I’m not the kind of person that spills out important personal info, but I really need to tell somebody this:
I’m keeping my sexuality secret from my family since I was 15, It as been almost 5 years; it isn’t so hard, you know, I’m a positive person so even if my resting bitch face says different I’m actually content with my life.
It becomes hard when they start talking about gays etc., saying that they- WE are different, not deserving the same rights, they even dare to say that “now there are TOO MANY gays” like there’s some sort of plague spreading.
They angrily ask me what’s wrong when they see my face growing darker. They know, they just don’t want to admit it, hoping that it’s just a phase. I’m an A+ student, a promising (as they say) artist, I follow the rules, I keep myself healty, why should I be a C- human being all of sudden?
I would love to scream that I’m not as they want me to be, I’m different form their idea of “normal”, in my whole life I’ve felt something like love only towards one person, and it was a girl. My mother refused to speak to me for days because years ago I agreed to meet that girl secretly. She wasn’t the right person for me, but what triggered my mother was the possibility that her perfect daughter wasn’t so perfect.
In my life I’ve never felt like the others, since I was a child I was the strange kid, loving comics and rock music when nobody did, dressing in black, dying my hair electric blue. But even if somethimes it was hard my family accepted me, even encouraging me to go to an art school. Now everyone accepts me for who I really am, except for them. Don’t misunderstand it: I love them and they still love me, nothing is all black or all white.
I don’t want your pity, really. The only reason I’m writing is because I’m still not ready to tell them the truth and I need to stop keeping things for myself, probably I’ll be just fine in a few hours.
If you read all of this just know that I’ll always support you, I don’t care who you are, what you believe in or where are you from, as long as your actions and words don’t hurt other living beings I’ll support you. No-one deserves to feel out of place. Please love yourself.
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