(they/them or it/its) just a silly mood and my interests! I am multi-fandom and cannot be cannot be confined to just one. You can find me on AO3 under Syncrovoid! Current big fic: The Consequence Of Imagination's Fear and my current Hyperfixations: GLUTTOMY, Persona 5 the royal
Hello, I'm Void (they/them and it/its, occasionally he/him) and I'm an aspiring artist/author/creator, and this is my blog!
I write! You can find me on Ao3 as SyncroVoid!
Current fic(s) in progress. If they are marked in colour, they are active, otherwise they're all under Hiatus T-T:
The Consequence Of Imagination's Fear
Current hyperfixation(s):
(Welcome Home)
Persona 5 Royal <- big but I can't talk about it yet because I haven't finished it yet!
Idk what to do with this blog honestly
Tags of mine:
syncrovoid.txt <- is me!
asks.txt (or ask.txt) <- asks! always feel free to send them! I will respond to the best of my abilities, and judge not your queries
syncrovoid.art <- is art I made! I am learning still
Personal (or a similar variation) for personal ramblings I should probably delete at some point but oh well! Like many here I am cursed with Weird Life Shittm
welcome home analysis <- this is a tag for all my longer Welcome Home Analysis posts! I have oh so many thoughts..
Persona 5 royal thoughts <- I have thoughts but the fandom is old so they are all unoriginal. Woe! I may post about it at some point
the consequence of imagination's fear <- is for stuff related to that fic!
Gluttomy analysis <- for my analyses for Gluttomy! Boy do I have a lot of thoughts..
living a fictional prose au <- an au I may return to
"Short Story" AND "writing" <- tags for any stories I post on tumblr!! Do take a look if you wish!
[tag list will be updated when it needs to be]
Thanks for popping in, you're always welcome to return. Have a lovely evening, and stay tuned for more!
To the person that sent the ask about The Little Prince animated show and all the factors I believe were heavily inspired/taken from for Miraculous Ladybug, thank you!! I will begin working on it at some point, it's been a while since I had that on my mind but I have a huge list of pointers and I've previously tracked down heavy connections between the different companies that worked on the projects that I can dig into!
Genuinely I've been wanting to talk about this for years since I ever first found out about Miraculous Ladybug (I was late to the game). There's far far far too many coincidences for it to be, well, a coincidence
unironically i think we need to bring back computer labs because APPARENTLY some people WERENT taught basic computer literacy and internet safety in school
things about computers/the internet i think kids should be formally taught in schools because theyre important to know and the amount of soon to be grown adults i know who know NOTHING about any of these is quite frankly almost all of them (and resources to learn if you dont know these things, because its never to late to get better with computers)
how to troubleshoot by yourself when you have a technical problem
what common file types are
some very basics on how to use ""developer tools"" on your computer (because i cant think of a better way to refer to them) like task manager and command prompt (and their mac equivalents, terminal and activity monitor ofc)
how to read and understand a privacy policy and what your personal data is, as well as what it being collected actually means and steps you can take to keep it private
how to understand terms of service
(hey. if you have trouble with reading legalese and worry about being able to understand these policies anyways, here's a site that gives basic summaries of privacy policies and ToS)
what a cookie actually is
internet privacy and your digital footprint!! seriously i dont know why we stopped teaching people that they shouldnt be putting their entire real identity online in a world where your online actions can ruin you irl
basic safety measures like antivirus software (and why you should use it or if the built in one on windows or mac is enough for you) and backing up your computer (also a mac guide)
common keyboard shortcuts (and on mac)
as an additional note: things i think everyone should know on computers and the internet but schools may bit hesitant to teach about for whatever moral/legal standards schools pretend to operate on
vpns and adblockers! (btw for most of these where you can pay for things im purposefully not recommending any specific software but seriously just use ublock origin for an adblocker)
how to not get a virus while pirating something
what a temporary email is and when to use one
red flags that you shouldn't trust a website (and how to quickly check the security of a site)
what javascript on a website does and how to disable it to get around paywalls
ok one last addition! if you want to take it one level higher, i think learning the very basics of at least one programming language is good for people. it makes computers less scary and it makes you feel very cool, and a lot of people get discouraged about it because it seems overly complicated and hard to learn outside a formal classroom setting, so heres some resources for learning the very basics of python (because i consider it the easiest language to learn and knowing one language will make it easier to learn others)
an online compiler so you dont need to download anything or worry about running code directly on your computer if that makes you nervous
a basic video guide to introduce you to python and walk you through beginner steps
a guide to some syntax and commands you should know (this was literally my lifeline in my first CS class)
some performance tasks to give you things to code to practice and assess yourself
if kinger gets used as a disposable therapist one more time by the cast im going to scream. i know. i KNOW the show doesnt FRAME it that way but thats still the ROLE HES PLAYING and I DONT LIKE IT.
