Suspicious Nargles

Trans Women Are Women, Trans Men are Men, Nonbinary people are Nonbinary. HP blog, mostly abandoned but I check in sometimes.

[suspiciousnargles]

Hello again.

Another update for those of you still around or happening to stumble onto this page.

I’ve gotten questions about my story, Dirty Blood, and if I’ll be updating it.  I have so many plans for this story, and for sequels.  You should see all the notebooks I’ve filled of scenes and notes and timelines.

I hate that it has been so long since I’ve updated.  I do have some explanations.

My day job was a necessary evil.  It provided me with funds to try and pay my bills and insurance for my medication for my chronic illnesses.  But the job made me miserable and I was struggling to get an interview elsewhere.

It emotionally exhausted me and my art output has suffered as well.

Then the pandemic happened and I was laid off, first temporarily and then I was notified that my position was eliminated.  At first the time off was good for me, but as the world continued to descend further and further into chaos with each passing day, any mental health benefits from the time away from that job were quickly erased.  On top of everything else, I’m now scrambling to get new doctors on new insurance so I can continue my care without going broke.

I want to write.  I want to draw.  But making it happen has been so difficult the past few years, in a way it never was when I was younger.  And I was thrilled when I got so much written for Dirty Blood, only to fall off of that as well.

Then JKR disappointed me in the loudest way yet, and continues to do so, which made me question if it was even in line with my morals to continue to try and find comfort and joy in Harry Potter any more.

I wish I was in the right state to keep writing and posting.  It really does make me so happy.  But I’m just not there right now.  I hope some day I can be again.

So, the story isn’t cancelled... but I don’t know when an update will happen.  There’s so much I still need to work on, personally.

I hope you are all doing as well as you can despite the world ending.

Also, trans women are women.

I’ll see you when I see you.

[saintjag-deactivated20230109]

“I’ve met so many queer and trans kids and young people who had a huge amount of identification with Potter on that. Seeing them hurt, I wanted them to know not everybody in the franchise felt that way.”

Daniel Radcliffe on speaking out against J.K. Rowling, Variety

[suspiciousnargles]

Hi! I'm *not* sending this to inquire about updates or anything like that. I just wanted to say, in case you still check this inbox, that Dirty Blood is one of my favorite fics ever and I re-read it regularly, and I'm really glad you wrote as much of it as you did. As an nb transmasc person myself I have such disdain for JK which has definitely complicated my relationship with HP, but Remus as a character has always been important to me and I project a lot of transmasc feelings onto his transformations. Works like yours that also had queer rep gave me a /lot/ of closure and relief and just... really helped me.

So this ask is to say: thank you for writing it. I hope you're well and writing things that bring you joy. If HP is not one of those things anymore - well, man, that's understandable and valid for ANY fandom no matter what, but given the supreme shithead terflord behind HP, infinitely moreso here. I wish you well regardless but just wanted to say thank you again for writing so much of that fic, it means a lot to me.

What a lovely message, thank you! I am endlessly flattered to know anyone read my stuff once, much less re-read it.

I think one of the things that upsets me most about the whole situation is that you are far from the first trans person I've encountered who found comfort in the world of Harry Potter and the fandom surrounding it. The fandom is so big and has so many niche sub-categories, that it was really a way for a whole generation of people to connect with each other and bond and grow and learn more about ourselves through these stories and characters.

Which is why it's so hard to just let it go like I've seen people (who seem to have never been emotionally attached to HP) say we have to do at this point. I hate so much that something that brought comfort and support and community to trans folk has been fucked over and tainted in this way by the creator. We all deserve a safe place to just be creative and have fun. And it's so much harder to have fun with it now.

As far as queer rep in Dirty Blood, I'm glad it went over well! I was still in denial about a lot of my own shit by the time I last updated it, but I'm still pretty happy with it. I'm glad that the way I wrote it resonated with you. I also can totally see how Remus would be of particular comfort, and I hope he continues to help you. I think Remus would be pleased to know he could provide comfort to you in that way.

