sav

cw 52kg gw 40kg · encouraging recovery ♡ safe space ♡ active march 22 ♡ vegan ♡ 21y/o ~ she/they

[sweetb0nes]

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ Welcome! ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

hi ! i go by savannah or sav for short & my prns are she/they ☆彡

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this is my ed blog. this account DOES NOT promote eds or sh. i full-heartedly encourage recovery. this is just a safe space for venting and finding support. if anything makes you uncomfortable just simply block or unfollow – please don’t report bc this blog is what gets me through the day.

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i do not support or tolerate any discrimination towards gender, race, sexuality, neurotype, disabilities, body types etc. i advocate for freedom and diversity. ♡

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feel free to follow, rb (with tags) and interact esp if you’re vegan and share lowc recipes! 𖧧

[insearchofsunrise-deactivated]

[troubledmistake]

Having an eating disorder is far too goddamn fucking annoying. I'm either torn between starving myself until it hurts or eating because I know I'll just fail at starving.

[herewego-againn]

My current motivation?

Loosing my menstrual cycle 💅

[sweetb0nes]

if disordered eating since 7 why not skinny?

[sweetb0nes]

my mom sent me the photos she took of me at my bday dinner tonight and i 🙃 look 🙃 so 🙃 gross. 🙃 i just want to be my gw already i’m tired of hating myself this much.

[sweetb0nes]

my mother was so annoying at the restaurant table tonight, you would have thought for my birthday she would leave my eating habits alone and stop forcing me to eat things i don’t want. atleast i was stern and i didn’t give in to the persuasion - yay for control and boundaries

[sweetb0nes]

i had a lot of control when it came to restricting at the restaurant tonight, i feel proud of myself! however i wish i had more time to choose my meal bc im would’ve ordered a salad instead of battered chips so that was a blow ugh. still going to be fasting tomorrow though so i can make it up <3

[sweetb0nes]

i wish i could purge it would save me a lot of unwanted weight (,:

[sweetb0nes]

it would be so nice if we could hide our hashtags so that they don’t linger at the bottom of the posts like dregs

[sweetb0nes]

switching between edtwt and edblr like the fucking seasons

[sweetb0nes]

i feel like my s/o judges me for bingeing at the end of the night before bed, they wouldn’t say something out loud like that but i can sense some kind of annoyance in them when i do. but i might truly be projecting that on them so : /

[sweetb0nes]

the guilt and shame for being full from bingeing is just,, so heavy i can barely cope

[kanekicanteat-deactivated202301]

eat = guilt

don’t eat = wanting to eat

wanting to eat = guilt

guilt = binge or fast

binge = guilt

fast = guilt

guilt

guilt

guilt

all the time

[sweetb0nes]

i’m so worried and anxious about my ed ruining my relationship with my s/o. its all i can think about at the moment; the pain in their eyes bc they know there’s so little they can do to stop the damage I’m doing to myself. honestly it just makes me sob.

[sweetb0nes]

well that’s me fasting for tomorrow and the next ((((-: can’t believe i just binged after already having so much to eat today i fucking hate myself

[sweetb0nes]

in the ‘i used to be my gw and then i went on seroquel’ pipeline