How things might have been
Susie was feeling a bit rough around the edges. Oliver had been in a mood at work and it had made everyone uncomfortable. Things were going to have to change, they could not work together any more since Oliver's revelation that even if he felt something for her, he could never be with her.
So Susie had done two things last night after her shift finished. She had handed in her request for a transfer with Joe and then she had gotten drunk.
Why had she decided drinking was a good idea when she had a PT session with Kevin this morning?
Kevin was waiting for Susie by the door to the gym, well he was talking with Chris but given he handed Susie a glass of freshly made fruit juice when she walked in the door it was certain he'd been waiting.
"What is this?" Susie said looking at the glass with a large amount of distrust.
"It's called juice." Kevin teased. "There are these wonderful things called fruit and they contain this thing called juice. Humans tend to enjoy it."
"I feel nothing like human this morning." Susie replied but she sipped the juice. It was amazing. Definitely a few types of citrus, probably apple, maybe pear, and the best part....strawberry. That explained the red tinge. "Mmmmm this is so good."
"It'll help you feel better and get through the work out this morning." Kevin said. He smiled at Susie a moment and looked like he was about to say something else but instead he headed into the building more and pointed to the woman's room for Susie to go and store her gear and come back out.
Susie nodded and went in. She picked a locker near the showers and pushed her bag in, took her sweater off and dropped that on top. Closing the door and putting on her lock Susie slid the key for it into the little zip pocket on her pants.
She sipped her juice and had it almost finished before she even left the room. The straw slurped through the dregs of the juice and Susie looked around for where she should leave the glass only to have Ari appear and steal it from her hands.
"You're welcome." Ari replied with a smile. She always seemed to have a smile for everyone.
Susie spotted Kevin over by the cross trainer.
"Six minute warm up on here." Kevin said and gestured for Susie to get up. She did and thought that he had looked at her backside.
Not possible, right? Kevin showed no interest in her, and she wasn't exactly emotionally available currently. She'd been hung up on the same guy for months....years. No one wanted to get involved with that.
"Huh? What?" Susie blinked out of her thoughts and found she'd been standing there not moving.
Half an hour later Kevin was pushing her too hard for her thoughts to be on anything but the growing tired feeling in her body, the feel of her muscles pressed to their limits. By the end of the session Susie was exhausted.
"Come on, let's roll those muscles and make you feel a bit better tomorrow." Kevin said offering his hand to help Susie off the mat on the floor. He helped her over to the other mats where a few people were stretching, pre and post work out. He grabbed a couple of different sized foam rollers and turned back to Susie.
“Can I have you on your back?”
“I don’t know, can you?” Susie teased and adorable Kevin almost blushed. “You should buy me dinner first.”
“Actually I was planning to do that tonight, or at least I thought we could cook again.” Kevin said recovering quickly from having his mind and Susie’s momentarily in the gutter.
“Yeah, I figured you had a rough night last night from the drunken texts I got, one of which I’m pretty sure wasn’t meant for me.”
“Oh…” Susie replied and this time she was blushing. She got down on her back and then realised that Kevin actually wanted her on her stomach and rolled over.
“So I figured you need some company and it’s been nearly a week since you put up with me.”
“Did you want me to invite your sister over, my brother?”
“No. I thought we could just hang tonight.” Kevin said and moved to roll the foam up her thigh and Susie moaned. “Oh…wow….like that huh?”
“Shut up.” Susie said, cheeks blazing.
They agreed to meet at her place later. Susie had the rest of the day off. Joe had told her to take some time to make sure this was what she wanted. He knew how hard she had worked to get into this team.
Susie spent most of the day with one of her greatest loves. Netflix, she did manage to get changed into something a little nicer than ratty old clothes before Kevin was due. About ten minutes before he was due she started on dinner. They were going to make lasagne.
Kevin was a few minutes late, not enough to make Susie worry nor make her annoyed, he did seem a little put out himself.
“Hey, everything okay?” Susie asked as Kevin set down some shopping bags on the bench, moving the cheese and the wine straight into the fridge.
“I saw Oliver…” Kevin said and Susie blinked.
“He told me he’d kill me if I hurt you and that I’ll never be good enough for you.”
