[sxgaboo]

《 @clymenvs​ 》↴

“That’s nice of you but I wouldn’t even know where to start.” From the issues with his father to none stop classes, and his failed love life Changbum was ready to freak out. Granted things had gotten a little better but it still made him mad when he thought about it. “Let’s chalk it up as classes getting the better of me ok? Because if I have to write one more paper this week i’m going to die.”

　　　　　　　　There’s a small furrow of his brows as he eyes the other male, the way he was always so closed off and found it hard to express himself, made him just want to sling an arm over his shoulder and tell him ‘it’ll be okay.’, except he doesn’t, not wanting to make anything uncomfortable ― it was always better to let a person tell you when it was the right moment for them. ❝so you’re having a bad week, we should do something exciting then, to calm down your nerves and get rid of the ache you probably have in your back from studying so much, hm? what do you say?❞ a small smile spreads upon his tiers, tilting his head to the side, distractions were always a nice getaway from the stress. ❝is there anything you’ve been wanting to do recently?❞

[sxgaboo]

《 @leafproductions​ 》↴

    the one? james wasn’t so sure he believed in ‘the one’. he knew there was plenty of fish in the sea, and it was just that, plenty of fish. there was no singular gold-studded fish that would be exactly perfect for him, there were only people, all the same, swimming in the bottom of the sky. if it was that simple, though, why was he still thinking about her? was it just the ‘what if’ thoughts? it felt weird even at twenty his emotions were not perfectly intact.     he sighed, looked at his feet, and tilted his head. none of this advice was helping him, but he was too nice to say that out loud. instead, he wanted to just change the subject. what else did he like besides looking at pretty girls he’ll never get a chance to meet?     “are you with anyone right now? have you ever thought about having kids? i think i would have thirty if i was allowed to.” he smiled. finally, a topic that he didn’t feel so weird and sensitive about. even then, he still thought about her. if he ever did meet her, if they ever even spoke, would she even like kids? that was a must for james.     “i would never marry someone who doesn’t love kids.”

　　　　　　　　At the slightly switch of conversation, jaehwans’ brows raise; to his surprise, no ones’ ever asked him if he was planning on having kids in the future ― expect his parents of course who were patiently waiting for that day, though in truth, even if he didn’t, he knows they would still be happy ( they were sweet like that after all. ) his expression soon softens and a small chuckle slips by him. ❝thirty?! you’d really be able to take care of that many kids all at once?❞ his tone becomes more playful, children were alot to handle and he was certain dealing with babies, toddlers, a mix of kids and teenagers going through puberty would be quite a handful; though realistically he knows the other male is just implying he dreams to have a family in his future, doesn’t everyone? ❝I am in a relationship though ― we’ve never really talked about having kids in our future though. not because we don’t want to, but because I think it’s still too early to be discussing that type of thing, you know? we have alot of furbabies if that counts.❞ his eyes slip into crescent shapes, and jaehwan chuckles softly.

[jungshoseok]

Yoongi + 😆

[sxgaboo]

i love you. you don’t have to say it back, though.

《 @hyejvng ; spider-man: into the spider-verse 》↴

　　　　　　　　It comes to him as a wave of surprise. hyejung was never the type of person to properly express herself, or more like, knew how to say the words; always mumbling over herself and never keeping eye contact when their conversations fall into mush, but hyejung never wanted to get sentimental or sappy and he was okay with that, however, in moments like these, jaehwan would treasure it and hold onto it, close to him because when a person, a close friend that struggles with themselves finally opens up in a different kind of way, not the kind where it was talking about a sticky situation, but actually saying how much they appreciate you. despite having their fall outs of no interaction at all here and there, jaehwan always looked at the younger female as a little sister. pride washes through him and he brings a hand down to card through her dark locks of hair as the sleepy female rests her hand in his lap and the spooky movie that hits you right in the feels of the season plays in the background.

　　　　　　　　He chuckles softly, shaking his head at the way she tries to push away any negativity, like he wouldn’t feel the same way;  ❝pft, hush, you know I love you too, you’re like a little sister to me, why would you think I wouldn’t say it back?❞ he teases, but means it all at the same time. a soft smile forms on his features and the blonde leans back against the couch. 

