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All I wanted was to be enough

#47

It’s so insane to me how you can ask someone to respect your boundaries as a reaction to how they have hurt you in the past and then after giving them a thousand chances to do so they still don’t. And then when you finally get tired of it and say you’re not putting up with it anymore you’re the crazy and ridiculous one. I didn’t hold a gun to your head and force you to try to work it out with me. I was accepting the fact that we weren’t going to work and moving on and then you came back in my life AGAIN and begged to work it out. I made it very clear what I would tolerate in terms of boundaries and respect, and you agreed. I gave you so many chances to make it right because I genuinely love you and wanted to make it work but after a while if you keep on getting disrespected you get tired. That’s not my fault. If you knew you didn’t want to do these things to make me feel more secure you should have never of came back into my life. I didn’t force you to do anything, I said this is what I ask of you and if you want to do it great but if not that’s also fine but I cannot be with you and we need to go our separate ways. If someone asks you not to do something several times and that person continues to do it at some point it’s blatant disrespect. You have clearly shown by your actions that I am not what you want, I’m not enough for you, so please go find someone that is. I hope you find what you truly want some day.

love

by cleanmoonlight

mitten

girlinlondon

domus-aurea2

Textbook narccistic manipulator that weaponzies your self esteem against you when they disrespect you for the thousandth time after you have repeatedly asked them not to. I’m done with letting you make me believe I’m the problem. You will never change, so go give attention to all the same girls you talk shit about for being attention whores. Fuck all the girls you want now, like all the pictures you want, hey maybe even fuck her again, maybe she’s available. I’m done. I hope the fact that you can’t control yourself from lusting after other women was worth costing you someone who really cared about you and was nothing but loyal and respectful to you and your feelings. Have a nice life.

Not being able to go anywhere or do anything is negatively affecting me a lot worse than I thought it would. I haven’t actively thought about sucide like this in a very long time