I have gone back to writing after a very long break, though not necessarily Dirty Blood. I play with the next chapter every now and again, still working out kinks, it still doesn't totally feel ready. If I do update again, I don't want to just post one chapter and disappear again, I would ideally like to have a few chapters ready to go.

I have so much that I wanted to do with this story, and I'm still proud of the work I did, I just often find myself unsure how to reconcile my anger at JKR with my love for the community and the Marauders specifically. Is it defiant and a reclaiming of the work to keep working on fan content while making it clear that I do not agree with her, or is it just a stubborn refusal to let go of something that gave her a platform to be this terrible? I go back and forth.

The fact is that Harry Potter will always be important to me. It is the reason I got into writing, it is the reason I really tried to improve as an artist, it is the reason I connected with friends I've had for years. So, I don't want to rule out ever updating Dirty Blood. But oh boy, my feelings sure are mixed and weird!

Thank you again for taking the time to write this. I really appreciate it, and I hope you are doing well.

[suspiciousnargles]

Hey, hi, hello.

UM.  No idea if any of you are still here, but IN CASE YOU ARE.

There have been a few updates to Dirty Blood:

AO3

Fanfiction.Net

I haven’t posted the chapters here for two reasons:

1 - Because of the time it took to update (I took a break much longer than intended), I totally forgot that posting the links here was a thing I did.

2 - Chapter posts got zero engagement so I figured no one cared if I posted the chapter links here or not.

SO YEAH, if my fanfic is something you care about, thank you, but also maybe sign up for notifications over on those sites where the stories live.

[suspiciousnargles]

I love your ideia for a fanfiction of professor Lily Potter, and I’ve search all around the internet for one and no one has done it. I would love if you wrote one fanfiction inspired by that post, I would be perfect ❤️

I have no idea how long this has been sitting in my inbox, my apologies!

But thank you!  I know a few people have said they’re interested in writing one, I’m not sure if I’ll ever get around to it myself, but hopefully at some point it will end up existing!

[hp-moods]

Ravenclaw Common Room

[halfbloodprince]

[tbdoll-art]

Marauders - Halloween [x]

I made this as part of Mischief in the Making!  Please go check it out.

[ksazines]

After a long wait, we glad to announce that Mischief in the Making, an unofficial Marauder’s fanzine is officially completed!

You can click here to find our zine!

We would like to say it is a shame many of our contributors had to leave the zine at some point due to personal life matters, so there will be inaccuracies regarding participants between the final crediting page and our initial contributor announcement post. Regardless, we thank them for their time until they unfortunately had to leave, and we also thank our current contributors who we couldn’t have finished the zine without! 

Last but not least, we also thank you for your continuous support, with which the zine would be impossible without! 

Here’s to Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, and Prongs. 

Mischief Managed.

[suspiciousnargles]

Psst, check it out, I contributed to this!  I’m credited as TeraSArt.

[ginnxweasley]

harry potter characters + zodiac signs

[wingedcorgi]

harry, you have your mother’s sass.

[dailywizardwheezes]

[ducatiuniverse]

It was a mark of how much the class loathed Snape that they were all glaring at him, because every one of them had called Hermione a know-it-all at least once, and Ron, who told Hermione she was a know-it-all at least twice a week, said loudly, “You asked us a question and she knows the answer! Why ask if you don’t want to be told?”

[h-arleen]

#me running away from my problems responsibilities and real life

[emilyscartoons]

i need to get a look at these luxury cats JK’s grifter assistant spent $1600 on….i bet they’re plush as HELL

https://www.etsy.com/shop/emilyscartoons

[wingedcorgi]

hogwarts’ greatest headmaster

[suspiciousnargles]

devoured 45 chapters of dirty blood, is there any more out there? I can't find it. Please do more

There will be more!  Adult life keeps on... being adult life.  I am working on it, I just haven’t had the time to work on it as much as I would like.  I’m so glad you like the story, though. <3

[dailywizardwheezes]

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