[93smygi]

he's pretty uwu

[iseonew]

@sxgaboo

❝ if you wanna talk, i’m here. ❞ < changbum > 

“There’s nothing to talk about…..People are stupid plain and simple.” He knew that wasn’t true, that he was just being a big baby about everything but he was just so done with everyone and their judgmental thoughts on him.

[sxgaboo]

《 @clymenvs​ 》↴

　　　　　　　　Brows pinch inwards as he eyes the other male ― it was very clear with his tone, his expression, the way he decided to just shrug it off and act like everything was fine. he understood that there were boundaries and if changbum didn’t want to talk, he didn’t have to, but jaehwan was just trying to help him get rid of the weight resting on his shoulders. ❝are you sure?.. well, if you decide you want to talk about it, you know i’m always here to listen; like i said.❞

[sxgaboo]

“ this place is yours as much as it is ours. “

《 @epigrvm ; sentence  starters  ft.  netflix’s:  the society 》↴

　　　　　　　　A deep exhale through his nose ― it’s crazy still to him. despite the fact the two of them had lived together for over a year in their apartment, the fact they took it another step and decided moving into a actual house was what they wanted, it felt like a dream. a dream that had finally come true, like all the boxes on his check list was being ticked off due to a certain male he had been blessed to meet and fall inlove with; to hopefully spend the rest of his life with. 

　　　　　　　　Lips smack together as he eyes the living room ― they weren’t going with monochrome this time and jaehwan had all these ideas on how to make their home look a little more decorative this time, more as if it looked lived in; and as of right now it was kind of dull, besides the fewer little attempts like coloured cushioned and rugs to give their living place a more vibrate look. ❝so you don’t mind my ideas of how to decorate the home babe? you’re giving me the big OK to anything? you sure I don’t need to continuously keep asking you for your opinion?❞ playfully, his eyes squint as he tries to hold back his smile which only causes his cheeks to raise high and eyes to almost form crescent shapes. even if it was HIS home too there was something so satisfying that the two agreed on the same thing, discussed it. even if his lover trusted him with his taste in everything ― jaehwan always had a habit to sometimes buy something they or he, didn’t need.

　　　　　　　　❝I just want us to both be able to admire what we decide to display in our home; we kind of... didn’t do any of that in our old place.❞ a warm smile forms across soft lips, turning his attention to sangcheol; chuckling softly under his breath. 

[sxgaboo]

“ where were you ? you were already gone when i got up this morning. “ ( college au )

《 @epigrvm ; sentence  starters  ft.  netflix’s:  the society 》↴

　　　　　　　　Lifting his head from looking down at his laptop when he sees the figure come into his view, fingers fiddling to remove his earbud from his ear. jaehwans’ brows raise at the males’ greeting, nose chuckling from being baffled by it. now removing the other, he drops is down onto the small table where is laptop rested. ❝well hello to you too, cheol.❞ momentarily, blinking rapidly, he closes his laptop. to think sometimes he believed himself as the over dramatic one, sometimes with the way his boyfriend questioned him, it made him wonder if the male actually trusted him, considering this wasn’t the first time, even before they were a item. Reassurance, he reminds himself, that’s all the older male was seeking. Don’t get mad or upset by a simple question, even if the outburst seemed abit much.

　　　　　　　　❝’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you panic or worry; also didn’t think you needed a note or a reminder, you were sound asleep, like a rock, adorable really. I went to class, I didn’t want to wake you up, it’s not everyday you get a goodnights rest.❞ a small, half hearted smile is offered and jaehwans’ shoulders raise in a small shrug; he could of skipped, it was always endearing to snuggle up to his boyfriend after all, but was it worth skipping all his classes just because he was comfortably in his embrace? ― patting the space next to him on the couch he had snatched for them to hog in the cafe for hours to come as the two would probably spend a while here like they always did. ❝c’mon, lemme make up the time we missed together~❞ he cooed playfully, lifting his arm to extend to the older of the two, silently asking him to come into his arm; lean against him. he’d take their order in a moment, once sangcheol took a breather to relax. 