“….” Susie stared dumbfounded by what Oliver had said to Kevin. For one, it was none of Oliver’s god damn business who did what with her since he’d chosen to have no part in her life. And secondly, well, what on earth was Oliver talking about. Kevin and Susie were friends. Everyone knew that.
“I think he wanted to punch me.”
“I would have punched him if he had.” Susie said. “I’m sorry he was a dickface for no reason.”
They forgot about Oliver and his random burst of jealousy and instead focused on making dinner and then eating dinner while they enjoyed the bottle of wine. They ended up on the couch watching some cheesy horror. First the old The Fog movie and then the remake.
Susie was curled up against Kevin’s side, his arm casually draped over her.
“You know it’s not completely stupid.”
“The movie?” Susie asked turning her head to look up at Kevin.
“No. I mean it’s a bit silly in places but I was talking about us.”
“There being an us. It wouldn’t be completely stupid.”
“And I think that’s my cue to shut up.” Kevin said, his look so adorable bashful.
“No. You don’t have to.” Susie said. “It’s just, I would have thought from your point of view I’m the last person that anyone would want to contemplate being with now.”
“You know how I feel about Oliver and how fucked up that makes me.”
“I know you have feelings for him, it doesn’t mean you can’t fall in love again.” Kevin said. “It doesn’t mean you can’t have feelings for me…”
The way he asked it seemed more like he was fishing for an answer, if she felt anything for him. Susie knew the answer already, she’d already asked herself the question. Asked a few times. She did like Kevin, she was definitely attracted to him. Who wouldn’t be? But the rest…could what she felt for him develop into something more when she was heart broken over someone else? She didn’t want Kevin to be some rebound and loses one of her best friends.
“I’m sorry. I should shut up.” Kevin moved off the couch so suddenly Susie fell down flat onto the cushions. She righted herself up and stood up following Kevin toward the window where she wasn’t sure if he was planning to look out it or jump out of it.
“Hey…” Susie said, she put her hand on Kevin’s arm to get his attention, moving it to rest on his chest when he turned to face her. She didn’t know what else to say.
Kevin moved closer to her and didn’t ask again, he just kissed her.
The kiss was soft, shy, but Susie didn’t push him away, she returned the kiss and Kevin’s confidence grew. He slid his hand into her long blonde hair and deepened the kiss.
“Tell me to stop.” He murmured against her lips. “If you want me to stop.”
Susie didn’t reply, she just leaned in against him and let him kiss her again.
Kevin slowly pushed Susie back from the window, when they reached the couch he sat first pulling her down with him so she straddled his lap.
“I want you, Susie.” He pulled back from the kiss, his hands resting on her hips. Her lips were kiss swollen, and she was sure her hair was wild and he looked at her with such hunger.
“I do.” Kevin said. “I keep thinking about you.”
“I do, Susie. I’ll stop if you want this to stop.”
He waited for permission and for her to admit she wanted this too. And she had thought about it, about him, she already knew she was attracted to him beyond their strong friendship.
“You’re not saying anything….” Kevin said and he let out a sigh, his grip on her hips lessening.
“I don’t want to ruin everything.” Susie admitted. “You’re my best friend.”
“Maybe I can be your best lover too, your best boyfriend…” Kevin murmured.
He looked so earnest and so vulnerable.
“What if I can’t be the best lover and the best girlfriend. What if I fail you?”
“What if you don’t….” Kevin said and when Susie didn’t answer he shifted her from his lap. “I’m sorry, Susie, I should never have put you in this position.”
“I…we…I…” Susie didn’t know what to say. She wanted Kevin but she didn’t want to ruin things. He knew what he was getting into with her? Didn’t he? Of course he knew. He’d stayed up with her crying her eyes out, he’d helped clean her up after she’d dealt with her trouble through less healthy means. He knew exactly what she was and who she was.
“Look, I’ll see you at the gym tomorrow.” Kevin leaned in to kiss her forehead and leave and Susie tilted her head at the last minute and he kissed her lips instead. Kevin groaned as they kissed and when he pulled back there were questions in his bright blue eyes. Susie bit her lip as she studied him. She lifted her hand to run it through his blond hair, harder to do with the amount of product he had in it.
“Susie, just tell me what you want.”
“I do want you. I just want to be fair to you.”
“Then give me a chance to steal your heart. Let me become the man in your dreams.”