hi i need everyone to know im normal about these tags *flashbombs everyone in a 130,000 mile radius*
It honestly bothers me so much how the fandom has put him in this position of either comic relief or the all knowing mentor. No! he is ABSOLUTELY also fucked up!
I mean. Goddamn! Isnt it so interesting that hes canonically had MULTIPLE moments of sanity with Ragatha, but always infrequent enough for her to peg him as crazy once again, forget it even happened, enough to be surprised the next time? Isn't it crazy how he apparently tries to look out for her while keeping himself as far out of frame as possible? Do we think she maybe reminds him of himself? DO WE THINK HE DOESNT TELL HER BECAUSE HE KNOWS SHE'LL TRY TO HELP?
IM NORMAL ABOUT THIS!
LISTEN.
Kinger has no hope in himself. 'dont worry about me.' 'i guess i just have a resilient mind.' His whole MESSAGE to pomni is that you just have to keep going; he doenst know how to fix jack shit, only how to endure it.
During that whole conversation with Pomni, what he advises her to do is what we see him doing. Kinger does his best to help and support the others wherever he can, light OR dark. He cherishes them. Cares about them. And when it comes to 'you never know when theyll be gone,' a lot of people take this to mean Queenie specifically, but I think its also more general. Kinger must have seen many people abstract; How many conversations like this has he had? Doesn't it make him feel pointless?
'"but it's not [pointless]. Not so long as you have people who care about you."
but the thing is, KINGER DOESNT have anyone who cares about him. Thats the thing with kingers advice: he follows it himself, but it doesnt apply to him.
He tells pomni to cherish those around her, but when she says "im glad you're here with me," he doesnt respond. When she expresses worry about him, he tells her not to. When Kinger talks about how horrible it is to make someone feel unloved, unwanted, he's clearly not speaking about himself; But it is factually true about himself.
Nobody takes him seriously. Nobody remembers him before he 'cracked.' Nobody KNOWS him, and hes been isolated like that for as long as Ragatha has been in the circus.
Kinger has no loved ones left. He loves, but he is not loved, he cares, and he is not cared for, despite the fact he probably needs it the most-- Kinger takes the role OF the person who cares, e.g, for pomni and the others, but NOT the role of the cared for.
Kinger is HELPFUL. light or dark, that is his NUMBER-ONE GOAL. to be helpful and useful, all of the time. its always played for a gag, but its genuine! it cant not be genuine, under the circumstances!
But the nature of the gag is that kinger always fails. because hes in the light; because hes crazy; because they always abstract in the end. How may times has he had conversations like the one with pomni? ow many times has kinger fucked everything up because he cant keep a thought straight in his skull in the light, cant always BE THERE when it MATTERS?
What does that make him FEEL about his light-self? Not very good!!! I'd argue!!!!!!!!!
kinger ABSOLUTELY has . has OPINIONS. about that. we KNOW he does. 'it was my fault we went down this path, wasnt it?' HE EXPECTS THIS. look at how he reacts whenever pomni mentions how he is in the light, he is ashamed, embarrassed, resigned, regretful, uncomfortable.
THERE IS SELF LOATHING IN HIM. There is regret, and shame, and discomfort, in him. Nobody knows Kinger, and he doesn't see himself as someone worth knowing.
You can know him superficially, sure! If it will help, if he can be a therapist, be a support, be USEFUL. But to probe deeper-- talk about his experiences for his sake, not someone elses-- would be to make him someone with problems of his own. Someone with needs of his own. Someone with dignity. Someone REAL.
Kinger paints his own sanity as something temporary. But it ABSOLUTELY doesn't have to be! We see him being very competent in his conversation with pomni and able to recall memories even from BEFORE THE CIRCUS, and if he remained in the dark, I think hed be fine to talk to the others.