[sxgaboo]

ugh, i’m sorry, my activity here hasn’t been the best. I’m doing my best to gain muse for jae but it’s hard to have that spike lately? yknow?? maybe I’m just a little burnt out. I’ll try do the rest of my drafts and my inboxes this week.

[liveswell-deactivated20210219]

                                              meet   m   ,   your   friendly   neighbourhood   zombie   .

[daechwitas]

seoul city tvc | suga cut

[sxgaboo]

《 @epigrvm 》↴

                 《 🎸 》    IF THERE WAS a perfect time to play that one song by Sam Smith, it would certainly be now. He bites his tongue and holds it in to not break out in song, to not sing the other male’s ear off since that wasn’t what he was here for tonight. If, perhaps, he wanted to sing, he would do so later, when they’re in bed wrapped in each other’s arms. For now, he’ll hold off, save it for later. Right now, he’s allowed to stay and that should be the only thing that consumes his thoughts. Tonight, he’ll be in Jaehwan’s arms or Jaehwan would be in his. A relieved smile curls at the edges of his lips and a small squeeze is offered to the mint-haired male’s hand.

❝  Tch. Instant noodles huh ? Only the finest instant noodles for me, then. Maybe add a little egg in there too if you’re serious.  ❞ Lips press tightly together before he’s laughing. His first genuine laugh of the night, shared with the other male. Majority had been fake in the presence of other people, but with Jaehwan, it was always real.  ❝  Legit though, I could use some water and maybe we can watch a movie too. Kinda thirsty after racing out of the venue to come here.  ❞ He’s glad he didn’t do anything stupid either. Like get piss drunk and make out with some random girl because he was so caught up in his emotions earlier. Waking up in the morning with that sort of regret would kill him. Kill them both actually. Fingers unravel from the other’s, arms now lifting upwards to wrap around the other’s shoulders to pull their bodies closer to embrace him fully. The bassist just wanted to hold him and he knows he’ll be able to for the remainder of the night, but right now, in this moment, that’s all he wanted to do. To let the other male know just how sorry he was for not being a better communicator and for not expressing how he truly felt. The silent treatment only ate away at him and he could only imagine what it must have felt for Jaehwan. What’s done has been done, though, and the only way they can move forward was by learning from this experience, owning up to their mistakes and doing better next time. It’s not like we’re in a relationship or anything.But it felt like one. His band mates had told him countless times that he owed nothing to Jaehwan. There was no obligation to him since they weren’t exactly exclusive. What if I want to be, though ? ❝  I really did miss you though. A lot.  ❞

　　　　　　　　❝don’t mock my talents on making good ramen cheol, course ‘m being serious about it, I’d only make the best for you anyway.❞ eyes gaze upon the males’ features, admiring the slightly pink hues from either running here or from having drank some liquor, would explain a bit on why he even came here at this time of the night after shutting jaehwan out; alcohol always made a person act more impulsively. he would move into the kitchen if it wasn’t for the way their bodies had pressed against one another, arms wrapping around jaehwan and he swore he felt his knees go weak, melting into the touch of sangcheol. his own arms finding their way around the males’ waist, head slightly tilted back as dark hues gaze into another pair with the temptation to lean back in and have their lips meet once again, in fact, he could probably kiss the bassist all night until he drifted off to sleep; god the thought sounded so nice. 

　　　　　　　　Lips unknowingly twitch upwards into a smile and once he realises it, it’s too late, jaehwans’ lips have formed a bright smile and he’s breaking their eye contact, to hide it by lowering his head, gently bumping his forehead against the males’ shoulder. ❝course you missed me, how couldn’t you? when all I was doing was missing you too.❞ stupid, he felt stupid, they could avoided all of this, but all because jaehwan didn’t call to say he was home, he didn’t sleep around ( not that it should even MATTER to the other ) ― got too court up in working on his music for class to do the basic thing, which would of been to send a text and ask how the others’ been, or just a simple hey; though in truth, he believes he’d still get the silent treatment. sangcheol did infact have his moments of being a jerk after all. ❝they say when a person is thinking about you, you tend to feel it too, especially if you have a connection with them.❞ slipping from the males’ grip.

