[swaggatsby4]

When I Lost It All (RAW UNMASTERED)

This mixtape is pretty much my struggle from 18-23 just trying to get my life together going through break ups, broken bonds, and disloyalty

Been posting a lot of depressing posts on here in the past year about everything I wanted to say without anybody locally knowing who I was and I love tumblr for that. Just wanted to share the music that was made from my depression, hope anyone going through a hard time makes it to tomorrow to see better days to come. “This mixtape is pretty much my struggle from 18-23 just trying to get my life together going through break ups, broken bonds, and disloyalty. i made it solely just to vent because i didn't want to talk to nobody about what i was going through, so i vented through music something that's always been there since i was a kid. Hopefully some of you relate and one of my songs help you through hard times i get emotional on some songs but that's how you know my pain real. Hope you enjoy it”

[heavensghost]

talking about your feelings is SO important I won’t do it but u guys definitely should

[yvngbebe]

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[swaggatsby4]

Once you see the world in black & white it’s hard to make it colorful again.

[delirium-mind]

[thoughtkick]

“When I say, I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.”

— Joss Whedon

[remanence-of-love]

[swaggatsby4]

I be wanting to communicate but too much communication be overwhelming

[swaggatsby4]

I’m 25 drinking 1800 in my underwear at 11:00am who’s more disconnected from reality than me lol

[swaggatsby4]

Told everyone I’m quitting on the 1st and they don’t want me to but i just can’t do this anymore it’s so expensive to be an artist with 500+ songs

[swaggatsby4]

I’ll just never be that guy fr I wanna help my family with money issues but music helps me when no one knows who’s singing it. Cause if I didn’t tell anybody that my music was mine they’d think it’s someone who was already famous. I like my music because it helps me heal not recently but 85% I feel better about myself

[swaggatsby4]

I showed a lot of people my music and now people think I wanna be famous and that’s not what I want i just wanted to be heard but not anymore i just wanna be left alone

[swaggatsby4]

It’s a shame I only come on this app because nobody sees me and I wish the world was like that

[swaggatsby4]

Ok so I thought I was ok but yk how life get 😅

[swaggatsby4]

Everyday I wake up I’m learning to do better

[swaggatsby4]

She really pulled up to my dream and kissed me goodbye lol. She was so beautiful in the light I always remember her being in. The way she cared and presented herself was so attractive I couldn’t keep my eyes off her. She spent the whole dream with me didn’t disappear until it was completely over. Wasn’t really much said but I texted her “I miss her” and seen her in a room full of people but I see her clear as day. “Why you say that?” she said. “You’re the only person on my mind 24/7 feel like i can’t breathe without you” I replied. She chuckled and blushed just as I used to remember she did in reality. We kissed one last time and just embraced each other’s hearts close to each other until I awoke from my fantasy. First thing I did when I got up was play this song I wrote for her because…i just couldn’t wait to see you again…..but she don’t want to see me again.

This is the song if you wanna hear my soul hurt lol