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# lianhuaes : private, multi-muse blog for specific characters from mxtx's mo dao zu shi / the untamed. i am not nor do i claim to be mxtx or am i affiliated with them in any way or form. i have written mdzs muses before a couple years back so i've simply moved just a handful to this new blog to refresh & restart! est. 2020 ( @yuexins ), revamp. 2023. written by winnie (21+, she / her). thread tracker (coming soon). carrd.
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alright official announcement here but i'll be back on thanksgiving break to write consistently! my leg got sprained or something and work + my classes are absolutely kicking my ass so there's absolutely 0 motivation or energy for anything, dms included. i'll be free the week of thanksgiving from both work and classes!! however, i may queue a reply or two here and there just to keep the dust from collecting, hehe... also thank you to those who sent in asks for jc day! it makes me happy to see them! feel free to send asks for jc day even if it's passed or even any unprompted asks in general ♡ i'll go through my activity and read responses to the asks i sent later, too, but expect full and consistent activity during the week of thanksgiving. thanks for the patience always, love you guys a lot!
Ahh, i posed this to twitter but it slipped my mind to post it here as well.
Anyway, happy (belated) birthday to Sect Leader Jiang. May you receive all the puppy kisses in the world.
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friendly reminder that i don't care what your muse does to mine!! kiss them, fight them, throw a drink in their face, hold a knife to their throat.. you don't have to dm me for permission beforehand but please remember that my muse will react accordingly ♡♡ i think pushing limits and pushing buttons is a lot of fun but always keep in mind that they won't just sit there and take it, yanno?
i live to be a menacing idiot who simply sends out painful and emotional stuff unprompted unwarranted just bc i find it fun
OF ALL THE ARTS the disciples of any sect must be well-versed in, archery has always been a particular favorite of Wei Wuxian's, something he could still use to prove his worth (superiority, even) back when his meridians were barren and void. Jingyi's technique is a disaster — and yet it became an unspoken rule, number four thousand and gods know what, a rule even Lan Qiren is not-so-blissfully aware of. These kids don't need to be perfect. When he tries to appear stern, in his eyes spills nothing but kindness and warmth — this little performance, however, isn't merely an act of cheating ( forbidden under the rule 837! ), but an insult to his intelligence if the little cheater thought he could get away with it. ❝ Jingyi, ❞ he presses, softly, a smile tugging at the corners of lips. ❝ If you're going to take me for an idiot, at least have the decency to do it with elegance. ❞
A hand reaches then, to take the bow and the remaining arrows ( how many have been lost outside the training grounds? ) out of the boy's hands. Attentive gaze fixates upon the remaining targets for a few moments, as if calculating the speed at which they move, like a hawk waiting for his prey to misstep and then– Eyes close, allowing a few more seconds to pass before the targets align, four arrows ready to be fired and with a splitting echo of a sound each of them pierces the heart of a wooden beast, shy for one that skews slightly off-center. It seems that the juniors are not the only ones who need more practice. ❝ Last time I did this blindfolded, and a charming guniang couldn't resist her passion and kissed me. You think your cheating would impress anyone? ❞
( to this day, he cannot discern between adoration and slight disappointment for such a story being ruined, not that it sounded remotely believable in the first place ).
A barely noticeable smirk brings a cunning edge to the way he squints, head tilted in consideration. ❝ I've been planning to take you all out on a night hunt tomorrow, but now I'm not so sure... ❞
the groan that threatens to slip past his lips does not make its presence in front of his qiánbèi, but instead he simply steps aside and allows himself to be chided- no matter how slight. still, his lips curl into a distasteful little thing, gaze sliding to the side to avoid the way wei wuxian is clearly nagging at him in his own amused way; lan jingyi does let out a heavy sigh and here, the urge to roll his eyes rather strong. it's clear he needs to work on hiding his tricks a little better! if wei wuxian picks up on it easily, he cannot even fathom how quickly lan xiansheng or even hanguang - jun would be able to pick up on it ... and then he would have to do handstands once again, then he'd be kneeling in punishment for quite the while again and again!
lan jingyi pales at the thought, arrows and bow easily slipping from his grasp into his qiánbèi's. perhaps it would do some sort of good for him to pay attention, to honestly strike his targets true with his arrows. besides, to live a life in dishonesty is frowned upon and lan jingyi would rather give his all in front of them so as to not be the downfall of gusu lan's pride when it comes to archery competitions.
quietly does he shuffle so that he stands beside the other man, a glance to how he straightens himself- how his arm is steady, how there is an inhale that stutters, how it stops in the cavern of his mouth, how his lashes flutter and fingers tense. how, then, the four arrows spiral through the serene air to split the targets, save for the one. lan jingyi's breath stutters, stumbles, in his chest. what a sight to behold, truly! he is taken by the mere sentence wei wuxian has said to him, a tale told in just a few words; the boy is staring wordlessly at the targets dangling where they hover before he sharply turns on the other.