AND HE KNOWS THAT! HE ALREADY HAS APLACE WHERE THAT WOULD BE POSSIBLE! HE SLEEPS IN HIS FORT (DARK) INSTEAD OF HIS ROOM SPECIFICALLY SO HE CAN BE IN THE DARK!!! AND BE!!! SANE!!!!!
AND HE DOESNT TELL ANYONE!
Kinger COULD tell someone, if he wanted. But he DOESN'T. He had the perfect oppurtunity with Ragatha! There are these moments, she says, where youre so different, how do you do that, AND HE COULD TELL HER!!!!!! He could tell her the darkness helps. They could talk for reasons other than misery.
But he doesn't want that. He's SCARED of that. Because if someone tries to help him, as ragatha absolutely would, he'd have to view himself as SOMEONE WHO CAN BE HELPED.
Did someone try to help him in the past and go crazy? Did queenie abstract because of his forgetful ness? Is there some other connection here? ONLY GOOSE KNOWS! But if Ragatha gets to know him while hes whole, if dark-kinger becomes the person she thinks of when she says his name, every day shes going to be confronted with that shell of him, and so would he. AND HE DOESNT WANT THAT.
Hes a grown man, dignity also has a stake in this! He hates how little control he has, so he pretends he has NO control! THIS IS HOW HE COPES! BY DOING HIS BEST TO BE HELPFUL, AND ONLY HELPFUL, AND NEVER LETTING HIS SANITY MEAN ANYTHING ELSE!
he parallels caine in so many ways i might scream, but moving on.
Going back to In his convo with pomni, we see pomni assume hes going to forget their conversation completely-- and he lets her think that, even though it isnt true!
We know it isnt true, since may I remind you this man rattled off a pitch perfect therapist observation of ragatha (who hes been in light mode around for-fucking-ever) and tacks on a 'sounds to me' at the start of the sentance! It is extremely easy to argue Kinger cares about her and was waiting for a chance to talk to her! HE ABSOLUTELY REMEMBERS WHAT HAPPENS IN THE LIGHT!!!
...But when pomni assumes he doesnt, kinger lets her. LOOK AT THIS!
See that expression? he makes it when she says 'crazy.' DIGNITY. REGRET. SHAME. DISCOMFORT. But then! on the next line!
"you're not gonna remember..."
"ANY of this."
im not fucking crazy! his expression visibly relaxes once she expresses the belief hes going to forget their conversation! and the implication here is very much one of finality; that only SHE will ever be capable of remembering this moment. IM NOT CRAZY.
Kinger has two sides. misery and ignorance. Life and death. He is choosing death. He is choosing his own character assassination, because for him, to be human is to be humiliated. He desperately, DEEPLY wants to be 'alive,' to be 'whole,' to be 'functional' and 'capable' and 'complete,' to be 'helpful,' but every moment he is he has to face the fact hes VULNERABLE, that he doesnt have a hold on it, that he isnt okay. Kinger is an impenitrable fortress made of pillows, and he'd rather be laughed at than pitied.
*points* metaphors, huh
And I dont think that undermines him! I think thats human nature; We can assume he hasnt been 'right in the head' since queenie died, so this, all of this, could also be read as a coping mechanism. We avoid whats hurt us, and what hurt him was connection, simple as. He had a wife. She died. He broke. He's been isolated since, partially by his own choosing.
But as I said. Hes vulnerable, and you can see those bits and pieces of him poke through, that yearning for connection. Look at how he joins in with ragatha and gangles antics. How he gushes about queenie. His attempts at humor in his sane moments-- He doesn't have to do that, but he DOES.
This is the part that really gets me fired up. Because he is a whole PERSON under there. One just as real as anyone else.
Kinger was someone real before all this. He had a job and a wife, he went to college, he probably got drunk at least once. He did laundry and taxes! He was real!
And underneath that veneer of clumsy, hesistant connection, past the advice and the therapy talk and the dismissive statements, there is a person who will make bad puns and gush about his wife and try on cat whiskers for the hell of it. Kinger is still real, however much he pretends not to be, and he is so tired, and he is so lonely, and he is so isolated and so desperately clinging to his last vestige of dignity that it is killing me.
Kinger is carried along by the tide. When left to his own devices, he withdraws. He has no agency of his own. And in the dark, whatever needs he may have are irrelevant, because they'll be forgotten the moment someone turns on the light.
