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“Or perhaps in Slytherin, You’ll make your real friends, Those cunning folk use any means, To achieve their ends.”

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It’s ok to be where I am. I don’t have to wake up tomorrow and be a pro. And I think that mentality has gone a long way for me in terms of just surrendering. To the moment, surrendering to where I am, and surrendering even in my failures.

I’ve thought alot about what i should be posting about ever since I made this blog and I’ve decided to use as a place to vent about things that bother me..

Recently a friend that I was once really close with got mad when she realised I was not going to sympathize with her about these problems.. I started to come out of a shell I had no idea I was in and the more that I started being the me I’ve always been in my head she started backing away from me.. when we first started being friends I was generally a sweet person who kept all my problems to myself and listened to others problems without judgement and let them figure things out.. An extended family member of mine did not like the way people were taking advantage of my caring nature and manipulating me into doing things I had no desire to do..

So the changes began I started growing a back bone and saying no to people without any remorse, stood behind this no. I started talking. Talking in a way I hadn’t done since I was a little girl. Talking was something I lost because of my fear of hurting people with words. Talking was my courage.. I may not be the most outgoing person in the world, but I have found a courage, thanks to my family’s continued support, that I enjoy to the fullest..

Anyways back to the friend, she didn’t like the blunt way I was talking. I guess she didn’t like the me who let her know that she was being a bitch to people.. She hasn’t talked to me personally in a few months because my morals are different than hers but I let her know that no matter what I would love her and be there for her if she really needs me..

She moved away for a few years to attend an institute in a city about an hour out. She moved on away from and had so many friends.. I’m not going to lie I was insanely jealous because why didn’t she allow me to be apart of this group. Everytime I went to the city where she lived she did not have time to even meet with even though I let her know days in advanced.. Thats when I realised I was not an important part of her life anymore and these other people were now her friends that she decided to bond with more than me.. Although this is not the time my feelings of being her friend changed.. I still made a point to be part of her life my asking her how she was and was doing.. then she started hiding things from me. At first I thought she just forgot to tell me then it started happening more and more often.. I was hurt... I started to think I did something wrong.. I thought for a long time about what it could be but I could not come up with anything other than the fact I was probably annoying her.. so I stopped all forms of communication except for once in awhile..

Now she wants to talk, the last time she visited me she made it seem like I wanted to go on her phone to snoop and get some info on her. I do not understand this I never told ANYONE anything she told me ever. My feelings were hurt and I haven’t contacted her since thus not seeing each other for months.. Now I feel maybe this friendship is over because I do not have the energy to keep trying because thats all I ever do is try to make her happy.. ugh I wish had someone else to talk to but I don’t anymore I maybe close to my family but I can’t talk to them about this because she became important to them as well and they blame her absence on me (probably true).. I also have had to much bad happen in my life during the past few years, so I have no idea whether or not I can handle this..

#problems #ugh #emotions

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sweetlillyrose

I’ve spent enough Elvish blood in defense of this accursed land. No more!

luffytarhoe

THIS

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Does this exist anyone!?

sweetlillyrose

omg THIS!!!!

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Cannibalism http://failnation.tumblr.com

My value is not based on others opinions of me.. its my own and this worth becomes more and more each day.. rising from almost nothing.. believing I did not belong anywhere the in actuality I do and this place is where ever I am.. this is my Value It becomes my self esteem

There are times when I just want to release this imagination brewing stories in my head but then when given the time to write.. my brain gives nothing to words... fiction stories.. one day I will write a story lol one goal for the future..

#emptybrain

I've been thinking for sometimes now and I believe its time for a tattoo in the coming year I'm aiming for my birthday so it will be awesome..

#21 living for me

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Buy The Hobbit & LOTR Merchandise: http://bit.ly/JVK7GQ

sweetlillyrose

that face

chelsieautumn

You will always be too much of something for someone: too big, too loud, too soft, too edgy. If you round out your edges, you lose your edge. Apologize for mistakes. Apologize for unintentionally hurting someone — profusely. But don’t apologize for being who you are.

Danielle Laporte (via kvtes)

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Imagine at Christmas James Potter transforming into a stag and prancing around wearing a red nose, pretending to be Rudolph for Harry.

Imagine Sirus transfiguing himself to look like Santa and “accidentally” waking Harry up and letting him meet Ruldolf and Harry goes to wake up his parents and...

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Ohmigosh, someone please write something like this

sweetlillyrose

Lmao

I've approached by guys wanting to date me, but then fear takes hold and I run as far as I can as fast as possible. Now I've come to a crossroads, asking myself do I really want to be alone?? This is hard.. I have no idea what I'm doing any more but moving forward. Why is there this need for something to be mine totally and completely? These are the questions I'm going to focus on in the next year..

The new year is going to hold so many prospect for everyone I just really wonder what everyone is going to chose.

#conflict #new #chioces