire call last night, so I imagine him and RJ have some kind of bro dude masc4masc bond already and they seem like a strong duo. Idk I just feel like hes gonna have a lot of control in this tribe and I need to start getting closer to him.

David asked for an alliance first thing this morning when i woke up like can yall chill, i have nothing to say about this cuz i havent even processed it yet. Like Im thinking about just reporting it to my old alliance and not out of loyalty, i don't care for them, but flipping away from a 6 person alliance without even being provoked is a death wish so ill have to update u on how that worked out Theres also michael. http://popcrush.com/files/2015/05/mariah-carey-i-dont-know-her.gif Honestly I just haven't really got to talk to him yet but he seems like a really nice guy, I just have no opinion thus far. Zachary

Tbh he is super nice too, but again, If Im stuck with this 6 person majority alliance, I'd prefer Zachary and Michael to be the first boots cuz im a lot closer with david and Kier. The last member is Kier who literally just spoke in the tribe for the first time today and I already love him?? Like the way he talks is so similar to me and hes just so personable and it sucks that he isn't in this alliance and its all because of a time difference. I'm not gonna throw my game away for him or tell him about the alliance just yet, but I'm gonna do everything I can from behind the scenes to make sure he isnt an early target.

So last night RJ basically swarmed a group of us and made a 6 person alliance. I’m happy only because it would appear I’m on the right side of the numbers, but I’m very hesitant to trust him given how hard he played right away. However I like most of the people within the alliance. Rick and Amir I get on great with, daniel and alex I haven’t spoken to much but Ricky is already vouching for daniel.

Outside of that Ricky and I formed a 3 person alliance with Zachary, so it looks like moving forward if the 6 person alliance stays true that we will have to guide the conversations away form him as a target. I do really like Zachary and he seems really similar to myself in the way he wants to play.

I feel badly for Keir having joined 12 hours later than everyone else because he does seem to already be a bit on the outside of things but its early and hard to say for sure.

I brought a really hard puzzle to the group to try and fin out who was good at them and who was the kind of person to give up easily. Ricky finished it before I did with a 20 minute head start so I feel like he messed with the pieces number but mike gave up quick whereas Zach stuck with it for quite some time.

I think I’m in a good position right now. Liked by most people, in a larger alliance and not seen as any kind of leader or big player. Also hey wes.

Im just biding my time, until we get to tribal. Thats when we will see where tribal lines stand. Hopefully my alliance pulls through. Im thinking we get out Keir first. I think it'll be easier going forward. Right now, I am in a good position, so if we get to tribal, I'll be safe.

so here's the lay of the land im definitely Really Allied with amir, and i reckon i can get that going w/ zach as well but i gotta figure out how to approach it RJ has like this group of six going and i'm gonna flip and roll them eventually but numbers are numbers you know i want ricky gone asap amen :)

Well, we just started this crazy thing and I'm already paranoid as hell to be honest. Maybe it's because I'm pretty much the youngest person on the tribe (seriously, I feel like a fetus), but I keep wanting to make an alliance with Abbey, Liana, and Hayley, and then chickening out because I don't want to seem super eager to get other people out. I just don't want to be the first boot ugh......I guess I'll make another confession after the challenge (I'll probably be the person to confess six thousand times just so you know)

Amir and I talked about the next boot. Since I told him about how to get idols, we both agreed Michael Stone should be the next to go. No hard feelings to ya mike, you made the wrong call man in trusting me man. Amir still seems pretty solid and a great ally. I expect us to go far.

i've got a sub 7min time but there's no way i'm gonna drop it unless it looks like we need it because i really want to win this challenge for that clue but i also don't wanna get taken out for being a challenge threat

let me actually.......elaborate on why i really want ricky gone because he is most certainly the most threatening atm for a few reasons a) probably better at challenges than i am b) more familiar with playing survivor which means....... c) honestly the least trustworthy person here like, leave please

i really like my tribe so far. i've never been on a tribe with so many girls, and it's kind of weird, but they're all nice. i'm glad i'm going in the game at least knowing one person from a previous game, liana. i don't know how close we'll get or how well we'll work together, but she added me to an alliance with a couple other girls, so i guess that's a plus? i don't know yet, but we'll see. i'm trying really hard not to have the lowest score just in case we flop, but im hoping we can get our times down and really push it. yay team blah blah.

Yay! I just got pulled into another alliance! Jay invited me, Hayley, and Abbey into another alliance (which is basically everyone from our original except Madison). Even if we do lose I probably won't get voted for since so far that's 4 other people in an alliance with me, and I think I have a good relationship with Elena. I'm really glad playing side-seasons before hasn't made me look like a threat, and maybe like more of a mentor? Who knows. Also these girls are killing this challenge so far so I'm pretty confident we'll win!

