Silas

. ݁₊🍙⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁ I am a moray eel from Germany. I use she/her pronouns and am transspecies.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

Are you tired of the gatekeeping? Are you tired of having to stand for your identity to be taken seriously? Look no longer! I have a 16+ all inclusive server, plural friendly and non-toxic.

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[sylvan-moray-eel]

I think I might start a new account once I am confident in my identity.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

What’s it like being a dragon? What experiences do you have that lead you to conclude you are one? Have any interesting urges or instincts?

I was questioning a dragon in the past but I am just a moray eel. It's weird but kinda relaxing. I have the urge to hunt for fish and the instincts to just sit and wait for it. My experiences that lead to this conclusion are full of facettes. For a long time, I thought I had limbs. But that was simply human related, as I found out just recently. So the absence of limbs, my memories of being on the ocean floor/the bottom of the reef and seeing sharks cruising through the waters, the instincts, the colors that I believe are rather dark, the feeling of size and the elongated body led me to the moray eel.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

Gatekeeping is still a thing

I was part of a therianthropy server. It was a nice one with plenty of different creatures. Most of them were chill, really chill. I have explored my identity over the past years, as most of you know. And now I finally found out what I am.

However, the name is still not set yet. I am unsure what name I identify with. I am still looking and trying things. So did I with my species. I was trying on animals, seeing what clicks. And that, my dearest creatures, was too much for this server to bear.

They banned me for exploring myself, my identity, my name. They banned me despite saying I got a week to figure out what I want for myself. To figure out myself basically. I didn't get a week, I got banned overnight.

So, my fellas. Gatekeeping is still a thing. And it won't die out. Sometimes, you're not "therian enough" to some and will get banned over this.

I am planning to make my own Discord server which will allow creatures to explore themselves. Which will allow creatures to be themselves. I'll drop a link once it's done.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

And finally, I found out who I am. I am a moray eel, a giant moray eel. 🎉 🌊 🪸

The questioning should go back now. Hopefully, I'll be able to be confident in this identity one day. But for now, I'll take a bath and embrace my moray eel-ness.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

New findings have me put between two species. I am either a mosasaur or a snake. For some there's a huge difference between those two and I agree.

I have to find out, if my body is more stiff or snakey. Since I am a contherian (I am constantly shifted), I don't know which one is human influence and which one is animalistic influence. But I am stuck between Mosasaur and Palaeophis.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

After some more consideration, I believe that the arms and legs I feel stem from my human body. I am a snake after all, some sort of sea snake. Either a yellow bellied sea snake or even a palaeophis, a prehistoric sea snake.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

Long time no see!

I have decided to write down my experiences. I have a notebook for that and write down at least one thing every day. I am either a dinosaur like an acrocanthosaurus or a snake. Most likely, I am prehistoric.

I am not sure yet if I feel small arms or no arms. But more points towards the acro. Especially , since I feel something on my feet. Like a dew claw or something. Why the acro? It's a feeling I had for long time.

So far about my journey for now! Have a nice one!

[sylvan-moray-eel]

I am disgusted by the current influx of gatekeeping. Identity is for everyone, and it's free to access for everyone. It's nothing you need to gatekeep or to claim for yourself.

You cannot tell somebody what their identity is.

You cannot tell what they are not.

You can give support and guidelines.

But you cannot form those around you the way you'd like.

Stop trying to control those around you and start accepting them for who they ARE. If one says they're a wolf and don't have phantom sensations, they are still a wolf. They ARE.

Thank you for reading. Now have a nice day. And stay hydrated.

[talon-dragonbeast]

i believe some things about my dragon kintype may be changing, but im not sure in which way exactly

[talon-dragonbeast]

my appearance remains the same (tho i definitely have interdigital membranes between my fingers, aquatic bird style), so im looking into behavior and habitat changes, inspired by real birds mostly bc im a Nerd.

my hearthome will always be the coniferous forest, but now i believe my dragon species migrates based on the season; near the coast on winter and forest-based from spring to autumn. this is based on the fact that although i love the cold, i dont tolerate extreme temperatures at all (neither hot nor cold), and i dont feel particularly connected to snow and ice, which is what a cold forest would be covered in on winter. thus, it would make sense that my species migrates when it gets too cold for an avian reptile to thrive.

why the coast? ive lived by the sea all my life, so it may have influenced my alterhumanity somewhat... but i believe my swimming adventures a few months ago had a part in all of it. i do feel very at home when im in the water, moving my claws and body to swim is very affirming in a way i couldnt have predicted. especially things like diving, jumping into the sea from high places, scavenging underwater, things that i have done since i was a hatchling just feel so right now.

my diet has changed too. when just a year ago i yearned to dive headfirst into a still-warm deer carcass, i now crave fish more than anything. cooked, raw, processed or fresh, i dont care. the kinds of fish my brain wants are useful for collecting species data too; i mostly crave fatty fish, like salmon and tuna, something i first chalked to a vitamin d deficiency (northern gang rise UP); but now its summer and im getting regular sunlight on my skin, and i still crave salmon like every day, so clearly something fishy (get it? get it? ok ill walk myself out) is going on. also the fact that i had fish tartare for the first time last year and that shit was like a religious experience

as i said, i dont think my appearance has changed mostly or at all, but knowing im slightly aquatic explains a lot about my coloring. im very blue, but i have that gold stripe i first added as an accent which didnt make a whole lot of sense for an animal that needs to camouflage in a forest. i thought at first that it was a sexual selection thing or maybe even sexual dimorphism, but that theory never convinced me hence why i never mentioned it in the blog. but it all makes sense now! im like a fish!! :D

tldr; i thought i was like a bear turns out im like if a bear and a gull had a baby and that baby looked like a weird ass lizard. i love being a dragon

[sylvan-moray-eel]

Very interesting read. I personally am a dragon from cold areas. I am covered in furs and feathers, warmblooded. I look like if a dinosaur, a panther and a raven had a kid. Hehe.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

i'm also questioning kaprosuchus, so have a kaprosuchus.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

And I added wings. They feel good and might explain this feeling I have on my back since I can think.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

I think I got wings. Feathered, black. 🤔

Drawing it right now.

[sylvan-moray-eel]

Found my colors?

I was fine with the blue but it somehow felt too light. So I sat down and worked on it again. This is it so far! Walking closer to answers.

[landsccape]

[fuckyeahchinesegarden]

The underground river boat tour in Zhijin Grand Canyon, Bijie, Guizhou, China

[expressions-of-nature]

Hunt's Mesa, Monument Valley by Bousure