" blindfolded?! " charming gūniang and kisses aside, he cannot even think to aim arrows with such terrifying speed and precision blindfolded- he stares at wei wuxian incredulously. the man is truly a respectable figure, though lan jingyi won't ever audibly admit that. " qiánbèi, you were off on that last one. you also need more training. maybe the gūniang had a mistaken moment, " he points out instead, lips pressing together thinly to hide the way they quiver with an uncontrollable excitement. how badly does he wish to learn the way of wei wuxian's archery! " hmph ... " still, his head cocks downwards akin to the sight of a kicked puppy. even though he had cheated, couldn't he have gotten some sort of compliment?
and as quick as the kicked puppy nature had come, it had vanished; lan jingyi's eyes round out incredibly so, the look of a fierce denial simmering on his paler features, tense lines that do not befit a disciple of the gusu lan sect beginning to show up and thicken at wei wuxian's contemplative and cunning words. " ah! no! no, i- i'll practice more. qiánbèi, please teach me. " there is much that he learns when he night - hunts with wei wuxian, there is much he sees when he night - hunts with wei wuxian and hanguang - jun- the epitome of true love and fondness glowing between two people.
for as rough - edged and loud lan jingyi is, he truly does enjoy being in the presence of such light. for as snarky as he is to wei wuxian, he's utterly grateful to the man and he finds himself wishing, yearning, to learn and embed all the tales he tells within his soul. he won't show it outwardly though, of course not!
truthfully, nie huaisang wasn't sure jiang wanyin would want anything to do with him after the events at guanyin temple. the man was no fool — the puzzle pieces would inevitably slot together in his mind. it had been his plan, initially, to continue feigning ignorance. but sitting here with his old friend, despite being shadows of their former selves, he finds it hard to keep up the act. perhaps nie huaisang can have ONE person he can be truthful with. he deserves that, doesn't he?
don't they both ?
an ornate fan blows free strands of hair out of his face with it's gentle wind as he considers the other's words. “ your words are pointed, but one might say we have both had some semblance of revenge, jiang-zhongzhu. as for reconciliation... ” the fan is shut with a strong flick of the wrist. “ i am here, am i not ? ”
it is not what he meant, and huaisang knows this. but it does not escape him that his plan harmed jiang wanyin in some ways, however indirectly. he accepts the man's anger. still, he longs for some form of camaraderie. and if anyone could understand doing the unthinkable for their family, certainly it would be his old friend jiang cheng, no?
“ what is done is done. the door is closed, now. i would like to move forward with my life. wouldn't you ? ” perhaps we could do so together. wouldn't that be nice, jiang-xiong ? “ we deserve that much, do we not ? ”
a brow twitches in the face of the words of nie huaisang; the man does not stand to be wrong in any form or manner, however, jiang wanyin cannot stand to be berated by someone who has utterly fooled him, who has put his nephew in harm's way for the sake of a dangerous agenda. there is much to ponder on within the confinements of jiang wanyin's mind, despite the manner in which it is clouded with a foolish sense of disregarded anger. revenge has him think- it is with this tip of the blade pressing against the bob of his throat that he is forced to reminisce on just what he has done in the name of revenge, with the feeling being courted alongside him as he made a name for himself and heard rumors pass him by.
but had he truly done it in the name of revenge? is this blade truly forged by revenge itself or had it been done by grief? jiang wanyin's gaze cuts sharply to the table instead. " whoever is foolish enough to seek out similarities between the two of us does not understand the burden of the full story, " he opts for instead, his tone bristling as fingers curl tightly around the body of his cup. he refuses to elaborate in front of nie huaisang, of all people, and so he does not.
isn't it enough of a compromise that he is inviting him into his home? or is there something else lingering beneath the shadows of the waters? when he glances at the man before him, he does not see the youth he once had been in the cloud recesses- no, they had both worn those personas away, allowing them to erode into nothingness. all for the sake of revenge and grief.
truthfully speaking, nie huaisang is here but he has skillfully escaped the pointedness of jiang wanyin's inquiry- there is a tense twitch of the brow, frown becoming a lot more pronounced. he allows him the liberty to continue speaking, then there is silence settling over still lotus lakes and their lily pads; nie huaisang sounds so much like wei wuxian in that moment of turbulence as the world had come crumbling down around him- his shīxiōng with a gentle and warm hand coming to his cheek, telling him to let it go, let it go even though it is truly impossible for him to simply let it go. however, jiang wanyin is utterly exhausted. there are secrets he cannot expose, does not wish to expose to his shīxiōng so as to retain the peace he so desperately seeks. so, with nie huaisang's lily - like tone and his caressing words, his shoulders lose a smidge of their stiffness.
wouldn't it be so nice to move on with his life? to truly, really let it all go? to accept everything for what it has become and to simply live his life the way he is meant to? in the deep recesses of his mind, jiang wanyin wonders if nie huaisang had heard everything- can this man truly be trusted?
