Do I miss my old friends? I do. I miss the jokes, the support, the shit talking and mostly, never feel alone with them. After I had my son, things slowly changed. Good or bad? I have no idea. I was in my postpartum and I had no idea what to do with my life. I wanted to end my life. I was like what the fuck am I going to do? Can I be a single mom? When Iâve seen my son, all I wanted to do is keep evil EVIL people away from him. My friend Robyn was my best friend, my sister. I loved her as my own sister. Weâve been thru so much like we really grew up together even though she hated me in high school. We used to gas each other up like âdude! Go see him , just be careful! Let me know if youâre okay, dude donât go back to him! Wehhhh! Or you hungry? Dinner on me! Or LETS GO OUT TONIGHT CAUSE YOURE SAD! Dude take a shot! Iâll drive tonight! Dude stop being rezzed out and talk to him or call me, I have some good tea!!! Dude!!!! Guess what? Chicken butt but no really? Guess what? â we had the best times together. We even lived together and it was tough because we had cheap jobs but we had each other to support. I wish we kept our friendship but to this day, I stopped being her friend. Of course our friendship is going to change if one of us had a kid but I didnât think it would end. One day, I went to get a pedicure and eat with her cause my mom told me I can hang out with her. We didnât really talk, it felt awkward and it wasnât the same. I just didnât feel like we were. I told her how depression hit me and I have no idea how to handle it. Robyn is one of those people like âuh idk how you feel and what to sayâ type of person. So when I was going something so dark, she wasnât there for me. I felt sad. I felt like I lost someone who I truly loved as a best friend. She would make up lies so she can party (she can do whatever she wants but to lie?) , we hardly texted, she didnât tell me she moving and she didnât invite me to her house party. I felt so lost and sad because did our friendship really end because I had a son? I wasnât a mom? Tonight I miss the nights we used to text or gossip. I lost someone who was my best friend and now, just a stranger. When I found out she was expecting and she had her baby, I got a little gift bag and sent her a card. Did she ever text back saying thank you? No and I knew she wouldnât either. Good or bad that we stopped being friends. Iâm proud of her and I hope sheâs happy because she truly deserves it.