Alright so I have at least two people who really trust me at this point. Amir messaged me and asked if I had been looking for the idol, and I told him I had. We exchange notes to eliminate more numbers for the other person. But the fact that he was ready to admit he had started searching was testament to him trusting me. Also Ricky (who was mad late) messaged the alliance chat of him me and zachary to explain how to find it. I played dumb so that he wouldn’t know I had found it already and I’m gonna get him to tell me the numbers he’s guessing while I just tell him the ones I’ve guessed in the past so as not to help him too much. Also omg I cannot believe we won even though keir didn’t show up. I feel bad for whoever that isabella girl is because I can’t imagine her tribe will keep her after she cost them the challenge. Too bad, so sad, onwards and upwards!

So we lost the first challenge which sucks. Obviously we don't want to send anyone home but Isabella didn't submit for the challenge so everyone pretty much agreed on voting her out. She hasn't talked to any of us so it wasn't a hard decision. We all worked really hard and I'm really proud of all of us. Hopefully we can be a stronger tribe now with all girls who are committed to the game.

Before the challenge was due Jay started a chat with myself, Liana and Haley asking to form an alliance. This was my original alliance minus Madi. I talked to Liana about it and we agreed to keep our original alliance a secret so we could protect our core four and also have a fifth vote handy. Idk when we'll let her know about our other alliance. I'm an idea guy not a decision guy so we'll see I guess.

i mean this idol clue puts me ahead but it puts literally everyone else ahead so im like :///// at least we're not tribal!! but now i've got a huge target on my back in the merge rip

So far I'd say it's been a good start to the game. First challenge ended with a win. A seemingly strong alliance has formed between myself, Brian and Ricky. a clue to the idol has surfaced. I'm in a really comfortable position and I'm happy with how things are turning out. It's good to be on top.

Challenge results today. We won but Keir gave us quite the scare. I like the dude but he dodged like fifty bullets tonight. He's very lucky. Daniel on the other hand? Christ. Did we do the same puzzle?! How the actual legitimate fuck did he manage that score. He's freaking crazy. Great asset to have right now, but to be completely honest, if he's this crazy come time to the merge, we're all screwed. Something to think about.

As of this first week, the girls lost the immunity challenge  But we’re going into a pretty easy vote… As long as no one starts drama for no reason, Isabella is the obvious choice to leave the game, since no one has talked to her, and she didn’t submit anything for the challenge. Since it appears the boys’ team also has a no show, hopefully this will put us in a stronger positon for the next challenge!

I’d be concerned about my performance in this challenge, since I couldn’t get a score under 10 min. like most of the rest of the tribe, if it weren’t for the above^ (*knock on wood*)

As far as alliances go, I think I’ve put myself in a good position. I’m aligned with Abbey, Liana, and Madi to look for the hidden immunity idol, and Jay also approached Abbey, Liana, and I for an alliance. I feel like Abbey and Liana are the strongest players (at least socially) in this game so far so this puts me in a really good position. I feel really good about Jay. I have also been talking to Jenna and Camilla to get to know them. The only person I don’t really know yet is Jess. I feel like the tribe is pretty unified at this point, but that could change at the very next vote, so I’ll have to keep an eye on things and make sure the ground doesn’t shift out from under me.

As far as this first week goes though, I am feeling pretty confident. I have made good connections with a lot of the tribe, a small group of us are searching for the idol (hopefully we find it…), and this first vote SHOULD be pretty easy… But stranger things have happened on Survivor.

I am so glad we won, the longer we can keep the numbers advantage over the girls the better. If we go into the merge with less, it might be a pagonging, and that would be the worst possible outcome. I am working with Amir and Michael on getting the idols. I trust Amir, and I'm letting Michael think he is calling the shots, while I work with the majority. I wasn't worried about my score, because if we did lose, I'm in the majority and I would be safe. The others in the alliance think that Keir should be gone, I agree because he isn't active enough, and he didn't submit a post.

This is so dumb but like, I almost wish we had lost the challenge today just for some excitement! Some of the other guys are really dull and having no girls (besides Sam) in the chat is boooooooooring.

WE WON THE FIRST IMMUNITY CHALLENGE!!!

Or should I say, Daniel won the immunity challenge for us. That time was ridiculous. I told my tribe that I did the challenge over a ton of times and 10:40 was the best that I could do. lie. I have a real life. I can try it a few times, but I'm not going to spend all day doing the same puzzle over-and-over-and-over. No offense to the host. It is a good challenge.

I'm so releived about not going to tribal council. I haven't done any strategy talk yet and I feel like I missed out on some of the alliance making. I feel confident that I am nobody's target, but I don't want to just survive, I want to control this game. I'm reminding myself to be patient.

Poor Keir is now the biggest target on our tribe for not submitting the challenge. I am sure as soon as he gets online, he's goona start apologizing and making excuses for being in such a different time zone. I don't want Keir to go. I like him and I think that voting based off of challenge performance is a stupid idea. I want to vote out people who are threats for me to win the game. Right now those people are: Daniel and Brian. Daniel is obviously a challenge beast. Brian is obviously dominating the social game. I can't come right out and target them though, without putting a target on my back. I am going to have to instigate some drama if we lose the next immunity challenge to put some pressure on them and swing the votes thier way.

Who knows? Maybe I'll change my mind.

