The System that Never Was @systemthatneverwas - Tumblr Blog

You seek answers. You feel nothing. Nothing is real. I can give you purspose.

Xion here! Welcome to the System that Never Was! We're a group of fictives (not a subsystem) that are sourced from Kingdom Hearts. The main system blog for our system is @rainbowkuriboh.

Body info: 29, collectively go by Shadesong, collectively use he/they pronouns.

You can call us Shadesong, or by the name of whoever is fronting!

Who's currently fronting?

Please keep syscourse away from us!

Doubles and sourcemates encouraged to interact!

List of us under the cut!

#sysblr #pinned post

Ah, I don't really front much these days, but I'm not dormant! I'm around!

We had a dream that new kh content was announced, and that brought me into front...haha. Wish that part was real, the new kh content I mean.

Been pretty achey and exhausted, work's kicking our ass in more ways than one right now... but I'm excited to be here on a day off

-Roxas

#mod roxas #actually plural

winged-void

If you don't wish to play with me, all toys will be destroyed.

tenebrouscircuits-deactivated20

@kuriboo this is some kind of mood - Yami ? (not sure which one)

systemthatneverwas

oh it is DEFINITELY a mood :D

#ah fuck this reblogged to the wrong blog...........................................................oh well

ah, it's been a while... our system has been engaging in kingdom hearts content again, and i think that's led to us kh guys being closer to front again lately :)

today was uh. really hard. for reasons we can't really get into. it definitely put us in pain. but. despite it all i wanted to chat with friends and give us a bit friendlier of a tone than serena was managing (serena was there to protect us which i'm endlessly grateful for, but even they were feeling kinda bad about their tone) and i've just. missed fronting. so here i am!

this month is full of appointments, so it's gonna be a bit stressful, but, we're gonna make it through!

we have an eye doctor appointment tomorrow, but the real kicker is next week... got a consultation for wisdom teeth removal on monday, and on wednesday, we start botox treatments to help with our migraines (and it might also help with our chronic pain, just bc of the location!)

we've never had surgery before and we hate needles, so on the one hand this is scary.

but on the other hand, not having the mouth pain from wisdom teeth anymore would be nice, and if the botox works we might actually feel like. more alive again, which would be a miracle. our migraines are triggered so easily, our chronic pain has been worse with constant weather changes this past month or two... and it's exhausting being in so much pain all the time. we're constantly like. just coasting by and frustrated we don't feel well enough to do more...frustrated by the limitations the pain puts on us... even when we try to break past them. so like, not trying to get our hopes up TOO much on the botox when it might not work, but, really hoping it does because it has the potential to make a huge difference.

(and, if we're feeling better, maybe we'll feel well enough to post on our blogs more, because we're just so constantly exhausted all the time that we literally don't know what to say, have nothing to say, too exhausted to say anything, etc.)

ah, i'm getting tired and don't know what else to say... hopefully i get to be back again soon!

#mod xion

Sora here! For a guy that used to be host, I sure don't front all that often these days.

Felt kinda sick in the latter part of the day but, other than that, it was nice! Doing work, socializing, getting to think and analyze on subjects we enjoy.

It's...kinda the month anniversary of us losing our cat? Nine months to be exact? And uh, I realized that and I miss him a lot.

I dunno, thinking about how things are here... Kairi's not here, and the Riku that is here insists he's not the Riku I knew... Got Namine, Riku, Roxas, and Xion (and Vanitas, but he identifies more with a different source), but like. Kinda sucks that other sources in this system have more guys and there's only a few of us and most of us are like, the originally found crew upon syscovery. I was the host at syscovery. I think we should have more of us from my source, but, that's also kinda taboo to wish for i think? or at least to some people? ugh.

It was just nice to, be, today.

#kh fictive #mod sora

I got to front again recently. I don't get the chance often these days.

Around a week ago or so. Even now, it feels so far away.

i wanted to type up something big and cool about it. but time's gotten away from us and we've been exhausted and dealing with a lot of pain and i just. don't remember anymore. i don't remember what i wanted to say.

i guess what i'll say instead is

i'm still here

i'm still around

and i'm not going anywhere

#mod roxas #kh fictive