　　　　　　　　Jaehwan makes his way into the small kitchen ― opening the fridge to take out a bottle of water for the other male, placing it down on the counter and moving towards the packets of ramen, grabbing two; he skipped his meal, but guess this’ll give him an excuse to eat something. ❝why dont’ you make yourself comfortable and find a movie you wanna watch for us, if you want, you can borrow some of my clothes to change, i probably have some of yours in my room anyway.❞ lips twitch into a crooked smile, amused by his own words, he sure did “borrow” alot of the older males’ clothes. ❝grab a blanket too if you want. I’ll just make us some amazing fucking ramen in the meantime.❞

[sxgaboo]

《 @busanbunnie 》↴

“You’d really wanna see?!” Pure excitement laced in her tone as she sat up before realising she had just spoken with her mouth full and that was a habit she needed to stop doing – she could practically hear her brother Minhwan ringing in her ears telling her to be more ‘ladylike’ and she fought the urge to roll her eyes at the phantom voice within her head. Turning her attention back to the male, she nodded her head a little too enthusiastically. “Oh my god, we’ll have so much fun! We can play Mario Kart… actually maybe not that one because I get really angry with that. There is this track called the rainbow road and I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve died!” Realising she was probably being a little too in your face, she quickly knocked it down a peg or two before uttering her apologising and chomping on her slice of pizza quietly as she heard him talk about pole dancing. It was something that she had always been intrigued in – it took more strength than people cared to understand.

“I like the whole pole kisses instead of bruises thing… it makes it sound more softer!” Even though the meaning behind it wasn’t but then again, like they always say – no pain, no gain, right? Hard workers always got good rewards and those were words that she would live by always from her Mother. She felt happy that the other was seemingly opening up to her, she knew it was probably a little bit awkward for him at first, especially how she had just arrived at their apartment unannounced. She was still feeling a little guilty about that but she could only hope the other didn’t mind too much. At least they had finally been able to meet. Doe like optics widened at the compliment however as she looked at him. “Y-you really think so?” She smiled into her pizza, eyes averting to the table and the dimple in her cheek showing. “Minhwan, my brother always says I need to stop having so much faith and trust in everyone. I need to realise that there isn’t always good in this world.”

　　　　　　　　❝oh!❞ his voice comes out more softly than hers, excitement bubbling through both of their bodies, radiating off one another; he knew of mario kart, it was definetly the type of game he was able to play without having to ask TOO many questions about how to play or what the goal of the game was. ❝I know mario kart.❞ he confirms with a soft smile, most people would find it weird if he didn’t after all, he had his few share of times with that ― not having been given the opportunity to play video games as a kid, jaehwan never got that thrill of what it was like to experience video games like most, but he was definitely making a change to that as he got older, perhaps hana could show him much more than what his boyfriend had already. ❝the rainbow road is pretty hard, I’ve only played it a few times because I fucking suck at it ― but we don’t have to play that road, just have a few go’s at the other tracks; and don’t worry, you won’t get mad with me atleast, you’ll definitely have alot of victories.❞ his slip into crescent shapes, feeling much more comfortable the more the two spoke with one another, shoulders relaxing more.

　　　　　　　　Bringing his elbow against the mabel counter, his palm coming up to press against his jawline as the male eyes her momentarily before he looks towards the food she had so sweetly brought ― to think if he would of continued sleeping he wouldn’t of had the opportunity to meet her, or atleast wouldn’t have the company when he woke. ❝I’d say your brother was right ― in some ways.❞ he pauses, he doesn’t know her brother and wouldn’t want to offend her in anyway but disagreeing with his words but he’s sure that wouldn’t be the case. ❝there is alot of bad in the way, but with that theres’ good, and it’s better to look at life positively than negatively, right?❞ his head turns to look back at the brunette beside him. ❝if we decide to lock ourselves in or keep distance just because we decide not to give it a chance, then what if we miss out on something amazing? my mum always told me to have faith in people, and maybe that’s gotten me hurt a good few times but it’s a lesson learnt, and we all need those.❞