a sip of his tea, then. a tap of the tea coming down onto the table, then. a frown, a tilt of the head. jiang wanyin is not fully convinced, although he is slowly becoming looser in the presence of nie huaisang's silver tongue. " the door may be closed for you, nie - zōngzhǔ, but it is not for a'ling. you may be able to move forward with your life, but do not forget of the predicament you have put him in. " he hesitates on the lingering implications of a we ... the temptations of the past curl around his heart, a friendship reconciled- but jiang wanyin is no softened boy any longer. he has a sect to look after, a nephew to console, and to keep an eye on anyone eager to covet the boy's position. " you can take it, nie huaisang. i have a mess to clean up, after all. it is not so easy for me to simply pick myself up and close my door. "
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@cuckoo-among-beasts: The Jiang disciples were by now used to Huaisang's presence at Lotus Pier, just as the Nie disciples were used to Wanyin visiting the Unclean Realm, so when Wanyin instructs some younger disciples while Huaisang watches on, it's quite natural for the Jiang messenger to relay his message to Huaisang. This time though, it's something Wanyin might want to know immediately. "Laogong!" Huaisang calls out, looking slightly over his shoulder. Not until the word leaves his mouth does he realise what he just called him. The blush is instant, but he somehow manages to stay composed. "Wanyin, this message might be important," he adds, trying to act like he didn't just call Wanyin his husband.
it is not something he had ever expected out of anyone's mouth, really; the formality of being called as someone's husband had never once touched his mind or tickled his fancy- for as soft - hearted as jiang wanyin truly is, he is much too riddled with the need to keep his sect first, his family closest. how could he, then, be the type to romanticize a life he could not have? or fantasize of someone he fancies calling him husband? he could not, truly, fathom it nor could he think of such things without flustering like a silly little boy.
when he had been younger, he had hardly heard such endearments being used in front of him between his parents- his mother's smiles aiming themselves at her pride and joy, his father's gentle hands always pressing themselves atop his shīxiōng's head. there never was a moment where he could recollect a soft, loving call of husband or wife echoing throughout the courtyards of the lotus pier.
however, here it is different. here, he has his partner wandering about and mingling with his disciples as though he had always fit right into the missing piece of the lotus pier; when jiang wanyin's gaze flits from the form of the younger disciples to nie huaisang, his heart warms and melts where it beats. he seems to blend right into the lotus pier's heart, despite the differing colors, and it's difficult for jiang wanyin to focus until he feels a younger disciple step on his boot. so suddenly does his attention snap back into him, a ferocious frown curling on his features as he barks at the disciple to move to the back, to rejoin the formation. here he finds himself within the confinements of his sect once more- such a normalcy of life has he adapted, with nie huaisang fluttering beside him. he finds no turmoil in this any longer but only ease.
though his mind does eventually drift, and drift harder does it when huaisang's lilting tone calls him lǎogōng. jiang wanyin's syllables twist in his mouth and come out as a stutter, his brows shooting to his hairline and an angry flush beginning to splotch on his cheekbones immediately. the disciples scattered about have also taken note of the sudden endearment, taken note of how huaisang attempts to gloss over what he had just called him. he does not remember being acquainted with the term, had not ever thought of himself worthy of being called lǎogōng- but with huaisang's mouth forming the syllables, he feels his heart beat incessantly and rapidly, the thunderous wave of thumpthumpthump the only thing he can hear.
" dismissed- leave and get some rest, " he grits out gruffly, turning his head away to hide the way his visage is utterly and honestly red. it does not slip by him how his disciples giggle and run away, how the messenger clears his throat and leaves with a bow. the courtyard is, then, empty save for jiang wanyin and nie huaisang ( and the hidden disciples, eager to watch it all unfold ). he approaches the man with a curious look, a myriad of emotions flickering on his angular features before he settles on childishly flustered and intensely intrigued.
" important? " he murmurs thickly, tone stiff and awkward. there is an elephant in the room he should address but he is still flustered and rabbit - hearted and his mother did not teach him how to deal with such emotions well into a successful and long - lasting courtship. yet, he waits for the message to be relayed- his dark and heavy gaze lingering on huaisang's visage as a fist flexes and relaxes in an attempt to keep himself calm instead of enacting on his heart's desires. " important enough for you to stumble on your words and call me lǎogōng? "
hopefully gonna have more time and energy in a couple of days (friday! fingers crossed!) :') work's been kicking my ass so the moment i'm off either tomorrow or when i wake up on friday... i will be here. will do my asks and drafts bc i love what im seeing!!!!! and im excited!!! on that note, i also dont have much energy for dms either so fingers crossed again for me to get to them on friday <33 thanks for the patience and love, i love u guys so much.
hopefully gonna have more time and energy in a couple of days (friday! fingers crossed!) :') work's been kicking my ass so the moment i'm off either tomorrow or when i wake up on friday... i will be here. will do my asks and drafts bc i love what im seeing!!!!! and im excited!!! on that note, i also dont have much energy for dms either so fingers crossed again for me to get to them on friday <33 thanks for the patience and love, i love u guys so much.
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