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BPD

Yes, my eating disorder is gone....yes I eat freely and love my body. But do I love myself? my whole self? I don't know. My BPD causes so much distress in my life. One emotion after the next, self doubt, loving quickly or not at all. How do I fix this? I wish I knew.....

Recovered at last

For the past 4 years I have been on a seesaw of recovery and relapse, treatment after treatment. Nothing seemed to be enough to destroy the voice inside my head. There was always a whisper of doubt and worthlessness.

How ironic that I found sanctuary in the gym. The place that my eating disorder thrived; kept me prisoner until it was satisfied with my destruction. But, what my eating disorder did not account for was my whit and will.

Metal bars and iron weights called to me. Begged me to lift. So I did. The strength that flowed through me was empowering. I took that obsessive voice inside my head and turned it against itself.

I read forums, articles, and books about powerlifting. Learned all that there was to be the best and the strongest. I learned to compete with myself, not the others.

I learned all that there was to becoming strong, not skinny. I read about the importance of nutrition and rest. Normally my eating disorder would tell me to ignore that information, but since it wasn’t coming from a doctor that I struggled to trust, I listened to the books.

I no longer count calories or weigh myself. I don’t look in the mirror with disgust.

I look in the mirror and see strength, health, and happiness. I no longer was weak, no longer thought of myself as pathetic, but saw myself with empowerment.

I became strong; mentally and physically. I became able to destroy that nagging demon inside me bit by bit.

Powerlifting saved my life. Gave me hope and the ability to finally say “I am recovered”

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#powerlifting #eating disorder recovery #Anoreixa #gymlife

New Year

So it's been a while guys, but HI, I took a long long break from internet due to triggers. And well I can honestly say it helped. I was able to focus on school, which *drum roll* I completed my AA! And now I'm off to UMBC to study my passion of social work. I've got a healthy head on my shoulders 6 months into relationship 7 months sober Training to be a powerlifter. Which has helped immensely in my recovery. I don't look at the scale, I eat when hungry, and I love my beautiful strong body. 2014 was SUCCESS!!! Bring it on 2015

#new year #recovery #health #eating disroders

hereislight

COMPLIMENTS THAT AREN’T ABOUT PHYSICAL APPEARANCE 1) You’re empowering. 2) I like your voice. 3) You’re strong. 4) I think your ideas/beliefs matter. 5) I’m so happy you exist. 6) More people should be listening to what you have to say. 7) You’re a very warm hearted person. 8) It’s nice seeing such kindness. 9) You’re very down to earth. 10) You have a beautiful soul. 11) You inspire me to become a better person. 12) Our conversations bring me a lot of joy. 13) It’s good to see someone care so much. 14) You’re so understanding. 15) You matter a lot to me. 16) You’re important even if you don’t think so. 17) You’re intelligent. 18) Your passion is contagious. 19) Your confidence is refreshing. 20) You restore my faith in humanity. 21) You’re great at being creative. 22) You’re so talented at ____. 23) I don’t get tired of you the way I get tired of other people. 24) You have great taste in ___. 25) I’m happy I stayed alive long enough to meet you. 26) I wish more people were like you. 27) You’re so good at loving people.

3:29 p.m. feel free to add to this! (via expresswithsilence)

I like this list. Nice reminder.

(via onlynina)

#compliments #recovery

-trillium-

wanderingsoul222

This is very important.

sweetsrecovery

this is great advice, give the time to think about the choice you are about to make.

#self harm #don't do it

Relentless Panic

Can you feel it choking? Sending fire to the heart? Feel it gripping tighter, with every inhalation?

Listen to the thoughts, that race across the mind. Hear them getting louder? Deafening and consuming

Can you feel the shaking? the vibration of the soul? Feel it growing in the stomach? Pulsating through the veins.

Impossible to breathe, through all the clenching fear. No oxygen to speak of, Mind melting all logic.

Eyes dart and scan, desperate for salvation. hopelessly I oblige, to the self-consuming lie.

#poetry #lies #anxiety #mental illness

Mirror of Deception

Mirror mirror on the wall, have I proven myself today? Or will your words be cruel, And sting with venom?