I think the others DO care about him in their own way. Jax and Pomni closing the door to fight Kinger in the dark where he's lucid in Ep 6. Either Caine or Jax providing Kinger with a dark space under the desk and telling him about it. Even Caine often adds bugs to the adventures Kinger's on when he doesn't have to. But you're right, I don't think any if them have connected with him on that deep a level because most of them think it's not possible, that he doesn't remember anything ever. He's basically that grandpa friend who everyone thinks is unreachable senile. They care about him, they talk to him, but they don't think it's possible to really hold a sane conversation with him so it's hard for them to see him as a whole person beyond the goofy "Old Man McGucket" veneer.
aye! its really only caine who we've seen take hims eriously/accomadate him, which really adds to their relationship! despite them only actually interacting twice, we see that caine trusts kingers opinion and suggestions (kaufmo abstracting, taking zoobles place in staying behind) which is something the others do not do. their creator/creation backstory is something i really hope the show covers, as they have so many parallels...they are such narrative foils, my beloveds...
as for jax and pomni, i think it was more pomnis decision there, as shes the up-and-coming candiate for a possible exploration or character arc for kinger. her and ragatha anyway. i REALLY hope the show explores this!!!
I dug into trans discourse to develop a better understanding of what's going on out of curiousity and I found a whole network of extremely disturbing (on multiple level) blogs which I will not go into detail about, but holy fuck it is wretched. Despicable. Horrendous. On multiple levels I am viscerally disgusted and disturbed, and I'm going to delete this but yeah.
I'm not going to be on tumblr for a while holy fuck. I feel incredibly bad for people dealing with this specific issue and the huge lack of anything stopping it.. I hate it.
Accidentally stumbled upon a really interesting recently published theory of consciousness as it was coincidentally blazed to me (while I tracked down where it came from due to the... large amount of ai ads and blaze posts) and it's a multi parter AND has a whole website connected to a really fascinating and important researcher and psychologist in the field that's connected to multiple free published works! It is very cool, I need to go through both parts of the theory.
Maybe do an annotated look through? It's a very interesting concept from the first few sections I read and hits it off with a strong note of acknowledging the interest flaw of the study of consciousness which comes in the form of the mind studying itself, thereby true objectivity cannot be established. Neat!
I need to read through before I can fully recommend, but its rabbitholes like this that reveal a very human and earnest part of the internet that's easy to lose sight of
as a denizen of this busted ass website for half my life now i do know how staff works and i’m going to lay out what they think will happen as someone who has witnessed this exact thing play out
People get very mad for a few days and then roll over and accept the change to the enclosure. This is what they are betting on. They have had meetings about this.
Getting around it: set an alarm. Get mad not just now, but in a few days, a week, two weeks. They are expecting people to sigh and get over this very odd edit to the site in a few days. Keep flooding them for more than just tonight. Be mad for the week, for the month. Leave a message every day.
like . I cant even blame them for being like “we’ll monitor for the week”. Remember when they changed the blue back in like 2015? This website acted like staff had gone into their house and shot their dog. We’re here because we’re allergic to change and therefore it’s hard to parse if people hate the change because it’s bad or because we go into thermonuclear meltdown over what color blue the background of the website is. Just continue to bug them beyond today and beyond this week.
i just feel like nobody actually gives a shit about orphans. in stories we’re always either the villains or the heroes and it’s just there to give them a tragic backstory and make them sympathetic. in real life we’re treated like poor little innocent babies who should be pitied or used as a talking point or joked about or just straight up forgotten. like can we have an orphan character who just exists and isn’t uwu so sad and tragic on account of having no parents
This has gone beyond "I cannot explain this to my spouse" and is firmly in "Archaeologists of the future will decide this is the point at which a group of people diverged from mainstream humanity and developed a new, indecipherable form of communication."
Gotta watch the full death note L fan edited series, they just absolutely nuke all of light's pov and internal monologues to see what the series is like from L's perspective (and postmortem influence).
Fascinating concept, these fan creations is what modern fandom is missing. People gotta be more creative and free
sorry i cant hang out tomorrow im celebrating the death of a 2123 year old roman politician with a bunch of psychos on tumblr. yeah its gonna be all day
Mentioned the ides of march to my one and only irl person I talk to and they said that it was "concerning" people are celebrating it and they should "focus on happier things"
Anyways I ventured forth to get ingredients for a very stabbable caesar salad >:D