[sxgaboo]

《 @timetbl 》↴

yeah, how to explain to a human ( who could barely deal with the existence of angels and demons ) that there’s a bit of an issues upstairs to the point that the end of all times might be accelerating its arrival at an alarming pace ━now he wanted to slam his head and just smite jaehwan’s memories of himself completely, if only he could do that without risking jaehwan’s brain to melt away. it wasn’t a risk he could take. “ well, i kinda am, but it’s also kinda not my fault, the story is a bit complicated so forgive me for any following headache i’m positive you’re going to get. ” he had to start somewhere, and an apology just sounded like the best thing to do. it gave him a little more time to put things together. “ the short version of the story is that the world is going to hell because there’s some massive civil war in heaven and some other ancient creatures are pretty much taking advantage of it. the long story involves, uh, i believe you call that gnosticism. you know who abraxas and yadalbaoth are, right? ”

　　　　　　　　Of course he’d be in some sort of trouble, when wasn’t he? it would be more of a shock if the other male claimed he wasn’t, that everything was fine. obviously after not seeing each other for these many years it’s very clear that he would still be the same running into trouble rather than avoiding it ― but maybe he could finally understand why, maybe. there’s a small movement of jaehwans head, a nod of some sort, trying to follow along with the way he expresses himself. brows pinch inwards, before his eyes widen and his brows arch upwards, lips twitching in utter confusion. ❝wait.❞ tilting his head to the side, ❝civil war in heaven? ancient creatures? why are you talking about ― demian, what the fuck are you talking about? I thought you were going to tell me what’s been going on, not some religious stuff you think is happening. how do you even know something like that would be happening? I mean yeah, I get global warming and how we’re already destroying the world but... I don’t mean to hurt your feelings on your believes, I just don’t really understand what you’re getting at here.❞ lips form a tight line, he wants to try and understand but how can he? when to jaehwan, demian was just a human, like himself, dealing with the shit life brings upon them.

[crimefollowed-deactivated202005]

“   wow   !!   look   at   that   lolly   pop   ——   ”   she’s   already   running   over   to   press   her   face   against   the   window   of   the   closed   candy   shop   .   “   i’d   love   to   put   that   in   my   collection   .   it’s   so   pretty   ,   the   way   it’s   shaped   like   a   heart   &   stuff   .   don’t   you   think   it’s   pretty   ??   what   flavour   do   you   think   it   is   ??   ”   she   was   only   discharged   from   the   clinic   this   morning   ,   them   believing   her   lies   of   recovery   without   putting   much   investigation   into   it   ——   they   know   she’ll   be   back   again   in   the   next   few   weeks   .

@sxgaboo   liked   for   a   starter   !!

[sxgaboo]

《 @crimefollowed 》↴

　　　　　　　　As he notices her hurry off to one of the shops they were about to pass by, jaehwans’ tired, feline shaped eyes widen; not really taken much notice of their surroundings. if it was him by himself, he definitely wouldn’t of noticed. ❝hm?❞ brows raise and he begins to walk over towards her direction ― expression softening at the sight of the treat, lollipops were always a treat, something that he used as a method to stop smoking so often. ❝It’s really cute, it’s probably raspberry flavour, or strawberry, something sweet.❞ most red coloured candies were either of the two. ❝I wonder how they made it, to be that shape.❞ the pounding words slip by him, tilting his head to the side as the two continue to admire the cutely shaped lollipop. ❝wanna go in?❞

[95z]

min pd

[sxgaboo]

《 @epigrvm 》↴

                 《 💼 》     THE CORPORATE counselor pinches the space between his brows with forefinger and thumb as his injured hand settles on the counter. He can see the blood seeping through every so slowly, the alcohol being the cause for why the crimson fails to cease flowing. Sangcheol’s head feels lighter than normal, certainly couldn’t be due to the intoxicating liquor, but rather a mixture of blood loss as well. Deep pools of brown are sealed away behind his lids as they close, enclosed in darkness for a moment, or so he tells himself. Concealed away, embraced by the dark, the brunette see’s the image of the android and the scenario from just a few moments ago replays in his head. A brow twitches, features contorting into some slight discomfort and he’s flutter lids open again.

