Bliary of a bad but dramatic bitch

Why you gotta be so mean?

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Time out ✌️

Im taking a break from doing music muna. Idk pero kanina while I'm singing, parang bigla lang pumasok sa isipan ko na "What am I doing?". Then i rushed papasok ng kwarto because i know na im going to burst into tears. And that's what happened.

It's so furstrating lang na I thought nahanap ko na yung nag-iisang bagay na alam kong kaya ko, pero in the end...

Now I'm lost, again. I've been crying for hours now.

I've also removed lahat ng mga covers na nakapost sa lahat ng social media accounts ko. I don't want to hear myself. Di ko rin alam kelan ako babalik. Im just so tired. Drained. Exhausted. Sad.

Maybe I'll feel better soon.

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kapag nakakagawa ka ng mabuti, di napapansin. pero kapag nagkamali ka, kahit gaano pa kaliit yan, kulang nalang isumpa ka. bat kaya may mga taong ganun no?

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What's your birth planet? Mine's Saturn!

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Sana magising siya sa katotohanan na mahal niya talaga ako at di niya ako kayang mawala. at kapag dumating yung araw na yon... ...di ko na siya mahal

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Hello my old friend

it’s meh, yo gurl, soshifewi, back again with my life dramas CHAROT. actually, medyo nagguilty ako na kinalimutan ko na may ganito pala ako. sana dito ko nalang binubuhos lahat ng saloobin ko instead sa twitter no? feeling ko kasi mas masarap mag rant dito kasi mas peaceful. iisa lang naman follower ko, so bale wala talagang nakakakilala sakin. 

in case you’re wondering kung kamusta ako, gusto ko lang ipaalam na okay ako. kaya ko pa. humihinga pa. humahanap pa ng rason para magstay dito sa napaka fucked up world na ito. tho may mga times na feeling ko na “oras" ko na, at the back of my mind, may thought parin na nagsasabi na “nope, not now.” so here I am.

i’m still thinking kung ano ba magandang ikwento. so far kasi wala. WALANG MAGANDA. LOLS. i’ll try to be active as often as i can.

  BRB.

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Dear parents, kung ididisregard nyo lang din yung nararamdaman ng anak nyo, might as well sent him/her for adoption. Cause you're not fit to be one.

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Lucid Dream?

so nanunuod ako ngayon ng random shits sa youtube, then naisipan kong manuod ng vids about lucid dreaming. then after a couple of minutes, may naalala akong dream ko na I THINK AWARE AKO . I should have done this a long time ago, pero i’ll try my best to remember. this is short lang naman so here it goes.

naglalakad daw ako sa isang village at everything that i did was not random. i mean, hindi sya katulad ng iba kong dreams na parang tumatalon talon from this scene to another. fvck it hirap mag explain. after walking may nakasalubong daw akong matandang babae. may tinanong ako at may sinabi sya sakin so i followed kung ano man yung sinabi nya. naglakad ako ulit. after a minute maybe, may nakasalubong nanaman akong tao, cant remember if babae ba or lalake. tapos may sinabi sya sakin na taliwas sa sinabi nung matanda sakin “pero iba po sinabi saking nung matanda e”. tapos tinanong nya ako “ano ba sabi nya sayo?” “sabi ko “dito daw po yung tamang daan” after that, nagising ako.

di ko talaga alam kung lucid dream ba yun or what, pero kung oo man, taena napaka astig naman HAHAHAHAHA at sana maulit ORYT. sobrang detalyado ng scene sa isip ko men. tapos di pa random shits yung nangyari. 

may isa pa pala. ibang dream to. may sinasabi daw sakin yung kasama ko tapos sabi ko “sus. alam ko naman na nanaginip ako e LOL” hahaha. LOL. pero ewan sinabi ko lang yun sa panaginip ko. pero i dont think na kasama sya sa list as lucid dream. na share ko lang hehe LOL.

so ayun. hanggang dito nelengz.

Ciao~

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Stardewaiting...

Me waiting for ate to finish with the laptop so I can play stardew valley

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oh my god TORI YOU’RE KILLING ME