Have I proved myself? come here and tell me, sting me with venom once again

Come and tell me, who am I to you today? Tell me once again what it is that I’ll be.

The words you spit so cruel with bile tell me what I am, mirror mirror on the wall?

#Poems #mirros #eating disorders #manipulation #looks #self hate #control

Touch of Love

Lay down tonight? the whiskey whispers dancing off your lips Enticing me so sweetly

I’ve heard this song before The tango of desires the rhythm I know well, I know just where this gets me

Alone in an shameful bed

#need for love #sex #console #love #rejection #desire #respect

Chameleon

Blended to the wall to the situation that’s at hand. I do not show myself I reside hidden, by my own command I see you laugh and cry, for I shall do the same Not giving away my secrets instead I’ll feel your pain. I know just what to do, To make you believe, that I can fit to you Make you see what I do see I will blend, and I will fade. Adapting is my skill. This is my trick you see, For it’s done at my own will. A magician of camouflage Master of all disguise, done for sheer protection This is where I do hide.

#hidden emotions #empathy #adaptation #secret

letterforthebetter

sweetsrecovery

This was made for me <3 I love it, so positive and helpful.

#recover #eating disorder #support #positive

100reasonstorecover-blog

WE ARE PUTTING TOGETHER A SPECIAL PROJECT FOR NEDA WEEK THIS YEAR BUT WE NEED YOUR HELP TO MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!!!

OUR PHONE LINE IS OPEN!

Call (904) 310 - 0787 and leave an encouraging message for someone who may be struggling with an eating disorder.

This phone line is an ANSWERING MACHINE ONLY. Nobody will EVER actually pick up the phone.

You can also record your message and email it to [email protected]

You have until February 14, 11:59PM EST to submit your encouraging words. Encouraging messages will be compiled into one audio file.

Our Suicide Prevention Audio Compilation Our ‘It Gets Better’ Audio Compilation

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TODAY IS THE LAST DAY TO LEAVE A VOICEMAIL MESSAGE!

#neda week #get involved #awareness

Letters

So my nutritionist recommended that I get 8 keys to recovery. I began reading it and did one of the activities. Different than what I expected. This assignment was to write a THANK YOU letter to my eating disorder. Excuse me WHAT? Basically it was to distinguish your eating disorder from your healthy self. After writing the thank you letter the assignment was to re-read and think about what you could have done differently instead of engaging in the eating disorder. Here's my letter. Dear Rex, Thank you for helping me get through high school. You made it easier to ignore the hurt and torment I was receiving. Losing friends, and other relationships, struggling with classes, and teasing about my weight was very hard for me. You have me some hope of control, if not with everything at least my food and weight. And it worked. You also took away my ability to not feel my emotions. This made it easier to go through the motions of the day. If I didn't have you throughout those years I don't think I would have survived. So many times I wanted to die, to just end it. But you took my emotions and made me numb. This allowed me to go on. You helped me lose weight, get through school without pain or memories. Dear Healthy Me, I know high school was hard. Rex saved you. But you could've sought help from you mom. From school councillors, any outside source. I know you don't like to speak up for yourself, but look at what happened. You didn't gain control, you lost yourself. You're stronger than you believe, you will recover from you disordered self.

#letters #eating disroders #recovery #therapy #help #advice #two selves

"Being strong isn’t being able to starve yourself for three weeks. Being strong is being able to get out of your eating disorder and becoming healthy, even when the voice in your head won’t let you. Ignoring this voice, ana or mia or both, IS being the strongest, so don’t ever give up"

#recovery #eating disoder recovery #eating disroders #quotes #inspiration

Importance of body fat

Here are a few major functions of body fats: •Body fats help to maintain healthy skin and hair. •To maintain the right body temperature, it is essential to have adequate body fat. • Body fats are the storehouses of energy in the body. •Body fats are necessary to ensure the smooth functioning of cells. •Body fats have a cushioning effect on organs and tissues. •Body fats act as a shock absorber for bones. •The body will not be able to absorb many vital vitamins like A, E, D and K unless they are able to combine with fats. •Body fats are also believed to act as immunity boosters to protect the body from ailments.

#body fat #medical #health #recovery #eating disroders