❝  Mm … perhaps you’re right. It’s been a long day. ❞ Too long. Despite saying that and agreeing with Jaehwan’s words, he doubts he can stand up at the moment. His body still felt like he would tip over, stumble and fall and possibly make even more of an ass of himself and injure himself. Already a finger was cut open by a shard of glass. No need for a full on concussion. Or even half of a concussion. Slowly, Sangcheol breathes out, shutting his eyes once again. Just as his eyes shut, the male’s head gradually settles over his arm that’s resting against the cold tile of the counter. This feels nice. He relishes in the coolness of the counter for a moment, counteracting the heat from the alcohol that had turned the apples of his cheeks a hue of pink. Another even breath and chocolate orbs are revealed once again. Beneath the fan of dark lashes, his eyes find where Jaehwan was, watching the android’s every movement. The rhythmic and smooth motion of sweeping the shards away to mopping up the absolute mess he had made. The brunette was grateful for the other. More than his sober self would admit at times. Without shame and without proper thinking, lips part to speak.  ❝  Sleep with me tonight. Rest with me, Jaehwan.  ❞ It was almost hushed, almost mumbled. Drowsiness from alcohol and his fresh wound was taking over his body. Eyelids are hidden again, this time he kept them close. The ache was coming back.

　　　　　　　　Passing by him to go grab the bucket and mop, jaehwan was keeping an eye on the male, being the person he devoted his life to, after such injury and him being his usual drunken self, he would always be sure to be aware of sangcheols’ safety; obviously not wanting him to fall asleep like that but he wanted to clean everything else up ― though he had all day tomorrow to worry about it, he didn’t want the male to wake in the morning and commit another crime to himself from being hung over. it was now or never. one thing for sure was, he’d have to get down on his hands and knees tomorrow to really scrub at the floor, polish it clean but this would do for now, it was late after all. grabbing the handle, he removes the soaked mop from the bucket that had been used earlier today ― making it not the cleanest, a mental note having already been taken but he didn’t want to stray away too far. 

　　　　　　　　Gradually, the wine is slowly being cleaned, thankful it wasn’t on carpet because that he knew it would of left a stain and jaehwan would of had to order in a new one ― softly, almost too quietly to hear, he sighs. not understanding how the male could be so reckless but, if he thinks about, it wasn’t out of the ordinary. the thing that was, was those words that slip past sangcheols tiers. if it wasn’t so quiet, he was sure he wouldn’t of heard a single word. eyes shift before his head turns to look over his shoulder, staring at them. a hue shift as he studies the males’ current state, still conscious; despite looking as if he’d just passed out on the counter. brows furrow momentarily before a small smile is offered and he’s putting the mop back into the bucket to fully soak again, mixing wine with the soapy liquid. ❝Is that what you want?❞ he doesn’t quite understand why that would be a request that would ever be wished upon, but the android was never against his requests or orders.

　　　　　　　　Approaching him, he’s more concerned for his well being and current state than actually laying beside him, arm gentle as his palm brushes over his back before wrapping it around his side and using his other to tug at his folded arm on the counter, bringing it over his own shoulder to help the intoxicated man from his current position. ❝lets’ go to bed then, sangcheol.❞ eyes focus on his features momentarily, feeling his breath fan against his features once more before he looks forward, leading them towards the bedroom ― unsure if his presence was actually wanted; they take their time but soon, he’s helping him settle down on the comfort of his bed. ❝would you like me to get you a change of clothes, surely it’d be more comfortable for you than your work clothes..❞ it would be a hassle to help the male change his clothes but as long as it meant sangcheol would be comfortable as he drifted off tonight was all he worried about, among other things that revolved around him.