soozy

i see no point in living if i can't be beautiful 🪽👒 goal: anime b!tch, look at her t!tties! 🔮🧚‍♀️

[suz4na]

what these words meant to me.

[suz4na]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😣🫁🥲

[suz4na]

little poem i wrote a couple months ago (a lil cringe but wtv—ugh i hate this man 😭)

Can’t avoid you in my dreams

You turn up every corner

My unwanted weeds

I can’t shake you off, just let me free

It’s agony, the grip you have on me

What we shared is nothing more than a hazy memory

For myself, I know I wield the key

To moving on, to slowly forgetting you

Yet, my attachment, unwavering, does me no favor

Told I was experiencing a type of stockholm

But they don’t know you’re all I had

And I don’t want to go back to dreaming in only pitch black

Without you, my life is an aimless roam

Irreplaceable, a terminal syndrome

[starrlilss]

It’s making me spiral

[suz4na]

my biggest regret.

[sera-05]

you gotta understand its not just locking in. its a whole shift, a deeper understanding. you can't expect change while upholding a lifestyle of a body you hate. everything you've done to get to where you are right now has to never happen again. and yes you can never get a fancy sugar filled latte to go, you can never go to McDonald's again, you can't just lay in bed chomping on popcorn and chips while u watch Netflix. accept it, get over it. this life is no longer yours. you are becoming a different version of yourself. renounce the lifestyle that made you hate yourself, become the new you and never look back

[fragilesoul84]

@sera-05 💜

[fragilesoul84]

[imaflowerxoo]

I support girls who cry easily

[angeldrrrp]

Biggest motivator: looking good in cosplay

[suz4na]

fcked up today, but honestly dk if can call it a binge bc i was in control mostly.. prob a planned one..?

anyway, had the “ill start monday mindset” and wanted a hurrah and said fck all, but ima fast the rest of this week like i originally planned now and stay locked in. i feel like i keep playing around like i don't rlly want it.. but I DO.. there IS another side!!

i was debating even posting this bc i only said like a day or 2 ago i wanted to start and felt embarrassed but i think i subconsciously wanted to wait for a new week.. zz posted anyway bc want to stay accountable

anyways new week, food and dopamine aren't the end all be all, will stay committed 🪽🙏!!

[archivesofarie]

life is too f*cking short to live in a body u hate.

lets lock tf in.

[saudadebunny]

[silkangelkisses]

[suz4na]

a man happened. man-induced psychosis

[stralavia]

smart men are so attractive

[suz4na]

kinda a diff post from soley my 4na diary, but happy to announce i plan on taking a shower, brushing my teeth, and doing my skin care after not doing so for a couple of days. i cleaned my room last night, prob will change my bed right before i hop in the shower, so i can jus cozy up!! 🫧☁️

i wanna start waking up at like 6 to get my steps up and for my morning routine as well!!

fuk depression n fuk feeling like a fat sack of shi, i feel unworthy doing all this for myself but how cruel is MDD for that like?? how can i get better if don't try to change 🙄😾.

also fasted all day so farr!! 🩷🩷

[suz4na]

tumblr blogging lowk so fun.. why am i only starting now in the new gen 💔

[suz4na]

thinking back to when my fam would make fun of me by calling me giraffe or long neck bc of my wl.. ahhhhhh good times 😌😌. i WILL lose even more weight this time and earn the flaquita title 😍🙏🪽

[suz4na]

start 8/8/26:

gonna try fasting (only dirty fast if need be) for a week!!

ima take this time to hopefully get back into a morning/night routine. ive been a sad ho or wtv so neglected self care :// and broke out badd.. so need that

and yea :DD