From the sweater AU's cutting room floor - a headcanon on Rei's non-existent relationship history (with a sprinkling of Hagimatsu)
A relationship was just never an option - with the course of his life set early on, he couldn't afford any distractions. And that was what the girls who confessed to him were, quite frankly. They didn't know him, only saw his meticulously crafted good looks and 'exotic appeal', as one of them had the gall to say to his face, as if it was supposed to be a compliment. Suffice it to say, those confessions never went well.
With time, Rei came to realize that maybe it wasn't just their superficiality at fault. When Hagiwara claimed those beauties would be wasted on him anyways, Rei couldn't see where he was coming from. They were just girls, no one of them more or less pretty than the others. His friend just gave him a strange look when he said as much, and instead invited Rei to double dates with guys.
(Matsuda had always joined them, and, looking back on it, Rei's reasonably sure it wasn't just because they were such good friends.)
He didn't find love there, but at least it helped him figure out his tastes. He was only human, after all, and sometimes he, too, needed relief. That was all there was to it; physiological functions that occasionally needed to be taken care of in order to maintain a healthy mind and body.
By the time he started working for the NPA, he became both too busy and too tired to even seek out that much. He had the opportunity to be part of something so much larger, so much more important than himself - petty dreams of home and a family faded into obscurity. The job consumed him whole, and Rei let it; his body became nothing more than a tool to achieve his goals. To finally be able to follow his calling, serve his purpose, was all he ever needed.
(Besides, someone who could see through the protective layers of deceit he'd wrapped around himself was a dangerous liability to have. Case in point: Akai Shuuichi.)
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