So we lost our first challenge because Isabella didn't submit a score, which means she's everyone's favorite for an easy first boot.

Oh! Also, I actually did make the alliance I was planning to, so things are going pretty well for me. Hopefully we'll bring in another person if we lose the next challenge so that we can have the numbers.

I really like Jessica, she's really nice and and funny but she's already struggled with technology and I'm afraid that if we have a challenge that's more technical than a puzzle she will struggle and hurt the team. She also has a family, she has more commitments than the rest of us. I don't think she can handle the time commitment. I pitched to my alliance about what to do if we have to vote again. I gave the idea that we need to take someone out who won't be as available to the tribe. Haley caught on and suggested Jessica. This is what I wanted because I don't want it to seem like I'm trying to make big moves too early in the game. It seems now like it's the alliances idea so that's nice. Haley suggested maybe Jenna but I'm going to try to stop that from happening because I've made a strong connection with Jenna so I want to keep her around.

So... We lost the immunity challenge yesterday. Gotta say, I didn't really feel bad 'cause most of the girls tried their hardest and we bonded over it, so I guess it came for the good. I was a lot - a hell lot - more interested in the clue for the hidden immunity idol and now the other tribe has it and time is literally running out on me to guess the right spot. The more I think about it, the madder I get for not having the clue, it's USELESS to try and guess a number between 1 to 100 with no guidance whatsoever, I don't believe in luck as an actual thing so THIS IS POINTLESS. Well, at least we have tribal to look forward to, I can't feel even the slightest guilt for sending Isabella home packing, girl was out of the game before it even started.

Welcome to my version of Transylvania 2016!!! Let us start backwards with a simply posed question!!! WHY Ketchup Sam you got to do me so wrong with that Tribal Council question?!?!?!?!!?!? If perhaps the ladies had missed my boldness as labeling me a threat... well now they have a fresh constant reminder and the seed planted to watch for me. No Ketchup for you for 24 hours.On the other hand you did gift me this incredibly beautiful hidden immunity idol night one... so being the fickle warm hearted vampire lover that I am... all is forgiven!!! I will tuck it away somewhere safe.

I am hopeful that tribal council will go off smoothly and logically the girls will be on board to vote out Izzy who still has yet to show up. If they want to label me a threat then so be it because as long as there is a bigger threat in the game, the target can be off those who are just as or slightly less bold then I am. I do not think there is any cause to play my idol tonight.

Forming side bonds from the group chat have yet to truly happen. No one wants to leap to early but instantly in meeting Jenna I felt a connection. A vampire is deathly (LOL) loyal and I have welcomed Jenna into the "Family". This means I am now playing to protect my family and myself. We have began the Bitches Coven 2.0 (A BB5 Alf series joke) and have vowed to work together. I have shared the news of our idol with her and hidden it under a seemingly normal rock in case either of us finding ourselves in danger. Any other relationships formed from this point out will not trump mine with Jenna. I do need to start forming one on one bonds with the ladies outside the chat to ensure it is harder for them to want to write my name down come the future.

I was going to come in here and dish the dirt on my first impressions but I am going to save that for my next confessional. Right now everyone just seems on par with each other and a few standing out more chatty then others. Wings crossed that Tribal Council goes off smoothly tonight.

<3 Vampire Jess

hey yall its me madison back again for another text confessional that i hate. isabella made us lose the challenge. i hate her. i never want to speak to her. she’s unfriended, blocked, and uninvited from my 16th birthday party. i’m honestly disgusted at the unprofessionalism!!! in all seriousness i get that things come up but she never spoke a word to any of us, so if she doesn’t get voted out, i’ll be highly shocked. i’m pretty confident that i’m not the vote, but you never know with these games, as they’re littered with dumbasses. i feel like i have a good connection with most of the girls, we’re working together well as far as i know, and everythings great as far as the idol goes, we’re still searching and i don’t want it. i do have to participate with my alliance of abbey, hayley, and liana(fuck dracula), so i’m going to continue to search. the pressure of an idol sucks in my opinion though

Unfortunately we lost the first immunity challenge but I am so happy that almost all of us did such a good job. I know we all tried our best and as long as we keep up our motivation I know that we can beat the boys team. I am sad that Isabella did not submit and that she is not really talking. That does make the first vote pretty easy though. I don't know if there will be any alliances soon. I don't want to be the one to start one though because leaders in the show get targeted early. So I will wait until somebody says they want to align with me and then go from there.

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Fan Favorite Award!

It’s time to vote for the Transylvania Fan Favorite! Voting will remain open until monday at 11pm EST!

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And the winner is...

Welcome back to America/Canada/Brazil! It’s been a long month and a half but we’re finally about to finish! Thank you to all 20 contestants for making this an amazing season.

Tonight you WANT to see your name. There are nine votes, I will now read the votes…

First vote:

Jenna, I think of the three people sitting here at the finale, without question you played the best, most balanced game. You made moves, overcame being a target, found the only idol in the game, made close relationships and didn’t destroy them all. You took yourself to the final instead of stepping on heads or allowing others to drag you there. You’re the winner this season deserves.

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