He leaned forward and kissed her again, pushing her back against the couch as he knelt over her. This time the kisses didn’t stop, one hand rested beside her to support himself. The other cupped her cheek first, then slid down her neck, her shoulder. He gripped her shoulder as she arched up.
Kevin groaned again shifting as he did, he twisted them onto the couch in a more comfortable position, still pressing Susie back against the couch. Susie whimpered as his hand grazed against her breast. She was sure she could feel him smile against her lips as he moved his hand back, gently brushing her nipple with his thumb through her top. When she whimpered again his whole hand cupped her breast, squeezing it gently as his thumb continued to toy with her nipple.
His lips left hers and he nipped over her jaw and down her neck, gently kissing, nipping, sucking at it. She was sure he was going to mark it, and she knew that he probably wanted that, to leave a mark of himself there for the world to see. She didn’t stop him.
Susie lifted her hands, his shirt billowed out beneath him as he leaned forward and she easily slid her hands beneath it. She knew his body already on sight, knew how defined it was. Toned and muscular without being too much, and as she had thought about doing before, she let her fingers trace his body, learning it. He groaned against her collarbone as she circled her nails around his nipples.
Kevin broke away from Susie’s throat and leaned back, he grasped his shirt behind his head and threw it aside. Susie lifted up off the couch and started to kiss at his chest. Kevin paused and just watched her before getting his wits back to tug at her top. He pulled it free of her head and arms and it followed his to the floor at the end of the couch. Kevin pushed Susie back kissing her fiercely, his hands cupping her breasts through her bra before sliding them around her back. It took two attempts but he got her bra undone and it found its way to the floor.
Susie arched up off the couch as Kevin’s lips trailed slowly down to her breasts, the room filled with her whimpers and moans as she explored and worshipped them at length until she was squirming beneath him and ready for more. Kevin knelt on the floor, his hands on Susie’s hips as he looked up at her.
“I’ve been dreaming about tasting you.”
A shiver ran through Susie, her body tightening around nothing as she looked down at him. She swallowed hard and tried to speak but could only whimper. She nodded instead and Kevin deftly unbuttoned her jeans and then slid them and her panties down her legs. His eyes never leaving hers.
Susie was breathing hard, her hands grasping the couch cushions to the sides of her as Kevin pulled her legs up over his shoulders and buried his face between her thighs. Her eyes rolled closed and her cries became louder. His fingers were her undoing and she had to fight not to clamp her thighs around his ears as her body tensed with her climax.
Kevin’s grin showed he was very pleased with himself as he leaned back and undid his pants with a sigh of relief.
Susie lay there, her eye lids at half-mast as she looked over at him.
“We’re not done yet.” Kevin said. He pushed himself to his feet, and held out his hand to Susie who took it. Kevin pulled her to her feet and kissed her hard. “I want to lay you down in your bed and make you cry out my name while I’m inside you.”
“Oh…” Susie murmured, biting her lip. The husky tone and the words made her already weak legs much weaker.
Kevin led her to the bedroom and removed his pants while Susie fished a condom out of her bottom draw.
Susie felt nervous once they were on the bed and Kevin was pressed between her legs, he slid along her, teasing them both. They kissed passionately before Kevin moved a hand to guide himself into her. Susie’s hips lifted as he slid into her, Kevin’s groan louder than her whimper as they kissed, the fierceness of the kiss growing with each thrust.
They were both breathing heavily, sweat glistening on their skin when they finally collapsed in a tangle of limbs. Hands still touching at each other, lips brushing each other’s.
“Wow…” Susie repeated and let out a giggle.
“Admit it, I rocked your world.” Kevin said, his words confident but the look on his face nervous.
“More than rocked it.” Susie admitted. “You were….wow….beyond wow.”
Kevin kissed Susie again. “You were incredible. Far more than I imagined.”
They lay together murmuring things before getting up off the bed to wash up and turn off the television in the living room.
“You are staying right?” Susie said nervously when she noticed Kevin picking up his wallet and phone.
“I am.” Kevin replied. “As long as you want me to.”
“I do.” Susie nodded. She meant it. She wanted to fall asleep in his arms now and see what that was like. She wanted to give Kevin the chance he asked for, she wanted to give them a chance.
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